Diamond Tiara and I, apparently, were a 'thing' before we were a thing. And I've just been struck by its brilliance. All this time, the name calling, the pushing, the way she made fun of my glasses; despite hanging out with one who had proportionately bigger and impractically larger frames than my own; was all a way to get to me.
It was all starting to make sense now. Diamond Tiara was attracted to me. This was going to take some time to digest.
Di, the 'pet' name for Diamond Tiara, was so appropriate in many ways. I had once borrowed one of Sweetie Belle's stories; apparently she had quite the infatuation with pairing our classmates with one another; she had crafted names for many of them she found to be 'cute' together, though biologically speaking many didn't make sense. Such as these two characters known only as Dapper Loom and Platinum Spork. I figured it was best not to question what makes my friend happy. Thinking it best to ask somepony with as much knowledge in love, I went to Sweetie Belle in hopes she could help me make sense of Diamond Tiara.
What happened next was a bit unexpected, though, it should of been obvious looking back on it now.
Once I had told Sweetie Belle about my recent discoveries, however, she took me to her place to share these stories with me. She had, to my own surprise, already written a story about me and "Di" called "Di-Nyxed", something she called one of her "OTP" next to something called Sparity, but she cut me off before I could inquire upon the origins of the 'One True Pairing', which seems misleading if one can have more than one. But for whatever odd reason, reading out the 'OTP' name she had crafted for me and Di had caused a shiver to crawl up my spine, with a feeling of deja vu.
Sweetie Belle's story about us was rather different than that one about the two colts, Heavyweight and Quake, she had me read to see how well she captured this new pair she had crafted. It was an odd story. Odd even for Sweetie Belle, I'd say.
But this story? Diamond Tiara was, as far as I could surmise, being very mean to me in this story. She had managed to become an Alicorn Princess after drinking the 'thick sweet red saccharine nectar' of the 'immaculate Sun Deity' and had managed to easily overpower me in my 'Ebon Sage release form'. My very magic sealed within me by her red pulsing magical tendrils that bound me to her will, tying me in place.
I questioned Sweetie Belle as to why she insisted on showing me this_ this story and much less why she'd write a story of this nature in the first place. I was going to inquire further but was cut off. Sweetie Belle began to explain to me something I had only theorized, and more of why I seeked her sage advice on the matter, that there are many forms in which ponies express their love to one another.
As it turned out, I finally understood the gravity of what the story before me contained. It was showing exactly what I pieced together earlier in the day. It seems as though "DiNyx" might have some potential after all. I had to be sure, though. I had to seek advice from the smartest pony I knew.
None other than Mommy Twilight Sparkle. Surely someone as pretty, perfect, and smart like mommy would have all the answers I'd need!
So, it was finally time to start DiNyx'ing this confusing state of affairs. I had excused myself from Sweetie's company, thanking her for her sagely advice, giving her my assurance that I would return to finish the 'good parts' I'd be missing out on, for leaving so soon.
Arriving home, I find Mommy and asked her if she'd ever been treated bad by ponies who liked her.
The way Mommy explained it, she was quite popular with the colts, especially even the fillies in class as she, too, had questioned her mommy about the same thing. Grandma Velvet was very wise, Mommy says her mommy told her that ponies who pick on you, over and over, like you but are too afraid of their own feelings to admit. Especially when they make you feel sad. They just can't express their feelings the way they want to, it always came out wrong. It's really sad, said Mommy. But knowing she was so loved by so many in class, it really made her feel a lot better, she felt so special.
Grandma always knew best, though, I tried to question Mommy on how she knew it was true and she told me, "It was in a book my Mom read to me. So it had to be true. Books never lie!" and Mommy was always right.
Books never lie.
Which is why I decided to do my OWN research to cross-reference what I thought I knew about Diamond Tiara, and what my Mom knew about being popular. Mommy hated being popular, though, she always preferred her books. Books were just easier to understand. And though I wasn't as popular as Mommy was in school, I did have one pony who liked me, really really liked me, apparently.
Reading a few books on Neighmon Frolics on the psychology of "Love, and How to Tell If Somepony Is In Love With You", I was able to confirm what Grandma told Mommy was true. Diamond Tiara bullied me because she liked me.
But if Diamond Tiara bullied me as much as she did, does that mean that Diamond Tiara was IN LOVE with Me? Despite being biologically incompatible_ unless she found some of that 'Sun Deity nectar'_ all things seem to point to her really, really being in LOVE, with ME? The very thought of it again made me feel sick in my tummy. And Diamond Tiara always made Me feel sick in my tummy.
And there it was. The truth I was looking for. I was finally able to make sense of it all. These woozy feeling I'd get in my tummy, the upchucking of high velocity digestives, it all came from the 'butterflies' that somehow made their way into the tummy of ponies who had fallen in love with somepony else. It was right here, in plain Equus. I, Nyx, by definition, was madly in love with Diamond Tiara, this whole time, on a subconscious level.
Oh. My. ME!_ I'm in love with, Diamond Tiara!
There it was. The book never lies. Mommy was right, I AM in love with Diamond Tiara, and Diamond Tiara was in love with me, this whole time? Twilight is my mommy and she is never wrong. Usually. Not that often, really. Okay, but, I know it must be true; it was in a book like this that told Twilight's mommy, who read to Mommy, a book no doubt like this one here. Twilight said that her mommy had told her that all the time she was being picked on in class, was actually because all the foals were just in love with Twilight.
Books never lie.
Mommy was so very popular. So, even if I wasn't as popular as Twilight was, I still had somepony who clearly liked me. A lot. I knew this because of the sick feeling I used to get in my tummy every time Di singled me out, using what was the secret code words she'd use each day to show off what was her way of showing her undying devotion for me. And Diamond Tiara always made me sick in my tummy. Why else would such a filly be so obsessed with my once bare Flanks?
I could feel my cheeks heat up at the thought of Di staring at my flanks.
I was shocked. The books never lie. All that time I was confusing 'hate', which mommy said is a bad thing for ponies to carry in our hearts anyways, was actually LOVE that I was feeling the whole time!
This filled me with a startling realization.
I really loved Diamond Tiara!
Even if Di made me feel sad, apparently that sadness is what made Diamond love me back, too. The more I looked sad, the more Di would want to get closer to be with me.
The two of us were meant for each other, there was just no questions about it! Especially now that I learned Diamond was in love with me all that time, and just didn't know how to tell me. I feel so ashamed so ashamed I'd never noticed the signs sooner.
I was unable to contain myself. I just had to do something to show Diamond Tiara just how sorry I was that I never caught on soon enough to return her affection!
I was so confused. But so excited. I was so, confexcited!
It was settled, I had made my decision. From this point on, I, Nyx, Guardian of ALL Equestria, vowed to make it all up to my one true partner in life, Diamond Tiara, to make her the happiest pony in all the world!
As Me as my witness, I shall never leave Diamond's side, EVER, again!
And from that point on I was true to my word. I learned many things about Diamond Tiara. I was surprised to learn how far she could throw a pony at her size. It was also that I'd learn that, Diamond Tiara, was actually a very nice pony once you got to know her, on a more personal level. She even made the cutest yelps when she'd open the cabinets and see me smiling down on her.
Amazingly, Di didn't drool during the times I watched her sleep, Apple Bloom had once mentioned her glasses wearing friend had once made a rather large puddle on the floor during class. I'm glad to see my Di doesn't have that problem. Though, I question the small Diamond Tiara doll she sleeps with at night.
I keep Di safe, at all hours of the Day and Night. It's my talent after all; protecting those I love. But leave it to Di, her generosity and compassion towards my well being, and stalwart, ever watchful eye on her, was met with an official form to cease my actions, stating I, Nyx, should leave my Di alone for an indefinite amount of time, and giving a maximum range as to how far I can be before she can begin to miss me.
Di was clearly worried I was neglecting my Mommy and friends. Silly pony. Di worried so much for me that she even tried breaking up with me. Telling me she didn't love me. Silly Di, we're an OTP!
Books never lie.
Di never lies, either. But, Di wasn't a book. So, I knew this time she was. She loves me so much. I just can't help but love her more back!
I was never far from Diamond Tiara. I showed up everywhere Di went. We'd even play hide and seek; she loved that game a lot. It made me sad, though, because she was SO good at it!
But I always find her. I am hers, after all. So naturally, I followed her.
EVERYWHERE.
Author's Note
EVERYWHERE
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"But, Momma. She was really mean this time!"
"I know, sweetie. But it's not healthy to hold those kinds of feelings inside like that."
"But, i-it's not fair!" she cried, burying her face into Twilight's chest.
"Hate is just not a good thing to store in one's heart, it only makes you grow bitter and cold. Hate spreads, and though small at first, it can fester and latch onto other ponies' hearts. It's like, sharing a cold with one of your little friends, you wouldn't want to spread your cold to your CMC pals now, would you?"
"No. But Diamond Tiara, though... can I get her sick next time?
"No." Twilight deadpanned.
"But, she always picks on me. She hates me. She won't stop calling me Nightmare Moon, either. She says I'm evil. I hate her!"
"That may be so. But in order to break this cycle of hate, Nyx, somepony has to have the strength of heart to know when to let go of that hate. Even if she did hate you—which there's no doubt she certainly knows how to hold a grudge at least—by allowing hateful feelings into your heart, that only makes her hate grow stronger, which will only continue to rob her of her smile."
Twilight embraced her daughter, nuzzling into her mane.
"Nyx. Don't ever let hate steal your smile away."
"You mean, Diamond Tiara wants to steal my smile away?" Nyx backed off from her mother's embrace, unnerved by Twilight's words. Can Diamond Tiara steal smiles?
"-What? No. I mean, yes. Wait, I mean No! Look, sweetie, what I mean is... Hate is a powerful emotion. The word alone can make a normal pony's hairs stand on end. One should never hate. Especially not another pony. All it does is steal a pony's smile."
"Hate...can steal my smile away?"
"Mhm," Twilight nodded, brushing aside a lock of Nyx's matted mane from her tear stained cheeks.
"B-But I like smiling! I don't want to lose my smile! MOMMA, HELP ME!"
"Oh, now. Relax. you're far too good a filly to let that happen. Just know that you can't please everypony, Nyx. But maybe, in time, who knows. Even the worst of enemies can become one of your closest friends someday."
"Yeah right..."
"I'm always right," Twilight retorted.
Nyx spoke no words. None verbally at least. Giving nothing back but a look that seems as if she was trying to recount something.
"Okay, well, most of the time. But I'm right about this! Because MY Mom read it to me in a book once. And, books_ BOOKS NEVER LIE!" Twilight pronounced, striking a dramatic pose.
Nyx chuckled despite herself. She tried to hold it in, but there was no holding the giggles at bay. Giggles that quickly turned into fits of laughter.
"Now THAT'S my girl! Don't you ever lose that smile again." Twilight stood up from the library floor, and leaned in conspiratorially to whisper into her daughter's ear.
"Have I ever told you the story of how Discord and I, became friends?"
"No. Who is Discord?"
"Well, looks like I know what bedtime story I'll be telling tonight then, huh?"
"Was Discord as mean as Diamond Tiara?"
"Was he mean? HA! He was meaner!"
Nyx gasped astonishingly loud at this. Twilight could barely contain a giggle as she watched her daughter stare at her as if she told her she had gotten an A minus on her report card.
"Now I know you're joking. Nopony is meaner than Diamond Tiara!"
"Discord is no pony. He's a draconequus, actually."
"So, Diamond Tiara is the meanest pony in Equestria then?"
Twilight simply rolled her eyes. "Come on, lets go upstairs and get those teeth of yours brushed up. And, if you promise me you'll at least try and smile more, I might just show you Discord's friendship entry in our journal."
Nyx gasped, much to Twilight's amusement as she had to levitate her stiff-as-a-board daughter up the stairs while wondering if all these mental shocks to her system would have any lasting side effects on Nyx's mental health.
~End~
Author's Note
Basically, this is the prelude to madness. Or, at least a filly who really loves her mom, trying to better herself by overcoming some of the toughest trials in life by overcoming a very powerful emotion that a lot of us face at some point in our lives, something all too easy to embrace and almost impossible to let go once it takes root: Hate.
But with the help of one Twilight Sparkle, Nyx might just find a way to let it all go. Will it last, though? Even I don't know for sure.
Originally, I was going to continue to write this to include Nyx confronting Diamond Tiara. But I'm going to end this chapter here, short I know. But, despite it all, the other half just detracted from the overall mood. Much like this addition does, I needed something that could somehow tie into some of the key moments of the events that happened in OTP that could show a more rational explanation and backdrop as to why Nyx would act the way she did in the main story. To show a less than 'enlightened' Nyx from the first chapter.
Nyx doesn't have it easy in this story, something I'm sure many of you picked up on from the first chapter. This one goes more into the SL portion, showing what life was like before Nyx had her 'epiphany'. Thanks Twilight.
The 1/2 is actually "Half" since it's half of what I was originally going to post. Not a "1 of 2", sorry.
