Unsalvageable

I felt my will soften, new fathers' spell was fading. I know that he tries his best under the circumstances, but the fact that I only have twenty-four hours between fades is unsettling. What if I get held up and a Royal Guard finds me? I push the thought aside, I can't afford to think like this.

I have to find her before I become too weak. I can't lose my nerve before we talk, she'll walk right over me. I have to be assertive, but without new fathers help.. I just have to hurry.

Father and mother always told me I had a sister, I never met her. They said she had to go into the fields to play, that she was happy there. I still missed her, I didn't have many friends so I got lonely. It was only five years ago that I realized where my sister really was. She was a showmare who traveled across Equestria preforming magic shows. I tracked her down to Ponyville a week ago.

She lives in covered wagon, it opens up into a stage for her performances. I read about her, she caused a lot of trouble in Ponyville a few months back. From what I could gather she used a powerful amulet to take over Ponyville, she even brought an Ursa Minor to the town. I don't judge her, she grew up without father and mother. I don't know where I'd be without them, and I don't want to think about it, either.

I walk faster as time goes on, my wrath and viciousness melting with the spell. I never asked new father what it was, mainly because I'm afraid of what he'd say. I just focus on walking for now. The Everfree Forest is very dark, even with the sun rising. I run up and down the edge for a while. I grow tired, I'm weak without new father. Just before I give up I see it, a colorful wagon with paintings of magic and unicorns. I slow down to walking and begin to feel the effects of running for half a hour. I almost collapse from exhaustion, but I am able to push forward.

I watch from a short distance. I can see a silhouette of a mare through a window. She looks young, about how Cheerilee's age, maybe younger. I just sit and watch. New father told me not to be seen by anypony who I won't kill, I can't kill her. She's my sister! I can't do that. Especially without new fathers spell. Even with the spell, I don't want to kill her. But I can't talk with her either.

I watch her for as long as I can, but I do have things that need to be done. Fluttershy. She's next. Without new fathers spell I can't bear killing, I can't bear the thought or the process. But with the spell.. I can do anything. I can kill Celestia. Well, maybe that's an exaggeration, but I have no fears or regrets, that is a power in itself.

I begin the walk towards Fluttershy's cabin, I realize that I have no clue where I am, and I'm too tired to run around looking. I need help, I'm too weak to do this on my own. I need somepony to be there for me, I need more than new father can give me. His spell gives me strength, but only physical strength. I need emotional support, my mind is ruined from memories of twenty years ago. "I need my sister."

I turn right back towards her wagon and start to walk to it. I have no other choice! I need her!

"If you talk to her, if she even sees you, you will have to kill her. She can't keep this to herself, her obsession with you is more than you know, more than you can know. Be ready to do what needs to be done."

"New father, please! Don't make me hurt her, she can help us! She can be my assistant, yes! She help me with the cycle, wouldn't you like that?"

"If she even hints at revealing you, I will kill her myself."

"Oh, thank you! Thank you!" I shout almost too loud, she opens the thin curtain that blocked the window. She looks out to see who yelled, but sees nopony, as I had hid in a bush.

I wait for her to return into the wagon before exiting the brush. I know she would accept. She loves me, what I've done. My mind is made, I walk to the wagon. I step up the two small wood steps and knock twice. I hear the wood creak under her hoofsteps. She opens the door with her magic and stares at me. I smile.

"Sweet Celestia.."