“What my life has said, I live to see the accomplishments that the ponies play, and their fascination on the many wonders to live on this world; life but for them is but mere pleasure and that one’s absence can lead to many of those who are said, and done each have at their own achievements the ability to understand the beauty with in and the ugly out; to watch the many, I live but as a shell continuing to go on living as a dream, but to choose life’s will and LIVE IT.” I said pondering at my mysterious thought
“Living life if were a dream to see whether the single brink of my absence would cause distortion and that my being here is meant for the benefit of their good to no avail is the bell at its panicle and the strikes that haunt me will return, to live with the voice of silence and here it mockery at me as it watches me stand as a monument in stone for those to gawk and ridicule, I remember the time they would see me as Discord and chaos the time alone I …. live life, but succeed in in in in ugh the time alone will I be accepted not as the bane to good, but to evil, but can one be reformed and treated as respect not by judgment but the inner being in them; as well the much seclusion I’m in not to as even as a *peep* of my existence, and to live in the shadows of my life and sins it is the will of your own and the bringing of many.” I doubted the very idea I am bringing myself to and to even start a conversation to
“I live infamous to those I have brought distortion upon and the mere destruction I have brought to the be beneficial to the many of bigots that mock my mere presence; I live as time and watching it crumbling as the will be, but ash and only known as “freak”, what am I to live here, what am I to see the change that those around me are not subordinate and fear my appearance; but alas, I am, what, I am that no mere change could render the appearance of one’s self and to casted away and to live as an equal and to learn the many wonders of life.” I reminisced; irritated at my own voice as it is one of a mad
“The feeling of seclusion and the hatred is that I’ll I get and being shunned. I do not blame them, but myself what life is the mass confusion that could make any one mad *chuckle* even a certain purple mare.” I said annoyed of the bad times that fuel the fires that burn inside my head
“Ah and what brings you to me….” a voice inaudible to the thick marble door that echoed the walls of my room shaking the very foundation I am standing on and the voice of forgiveness and kindness
“So here, I, alone needed to stay away from the voices of joy and remorse locked in my prison of isolation and the see of darkness that whenever in close me, but why? I do not even know and I cause chaos *chuckle*” I said
“To live here, I want, and need forgetting the past sins of my reckoning and not even to know if they were mine, and yet, seclusion is not some ones friend.” I said
“But living in my seclusion makes you think and to understand the values should I be the one to progress the decisions I make, and keep what I have and to understand the concept of the wrong choice can very be my years of seclusion?” I thought
“Or to flee the progress, and remain in solitude and remain absents to the world or my only friend.” I said as my tears sheds my eye as it fell to the cold marble floor that adorned the walls of Canterlot
“They all thought I was mad! Voice to cause the very ground and life to end to stand! And even threatened when just stating my own abilities for the cause of being in still motion! When to any have I caused the pain that I cause only misery and I am public enemy number one! WHAT THEY HAVE DONE IS CAUSED ME PAIN IT IS THEY WHO SHALL BE THE ONES WHO BRING THEIR END!”I yelled
“BUT TO REFORME TO GIVE ERROR TO MY WAYS IS ONE THAT IM NOT BUT TO MERLY HAVE FUN THEY WERE THE ONES THAT HURT ME *tears fall* AND THE ONES THAT I AM CHAOS!”I raged with furious anger that could be heard even to the thick walls of my room
“BUT WHY AM I CHAOS, WHY COULD’NT I BE LIKE THEM TO LIVE IN PEACFUL HARRRRMONNNYYYY! TO LIVE IN SHELTER AND WARMTH THE ANGER I AM, AND THE SADDNESS, is the one I live in *sighs* and yet here I am locked in my o ow owwnn room! And no one will care, but me and no one will understand as I put smile of gilt and to see I’m happy, but not and to see were to be and live how I should, I’m old and decrepit and years of chaotic wisdom and no one will care, Fluttershy might say it’s alright, but she sees me as one of needing to understand as if we’re a young foal!” I continue to cry out as I speak wash all the pain held beneath my soul that fells wretched in my heart
“Even if no one cares I must move on to see them smile will bring me a smile, and to live as one with them as a family and to be guided and to actually change my approach on my once demining appearance will bring me closer to a change that can benefit my appearance and my to help seek guidance and to be truly happy.” I said