Fractured Friendship

by chris the cynic

Rating: teen
Tags: Sunset Shimmer, Main 7 (EqG), Slice of Life, Drama, Rainbow Dash, Cutie Mark Crusaders, Fluttershy, Equestria Girls
Length: 2616

After Sunset convinces them she's innocent, Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash become the pariahs of CHS alongside her, and Anon-a-Miss keeps posting into the new year.

Sunset had hoped that showing the Rainbooms what she'd written about them would remind them of the good times they'd had and the kind of person she'd become. That if she could just get them to listen they'd realize she would never betray them.

She was partially right. Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash believed her, but --with no likely suspects-- Applejack, Rarity, and Pinkie Pie were unmoved.

The Rainbooms split. Sunset's group become targets for the students of CHS to vent their frustrations on. And Anon-a-Miss keeps posting.

Yeah, another Anon-a-Miss story. It comes from a lot of things. A lot of it is just trying to answer some, but not all, of the questions posed by Dainn when he wrote his seminal work:

But what if things happened differently?
What if Sunset never figured out who Anon-a-Miss really was?
What if her friends refused to listen after her little chat with Twilight?

What if Sunset's friends did listen but Sunset didn't figure out (and the CMC didn't confess)?

The conversation in the comic is open to interpretation, but it looks to me like Sunset was able to convince Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash of her innocence but failed to convince the other three.

And what happens then? What happens when the guilt of Sunset Shimmer is a split decision? What if things don't die down or escalate but instead drag on into the new year without a clear end in sight? What does Scootaloo do when Rainbow Dash is the one being bullied in the halls?

So many stories put their major point of divergence at the exact same place: Things might differ before that point, but they don't go off the comic's rails until Sunset goes to Sugarcube Corner / The Sweet Shoppe in a last attempt to get the girls to listen to her, and it utterly fails.

This pushes things back just a page and a half, but that little bit of difference will make everything change.

(Main Seven tag is because I can't tag six characters. There is no plan to include Sci-Twi at this time)

Published 2018-12-18 04:40:01 UTC
Last updated 2018-12-18 04:40:01 UTC

Schism

Sunset walked through the snow and repeated Twilight's final sentence in her mind again and again.

Sometimes all you can do is stay strong . . .

Sunset was the most hated girl in CHS. Again. The difference was: this time she didn't have the five most popular girls in school looking out for her.

She couldn't take a step without being reminded that she wasn't wanted in this world. Every time she took to the halls she was "accidentally" bumped so many times the collisions all bled together into one big aching throbbing pain. What was being said hurt more.

She'd been left sobbing on the floor of the school twice.

She was still here.

That was staying strong, wasn't it?

. . . be yourself . . .

With everyone already hating her and claiming she'd gone back to her old ways, it would be so easy to actually do it. No one would dare treat her this way if she really did become the old Sunset Shimmer.

She could blackmail, bribe, and cajole her way to the top. She could tear down anyone who so much as looked at her the wrong way. She could make everyone back the fuck off and never be bumped or shoved or tripped again. She could make other students so afraid they'd lock themselves in lockers instead of facing her.

She could end all of this.

All she'd have to do was become someone else. Someone she didn't like. Someone she never wanted to be again.

And that she would not do.

. . . and find your family.

Sunset had been alone her entire life. She couldn't remember her parents, and her other relatives had only ever acknowledged her because the Princess expected them to. When Celestia had found Sunset living on the street --begging and stealing her way from day to day; never getting quite enough to keep hunger a bay for long-- she assumed that Sunset's relatives didn't know what had become of her.

Celestia thought that once they were informed they'd naturally shower Sunset in the love and affection she'd been denied. Sunset had never told Celestia the truth because she'd been afraid of disappointing her. She had thought that judgement that applied to her family must also apply to her. If they didn't measure up to Celestia's standards, then neither did she.

If there were one thing Sunset could change about her past it wouldn't be running away to another world, it wouldn't be stealing an Element of Harmony in an act Sunset was reasonably sure was treason, it would be the fact that she never told Celestia the truth: Sunset's surviving blood relatives weren't her family; Celestia was.

She knew that now. She'd finally learned a lesson that Celestia never set out to teach: family wasn't the people who were stuck with you, it was the people who accepted you and made you feel at home.

That's why she was heading to the cafe.

Twilight knew Sunset didn't have any blood relatives she'd ever want to see again --it was one of the things they'd talked about through the journal-- but Twilight also knew that Sunset did have people who mattered to her. Leaving it open ended was to remind Sunset that it was up to her who those people were.

Sunset could have found family by walking through the portal and finding Twilight. Maybe she would at some point. But the thing about family was: even when they screwed up, they were still worth fighting for.

⁂

All of the girls were looking mopey when she came in.

Then they saw her at the door and they were angry.

Rainbow Dash said, "Hey, get out!" while Applejack went with "Yer not welcome here, Sunset!"

It took some fast talking, but she managed to convince them to at least read the journal. She knew that logically it shouldn't make a difference, but she wasn't appealing to their logic.

Sure, if they thought she was lying then they didn't have any reason to believe what she'd written the journal would be any more true than what she said, but that was entirely beside the point.

She hoped that by sharing what she had been feeling, as it had been happening, she'd remind the how they had felt about her. Also, the fact that this was a way to communicate without talking was important. You didn't get in a shouting match with a book. You either read it or you didn't.

Yes, one could shout about what they read, but they weren't shouting over the words, and the book didn't have to ignore the shouting or shout back. The words that had yet to be read were already in it.

It was a huge gamble, but if the girls felt about Sunset the way she felt about them, then all she had to do was bring that to the forefront, make that the thing at the front of their minds instead of the anger, and they'd give her the benefit of the doubt.

⁂

Fluttershy had been the one to accept the journal, so she was the one holding it. The others tried to crowd around and read on their own, but it was awkward and distracting, so finally she decided to read a page out loud. Based on the timing of the previous entry, it was probably going to be about the sleepover at Rarity's house, which was right before everything went so wrong.

"Dear Twilight," she read, "I'm at my second slumber party with the girls --I hope you don't mind me not counting the ones when you were here, I didn't feel like I was really part of those-- and I feel so much closer to them."

Fluttershy felt a pang of guilt at Sunset's aside. Sunset had supported the Rainbooms every step of the way and basically been their personal cheerleader, while they'd done little more than tolerate her existence back then.

But she also felt anger. They had been right to be hesitant, it told her. When they let her into their hearts she turned on them the moment she could lash out at them.

Ignoring both feelings, Fluttershy kept reading the journal entry, "I haven't felt so loved in," Fluttershy had to skip over some words that had been written then scribbled out, and the result wasn't really a complete sentence. She said, "ever," but had paused so long with the scribbles and the grammar that the 'ever' felt all alone.

So she tried again:

"I haven't felt so loved in . . . ever."

It still didn't sound particularly good, but it sounded better than before.

Apparently the difficulty she'd had reading it had stopped her from thinking about it, because once she was done it hit her:

Two sleepovers was all it took for Sunset to feel more loved than she ever had before. That was it. That was heartbreaking.

The sleepover at Rarity's had been a lot of fun, sure, but it wasn't all that remarkable. If people weren't laughing at her for what she did during it, with the silly dress up and the terrible singing, she probably wouldn't remember much about it. If that was the most loved Sunset had ever felt, then the rest of her life must have been . . .

Fluttershy moved to the next line:

"I feel like I finally have a family again."

And two days later they left her-- they left her crying on floor.

That hurt. That hurt so much. Fluttershy wasn't thinking about whether to believe Sunset anymore. She was just angry with herself and the others. How could they? How could they have done that? And the things she'd said to Sunset . . .

"Without all of you giving me love and support I'd be-- well, you know what I'd be."

And they'd taken that love and support away from her.

Fluttershy had reached her emotional limit. She read the rest mechanically:

"Anyway, I have to get to sleep, but I wanted to let you know how I feel. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be here. You didn't just save me (and stop me); you're the one who encouraged the girls and me to become friends. I love you all so much, and if it weren't for you, Twilight, I'd never have gotten to know any of you well enough for that.

"Your friend, Sunset Shimmer."

⁂

Rainbow was angry enough to punch someone, but the person she was angry with was herself.

How could she have been so stupid. If the pictures had come from Fluttershy's phone, or Applejack's phone, she wouldn't have believed it. She had learned that lesson already.

How long had she spent too angry to even try talking to Applejack about something that had come from Applejack's phone.

She was so very pissed off at having made the Exact Same Mistake twice. Never again.

Fluttershy asked the natural question:

"If . . . if you're not Anon-a-Miss, who is?"

Sunset didn't have an answer. She held her head in her hands and looked at the table as she said, "That's what I've been trying to figure out."

Whoever it was would pay. Maybe it wasn't fair to want to punish someone else when she was mostly angry with herself, but she didn't care. They'd pay.

"AJ," Sunset said, "who knew your nickname?"

"Only you all and my family," Applejack said, "but I know they wouldn't do that and I trust you five--" Applejack stopped short; Rainbow didn't notice.

While Applejack said something else, Rainbow tried to think of how someone could have found out and didn't manage to come up with any answers. She offered, "Maybe someone overheard it," but she wasn't convinced. She had to be-- wait.

She finally processed that last thing Applejack had said. Applejack had corrected herself:

'I trust you five-- --you four.'

That hit Rainbow like a body check. How could she not see they'd been wrong?

Sunset moved on to the pictures, and things went downhill further.

"I had my phone with me from the end of the slumber party until well after they were posted," Sunset said.

"And we were the only people at the party!" Rarity said. She wasn't trying to be helpful.

⁂

Diamond Tiara watched with interest as the scene unfolded. Not the Rainbooms, that was a side show. (Who cared if Rainbow Dash were defending Sunset Shimmer now?) No. The show was the Canterlot Movie Club.

As Rainbow Dash and Applejack yelled in each other's faces, the developments between Scootaloo and Apple Bloom were too precious to miss. Of course she was recording it for posterity too.

She wasn't recording it to send to Anon-a-Miss, there was nothing to expose here, she just wanted to be able to relive this in the future. Cell phone video was no substitute for the real thing, though, and so while it was going on she opened up her senses and drank in every detail.

⁂

Sunset was being meek again, like she had between the Fall Formal and the Battle of the Bands. It wasn't right. It wasn't the real Sunset Shimmer. That just made Rainbow Dash more angry with three of her best friends.

Applejack was stubbornly insisting that Sunset was obviously to blame and Rainbow was being stupid for believing her. Rarity was arguing for Sunset's guilt with dramatic flare. Pinkie didn't say a single word.

Fluttershy was being timid, which was to be expected, but she was on the right side.

Rainbow gave it one last try:

"It doesn't mean anything that it came from her phone; this is just like the texts!"

"Yeah," Applejack said, "it is. Because she's splitting us up again and yer falling' for it again! The difference is: Ah Ain't!"

"This is going nowhere," Rainbow said. Applejack had a response, but Rainbow didn't bother to listen. She said to Sunset and Fluttershy, "Let's get out of here."

The other two got up, and Rainbow turned to leave.

Then Pinkie said her name. It was the first time she'd spoken since Sunset came in. Rainbow didn't bother to turn around.

"We all made a mistake, Pinks," she said. "I'm done with that."

Then she left with Sunset and Fluttershy.

Author's Note

[added]
I have some notes on how this related to the source material, and where it comes from, and such.

Rainbow and Applejack yelling at Sunset and Applejack's revision from "you five" to "you four" are straight from the original comic (the Equestria Girls Holiday Special.)

The five to four switch, which I think is the harshest thing in the chapter, is why this story exists. At the same time Applejack is saying that, Rainbow is looking for explanations of the form "Not Sunset's Fault."

My reading of that part of the comic is thus: Rainbow is on Sunset's side; Applejack is still against her. Fluttershy is probably on Sunset's side; Rarity is probably against her. Pinkie Pie's position is impossible to work out.

That's not the only way to interpret it, of course. This story owes a huge debt to keroko (the author of Home or Hearth?) who disagrees with that interpretation.

That gives a nice segue into giving all due credit to keroko.

Most people, or at least most of the ones who talk about it, think the comic is a story that would have worked better pre-Rainbow Rocks. I myself am such a person. This is so prevalent that, when people are talking about it at all, they tend to focus on what the story lost by being set after Rainbow Rocks to the exclusion of what it gained.

Without karoko it's entirely possible that no one would be talking about the importance of the journal in the conclusion of the story or how everything hinges on the letters that Sunset wrote to Twilight in the journal.

Another thing that tends to get overlooked, which karoko made me really think about, is the fact that Sunset does convince the five to listen to her (at a time when they were trying to shout her out of the building, no less) and does get at least some of them to believe she's innocent.

How many she convinces of her innocence is the point karoko and I disagree on, but that she convinced any of them is huge, as is getting them to listen so she could even attempt to convince them. Without karoko making me think about these things, I wouldn't have given them the thought they deserve. They'd be random bits of trivia instead of things I could build a story on.

[/added]

So, why this, why now?

Today is the fourth anniversary of the Equestria Girls: Holiday Special, which is where the Anon-a-Miss concept comes from.

This idea was pretty much fully formed back in September, and I'd almost certainly been mulling over parts of it before that. I wasn't actually planning on writing it when I had so many other things in need of updates, but a deadline can be a powerful motivator, and I need all the help I can get to write things through my depression.

This was the idea that was in my head, to the point that I wouldn't have been able to write anything else right now, and setting a deadline of publishing the story on the anniversary is what allowed me to get anything written.

(It's also the reason it's not well proofread. If you spot errors, which I'm sure there are plenty of, please message me.)

That's why this. That's why now.