Rainbow Dash:

I watched Fluttershy faint as I was paralyzed from fear. Rain Blight stood there with pitch black eyes, those bottomless eyes staring into me. I couldn’t move, all I could do was stand there. Everything started to become dark. I wasn’t sure how long I was unconscious, when I awoke Fluttershy was still laying on the floor as if she was lifeless. The only indication I knew she was alive with a very shallow breath she would take, a very unnatural look to her. Shaking myself back to reality I looked around, nothing was out of place. It was as if nothing had happened, but I knew Rain had been here. Why, why would he be here? A Sider, it didn’t make sense. I pulled Fluttershy onto my back and made my way to Golden Oak Library. Ashura would know what to do, he had to know.

It was difficult carrying her, I felt weak. I hated the feeling, I couldn’t believe the events. None of this made any sense. Why would a Sider be here, why again? I finally made it to the library exhausted, I was barley able to knock at the door. I was met with a now very worried Twilight.

“Rainbow, what happened?” She asked with such concern.

“Sider.” Is all I was able to say before I collapsed to the ground. Everything went dark after that, I once again awoke moments later. I found myself in Twilight’s bed, it was dark out which told me I had been unconscious for a very long time. A door opened and my sight snapped over to the intruder.

“You alright?” I heard Ash asked from the darkness. My body relaxed a little, events had me so tense. I started to get flashbacks from months past about my father. We almost lost so much back then, the reality of the situation fell heavy on me.

“I’m fine I hope.” I said getting up from the bed, stretching my wings I felt a little more like myself. “Do you know what happened.”

“Not in the slightest, Fluttershy hasn’t awoken yet. You’re just waking up now, both Twi and I are in the dark right now. But I’m sure this is sign of bad things to come, just like before.” Ash sighed heavily. “I need you to try and hold up Dash.”

I was a tad hurt, “I’m Rainbow Dash, I can handle anything.”

“Dash, with all do respect. No you can’t.”

“This isn’t my area of expertise, but I survived. I will continue to survive, I will not abandon my friends.”

“That’s what I’m afraid of Rainbow. You haven’t been yourself since your father’s repassing.” I was even more hurt. Not because of what he said, but because he was absolutely right. I haven’t been myself lately, who would be after that. “What happened?”

With a heavy sigh I tried to think back. “I went to visit Fluttershy, ever since meeting Ace she hasn’t been herself. I guess now I know what it looks like, not being who you are.” Oh Celestia, why was this happening. Rain’s smile crept into my mind, sending a ice cold chill down my spin. “When I got there we talked, and next thing I knew my past had come back to haunt me. I saw someone I wrong heavily.”

“That Sider you mentioned, you knew them?”

“Yes, he was a colt I knew back in school.” Tears rushed to my eyes, I wish I could change the past, I wish I could do anything to change what I did. But I know in my heart I can’t, I have to live with my mistakes. No matter how much it haunted me.

“You have no connection to this Sider.” This shocked me, why wouldn’t it be connected to me. “This Sider was using you to project something, I’m unsure what the purpose is.”

“What does that even mean?”

“As of right now Dash, I have no idea myself. I may be the one who knows the most about Siders. But there still a mystery that needs to be solved. They feed off emotion, you after all those event from months ago. You’ve been filled with mixed emotions, that’s why you haven’t been yourself. In a psychological stand point for me, you haven’t forgiven yourself for anything you have ever done. The element of harmony has lost loyalty in herself.” Those words fell very heavy on me, it felt as if gravity had increased tenfold.

“I can’t argue with you, I don’t have any idea what I feel anymore. I feel as if I don’t even know who I am anymore.” The door behind Ashura opened revealing Twilight.

“How you feeling Rainbow?” She asked with concern.

“She’s healing.” Ash said turning and walking through the door.

“I asked her, not you Ashura Glitch.” She said sternly, as I looked at my friend I could see she had changed too. The new crowned princess had grown since I met her. Me, I’ve barley had any change from how I use to be. I was still reckless, ready to jump head first into action without a second thought.

“He’s right Twilight, I’m holding on.” I said offering her a encouraging smile that was barley visible from the dim light that came from the doorway. Twilight offered a smile that made me feel like everything was going to be okay. But I also got the feeling, she was filled with much doubt.

“Umm, you hungry?” She asked probably wishing to lift any type of spirit. Just then my stomach answered for me. “Lets get you something to eat then.” We both shared a chuckle. We both followed in suit after Ash. So many thoughts were running through my mind. The last Sider we dealt with was manipulative. It was able to do so much damage to us all in such a short time, I still remember that place. That place of darkness, the thought of it brought back feelings that made me wash the thought out of my mind.

“She still isn’t awake.” Ashura said coming in through the other room as we entered the main library area. You can’t really walk anywhere in Twilight’s home without having books surrounding you. I still remember when I came flying in, not being able to control my wings with that whole poison joke incident. The thought started to make me chuckle a bit.

“What?” Twilight asked confused.

“Remember when we first met Zecora. When I came flying in and nearly knocking everything over?”

“Pinkie couldn’t talk, Rarity’s mane was a utter mess.” Twilight commented with a chuckle of her own.

“And A.J. was as tiny as an ant.” The two of us started to burst out in laughter.

“It’s good to see some good feeling being passed around.” Ash said before taking a journal from one of the nearby bookcases. He placed in on a table and began to write in it.

“Oh how about the time we watched the dragon migration. Man I thought we were goanna lose Spike.”

“But in the end, he came home. Man those dragons were such jerks.” I said thinking back, that costume rarity wiped up was still ridiculous. “I still can’t believe that costume worked.”

“You ever notice how Rarity never said anything when we destroyed it trying to save spike.”

“She nearly jumped out before either of us.” I said laughing a little.

“Rainbow how is your Fera?” Ash asked not stopping from writing.

“Last time I saw her she was fine, she still isn’t one for racing. Still hard to believe she was the result of my Sider.” She was such a calm pony, very down to earth for being a Pegasus.

“Well she’s technically you from a different point of perspective. The only reason she exists is because of you. I asked because of how your emotions have been.” He stopped writing and turned, with a grim look on his face. “Hi Punk Rock.”

“I was wondering when somepony was going to notice me.” I turned to where Ash was looking and what I saw what looked like Fluttershy. But her demeanor was vastly different from Fluttershy and she had a black stripe in her hair.

“Who is this?” I asked confused beyond all belief.

“Meet Fluttershy’s Fera.” Now I was even more so confused.

“Existing and not existing is very annoying, it’s like waking up from a dream without the dream.” I wasn’t sure what I was seeing here.

“Ash who is this?” Twilight asked looking even more confused than I was.

“Well to put it simply, she is Fluttershy’s Fera.”

“But I thought a Fera couldn’t exist until a Sider bonded with you.” I asked trying to wrap my head around this.

“Originally yes, that is usually the case. But for Punk Rock it isn’t, and the reason is simple yet complicated.”

“I exist because Fluttershy’s Sider has already bonded with her.” Her attitude was very city like, nothing at all what Fluttershy was like. But if I thought back to it, Moon was nothing like me. In fact she was in everyway different to me.

“But why did you say you exist, but don’t exist.” Twilight looked confused, for the pony who is dating the one pony who knows about this. It surprised me how little she knew.

“My guess, Fluttershy hasn’t bonded with the Sider.” That infamous smirk of his appeared on his face, as if he was slightly amused by this. “It’s really the only thing that makes sense in my mind.”

“You’re enjoying this aren’t you?” Punk Rock said with a droll response.

“Actually I am, as a writer and free thinker. I find it very fascinating.” There was what looked like a gleam in his eye.

“How can you find this amusing, do you have any idea what it’s like to be in my situation.” Punk asked a little annoyed.

“Actually I know exactly how that feels.” He said with a very serious tone. “Look you’re here now, which tells me allot and nothing at all.”

“What do you mean?” I asked, I was trying really hard to follow along. Ash seemed as if he was able to put pieces together, like one big puzzle. A puzzle I had absolutely no idea what the picture could be.

“I really don’t want to talk about it, I’m sorry but that’s all I’m going to say on that subject.” Ashura said turning away, the look he gave, made me feel as if someone just died in front of me.

“Well then what does my being here tell you.”

“That something really fun could be happening.” He entire demeanor changed in that instance.

“The world almost ends the last time we dealt with a Sider, and you now say something fun might happen. What is wrong with you Ash?” Twilight asked baffled.

“Well what I do know is that Fluttershy is in a Coma and isn’t going to wake up anytime soon” That news wasn’t something I wanted to hear. I had hoped she would be waking up soon, but now that thought was crushed.

“How do you know this?” I had to ask, that look from before came back.

“I know what it’s like not to exist.” With that Ashura left the room, leaving me with a feeling of guilt, and from the look on Twilight and Punk Rock’s faces suggested they felt the same.

Ashura Glitch:

I was struck with so many emotions as I left the room to go check on Fluttershy. I didn’t want to relive past events, it was hard enough having nightmares about them. If only I could forget that time, but I had to remember what happened. The Siders are my fault, my responsibility. I had to know as much as I could about them. Truth be told I was dumbstruck with resent events. I had no idea what I could do, what I could tell the others. I had so much fear inside, to be honest I was scared to my very core. Rainbow’s Sider mixed with her father’s wasn’t something I knew could happen, it’s something I never would have conceived. But luckily we were able to deal with it and with help were able to stop it’s repercussions.

I looked at Fluttershy, her breathing was still the same as when her and Rainbow had arrived. Nothing about this was good, I didn’t see any silver lining that could be had here. There was absolutely nothing good about this at all. Once again in all truth, I didn’t see anything fun that could happen. But in this situation, even false hope is still hope. Right now, hope is something we need. I wish I knew why Ace was so important, why does he bring me such an ominous feeling.

“You’re thinking too much again Glitch.”

“Yes I know ZXex, but somepony has to think about it. If not me, than who could? You I’m surprised I even see you anymore.” I turned to face my Fera, the first anomaly I ever met when dealing with Siders. Like Punk Rock he shouldn’t exist either, sometimes he doesn’t. If anyone knew what she was going through, he would be the one.

“Your bond is weakening.”

“Do you mean with Atom, or with my sanity.”

“You were sane? Since when?” I couldn’t help but smirk at the asshole.

“Very funny, in truth that probably happened when you arrived as crazy as that sounds. Without you I probably would have died back then.” The truth to that matter struck me deep inside.

“Getting all sentimental with me, how sweet.”

“Shut it, you’re the emotional being I’m not. I don’t need your sass.” A being of fact and logic is who I am. ZXex a being of emotion and charisma, he was everything I wished I was and also wish I was nothing like. Being a social outcast can do that to you.

“Trying to make yourself feel better again?”

“Nope, nothing I can ever do will make that happen. All I can do is help where I’m needed and possibly fix this whole screwed up mess I put everyone in.” I sighed heavily.

“It’s not your fault Atom turned on you. Remember, he was different when you made him.” That was true, in fact when I was growing up he was my only friend for a time. Like I said growing up as an outcast does shit to you. I just didn’t know things would escalade to this, if only the Siders would have stayed out of this. But that’s my mistake, it’s my fault for not realizing who I was. What I was, I’m nothing special at all.

“You remember what you told yourself right?”

“What that I was doomed to follow a certain path. I know Apocalypse is us, I know what happens. Or that I should spend what little time I have with those around me.” Not a question, a statement. One that is true, but the weight of it all is allot to bear. I love Twilight; I didn’t want to see her get hurt. I made a life here, I didn’t want that to change. I finally had something that made me happy, and the Siders are trying to take it all away. “Oh Fluttershy I’m so damn sorry.”

Back before I came to Ponyville, hell back before I even joined the royal guard. Back when I was a colt I had a few troubles growing up. When I was in school I had a good friend, a friend I did everything together with. But he turned on me, your best friend is now your bully. That’s how my life was for a time; so many things plagued me from then on. So many different thoughts clouded my mind, I was so alone. I created inside of my head a place I could escape to; someplace I belonged. Sometimes it helped, sometimes it didn’t. My mother and father were always worried about me; my mother probably stayed up late just thinking if I was going to be alive the next morning, or when she’d get a call that I was gone.

I cannot say I’ve had an easy life, I will not say I’ve had a bad life. But I’m just an average pony who walks this world just like everyone else. Except I have a connection to a dark place. I guess you could say I broke a seal in reality. I wish I could say how it all happened, I don’t even remember how it all even started. But when you see the thing you created to make you happy staring back at you in the face, trying to kill you. Let’s just say, you don’t take it well. Betrayal is something that never sits right with me, I’ve been betrayed enough times.

Fluttershy:

“Hello!” I yelled at the top of my lungs. There was sand everywhere, and I had no idea how I had gotten here. I just awoke surrounded by sand and no knowledge of how I got here. I had been walking for what seemed like forever. Nothing ever changed, the sun never moved. It was the same bed of sand, same sky, same feeling. The sun was not blazing hot like I had heard it was in a desert. I mean I had to be in a desert, how else would you describe such a place. Sand everywhere, sun high in the sky.

“Why must you shout so much?” I heard a stereotypic gentleman’s voice ask. I turned around and saw what looked like a noble pony from Canterlot.

“I…I didn’t know…anypony was around, I…I think I’m lost.”

“Well indeed you are lost my fair lady.” I felt like the next thing he was going to say was something about tea.

“What are you doing in the place like this?” I had to ask.

“Surly same as you are, odd question to ask.” He said with a chuckle

“I have no idea why I’m here, I just woke up here.”

“Are you alright, going a little barmy on me are we?” He gave me a puzzled look.

“What no, I mean…I don’t…Do you know where we are or not?” I asked feeling a tad frustrated. I just wanted to go home.

“The desert I’d have to say, not any specific kind of desert. Just one big one with a lovely sun and plenty of white sand. Or maybe green, could be any color really; I would just absolutely love to see a desert with blue sand. Now that would be bloody wild.” The stallion reminded me of Pinkie Pie. “Oh look it is blue, oh how wonderful.”

“Wait…what…what?” Looking around I could see that he was right. The white sand had turned blue.

“Pinkie, I guess that is whom I’m based off of. Although I do have a tad of Rarity and Rainbow Dash. Really all of your friends make up me. Pinkie’s attitude, Rarities style, Rainbow’s Bravery, A.J.’s courage, Twilight sensibility. All here inside that; at the moment dodgy brain of yours.” He said chuckling about.

“Who…are you?”

“Well to put in simply, I’m you. A different version of you really, I suppose looking this way doesn’t do much for the old figure. But I didn’t want to throw one so startling off guard like that. It’s something your friends would have done. Since I’m made up from them, I had to do what they would do as it were.” I must have had craziest look on my face, the look he gave me was of genuine concern. “Can’t do it right every time I suppose.”

“Show me what you really look like.” I said with curiosity. He body started to shift and change, his blocky features started to curve. His build started to become slimmer and more like a mare’s. Soon enough I was looking at myself, but with a green mane.

“I’m envy.” She introduced herself. “I decided to keep the mane green for the sake of a joke I’m sure you probably already have gotten.”

“Where am I?”

“Inside your own mind.” I never expected my mind to be like this. I guess I never really considered what it could be like.

“I don’t understand.”

“What is there to understand? I’m envy, what exactly does that tell you about yourself?” In all honesty I really didn’t want to think about it.

“Why exactly am I here?”

“Isn’t that fricken obvious?” I heard a very angry voice say. Turning around I was met with Ashura, except he was missing his fedora and the red part of his mane was much darker.

“Wrath, so good to see you.” Envy cooed.

“Piss off you little ant.” He sneered at her, wrath defiantly was a good name for how he was acting.

“Why do you look like Ash?” I had to ask, it was starting to bug me.

“Who else do you know that is always angry.” He did have a point, Ash did seem happy and kind. But once you got to know him he was a bit more on the anger side. Envy gave Wrath a longing look. “No, blow it out your arse Envy!”

“See reason Wrath, she needs to know.”

“No she sure as hell doesn’t. What she should do is walk away and not look back, because she’s too stupid to see it.”

“Hey, that’s rude!” I scolded Wrath.

“Trying to use me, eh? I’m almost as neglected as your counterpart.” He said as he walked away laughing. I watched as he disappeared in the distance. I turned to Envy, but she had left as well. I now found myself alone. Except everything had changed; I wasn’t in a desert anymore. I was in nothingness, that was the only word that came to mind. There was nothing as far as eye could see. I found myself walking and turning in every direction. To find something, anything. I had begun to panic. I could then here a soft sound, the sound of sobbing.

“Is someone here?” I asked looking around. I noticed in the distance a small box. I walked toward it, and the soft sobbing became more apparent. As I grew closer, the feeling of dread started to come over me.

Author's Note

So it has been a long time since I've posted something, and I've had a few people asking when. I'll post again. I have to apologize for my absence, I was having some issues and wasn't sure if I wanted to continue writing. Thank you for reading and enjoying, it's a good feeling even just to see the views go up and even better when someone enjoys my work. I try my best and I hope you all enjoy this new chapter. I'm gonna try and keep up with my writing, thank you. Check ya all later.