Violated

I jerked.  I’m so tired of these rude awakenings, I thought sadly.  I slowly stood up, my legs very wobbly underneath me.  I swayed a bit, and suddenly my right leg gave out.  Oh, Tartarus! I cursed within my mind, slowly falling towards the dirty floor of the cavern.

I stopped mid-fall, and was gently levitated to a sitting position.  I blinked to clear my head - even that simple spell had made me insanely dizzy.  My body swayed as I tried to get my bearings.  “Who...who did that?” I groggily asked.

A shape came into view.  I couldn’t focus on it, but it was large and black, and it had glowing eyes.... “Sombra?” I asked, still swaying and fighting for balance.

He looked down to the ground, saying nothing.

I shook my head in a desperate attempt to clear it, and I was quickly amazed at how the shaking actually worked.  I saw Sombra, who was sitting across from me on the other side of the cavern.  I frowned.  “Why not come closer so I can talk to you without yelling?” I called out, tilting my head in confusion.  What’s up with him?  He’s not usually so...distant.

Sombra visibly cringed.  “I....I don’t trusssssssssssssst mysssssssssssssself around you anymore.  I’m....I’m here to ssssssssssssssay goodbye.”

My lower jaw hit the floor. “Huh?”

“I...I hurt you.  I promisssssssed myssssssself that I’d never hurt anypony again, and what happensssss?  I go and hurt the pony I care mosssssst about.  But you won’t have to be in pain anymore, sssssince I won’t be around.”

“Are you really that stupid?” I blurted out.

His head jerked up, and I saw tears forming in his eyes.  “What do you mean?”

I stood up, my dizziness finally gone.  With every word I spoke, I took a step towards him.  “Sombra, you’re my only friend.  If you leave...I won’t have anypony.”  My voice dropped to a whisper as tears formed in my eyes.  “I’ll be all alone.”

Sombra looked away from me, but I could still see the blush slowly creeping up into his cheeks.  “I....I...”  He sighed in a frustrated manner.  “Bright Flame...I l-l-lo...”

I tilted my head, a questioning look on my face as I sat directly in front of him.  “What’s wrong, Sombra?”

“I jusssssst...oh, I don’t know!”

“There must be something that’s up with you.  What’s wrong, Sombra?”

He groaned, a maddening look flitting across his features momentarily.  “I feel bad.”

“About what?”

He looked at me, horror written on his face.  “You...you....you don’t remember?”

I tilted my head further.  “Remember what?”

His horror-stricken face quickly changed into humiliation.  He mumbled, “What happened lasssssssssst night.”

My confused face reflected complete bafflement.  “What in the world are you talking about?  All I remember is this horrid dream I had, where Chrysalis came and made me have sex with you, and then we both had an orgasm, and then...”  I trailed off when I saw him nodding.  I felt all the blood drain out of my face.  “THAT WASN’T A DREAM?!” I exclaimed, more blood draining out of my limbs and face by the minute.  I felt my heart rate skyrocket, and noticed that my breathing was increasing...I also suddenly felt very disoriented.  “Then....then...then...SWEET MERCIFUL CELESTIA, YOU BUCKED ME?!”  I leaned over and promptly spewed the contents of my stomach onto the floor.

Sombra stayed where he was, his blush deepening by the second.  He cast me glances filled with pity and embarrassment, but did nothing until I could breathe again.

I gulped in air, only to let it out again in a sob of despair.  “Why...why would Chrysalis do this to me?”  Tears suddenly streamed down my cheeks.  “N-n-no....I’m no longer a virgin....and I wanted to give it away to my future husband....” I sobbed, burying my face in my hooves.  “I could be pregnant.”  My head shot up in alarm.  “But...but...but if I’m pregnant, then....what will Chrysalis do to the baby?”  Tears started to stream down my cheeks yet again, and I sobbed loudly, not caring if Sombra overheard me. “My life is ruined...” I wailed, tears continuing to stream down my face in a salty torrent.

Sombra gently placed a hoof on my back.  “Thissss issss why I’m leaving you.  I hurt you deeply, and took away ssssssomething you’ll never get back...”

I sat up, my sadness quickly replaced by anger.  I flung his hoof off of me as I turned and looked him in the eyes.  I got so close to him, our noses were rubbing.  “Don’t you dare think that this is your fault,” I hissed.  “This is Chrysalis’ fault.  I blame you for nothing.”

His looked down, a guilty expression on his face.  “But....if I could have only held it in longer...”

“Ugh!” I exclaimed, fury rolling through me as I pulled back and paced the room.  Once I’d calmed down a bit, I sat across from him and continued to speak.  “You held it in as long as you could have.  And even if you did hold it in longer, Chrysalis still would have gotten it out of you somehow.  She wanted you to do that.  And we both know that Chrysalis always gets what she wants.”

Sombra’s eyes narrowed as he looked up at me.  “Sssssshe won’t ever get you.”

I suddenly thought of something.  “Is that why you feel like you have to leave?”

Sombra glanced down again, tracing circles in the dirt that was somehow tracked into the cavern.

I sighed, a smile tugging at my sad lips.  “You’re so sweet when you’re embarrassed.  But seriously, is that why you want to leave?  You think that Chrysalis is less likely to hurt me if you’re not around?  Might I remind you of something?”

He shrugged.

“She bucked me even before you did.”

His eyes narrowed, and he snorted angrily.  “Sssssshe won’t ever do that again!  Not while I’m sssssstill living.”

I smiled.  “You’re trying too hard to be a hero, Sombra.”

“But....I care about you,” he mumbled.  “I don’t want anything to happen to you...”

I placed my hoof over his.  “I know.  I don’t exactly want to get hurt again, either.  But you have to look at this logically.  Chrysalis is stronger than both of us combined. She could overpower you and do what she wishes with me.  She could overpower me and do what she wishes with you.  She could do what she wishes with both of us at the same time, or neither one of us.  She has the power here, Sombra.  You said it yourself just a couple days ago.  She’s the one with the changelings, remember?  She’s the one who’s keeping us here.”

Sombra looked up, locking his gaze onto mine.  “Then I’ll try my hardesssssst to make sssssure nothing bad happensssss to you again.”

I smiled.  “Thanks, Sombra.”

The white pony slipped her hoof onto Sombra’s.  She smiled and tilted her head in an attractive way.  Sombra leaned his face towards hers, but the white pony jerked back, just out of his reach.  Sombra frowned.  He tilted his head and spoke, and the white pony simply shook her head and looked away, a light blush creeping onto her face and tears slowly dripping down her cheeks.  She still kept her hoof on top of his, however, and didn’t pull away.  Sombra slowly leaned in again, whispering words in the white pony’s ear.  And then, he leaned towards a different part of her face...

“Yes,” breathed Chrysalis, captivated at the moving picture within the crystal ball before her.  “That’s it...just let that little guard down, Snowflake...let him in.  Let him in, and my plan can finally come to be.  Just let go...let him fill up the emptiness inside of you...succumb to your own desires you so foalishly push aside... ”

Sombra kissed the white pony.  Her eyes, first wide with fear, eventually slid closed as she leaned into the kiss.

“Everything is going perfectly...”

Sombra pulled out of the embrace, his face slightly flushed, and a smile on his face.  The white pony was blushing and giggling as well.  She stared at Sombra for about a minute, just taking in his face...and then she threw her arms around his neck.  She leaned forward just enough to topple Sombra onto his back, and her weight pinned him to the ground.

Chrysalis perked up.  “What’s this?” she asked as she observed the couple.

They didn’t roll around; they only stared into each other’s eyes.  Sombra’s blush was unmistakable now, as a bright red slowly claimed his entire face.  He wore a shocked but pleased expression, looking up in an adoring manner to the mare that pinned him down.  The white mare grinned mischievously, and without warning, leaned down and kissed Sombra full on the mouth.

“Oh...this is even better than I’d hoped.  This will be more easy than I’d ever imagined it would be.  They’re so blind to my plan...this is going to be perfect.”

Sombra was enjoying her.  He was enjoying her a little too much.  His eyes flew open, his mind suddenly registering what a different part of his body was slowly doing.  He frowned, attempting to force his erection down, but no amount of wishful thinking made his dick budge.  He rolled his eyes, slowly pulling away from Bright Flame’s gorgeous face. “Ssssssorry,” he murmured.  “Can’t do thissssss any longer.”

I tilted my head.  “Why?”

His face flushed.  “Uh....remember what happensssssss to guysssssss when they get aroussssssed?”

I nodded, still not fully understanding.  “Yes.  A stallion will get an erection, if aroused enough.  That erection will eventually lead to him cumming on whatever object he happens to be close to.”

“And what am I clossssse to right now?”

I finally understood, and leapt off of him with a shriek. “OH DEAR LUNA!” I exclaimed, my face flushing a deep red.  “I’m so sorry!”

He chuckled.  “Nothing to be ssssssorry about.  In fact, I sssssshould be apologizing.”

A confused look flitted over my features.  “Come again?”

“You’re not doing anything wrong; it’ssssss my mind that’sssss wandering.”

I blushed furiously and looked at the ground.  “You know I’ll never do that with you.”

He nodded.  “I can’t help thinking about it, though.”

“Then push the thoughts away,” I whispered, tears suddenly rolling down my face.  I frantically swiped at them so he wouldn’t catch me crying.

He caught me anyway.  He frowned as he trotted over to where I was.  He gently placed a hoof on my neck.  “What’sssssss wrong?” he whispered.

Knowing I couldn’t hide any longer, the tears started rolling down my face again.  “I...I...I think I - ”

“Wait,” he said, holding up his other hoof.  “I have ssssssomething I’d like to sssssay.”

I shut up, and simply nodded my head.

He smiled and gently pecked my lips before continuing.  “I...I l-l-l-love you.  Yesssssss, I....I love you, Bright Flame.”

Tears started pouring down my face, but I wasn’t happy.

He frowned.  “You hate me, don’t you?”

“No!” I snapped at him, pulling away.  “I just...oh, I feel awful.  I lied to you, Sombra!”

His frown deepened.  “About what?”

“I’ll...I’ll...” I broke off, trying to choke out the words between my sobs.  I finally calmed down, but found I couldn’t raise my voice above a whisper.  “I’ll never have sex with you.  I just...can’t force myself to do something I don’t enjoy.  I’m....I’m so sorry.”

He sighed, looking sad for only a moment.  He walked over to where I’d crumbled to the floor.  He gently placed a hoof on my back, massaging it slowly as he tried to calm me down.  “You’re sssssso pretty.”

I frowned.  “No, I’m not.  And what does that have to do with anything?”

Sombra chuckled.  “I think you’re perfect.  I don’t need to have ssssssssex with you.”

“B-b-but...what if you want children?”

“We could alwayssssss adopt.”

“I want to please you, though...and I don’t feel like I’d be doing that if I didn’t have sex with you...”

“You don’t have to have sssssssex with me.  Perhapssss you’d be open to jussssst helping me masssssssturbate?”

I grimaced.  “No, not really.”  I shrunk even lower to the floor.  “I’m so sorry,” I whimpered.

He shrugged.  “We’ll crosssssss that bridge when we come to it, then.”

“Y-y-y-you don’t mind w-w-waiting until we’re m-m-married?  And w-w-when we’re m-m-married, you’ll only st-st-stay with me?  Even if....if...if I can’t give you what you truly want?” I choked out between the sobs that racked my body.  I feel like the worst pony that ever lived...First I lie to the guy I like, and now I’m making him face the fact that he’ll never get what every guy wants from me, and that I’m requiring him to only be faithful to me...

“All I want issssss you, Brighty.  Yesssss, ssssome sssex would be nice...but all I really want isssss you.”

I looked up at him, just standing there with a smile on his face and an uplifting look in his eyes.  I burst into tears as I leapt up and threw my arms around his neck.  “I love you too,” I whispered into his ear.  “I love you so much...and I actually like the pet name...”

Sombra smiled.  “I love you too, Brighty.”  Quickly checking his erection and realizing it had finally come back down, he smiled.  He only had to push a bit to topple me over.  I literally spun head over hooves, and landed with him on top of me.

I squealed, trying not to look down at his dick.  “What about your erection?!”

“It went back down,” he said with a smirk.

I smiled.  “Then what are you waiting for?”

He grinned sheepishly as he looked into my eyes.

Without any warning, he roughly pressed his lips against mine; and I could feel the hunger that was within him.  I could tell he wanted to go further, to truly penetrate me...but I knew he wouldn’t.  I knew that, deep down inside, he was a good pony.  So many other ponies just...misunderstood him.  I think that in that moment, I understood: he loved me, and he didn’t care if I was asexual and completely repulsed by sex.  He didn’t care that he’d never get to have sex with me.  He only cared about me.  And all I cared about was him.

We would have stayed in that position forever, had I not noticed something slithering in the shadows.  I yelped and shoved Sombra off of me as I shrunk to the floor.

Sombra followed my frightened gaze and saw the green glow coming from the shadows.  He frowned and stepped protectively over me.  “Over my dead body, Chryssssalisssss,” he muttered, staring down the glowing green shape.

“As you wish...” she whispered as she stepped out of the shadows.

Only, she didn’t look like a changeling.  She looked exactly like me.