Date Night

The screams sound so good, but it bring me so much sorrow.
The blood looks so delicious, but it makes me sick.
This world I find myself in, I want it to burn with the horrified screams of everyone who lives in it.
This world I find myself in, I want to help it and everyone who lives in it.
I want to cause pain to everyone.
I want to cause happiness to everyone.
I want everyone to scream when they see me.
I want everyone to smile when they see me.
I want everyone to suffer.
I want everyone to rejoice.
My mind has a large burden inside, a monster I cannot control.
Damned to be stuck with this monster, that never stop screaming, that never stops his evil desires.
I am stuck inside this damn cage, never to leave.
Imprisoned to be stuck with this Writer, that never stops trying, that never stops his good desires.
Both of us share the same mind, but we think so differently.
He thinks of murder and death.
He thinks of life and happiness.
How can I break free from these thoughts that plague my mind? The want and desire that scare me to the core. To have blood covering my body, to have the soothing liquid engulf my entire being.

How can I break free from these thoughts that corrupts my mind? The want and desire that makes me sick and gag. To be surrounded by others, to see their smiling faces, to have their soothing laughter warm my heart.
It is a burden I have beard since the day I was born.
It is a prison since the day I was born.
No peace.
No freedom.
No laughter.
No screams.
When will the day come when I will be free from this burden?
When will the day come when I will be free from this cage?
Both of us are from the same mind, but are two different beings, that share one body.
The day will come when we become whole.
The day will come when we become broken.
The path we choose determines our fate.
The fate we choose determines our path.
I am Ashura.
I am Atom.
The day will come, our death is ahead.
Paradox will be free.
I must save as many as I can.
I must kill as many as I can.
This is our life.