Miss Apple

by Script Nova

Rating: teen
Tags: Dark, Sad, Original Character, Suicide / Self Harm, Slice of Life, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 2069

She thinks about dying, because all dreams have left her.

A young Apple wants to die because of all of her dreams did not come true. She has lost faith to what she has really wanted. An alicorn wishes that same faith too, but he found out you have to understand what went wrong, because death can't be your escape.

Published 2020-05-23 21:50:01 UTC
Last updated 2020-05-23 21:50:01 UTC

Miss Apple

Today was the day. The day Apple was finally going to get to see her. All this time she has waited for so long, all the time she has talked to her, while just hanging out with one another. They were pretty far from each other, Apple was in Ponyville and Melli in the Crystal Empire. They just wrote letters to each other every month, Melli wished it was every week if not every day. That's how much they cared for each other. Apple couldn't send letters so much mostly because of how busy she was. From school to art, and to writing. She always let Melli know that she's always thinking about her, yet along trying to do better for herself. Unfortunately, that wasn't going to last long.

There have been a few times when one didn't send letters to one another, because of being super busy. Mostly because of family, other friends, sadness, depression. These created problems, to where one doubted the other, but Apple try so hard in order to keep it together. Melli on the other didn't. She heard too many things of her sweet little Apple was doing. Yes she has been known to do such thing but at the same time, Apple wanted to forget. She wants her dreams to come true, she wants Melli to be with her always. Melli, like every other sad pony would do, end up not following her heart in order to avoid all the things that tore them apart.

Apple was waiting for her at the train station, waiting for her beloved to arrive. She saw the train, couldn't control herself to finally see her. Everypony got off, but she didn't see Melli get off.

"Maybe she has missed her train? Did she forget today was the day?"

Apple waited for another train to hope she will come.

It's now late at night, and the last train has already come and gone. Still no Melli.

"I guess... It's not today like I was hoping."

Back at Apple's home, she just stood at an empty table. The other side where her beloved should have set. Her mind now went to depression, this depression worsened each time she ends up thinking so much about her and Melli. She tries to keep it together, but her depression gave her negativity, the thought of what if her dream will never come true. The knife next to her was so tempting to use on herself. She has been known to self-harm, just to let the pain stay, to make her feel the life being torn out of her and thinking if she would be a wandering lost soul.

"I don't think you want to do that."

Apple heard the voice behind her, she quickly turned around holding the knife. Whatever it was, it came and gone as it pleased. This thing didn't act like another pony, "Maybe I should go ahead and turn in, and go to the train station again after the mail comes."

Apple ends up tossing and turning wanted to not believe what the dream was showing her. It showed of lies and mistrust while the other just end up walking away not wanting to see them ever again. Apple ends up seeing a shadow figure just standing there in the dream, saying nothing but watched as it all unfolded. Watching Apple with its white eyes. "What are you doing here?! Get out!" Nothing just stood like a statue, "Didn't you hear me?!"

"How could I when you called me here?"

She heard that voice before, it was this thing who spoke to her at the table. Knowing she wanted to kill herself, to let the blade cut through her skin, "Didn't call such creature!" Scars appeared on her arms as if a cat was scratching her.

"Don't try to hide your thoughts. I always see the death you wish for, and I'm telling you to don't."

She didn't understand what he was talking about. Does he know about a future that's about to happen?

Apple woke up quickly, jerking up, and look at her arms. They were normal. Not covered in scratches. That dream, seems so real. She hopes it's not true. In hopes to not lose her Melli.

Apple saw the mail pony came and went to go greet her. She handed Apple a letter, it was from Melli. She was starting to think what the letter would say. Sure enough, the nightmare ends up coming true. Not wanting to read it, but she had to in order to see why she changed her mind.

Apple, this will be the last letter I will ever send to you. Mostly because you never bother to send me something in order to tell me about your day or days. I understand you're very busy, but you need to at least give me a heads up on not able to write, yet along to why. Your letters seem so iffy ones you do write as if you weren't thinking about us and how you read the letters and never bother to write back when something is wrong. Now I understand you don't have a dragon, but you could easily ask Twilight to barrow Spike a few times when I needed you the most. These ones a month is not working for me. We promised to write to each other no matter what. Did you forget? Don't you even love me? I don't think you do, otherwise, you would write a letter while in bed and just send it the next day. For all I know, you could be with another stallion because of how lonely you are. Well guess what? I won't bother you anymore. And if I do even see you at the Crystal Empire, I will walk away from you.
Good Bye and have a good life, Melli.

Apple's heart dropped, "This can't be real, it shouldn't be. Who got in her mind to think about this?" She dropped the letter running to the train station just to go to the Crystal Empire. She didn't care what it said, she wanted to explain herself. She doesn't want to lose her even though it's already set in stone.

She made it the Crystal Empire, seeing how packed it was for that day. All she saw was crystal ponies she couldn't find Melli. And then, Melli walked pasted her with a sad depressed look on her face.

"Melli!" Melli stopped hearing her voice but didn't turn her head in order to look at her. She just went back to walking. "Melli please look at me! I'm here for you! Melli, Melli, Melli... PLEASE!... ANSWER ME! MELLI, MELLI!"

"Didn't you get my letter?! I don't want to see you again!" Looking at Apple seeing those tears in her eyes. Melli just shook her head. "That's not going to keep me around."

"Melli don't do this to me. You're too important for my world."

Melli shed no tears, all she cared about was getting away from Apple, "Well you're not important to mine. All you did was make excuses."

"Sweetie I'm telling you I'm not... I'm here right now... for you."

"I don't want to hear any more of it. I already told you goodbye, now leave before I start calling for help."

That pain in her heart worsens as more tears start to fall down her face. Trying to keep herself together she wanted to scream for this not to be real. The dream she always wanted, was now looking away and now a hole was put into her heart.

On the train, Apple just stood out the window with each tear slowly running down her cheek. Sadness and depression started to settle in again, unable to let her go. Those voices told her it has been her fault, she never bothers trying just to keep what she wanted.

She was now back in Ponyville not caring what she was going to do next. Going back to her house, the letter was still on the ground. She looked at it feeling angry kicking it out of the way stirring up the dirt from underneath, bashing the door with her now in a rage screaming at the top of her lungs destroying everything in her house.

The glass broke causing her to stop while she looked at the broken pieces, holding one shared as she let it cut across her cheek. She didn't stop there, she kept on going letting it drag from the neck down to her stomach. Pushing it inside as she was now starting to bleed out of her mouth. Vision starting to blur while it was now beginning to get dark. Blood runs on the floor almost have her body lay in it. Darkness surrounded her as she was slowly dying.

Apple ends up seeing claws at her face, seeing it was the shadow again. It just stood there watching what she has done to herself.

"We should end up saving her." Another voice came from the shadow.

"We don't interfere with death, she has already lost so much blood."

"Well we should. Since death is a temporary thing."

"Not for us, you were reborn when I was created from you."

"...I want her to live. She's so young and needs to be put in the right direction... Just like me."

The shadow shook his head knowing he was right, "If that's what you want, then I suppose we should." Apple finally closed her eyes taking a last breath.

Opening her eyes slowly after hearing crickets chirping and in front of her was an alicorn. Sitting next to her waiting for her to wake up, "Is this the afterlife?"

"No Miss Apple. You're still in Ponyville."

"How do you know my name?"

"Let's just say I'm a guardian for lost, the hurt, and the weak. I have been watching you for quite some time. How sad you were and how excited you have been in order to be with somepony." Apple stood up lowering down her head. "I was happy for a pony to find their soulmate, but as soon as I saw what was happening I couldn't do anything but watch."

"If you watch then you could have saved what I lost."

"I'm afraid it doesn't work that way. You see, I inter fear when I see death with them. Telling them it's not the way out."

"But... I want to die... I see no point especially when the dream I wanted to end up being torn from me."

"Only temporary." Apple was confused about what he just said, "Dreams don't go away, they just get postponed. We think about death because we don't want to start over. I always want to die because I have been apart of this world for two thousand years, cause death and destruction to ponies and other creatures. But as the years went by, I got reborn, fight my other side, and moved on in order to fix myself to do better." Apple knows what he was talking about while the shadow appeared briefly look straight at her. "Death only makes things worse... Plus I do hate to see a pretty face be in a pool of blood."

"I just have been along for so long."

More tears run down her face as Legend just used his wing to wipe them away, "I am too. You really shouldn't give up because of a bump on the road. They're out there. Somewhere. I promise Miss Apple, you'll be happy again."

He nuzzled her forehead as she pushed forward nuzzling his neck, "Thank you."

She opened her eyes seeing in her own bed, feeling the nuzzle still at her forehead. No matter, she went back to sleep. As she slowly went back to sleep, Legend appear nexted to her bed just to tuck her in. "Sleep well Miss Apple." For here on out, she will try to do better moving forward for the rest of her life and regain her dream.

Author's Note

This story is not much for me to say afterward It came to my mind while a piece of art was made in order to be given to a lovely friend. And I wanted to show them how much I care and to make them feel better with what they have gone through.