Diary of a dragonby Don PonyChaptersChapter 1Chapter 2Chapter 3Chapter 4Chapter 5Chapter 6Chapter 1Dear diary: Hi, Im Spike the dragon. My friend, Twilight Sparkle, suggested me that I should start writing a diary to express my deepest secrets and feelings... yeah, that's not gonna happen. I'm only doing it because she aked me to. I don't really know how to write a dairy, mostly I only write letters for Princess Celestia. Let's see, I might need to tell you about me and my friends. First, I am a dragon from Canterlot and number one assistant of Twilight Sparkle. We are currently living in Ponyville to gathered and sent findings on the magic of friendship to Princess Celestia. We made a ton of friends here: there's Pinkie Pie, a totally random pony who comes with stuff out of nowhere, I think she has super powers but Twilight doesn't believe me; then there's Fluttershy, a pegasus who's afraid of highs and pretty much else, Applebloom says she has the "stare" and is super powerful but i think she's lying; then there's Applejack, a farm pony she's kind of boring, she works on an apple orchard and is a really hard worker but she's not really fun; after that is Rainbow Dash, a sporty mare who's obsessed with get in the Wonderbolts; and lastly there's Rarity the most beautiful one, something on her attracts me... and I really like her mane. There are also the Cutie Mark Crusaders: Sweetie Belle, Scootaloo and Applebloom. They are three fillies who are obsessed with getting their cutie marks. Sweetie Belle is nice and Scootaloo fun, but Applebloom is the one I see the most, I don't know why but we really get along. She comes to my place sometimes just to talk or play. I just noticed I didn't say anything about Twilight. I was an egg when Twilight hatched me for the Princess Celestia School for Gifted Unicorns entrance exam. We've been together ever since, she has been taking care of me, and we live together. She loves books, I don't so much, but I try to help her as much as I can and she named me her number one assistant. Is actually kind of hard to be just with ponies. I mean is not bad or anything, but I don't even know where I come from or what is to be a dragon. I talk them about my scales and some things that happen to me but the don't understand me. And I don't know who are my parents. I'm a little tired now, I'll go sleep. Good night. Dear diary: Hello, it's me again. Today was weird. The cutie mark crusaders came to my house today. They asked me to hang out with them and I had nothing better to do so I went with them. We went to their tree house club, there things started to be confusing. All of the sudden they asked me what being a dragon was like, they asked me about my scales, how's breathing fire like, even how having claws felt. It's okay for me to tell but the sudden interest was kind of scary.Then they told me what was all about. They thought that their relatives have related cutie marks, so if they knew a bit more about their past they could find something that could help them to find their's, it didn't work but they became curious about themselves. Applebloom said that she didn't even knew who they parents were, every time she asked her sister (Applejack) about them she said "They are far away. One day you will see them" she had snuck into her sister and even her grandmother bedroom looking for something that told her anything but she didn't find anything. Sweetie Belle also found something funny, she only saw her parents every once in a while. They travel around the world all the time, came just a few weeks and leave again, she had always lived with her sister Rarity, and now she started to noticed that her family situation is funny. She said that she even saw them different from her, the only two things they had in common were the fact that they were unicorns and that their skin was white. Scootaloo said she had a dad, but she never saw him again, he left her when she was a filly and she lived by herself in a small house in Ponyville; Ms. Cheerilee (the school teacher) came to her house every day to give her food and help her with the house chores, when she asked why was her helping, Cheerilee says "You are just a filly and I can't let you all alone". She never told anypony about it, but had trusted us. But then they said "Good thing, Spike does have a mother as a normal family" that wasn't the whole truth. Twilight hatched me and all but she's a pony, she doesn't understand me, she knows next to nothing about dragons, and she had never treated me like a son. I think she sees me more like a friend, and who can blame her, we are not even the same species. The clubhouse filled with silence, but then they started to talk about ideas of how to get their cutie marsk. It was like if the entire conveesation didn't take place to begin with. I walked out from there with tons of things in my head and went straight to my house. I saw Twilight and asked her about myself, I have done it before but she said the same thing "I don't know" today it was the same. I looked for books in my library, but nopony knows anything about dragons. Twilight told me that the answers come at the right moment, when we need to know, is like if we were destined to find the answers of something. Sometimes I really don't understand her, but I started to feel tired. I'll keep looking for the answer other day, now I'm only looking for my pillow. Chapter 2Dear diary: Today, we decided to become a group. After thinking about our origins and because our families keeping secrets to us, the cutie mark crusaders and I decided to combine forces and reach out the truth together. We gathered in our special headquarters (the club house near Appleblooms house) and thought of great ideas to fin out what the deal is with our families. I can't be a cuetie mark crusader, because dragons don't have cutie marks. So for now we are only "the investigation team", I promise I'll come up with a better name. We did'nt have many good ideas, most of them involved questioning the very same people who are keeping the secret from us. But we decided to start in the library, thankfully Twilight always go out the same day at the same time and we had time to do a quick search. We found tons and tons of books about the funding of Ponyville and the main families, even some old family trees, but nothing really helpful. Except for the Apple family tree. It had pictures of every family Reunion, we noticed Granny Smith on every single one of them. We also noticed a patron, the elder ponies were right on the middle and their sons and grandsons alongside them. But with Granny Smith there were Bigmac, then Applejack and on the newest Applebloom, it totally jumped their parents and we couldn't find any other picture that showed them. Sweetie Belle suggested that we might find more information or at least their birth certificates at Towns hall. So we went there to get more info. When we got on Townshall there was the mayor mare's assistant she told us that all the documents on the archives were very important and that fillies were not allowed without company of an adult. Because we couldn't ask any of our relatives we thought we couldn't progress on the investigation, but then Scootaloo remembered she had jumped on the rooftops of the town when she was trying to fly, and she spotted that some holes that some gray pegasus with blond mane accidentally made were still not repaired. We decided that we would climb the building at night and entered through the holes. At night, I came out with no problem. Since Twilight came home she was on the basement. I saw Pinkie Pie while going out, she looked... weird I couodn't tell why, but it might had to do something with Twilight. I went to Town's hall where the rest of the investigation team were wearing black clothes and had a black costume for me too. I put it on, but the question was how would they climb the building. Scootaloo had a rope and asked me to climbed with my claws, I did it and when I got to the top, after I secured the rope I threw it back so they could use it to climb up. We were on the rooftop and used the same rope to climb down into a hole. Although we should have secured the rope before going down all at the same time, the rope broke and we crashed to the floor. The archives were like a big library, probably a little bigger than mine. Everything was organized by document type and alphabetical order. We went to the Birth Certificate area and looked for theirs, mine is in Canterlot and well it doesn't say anything important. We found them without much difficulty and soon found out another mystery. In Applebloom certificate said that her legal guardians were Applejack and Bigmac. With Sweetie Belle it showed that her legal guardian was Rarity only, but why? What about her parents? Lastly Scootaloo's was nowhere to be found. We were about to keep investigating, but a security guard entered and spotted us. We jumped through a window and flee to our houses. We managed to escape, but now instead of answers have more questions. I'm very tired. I'm gonna hit the bed. I can't sleep, too many mysteries keep me awake. I went to Twilight who was sleeping with a bear doll next to her. I moved I tried to move it and sleep next to her, but she was holding it very tight. I hugged her and try to sleep but it was kind of uncomfortable so I went back to my bed. I don't know what to do, maybe I'll eat some gems to help my sleep Author's Note People are telling me about the format and the way is written. I wantnto remember you that this is supposed to be Spike's dairy and I try to write like how he would, but is harder than I thought. If it bother you, please tell to see how I can change it. Chapter 3Dear diary: Sorry I haven't write anything for a long time but a lot of things have been going on lately. Pinkie Pie disappeared the other day, Twilight and the other went all over looking for her. Me and the investigation team decided to join the search and we splint in two teams: Team 1, Scootaloo and Sweetie Belle; Team 2, Applebloom and I. We looked everywhere even Zecora's place, but we couldn't find it. The next day she appeared, turns out she went to Carnterlof for a lame old book for Twilight and didn't tell anypony, could you believe it?. Anyway, when we were looking for Pinkie I got to talk to Applebloom. She told me that she wanted to confront her sister using the birth certificate she found the other night, I was kind of surprised of it she looked scared but firm on her decision. Although she said she wasn't strong enough so she asked to accompany her. I don't really like to meddle in other ponies personal stuff but she was asking very seriously and... I couldn't resist her eyes, she has something that hypnotizes me. I ended up accepting her request and she will tell me when the best day would be, but for now I'll wait. She also gave the best advice someone had given me so far; she said I should communicate to Princess Celestia and ask her if she knows anything about me. She was the one who put the test that hatched me when I was an egg, so she might have some information, at least where she got me from. I will repay Applebloom someday for that. We had a party in Pinkie's honor. Twilight spent too much time with her and suddenly I've been noticing she's more worried about her than is for me? I'm not jealous, I'm noticing she doesn't treat me as her other friends... am I something else then? Dear diary: You will not believe what I just happened. Applebloom came today and took me to her house, she suddenly felt that she didn't want to wait anymore and it was the day she would tell Applejack. We went to barn and there she was. Applebloom approached her while I stayed a few steps before her asking first, after all it was family's business. Applebloom started to reproach about the certificate, she asked her what was all about, where her parents names were, and why has she hiding everything to her. Applejack got mad at her for getting the paper without their but it was obviously an excuse to get away avoid the questions. Applebloom yelled at Applejack, she was furious, she wasn't going to let her sister escape from this one. I have never seen Applebloom so fierce before, it was... different in an awesome way. Applejack gave in and told us the whole truth, I still don't believe it. I'm shaking by just thinking of it, but i really need to tell somepony and they made me pinkie promise not to tell anyone and this is my diary so no one will read it. Here it is the truth: When Applejack was a teen she used to go to a lot of rodeos around Equestria, she was admired by everyone and it got some fame from ponies all around, she had a picture that was taken in Appleloosa with BigMac but they were younger. After showing us the picture she told us something that made both of us fell on the ground... BigMac is not their actual brother. Applejack met BigMac in Appleloosa during a competition, ever since they saw each other secretly pretending using the competitions as an excuse and eventually became coltfriends. Granny Smith didn't like her daughter to go around with somepony she met just in a competition... Oh yeah! Granny Smith is actually Applejack mother, apparently she didn't want to have children until she old. Applejack didn't care about what she said and went with the pony she loved. Unfortunately they didn't protect themselves and she ended up pregnant, she was still so young and didn't know what to do. BigMac took responsibility and decided to take care of the baby but nopony wanted to hire a pony that young. Granny Smith offered them to live in her house and work on the apple orchard, but they had to take responsibility for everything the baby needed and never even think of abandon the child. They decided that it would be best for the baby to be raised by Granny and don't let it know the sad truth. The baby was a beautiful baby with red hair and yellow coat, it was Applebloom. We couldn't believe our ears, Appplebloom cried and she said she was a mistake, that Applejack and BigMac lied to her and she didn't want anything anymore. Applejack then told her that she always loved her and took care of her as her baby and it hurt that she couldn't tell her the truth and she promised she would never leave her alone and for now on she would be proudly treat her as her daughter. They cried and hugged each other, Applebloom took it weel but I think it will take sometime to be used to the situation. I left there trying to be quiet and not interruption, but they told me to not tell anypony yet. They wanted to tell everypony themselves at the right time... Thank celestia I got you diary. Because of what I just saw with the Apples I made the decision of asking Princess Celestia about me, but I'm still scared of what she might said. What Applejack said made me think "treat you as my real daughter" that's what she said. So there's a way to treat your daughter or son... Does Twilight treat me as her son? or, as her friend? What should I do? Author's Note Did you see that one coming? There's still a few surprises ahead Chapter 4Dear diary: I've been trying to find how Twilight sees me. I started calling her "mom" and tried to be a little closer, but every time she gets surprised, I got panic and leave or correct myself. She doesn't really say anything about it, but she hasn't say she doesn't like it either. Sometimes I look for her and tried to talk, but she had been hanging out with Pinkie Pie a lot lately, so I haven't gotten the chance. Today, the investigation team gathered at the "special headquarters" (I still haven't come with a better name, too many things going at the same time to think about it) and talked about what was going on. Applebloom shared what happened with her sister with the rest of the group and there were a mix between surprised and tear in the eyes. She thank me, although I did not do anything, and said that today things felt pretty good actually. By everypony in her house knowing the truth their attitudes changed on the good side and everybody was happy. She said that they felt like if a big weight was off their shoulders, and that they were free to finally do whatever they actually wanted to do. She saw Applejack and BigMac kiss... it's okay but it still feel gross, the idea of them not being related still hasn't sink in yet. Sweetie Belle had the same idea of confronting her sister. She thought about it before, but she wanted more information before doing it so. The positivism of Applebloom's story gave her enough strength to tell her. Even though she was scared about what the truth might be and she knew this might change everything, she wanted to know. Suddenly I noticed how much have they grown, they got fire on their eyes and they didn't look like fillies anymore. And, as the other member did, she asked for my support. I take any chance there is to see Rarity but I wasn't going to meddle there. I wouldn't... if it wasn't for Applebloom asking me to help Sweetie Belle. Those eyes again, I don't know what they got that every time she open them wide open I melt away. While both of them decided to look for their origins and face their relatives, Scootaloo said she wasn't going to do the same. Since the only pony close to her is Cheerilee, and that she wasn't her family, Scoo didn't feel like risking too much for what might be answered with "I don't know". We tried to convince her to ask the teacher about her, and we might made it worse. She covered her ears and screamed, then she ran through the door without direction. We were about to go after her, but Applebloom stopped us. She told us Scootaloo might need some time. we didn't want to leave her all alone, but Applebloom was right. The team separated there and went back home. Not before Sweetie Belle telling me that tomorrow we will talk with Rarity... this is going to be another tough talk, I'm afraid. When I arrived I found Twilight and Pinkie having dinner, kind of weird because mostly Twilight and I eat together. I came near to see if there was a plate for me, sadly they told me they forgot and there were no food left for me (at least I had a few gems hidden down my bed). I hide my tear in the eye and went straight to bed. She didn't even remember me?... and Pinkie is just a friend. Twilight doesn't treat me as a son, neither as none of her friends. Perhaps she doesn't even see me as a family. Dear diary: Remember what I said about the talk might going to be tough? I was right. Very early in the morning I left my house. After last night I didn't want to be there, I felt too sad and just wanted to be somewhere else. I went to the park to clear my head. I sat on a bench and closed my eyes while the wind blew, I like to do that because I feel like the wind may come and take everything away with it. Pinkie Pie was crossing by and saw me. She apologize for the last night and asked me if I there were anything wrong. Of course there was!... Although I would never say that, at least not now. I said no, she knew I was lying but thankfully asked no further questions. She left a cupcake and went to her way, I didn't feel for a cupcake but I ate anyway... and it did made me a little happier. I walked around Ponyville and tried to distract myself for a while, the town was lively with everypony busy. I love passing by Octavia and Dj-Pon3 house, they are always arguing for the smallest thing and I laugh at them. The mailmare had a lot of ponies around her complaining about their letters being all mixed up, I think she does it on purpose so she gets the attention. Sweetie Belle then found me and told me it was time. I didn't feel for going with her now, but I promised to. We went to the Carousel Boutique. Today was dresses planning day, so the shop was closed and nopony would interrupt us. Sweetie Belle gently called her sister to the main room, while I sat on a chair to stay as far from the conversation as I could. Rarity came down wearing her working glasses and a measuring tape around her neck. She came down the stairs and greeted us, she was surprised but didn't expect what her sister was about to tell her... and neither did we. On the contrary of her friend, Sweetie Belle took the birth certificate and gave it to her Rarity, she was curious but she almost jumped in surprised once she recognized the paper. Sweetie was pretty calm, although even tried to walk back, but she waited until Rarity got herself together again. Once the elder sister regain herself Sweetie Belle proceeded with her interrogation... although it was one question "What happened to our parents?" I couldn't understand that "Weren't their parents those ponies who travel a lot? She should know where are they by know" I was so confused. Sweetie stayed on her ground without moving an inch and staring into Rarity's eyes. All of the sudden Rarity started to cry and sob. She took off her glasses and tape and told us her story: When Rarity was a teen, Sweetie Belle came into her life. She always loved her sister, and sometimes she took care of her for whole days. Their parents had a retail clothing store in Canterlot, it wasn't a fashion line as Rarity's but more like a casual style as she said. They usually traveled to Canterlot every week to check how the busyness were going, they didn't like the city lifestyle and decided to raised their daughters in Ponyville. One day, the whole family were going on a trip to the beach for vacations, but there were problems back in Canterlot. They wanted to go to Canterlot and then to the beach, but because Sweetie Belle was still a baby they thought it would be tiresome for the little one to travel so much, so they left Rarity in charge of the child back at home and promised they'll come back. On the way to the city, they went trough the mountains but there was a storm on the top. Some lightning hit the tip of the mountains making some boulders to fall, the train conductor made the machine go as fast as it could trying to evade the boulders, but one hit the side of the train making it to fell into the abyss and taking their parents lives. Two ponies from the royal guard went to Rarity's house and gave the bad news, as a young pony Rarity felt like her life went down into the darkness, the only thing left for her was her sister. The news went worse as the Department of Filly Protection came and wanted to take Sweetie Belle into an Orphanage, as a baby she had good chances of family wanting to adopted her. Rarity stepped in and decided she would take custody of her, she didn't have the majority of age yet, but she wouldn't let anypony take her away. Celestia interceded in the negotiation and accepted Rarity's request to take care of her sister under one condition, an inspector pony would come to her house every week to check if everything were in a proper environment for a filly to be raised. Ever since, Rarity has been taking care of her little sister. The ponies Sweetie knew as "parents" were actually actors Rarity hired to pretend they went into trips to around the world, in order for the little one didn't feel the pain of not having parents. It's because of that Rarity is too focused on her work, she wanted her sister to have everything she needed and everything she wanted. Even though it sometimes meant that she would not see her sister for days. It took me all by surprised. I couldn't gasp the sadness they might be going through, but Sweetie didn't shade a tear. She told her that even though they acted as parents she never felt close or even relate to them. She knew there were something off but never could put her hoof exactly what it was. She understood and accepted everything her sister just told her. Rarity stumbled as she kept crying more and more, she started to say "I'm sorry". Sweetie Belle hugged her sister and told her "It's okay". She might share the pain of her sister? ... I don't know, she was never had a sad face. She smiled in relief as she comforted her sister. It was weird, if I didn't knew them I wouldn't tell who the big sister was. Once again I sneaked out of the place without them noticing me, they might need time as well. It was already night so I just went to home. When I arrived Twilight was nowhere to be seen, I went to the kitchen and found a note "Spike: I'm going to have a sleepover at Pinkie's. There's a jewel cake all for you on the fridge. Twilight" At least she left me a note and cake. I took the cake and ate it all and went to bed. It's the first time I sleep alone... or more like I feel alone while sleeping. I might write a letter to Princess Celestia, but too late at night for that. Maybe tomorrow. Chapter 5Dear diary: I woke up early today and went for breakfast. Twilight was there in the living room doing some research about... I don't know. I don't even care anymore, she can go and be best friend with Pinkie Pie... well I do care. It's just that she's been with me since I was born, I think I'm losing all I had. When I finished breakfast I went to the special headquarters to reunite with the investigation team, but there was just one pony there: Scootaloo. She told me that both Sweetie Belle and Applebloom would spend time with their families, Scoo was there just to clean up the place. I wanted to head back home, but she looked sad and I felt bad for her, so I stayed for a while. We ware just chatting and making fun of how weird things had turned with the two other members, suddenly she became silent and asked me "Now that you see how things turned out, would you want to reach out the truth?" hard question. Considering the situation, Twilight doesn't really care about me, but even if my parents are... gone I would really like to know. My answer was yes, what she said was actually kind of profound and I'll try to write exactly as she said or at least as close. She said "All of you have it easy. Even if the truth is sad, you can still live with your family and your life continues. But me, I got nothing. The only pony who I can ask can leave if she doesn't want to tell me or decide to don't be with me anymore. I could lose the closest and only thing I got for a family. I do want to know about my parents, but I don't know if by knowing the truth I'll get them back. Should I risk it all?". I felt a lump on my throat. I never thought on that possibility for her. I was speechless, she just stared the ground feeling even worse. Then words came out of my lips without noticing, I said the first things that came into my mind "Perhaps knowing the truth won't get you any closer to your parents, but it might get you closer to who you really ARE"... I gotta be honest diary, I have no idea what that means, I don't even know why did I say it. The words just came to my head and before knowing I was speaking. Apparently my words had effect on her as she cleaned her tears and said I was right and thank me. I'm not sure how did I help, but it feels good to do the right thing sometimes... even if you don't know what you did. Then she asked me about the letter I was going to write to Princess Celestia. To be honest, I hadn't feel brave enough to write it (yeah, I know, I'm a hypocrite) it does kind of scare me what she will say. I told her I hadn't the time to do it, I was lying and it was obvious. Scoo just told me "Just remember Spike, it might get you closer to who you really are" I hate when ponies tell me what I told them, Twilight does it all the time. Suddenly, we were interrupted. Cheerilee found the headquarters and was asking if Scootaloo could go with her. She ran towards Cheerilee, I had to closed the headquarters and went on my way. I went around Ponyville thinking on to write or not to write the letter to Celestia. Things were really sad for the other two members but ended up rather happy, if I'm lucky enough things may go good for me too. But then, I ran into one of the ponies I really didn't want to see: Pinkie Pie. I actually like Pinkie Pie, but she's been causing problems lately... at least to me. Once again she noticed I was worried about something, she grabbed my tail with her mouth and pulled me around. Because she walk/bounce I hit the ground a few times until we reached the Sugarcube Corner. She made some hot chocolate and served me a slice of cake. Then she asked me what was going on. As I did before I told her there was nothing wrong, then she said she wanted to be closer to me and wanted me to trust her, that I can tell her everything. What's with the sudden interest anyway? I couldn't tell her "you are the one breaking my little family apart" well it wasn't a full family in the first place. I had to came up with something, so I told her half the truth. I told her that I was growing up and I wanted to know a bit more about myself, but my research went nowhere and I still have no idea, she then asked me why didn't I asked Twilight about it as if it was that simple, she knew as much as I do. Pinkie told me she didn't how to help but if there was something she could do for me I could always go with her. Why is Pinkie trying to be closer while Twilight is not even trying? I accepted Pinkie's request, finished my chocolate and headed back home. Back at home Twilight was reshelving the books and asked to help her. Finally! After all this time I got back to my work as assistant, although I didn't speak much to her. I still feel a little heartbroken for all that happened between us. Neither did she say anything to me, it was just another work we were doing, just another silent work. It took us all day, but we finally finished reshelving the whole library. After that I just made me a sandwich and went to the basement, I had finally decided to write a letter to the Princess but I didn't want Twilight to know about it. "Dear Princess Celestia: It is me Spike the Dragon. I'm writing you for a special request I have. You see for quite some time I have been investigating about my origins and because of Ponyville not being my hometown, not even a place where dragons are common, my research had led me to a dead end. I remembered that Twilight Sparkle entrance exam for the School for Gifted Unicorns was hatching an egg that was me. Because of that I'm writing this letter asking you if would be so kind to tell me, where did you get my egg from? Where and who are my parents? I believe knowing about my past will make the path of my future much brighter and finally know who I am. I'm begging you Princess, I'm desperate, and I don't know who to turn to. I just want to know my family. I will be waiting for your answer. Your humble subject - Spike the Dragon" I sent the letter with my dragon breath. It might take a while so I'll just hit the bed for now. The princess answer arrived a couple of ours after I sent it, faster than I expected. It says: "Dear Spike: As you might know, as Princess of Equestria I am concerned about all my subjects well being and whatever I could do I am more than happy to help. However, the answer of your questions may not be what you were expecting. First, I think I should explain about the entrance exam. The truth is no pony had successfully made the dragon's egg hatch except for my faithful student, the three ponies that observe the process actually take notes about the amount of magic used, the determination of the pony and creativity, among other things. That's why you don't see other ponies with baby dragons around. Now, I'll explain about your case in particular. There are a few dragon families who worship along the Kingdom and are glad to help in whatever we ask, they sometimes agree to lend an egg when we need some for the entrance exams, but yours is a special case. During the dragon migrations sometimes eggs are forgotten or left, we usually take care of them and wait until the families come back for them. We found your egg near the volcano and we took care of it until your parents came back, but for days and days no one came for it. I asked some specialists to analyse it in order to know what kind of specie of dragon you were and thus look for your family, however yours is a specie still unknown by anypony. You are a unique kind of dragon. After some misunderstanding your egg got selected for the entrance exam, and as you know, Twilight hatched you. We didn't know what to do, we weren't prepared nor had personal to attend a baby dragon needs. Then Twilight asked if she could take care of you, to be honest I had my doubts and wasn't sure if she would be ready for the task. But as she was going to be my private student and her heart being pure I decided she could keep you. I'm sorry if this information wasn't as useful as you might thought but if there is another way I could help you, please by all means ask me. And about your family, I wouldn't look too far if I were you. Your's truly - Princess Celestia of Equestria." Great. JUST GREAT! So my family doesn't even wanted me. They didn't even look for me. I'm unique? Well I guess I am. I'm the only dragon who isn't even liked by ponies nor dragons. I don't know what to do anymore. Nopony want me around. Why did I have to be born a dragon?! Author's Note Feel bad for Spike?... Yeah so do I. Quick announcement: Well the end is neigh, but I'm looking for artists who would like to draw a cover for this story and the other one I'm working on (The Magic of Laughter). I can't pay you (I'm kinda low on bits) but I can advertise your art. Chapter 6Dear diary: You and the investigation team are my only friends. Last night I couldn't sleep, I stayed in the basement crying. I din't want Twilight see me as how I was. I still can't comprehend why would someone just abandoned an egg, they didn't care if something happened to me, they just threw me away like garbage. When the sun raised I went to the special headquarters to be alone, the members usually come at noon around 10 A.M. and 12 P.M. so I had plenty of time to clear my head. On my way there I got really mad, I kept thinking about who could be my parents not caring about me and just leaving me in the volcano, even trying to kill me. I was so mad I felt the fire coming through my throat and the heat in my lips. I blindly shot a fireball and burned down a tree. It was red huge ball of fire, I have never shot that kind of fire before neither that big, I could barely burn the scrolls to Princess Celestia before, and now I could burn a tree to ashes. What is going on with me? I curled on the headquarters floor and fell asleep. When I opened my eyes just to the whole team around me,staring. They told me they were worried about me because I was sleep weeping (I didn't even know that was possible). I told them everything, I even gave them the letter. I held the letter the whole night, I wanted to destroy it, but I read it every time thinking that the words would changed and tell me something else or that it would disappear and showed me it was just a dream. As always everypony was supportive, giving encouraging words and tried to cheer me up. I couldn't do it, I was too sad, I just couldn't thinking of anything else. No matter what they say I wasn't paying attention, it actually made me feel worse when they said how great things turned with their mother and sister. Then the one who came with a bright idea was Scootaloo. She told me that we could seek for my parents, that we could go across Equestria from dragon town to dragon town asking for information. The other two said that it was too dangerous and we shouldn't doing it, but Scoo was really excited and wanted to go as soon as we could. Honestly, some other day I would have said that the idea was dumb and I would straight out said no, but now it kind of made sense now. The only way I could gather some information now was from a dragon's mouth, dragons who went to the same place during the migration I was left. Perhaps my parents forgot me and went back to the same point and didn't find me, and they didn't know about Celestia's care center. I agreed and we decided to go today, we just needed to be ready. Applebloom and Sweetie Belle said they wouldn't accompany us, but they wouldn't get on out way, they just asked us to really careful. I remembered I had a book at the library with a map of possible dragon locations Twilight and I made some time ago, plus we need some supplies for the long journey. So we decided to see us at the west entrance of Ponyville that led to Dragons Mountain, which strangely enough doesn't really held dragons. I'm now at the library. Twilight is cleaning the place up. I don't know if I should tell her, or maybe I should just leave a note. I feel bad for leaving her alone, although she has Pinkie now. Part of me doesn't want to leave, but other feel the need for the quest. So far I still need to get some supplies and while Twilight is cleaning I cannot take the book from the shelf. I'll leave for now and when I come back I'll see what to do, and don't worry I'll take you with me too, diary. Dear Spike: Before anything I would say I'm sorry. I know this is your private diary, but lately you have been acting weird, you look tired, worried and sad all the time. Also you have been acting strange, you say something and then scratch it, you hug me and ran, and sometimes just staring me from the distance. I wanted to give you some space for you to deal with whatever you had, but it seems that it made things worse. I didn't know if I should ask you because Pinkie told me she talked with you but you didn't want to tell her what you got. So, because I didn't want to disturb you or make things worse, I found your diary laying down and read it to find out. I know is bad, and if you don't want to talk with me anymore it's okay, I understand. But before you do so I want you to know something. When I saw you, hatching from you egg, you were sucking your own little baby dragon tail and I thought you were the most beautiful thing I ever saw. I wanted to hug you, but then the princess's guards came and wanted to take you away. I couldn't let them do it, who know what would had happened to you, I went to the princess and asked her to allow me to keep you. You were there at the Princess's chamber and held you. I remember holding your little baby body wrapped in a white blanked as you sleep. The Princess thought for a moment I don't know what she was considering but the time seemed to stopped that moment. After what felt like hours of waiting she said yes, and you have no idea how happy I was. Just remembering it make me wanna cry tears of joy. Taking care of you was hard, no, it was exhausting. You needed my attention at all time and I still hadd to study for the Princess and attend my royal duties. Every night I stayed awake until late, sometimes the sun shined and I was still awake. I got worried whenever you made the smallest sound, I still do sometimes. I remember one day when you accidentally burned all your toys and almost the whole house down. You were alone in your room and the flames surrounded the place, my magic was still too weak to teleport and I was alone. I jumped through the flames for you, my tail burn and even some of my coat burned but I didn't feel pain or fear that moment. I got you and used my magic to make a force field around us I tried to calm you singing lullabys and keeping the force field strong so the flames would touch us, the fireponies came after a while and extinguished the fire.That was before I knew dragons were fire proof, but I was too worried and I would do it again to keep you safe. I saw you grow and you made me grow too, we were together all the time, and no matter what I tried to be there for you . But you matured too fast (or at least that's what it seemed to me) and the more you grew the more you wanted to be with others of your same age, but as you may remember the ponies in Canterlot didn't treat you right, you were bullied and a lot of ponies were scared of you, and sadly there were no dragons either. I tried to get friends for you, but nothing seemed to work. Thus, you only spent time with me and you always referred to me as "Twilight", "friend" or "sister". Obviously, though, you are a dragon and I'm a pony so it's only logical that you don't see me as part of a family. But I tried to make you feel as safe and comfortable as I could be, I never wanted you to feel left behind or being treated different... I might have done the opposite. As for Pinkie, we are becoming closer and we want to spend more time to each other, but I can promise you that she will never tear us apart and she only wants to help our family be happier. With time, we will explain it to you. If you are seriously going to your quest I will not interfere. If you want to find your true parents and if that is what you truly believe is what you need for knowing who you really are I will let you go, even though thinking that you might get hurt terrorizes me. But there's something you need to know. I am proud of calling you my son, and perhaps I don't say it out loud, I sometimes don't treat you like it, and maybe trying to make you feel more part of the family made you feel more different. But no matter what I have always been proud of you, and you will always be my son. You will always be my baby and I love you with all my heart. Please, before leaving let me give you one last hug and send me a letter from every town you visit. Don't forget about your little family, and always be true to yourself. Don't forget that I love you. With all my love -Mom Author's Note If you want to know more about Twilight and Pinkie check The Magic of Laughter. Another fanfiction I'm working on, it's still at works and it needs some time to catch up with this story. I'm looking for artist who would like to make a cover for this and my other stories. Please, if you are interested, contact me.
Chapter 1Dear diary: Hi, Im Spike the dragon. My friend, Twilight Sparkle, suggested me that I should start writing a diary to express my deepest secrets and feelings... yeah, that's not gonna happen. I'm only doing it because she aked me to. I don't really know how to write a dairy, mostly I only write letters for Princess Celestia. Let's see, I might need to tell you about me and my friends. First, I am a dragon from Canterlot and number one assistant of Twilight Sparkle. We are currently living in Ponyville to gathered and sent findings on the magic of friendship to Princess Celestia. We made a ton of friends here: there's Pinkie Pie, a totally random pony who comes with stuff out of nowhere, I think she has super powers but Twilight doesn't believe me; then there's Fluttershy, a pegasus who's afraid of highs and pretty much else, Applebloom says she has the "stare" and is super powerful but i think she's lying; then there's Applejack, a farm pony she's kind of boring, she works on an apple orchard and is a really hard worker but she's not really fun; after that is Rainbow Dash, a sporty mare who's obsessed with get in the Wonderbolts; and lastly there's Rarity the most beautiful one, something on her attracts me... and I really like her mane. There are also the Cutie Mark Crusaders: Sweetie Belle, Scootaloo and Applebloom. They are three fillies who are obsessed with getting their cutie marks. Sweetie Belle is nice and Scootaloo fun, but Applebloom is the one I see the most, I don't know why but we really get along. She comes to my place sometimes just to talk or play. I just noticed I didn't say anything about Twilight. I was an egg when Twilight hatched me for the Princess Celestia School for Gifted Unicorns entrance exam. We've been together ever since, she has been taking care of me, and we live together. She loves books, I don't so much, but I try to help her as much as I can and she named me her number one assistant. Is actually kind of hard to be just with ponies. I mean is not bad or anything, but I don't even know where I come from or what is to be a dragon. I talk them about my scales and some things that happen to me but the don't understand me. And I don't know who are my parents. I'm a little tired now, I'll go sleep. Good night. Dear diary: Hello, it's me again. Today was weird. The cutie mark crusaders came to my house today. They asked me to hang out with them and I had nothing better to do so I went with them. We went to their tree house club, there things started to be confusing. All of the sudden they asked me what being a dragon was like, they asked me about my scales, how's breathing fire like, even how having claws felt. It's okay for me to tell but the sudden interest was kind of scary.Then they told me what was all about. They thought that their relatives have related cutie marks, so if they knew a bit more about their past they could find something that could help them to find their's, it didn't work but they became curious about themselves. Applebloom said that she didn't even knew who they parents were, every time she asked her sister (Applejack) about them she said "They are far away. One day you will see them" she had snuck into her sister and even her grandmother bedroom looking for something that told her anything but she didn't find anything. Sweetie Belle also found something funny, she only saw her parents every once in a while. They travel around the world all the time, came just a few weeks and leave again, she had always lived with her sister Rarity, and now she started to noticed that her family situation is funny. She said that she even saw them different from her, the only two things they had in common were the fact that they were unicorns and that their skin was white. Scootaloo said she had a dad, but she never saw him again, he left her when she was a filly and she lived by herself in a small house in Ponyville; Ms. Cheerilee (the school teacher) came to her house every day to give her food and help her with the house chores, when she asked why was her helping, Cheerilee says "You are just a filly and I can't let you all alone". She never told anypony about it, but had trusted us. But then they said "Good thing, Spike does have a mother as a normal family" that wasn't the whole truth. Twilight hatched me and all but she's a pony, she doesn't understand me, she knows next to nothing about dragons, and she had never treated me like a son. I think she sees me more like a friend, and who can blame her, we are not even the same species. The clubhouse filled with silence, but then they started to talk about ideas of how to get their cutie marsk. It was like if the entire conveesation didn't take place to begin with. I walked out from there with tons of things in my head and went straight to my house. I saw Twilight and asked her about myself, I have done it before but she said the same thing "I don't know" today it was the same. I looked for books in my library, but nopony knows anything about dragons. Twilight told me that the answers come at the right moment, when we need to know, is like if we were destined to find the answers of something. Sometimes I really don't understand her, but I started to feel tired. I'll keep looking for the answer other day, now I'm only looking for my pillow.
Chapter 2Dear diary: Today, we decided to become a group. After thinking about our origins and because our families keeping secrets to us, the cutie mark crusaders and I decided to combine forces and reach out the truth together. We gathered in our special headquarters (the club house near Appleblooms house) and thought of great ideas to fin out what the deal is with our families. I can't be a cuetie mark crusader, because dragons don't have cutie marks. So for now we are only "the investigation team", I promise I'll come up with a better name. We did'nt have many good ideas, most of them involved questioning the very same people who are keeping the secret from us. But we decided to start in the library, thankfully Twilight always go out the same day at the same time and we had time to do a quick search. We found tons and tons of books about the funding of Ponyville and the main families, even some old family trees, but nothing really helpful. Except for the Apple family tree. It had pictures of every family Reunion, we noticed Granny Smith on every single one of them. We also noticed a patron, the elder ponies were right on the middle and their sons and grandsons alongside them. But with Granny Smith there were Bigmac, then Applejack and on the newest Applebloom, it totally jumped their parents and we couldn't find any other picture that showed them. Sweetie Belle suggested that we might find more information or at least their birth certificates at Towns hall. So we went there to get more info. When we got on Townshall there was the mayor mare's assistant she told us that all the documents on the archives were very important and that fillies were not allowed without company of an adult. Because we couldn't ask any of our relatives we thought we couldn't progress on the investigation, but then Scootaloo remembered she had jumped on the rooftops of the town when she was trying to fly, and she spotted that some holes that some gray pegasus with blond mane accidentally made were still not repaired. We decided that we would climb the building at night and entered through the holes. At night, I came out with no problem. Since Twilight came home she was on the basement. I saw Pinkie Pie while going out, she looked... weird I couodn't tell why, but it might had to do something with Twilight. I went to Town's hall where the rest of the investigation team were wearing black clothes and had a black costume for me too. I put it on, but the question was how would they climb the building. Scootaloo had a rope and asked me to climbed with my claws, I did it and when I got to the top, after I secured the rope I threw it back so they could use it to climb up. We were on the rooftop and used the same rope to climb down into a hole. Although we should have secured the rope before going down all at the same time, the rope broke and we crashed to the floor. The archives were like a big library, probably a little bigger than mine. Everything was organized by document type and alphabetical order. We went to the Birth Certificate area and looked for theirs, mine is in Canterlot and well it doesn't say anything important. We found them without much difficulty and soon found out another mystery. In Applebloom certificate said that her legal guardians were Applejack and Bigmac. With Sweetie Belle it showed that her legal guardian was Rarity only, but why? What about her parents? Lastly Scootaloo's was nowhere to be found. We were about to keep investigating, but a security guard entered and spotted us. We jumped through a window and flee to our houses. We managed to escape, but now instead of answers have more questions. I'm very tired. I'm gonna hit the bed. I can't sleep, too many mysteries keep me awake. I went to Twilight who was sleeping with a bear doll next to her. I moved I tried to move it and sleep next to her, but she was holding it very tight. I hugged her and try to sleep but it was kind of uncomfortable so I went back to my bed. I don't know what to do, maybe I'll eat some gems to help my sleep Author's Note People are telling me about the format and the way is written. I wantnto remember you that this is supposed to be Spike's dairy and I try to write like how he would, but is harder than I thought. If it bother you, please tell to see how I can change it.
Chapter 3Dear diary: Sorry I haven't write anything for a long time but a lot of things have been going on lately. Pinkie Pie disappeared the other day, Twilight and the other went all over looking for her. Me and the investigation team decided to join the search and we splint in two teams: Team 1, Scootaloo and Sweetie Belle; Team 2, Applebloom and I. We looked everywhere even Zecora's place, but we couldn't find it. The next day she appeared, turns out she went to Carnterlof for a lame old book for Twilight and didn't tell anypony, could you believe it?. Anyway, when we were looking for Pinkie I got to talk to Applebloom. She told me that she wanted to confront her sister using the birth certificate she found the other night, I was kind of surprised of it she looked scared but firm on her decision. Although she said she wasn't strong enough so she asked to accompany her. I don't really like to meddle in other ponies personal stuff but she was asking very seriously and... I couldn't resist her eyes, she has something that hypnotizes me. I ended up accepting her request and she will tell me when the best day would be, but for now I'll wait. She also gave the best advice someone had given me so far; she said I should communicate to Princess Celestia and ask her if she knows anything about me. She was the one who put the test that hatched me when I was an egg, so she might have some information, at least where she got me from. I will repay Applebloom someday for that. We had a party in Pinkie's honor. Twilight spent too much time with her and suddenly I've been noticing she's more worried about her than is for me? I'm not jealous, I'm noticing she doesn't treat me as her other friends... am I something else then? Dear diary: You will not believe what I just happened. Applebloom came today and took me to her house, she suddenly felt that she didn't want to wait anymore and it was the day she would tell Applejack. We went to barn and there she was. Applebloom approached her while I stayed a few steps before her asking first, after all it was family's business. Applebloom started to reproach about the certificate, she asked her what was all about, where her parents names were, and why has she hiding everything to her. Applejack got mad at her for getting the paper without their but it was obviously an excuse to get away avoid the questions. Applebloom yelled at Applejack, she was furious, she wasn't going to let her sister escape from this one. I have never seen Applebloom so fierce before, it was... different in an awesome way. Applejack gave in and told us the whole truth, I still don't believe it. I'm shaking by just thinking of it, but i really need to tell somepony and they made me pinkie promise not to tell anyone and this is my diary so no one will read it. Here it is the truth: When Applejack was a teen she used to go to a lot of rodeos around Equestria, she was admired by everyone and it got some fame from ponies all around, she had a picture that was taken in Appleloosa with BigMac but they were younger. After showing us the picture she told us something that made both of us fell on the ground... BigMac is not their actual brother. Applejack met BigMac in Appleloosa during a competition, ever since they saw each other secretly pretending using the competitions as an excuse and eventually became coltfriends. Granny Smith didn't like her daughter to go around with somepony she met just in a competition... Oh yeah! Granny Smith is actually Applejack mother, apparently she didn't want to have children until she old. Applejack didn't care about what she said and went with the pony she loved. Unfortunately they didn't protect themselves and she ended up pregnant, she was still so young and didn't know what to do. BigMac took responsibility and decided to take care of the baby but nopony wanted to hire a pony that young. Granny Smith offered them to live in her house and work on the apple orchard, but they had to take responsibility for everything the baby needed and never even think of abandon the child. They decided that it would be best for the baby to be raised by Granny and don't let it know the sad truth. The baby was a beautiful baby with red hair and yellow coat, it was Applebloom. We couldn't believe our ears, Appplebloom cried and she said she was a mistake, that Applejack and BigMac lied to her and she didn't want anything anymore. Applejack then told her that she always loved her and took care of her as her baby and it hurt that she couldn't tell her the truth and she promised she would never leave her alone and for now on she would be proudly treat her as her daughter. They cried and hugged each other, Applebloom took it weel but I think it will take sometime to be used to the situation. I left there trying to be quiet and not interruption, but they told me to not tell anypony yet. They wanted to tell everypony themselves at the right time... Thank celestia I got you diary. Because of what I just saw with the Apples I made the decision of asking Princess Celestia about me, but I'm still scared of what she might said. What Applejack said made me think "treat you as my real daughter" that's what she said. So there's a way to treat your daughter or son... Does Twilight treat me as her son? or, as her friend? What should I do? Author's Note Did you see that one coming? There's still a few surprises ahead
Chapter 4Dear diary: I've been trying to find how Twilight sees me. I started calling her "mom" and tried to be a little closer, but every time she gets surprised, I got panic and leave or correct myself. She doesn't really say anything about it, but she hasn't say she doesn't like it either. Sometimes I look for her and tried to talk, but she had been hanging out with Pinkie Pie a lot lately, so I haven't gotten the chance. Today, the investigation team gathered at the "special headquarters" (I still haven't come with a better name, too many things going at the same time to think about it) and talked about what was going on. Applebloom shared what happened with her sister with the rest of the group and there were a mix between surprised and tear in the eyes. She thank me, although I did not do anything, and said that today things felt pretty good actually. By everypony in her house knowing the truth their attitudes changed on the good side and everybody was happy. She said that they felt like if a big weight was off their shoulders, and that they were free to finally do whatever they actually wanted to do. She saw Applejack and BigMac kiss... it's okay but it still feel gross, the idea of them not being related still hasn't sink in yet. Sweetie Belle had the same idea of confronting her sister. She thought about it before, but she wanted more information before doing it so. The positivism of Applebloom's story gave her enough strength to tell her. Even though she was scared about what the truth might be and she knew this might change everything, she wanted to know. Suddenly I noticed how much have they grown, they got fire on their eyes and they didn't look like fillies anymore. And, as the other member did, she asked for my support. I take any chance there is to see Rarity but I wasn't going to meddle there. I wouldn't... if it wasn't for Applebloom asking me to help Sweetie Belle. Those eyes again, I don't know what they got that every time she open them wide open I melt away. While both of them decided to look for their origins and face their relatives, Scootaloo said she wasn't going to do the same. Since the only pony close to her is Cheerilee, and that she wasn't her family, Scoo didn't feel like risking too much for what might be answered with "I don't know". We tried to convince her to ask the teacher about her, and we might made it worse. She covered her ears and screamed, then she ran through the door without direction. We were about to go after her, but Applebloom stopped us. She told us Scootaloo might need some time. we didn't want to leave her all alone, but Applebloom was right. The team separated there and went back home. Not before Sweetie Belle telling me that tomorrow we will talk with Rarity... this is going to be another tough talk, I'm afraid. When I arrived I found Twilight and Pinkie having dinner, kind of weird because mostly Twilight and I eat together. I came near to see if there was a plate for me, sadly they told me they forgot and there were no food left for me (at least I had a few gems hidden down my bed). I hide my tear in the eye and went straight to bed. She didn't even remember me?... and Pinkie is just a friend. Twilight doesn't treat me as a son, neither as none of her friends. Perhaps she doesn't even see me as a family. Dear diary: Remember what I said about the talk might going to be tough? I was right. Very early in the morning I left my house. After last night I didn't want to be there, I felt too sad and just wanted to be somewhere else. I went to the park to clear my head. I sat on a bench and closed my eyes while the wind blew, I like to do that because I feel like the wind may come and take everything away with it. Pinkie Pie was crossing by and saw me. She apologize for the last night and asked me if I there were anything wrong. Of course there was!... Although I would never say that, at least not now. I said no, she knew I was lying but thankfully asked no further questions. She left a cupcake and went to her way, I didn't feel for a cupcake but I ate anyway... and it did made me a little happier. I walked around Ponyville and tried to distract myself for a while, the town was lively with everypony busy. I love passing by Octavia and Dj-Pon3 house, they are always arguing for the smallest thing and I laugh at them. The mailmare had a lot of ponies around her complaining about their letters being all mixed up, I think she does it on purpose so she gets the attention. Sweetie Belle then found me and told me it was time. I didn't feel for going with her now, but I promised to. We went to the Carousel Boutique. Today was dresses planning day, so the shop was closed and nopony would interrupt us. Sweetie Belle gently called her sister to the main room, while I sat on a chair to stay as far from the conversation as I could. Rarity came down wearing her working glasses and a measuring tape around her neck. She came down the stairs and greeted us, she was surprised but didn't expect what her sister was about to tell her... and neither did we. On the contrary of her friend, Sweetie Belle took the birth certificate and gave it to her Rarity, she was curious but she almost jumped in surprised once she recognized the paper. Sweetie was pretty calm, although even tried to walk back, but she waited until Rarity got herself together again. Once the elder sister regain herself Sweetie Belle proceeded with her interrogation... although it was one question "What happened to our parents?" I couldn't understand that "Weren't their parents those ponies who travel a lot? She should know where are they by know" I was so confused. Sweetie stayed on her ground without moving an inch and staring into Rarity's eyes. All of the sudden Rarity started to cry and sob. She took off her glasses and tape and told us her story: When Rarity was a teen, Sweetie Belle came into her life. She always loved her sister, and sometimes she took care of her for whole days. Their parents had a retail clothing store in Canterlot, it wasn't a fashion line as Rarity's but more like a casual style as she said. They usually traveled to Canterlot every week to check how the busyness were going, they didn't like the city lifestyle and decided to raised their daughters in Ponyville. One day, the whole family were going on a trip to the beach for vacations, but there were problems back in Canterlot. They wanted to go to Canterlot and then to the beach, but because Sweetie Belle was still a baby they thought it would be tiresome for the little one to travel so much, so they left Rarity in charge of the child back at home and promised they'll come back. On the way to the city, they went trough the mountains but there was a storm on the top. Some lightning hit the tip of the mountains making some boulders to fall, the train conductor made the machine go as fast as it could trying to evade the boulders, but one hit the side of the train making it to fell into the abyss and taking their parents lives. Two ponies from the royal guard went to Rarity's house and gave the bad news, as a young pony Rarity felt like her life went down into the darkness, the only thing left for her was her sister. The news went worse as the Department of Filly Protection came and wanted to take Sweetie Belle into an Orphanage, as a baby she had good chances of family wanting to adopted her. Rarity stepped in and decided she would take custody of her, she didn't have the majority of age yet, but she wouldn't let anypony take her away. Celestia interceded in the negotiation and accepted Rarity's request to take care of her sister under one condition, an inspector pony would come to her house every week to check if everything were in a proper environment for a filly to be raised. Ever since, Rarity has been taking care of her little sister. The ponies Sweetie knew as "parents" were actually actors Rarity hired to pretend they went into trips to around the world, in order for the little one didn't feel the pain of not having parents. It's because of that Rarity is too focused on her work, she wanted her sister to have everything she needed and everything she wanted. Even though it sometimes meant that she would not see her sister for days. It took me all by surprised. I couldn't gasp the sadness they might be going through, but Sweetie didn't shade a tear. She told her that even though they acted as parents she never felt close or even relate to them. She knew there were something off but never could put her hoof exactly what it was. She understood and accepted everything her sister just told her. Rarity stumbled as she kept crying more and more, she started to say "I'm sorry". Sweetie Belle hugged her sister and told her "It's okay". She might share the pain of her sister? ... I don't know, she was never had a sad face. She smiled in relief as she comforted her sister. It was weird, if I didn't knew them I wouldn't tell who the big sister was. Once again I sneaked out of the place without them noticing me, they might need time as well. It was already night so I just went to home. When I arrived Twilight was nowhere to be seen, I went to the kitchen and found a note "Spike: I'm going to have a sleepover at Pinkie's. There's a jewel cake all for you on the fridge. Twilight" At least she left me a note and cake. I took the cake and ate it all and went to bed. It's the first time I sleep alone... or more like I feel alone while sleeping. I might write a letter to Princess Celestia, but too late at night for that. Maybe tomorrow.
Chapter 5Dear diary: I woke up early today and went for breakfast. Twilight was there in the living room doing some research about... I don't know. I don't even care anymore, she can go and be best friend with Pinkie Pie... well I do care. It's just that she's been with me since I was born, I think I'm losing all I had. When I finished breakfast I went to the special headquarters to reunite with the investigation team, but there was just one pony there: Scootaloo. She told me that both Sweetie Belle and Applebloom would spend time with their families, Scoo was there just to clean up the place. I wanted to head back home, but she looked sad and I felt bad for her, so I stayed for a while. We ware just chatting and making fun of how weird things had turned with the two other members, suddenly she became silent and asked me "Now that you see how things turned out, would you want to reach out the truth?" hard question. Considering the situation, Twilight doesn't really care about me, but even if my parents are... gone I would really like to know. My answer was yes, what she said was actually kind of profound and I'll try to write exactly as she said or at least as close. She said "All of you have it easy. Even if the truth is sad, you can still live with your family and your life continues. But me, I got nothing. The only pony who I can ask can leave if she doesn't want to tell me or decide to don't be with me anymore. I could lose the closest and only thing I got for a family. I do want to know about my parents, but I don't know if by knowing the truth I'll get them back. Should I risk it all?". I felt a lump on my throat. I never thought on that possibility for her. I was speechless, she just stared the ground feeling even worse. Then words came out of my lips without noticing, I said the first things that came into my mind "Perhaps knowing the truth won't get you any closer to your parents, but it might get you closer to who you really ARE"... I gotta be honest diary, I have no idea what that means, I don't even know why did I say it. The words just came to my head and before knowing I was speaking. Apparently my words had effect on her as she cleaned her tears and said I was right and thank me. I'm not sure how did I help, but it feels good to do the right thing sometimes... even if you don't know what you did. Then she asked me about the letter I was going to write to Princess Celestia. To be honest, I hadn't feel brave enough to write it (yeah, I know, I'm a hypocrite) it does kind of scare me what she will say. I told her I hadn't the time to do it, I was lying and it was obvious. Scoo just told me "Just remember Spike, it might get you closer to who you really are" I hate when ponies tell me what I told them, Twilight does it all the time. Suddenly, we were interrupted. Cheerilee found the headquarters and was asking if Scootaloo could go with her. She ran towards Cheerilee, I had to closed the headquarters and went on my way. I went around Ponyville thinking on to write or not to write the letter to Celestia. Things were really sad for the other two members but ended up rather happy, if I'm lucky enough things may go good for me too. But then, I ran into one of the ponies I really didn't want to see: Pinkie Pie. I actually like Pinkie Pie, but she's been causing problems lately... at least to me. Once again she noticed I was worried about something, she grabbed my tail with her mouth and pulled me around. Because she walk/bounce I hit the ground a few times until we reached the Sugarcube Corner. She made some hot chocolate and served me a slice of cake. Then she asked me what was going on. As I did before I told her there was nothing wrong, then she said she wanted to be closer to me and wanted me to trust her, that I can tell her everything. What's with the sudden interest anyway? I couldn't tell her "you are the one breaking my little family apart" well it wasn't a full family in the first place. I had to came up with something, so I told her half the truth. I told her that I was growing up and I wanted to know a bit more about myself, but my research went nowhere and I still have no idea, she then asked me why didn't I asked Twilight about it as if it was that simple, she knew as much as I do. Pinkie told me she didn't how to help but if there was something she could do for me I could always go with her. Why is Pinkie trying to be closer while Twilight is not even trying? I accepted Pinkie's request, finished my chocolate and headed back home. Back at home Twilight was reshelving the books and asked to help her. Finally! After all this time I got back to my work as assistant, although I didn't speak much to her. I still feel a little heartbroken for all that happened between us. Neither did she say anything to me, it was just another work we were doing, just another silent work. It took us all day, but we finally finished reshelving the whole library. After that I just made me a sandwich and went to the basement, I had finally decided to write a letter to the Princess but I didn't want Twilight to know about it. "Dear Princess Celestia: It is me Spike the Dragon. I'm writing you for a special request I have. You see for quite some time I have been investigating about my origins and because of Ponyville not being my hometown, not even a place where dragons are common, my research had led me to a dead end. I remembered that Twilight Sparkle entrance exam for the School for Gifted Unicorns was hatching an egg that was me. Because of that I'm writing this letter asking you if would be so kind to tell me, where did you get my egg from? Where and who are my parents? I believe knowing about my past will make the path of my future much brighter and finally know who I am. I'm begging you Princess, I'm desperate, and I don't know who to turn to. I just want to know my family. I will be waiting for your answer. Your humble subject - Spike the Dragon" I sent the letter with my dragon breath. It might take a while so I'll just hit the bed for now. The princess answer arrived a couple of ours after I sent it, faster than I expected. It says: "Dear Spike: As you might know, as Princess of Equestria I am concerned about all my subjects well being and whatever I could do I am more than happy to help. However, the answer of your questions may not be what you were expecting. First, I think I should explain about the entrance exam. The truth is no pony had successfully made the dragon's egg hatch except for my faithful student, the three ponies that observe the process actually take notes about the amount of magic used, the determination of the pony and creativity, among other things. That's why you don't see other ponies with baby dragons around. Now, I'll explain about your case in particular. There are a few dragon families who worship along the Kingdom and are glad to help in whatever we ask, they sometimes agree to lend an egg when we need some for the entrance exams, but yours is a special case. During the dragon migrations sometimes eggs are forgotten or left, we usually take care of them and wait until the families come back for them. We found your egg near the volcano and we took care of it until your parents came back, but for days and days no one came for it. I asked some specialists to analyse it in order to know what kind of specie of dragon you were and thus look for your family, however yours is a specie still unknown by anypony. You are a unique kind of dragon. After some misunderstanding your egg got selected for the entrance exam, and as you know, Twilight hatched you. We didn't know what to do, we weren't prepared nor had personal to attend a baby dragon needs. Then Twilight asked if she could take care of you, to be honest I had my doubts and wasn't sure if she would be ready for the task. But as she was going to be my private student and her heart being pure I decided she could keep you. I'm sorry if this information wasn't as useful as you might thought but if there is another way I could help you, please by all means ask me. And about your family, I wouldn't look too far if I were you. Your's truly - Princess Celestia of Equestria." Great. JUST GREAT! So my family doesn't even wanted me. They didn't even look for me. I'm unique? Well I guess I am. I'm the only dragon who isn't even liked by ponies nor dragons. I don't know what to do anymore. Nopony want me around. Why did I have to be born a dragon?! Author's Note Feel bad for Spike?... Yeah so do I. Quick announcement: Well the end is neigh, but I'm looking for artists who would like to draw a cover for this story and the other one I'm working on (The Magic of Laughter). I can't pay you (I'm kinda low on bits) but I can advertise your art.
Chapter 6Dear diary: You and the investigation team are my only friends. Last night I couldn't sleep, I stayed in the basement crying. I din't want Twilight see me as how I was. I still can't comprehend why would someone just abandoned an egg, they didn't care if something happened to me, they just threw me away like garbage. When the sun raised I went to the special headquarters to be alone, the members usually come at noon around 10 A.M. and 12 P.M. so I had plenty of time to clear my head. On my way there I got really mad, I kept thinking about who could be my parents not caring about me and just leaving me in the volcano, even trying to kill me. I was so mad I felt the fire coming through my throat and the heat in my lips. I blindly shot a fireball and burned down a tree. It was red huge ball of fire, I have never shot that kind of fire before neither that big, I could barely burn the scrolls to Princess Celestia before, and now I could burn a tree to ashes. What is going on with me? I curled on the headquarters floor and fell asleep. When I opened my eyes just to the whole team around me,staring. They told me they were worried about me because I was sleep weeping (I didn't even know that was possible). I told them everything, I even gave them the letter. I held the letter the whole night, I wanted to destroy it, but I read it every time thinking that the words would changed and tell me something else or that it would disappear and showed me it was just a dream. As always everypony was supportive, giving encouraging words and tried to cheer me up. I couldn't do it, I was too sad, I just couldn't thinking of anything else. No matter what they say I wasn't paying attention, it actually made me feel worse when they said how great things turned with their mother and sister. Then the one who came with a bright idea was Scootaloo. She told me that we could seek for my parents, that we could go across Equestria from dragon town to dragon town asking for information. The other two said that it was too dangerous and we shouldn't doing it, but Scoo was really excited and wanted to go as soon as we could. Honestly, some other day I would have said that the idea was dumb and I would straight out said no, but now it kind of made sense now. The only way I could gather some information now was from a dragon's mouth, dragons who went to the same place during the migration I was left. Perhaps my parents forgot me and went back to the same point and didn't find me, and they didn't know about Celestia's care center. I agreed and we decided to go today, we just needed to be ready. Applebloom and Sweetie Belle said they wouldn't accompany us, but they wouldn't get on out way, they just asked us to really careful. I remembered I had a book at the library with a map of possible dragon locations Twilight and I made some time ago, plus we need some supplies for the long journey. So we decided to see us at the west entrance of Ponyville that led to Dragons Mountain, which strangely enough doesn't really held dragons. I'm now at the library. Twilight is cleaning the place up. I don't know if I should tell her, or maybe I should just leave a note. I feel bad for leaving her alone, although she has Pinkie now. Part of me doesn't want to leave, but other feel the need for the quest. So far I still need to get some supplies and while Twilight is cleaning I cannot take the book from the shelf. I'll leave for now and when I come back I'll see what to do, and don't worry I'll take you with me too, diary. Dear Spike: Before anything I would say I'm sorry. I know this is your private diary, but lately you have been acting weird, you look tired, worried and sad all the time. Also you have been acting strange, you say something and then scratch it, you hug me and ran, and sometimes just staring me from the distance. I wanted to give you some space for you to deal with whatever you had, but it seems that it made things worse. I didn't know if I should ask you because Pinkie told me she talked with you but you didn't want to tell her what you got. So, because I didn't want to disturb you or make things worse, I found your diary laying down and read it to find out. I know is bad, and if you don't want to talk with me anymore it's okay, I understand. But before you do so I want you to know something. When I saw you, hatching from you egg, you were sucking your own little baby dragon tail and I thought you were the most beautiful thing I ever saw. I wanted to hug you, but then the princess's guards came and wanted to take you away. I couldn't let them do it, who know what would had happened to you, I went to the princess and asked her to allow me to keep you. You were there at the Princess's chamber and held you. I remember holding your little baby body wrapped in a white blanked as you sleep. The Princess thought for a moment I don't know what she was considering but the time seemed to stopped that moment. After what felt like hours of waiting she said yes, and you have no idea how happy I was. Just remembering it make me wanna cry tears of joy. Taking care of you was hard, no, it was exhausting. You needed my attention at all time and I still hadd to study for the Princess and attend my royal duties. Every night I stayed awake until late, sometimes the sun shined and I was still awake. I got worried whenever you made the smallest sound, I still do sometimes. I remember one day when you accidentally burned all your toys and almost the whole house down. You were alone in your room and the flames surrounded the place, my magic was still too weak to teleport and I was alone. I jumped through the flames for you, my tail burn and even some of my coat burned but I didn't feel pain or fear that moment. I got you and used my magic to make a force field around us I tried to calm you singing lullabys and keeping the force field strong so the flames would touch us, the fireponies came after a while and extinguished the fire.That was before I knew dragons were fire proof, but I was too worried and I would do it again to keep you safe. I saw you grow and you made me grow too, we were together all the time, and no matter what I tried to be there for you . But you matured too fast (or at least that's what it seemed to me) and the more you grew the more you wanted to be with others of your same age, but as you may remember the ponies in Canterlot didn't treat you right, you were bullied and a lot of ponies were scared of you, and sadly there were no dragons either. I tried to get friends for you, but nothing seemed to work. Thus, you only spent time with me and you always referred to me as "Twilight", "friend" or "sister". Obviously, though, you are a dragon and I'm a pony so it's only logical that you don't see me as part of a family. But I tried to make you feel as safe and comfortable as I could be, I never wanted you to feel left behind or being treated different... I might have done the opposite. As for Pinkie, we are becoming closer and we want to spend more time to each other, but I can promise you that she will never tear us apart and she only wants to help our family be happier. With time, we will explain it to you. If you are seriously going to your quest I will not interfere. If you want to find your true parents and if that is what you truly believe is what you need for knowing who you really are I will let you go, even though thinking that you might get hurt terrorizes me. But there's something you need to know. I am proud of calling you my son, and perhaps I don't say it out loud, I sometimes don't treat you like it, and maybe trying to make you feel more part of the family made you feel more different. But no matter what I have always been proud of you, and you will always be my son. You will always be my baby and I love you with all my heart. Please, before leaving let me give you one last hug and send me a letter from every town you visit. Don't forget about your little family, and always be true to yourself. Don't forget that I love you. With all my love -Mom Author's Note If you want to know more about Twilight and Pinkie check The Magic of Laughter. Another fanfiction I'm working on, it's still at works and it needs some time to catch up with this story. I'm looking for artist who would like to make a cover for this and my other stories. Please, if you are interested, contact me.
