July 31, 2013: Still Silence in Equestria

My first love is my only love because my only love is my true love.

“Today is the day we bury Nate.” I announced to everypony in the living room. Ethan and his girlfriend, Roseluck, have been staying with me and Bon Bon ever since Nate died. Discord has been planning go after Celestia soon.

“He's dead and I can’t keep his body frozen forever.” I said to my friends.

“If you’re sure, then we must bury him in the Everfree Forest. Its close and no sane pony would be snooping around in there. I also prepared his grave last week just in case you would make this sudden decision” Discord told me.

“Let’s go at five o’clock then. That gives us one hour to get ready.” I said looking up to hold my tears in.

“Let’s get you some fresh air, Lyra.” Roseluck said getting me up. I followed her outside the back door. The whole day has been gloomy and the clouds where gray. It’s been raining amnesty for the past two days so far.

“It looks like it’s going to rain again.” I told her. Roseluck pointed a cigarette box at me.

“Do you want a cigarette?” She asked kindly.

“Not now, thank you.” I responded. She put a cigarette in here mouth and lit it up. I had never smoked before but the smoke she blew smelled strong.

“I came out here for fresh air and all I get is smoke.” I said.

“Listen, I never really like you and the only reason I came with you guy was because Ethan wouldn’t shut up about you.” Roseluck admitted.

“Well….at least you’re honest.” I told her. Bon Bon opened the door behind us.

“We should get ready.” she said. I followed her back in and we went to our room to dress for the funeral. I had never been at a funeral before but it looks like Nate’s is going to be my first one.

“Do you have black clothing?” I asked Bon Bon.

“Yeah, I have some in the closet.” She answered. I opened the closet and picked out a black jacket.

“A jacket for a funeral?” Bon Bon said looking at me funny.

“What’s wrong with wearing a jacket?” I said looking down sadly. Bon Bon came up to me and kissed me on the cheek; it made me feel a little bit better.

“I’m sorry, it’s just that…. I don’t know what to think about Nate-” I cried just saying his name. Bon Bon gave me a nice warm hug,

“It’s okay Lyra, I am here for you. I will always be here for you.” Bon Bon said hugging me tighter.

“Do you promise?” I asked looking in her shady blue eyes.

“I promise.” Bon Bon smiled.

We heard a loud clap of thunder coming from miles away and the dark clouds above were softly starting to pour rain droplets on us. It was time. Ethan picked up a shovel from the back yard and Discord wrapped a blanket around Nate then we headed towards the Everfree Forest. Everypony was rushing to get indoors that they didn’t have time to notice us entering the woods.

We eventually found a small open grassy field in middle of the forest. There was a gravestone with the name Nate River and a covered dirt hole in front of it. Discord uncovered it and laid Nate in it.

“Does anypony have anything to say before…” Discord announced. I didn’t have anything to say to him, it’s not like he’s going to hear me. Bon Bon never wanted him in my life so she didn’t speak.

“Well I got something to say, I guess. Nate River was very inspirational to me; I would say that I wouldn’t be here right now if it wasn’t for him. He was my hero and-” I interrupted Discord’s speech.

“Shut up! Just shut the fuck up with your lies! He’s dead so just bury him already!” I cried out. I felt sad that he died but more angry for leaving me.

“Your love died and this is how you’re going to treat his death!” Roseluck spoke out stupidly not knowing the pain I’m feeling.

“JUST GET OUT OF HERE THEN! I DON’T NEED TO HEAR IT FROM THE POPULAR SCHOOL WHORE! GO PISS OFF!” I shouted angrily at Roseluck.

“I HATE YOU!!” she shouted back at me.

“Alright you too, that’s enough!” Discord said getting in front of us.

“I’m leaving this little slumber party, come on Ethan.” Roseluck said walking away. Ethan didn't move but he was looking at me as if he was choosing.

“Come on!” she yelled one last time. Ethan tried to say something but no words came from his mouth. He chose Roseluck over me and left. I wanted to punch him so hard but Discord nodded his head in disapproval.

I sat down on the ground and let Discord bury Nate the dirt before it became too muddy. After he was done, he told us he’ll come back one more time and flew off into the stormy sky. I told Bon Bon to go back home before she gets sick. I stayed leaning on a tree close by just thinking for half an hour. I had decided that Nate River had died and Near was my true love.

“See you later Near.” I spoke to myself walking away. I still walked home with anger though.

When I entered the house I saw Bon Bon lying on the couch sleeping in her robe. I smiled at the sound of her adorable soft snoring. I noticed a towel on the kitchen chair and I forgot that I was dripping wet for a moment. I went over to use the towel to dry myself but then I noticed that Bon Bon already used it. I should have gone and get a new one but something told me that I wanted to use it. I picked it up with my magic and dropped it on my face. It smelled like sugary sweats, it made me feel gooey inside and well, water wasn't the only thing dripping down my body.

After I eventually dried myself, I laid down on the couch facing Bon Bon. I was about one centimeter away from her cute face. I sighed. Her ear twitched a bit and she cracked open her eye.

“Hello beautiful.” Bon Bon whispered softly. I blushed. “Not to bother you or anything, but why are you this close to me?” She smiled.

“Well I guess-” My stomach began hurting again but I this it’s because I’m hungry.

“What’s wrong Lyra?” Bon Bon asked.

“It’s just… do we have any carrots.” I said getting off the couch.

“There’s some in the refrigerator but I think they’re too big, you have to cut them.” She said lying up.

I headed over the refrigerator and picked out a long carrot with my magic. I placed it on the counter and tried my hardest to pick the Sharpe knife from the sink. I use both hooves to hold it while I was slicing the carrot. I managed to cut it into three pieces. All was good until I dropped it back into the sink. The knife fell off on side of my right hoof and slit my left arm on contact. Everything suddenly went slow, the cut burned before blood could make its way out. Then after seeing the knife fall in the sink with a cling, it made me finally snap.

I couldn't take it anymore! I had to let it all out!

“GOD DAMN IT NEAR!!!” I shouted with rage.

I picked up the knife again and slit my whole arm as many time as I could. I cried tears of pain and anger. I let it all out on myself. Bon Bon quickly got up as soon as I started screaming. I deeply stabbed myself one last time before I fell to the floor.

“OH MY GOD LYRA!! WE NEED AN EMBULENCE!!” Bon Bon shouted getting the phone.

In one long blink, things were starting to get back to normal speed but I felt like everything was getting blurrier. I tried to look down but the pool of blood was making me noshes. At least I let my built up anger out but I still had to tell Bon Bon the truth.

“Bon Bon.” I said painting because it was hard to breath. “Bon Bon please listen….”

“HELLO HOSPITAL! I NEED AN-” I slapped the phone out of her hoof.

“Bon Bon please listen to what I have to say!” I cried. She looked at me with full attention.

“The reason why I hate Near for leaving me…” I felt my brain starting to black out. I had to tell her, it was now or never.

“Bon Bon…” I placed my right hoof on her soft cheek.

“I’m pregnant.”

Author's Note

This is a short prequel to my third chapter called True Love.