Equestria Missing: Memories

by MayaTheBee

Rating: mature
Tags: Dark
Length: 5558

My life ended before it even begun. They think i'm not real... I just have to make it that way...

My life ended before it even begun. I cant believe the shit I've been through and it was all an imaginary world? No. I am seeing things… They… They think I'm not real… I am real I know it… I just have to make it that way…

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-07-16 12:49:58 UTC

Golden Compass: He Was So Innocent

There's a lot of spells that I'm not very capable of... But this one, I somehow pulled off. Maybe it's the need for me to save him... I WANT to save him... I went back to when he was born... And when he died.

He was... So innocent... Why would this happen...? It's just not right. I have to make it right, somehow. I don't know how I'm going to do it... but I will figure it out, one way or another.

I have to bring him back... I WILL bring him back...

Rainbow Flare: Kindergarten

I woke up screaming and hyperventilating. The thin air made it hard to breathe... Thin air?

When my vision came to, I saw that I was in my foster parent's house. Which would explain the thin air, Cloudsdale is about twenty-thousand feet above ground.

Tears started to fall down my face, my mother came into the room... "F-FLARE!? A-are you okay? What's wrong?" She asked frantically, rushing to my side to hug me. My dad entered the doorway "Wh-Whats wrong? Is he okay?"

It took me a while to realise I was crying.

"It's alright... He probably just had a nightmare" My mom said hugging me tighter. "Maybe he's worried about his first day of kindergarten tomorrow?" My father suggested. "Yeah, maybe..." She responded slowly.

after about 10 seconds of silence, I spoke... "K-Kindergarten?" I looked up at my parents. "Wh-what do you mean?" I said, slightly pushing myself away from my mothers hug...

My dad snickered; "Heh. Did you forget already?" My mother turned to my dad with a grumpy look. "Come on, don't be like that..." He paused and gave a sheepish look; "Aheh... Yeah sorry..." He started to scratch his head in embarrassment.

My mom turned to me. "Hey, howabout I stay with you for the rest of the night? Make sure the nightmares are gone?" she suggested.

"Erm... I've been through worse... T-Trust me..." I said. Reminding myself of my death made me resume my sobbing.

"H-Hey. What do you mean?" she asked hugging me again. "N-Nothing... It's okay..." I sniffled, my mom got up and put my covers over me. "W-Wait! Aren't you staying with me?" I asked frantically. "But, I thought you've experienced worse." My mom said with a smug look on her face.

"B-But... I don't like being alone... Please?" Truth be told. I felt safer with my mother, she may not have been my biological mother but... I still see her as my mother... she raised me... well. so I thought... "Okay. I'll stay with you tonight..." She said as he snuggled into my bed next to me.

She kissed me on the cheek and said goodnight. "Sweet dreams Flare..." I found it difficult to go to sleep, even with the comfort of my mother beside me, was I afraid of something that was completely non-existent? was I afraid that the world would disintegrate around me again? needless to say after a while, my eyes slowly closed. And I drifted off...

The next day I was surprised to wake up in the same place I went to sleep. "Flare! It's time to wake up! It's your First day of Kindergarten!" I slowly sat up and rubbed my eyes. I started to complain "Ugh. Do I have to?" My mother looked back at me and her smile slowly turned into a sad wave of worry, she came and sat down next to me.

"Look about what happened last night," She said softly. "I can see that whatever happened traumatized you pretty badly, so... You don't have to go to kinder today if you don't want to..." I paused for a minute, and realized that waking up this morning was a sign.

Maybe I'm being given a second chance, I can start again... Maybe they saved me the night of my birth... Yeah... That's what happened... In the midst of me trying to figure out what had happened to me that night, my mother broke my train of thought.

"Flare? You okay?" My mom asked cautiously. I shook my head in confusion. "Huh? Um yeah..." I said without thinking. My mother responded shortly after; "Okay. Get ready then." Wait what? Did I just agree to go to school? "Come on, hurry up!" My mother said.

I quickly got up and ready, and we headed to the pre-school.

We arrived at the busy school-ground I took a look around. It seemed like any normal school day. I turned to my parents... "Go on!" My mother said happily.

something urged me to go home with them. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. I continued to walk into the school.

Something caught my ears as I walked in; "P-Please St-STOP!" I turned to where the sound was coming from. It was Snowdrop. She was a blind pony, everyone picked on her for it... two other colts were hitting her, her parents were no-where in sight, they had probably left already.

I couldn't just stand there... I had to do something...

Without thinking I ran up and hit one of the colts in the back of the head. knocking him out. The other colt starred at me with shock. The first colt came to quickly. "Whu- What happened?" The second colt looked down at his friend, and then back at me... "You're fucking crazy..." He got his friend up and walked away.

I got down next to Snowdrop... "Hey.. are you okay?" I asked softly and kindly... "Uhm... Yeah I think so... Wh-Who are you?" She responded. "My name is Fla-.." Pain started shooting in my head and blood started to drip from my muzzle... "Argh What the?" Snowdrop looked at me. "Are you okay? you don't sound too good." She asked cautiously."Y-Yeah I'm fine... Wh-where are your parents?" "They're back at home... Where I would like to be right now..." She said with tears in her eyes...

"Well... I'm a pretty decent flyer.... Do you want me to go get them?" She turned to me with a pure look of thankfulness. "Y-Yes please... I-I don't live too far. Just five house's down on the left." She explained nicely, Man... She definitely is a nice pony...

I got to her house and knocked on the door. Her mother answered. "Oh? Hello, aren't you supposed to be at school?" The mother asked. "Um... yes well that's why I'm here... Your daughter Snowdrop has been hit by some bullies." I said quickly. As I said that her eyes opened wide and she rushed out the door. "Come on! Show me where she is!" I flew ahead back to where I left her.

My muzzle had started bleeding again, and the migraines had came back. "S-Snowdrop... I have your mother..." Snowdrop stood up, with a bruise on her side. "M-Mommy?" Snowdrop's mother hugged her immediately. "Oh, Thank you, Are you okay?" She asked her daughter... Feeling a wave of satisfaction I started to walk toward the school. "Hey!" I heard Snowdrop's mother say. I turned to her. "Yes?" "I just wanted to thank you, you know... for being there for her and all. she's been having such a hard time making friends that hardly anyone ever stands up for her... So... Thank you.."

I shied back. "Oh it was nothing really! Just helping out... Y'know?" She nodded and went to Snowdrop and took her home...

I sighed and turned to the school. "Well I did my good deed for the day. Though I could've done it without the migraines and muzzle bleeds" I started to walk towards the school, And then I heard someone, it was my kindergarten music teacher, her name was Jazzhooves. "FLARE! OVER HERE!" I turned to my right to see my music teacher waving her foreleg at me. She trotted over to me. "Flare! What are you doing outside of class" I immediately tensed up, shit I forgot I had a crush on this teacher in kindergarten...

"Uh... I just... um" "It's okay Flare, come with me..." Wait what? She never gave me a pass on being late... Jazzhooves lead me to the music room, the room was empty of students. She went over to the instrument cabinet and pulled out an electric keyboard. "Erm... Miss? Why did you bring me here?" She placed the keyboard in front of me. "Play something!" She said with a smile on her face. "Um... I'm sorry, but I don't have time for this" She looked down on me. "Time? Flare... I'm sorry to break this to you but, eventually EVERYONE runs out of time..." She said sternly... It sent shivers down my spine. Especially since I didn't have ANY time...

"Now come on! I know you must've been working on something! you and your creative mind..."  Creative is definitely a way to put it... Having to kill myself to wake up from a dream I was never having, creative shit....

"F-FINE!" I replied almost yelling. I sighed, and started playing a song I knew.

When I finished playing, my teacher stumbled back against the wall... "M-Miss? Are you okay?" She looked at me with a worried expression. "I-I could ask you the same question..." She shuffled up next to me... "What's been going on Flare?" I drooped my head in depression. "I-I'm sorry." My head started hurting again, as well as the muzzle bleed. "O-Oh my god! Flare Let me get you some tissues..." Wait what? No one ever notices the bleeding muzzle... She turned back around with the box of tissues and froze in place, with a look of pure terror. "F-FLARE!? WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?" I stood up and slowly shifted towards her. "M-Miss? Wh-Whats wrong?" I asked with worry. "WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?" She yelled.

I jumped back. The ground had started shaking, I looked to the corner of the room, it had started to crumble away. I looked back at Jazzhooves, her pupils started to engulf her eyes, blood started to leak from her eye sockets, and then her muzzle. "WH-WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME!?" She yelled. "...I remember." She said softly before closing her eyes peacefully, and then crumbling away with the room.

The void was getting closer to me, I started softly walking back, the room was crumbling away faster than I could walk though... I was backed against the wall, I turned to my left where the door stood. Without thinking I immediately went through the door. I slammed the door behind me and tripped onto my stomach.

Just as I was about to get up, the bell rang. I stood up to a crowd of young fillies and colts coming through the door. I started to walk against the crowd of kids, it had gotten claustrophobic, I had crouched down and covered my head. there were too many pegasi. It eventually quieted down, I stood up and breathed a sigh of relief. I then heard something coming in the distance... something fast.

I turned to where the sound was coming from, and before I knew it I was knocked to the ground as well as the pegasus who ran into me. "Argh. Watch where you're going asshole." Dashie? I stood up and turned towards the voice. "R-Rainbow Dash?"  She stood up. "Yeah. Who's asking?" I stepped closer. "I-It's me... Your brother... Rainbow Flare?" She looked at me like I was crazy. "Um sorry psycho. I don't have a brother." I stepped closer again. "Y-Yes you do... I'm right here." She noticed that I was getting closer to her. "GET AWAY FROM ME FREAK!" She dashed off quickly, I sighed and prepared myself for flight.

"Okay Flare. You haven't flown this fast for quite some time." I said to myself.  "So one of two things could go down. A. I pass out due to a velocity that I haven't been at for about 10 years. or B. I catch up to Dash just like anyone in the Rainbow family can.... I should probably stop thinking and start flying."

I took off quickly in the direction Rainbow Dash went, scanning the clouds to see if she had dropped off anywhere.

I saw the light shade of Dashie's tail in the distance, I immediately sped up and quickly caught up with her. "DASH! SLOW DOWN!" I yelled to her. "Oh Not you again." Dash yelled as she halted to a stop, I slowed to a stop quickly.

"Who are you? I've never met another pony who could fly as fast as me..." she said hovering in place. I replied trying to catch my breath. "I-I'm your brother." Dash sat down on a cloud, I sat down next to her. "So... You're my brother? Then... How come I haven't met you before?" I paused for a moment... remembering why I wasn't there for her... "W-We were separated at birth... I had other parents." I lied, I don't even know if my foster parents are real...

"Okay... One more question... When is my birthday?" She asked as if I didn't know. I then smiled. "The 1st of February 1996." She looked back at me with awe. "Y-... How do you know my birthday?" I turned to her with a smile. "What kind of brother would forget his little sisters birthday?" I paused for a moment, before my smile turned into a frown... I wasn't even thinking... I had spaced out at this point.

I snapped back into it when out of nowhere Rainbow Dash had hugged me. "Woah! Dash, don't scare me like that." I said regaining my focus, Rainbow Dash giggled at my reaction, "Haha...! You're funny!" I chuckled back; "Heh... Really...? Well.... Thanks." "Oh! Here comes mom and dad!" Huh? I turned to where Rainbow Dash was pointing.

They waved to Rainbow Dash as they flew in. Dash went up to them to hug as soon as they landed... "Hey there Dashie. How was your first day?" My mom said with her beautiful voice, "M-mom?" I stuttered as I stepped closer, I then saw my dad next to Dash. "D-dad?" I stepped closer again. "My day was great! I met my brother!" My parents froze at Dash's statement... "N-Now Dash, wh-who said they were your brother?" My mom said tears obviously coming into her eyes.

Dash pointed to me. "W-Well he did..... He is my brother... Right?" My parents looked toward me, showing that they were obviously having a hard time looking for me... "D-Dash, N-No one is there..." My dad stuttered, beginning to show emotion too... "B-But dad... He's right there!" Dash trotted over to me and bumped shoulders with me. "Right here..." She bumped me again "See?" My dad trotted over to Rainbow Dash. "R-Rainbow Dash look. You don't have a brother... Okay?" "B-But. Dad!" "FLARE IS NOT REAL!"

"G-GARGH. F-FUCK!" I felt I splitting pain in my head. a weird blob covered in my blood came dripping out my muzzle, followed by a river of more blood. "F-FLARE!? A-Are you okay?" My mom came running over quickly. "D-Dashie, D-Don't listen to your dad." My mom gave my dad a look of disapproval. She then looked down at the small puddle of blood. "D-Dash whose blood is this?" She said with worry. "I-It's Flare's... His muzzle is bleeding." "There's no blood, I'm going home." My dad grunted as he flew off, my mom sighed "Ugh. Good riddance... Dashie... C-Can you show me where he is...?" Mom asked in the nicest way possible

Rainbow Dash looked at me... "Is that okay?" She asked, I nodded in agreement, Rainbow Dash put her front hoof on my face... "He's right here." She said showing mom where to put her hooves.

My mom slowly started to put her front left hoof towards my muzzle, her hoof became fully outstretched but didn't reach me... I hesitated, but I didn't want her to think I was imaginary... I pushed my muzzle into her hoof. "Oh!" She gasped as her hoof flinched back toward her body... I started to tear up... I moved to her and snuggled under her front left leg... She became open mouthed... "F-Flare?" She said with sadness in her voice. I looked up to her, we both made eye contanct. "Wh-Whats wrong with your eyes?" "It's a long story... Y-You can see me?" I said softly. She started to cry. "Y-Yes..." She kissed me on the head and hugged me really tightly...

We were hurried home to get dad. I stopped at the front door when something caught my eye... A small box. Mom and Rainbow Dash went inside, I went over to the box there was a note on it.

-- Hey Flare! You owe me one! I promise I'll get you out of here... here's my promise... Peace -- ~GC

I put the card down and opened the box... I choked up when I realised that it was my wedding ring, strung around that hard leather string I used to keep it on me at all times... I am alive... I know it... I put the ring around my neck and went inside.

Dad was sitting in the living room reading the newspaper, Rainbow Dash and mom were trying to tell him I was real. "Oh not this again. Please just give up on it." "H-Honey I know you don't believe in him, but he is standing right there." She pointed to me. "Come on Flare, Say something..." "Um.... Hi?" My dad just stared blankly in my direction. "I think I know what's going on.... You're high." "Ex-Fucking-Cuse me?" My mom bolted back immediately. "That's it isn't it? the lack of oxygen up here has driven you coo coo and you're taking it out on me." My father responded in a way that I wouldn't expect him to respond.

Dash had hurried over to me whilst our parents fought. "Do they fight like this all the time?" I asked nonchalantly. "Yeah... you get used to it though..." She responded with a sigh.

I had lost focus, it wasn't long until I realised my dad was coming towards me full pelt, he stopped in front of me with an angry look. "So you claim he is standing right here?" He asked with that threatening voice. My mom nodded with slight reluctance, just as she did that my dad started swinging one of his front hooves around me, I flinched but realised that his hooves wouldn't touch me... They just went through me.

It didn't feel painful, but it definitely made me uncomfortable, mom and Rainbow Dash were starring at me in shock. "SEE?! If he were here I would be feeling him, and seeing him, are either of those things happening? NO! SO GIVE IT THE FUCK UP!" He yelled with frustration as he rushed back to the spot where he would read the newspaper.

"Come on Flare... I'll show you to my room..." Rainbow Dash said with slight sadness, I ignored her and slowly walked up to my dad. "D-Dad.... Please... Look at me..." Everything was quiet. He was just reading the news, and the rest of us just standing in silence... I then broke the silence. "...LOOK AT YOUR SON YOU FUCKER!" I yelled hoping for a response, nothing came from him.

I sobbed and turned away, I started to head towards Rainbow Dash. "Come on Dashie... Show me your room..."

We headed to the back of the house, and we rested for until the day was out.

Rainbow Dash: The Best Big Brother.

I must have the best big brother in Cloudsdale... Well he may be a little weird... I mean, I never really asked him about that whole bleeding voids in his eyes thing, but other than that, he's a really cool guy... Almost as awesome as me.... ALMOST!

Tonight was a rough night for him... Dad can't seem to see Flare, not to mention he doesn't believe in him... Which is odd because mom can see him clear as day... I don't know. It's just strange to me... I'll have to check and see if he's okay in the morning.

We woke up at almost the same time. I was excited for a great day with my brother, but he seemed a little out of it. He kind of just had a blank expression, I asked him what was up and he just responded with a "Eh. Don't worry about it Dashie, you're too young to understand... I'll tell you wh-h-en you're older..." Well I guess he's just having a bad day so far... I hope... he made a strange... how do I put this? Um... Flicker, yeah... He 'flickered'... Like a TV station being changed... Odd.... You know what, I think I can cheer him up.

"Hey, Flare... You seem a little down... How about a race?" He looked up at me with some confusion. "To the store and back... Winner gets ten bits" Flare cracked a smirk on his face when I said that. "You're on." To my surprise when he said that, the blood on his muzzle disappeared, he didn't wipe it away or anything... It just faded... Strange.

"321GO!" Flare yelled as he dashed for the door. "H-HEY! I wasn't ready!" I said as I quickly got into the air and flew after him.

We were both laughing like maniacs as we tried our best to keep up with each other. It was amazing, I hadn't seen my brother laugh this much before, at school before I knew him as my brother he always seemed to be a lone wolf. Sitting in the corner with a sad kind of face... Kind of blending in really...

I had spaced out, it was the final stretch I was only a little bit ahead of Flare, I turned around to taunt him, he was yelling something to me with an expression of worry. I ignored it and yelled to him "YOU OWE ME TEN BUCKS BR-" I had rammed into the side of the house hard... So hard I had blacked out.

I woke up in a dark room. I stood up and started to walk into the darkness, I had tripped over something, I landed flat on my face. "Ow god damn it." I stood up and had a look around, I had apparently tripped over a ball... "Hmm... Odd.." I Ignored it and continued walking. I started seeing a white light... I started to run towards it in hopes of getting some light in the room.

When I reached the end of the track I was in an asylum, it was a pretty run down, scary looking asylum. I could hear hoofsteps off in the distance, I then heard whoever it was, throwing up.

"Y-YOU FUCKED UP PEICE OF SHIT! This is your fault... I fucking hate you..." huh? Is that Flare? I ran around the corner and saw Flare Pacing back and forth, yelling at someone, but I couldn't see who. I inched in closer and saw that there was no one else around. He was yelling at a ball, I stepped towards Flare, who was still yelling, he then noticed me. "...YOU!" He said with an angry look as he started to move towards me.

I started to step back but tripped over. Flare then started to beat on me. Hard. "RAINBOW DASH! GET THE FUCK UP! GET UP! GE-ke up Dashie. Wake THE FU-p Dashie... Please..." I opened my eyes and saw I was in the hospital. I sat up quickly wondering what was going on, my head was hurting really bad too. "Oh thank god." My mom and dad hugged me quickly. "Wh-where's Flare?" I asked with worry. "Oh not this again." My dad responded with a look of disappointment as he left the room. my mom leaned in closer and whispered to me. "He's at home, don't worry." I breathed a sigh of relief as I slowly laid back down.

"You bumped your head pretty hard didn't you?" My mom said softly. "Y-Yeah.... I didn't see where I was going." "It'll be okay... the doctors said that you just got the wind knocked out of you. Nothing too serious... they said you can go home at the end of the day." I nodded and relaxed back, knowing that I had the end of the day to look forward to.

After another couple of check ups the doctors sent us on our way. When we got home Flare was at the door to greet us, he gave me a big hug nearly sobbing. "I'm so sorry... I'm sorry..." I hugged back feeling sorry myself. "It's okay Flare, I should've been watching where I was going..." He stopped hugging and calmed down... Wiping some tears away... Actual tears... The blood was gone... Something is going on, I need to find out what... "Flare... Lets go to our room." I said almost demandingly. "O-oh? o-okay." He said with somewhat concern.

"I Like your room..." Flare said as he entered... "It's really nice, Wonderbolts and all huh?" I just looked at him, with those empty eyes staring back failing to give an expression. "I-Is something wrong?" he asked trying obviously hoping I wouldn't ask him about the eyes, ear and blood. But I had to ask what happened... "What happened.... Before all this?" His somewhat happy expression quickly turned sombre when I asked that. "Y-You're too young... I'll tell you when your older." I stepped closer. "Yeah Flare I may be too young at this point, but I'm afraid that I'll be older and you wont be there to tell me what's going on." He looked at me in surprise. "Ha. Its funny. For a five year old, you sure know your words... Okay.... I'll tell you." "From beginning to finish." I immediately said before he could continue...

He told me everything. He didn't hesitate, most of it was rather disturbing, some bits were a bit saddening... By the end of his long story I had tears in my eyes. The room was silent after he finished. The silence was broken after our mom came into the room crying. Flare immediately asked what was wrong, moms response was something that I never would've expected... "Y-Your father.... he-... he left to go to Ponyville.... He said he is going forever...." My light tears were now pouring down my face, I couldn't control my sadness... I never thought dad would.... F-Fu-FU- "So thats it then..." Flare said with sadness and hatred in his voice.

"F-Flare, I-It's okay." Mom said trying to console him. "NO! Its not okay. I have had fucking enough of the shit i've been through. And now I've got to grow up without a father? You know? I hope he stays gone, I will grow up, marry a beautiful mare, have beauTIFUL CHILDREN AND BE A BETTER FATHER THAN HE EVER FUCKING WAS TO ME..... FUCK..." My mom looked at me with worry. "Listen If I can survive getting killed TWICE! then I can survive without a father........ Why can't he see me?" Flare had started crying and barged past mom and out the front door.

"F-FLARE! PLEASE! COME BACK!" Mom shouted as Flare flew towards ground level. I couldn't comprehend what was happening... Please, Flare, don't leave me again....

Some time has passed since Flare left.... Mom got killed in a workplace 'Accident' they never taught her to handle high voltage wires... As for dad I never heard from him again... Flare used to see me on a regular basis, He doesn't really anymore... He used to tell me that mom and dad got murdered by someone, unfortunately I had to be there when mom got fried alive from the electricity... it HAD to be bring your daughter to work day.... She HAD to be transferred to Lighting and Thunder on that day... Even when she knew damn good and well that she was never taught to work in that line of the department.... I was supposed to see the Rainbow Factory that day... I hate my mane.... I hate my name.... God damn rainbows....

Rainbow Flare: Grounded

Doctor RedCross: H-HE WON'T LEAVE!

Diary Entry #24 January 13 2013

I-I think this asylum is getting to me... H-He left I know it... I saw him leave, WHY IS HE STILL HERE!? I've checked the room he was staying in, that is him, no doubt about it... He turned around and looked at me... Those bleeding, empty eyes... They still haunt me... I've been keeping diary entries about him. THEY ARE ALL WRONG! HE CAN'T BE FROM THIS WORLD...!

Huh? What was that? Um.... I'm going to go check it out...

F-FUCK! N-NO! H-he's fucking out there... He's different, his ear has been ripped off, so has his wings. Who.... What the fuck is he?

"D-Doctor! I-I need your help"

Why my help? There's nothing I can do for him....

"D-DOCTOR! I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU!"

F-FUCK! Okay... Calm down. He isn't here... He isn't Real. F-FUCK!

"I-I w-won't l-leave, u-until you h-help me...."

He sounded different that time... I got up and Looked out the window on the door. He's just standing there... it looks like he's flickering. like a TV being switched between channels constantly.

What the fuck is wrong with me...? I'm going insane. He's not real.... HE WON'T FUCKING LEAVE!.

I never thought it would come to this... I have to take them... My cyanide pills. I can't take it anymore... I have to end it...

.....I'm sorry.....

........Flare.......

.........My son.........

.........I'm.... So sorry........

Golden Compass: It's All My Fault...

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Doctor Red Cross: Someone Strange...

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Fluttershy: H-He Can't Be Real...

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Doctor RedCross: H-HE WON'T LEAVE!

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Good Ending: Revival

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Bad Ending: I Fucked Up.

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Alternate Ending: Acceptance

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Rainbow Flare: Death After Birth

Death... It's like being buried while you're still alive, I can't breathe, my body is in pain. Please... Make it stop. I can't lay my head down. I can't move anything. Please... Help.

Whiteness engulfed my eyes, I heard a newborn foal crying. "It's a colt! A beautiful, baby colt." I heard someone say. Is that... My dad? My vision eventually came to. I was in a hospital... Doctors surrounded me... "Congratulations sir..." I heard one of the doctors say... "L-let me H-Hold him...." I heard my mother say just as I was handed to her. My dad entered my vision, both with a look of pure heart-warming happiness.

"He definitely has a flare in his eyes..." My dad said with a smile, "R-Rainbow Flare...." My mother then said with slight weakness, I closed my eyes in peace... I can start over. This can't be too bad...

"W-wait a minute... Something's wrong..." I heard a doctor say.

What? No... Everything stopped, even me... I could only move my eyes...

Out of the corner of my eyes I saw someone moving. I moved my eyes over to the movement, It was Golden Compass... "H-Hey buddy...." He said softly. "I-I'm sorry I couldn't help you... But I'm going to make it right!. I promise..." I heard him say slightly tearfully. I tried to speak but only my thoughts came to: 'GC! HELP ME! PLEASE!' He just turned around and walked back into the crowd of doctors. everything resumed, then I felt extreme pain in my chest.

I tried to scream but nothing came out. "Give him here!" I heard a doctor yell. "W-WAIT! Where are you taking him?" I heard my dad say. "It's going to be okay..." The doctor said just before taking me away from my parents. "W-WAIT! NO! DON'T TAKE HIM FROM ME! FLARE! NO!" I heard my mother scream trying to get me back. I.... I can't breathe.... GC... Help....

Fluttershy: That Guy from Kindergarten.

Doctor Red Cross: Someone Strange...

7th June 2012

Well.... I may as well introduce myself. My name is Red Cross. I am a doctor, with a temporary job working at Ponyville Asylum. My friends from Ponyville Hospital told me to keep a diary.... For some reason. So being the guy I am, I accepted... Strangely being here at the asylum makes me feel more lonely than my previous job as an 'On-Call Medic', it just doesn't feel right.

15th June 2012

I've been getting used to my new job. but, I get the strangest feeling something bad is going to happen... I can't put my hoof on it. My new friends at the asylum have begun getting worried for me, I told them not to worry, I'll probably just have to sleep it off.

21st June 2012

Someone new was just checked into the madhouse. Someone... Strange..... Familiar.... He came in with a blank expression. His girlfriend begged me to take care of him, when she said that... I swore he, how do I put this...? Flickered. I think I'll have to keep an eye on him,

23rd June 2012

That bad feeling has come back to me... Why does this stallion give me a feeling of dread? I'll have to keep diary entries on him... Maybe I can figure him out...

Diary Entry #14 July 10th 2012

I was glad I could reunite Flare with his fiancé. He looked peaceful. I went to close the door when I swear I saw him. He was right there, sitting in the corner. I had to do a double take, I wasn't crazy he was right there... I quickly unlocked the cell door and went in. He was gone when I got in...... Flare.... Why is that name so Familiar....? Flare..... Hmm.....