Felix hung his head down as he walked out of his classroom for what he knew to be the last time, and walked to his locker, he held his books by his side, and he kept his other hand in his pocket. Felix was getting shoved by the hundreds of other teenagers in the hallway all rushing to leave school. Felix was in no hurry to get home, he couldn't stand being around his family, all of them would constantly be arguing, his entire family was greedy! They wouldn't give up a dime to save their lives! And maybe worst of all, his mother is just flat out abusive! Aside, this was his last time he'd ever be at high school again, so he might as well at least try to make it last.
He flung his locker open, this was the last day of school, so he was expected to take all his notebooks home with him, and that's exactly what he was doing. Felix swung open his locker, pulling out a few notebooks shoving them into his book bag, he looked at his short, spiky, white hair, and his solid electric blue eyes in the magnetic mirror attached to his locker.
Felix opened the heavy wooden door to his home, most of the house had hardwood floor, and the living room was no exception, though the only thing in the entire room was the floors and walls! It surely wasn't the most lively living room you'd see.
Felix walked through the empty living room into the kitchen, just like the living room it had hardly any furniture in it, aside from a fridge and an old, worn down wooden table, it was basically empty. Felix dropped his book bag onto the wooden table and sat down next to his old, wrinkled, thin, boney mother.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" She hissed.
"Sitting down..." Felix replied with a sigh.
"Didn't I tell you to clean the dog shit out of our yard?" She asked him angrily.
"No." Felix replied bluntly.
"WELL I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO TELL YA!" She shouted furiously.
"Sorry..." Felix muttered...
"Well your little sorry's ain't gonna pick up the dog shit!" She shouted.
"Yes ma'am..." Felix muttered walking out of the house.
After an entire hour and (literally) a few pounds of dog crap, Felix finally came back inside, he was about to go upstairs into his room, but his older sister of age twenty stepped in front of him, he was a giant compared to her, she was only about 5'1, while her little brother was a humungous 6'3.
"Where the fuck do you think you're going?" His brunet sister asked.
"Can you please move?" Felix asked as nicely as possible.
"Why don't you make me fucktard?" She asked smirking.
"Amanda, I don't want to fi-" She socked him in the face, Felix didn't budge from his spot. Once again she threw another punch, but still he didn't move, her punches were weak and insignificant compared to the beatings he had gotten at school.
"WHY DON'T YOU FUCKING FIGHT ME?" She shouted.
"Because I don't want to hurt you." Felix replied with a sigh.
"Then take your beating like a little bitch!" She said throwing another punch, before she could hit his face again, he grabbed her fist and bent it back, her eyes began watering, she tried to punch him in the gut with her other hand, but he grabbed that too, she attempt to trip him, but he wrapped his leg around hers.
"LET ME GO!" She cried out in pain.
"FELIX LEAVE YOUR SISTER ALONE BEFORE I BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF YOU!" His mother called.
Felix completely released her from his grasp and let her fall to the ground, he said nothing else as he walked upstairs back to his room, to his expectations, his brand new T.V. that his grandmother had bought him, was gone and likely at some pawn shop.
Felix had the only room in the house with carpet, though as luxurious as that may sound, it was awful, it was covered with stains of vomit, blood, alcohol, and smelled like dog urine. Felix's room was basically empty like the rest of the house, the only furniture he had in his room was an old, worn down, leather recliner that didn't even recline.
Felix sighed again when he walked over to the recliner and sat down, his room was burning hot from being on the 2nd floor, plus it was Summer so of course it just made everything worse, but it wasn't much better in the winter either, instead of hitting high degrees, the temperature would drop to practically nothing.
From under the burning hot recliner Felix pulled out another notebook and grabbed the pencil in his ear, he flipped through the pages hanging his head down, all the pages were covered in past schedules of misc. jobs he had done to earn money. Felix flipped until he got to the last page, the only empty one, and began writing.
Dear mom,
I know you won't be finding this letter any time soon because I know the only reason you even talk to me is to get me to do all the work around the house, so when you find this letter, you'll just be looking for me to do more work for you, by then the deed will have already been done. Now, I won't have to waste any more of your time or eat anymore of your food. In case you do feel any sorrow which I doubt you will, I left you thirty thousand dollars that I've earned the past two years, I hope that you use this money to better your life and not buy anymore drugs, please at the very least try. Not for me because I know you don't give two shits about me, but for yourself, it's your life you're destroying more than anybody else's, and you've already destroyed mine.
As little as you care for me, I still love you.
~ Felix
Felix pulled from under the sofa, about eight large wads of hundred dollar bills, all held tightly in a rubber band! Felix stood up laying the note and money on the seat and let out a sigh, he walked down the stairs keeping his head down shielding his face from any potential eye contact with his family.
It was midnight, Felix had sat on a picnic table in a park all day until night fell, laying next to him on the table was a revolver... Felix let out a sigh of relief, staying as calm as possible, and picked up the gun in front of him, it only had one bullet in it. Felix spun the chamber cylinder with his finger, the gun was old and only held a total of four bullets.
Felix held the gun up to his head, his heart was racing, his eyes wide, when he pulled the trigger he shut his eyes tight expecting his brains to splatter everywhere. He opened his eyes in slight relief, but this wasn't any ordinary game of Russian Roulette, he wanted the bullet to take his life.
Once again, he pressed the gun up to his head and shut his eyes tight. Nothing. Felix let out another sigh of relief, and swallowed hard, the gun was starting to shake in hand and his palms were getting sweaty. The boy swallowed hard and gave a slight nod to himself, expecting his life to flash before his eyes when he pulled the trigger again. Nothing.
Felix gradually pulled the gun away from his skull, he was on the last chamber, the only bullet. Felix looked at the gun, his heart still racing... But the dye had been cast, he had to finish what he started. Felix took a deep inhale and put the gun back up to his head, he forced his eyes shut tight and- Felix jerked the gun away from his head and set it down next to him.
Felix reached into his pants pocket and pulled out a single cigarette and a lighter...
"Just... One last smoke before it's all gone..." Felix muttered under his breath.
Felix put the cigarette in his mouth and lit it, taking a deep inhale and holding the smoke in for a few moments before exhaling, he shut his eyes hanging his head down in shame... He held the cigarette between his index finger and middle finger, his hands were still sweaty from the revolver which he still planned to use, the cigarette slipped from his fingers and rolled under the table.
Felix grunted and climbed off the top of the table and looked under the table, his eyes widening... Laying in front of him... Three small fillies... He'd only seen a couple horses before face to face in his entire 18 years of life, but he knew one thing for sure, horses didn't have horns, and they sure as hell didn't have wings!
The fillies were out cold, Felix picked up his cigarette and put it back in his mouth, he poked the white unicorn, when he did it rolled over moaning and groaning.
"It's alive..." Felix muttered.
He picked up the orange foal and stood up cradling it in his arms, he turned it over onto it's stomach and poked it's feathery wings.
"What the hell..." Felix said softly under his breath.
He laid the small pony on the table next to his revolver. Felix crawled under the table picking up the other two as delicately as possible and laid them next to the orange filly.
Felix hesitantly reached out for only normal looking filly that had been wearing a bow, he placed his hand on its back and it's eyes clenched shut in subconscious pain, Felix quickly jerked away not wanting to hurt her, or any of the ponies for that matter... Felix was starting to get colder and colder by the second, though he enjoyed the cold because in his words, "It makes me used to being dead, because dead people are stone cold," he knew for a fact it wasn't good for anyone, let alone a wild animal, to be in the freezing night winds. Felix sighed knowing that he had to do the moral thing and hold off on his plans...
Felix swiped the revolver from the table, he took the bullet out of the chamber and put it in his pocket along with the revolver. Felix delicately picked up the pony in his arms and began walking home.
Felix walked upstairs as quietly as possible to be sure that he wouldn't wake any of his family up, when he got upstairs he laid the fillies on the leather recliner after putting the money and notebook back under the cushion, it was no longer hot because of the sun being dead and gone. Felix WAS going to put the three on the floor, but with the carpet being rather unhygienic, he decided it was best for them to sleep on something that didn't smell like well... Dog piss.
Felix pulled out a blanket and pillow from his closet, he looked at the floor, the hair on his arms stood up and he gagged thinking about sleeping on the floor. Felix looked at his recliner where the filly slept, Felix let out a slight sigh.
Felix took the thin, ink black blanket and laid it on the floor folding it up a couple times. As quietly and gently as possible, he picked up the fillies laying them all on the blanket, he would have laid on the blanket himself, but if he laid it out flat it would be so thin he'd still be laying on the ground, but the fillies were extremely small and could fit on the blanket where it was folded up to the size of two pillows, so they wouldn't have to smell that awful scent as clearly.
Felix sat on the recliner and pulled out another cigarette and his lighter, after lighting it he took a large inhale and looked down to three laying on the blanket next to the recliner. Though he was way beyond confused, he was in a way... Relieved. To a certain extent, he really didn't want to die... Felix just wanted a reason to live, and finding them gave him a reason to keep on breathing, even if it seemed insignificant.
Felix woke up in the recliner and let out a long yawn while stretching his arms. Felix looked down to the ground, the fillies were still asleep, he figured they'd wake up soon so he walked downstairs and looked in the fridge to get them some vegetables, along with some food for himself... The fridge was, of course, empty.
Felix sighed and walked back upstairs, one of the fillies was awake! Felix took a step closer toward the filly, it took a step back.
"Don't worry, I'm not gonna hurt you." Felix said sweetly with a comforting smile.
"Wh-Who are you?" She stammered out.
"HOLLY SHIT IT TALKS!" Felix cried out backing away.
"Of course I talk, I'm not THAT young." She replied.
Felix's heart was racing, he put his face in his hands.
"This can't be happening... I'm going insane..." Felix muttered.
He moved his hands away from his face and looked back down at the unicorn, Felix rubbed his eyes and cleaned his ears with his pinkie finger.
"Say something else." Felix demanded.
"Why?" She asked confused.
"Oh my fucking god it does talk!" Felix exclaimed.
"Do your little friends talk?" Felix asked.
"Of course they do." She replied.
"Do you have a name?" Felix asked.
"It's Sweetie Belle." She replied.
"Great great... I'm Felix... Now could you maybe tell me... HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU TALK AND WHAT IS THAT THING ON YOUR HEAD?" Felix shouted becoming frustrated with the impossibilities of everything that was happening around him.
"I can talk because... I don't know actually, I guess the same way you can talk, and that's my horn!" Sweetie Belle replied annoyed by his seemingly idiotic rambling.
"No no no, YOU don't talk, HORSES, don't talk, HUMANS, talk, and HORSES, don't have horns." Felix said slowly.
"Well I do talk, and I do have a horn, and what's a human?" Sweetie Belle replied.
Felix sat down back on his chair and lit another cigarette... He looked down at the filly still looking up at him, she looked so frightened of him!
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to go off on you..." Felix said sincerely.
"It's alright." She said.
Every time she spoke it brought chills up his spine, he let out a slight sigh trying to keep himself calm.
"So, you're definitely not from around here, where did you come from?" Felix asked trying to sort everything out.
"I'm from Ponyville." She replied.
"Ponyville? What a unoriginal name..." Felix muttered.
"You mean an." Sweetie Belle corrected.
"An, a, same thing." Felix replied.
"You're supposed to say an instead of a if the word starts with a vowel." She pointed out.
"Whatever... So, how the hell did you get here?" Felix asked.
"I... I don't remember." She muttered.
"Alright so, let me get this straight, you're a baby unicorn, and you can probably cast a bunch of spells, and apparently you have better grammar then me, yet you don't even know how you got here?" Felix asked.
"I'm not a BABY unicorn, and I can't cast a bunch of spells... Also, you mean than not then." Sweetie replied.
Felix took a few deep inhales and rubbed his forehead, he took another large puff of the cigarette.
"Uhm... Felix..." Sweetie Belle said.
"What?" Felix asked grudgingly.
"I'm hungry..." She moaned.
"I don't have any food." Felix replied with a slight grunt.
"Oh... Okay." She said with a soft sigh.
Felix looked down at the small, innocent unicorn who was hanging her head down, believing she had done something wrong by Felix's rude tone.
"Felix..." Sweetie Belle muttered.
"Yes?" He asked trying to sound a little less mad.
"Do you want us to leave? I'm sure Apple Bloom or Scootaloo remembers how to get home." She muttered.
"Well... I guess if you WANT to stay here, I don't mind... But are you sure you're friends are alright?" Felix replied.
"Thanks, and I think they're alright, let me check." She replied.
Sweetie Belle walked back onto the blanket next to the orange Pegasus, she nudged her face with her hoof. The Pegasus's eyes creaked open.
"Ugh... What time is it?" She muttered.
"Scootaloo, do you remember what happened last night?" Sweetie Belle asked softly.
"N-No... Why?" Scootaloo stammered with a following yawn.
"I can't remember either, and Felix wants to know why we're here." Sweetie Belle replied no longer trying to be quiet.
"Who's Felix?" Scootaloo asked.
Sweetie Belle stepped out of the way so Scootaloo could see the tall, white haired boy sitting on the chair, he lifted his hand up waving with a nervous smile.
"WHAT IS THAT!?" Scootaloo cried out.
"He's a human." Sweetie Belle replied.
"Shh, don't be so loud!" Felix demanded.
"Sorry, just ask Apple Bloom, I'm going back to sleep." Scootaloo replied rolling over as to no longer face the two.
Sweetie Belle nudged the only semi-normal looking pony, the filly's eyes lit up in an instant, she sat up rubbing her eyes and yawning.
"Apple Bloom, do you remember what happened last night?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Err... Nope, can't member a thing." Apple Bloom replied.
"Why does your friend sound like a hillbilly?" Felix asked.
"I ain't soundin like no hillbilly." Apple Bloom snapped.
"Sure sure..." Felix muttered.
"What are we gonna do?" Sweetie Belle asked looking up to Felix.
"Well... Does anyone from your crazy ass, horse talking world know you three are here?" Felix asked.
"I think so, YEAH! Oh... I just remembered something..." Sweetie Belle swallowed hard.
"What is it?" Felix asked.
"Well, we were all spending the Summer in Manehattan with Babs, so... We're not expected home for a few months..." Sweetie Belle replied smiling nervously.
Felix's eyes widened, he began snickering and laughing! He banged his fist on the sofa arm he was laughing so hard!
"What are you laughing at?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Because... I agreed to let you stay here, and you're not going home for at the very least, three months! That means I have to wait three months before I can-" Felix stopped laughing, and he stopped speaking altogether.
"Before you can what?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Nothing... Before I can nothing..." Felix muttered and hung his head down.
"I'M HUNGRY!" The orange Pegasus whined rolling back over.
"Felix doesn't have any food..." Sweetie Belle replied.
Felix glanced down at the corner of the cushion on his chair, one of the gigantic wads of money was sticking out, he sighed and then smiled softly.
"Sure I do, I just have to go pick it up." Felix said standing up.
Felix grabbed the gigantic wad of cash and slipped a single hundred dollar bill from one of the wad, when he had pulled out the money, unknowingly, he let the notebook fall onto the ground.
"I'll be right back, DON'T leave this room, and DON'T make ANY noise, understand?" Felix commanded.
"We're not stupid." Sweetie Belle said sternly.
"Sorry, not used to horses having any real smarts! I'll be back in a few." Felix said walking down the stairs.
Scootaloo sat up and let out another yawn after Felix left, along with Apple Bloom mimicking her.
"Stop it!" Scootaloo demanded.
"Stop it!" Apple Bloom copied.
"I said STOP!" Scootaloo commanded.
"I said STOP!" Apple Bloom replied smirking.
"If you don't stop I'm gonna push you onto that stinky carpet!" Scootaloo replied.
"If you don't stop I'm gonna-" Scootaloo shoved Apple Bloom off the blanket in front of the recliner.
Apple Bloom giggled as she sat back up from the weak push. She looked under her flank, seeing the blue journal that Felix had let fall out of the cushion.
"What the hay is this?" Apple Bloom said picking up the notebook.
Felix came back upstairs about twenty minutes later, carrying a McDonalds bag, and a bag of carrots. When he got to the top his eyes widened at the sight of the three fillies flipping through the pages giggling and laughing.
"You cleaned toilets!?" Sweetie Belle asked giggling.
"I did a lot of things I'm not proud of." Felix said snatching the notebook from them and stuffing it back in the cushion.
"What's that?" Apple Bloom asked pointing to Felix's McDonalds.
"Pancakes." He replied bluntly.
"Awesome!" Scootaloo shouted snatching the bag from his hand.
Felix looked at the bag of carrots and shrugged, he sat down at the recliner and munched on them while the three ate his pancakes.
"Felix, why does this room smell so bad?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Trust me, you get used to the scent really quickly." He replied.
"You mean really quick." Sweetie Belle replied.
Felix rolled his eyes biting into another carrot.
"So... Are you three like... Sisters?" Felix asked.
"Nope." Apple Bloom replied. "Just friends."
Felix twirled one of the carrots in his hand out of boredom, he glanced down looking at Scootaloo's wings, he was still in awe by the fact that... THERE WERE TALKING PONIES IN HIS ROOM, AND ONE OF THEM HAD MAGICAL POWERS, AND THE OTHER HAD WINGS!
The three finished off Felix's pancakes and laid down on their backs letting out small burps.
"Now I'm bored." Apple Bloom complained.
"Me too." Scootaloo said.
Felix thought hard for a moment, he rubbed his chin trying to think of a place he could possibly take them... It's not like he could just keep them locked up here for three months, especially in this intense heat... The park he was at! It was the perfect place! No one ever went there, mostly because you had to be street smart enough to know how to actually get there without getting shot by some gang, but, Felix was smart enough.
"You all wanna go to a park?" Felix asked.
The three all sat up simultaneously with wide grins on their face.
"I'll... Take that as a yes." Felix said with a slight smirk.
Scootaloo and Apple Bloom where both playing in a sandbox while Felix and Sweetie Belle sat next to each other on the top of the picnic table he had found them at.
"Felix, why don't you have your friends come and play with you too?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"I don't have any friends..." Felix replied sighing.
"What? Why not?" She asked puzzled.
"Because everyone thinks I'm weird, and it's true, I'm anything but normal." Felix said with, another sigh.
"Well no ponies normal! Everypony's special! We all have our own special talents, with nopony who has the same! So nopony is really normal!" Sweetie Belle said with a wide grin.
"Yeah well I'm not a pony, nor will I ever be, here we don't do things like you do in your crazy ass world, the only thing that separates humans and apes are our ability to be judgmental ass holes... Just... Go play with your friends."
"Do you want to play with us?" Sweetie Belle asked still grinning.
"Not really." Felix said bluntly.
"If you want friends, you have to be friendly." Sweetie Belle replied smirking.
"I don't think I want to be friends with hallucinations." Felix replied.
"Hallucinations?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"There's not a chance in hell you're real!" Felix exclaimed.
"Well, I'm here, so I guess I'm real." Sweetie Belle replied.
"Listen, small, baby unicorns, don't exist! Unicorns, DON'T EXIST AT ALL! Flying ponies, DON'T EXIST! You CAN'T be real!" Felix explained.
"Sure we exist! Because I'm here!" Sweetie Belle replied.
"Then why didn't anybody see you on the way here?" Felix asked.
"Because you kept us in your jacket..." Sweetie Belle replied rolling her eyes.
"Alright fine, you're real, just go and play with your friends..." Felix commanded.
"Are you sure you don't want to come?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Yeah, I'm sure." Felix said smirking.
Sweetie Belle hopped off the table and trotted over to her two little friends in the sandbox. Felix lit another cigarette and watched the three play in the sandbox, Scootaloo was burying Apple Bloom in the sand while Sweetie Belle built a small tower. After Scootaloo finished burying Apple Bloom she helped Sweetie Belle finish her castle wall, it was actually tall enough to shield all three of them from Felix's field of vision.
"What's up loser?" A deep voice said from behind.
Felix turned around to see a tall ginger towering over him, the boy was buff and strong, looking like he could snap Felix's long thin body like a toothpick.
"What do you want Josh?" Felix asked.
"You got any money on you?" Josh asked.
"You know I don't." Felix lied, he still had the change from the hundred dollar bill.
"Bull shit, gimme what you got." Josh demanded.
"I don't have any money." Felix said sternly.
"GIMME IT!" Josh demanded shoving Felix off the table onto the grass.
"I don't have any money..." Felix replied standing back up.
"BULL SHIT!" Josh shouted at the top of his lungs.
Felix sat back on the table hanging his head down again.
"GIMME IT!" Josh demanded once again.
"Fine, you want it, you can have it." Felix said reaching into his pocket pulling out roughly seventy dollars and some change.
Josh snatched it from Felix's hand smirking, Josh could hear the nearby giggling... He looked up to see the three fillies poking their heads over the small wall spying on the two.
"What the fuck is that?" Josh asked squinting his eyes to get a better view.
"NOTHING! Just go! You got my money! Goodbye!" Felix said quickly.
Josh began walking towards the three, they gasped and ducked back under to hide from him. Josh kept walking towards the three, Felix jumped up from the table and grabbed onto Josh's hand.
"You faggot! Let go of me!" Josh demanded.
"NO!" Felix shouted.
"LET GO OF ME BEFORE I KNOCK YOUR FUCKING TEETH OUT!" Josh said getting into Felix's face.
Felix glanced over to the three cowering fillies then looked back into the eyes of Josh, Felix pulled back his head, and bashed it into Josh's! Josh stumbled trying to walk, even with the the ground being flat, he now had a brand new large bump on his forehead, once he regained his balance he stood up and ran away leaving a thin trail of tears. Felix had a smile of disbelief, he had never, through all the several years of bullying, gotten the balls to actually hit Josh! He was overwhelmed with a sense of pride for himself!
Felix proudly walked over to the three, still smiling with the pride of his previous actions.
"Why'd ya do that?" Apple Bloom asked Felix when he sat down next to the in front of their little wall.
"I just think it'd be better if we didn't tell anyone you all are here, like I said, humans are pricks." Felix said with a slight sigh of relief that Josh didn't knock him on his ass.
"Did that guy take all your money?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Na, I held onto some so we could go get something after this." Felix replied still smiling.
Felix lit another cigarette taking an inhale.
"Can I have one of those!?" Scootaloo asked grinning.
Felix looked down to Scootaloo with a puzzled smile.
"I don't think you'd want one..." Felix replied.
"Please! Can I at least try yours!?" Scootaloo begged.
"I-" Scootaloo fluttered into the air with her wings were Felix held the cigarette, she put her mouth around the filter mimicking how she saw Felix do it and taking a small inhale before falling back to the ground coughing in agony by her burning lungs.
"Told you so." Felix said.
"Why do you use that thing if it makes you do that?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"After you do it for a little while, it doesn't make you cough like that." Felix replied taking another puff then spitting out Scootaloo's spit.
"You're not supposed to lick the filter!" Felix scolded.
"I feel woozy..." Scootaloo muttered.
"It'll go away in a few minutes." Felix replied wiping the filter off with his shirt then taking a puff.
"Can I try some?" Sweetie Belle asked enthusiastically.
"No." Felix said sternly.
"But Scootaloo got to." Sweetie Belle muttered.
"Yeah and now she's paying the price for it." Felix replied rolling his eyes.
"Then can I try?" Apple Bloom asked grinning wide.
"Seriously? No!" Felix said sternly once again.
"Well why not?" Apple Bloom asked.
"Because it's bad for you!" Felix exclaimed.
"Then why are ya using it?" Apple Bloom asked.
"Because I don't care that it's bad for me, I'll be dead before it can actually hurt me." Felix blurted out getting annoyed by their pestering.
"Dead?" Sweetie Belle repeated.
"Never mind, forget what I said." Felix commanded letting out a sigh.
Felix stood up and sat back up on the table leaving the three to play for a few more hours while he smoked away his pack of cigarettes until it was dusk. The three can trotting over to him all giggling from their play time.
"Ready to go?" Felix asked.
"I don't wanna have to go in your jacket again." Scootaloo said.
Felix thought for a minute, and then, an idea struck him! Felix picked up Sweetie Belle and sat her on the table, with his hand, he pulled all of her mane into the front of her face to hide the majority of her small horn that blended in well with the mane.
"I can't see." Sweetie Belle said bluntly.
Felix moved her mane out of her eyes just enough for her to see.
Felix smiled proudly and then look down at Scootaloo, he thought for just a minute on how he could cover up her small wings... Felix glanced at his jacket and then smiled again, he wrapped his jacket around Scootaloo's torso to hide her wings.
"There, you three can just walk now." Felix said smirking.
"Wait, aren't humans gonna flip out when they see horses?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"How'd you think of that?" Felix asked.
"I broke the 4th wall." She replied bluntly.
"The what?" Felix asked.
"Pinkie Pie taught me." She replied proudly.
"Right... Well I don't think too many people will notice as long as we take alleyways and stay away from active streets." Felix replied.
Felix sat in his chair, sipping a slushy, the three sitting on the blanket drinking theirs as well. After the three finished the last of the slushies, they laid down and drifted off to sleep, aside from Sweetie Belle, she jumped onto Felix's lap.
"Shouldn't you be in bed?" Felix asked.
"I just wanted to... Ask you something." Sweetie Belle stammered.
"Shoot." Felix replied.
"Do you... Do you hate us?" Sweetie Belle stammered out.
"I don't hate anybody." Felix replied taking a sip of his slushie.
"Well, do you not want us around?" She asked.
"I don't mind you three being around, it's kinda nice to be around others, even if I'm not entirely sure you exist." Felix replied.
"Do you Pinkie Promise you're okay with us being around?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Sure..." Felix replied.
"You gotta say it." She said.
"Say what?" Felix asked.
"You gotta say, cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye!" She explained.
"Alright... Cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye?" Felix repeated.
"You know, I'm not sure that you exist." Sweetie Belle said
"Of course I exist! I'm right here aren't I?" He asked, and then his eyes widened, let out a slight chuckle instantly realizing the irony in the previous sentence.
"It's nice to be around someone as nice as you." Sweetie Belle said hugging onto his torso.
Felix's eyes lit up, he smiled softly and tilted his head down.
"Thanks, now, get to bed." Felix said softly.
To his surprise, Sweetie Belle laid down in his lap! His eyes widened again, and he smiled softly, Felix laid his head back and went to sleep himself.
Over the next few weeks, they went through the same routine, wake up, buy breakfast, go to the park, and the three would play under Felix's supervision, then buy some type of snack before going home to bed, every night one of the fillies would change who slept in Felix's lap. During all this time, his mother hardly said a word to him, and his sister completely ignored him.
Felix had completely forgotten about his notebook and his plans with the revolver, it was left under the cushion untouched, the three took up all his time and well, he enjoyed it! He hadn't had any real friends since he was 10 before he became depressed, unless you count the pit bull that constantly bit him.
Tonight was a completely different night though, Felix was walking through the good parts of Manhattan, he rarely came over to this part, mostly because he didn't know anybody, but the other day his mother had discussed him moving out, and he was overwhelmed with joy when she told him she didn't want him there anymore.
Felix was looking at apartment complex's, hoping to find a decent apartment, and he eventually did! He could easily pay the bills with his savings, and he planned on getting a REAL job where it'd be a consistent payment instead of just odd jobs.
Felix carried his leather recliner into the apartment, he set it down right against the wall. The three filly's came in looking around, Sweetie Belle shook her head to get her mane out of her eyes and back to it's normal state, and Scootaloo took off his jacket laying it down on the chair
"I'll be right back." Felix said walking out of the apartment.
Felix had practically forgotten about them being ponies! To them they were just well, young children! Felix hardly ever smoked a cigarette anymore, on a rare occasion he'd light one up and usually wouldn't even smoke it all. Felix still had a good 26 grand remaining, even after the down payment for the apartment and buying a few pieces of furniture for the three fillies and a small TV for himself.
Felix walked back upstairs carrying a used mini fridge in his arms, he couldn't really afford a full fridge with his current budget, but this would still work just fine. Felix sat it down in the kitchen and sighed in relief, he had finally set up the entire home.
The three fillies had a room of their own, though they still had to share a bed, at least they actually had a bed now. Felix also had purchased himself a bed, and he had finally managed to fix his recliner after enough work on it, so it would recline again.
Felix whipped his hands on his jeans to clean them off a bit, he cracked his back and smiled proudly. Felix let out a slight yawn, he looked at his brand new home, full of pride and joy, and then looked at his three little fillies, he hung his head down to hide the smile on his face.
On any other day, Felix walked from his bedroom in the early morning yawning and stretching. His three little fillies were still asleep. Felix began making breakfast, he had already made the batter for the pancakes, while he let the burner start, Felix swiftly ate a piece of ham from the fridge that he had hidden, he knew the three were naturally vegetarians, so he really didn't want to offend them by eating meat around them.
The burner was ready and hot, Felix poured the batter into the skillet and let it cook, he leaned up against the wall with his arms crossed in his blue pajamas, he crossed his now well toned arms, over the past few weeks Felix had been working out, not with weights, but he had found a decent paying job! It mostly consisted of moving peoples furniture for them to their new homes, he only had to go about three times a week, but even at the end of the month he racked in a nice three grand, plus he still had a large portion of that previous money, and the lifting of heavy furniture helped him build up a lot of muscle.
The wall phone rung, Felix's eyes lit up from him dozing off to sleep, he grabbed the phone from the wall and held it against his ear half asleep.
"Y-Yes?" Felix asked.
"Is Felix there?" A female voice asked.
"Speaking." Felix replied yawning.
"Felix... Mom wants you to come home..." She replied.
Felix shook his head and rubbed his eyes, he realized who this was now, this was his older sister...
"Tell her to piss off." Felix said roughly.
"Felix, really, she misses you." His sister replied sincerely.
"Why? Can't you pick up the dog shit for once? Or take out the trash? OR GET A FUCKING JOB?" Felix shouted into the phone becoming frustrated by the flooding memories of well... Everything. The minor mention of his mother and talking to his sister infuriated him, it brought him back to the thoughts of the revolver...
"Felix please calm down." She said sweetly.
"NO! FUCK YOU, AND FUCK MOM!" He shouted into the phone.
"Felix would you PLEASE listen to me." She begged.
"You have 60 seconds." He replied.
"Mom wants you to come home because she loves you, and misses you." She said as sweetly, and sincerely as possible.
"Aww really?" He said with a fake smile even though she couldn't see it.
"Yes, really, she says she loves you." The girl replied.
"Aww... Well tell her I said she can PISS OFF!" Felix slammed the phone back into its spot on the wall.
Felix walked back over to the pancakes, flipping the few small ones that were currently in it, the phone rang again... Felix grunted and picked it back up.
"I thought I told you to piss off." Felix said becoming annoyed.
"Felix please! Just come home!" She pleaded.
"I am home." Felix replied proudly and smiling.
"FELIX, I'M GETTING REAL SICK OF YOUR BULL SHIT! IF YOU DON'T COME HOME, I'M GONNA COME THERE AND BEAT THE LIVING FUCK OUT OF YOU!" The girl shouted into the phone.
"Listen to me Amanda, you keep your grubby little hands away from me, you keep your greedy, racist ass anywhere but near me, and so help me, if you even come near my home or my family, I will slit your throat, and that's not a threat, it's a Pinkie fucking Promise." Felix said slamming the phone down again.
He got the pancakes out of the skillet, ignoring the phone that continued to ring.
"Girls! Breakfast is ready!" Felix called out.
The three came trotting out of their bedroom, running over to the small wooden table, Scootaloo fluttered onto the wooden chair, while Sweetie Belle levitated Apple Bloom and herself onto their seats. Over time, Felix had been practicing with both of them, as for Sweetie Belle's magic, he would have her levitate small objects like glass cups, and gradually worked her way up until she was able to lift her own body weight and then some with ease!
He taught Scootaloo how to fly better by pretty much telling her how he saw birds do it, he had no idea if it'd work or not, but it did! She would continuously jump off the recliner being able to maintain altitude for longer and longer time periods doing exactly as Felix explain, even if he was just pulling it out of his ass.
Everybody was happy, Felix had not a single thought about another suicide attempt, and he avoided talking to his mother and sister at all costs, all three of the fillies were also happy with their lives, no school, constant playing, and to top it off, Felix was a great cook! Just like Felix avoided speaking about his family, they avoided speaking about theirs.
"Felix, can we go to the park after breakfast?" Scootaloo asked grinning.
"Sorry Scootaloo, I've gotta go to work in half an hour, when I get back we can all go though, I think I only have to work a few hours today, and I'll even pack a lunch when we go." Felix replied smiling.
"Will ya make the apple pie with that crumbly stuff on it?" Apple Bloom asked with a wide grin.
"Sure." Felix replied smiling.
It was early afternoon, Felix was walking home in a white beater drenched in his own sweat, though it had been a short work period, but damn it was exhausting. Felix unlocked the door walking inside to see his three fillies sitting on the recliner watching TV, Felix walked over to see the three were watching a rerun of Dragon Ball Z Kai, the three watched every single attack and action that was done.
"Hi Felix!" Sweetie Belle said not taking her eyes off the screen.
"Hey, are you guys ready to go to the park?" Felix asked.
"Can we finish watching this?" Scootaloo asked.
"Sure, I gotta pack lunch anyways." Felix replied smirking.
Felix walked into the kitchen, he laid out eight slices of bread and began spreading jelly and peanut butter on them all. The phone rang, Felix set down the butter knife and picked it up.
"Hello?" Felix asked.
"Felix, I need to borrow some money." A female voice said.
"Who's this?" Felix asked.
"It's Amanda." She replied.
"What the fuck do you need money for? To buy some more pills?" Felix asked sternly.
"No, me and mom are going to go to rehab." Amanda replied.
"Than go, you don't need my money to go to rehab, just go to the one at a hospital." Felix replied.
"Felix, please, we don't want to go to a shitty rehab clinic, we wanna go to a nice one in Cali." Amanda replied.
"You know what, you're a piece of shit, I hope you know that, you take, and you take, and then you just ask for more without even considering how people feel about what you do." Felix replied becoming furious with his sister's moronic request.
"Well that's your opinion." She replied.
"Well that's your fucking problem! You NEVER take anyone's opinion into consideration! If you did that then you'd be able to quit doing this bull shit!" Felix exclaimed.
"I'M DOING THIS FOR MY DAUGHTER!" Amanda shouted into the phone.
"APPARENTLY THAT'S NOT ENOUGH FUCKING ENCOURAGEMENT FOR YA!" Felix shouted into the phone.
"YOU KNOW WHAT, FINE, I DON'T NEED YOUR FUCKING MONEY, FUCK YOU!" Amanda shouted back.
"Piss off." Felix said bluntly and then slammed the phone down... Again.
Felix sighed, he walked back over to the bread and began spreading the last of the peanut butter, then phone rang again. Felix grunted and picked it up.
"What do you want?" Felix asked sternly.
"Can you at least watch Karsynn? (Pronounced as Carsin)" She asked.
"Why should I?" Felix asked smirking.
"Because you're my little brother, you have to because I'm your boss, and you've never done anything for me besides taking the bigger room that smelled like dog piss." Amanda replied.
"Are you fucking serious? You think you're my boss? I only graduated a month and a half ago from high school, and you two threw me out! Yet you're still my boss? How fucking dare you, how DARE you tell ME that I owe you something, I don't owe you SHIT! All my childhood you tormented me, beat me half to death, and teased me! And you have to NERVE to even CONSIDER calling me and asking for a favor!" Felix said furiously into the phone.
"FELIX JUST WATCH THE FUCKING BABY OR I'LL KICK YOUR ASS!" She shouted.
"Remember what I told you... What was it? Oh yeah I remember now! Piss off." Felix replied hanging up the phone again.
Felix smiled, proud of himself for standing his ground, he folded up the sandwiches, Felix grabbed an apple pie from the fridge and placed it next to the PB&J's.
"Is your show over yet?" Felix called out.
Felix looked down to see the three waiting for him.
"Here, you three go get the basket, I'm gonna check the weather real quick." Felix said softly.
The three took off into their room, while Felix channel surfed on the TV.
My Little Pony- Felix switched the channel back to The Hub, his eyes lit up at the sight of what his eyes saw, his three fillies that lived with him were on the TV screen... Felix just stared for a moment, he had never seen this show in his entire life, mostly because he hardly watched TV aside to check the weather, but now he was far beyond confused.
"We found it!" Apple Bloom called out while the three walked into the living room.
Felix quickly turned off the TV and grinned nervously, without saying anything he took the basket from the three and placed the food in it.
The three fillies were playing tag while Felix sat on the picnic table again with a cigarette in his mouth, he tapped his foot frantically thinking hard. How do I tell them? What do I do? Do they know? Have they seen the show? That rhymed! No no, stay focused, are they gonna freak out? Should I even tell them? Maybe they won't care! Or maybe they'll hate me! But why would they? It's not really lying if I don't tell them...
"Tag you're it!" Scootaloo said pressing her hoof against Felix's leg, he shook the thoughts away and forced a smile, Felix chased after the three who were laughing as he jogged towards them, of course he wasn't actually running at full speed to catch them, that'd be unfair, just enough to tag one of them. Felix was right about to tag Scootaloo, but she shot up into the air!
"Hey! That's not fair!" Apple Bloom shouted out.
"Tag, you're it." Felix said tapping Apple Bloom on her back when she stopped to shout at Scootaloo.
"Scootaloo, no flying!" Apple Bloom demanded.
Scootaloo sighed and landed far away from Apple Bloom, who then rushed at Scootaloo while Felix walked away with a slight smirk sitting back down on the table. Felix tried his best not to think about the TV show anymore, but the harder he tried to forget about it, the more his brain urged to him think about what to do.
Felix lit a cigarette to clear his mind, but for once, this didn't help calm him down... His brain was still rushing, the thought still pounded into his head. Then, he did what he'd do to keep his mind clear when he didn't have a cigarette....
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"Felix! Scootaloo pushed me in the sand!" Sweetie Belle cried out.
"NU UH!" Scootaloo shouted.
"YES YOU DID!" Sweetie Belle shouted.
"Guy's, play nice or no pie for any of you!!" Felix called back.
Felix laid down in bed, his three little foals were sound asleep in their bedroom while Felix tried his best to get comfortable and follow in their lead to fall asleep, and after an hour or so, he managed to drift off to sleep...
Felix walked into living room, the three fillies were all sitting on the recliner, stunned by the sight they were seeing on the TV, Felix glanced at the TV, he was looking at the same scene he had seen on the TV yesterday, the three riding the scooter down the road with Pinkie Pie in the wagon explaining how she got her cutie mark.
They looked over to Felix in disbelief, their eyes all watered up, none saying anything to him for a moment... He was speechless, his mouth got dry and a lump built up in his throat.
"Why... Why didn't you tell us?" Scootaloo asked as the tears rolled down her cheek.
"I... I... I didn't think it was a big deal..." Felix replied nervously, his voice shaking.
"Then you could have just told us... You... You lied to us!" Sweetie Belle exclaimed.
"I'm sorry! I really didn't think you'd care!" Felix protested.
"To think we trusted ya!" Apple Bloom shouted.
"But it's not a big deal!" Felix called out.
"You lied, and for what? For your OWN SELFISH GAIN!" Sweetie Belle shouted. "Now I see what you mean, humans DO suck."
And in an instant, they were gone... Felix was sitting back in his old room at his mothers house, listening to the shouting and screaming from downstairs, he was only about ten years old now, his father was sitting upstairs next to his sister and some of his bar friends, they were all chugging down Budweiser, including his sister who was only 12! Felix hung his head down and shut his eyes tight, he put his hands over his ears and began shaking back and forth.
"Here boy, this'll calm ya down." His father said handing him the same Zippo lighter that Felix used, along with a cigarette.
Felix swiped the cigarette from his fathers hand along with the lighter, he quickly lit it and took an extremely deep inhale, taking about half the cigarette in a single hit.
"Yer boy there's got some lungs of steel don't he?" One of his bar buddies said.
"Yep, his momma smoke while she was preggers, so he's used to smoke." His father replied.
"Do it again boy." His father demanded.
Felix smoked the rest of the cigarette in a single hit, tears rolled down his cheeks, not from the pain of his burning lungs, but the way all the drunk men stared at him in awe, astonished by his odd talent in smoking, it caused him to be afraid... To be very afraid. The cigarette was gone, all the way down to the filter before Felix exhaled the smoke coughing in agony.
"Damn! I wonder if he can do that with a blunt!" One of the men exclaimed.
"Na." Another said.
"Here, lets see!" His father suggested.
His father pulled out from his pocket, a long, thick, rolled up brown paper, he handed it to his son with a slight smirk.
"Go on boy, light it up!" His father exclaimed.
Felix hesitated, but then grabbed the blunt and put it in his mouth, Felix lit it up like a cigarette, and took a deep inhale, he smoked it for a good fifty seconds, until it was nothing more, than a roach...
All the men roared with laughter and applause, Felix began coughing in an intense pain, he beat his fist on the ground in complete agony, his lungs were burning and he couldn't get the awful taste out of his mouth no matter how much he spit onto the ground, Felix rolled over on the ground coughing and gagging, and passed out...
He awoke about five hours later, his father and the men were all passing a needle around, injecting it into their arms... Felix's eyes widened as he watched each of them jab themselves with the needle... He, was petrified. Felix stood up, still dazed by the plant his father had demanded he smoke, he ran down stairs, crying.
Felix tripped on the top step, tumbling down the stairs, when he landed he let out screams of pain, his leg was snapped in half!
"STOP WHINING YOU LITTLE BITCH!" His mother shouted to him from the kitchen.
Felix jumped up from the bed, drenched in his own sweat, he was rapidly breathing and his vision was blurred. He rubbed his eyes and shook his head trying to regain his sanity, because right now, all he could think about was the revolver.
"Felix, are you okay?" A thin voice asked.
Felix looked down at Sweetie Belle, she was wearing a light pink nightgown that he had made for her, customized just for a pony.
"I... I'm fine..." He muttered.
"Did you have a nightmare?" She asked softly.
"How'd you know?" Felix asked.
"I heard you screaming in your sleep..." Sweetie Belle replied.
"Yeah... Yeah I had a nightmare." Felix replied with a soft sigh.
"Do you wanna tell me about it? Rarity used to have me tell her about my nightmares whenever I'd wake up in the middle of the night, and then she'd sing me back to sleep." Sweetie Belle explained with a slight smile.
"It... It wasn't really a nightmare, it was more of just... A memory, a bad... Bad memory..." Felix replied sighing.
"Do you want me to at least sing you back to sleep?" She offered with a sweet smile.
"No thanks." Felix replied smiling by her sweet gesture.
Sweetie Belle hopped onto his bed and laid down at the bottom of his bed between his ankles were his feet hung off the bed. Felix smiled softly and laid back down, he didn't sleep another minute all night.
Felix walked to the door of the apartment.
"Aww, you gotta work two days in a row?" Scootaloo asked sadly.
"Yeah, sorry, somebody around here's got to pay the bills." Felix replied with a slight smile.
"Be back soon!" Sweetie Belle said waving to him from the recliner.
Felix forced a smile and waved back to her.
He had lied to them, Felix was now sitting at a library computer, Felix was trying to put all the pieces of the puzzle together by using this magical thing called... Google.
"Lets see... Scootaloo" Felix muttered as he rapidly typed on the keyboard.
Felix clicked on the wiki page and began reading under his breath.
"Scootaloo... a school-age Pegasus pony... One of the Cutie Mark Crusaders... Not yet capable of flying... She greatly idolizes Rainbow Dash... Scootaloo is the only member of the Cutie Mark Crusaders not related to a main character." Felix muttered as he read.
Felix shook his head and rubbed his eyes, and began typing into the search engine.
"My Little Pony, Friendship Is Magic." Felix muttered as he typed.
"Lets see here... My Little Pony... Animated Television show... Hasbro... Lauren Faust..." Felix continued to mutter under his breath. Felix continued searching up things about My Little Pony, including the brony community! He was astonished by the large amount of grown men who watched what was supposed to be a child's show, after an hour or so of searching, logged out and sighed softly.
When Felix stood up, Josh was standing behind him snickering and laughing.
"You really are a faggot aren't you?" Josh said smirking.
"Listen mate, I gotta get home." Felix said sincerely.
"I got a bone to pick with you, especially after you pulled that shit at the park." Josh said still smirking.
"Alright fine, we can fight later, but right now I really-" Josh cut him off.
"No, right here, right now!" Josh demanded.
"We'll go outside!" Felix whispered.
Felix and Josh both stood outside the library, Felix had his arms crossed and let out a slight yawn while he waited for Josh to make the first move.
"You gonna do somethin?" Josh asked smirking.
"Can we just make this quick?" Felix asked while rolling his eyes.
"Don't worry, it'll only take one shitty shot and you'll be out cold." Josh said smirking.
Josh charged at Felix, he didn't budge, even when Josh smashed his fist in his face. Felix rolled his eye again, and grabbed onto Josh's hair, ramming his fist into Josh's face, letting Josh fall to the ground with a bleeding nose, and walked off...
Felix walked back inside his home, he could hear the three giggling and laughing at play in their bedroom, Felix opened their door and popped his head inside with a smile smile.
"Daddy's back!" The three announced simultaneously with joy.
Felix smiled in disbelief, they had never said anything close to dad, they always would just call him Felix like everybody else, Felix let out a sigh and smirked. He felt so prideful that he could be called a father...
One day though, Felix picked up phone and leaned against the wall listening to his sister.
"Felix, can you PLEASE keep Karsynn for the week?" Amanda begged.
"Why should I?" Felix asked smugly.
"Even though you're an idiot, and you don't believe me that you' owe me a shit load, I'll fucking pay you." Amanda said giving in to his non existent demands.
"What makes you think I'd want money?" Felix asked laughing.
"Because you won't do it out of the kindness of your heart, plus you're broke." Amanda replied.
Felix started snickering and laughing hard then held the phone back up to his ear.
"Mate, I've got more money then I know what to do with! Remember how I was always gone when I still lived with you two ass holes? I was out WORKING, something you two don't know how to do! I've still got a ton of that money left, and I've got a great paying job!" Felix said laughing hard.
"Then what DO you want?" Amanda asked.
"I want you to say, I Amanda, am a cunt eating, little bitch, who never graduated high school, I have an ego bigger than the fucking sun, even though I'm flat chested and have no ass, or any education past elementary school." Felix demanded smirking.
"I Amanda, am a cunt eating, little bitch, who never graduated high school, I have an ego bigger than the fucking sun, even though I'm flat chested and have no ass, or any education past elementary school." She repeated grudgingly.
"Also I want to punch you in the face." Felix said smirking still.
"WHAT! YOU NEVER SAID-"
"Bring her over in an hour or so." Felix interrupted laughing as he hung up the phone.
Felix walked back into the three fillies room, he bit his lip when he entered their room interrupting their play time.
"Listen... I might need you three to stay in your room for a while..." Felix stammered out.
"Why? Did we do something wrong?" Scootaloo asked.
"No no, it's just my niece is coming over and-" Apple Bloom cut him off.
"Do we getta meet her?" Apple Bloom asked grinning.
"Well... No, that's actually why I need you three to stay in here..." Felix said grinning nervously.
"How long are we gonna have to stay in here then?" Sweetie Belle asked.
"Like 5... 7 days..." Felix said nervously.
"What are we gonna eat!?" Scootaloo asked panicking.
"Don't worry, I'll bring you food." Felix replied.
"I don't wanna stay in here for seven days!" Sweetie Belle cried out.
"I know I know... Just trust me, it's for the greater good." Felix said with a reassuring smile.
"Okay, we trust you." They said simultaneously.
He had gotten used to the hole talking horse thing, and the wings, not to mention the magic, but the way they could speak simultaneously still brought chills up his back.
"Try and be as quiet as possible, I'll come check on you three every now and then." Felix said still keeping the reassuring smile on his face, the three nodded as he shut the door.
Felix opened the door, looking down he saw a small girl hanging her head down, she hair short, spiky black hair. Felix smiled seeing his young niece.
"Hi Karsynn!" Felix said joyfully.
"Hi..." She muttered walking into the apartment.
Karsynn seemed to be extremely quiet...
"Do you wanna play a game?" Felix offered.
"No..." Karysnn muttered.
"Do you wanna watch TV?" Felix offered.
"No..." Karsynn muttered again.
"Err... Are you hungry?" Felix asked.
"No..." Karsynn repeated.
"Do you want to... Draw?" Felix said grinning nervously.
"No..." Karsynn said again.
"Do you want to do ANYTHING?" Felix asked.
"No..." Karsynn said, AGAIN!
Felix frowned looking down at the small, depressed little girl. Felix thought for a moment, then his eyes lit up, he had a little... Flashback.
Felix was five years old, he hadn't dyed his hair yet so it was still short and blonde. He remembered always sitting around, moping, and more than anything else, crying... Crying that he didn't get any attention, crying that his parents never were around him, just... Crying. And he stayed this way until he was about nine, that's when his father became addicted to several drugs, but the drugs seemed to get Felix some attention, but it was never any fun to watch his father inject needles into his arm, or drink bottles of alcohol every day. And Felix recognized that look on Karysnn's face, depression, and more then anything, the utter heartbreak was so visible in her eyes that another five year old could recognize it.
Felix looked back down to the girl, she was sniffing and her eyes were watering up...
"Do you wanna see my horses?" Felix asked nervously.
Her eyes lit up, she looked up to Felix astonished by his offer.
"Horse's??" She asked with a wide grin.
"Yep, they're SUPER special, and SUPER secret, so if I show them to you, you've gotta promise me that you won't tell anybody!" Felix explained.
"I promise!" She said excitedly.
"No, you've gotta Pinkie Promise." Felix said sternly.
"Okay." She said holding out her pinkie finger.
"No, you've gotta say, I cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye!" He explained.
"I cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye." She said enthusiastically
Felix smiled softly and hoped with every ounce of blood that he wouldn't regret this...
"I'll be right back." Felix said to her
Felix opened the door to the fillies room, they were all sitting quietly, and doing absolutely... Nothing.
"Do you three want to meet my niece?" Felix asked smiling.
"Can we talk near her?" Sweetie Belle whispered.
"Yep." Felix said grinning.
"Really? Why?" Scootaloo asked.
"Well... I just think she'd feel a lot better if she... Just get your flanks out here." Felix commanded with a smirk.
The three trotted out of their bedroom into the living room, the small girl looked at them curiously, while the three looked uneasy at the sight of another human...
"Go on, say something." Felix encouraged them.
"Uh... How ya doin?" Apple Bloom said uneasy to the small girl.
Her eyes widened, a wide grin stretched across her face.
"TALKING HORSEY!" She cried out.
The small girl ran over to Apple Bloom hugging her tightly around the neck. Felix leaned against the wall his his arms crossed, he smiled as he watch the four begin playing... Felix watched as Sweetie Belle levitated Karysnn a few feet in the air.
Karsynn stayed the entire week, now she was supposed to go home in the morning... The entire week went by smoothly, Karysnn quickly had a change in attitude, she was excited to be alive! Everything about her personality seemed to light up when she was around the ponies, she was so loving and attentive now!
"C'mon dad! Wake up!" Scootaloo commanded.
Felix rolled over on his bed and looked up to see Scootaloo hovering above him with Karsynn on her back holding on tight, Felix smiled softly and stood up. There was a knock on the door the moment he woke up, Felix rubbed his eyes and cracked his back.
"Alright Karsynn, say goodbye." Felix said to the small girl on Scootaloo's back.
"Aww... But I wanna stay with you!" Karysnn protested.
"I know, I'm gonna miss having you around." Felix said smirking.
"I can still come visit you and the ponies though... Right?" Karysnn asked.
"Of course you can!" Felix exclaimed.
"Ya!" Karysnn shouted with joy.
"Remember though, you Pinkie Promised not to tell ANYONE about this." Felix said.
"What if I break the Pinkie Promise?" Karysnn asked.
"Then you can't come see the ponies, EVER again." Felix exclaimed.
"I Pinkie Promise!" Karysnn exclaimed quickly.
Felix smiled and pulled Karysnn off Scootaloo's back and took her to her mother, Felix looked down at his younger sister with a slight smile.
"You two went to rehab... Right?" Felix asked hopeful.
"Yep." Amanda replied with a slight smile of relief.
"Good, because..." Felix leaned in close and whispered into her ear.
"I watched our parents lives fall apart because of drugs, don't make the same mistake." Felix whispered handing Karysnn to her.
"Bye uncle Felix!" Karysnn said waving.
"Oh by the way..." Felix knocked Amanda on the ground with a single blow.
"FELIX!" Karysnn cried out.
"No no, it's fine." Amanda said reassuring her small child.
"Are you okay mommy?" Karsynn asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine, he owed me that." Amanda said smiling and stood back up with a black eye.
Felix smiled and waved to Karsynn again as they walked down the hallway, Felix shut and locked the door and smiled softly to himself. His three "children" were standing behind him, all mimicking his smile.
"Did you three have fun?" Felix asked.
"It was great! She was so nice!" Sweetie Belle exclaimed.
"Yep! And she loved gettin rides!" Apple Bloom pointed out.
"She liked flying on my back more!" Scootaloo said proudly.
"NU UH!" Apple Bloom shouted.
"YEAH HU!" Scootaloo said getting in Apple Blooms face.
"Please, she liked being levitated more!" Sweetie Belle said proudly.
Felix let out a slight chuckle. "Well, I'm glad you had fun." He said smirking.
There was another knocked on the door, Felix opened the door confused by his sister's reappearance. The three fillies trotted off the moment they heard the knock knowing they weren't to be seen by anyone.
"Yes?" Felix asked curiously.
"WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY DAUGHTER?" Amanda shouted at the top of her lungs.
"I took care of her?" Felix replied confused.
"NO! DID YOU FUCKING TOUCH HER!? SHE SAID THAT IF SHE TOLD ANYBODY ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK SHE'D GET IN TROUBLE! WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?" Amanda shouted furiously.
"Calm down-" Felix was cut off by the sound of shouting.
"NU UH!" Apple Bloom shouted.
"YEAH HU!" Scootaloo shouted back.
"NU UH!" Sweetie Belle shouted.
"YOU HAVE OTHER LITTLE GIRLS HERE TO?" Amanda shouted furiously.
"What are you talking about?" Felix asked nervously.
"I'M CALLING THE POLICE!" Amanda exclaimed pulling out her cell phone.
Felix snatched her crappy go phone from her hand and broke it in his palm.
"I can't let you do that! They'll... They'll take away my little girls!" Felix said not realizing what his sister was assuming.
"FELIX! WHAT YOU'RE DOING IS WRONG! YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO PEOPLE!" Amanda shouted.
"Calm the fuck down!" Felix demanded.
"NO! YOU NEED SOME SERIOUS HELP! I'M GONNA CALL THE COPS WHEN I GET HOME!" She said walking off.
Felix grabbed onto Amanda's free hand.
"No!" Felix shouted.
"LET GO OF ME!" Amanda demanded.
"NO! YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME!" Felix cried out.
"YOU'RE MOLESTING LITTLE GIRLS! THIS IS A PROBLEM THAT NEEDS TO BE SOLVED!" Amanda shouted.
Felix stood stunned for a moment, the previous events that had just happened were running through his head, and he began snickering realizing the misunderstanding.
"THIS ISN'T FUNNY FELIX! YOU NEED SOME SERIOUS FUCKING HELP!" Amanda shouted.
Felix sighed, he realized there was only one way to prevent his sister from destroying his life... He pulled her into the apartment building while she held onto Karysnn, Amanda began screaming and kicking trying to get him to let go, but she failed... Felix put his hand over her mouth and locked the door when he threw her inside.
"LET ME GO!" She demanded.
Felix sat Karsynn down on the recliner, and grabbed onto his sister again.
"LET GO!" She shouted again.
Felix pulled her through the living room into his daughter's room, her eyes widened when she saw the three fillies sitting down and giggling at play, they all stopped talking and laughing the moment they saw a human, as swiftly as possible, Sweetie Belle flung her mane over her horn and stood completely still, Scootaloo sat behind Apple Bloom to avoid the sight of her wings.
"You can stop with the act now." Felix said.
Apple Bloom looked at him curiously, and he gave a slight nod.
"Who the hay is that?" Apple Bloom asked.
"HOLLY SHIT THEY TALK!" Amanda cried out.
"I said the same thing..." Felix muttered.
Amanda began doing what Felix did under realization, she began snickering and laughing, she placed her hands in her face and laughed more, Felix let go of her and crossed his arms smirking.
"It all makes sense now... These are who you were talking to... I thought you were just crazy! Talking to yourself upstairs and doing fake accents, but no that wasn't it... You were talking to magical horses!" She explained to herself laughing.
"You do realize you can't tell ANYBODY about them, right?" Felix asked sternly.
"Yeah... Yeah I won't tell anybody." She said smiling softly.
"Going to rehab really changed your attitude, didn't it?" Felix asked.
"Yeah, I'm feeling emotions I haven't felt in forever! All those stupid fucking drugs, they suppressed so much..." Amanda said with a slight smile.
"Amanda... Now that you know about them, I have to kill you." Felix said solemely.
"W-WHAT!?" She cried out in horror.
Felix began snickering and laughing again.
"I'm just fucking with you, get outta here before I really do have to kill you." Felix said smirking.
"Bye bub, I love you." She said walking out of their room.
Felix smiled hanging his head down, Felix hadn't heard her say she loved him since he was 7... He began tearing up, overwhelmed with joy and pride for his sister. Felix would have thought that maybe she'd blackmail him for money, or perhaps freak out and hurt the fillies, but no, she just acted like a normal person...
"Are you alright dad?" Sweetie Bell asked.
Felix looked up and smiled softly, he whipped tear joyful tears away.
"Yeah... Yeah I'm fine." Felix replied.
Summer was coming to an end... Felix had completely forgotten about the three fillies having to go home, he was sitting at the table going through mail, and then, his eyes widened at the sight of the last letter he had... It was from one of the colleges he applies for... Harvard.
Felix quickly tore open the letter and read it, a wide grin stretched across his face and his heart skipped a beat, he jumped into the air with joy.
"YES YES YES YES YES!" Felix said over and over.
"What is it?" Sweetie Belle asked from sitting on the recliner.
"I GOT ACCEPTED TO HARVARD!" Felix said with joy. "A FULL SCHOLARSHIP!" Felix said pridefully.
"What's that mean?" Scootaloo asked.
"IT MEANS I'M GOING TO AN AWESOME COLLEGE FOR PRACTICALLY NOTHING!" Felix replied.
"Cool." Scootaloo said bluntly.
Neither of the three had even the slightest idea of what Felix was saying, but he was happy, so they were happy for him.
"Hang on, I gotta make a phone call..." Felix said smirking.
He picked up the phone and dialed his mothers number...
"Hey mom." Felix said joyfully.
"What'd you want ya worthless piece of-" Felix cut her off.
"Let me just stop you right there, I'm not worthless, because I'm going to Harvard! Now just let this sink in for a moment, I'm the first person in all of our family to even graduate high school, and now I'm the first person to go to college! So just think about that for a moment, just think about how much better I am then you, and everybody else, I just want you to think about that for a while." Felix gloated.
"Felix I'm so proud of you!" She said quickly changing her attitude and tone.
"Now hold that thought, you remember all those times that you told me I'd never amount to anything? And all the times you said I was good for nothing? Not to mention all the beatings? And when you let me sit at the bottom of the steps for an hour before you realized maybe I was hurt and then decided to call the ambulance? I do, because I still have a slight limp from it! But don't worry, I'll forget about all those bad times and focus on the good times." Felix said sarcastically.
"Really?" She asked excitedly.
"I would... If there were any good times... So you enjoy that piece of shit house you've got, while I sit like a fucking king in his castle." Felix said proudly.
"Are you saying you're not going to share any of your success with me?" She asked terrified of the response.
"DUH? YA THINK SO?" Felix said in a retarded country accent.
"WHAT! IF IT WASN'T FOR ME-" Felix cut her off again.
"If it wasn't for YOU, I wouldn't have became depressed, if it wasn't for YOU, I wouldn't have gone insane, if it wasn't for YOU, I wouldn't have a fucking limp! If it wasn't for YOU, I might have had friends in my childhood." Felix said then slammed the phone triumphantly.
"Hey listen, how about you three go ahead and go to the park?" Felix suggested.
"BY OURSELVES!?" They asked simultaneously.
"As long as you remember how to teleport, yeah." Felix said to Sweetie Belle.
"Why the sudden change of heart?" Scootaloo asked.
"I just think I should learn to trust you three a little bit more." Felix said smirking.
"AWESOME! C'mon Sweetie Belle, teleport us!" Scootaloo demanded.
"Just remember, if you see ANYBODY, I want you to teleport home no matter what!" Felix said. "Just come home in an hour." Felix explained.
Sweetie Belle's horn started glowing, the magical aura surrounded the other two fillies along with herself, and in a flash, they were gone. As much as Felix loved his three little fillies, just like any parent, it's nice to have a short little brake. Felix sat down in his recliner, propped his feet up and lit a cigarette.
Felix put his hands behind his head while he held the cigarette in his mouth and took small puffs. There was another knocked at the door... Felix grunted, then stood back up getting out of his comfort zone and answered the door, a long frown stretched across his face while he held the cigarette in his mouth.
A large, tall, white alicorn with a flowing rainbow mane was standing in front of him. He rubbed his eyes to assure he was seeing correctly.
"May I come in?" She asked sweetly.
"Uh... Sure?" Felix said uneasily.
Felix stepped out of her path and she walked into his home gracefully.
"Can I help you with something?" Felix asked.
"I've been told you have some... Fillies." She said.
"Fillies?" Felix asked. "Like baby horses?"
"Yes, like baby horses." She replied.
"Why do you ask...?" Felix asked even though he knew the answer...
"Because they need to go home." She said sternly.
Felix walked into the kitchen and grabbed a Pepsi nonchalantly.
"And where exactly is their home?" Felix asked curiously.
"Equestria." She said bluntly.
"Well, sorry I don't have any fillies." Felix lied.
"May I show you something?" She asked.
"Sure." Felix said uneasily.
Felix walked over to her, she sat down and her long pointed horn began glowing, what looked like a mirror appeared in front of Felix, he was looking at a young unicorn, she had a curled purple mane, the unicorn had her face buried in a pillow and even though there wasn't any sound, from the rapid breathing it was easy to see, she was crying.
"This, is Sweetie Belle's sister Rarity, she's been depressed and hardly gets out of bed since her younger sister disappeared, her parents are just as heart broken." Celestia explained.
Before Felix could lie again and say he didn't know who Sweetie Belle was, the image changed, it was another pony, this one was a blue Pegasus with a long rainbow mane, she was sitting on the top off a cloud with her head hanging down.
"Before, Rainbow Dash was excited, full of energy, but once her little sister figure left, she hardly even flies anymore." Celestia explained.
Still though he didn't get the chance to lie again before the image changed, now he was looking at an orange earth pony with a blonde mane, she was sitting under and apple tree, tears dripping from her face hitting the grass. Celestia didn't explain anything this time...
The mirror vanished, and Celestia looked down at Felix curiously awaiting for his response. Felix bit his bottom lip trying to decide what to do. One on hand, he loved having the fillies around, but on the other, them staying here was causing more damage to others then it was helping him.
"Do you understand now?" Celestia asked.
Felix turned around and sat down in his recliner, he shut his eyes and rubbed his chin. After a few minutes of thinking, and as much as it pained him inside, he finally agree'd to her demands she subtly told him.
"They'll... They'll be back in an hour..." Felix stammered out.
Celestia smiled weakly, and then looked back to the young man, she didn't realize how much the three meant to him! His eyes were watering up, as much as he tried he couldn't fully fight back the tears. The built up water in his eyes rolled down his cheeks, he gritted his teeth and shut his eyes tight.
"Would you like to say goodbye to them?" Celestia asked trying to calm him down.
"I... I don't... I don't think that's a good idea... It'd just... It'd just make things harder." Felix stammered.
Celestia sat down next to Felix, he had his face his his hands like he always did when he was upset. For once, Celestia's infinite wisdom couldn't help somebody, nothing she could say could possibly make him feel better.
"Felix, what makes these three so special to you?" Celestia asked. "What about them makes you feel better?"
"You really wanna know the truth...?" Felix asked.
"I... Yes." Celestia said hesitantly.
"Well, a few months ago, I was ready to kill myself, I was playing Russian Roulette, four chambers, one bullet, I survived three of the chambers, I was ago to pull the trigger on the fourth one, but then I found the them... In a way, they kept me alive." Felix said with a painful smile.
Celestia didn't know what to say, but in a way, she felt she was taking away his will to live by taking away the three.
"So without them... I'd be dead right now." Felix said smiling painfully still. "And without me, they'd be dead to! Because humans... We're terrible creatures, we fear what we don't understand, and if somebody else found them, they'd likely have killed the three..."
Celestia just stared at him, he was reminiscing in his memories, he wasn't fighting back the tears anymore, he was just letting them roll down his cheeks while he forced a grin across his face.
"But they don't need me anymore..." Felix muttered.
"But you need them. Don't you?" Celestia asked.
"You know what..." Felix took a deep inhale of the cigarette then flicked it onto the carpet. "No... No I don't need them, I want them here, I would give up everything for them to stay with me, but I don't think I actually need them anymore..." Felix said softly.
Celestia opened her wide wings, she wrapped one around him and pulled him on the floor next to him and held him tightly against her.
"Tell me something young man... What would drive you to even consider ending your own life?" Princess Celestia asked.
"Well... Everything! My family hated me, and my mom and dad still do, I hardly was alive, my dad give me cigarettes when I was like eight! I watched my parents do drugs constantly, and when my dad left my entire life went to shit, I became a little emo depressed kid who nobody wanted to be around, I lost the few friends I had, and then my last friend I had started bullying me and still is to this day!" Felix cried out. "And... I didn't feel I was wanted... Nobody wanted me around..."
Celestia gave a slight nod listening inventively to every word...
"Do you still feel this way?" She asked.
"Well, yeah!" Felix exclaimed.
"Then why haven't you taken your life?" Celestia asked curiously.
"Because I finally had a reason to live... I finally had an excuse to keep on breathing! Those three... I had responsibilities, a duty, to keep myself alive, so I could help them as much as I can with my worthless life..." Felix explained with a slight sigh.
"And when I take them home, what will you do then?" She asked worried of his response.
"I don't know actually... I hadn't thought this far ahead, the three months just went by so quick..." Felix responded.
"DAD! We're home!" A loud shout came from the girls bedroom.
"Dad?" Celestia asked curiously.
"They started calling me dad a while back..." Felix replied with a nervous smile.
Celestia stood up and began walking.
"Hey... Celestia." Felix said.
Celestia stopped in her tracks and looked back at the man.
"Can you... Can you do me a favor?" Felix asked.
"Sure." She said sweetly.
"Can you just... Make everybody who knows about this, forget?" Felix asked.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"I want you to make sure that all those ponies who you showed me forget about the three leaving, and I want you to make them forget about me." Felix pleaded.
"What? Why would you want them to forget you?" She asked astonished by his request.
"Because... Humans are terrible creatures... We're greedy, rude, mean, and hateful! They don't need that on their minds." Felix replied with a sigh hanging his head down.
"Young man, it's true some of your kind can be like that, but humans aren't anything special, ponies are just as bad sometimes, and even wild animals!" She exclaimed. "But... Humans are also happy, joyful, each individual special, everyone of you are special just like ponies, what really separates you humans from your ape ancestors isn't your hate and pride, but in fact it's your intelligence, your love, compassion, and your courage."
Felix didn't respond, he just stared blankly at the ground.
"Are you sure you want them all to forget?" Celestia asked.
"Y-Yes... I'm sure." Felix replied.
Celestia sighed and shook her head.
"Don't do anything stupid, remember, you've got a lot of time ahead of you to find a new meaning to live." Celestia said as she walked into the fillies room. Felix heard a loud bang, and he knew they were gone... For good.
He stood up from the recliner, to a certain extent Felix was hoping that perhaps they were still there, hes swung the door open... They were gone, Felix sighed, he walked into his bedroom, though it was mid afternoon he felt so exhausted...
Felix woke up in the morning, he walked into the kitchen and began cooking, his mind a complete blank. When he finished cooking he called out.
"Girls break-" Felix cut him self off. "Oh... Right..."
Felix sat in his recliner with he piece of paper that the three had given him for a farther's day present, it was a picture of three stick figure fillies, one yellow with a scribbled red mane, another orange with a scribbled spiky purple mane, and another one was light pink with a light pink mane. Along with a stick figure person standing next to the three doodled ponies.
Felix smiled softly, a tear rolled down his cheek, but then, he squinted his eyes looking closer at the paper... This was the paper that he had written his suicide letter on! He could still make out all the faded words behind the crayons. And then... That brought him back to the thoughts of revolver...
Felix set the paper down and walked into his bedroom with his hands in his pocket, Felix swiped the revolver he had hidden under his bed, one bullet, four chambers, three shots.
Felix was back were he started, sitting on a park bench with the revolver by his side and a cigarette in his mouth, he took a deep inhale, it only took him a few moments before the entire cigarette was ash in a single hit. Felix lit another, and intentionally dropped it, crossing his fingers he looked under the table hoping to see the three fillies there once again... Nothing.
Felix picked up the cigarette and lit up, he twirled the revolver in his hand and was thinking hard with the cigarette in his mouth... He put the cigarette in his index finger and middle finger then began speaking to himself.
"Lets see if fate wants me alive..." He said with a vicious grin.
Felix dropped the cigarette to the ground and held the gun up to his head, without hesitation he pulled the trigger twice, then jerked the gun away from his head. Felix stared at the revolver he held, it was almost like holding Death, because this could be the decision of life and death.
"Maybe... Maybe you don't need a reason to live..." Felix muttered to himself.
"Maybe just survival is reason enough..." Felix said softly.
Felix pointed the gun at a tree, and pulled the trigger, he smirked and dropped the gun to the ground when the bullet got stuck in the thick tree trunk.
"Guess I just tricked fate." Felix muttered proudly.
Felix stood up and kept his hands in his pocket, he looked up at the sky and smirked.
"Thanks for getting me outta the woods." Felix said to himself as if the three fillies were standing near him...
