The Life of A Godby Eventide IndigoChaptersSeptemberFebruarySeptemberDecemberMayDecemberJanuaryMarchSeptemberHearts and Hooves Day DecemberAugustSeptemberOctoberDecemberMarchJulySeptemberOctoberNovemberOctoberJune and AugustNovemberJune and JulyAprilJuneFebruaryJuneAugustSeptemberSeptember 1st Today was the first day of school. The teacher is very nice and she tells everyone to stop it when they look at me funny. One kid asked me why I looked so ugly and I started crying, but the teacher was really nice to me and gave me a golden sticker because I was so good. Being a dragonnecus draconequus is really hard. Especially when you're the last one left, because then nopony knows why you look so funny. Some of the kids are nice to me, but I think its because they feel bad or something. I hope I make some friends tomorrow... lunch time was very lonely. Discord * * * September 8th Hey diary. I think I'm in love. There's a very beautiful pony in my class. They say she's an ali-acorn or something like that. I don't no what that is but it's very special. She is a Pegasus AND a unicorn... can you believe it? Her name is Cullestia Culesstya Cellestya ... Tia. She's so pretty and she's super graceful. They say she's even a princess. Everyone really likes her, and she has lots of friends. All the boys have crushes on her too. Which really kinda sucks because she doesn't notice me at all. The teacher likes her lots too. Her mane is really pretty and long and it waves in the wind... even when there is no wind! I think her mane is magic or something. Anyway, I like Tia and maybe one day I can marry her because that would be super cool and stuff. Bye! -Discord * * * September 17th Today sucked. I finally decided to talk to Celestia today. (the teacher taught me how to spell her name right!) She was very nice and I love her voice. It is very pretty. I was having lots of fun talking to her but then a really big colt came up to me. I don't no his name but he is a big meanie and he told me to stay away from Celestia and never come back... EVER! I was really sad but I said goodbye to her and walked away. Celestia even waved to me and she looked sad when I left. I think she likes me back! Maybe I can marry her after all. -Discord * * * September 30th Hey diary. I'm kinda sad right now, so I thought I should write about my day. I'm sorry I haven't written a lot lately, but I lost you. I found you just now. You were under my bed! So, anyway, today was not very good for me. I was talking to Celestia again. She came over to me and apologized about the colt and said she had told him to leave me alone. I was really happy because maybe I could get closer to her and then I could tell her about my crush on her. I hope she isn't weirded out by me. I talked to her for the whole lunch recess, but I saw the colt and his friends looking at me. He was real jealous. I have to walk home from school because mommy is sick and can't get up a lot. She can only get up to make me breakfast, pack me lunch and make dinner. I love my mommy. I say I need to get a doctor, but she says we can't afford it. Anyways, I was walking alone down an alley which I use as a short-cut to my house. Then I hear the gravel slide behind me and I turn around to see the colt and two others grinning at me. I tried to run but I slipped and scraped my knee. It's still bleeding as I write this, even though I put a band-aid on. They beat me up. Now my tummy really hurts because the biggest colt kicked me there and then kicked it again to make sure I'd stay down. I think my eye is bruising. And the nosebleed doesn't help either. My nose really hurts. Mom was in bed when I came home, so luckily she didn't see me like this. I would tell my mom about them, but... Well, you know, if you rat on the bullies, they just come back for more. Even if they are expelled, they know where I live. Bullies suck, diary. They really do. Oops! I hear my mom knocking at the - * * * FebruaryFebruary 13th Hello diary. I am super sorry I haven't written to you in forever, but I have been really busy. Tomorrow is Hearts and Hooves Day, so I have been working all night on my special card for Celestia. It's a heart and I wrote something very nice to her in it and mom says I can take a rose from the garden to her. This is going to be the best Hearts and Hooves Day ever! She'll see that I really like her and then we can be bestest friends. I hope she likes it! Wish me luck! -Discord * * * February 14th This was the worst Heart and Hooves Day ever... The meanie colt and his friends tripped me when I was walking to school and then they took the card. They played 'keep-away' and then ripped it in half and threw it at me. Then they took the rose and ripped off all the pretty petals. I was really sad. I was late for school because of them and then I tried to go up to Celestia and say I had a card but they ruined it... but she was laughing and smiling with the other colt! Now Tia will never love me... -Discord SeptemberSeptember 4th School time again. Mom packed me a ham sandwich and some chocolate milk. I recognize a lot of ponies from last year, that colt is back again. I actually know his name now... but I just call him 'that colt'. His name is Star Struck, and his father is the captain of the Royal Guard in Canterlot. That is probably why all the fillies like him so much. He smirked when I came into class today... Anyways, we have a new teacher named Mrs. Ivy and she is very strict. She isn't like our last teacher at all. Mom hasn't gotten better, but she went back to work anyway because she had to pay the 'bills', whatever that means. I hear they're just a pain in the flank for the adults. She works in an office all day starting at 6:00, and then she goes to her other job until 10:00. I hardly ever see her, but she always leaves lunch in the fridge for me and she gets me dinner in between work. I miss mom. I hope she feels better soon. She is always coughing and sneezing and she gets dizzy lots. She gets these really bad headaches... which she has to take pills for. She comes in every night after work to kiss me goodnight before she goes to bed too. Mrs. Ivy gave us seats today and I am sitting next to Tia! She looks even prettier this year... and she is taller. She smiled at me, but we didn't get to talk much because class started right away. We learned about boring things like math... Anyways, I should go... I hear mom. -Discord DecemberDecember 1st Hey diary! This is it! My favorite month of the year - December. It has the best holiday ever and I love playing in the snow! Mrs. Ivy decorated the schoolroom all festive and I think I saw her smile for the first time EVER. I brought her one of he cookies my mom and I baked for the class, and then handed out the rest to my classmates. Everyone was really happy and thanked me. Today we talked about cutie marks in class. Mrs. Ivy said it was something only ponies got when they realized their special talents. I'm not exactly a pony, so I guess I'll never get one. That sucks. I've noticed a few ponies in my class that have theirs. Some of them you can tell exactly what they are good at, others... well, I have no clue! I looked over to Tia and saw that she didn't have hers yet! But that is okay. I really don't care when she gets her cutie mark - she is still the coolest filly I know. It hasn't snowed yet because the pegasi are running behind on schedule. That is what mommy told me yesterday. She gets some days off now, but she is still very sick. She is always shivering... like she is cold. I asked her if she needed a blanket but she just laughed and shook her head. Happy December! -Discord * * * December 19th Mom and I decorated the house today! We put holly on the banister and other places. Mom gave me a surprise kiss-on-the-cheek after I stood under some mistletoe and then we laughed for a whole minute straight. I hung up the wreath outside the door and tied red and green bows on every doorknob in the whole house! Then we got to do my favorite part: decorating the tree! Our tree wasn't a very big one because our living room is small, but it is still an awesome tree. I helped put on ornaments and it made the tree look really awesome! Then mom helped me fly up to the top of the tree so I could put on the special star. Now we are all ready for Hearth's Warming Eve! Afterwards, mom and I went into the kitchen and she made us hot chocolate with three marshmallows... just the way I like it! It tasted really good. Mom pointed out the window and I saw a single snowflake drift down! So we ran outside and caught snowflakes on our tongues and had lots of fun. -Discord * * * December 25th Happy Hearth's Warming Eve! I woke up at 8:00 and when I came downstairs, mom was already in the kitchen making breakfast. It was pancakes and bacon - my favorite! We ate breakfast and then we went to the living room. There was a bunch of presents under the tree! Santa Hooves must've thought I was really good this year! We sat down and started opening them right away. I got a bunch of cool stuff and we had lots of fun! We and more hot cocoa and some cookies too. After lunch, I flew up to castle. It was super pretty and here were guards everywhere. I left a present on the doorstep for Tia. I hope she finds it and likes it! We had a fancy dinner with turkey and then I got to stay up really late listening to mom's stories. My favorite story was about the founding of Equestria. I was really tired so I am about to go to bed. Goodnight! -Discord MayMay 12th Today is Mother's Day. So to change it up, I made mom breakfast in bed! I made her cereal (because I accidentally burnt the waffles) and orange juice. I put a rose from the garden in a glass too. I shook her awake and we ate breakfast beside each other. We took a walk down to the park. It was kinda wet out because it rained last night, but it was still really nice. The birds were chirping and lots of other ponies were around. Some looked at me funny. But my mom didn't seem to notice. Maybe she's used to ponies gawking at her. Oh well... I made her a card too! She really liked it and she gave me a big hug. I love my mom. I hope she gets better soon. -Discord * * * DecemberDecember 16th Hello diary! The class is going to do a Secret Santa Hooves gift exchange. Three days ago, we all chose a name from a hat and then we had to get a present for that pony. I got a filly named Luna. I don't remember ever seeing her in class, but apparently we have been in the same class for three years. She is the sort of filly that is just naturally invisible. Hardly anypony talks to her. Hardly anypony cares about her. She has no friends. She seems nice, but I had no idea what to get her! That's the problem when you don't have lots of friends... you don't know what people like. I asked mom and we went out to the market. I got her a pretty necklace with a bit of opal. It was pretty and I think she will like it. I hope she does. I wonder what I will get? It was expensive, but I think it will be worth it. Luna is very pretty too. She reminds me of the night sky. Her coat is a dark blue and her mane a lighter shade of that. She doesn't have her cutie mark either. Luna is an ali-acorn too! She has wings and a horn as well. Maybe we can be friends! -Discord * * * December 17th We did the exchange today and I gave her the gift. She seemed really happy and she blushed when I gave it to her. I like Luna. She doesn't care that I look weird. I promised her we would hang out tomorrow at lunch recess - but Luna is so nice, I think I might hang out with her for the whole week... if she's okay with that. Luna is Tia's sister. She is younger, but I guess she got to skip a grade because she was very smart. She can fly and her magic is super powerful... but not as powerful as Tia's magic. I wonder what magic is like. I bet it is really fun to use. I can't wait to see Luna again! -Discord * * * December 25th 8:00 Happy Hearth's Warming Eve! I am going to go wake up mom now so we can eat breakfast and open presents. 8:30 Mommy isn't waking up. I guess she is just really tired from last night because she had to work late. I will let her sleep in because we still have a whole fun day ahead of us and I want her to be happy and not grumpy. I will go read my book for an hour. 9:45 Mom still isn't waking up! She usually snores really loud, but she isn't snoring right now so that is good. I will try again in a bit. I am really hungry... I think I have an idea.... 10:00 I made waffles and they didn't burn this time! I am putting them on a tray with some orange juice so mom doesn't have to get up and make breakfast. I hope she wakes up when she smells breakfast. 10:12 Shh. Be very quiet, diary! I am snuggled up next to mom (who is still sleeping!) with my breakfast. I hope she isn't mad... I spilled some orange juice on the blanket. She is very cold right now, and stiff. She is very pale. I just pulled the blankets over her so she isn't cold anymore. I hope she wakes up soon... I am very lonely. 12:00 Mom isn't awake yet, but I am okay. I went downstairs and made a sandwich for lunch because that is the only thing I can make. I made mom one too and I put it in the fridge so it'll stay fresh. I am eating my sandwich next to her, I hope she doesn't mind a few crumbs. I brought my book in too and I read a story out loud to her because she always wants me to practice my reading. I bet she is very proud right now because I pronounced a lot of the long words right! 2:00 I am starting to worry a bit. Mom hasn't moved since this morning. She doesn't even open her eyes a little when I shake her. I think she is very sick. That is why she is so pale and stiff... I brought her some tissues in case she sneezes. 6:00 I brought Cupcake into the bed and had a nap. Mom is still cold even though I put a bunch of blankets over her. I drew mommy sleeping, she looks very peaceful. I am hungry. Usually mom would make dinner for me but she is sleeping. I don't know how to make a dinner. I guess I will just have cereal. 10:00 Mom is still asleep but it is like she is awake, like she is here with me! I put a fire in the fireplace... it was a lot of work and the wood was very heavy but it worked. Maybe mom will warm up now. If mom were awake, I think she would tell me to go to bed now so I am getting ready to fall asleep. Cupcake is here beside me and the snow is so high that the downstairs windows are covered! I just gave mom a kiss and a hug goodnight. I hope she wakes up tomorrow. If she doesn't.. I won't be mad at her because she is just really tired and sick. I will call a doctor tomorrow. Goodnight mom! Happy Hearth's Warming Eve! I love you. -Discord JanuaryJanuary 1st Happy New Year. Mommy didn't wake up after that day. Then the neighbors dropped by after a week and saw that mom was sick. They took her to the doctor and I had to ride in a cart with a mare I didn't know to an orphanage. Mommy will be asleep for a very long time. They tell me she is ' in the better place'. What is the better place? I hope it is nice and mommy is happy. Maybe daddy is there too. The orphanage is old and there is ivy growing on the old brick walls. It's really musty and grey inside and everyone doesn't look too happy. The mare tells me she will take care of me and she let me bring all my stuff into my new room. The room is kinda small and boring, but it has a comfy bed and a rug. I put Cupcake on the bed and put all the books mommy gave me on a shelf. They told me I could take a week or two off from school to 'recover from the trauma' but I am fine. I will go back to school tomorrow and see Tia and Luna again. -Discord P.S. I miss mom, but the nice mare is named Ms. Willow and she is super awesome. I'll be okay, diary. MarchMarch 15th Remember that colt that bullied me? I never thought I would see him at the orphanage as well. All this time I spent blaming him for his anger... and it wasn't his fault. Some ponies might say that it's no excuse for beating me up, and I thought I would too, but - well, his mother died in a cart crash when he was three. I feel really bad for him. His dad abandoned him in the orphanage. Saying he wasn't 'fit to be his son' for whatever horrible reason. He must've been so sad... or maybe angry... with his father that he took it out on me. At least my mommy loves me. I still don't understand why everypony keeps saying they are so sorry for me! Mrs. Ivy talked to me after school one day and asked me if I was okay. Of course I am okay! Mommy is on vacation for a very long time. She is getting better because she was sick and one day she will come back and take care of me again. Luna looked sad too. She said she knew what it was like to lose her mom. Losing mom? No! She's coming back for me! She'll come back when she feels better! ... right? -Discord SeptemberSeptember 4th Today was the first day of grade three. There weren't very many new ponies this year, and if they were, they are still too good for me. Tia has a lot of friends. Basically everyone is her friend. She ignores me and Lulu though. I thought sisters were supposed to stick together...? Lulu and Tia hate each other. They always glare at each other from across the classroom. Well, actually, Tia does most of the glaring. Luna tries her best, just like me, to impress Tia. Live up to her expectations and be her equal. But Tia just looks down on us. I wish I could fall out of love. It would be so much easier. I'm in love with a filly who hates me! Lulu is so nice to me. But I just... can't love her. I don't know why. She just isn't her sister. And her sister is the most beautiful thing in all of Equestria! Lulu is just a friend to me. I wish it didn't have to be that way. Love is hard, diary. -Discord Hearts and Hooves Day Hearts and Hooves Day Now Tia will never love me... DecemberDecember 22nd I thought mom was just gone. I thought mom would come back after she got better. I didn't think that I would see her name on a tombstone. Mrs. Willow took me to the cemetery today. She told me there was something very important she need to show me. I don't like cemeteries, they're old and you always feel creeped out. We trotted through the belly-deep snow until we stopped at one of the graves. I looked up at Mrs. Willow and she looked very sad... but not for herself. For me. She brushed off the snow on the grave and I saw mommy's name. I saw mom's name and the day she died. Here lies Ataxia April 21st 1209 - December 24th 1239 A.R Beloved Mother to Discord And then I realized she was gone forever. I collapsed crying and Mrs. Willow had to carry me home to the orphanage. One year... I wasted one year waiting for my mom to come back. But now I know. I'll never see her again. She won't come back. I miss her. -Discord AugustAugust 3rd I guess it's my birthday again, huh? Well, happy birthday to me. It's been a long month. They found me. The royal guards searched high and low for the little 10-year-old freak that just killed somepony. And, of course, one of the downfalls of being a draconequus (and the last one at that) is that you're pretty easy to spot in a crowd. I knew it wouldn't last forever. My hiding place was the park mom used to take me to, it was good enough for a night or two: sleep under the stars or take shelter in a tree... But my stomach protested. I was starving. So, I made the mistake of sneaking into the local market to swipe an apple or two. One, I'm a horrible thief so they caught me. Two, the owner recognized me from the wanted posters that are everywhere. Figures. I'm in a Royal cart right now, being taken to some weird place out in the country. They call it an 'asylum for foals' whatever that means. When they found me, they forced me into some white jacket with a bunch of locks. Now that I'm chained up, I can't use my paws (or talons), so I'll have to write with my mouth like I'm doing now. The cart ride takes forever, but on the bright side they are allowing me to keep my journal so I can entertain myself. We passed the orphanage long ago as I was wheeled down the streets of Canterlot while several ponies stared in awe at the freak in a weird jacket thing being hauled away to the nuthouse. Mrs. Willow was standing on the step shaking her head as she stared at the ground, I tried to call to her but she didn't hear me. Being in this jacket sucks. I can hardly move. I guess that;s the point: so I don't kill everypony in the city, because a ten-year-old can totally do that. As for the voices, they seemed satisfied after I... did that horrible thing to the bully. They haven't told me anything else yet, but I still hear them whispering nonsense in my ear sometimes. The voices are a normal thing, right? Do you hear them too, diary? Oh, they say we're arriving soon. Wish me luck. -Discord * * * August 4th So I have officially arrived at Mrs. Wilt's Home for Unstable Foals. It reminds me a bit of the orphanage, except everything is much, much older. The ivy snakes up all the walls and it smells like rotting leaves in here. Oh well, I guess I'll have to get used to it or something. I arrived yesterday and I already hated the place. It looked like a crumbling prison to me. I was greeted by two of the workers at the asylum, dressed in white uniforms that resembled those of a doctor. The guards held me down while they tightened the jacket around me to stop my struggling. One of the nurse-ponies brought a mask over to me and put it over my muzzle, strapping it on. This was really uncomfortable, and it hurt a little... I whimpered and one of the nurses looked down at me sympathetically. She told me everything would be okay and the mask was only temporary. Then they wheeled me off on a metal cart they use to move boxes. The place is musty and gross, as I mentioned earlier. It was large, but there were only about twenty cells, almost all of them empty. Each had the same thing in them: a rusty sink, some sort of toilet thing, and a clunky sagging mattress on an old bed frame. Eww. They wheeled me into one and lit a candle to guide me into the dark room. The guards left the room, all except for one, who helped me by untying the mask and letting it fall to the ground before he picked it up. He then untied the jacket, which he picked up as well. It felt awesome to be free. "You're not alone here. We'll do our best to help you." were his exact words before he left the room, slamming a large metal door shut behind him. The room went completely dark as he had taken the candle with him. Well, crap. And what exactly did he mean by 'not alone here' anyway? Were there other foals here...? I... can't tell yet. The room is so dark and cold. And the voices are back. -Discord SeptemberSeptember 29th I can't believe I've been here for for almost two months. Being trapped here in my new home has taken some getting used to. Every day all day, we pursue the same old routine. Wake up to complete darkness, lie there in darkness until the guards arrive to unstrap me from my bed, then I wait in utter darkness until they take me to a counsellor who asks me questions and performs tests. The rest of the day is just pacing around the cell. It's hard to write in the lack of light, but I'm adjusting. There are still a few lanterns here and there to help me. My counsellor's name is Mrs. Blossom Gertrude Wilt, but she makes all of us call her Mrs. Wilt. She owns this place and has maintained it since she got out of her parent's place. She's strict and cruel and seems to like watching us sob into our pillows after our little melt-downs. I've had, like, six since I got here. I'm not used to pretty much solitary confinement. I thought I was alone in this place at first, I mean, how many insane foals can there be? No, I was merely one of three patients. They didn't know I was here either, not until I heard one of them singing. It was a filly, and her voice was beautiful but chillingly hollow. It echoed of the walls like the droning of an insect's wings. I called out to her and she stopped immediately. "Who are you?" she had asked me. I said I was Discord, the new colt here. She introduced herself as Chrysalis, but told me I could simply call her Chrysi. Finally! Someone to talk to that wasn't trying to cure me of my crazy. Another foal to speak with. We began playing games where we described ourselves so that when we did see each other in the light (Mrs. Wilt allows us outside once a week for two hours), we would tell each other if the other was anything like we had imagined. She told me she had long green hair and a completely black shell-like coat. There were bite-like holes on her legs and in her hair and she had insect wings. She also had green eyes. I was getting a pretty vivid image, and I had no idea what species she could possibly be. She was certainly not like any pony I have ever encountered. I did my best to describe myself, but I could tell she was very confused. "Wait, wait - do you have paws or talons?" "Both." Yeeeah. Good luck trying to imagine a draconequus, every one of us is... er, was totally different. I asked Chrysi if we were the only ones here and she said no, there was another colt in the cell beside me. I drifted over and rattled the bars a little. You can imagine my surprise when I heard what sounded like a growl coming from the other cell. A pair of green eyes... and I don't mean the iris was green, I mean the eyes were literally glowing neon green, blinked at me. His voice was kind of like a bear cub that earned english. He called himself 'King Sombra'. I asked him what he was king of. He told me he didn't know yet. This looks like an interestingly unlikely pair of friends. But I think I can make it work. After all, I'd much rather I get along with the only two foals I'll see for the foreseeable future. -Discord P.S. Outside day is in a few days, yay! OctoberOctober 1st Mrs. Wilt woke all of us up and told us today we would be going outside before our testing. The guards came in and handcuffed my paws behind my back and then led me out of the asylum. I don't know how I lasted so long without a drop of sunlight, but now that I am outside, I really don't want to go back in. I don't mind that it's a little chilly, the autumn breeze is nice because the inside of the asylum is either A: boiling hot or B: freezing cold. The backyard is roughly twice the size of the actual 'house'. We're out on he countryside, so there's hardly anypony here. Hardly anypony to hear us scream. All the kids were led outside one by one, un-handcuffed and left to roam free in the field for an hour or two. Chrysi, Sombra and I all made our way to each other after a few minutes of wading through the tall grass and calling eachother's names in a marco-polo-like fashion. The first foal I saw was Chrysi, and though I was distracted by her insectine figure and sharpened fangs, I found her pretty. I've come to know her as the modest type -- sometimes a little ashamed of her looks, sadly. I want to tell her she is beautiful, I want to tell her I like her. But I'll have to wait until I work up the nerve to do so. Chrysi grinned at me. Sombra arrived right after. He's kinda scary-looking, but I'm not too shocked seeing as his voice was equally sinister. He is completely grey with a black mane and tail. His green eyes still glowed in the daylightjust as it had in utter darkness. It took a while for me to notice this, but I now realise that both Chrysalis is an alicorn, just like Tia... and Luna... Mommy always told me that there weren't very many alicorns in Equestria because the rare gene runs only in royal blood. I don't know what 'gene' means. I think it's a type of fabric. Sombra is a unicorn, but he has really powerful magic. She told me that each alicorn is the embodiement of an element or emotion. Like light (Tia), and night (Luna). I wonder what my new friends control. Mom used to say that sometimes, a draconequus could inherit the powersof an alicorn. I wonder if she was telling the truth. I wish I could ask her. Oh,and before I forget, the voices haven't been speaking to me a lot lately. Not since I... hurt that colt. Sometimes the voices do whisper to me. One voice that keeps coming back sounds just like mommy. But I know it isn't her. it can't be. As much as I'd like to think she is still with me, I know because... Because mom wouldn't tell me to hurt the guards. And that is what the vices want me to do. I'm starting to wonder if I really am crazy. -Discord DecemberDecember 12th Chrysi, Sombra and I have hardly seen each other in the better part of two months. Due to the snow, we have been kept inside in the almost total darkness non-stop for several weeks. The only time I've had the pleasure to glimpse my changeling cellmate's beautiful face was the brief and occasional moment when a guard would stroll by with a lantern. I just got back from my weekly tests. Basically, they have a doctor come in and ask me all sorts of awkward questions like 'do you want to kill everyone you see?' I shook my head nearly every time. It was easy to lie to them, but it felt funny when he asked me whether I heard voices or not. I said no, because if you say yes, you have to stay in the tests a lot longer. That is what Sombra told me. I feel so bad for him. He was brought here when he was four years old because he killed a crystal pony foal with his bare hooves. Apparently, the teacher said in a report about the incident, the filly had 'turned a sickly shade of green, then black, then died on the spot'. I'd take her word for it, cause that is something I certainly would not like to see. The guards agree, I suppose, because Sombra has to have his hooves bound and his horn clipped. 'Clipped' is what they call it when they perform this one spell that makes the target incapable of using magic for a couple days. I feel even worse for Chrysi. She's been here since birth. Or, um, since hatching. Changelings are so deadly, that Celestia's mom and dad were forced to banish them. All changelings found are immediately destroyed. Even the babies. Chrysi told me that she had been spared by the queen for some unknown reason. Sombra has been here for five years. Chrysi has been here for nine. The doctor says I'm making great progress. He even says I might be able to go back to the orphanage in a year or two. As long as I keep lying about the voices, I'll be free soon! Lying is hard. But the voices tell me to lie. I must listen. -Discord MarchMarch 28th Chrysi has gotten worse. She can hardly move without tumbling over. Sombra is worried as well, and we've been trying to figure out ways to help her. We've been giving her some of our lunches, because she is growing thinner and thinner. It isn't helping. The doctors have been force-feeding her because they think she is starving herself. Then it came to me. Duh. I like her. ... love her. She can feed on me. I'll be okay. She will get better. I told Chrysi my idea and she agreed, but she seemed reluctant. She warned me that being fed on was no laughing matter. It can be scarring. I don't care. I'll do anything to save her. We stood face-to face against the steel bars that divide us and I closed my eyes. At first, it tickled me, I laughed as it tingled through my body. Then it started to hurt. It felt like I was being burned alive from the inside out. I screamed, but the guards couldn't hear. Or they just didn't care. When the burning stopped, my head ached. That was only the beginning. Do you now what it feels like to have everything you have ever loved and held close be sucked out of you? Do you know what it is like to have your heart emptied, to feel only sorrow, misery and pain, and then to have a remnant of your happiness tossed back half-heartedly into you? I do. I collapsed, at Chrysi tried to help me up the best she could. She asked if I was hurt, I said yes, but it was worth it. I feel so empty. She said she was sorry. It's okay. I'll be just fine. I'm feeling sort of weak right now.... my head...spinning.... JulyJuly 31st I had hoped it wouldn't take this long for the plan to come together, but it isn't easy planning a jailbreak with three misfits against fifty guards, workers and doctors. Sombra was all for it, but Chrysi was a little hesitant. Because changelings are so discouraged in Equestria, she never truly learned how to shape-shift. She has spent the last month practicing morphing into me. The first time, she mixed up the sides my wings were on and my eyes were the wrong color, but she has slowly gotten better. She had me down-pat, and soon after she began practicing a guard we had been seeing a lot lately. He works the day shift, and we've done our best to memorize his looks when he passes by. Tomorrow is the day we'll break out. We'll all get up early, waiting for when that poor guard will walk by. Sombra will do the rest. You see, he hasn't been 'clipped' this week. -Discord SeptemberSeptember 1st So much has happened in the past month, it all feels like one long day dragging on and on. I hadn't found the time to write about it, since we were constantly on the run or scrounging for food. I owe you a long entry to make up for all this waiting. It worked like a charm. Nopony seemed to question or even care about the suspicious guard escorting two 'insane' foals out of the asylum, most likely since Chrysi explained to them that the doctors had ordered more fresh air for us for the next little while. It was a long trudge across the field, but it would be worth it to escape. We were out of the range for the asylum, but we had to remain calm and collected if we wished to escape past the two guards posted just ahead. They had already been eyeing us by the time we arrived at the large, metal gates. Chrysi tipped 'his' hat to them. "Special orders from Ms. Wither. I'm supposed to take them for a stroll outside of the limits, let them run free and examine their behaviour. If they try to leave, well..." Chrysi winked at the guards, they were smirking. "You know." I guess it is common knowledge here what happens when you're bad. Luckily enough for me, but not quite for my friend, the guards seemed to focus on Sombra most of all. I tried to sleep through his pained screams. The guards gave each other a sideways glance and let us pass. It seemed as soon as we had stepped hoof past the gates, we were free. The air was clean, not dusty. It smelled like autumn and the lingering scent of honey. The sun was brighter, there was skip in our steps, and the trees... I had missed the trees! They didn't seem to like growing beneath the looming shade of the asylum. I hate that word. Asylum. Ha! If mummy could see me now, she would be so... Scared. No! She would understand what happened to that colt back there. I didn't know the limit to my strength. She would still love me. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'M NOT A BAD GUY. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I-I'm sorry. I don't quite know what happened there. Chrysi says I fell over while writing in here and just whispered stuff she couldn't quite hear. She had to comfort me. I'm okay now. The voices are gone. The voices are... gone! They haven't spoken since they last gave me the idea to escape. Maybe they won't come back. I know it's wishful thinking, but.... Where was I? Oh yeah. Once we were far away from the guard, Chrysi changed back. She shrunk, her hair grew long and blue, and she grew fangs. That's the Chrysi I know and love. She grinned at us. I think this was the first time I ever saw Sombra happy. I see him smile lots, but it's either fake, or an evil grin after he stole some extra food or some other prank on the asylum guards. After all, lost supplies comes out of their paycheck. We must've spent at least an hour or two simply running, running through the trees or flitting around the forest. I missed being outside. The fresh air felt so clean it made my lungs burn at first. Finally, we were free! Our faces fell as it began to get dark. We had stupidly neglected to find somewhere to hide, or somewhere to sleep. We found an overturned tree with just enough room below the fallen trunk for us three to sleep, then we took sticks and logs and rested them against the trunk, which made some sort of odd tent. It would have to do. We had to fight about the thought of a fire. We needed it to survive, but the guards might see the smoke and find us. It was decided we would make one, and one of us would guard for a couple hours while the others slept, and then we would switch. Sombra said he wasn't tired, so he volunteered the first shift. Speaking of sleep, I might hit the hay, diary. I'll continue tomorrow. Goodnight. -Discord * * * September 2nd The following day, I remember waking up with an overwhelming sense of dread like a rock in my gut. It was horrible. I felt fit to vomit then and there. I was so scared the guards had found us. It didn't help that Chrysi and Sombra weren't beside me. When I stepped outside, nopony was there. The fire was dead. There was a note near the logs though, to my relief. Discord, Sorry to leave you. Sombra and I didn't want to wake you yet, so we thought we'd just go look for some food or something. I flew up above the trees, and luckily we're not far from Canterlot. stay here. If we don't get back in a bout an hour, yell for us. Be back hopefully, Chrysi I still have the note. I guess something about letters, notes and the written word makes me happy. I love notes. It's really weird, I know, but I used to collect everything my mom wrote. If she made a grocery list, I would tuck it away in my special memories box under the bed. They let me take it to the orphanage, and I would read them every night, to make me feel better. Even through words on a paper, it's like she's still alive and talking to me. Comforting me. You wouldn't understand. Nopony ever does. I waited for some time, and it was funny how easily I jumped. Even the faintest rustle of leaves startled me. Light still hurts my eyes. I spent an entire year in darkness. Finally, Chrysi and Sombra got back. They didn't have too much, but just enough. There were a few berries and some mushrooms. I guess Sombra kept finding stuff, but Chrysi almost always tossed it away because she didn't want to risk us getting poisoned or something. Chrysi's smart like that. I like her, but something about her reminds of someone... Tia always comes to mind. But I hate Tia. Lulu is always calling to me. Her voice always echoes in the back of my mind. Sometimes, just thinking of her would make me cry. She's so misunderstood. Even though she's normal. Even though she's beautiful... They treat her like a monster. And I never knew why. She doesn't deserve it. I should probably go, diary. So much more has happened since our escape, but I'm getting tired. I'll tell you more tomorrow. Sincerely, Discord * * * September 3rd Hey again diary. I guess it's about time I got you fully caught up on our adventures, diary. We've spent an entire month in the woods, but it seems like years. We kinda have a rhythm now. We have night shifts, and Chrysi and I go every other day to look for food. Things are going really well. We haven't seen any guards from the asylum. I'm starting to wonder if they just gave up looking weeks ago. But better to stay hidden than blow our cover and get sent back. We know we're close to home. Canterlot is about two days walking-distance away. We could be home. I want to go home. I want to see Lulu. But we have to decide. Sombra is really hesitant, he keeps saying we should stay here longer or go to another town. If we go back, they'll only send us to the asylum again if we get caught. As much as I wish he was wrong, I know he's right. It's not safe, but neither are these woods. Sooner or later, somepony will come looking for us. Going back, we'd be forced into hiding anyway. If I can't see Luna, what is the point of even going back? The weirdest thing happened the other day. Just yesterday, Chrysi and I were out looking for food. I found some more mushrooms. This specific type of mushroom seems to grow a lot around here, and we know they're safe from experience. I was just turning around when Chrysi ran up to me. She came really close. Like, super duper close. She looked straight into my eyes. Then she kissed me! Kissed me! Then ran away giggling. She hasn't said a word to me since. Sombra keeps asking why she always blushes when we make almost-eye contact (cause she keeps looking away!), and I seriously have no idea. She's weird. Fillies are weird. But I kinda like it like that. Sincerely, Discord OctoberOctober 1st Hey diary, really sorry I've been waiting so long between entries! Turns out hanging out in the woods is actually waaay harder than it seems. Mommy used to take me camping every summer out here, but things seem different without her there. They're darker. They're colder. Home sweet home, I guess. Chryssi and Sombra try to make the best out of it, but it's hard for me. They have an avantage though because they come from dark, scary places where light is what's scary. Chryssi once told me about the hive she lives in and how itimi intimada intimidating it can be. It's all big and sticky and really really loud! Loud like a million pony-sized bees flying around is what she said! It sounds kinda cool actually. Maybe Chryssi can take me there sometime. ... You know who I miss? I miss that Luna filly a lot. She was so kind. And she was real smart because she had the most avanced vocabullarily EVER! She talks all fancy, but I guess princesses do that kind of thing. The last few days I saw her, we would sit and talk about life and stuff. Actually, we talked more about cooties. She would say all sorts of weird stuff like 'thou' and 'verily'. What was her sister's name again? Tia? I've tried real hard to forget that name. Guess I'll have to try again! ~ Discord * * * October 3rd I'm tired of this forest, diary. I'm sick of all the shadows and the dark. I want to leave soon, and I have a plan. I'm going to wait until tomorrow to tell Sombra and Chryssi about the plan though because I don't feel so good. I'm happy the voices gave me the plan, but it was also bad because they wouldn't shut up and kept me up aaaall night. That's okay. I hope the voices won't be mad that I told you that diary. Sometimes they get mad and yell at me! * * * October 4th I told them the plan and they love it! I mean, Sombra liked it more. Chryssi was kinda scared. She doesn't like doing bad things, but neither do I. We've been stuck in the forest for far too long and I might just go crazy! Am I... already crazy? NO. shut up shut up shut up shut UP shUT UP SHUT UP ... Sorry. Let me explain the plan. Basicaly, we're gonna reach the edge of the forest where it reaches this nearby place called... what was it? Pony - something? Ponyville. It's kinda far from Canterlot, but we've been slowly moving towards this Ponyville over time. A couple times we had to hide because these flower carts keep driving through this one route close to us. I overheard one of the cartponies talking about Canterlot and how excited they were to sell their flowers at such a 'fancy schmancy' place. So, We're gonna jump out when the next one drives by and... umm... steal the cart. We won't hurt the ponies, I swear! I'll control myself, I swear! They won't die. I promise! They won't die. ... I should go. Hopefully the plan works! ~ Discord * * * October 4th I've done something bad. I've done something really really bad. I... I killed them. I said... I promised I wouldn't but I did. On accident, I swear! There was that same flash of light and I just lost control! It was just like when I killed that little colt... I didn't mean to. I'm not a monster. But Chryssi's eyes... say differently. She's afraid of me. Maybe I am a monster after all. Mommy was just wrong. And the whole world was right. ~ Discord NovemberNovember 22nd Hey diary, The plan didn't work. I mean, it would've if I hadn't killed that mare. Everything was going fine until Chryssi sneezed and the mare looked up to see us hiding in the bushes. I didn't know what to do! I just... froze in place. She came over and at first seemed pretty nice, like she was gonna help us. But then... Well then, she saw us. She jumped back and was shouting at us. And you know what she called us? She called us monsters. That's why I thought maybe... well, in my last entry. i thought maybe she was right. "Get away from me, you little monsters" she had said. Sombra gritted his teeth and jumped at her, hoping to keep up with the plan and get the cart by whatever means possible. I honestly think that if I hadn't done it first, he would've killed her. She was screaming bloody murder and managed to wrestle off Sombra. She threw him to the ground and he started... crying. I'd never seen him cry before. I was already getting pretty angry. But then Chryssi flew over to help him up... And the mare stabbed her. Everything seemed to be in slow motion then, diary. I was so scared. The mare had taken a loose branch and snapped it off, widdling it down with her magic. Before I could stop it... she had sent it right into Chryssi's side. I just lost it. There was a blinding flash, and everything seemed all dreamy-like. It was a though I was watching from far away. I watched myself kill the mare with my own two hands. I just... I didn't strangle her or anything... I didn't even touch her. She just died. She just lay there all lifeless. There was blood trickling from her mouth and tears in her eyes and I... laughed. Why did I laugh? Was it fun to kill her? No... The fun thing was losing control. The fun thing was letting myself lose it and not care if everypony around me lives or dies. I loved the... disharmony. The chaos. And in the back of my head, the voices whispered to me that they were proud of me. they sound like mommy, but I know it isn't. Mommy would be ashamed. These voices told me it was okay. They told me it was good that she had died and that we didn't need her anyway. Chryssi was bleeding a lot. I always thought changeling blood was green or something like that, but it was red. Red like mine. Red like the blood coming from the mare's body. Sombra and I did all we could, and she's patched up now. She's lost a lot of blood though, and needs to sleep. She's sleeping next to me, and I think the rustling is waking her up, so I better go! ~ Discord * * * November 26th It's getting colder here. I'm worried that it'll snow soon, so i think we need to get a move on. We were hoping the flower cart would take us to safety, but after how well that went... We're just going to head into Ponyville and keep as low of a profile as three misfits can. We cross the border from this forest into Ponyville tomorrow. Wish us luck! ~ Discord * * * November 27th We arrived in Ponyville. I had forgotten how great being in a town can be. It was so busy and filled with kind ponies. Hardly anypony even cared that we looked different. But... there's some bad news. We arrived at the wrong time, diary. There was a terrible fire that broke out into the library, I hear. Anyways, the queen came down here with Lulu and... you guessed it, Tia. We've managed not to get seen by them, but I'm not sure how long we can stay in the alley. I don't know how we'll mange, but we have so far! Maybe things won't be so bad! Hey, maybe i can try talking with Lulu. maybe she'll help us out. ~ Discord OctoberOctober 9th Hey diary, Things got worse. Really bad now, diary. Mom found out about the bullies and called the teacher. The teacher was really upset and everyone had to stay in for recess to have a talk about bullying and stuff. And then, like the cherry on top, she suspended them. Being expelled would've been better but at least I get a break from those meanies. At least that is what I thought. The bullies have been following me home every day after school. They taunt me and called me naughty words that they really shouldn't say. Mom hasn't asked about the new bruises yet. Hopefully she doesn't notice them at all. I just have to wait until they fade and then I can stop hiding in my room all day. On the bright side, Tia has been talking to me. She is soooo cute! She is my only friend. She is very nice and a really good student. She gets special treatment because she's a princess, but I don't mind. I always give her some of my lunch so maybe she'll like me more. I gave her all my candy and she seemed really happy. Yesterday was show-and-tell so Tia brought in her crown. It was very fancy and had gems. She put it on and she looked so pretty. I had nothing to bring in so I got in trouble. We have a substitute and she is really super mean and doesn't like me at all. Bye, -Discord * * * June and AugustJune 27th Hey diary! Today was the BEST DAY EVER! Today was the very last day of school... can you believe it? I can't! I will miss school but I will not miss the bullies. We all played games and said goodbye for the summer. I spent as much of the day as I could with Tia because I will miss her a lot when I am gone. The school bell rang and everyone was leaving. I grabbed my book bag and before I knew it - she kissed me! Not on the lips (aww) but on the cheek! I blushed a lot which made her giggle. She said she would miss me too. I am never washing this cheek again! The colt saw me and looked real angry but I didn't care - it was worth it! I said goodbye to the teacher and then I left. It feels nice to be off from school for two whole months. We have nothing planned, mom and I, cause she is still very sick, but I don't mind. Discord * * * August 3rd Sorry I didn't write to you all of July, but I have been too busy playing outside! Happy birthday to me! I am turning seven years old today. Mom got up from bed to surprise me, and she brought me breakfast in bed and she even gave me a chocolate cupcake with rainbow sprinkles when I was done. There was a candle in the cupcake and we sang Happy Birthday and then I blew out the candle. I wished that mommy would get better. I didn't tell her though, because then the wish wouldn't work. She felt really dizzy after so I helped her back to her bed and then she had a nap. When she got up, she told me to close my eyes and walk into the kitchen. So I did and when I opened them there was a gift on the table! She got me a stuffy and a book. The stuffy was a bunny and I named her Cupcake because she reminds me of my birthday cupcake. I love Cupcake! I was really happy and mom gave me a hug. I am reading the book but the book is very hard to read so mom helped me out a little. This was the best birthday ever! -Discord NovemberNovember 21st Hey diary. I am really sorry I haven't written anything in months. I dropped you under my bed and couldn't find you for a few months, but when I did, I was too busy and didn't have time to write about stuff. Another grade went by and another one is here to be faced. Mrs. Ivy is still teaching us, but she really grows on you... kinda like ivy. We are learning about pony history this month. She taught us about all the wars and stuff Equestria has had over the years - like the Great Griffon Siege. Today she told us about the rivalry ponies and the draconequus' had not long ago. Apparently draconequus had been causing trouble in the villages so the ponies fought back. That is why my mom and I are the last left. They killed all of them except for my mom... who was a 'filly' at the time. It was sad knowing about it... but it was also nice knowing why we were the last of us. Maybe it was for the best. All we did was wreak havoc and destruction upon a perfect world. I guess we were just misfits. So anyway, I guess I should tell you about myself. My favorite subject in school is art class because I love to draw. I have a sketch book that I doodle in all the time. I sometimes show mom my drawings and she likes them a lot. I make her drawings too and she puts them up on the walls or on the fridge. I still have Cupcake (of course!) and she is my favorite stuffy ever. She is super soft. Tia and I haven't talked a lot lately... I'm sad about that. Bye! -Discord June and JulyJune 29th School ended two days ago and things have been super boring here. I miss Tia a lot. We didn't speak much this year, I guess she just caught that disease that makes everyone hate me. I thought she was so nice... I overheard her talking with some of her better friends in the last week of school. She called me a freak. I'm not a freak. Right? Mom told me that there was nothing to be ashamed of. That I should be darn proud of myself, but... it's so hard to love yourself in a world where everyone hates you. I thought Celestia would love me one day. But why should anyone love me? I'm just a freak. I miss Luna too. She's weird. But in a cool way... if that makes sense. She gets me. She doesn't judge me or call me mean names. A month ago, she told me to call her Lulu. Lulu is so kind to me. She gives me part of her lunch everyday and hse always sits beside me. I hope one day Tia will love me too. -Discord * * * July 17th I'm in my room right now. All the orphans are only allowed to go outside once a day for an hour for 'security reasons'. I finished all my books and we only get new things on our birthdays or Hearth's Warming Eve, so all I have is Cupcake and a tennis ball they give us. I played this game where I lay on my bed and threw the ball at the ceiling and then tried to catch it again. But then one of the caretakers burst in and yelled at me because it made a thumping noise. I cried after she left because I don't get yelled at a lot. Mommy never used to yell at me. I can't wait until she comes back for me so we can go home. -Discord AprilApril 8th Today was awful. I was eating lunch (ham sandwich, go figure) alone. Luna got the flu and has been away for a week, so it's been lonely. I couldn't believe it when Tia trotted up and asked if she could sit beside me. I said yes, of course and she sat down. She took out a cookie from her lunch and gave it to me. "Want it?" she asked. I nodded and took a bite. It tasted terrible! I spat it out, but it was too late! My tongue started to feel really heavy and when I reached my paw to my mouth, I realized it was swelling. It go so big I couldn't close my mouth, or talk. The worst part was... Tia was laughing. She was laughing at me. A couple of her mean friends walked over and gave her a high hoof. She did it on purpose. How could she? I thought... I thought we could be friends. I can still hear everyone laughing at me... taunting me... calling me 'Spitcord' and other stupid nicknames. I wish their voices would go away. Now they're whispering to me. ... those voices.... They're telling me to hurt her. To hurt Tia. Should I... listen? -Discord JuneJune 1st I did it. I don't know why. I don't know what. But I finally did it. And I feel so much better now. And yet, I feel so empty. So hollow. So... scared of myself. Luna came back, she was happy to see me and I was happy to see her. It was the middle of lunch recess and I was sitting on the slide with Luna. We were talking about stuff. We were talking about our future and crushes and... things friends talk about. Then that colt came up to us. He started taunting Luna, calling her mean names. I said nothing. I couldn't say anything. I was frozen in place. He grabbed her necklace -- the one her mother gave to her before she was destroyed by a curse -- and ran off with it. She screamed for him to give it back. He didn't let up. We chased him out into the field. The other foals joined in, the colt's posse and some other kids. They started tossing it back and forth in a giant game of keep-away. Luna did her best, and so did I, but they were too quick. Tia joined in too, she tossed it a bit, but then she saw just what they were throwing. She saw her mother's necklace. Tia tried to stop them, but they just kept throwing it around. Holding it just where we couldn't reach. All the while, they taunted us. Then the colt took it again, he took it and laughed as he threw it on the ground, stomping on it over and over. Luna was sobbing, Tia screamed for him to stop. He didn't quit. I felt so much... anger rising in me. It was pure fury. All I wanted to do right then and there was hurt him. Laugh when he suffered as much as I had. All I remember was a blinding flash of light, horrified screams as ponies scrambled away from me. I opened my eyes and the colt just lay there, bleeding from his mouth and nose. Bleeding from his... eyes. Ponies ran off, screaming and shrieking and sobbing. I killed him. I checked the pulse. None. I... killed him. Why am I smiling? No, Discord, no! This isn't funny... you killed him. I looked to Luna and Tia... that is when my smile faded. Luna just stood there, staring at me in shock. Tears dripped from her eyes. Tia put a hoof on her shoulder and the two looked away, trotting away from me. Luna looked back, I thought maybe she felt bad for me. She looked at me with disgust. She look at me with hatred. It isn't my fault... I didn't kill him! It wasn't me... it was something else. I don't know what went wrong. I'm not the monster I see in the mirror. -Discord FebruaryFebruary 9th I worry for Chrysi. To pass time, she told me all about the long-lost species called changelings. I guess the dracoequus' weren't the only ones who were terminated by the almighty king and queen. Anyways, changelings have the ability to shift form into anything they want. To do this, they are forced to feed off the love of others. Without it, they grow weak. There is no love here. She is terribly sick. Every minute she spends without love, she grows more ill. I hear her coughing all day, and when I see her, her eyes are bloodshot and filled with tears. The guards get more and more concerned every time they find blood in her cell. She's dying. And nopony will listen to me when I say the only cure is love. They laugh! NO! Chrysi is dying. She's dying. Please, somepony! Save her. -Discord JuneJune 2nd I don't think I can take it anymore. After the whole 'feeding' incident I have been slowly growing stronger. Keeping up your health here is hard, seeing as the mental hospital food mainly consists of lumpy mashed potatoes, some small cube-shaped vegetables slices and stale water. Every... single... day... On the bright side, Chrysi is doing much better. She isn't as scrawny. Sombra and I talked yesterday -- mostly about kingdoms and royalty and crystal ponies. He still insists I call him 'King Sombra'. I do my best. This place is so dark and the air is musty. You get used to the scent after a while. At least that is what Chrysi says. Sadly, this hasn't happened to me yet. I'd do anything to get me and my friends out of this Faust-forsaken place. It is a complete Tartarus-hole here. The guards remain ever-vigilant, so I see little chance of that. Hold on, diary. The voice is saying something. ... it has an idea. -Discord AugustAugust 1st Today is the day. Now all I need to do is wait, just like the others. I believe I hear something rattling outside my cell. This is it. Success! The guard that passes through here everyday was walking along the cells tapping the bars, probably just to annoy us. I have the longest body of all of us, so I stretched through the bars and seized him with my talons, holding my paw over his mouth to muffle his screams. This is the good thing about the darkness they keep us in near 24/7, it makes it so easy to sneak up on others. I had to hand him over to Sombra's cell. It's difficult to keep my grip, he's struggling so much. Sombra took the guard. Chrysi thought we should look away, but my eyes were glued to the sight of a black goop covering the writhing guard. It took me a second to realise I was actually staring at this. Smiling, too. Chrysi gave me a very concerned look before closing her eyes again. When we looked up, the black had receded and the guard lay motionless in the hall. Sombra was taking a drink like nothing had happened. "That was cool." I remarked. Chrysi elbowed me, it still stings. It's taking Chrysi a while to transform completely, since being a changeling takes a lot of practice. Sombra and I said her transformation looks perfect, but she shook her head saying 'it wasn't good enough'. It's taking at least fifteen minutes. It doesn't seem like a long time to you, but we were a little on the edge seeing as another guard could stroll in at any second looking for his co-worker. Luckily, this didn't happen. The coast was clear, Chrysi looked exactly like the guard, and we, two outcast being led to new cells. I grabbed the guard again and wrestled his keys out from his uniform, and unlocked each cell door with ease. We were free! Not quite safe, but still free. We're about to leave the cell. I'll tell you the rest later, diary. It's show time. -Discord
SeptemberSeptember 1st Today was the first day of school. The teacher is very nice and she tells everyone to stop it when they look at me funny. One kid asked me why I looked so ugly and I started crying, but the teacher was really nice to me and gave me a golden sticker because I was so good. Being a dragonnecus draconequus is really hard. Especially when you're the last one left, because then nopony knows why you look so funny. Some of the kids are nice to me, but I think its because they feel bad or something. I hope I make some friends tomorrow... lunch time was very lonely. Discord * * * September 8th Hey diary. I think I'm in love. There's a very beautiful pony in my class. They say she's an ali-acorn or something like that. I don't no what that is but it's very special. She is a Pegasus AND a unicorn... can you believe it? Her name is Cullestia Culesstya Cellestya ... Tia. She's so pretty and she's super graceful. They say she's even a princess. Everyone really likes her, and she has lots of friends. All the boys have crushes on her too. Which really kinda sucks because she doesn't notice me at all. The teacher likes her lots too. Her mane is really pretty and long and it waves in the wind... even when there is no wind! I think her mane is magic or something. Anyway, I like Tia and maybe one day I can marry her because that would be super cool and stuff. Bye! -Discord * * * September 17th Today sucked. I finally decided to talk to Celestia today. (the teacher taught me how to spell her name right!) She was very nice and I love her voice. It is very pretty. I was having lots of fun talking to her but then a really big colt came up to me. I don't no his name but he is a big meanie and he told me to stay away from Celestia and never come back... EVER! I was really sad but I said goodbye to her and walked away. Celestia even waved to me and she looked sad when I left. I think she likes me back! Maybe I can marry her after all. -Discord * * * September 30th Hey diary. I'm kinda sad right now, so I thought I should write about my day. I'm sorry I haven't written a lot lately, but I lost you. I found you just now. You were under my bed! So, anyway, today was not very good for me. I was talking to Celestia again. She came over to me and apologized about the colt and said she had told him to leave me alone. I was really happy because maybe I could get closer to her and then I could tell her about my crush on her. I hope she isn't weirded out by me. I talked to her for the whole lunch recess, but I saw the colt and his friends looking at me. He was real jealous. I have to walk home from school because mommy is sick and can't get up a lot. She can only get up to make me breakfast, pack me lunch and make dinner. I love my mommy. I say I need to get a doctor, but she says we can't afford it. Anyways, I was walking alone down an alley which I use as a short-cut to my house. Then I hear the gravel slide behind me and I turn around to see the colt and two others grinning at me. I tried to run but I slipped and scraped my knee. It's still bleeding as I write this, even though I put a band-aid on. They beat me up. Now my tummy really hurts because the biggest colt kicked me there and then kicked it again to make sure I'd stay down. I think my eye is bruising. And the nosebleed doesn't help either. My nose really hurts. Mom was in bed when I came home, so luckily she didn't see me like this. I would tell my mom about them, but... Well, you know, if you rat on the bullies, they just come back for more. Even if they are expelled, they know where I live. Bullies suck, diary. They really do. Oops! I hear my mom knocking at the - * * *
FebruaryFebruary 13th Hello diary. I am super sorry I haven't written to you in forever, but I have been really busy. Tomorrow is Hearts and Hooves Day, so I have been working all night on my special card for Celestia. It's a heart and I wrote something very nice to her in it and mom says I can take a rose from the garden to her. This is going to be the best Hearts and Hooves Day ever! She'll see that I really like her and then we can be bestest friends. I hope she likes it! Wish me luck! -Discord * * * February 14th This was the worst Heart and Hooves Day ever... The meanie colt and his friends tripped me when I was walking to school and then they took the card. They played 'keep-away' and then ripped it in half and threw it at me. Then they took the rose and ripped off all the pretty petals. I was really sad. I was late for school because of them and then I tried to go up to Celestia and say I had a card but they ruined it... but she was laughing and smiling with the other colt! Now Tia will never love me... -Discord
SeptemberSeptember 4th School time again. Mom packed me a ham sandwich and some chocolate milk. I recognize a lot of ponies from last year, that colt is back again. I actually know his name now... but I just call him 'that colt'. His name is Star Struck, and his father is the captain of the Royal Guard in Canterlot. That is probably why all the fillies like him so much. He smirked when I came into class today... Anyways, we have a new teacher named Mrs. Ivy and she is very strict. She isn't like our last teacher at all. Mom hasn't gotten better, but she went back to work anyway because she had to pay the 'bills', whatever that means. I hear they're just a pain in the flank for the adults. She works in an office all day starting at 6:00, and then she goes to her other job until 10:00. I hardly ever see her, but she always leaves lunch in the fridge for me and she gets me dinner in between work. I miss mom. I hope she feels better soon. She is always coughing and sneezing and she gets dizzy lots. She gets these really bad headaches... which she has to take pills for. She comes in every night after work to kiss me goodnight before she goes to bed too. Mrs. Ivy gave us seats today and I am sitting next to Tia! She looks even prettier this year... and she is taller. She smiled at me, but we didn't get to talk much because class started right away. We learned about boring things like math... Anyways, I should go... I hear mom. -Discord
DecemberDecember 1st Hey diary! This is it! My favorite month of the year - December. It has the best holiday ever and I love playing in the snow! Mrs. Ivy decorated the schoolroom all festive and I think I saw her smile for the first time EVER. I brought her one of he cookies my mom and I baked for the class, and then handed out the rest to my classmates. Everyone was really happy and thanked me. Today we talked about cutie marks in class. Mrs. Ivy said it was something only ponies got when they realized their special talents. I'm not exactly a pony, so I guess I'll never get one. That sucks. I've noticed a few ponies in my class that have theirs. Some of them you can tell exactly what they are good at, others... well, I have no clue! I looked over to Tia and saw that she didn't have hers yet! But that is okay. I really don't care when she gets her cutie mark - she is still the coolest filly I know. It hasn't snowed yet because the pegasi are running behind on schedule. That is what mommy told me yesterday. She gets some days off now, but she is still very sick. She is always shivering... like she is cold. I asked her if she needed a blanket but she just laughed and shook her head. Happy December! -Discord * * * December 19th Mom and I decorated the house today! We put holly on the banister and other places. Mom gave me a surprise kiss-on-the-cheek after I stood under some mistletoe and then we laughed for a whole minute straight. I hung up the wreath outside the door and tied red and green bows on every doorknob in the whole house! Then we got to do my favorite part: decorating the tree! Our tree wasn't a very big one because our living room is small, but it is still an awesome tree. I helped put on ornaments and it made the tree look really awesome! Then mom helped me fly up to the top of the tree so I could put on the special star. Now we are all ready for Hearth's Warming Eve! Afterwards, mom and I went into the kitchen and she made us hot chocolate with three marshmallows... just the way I like it! It tasted really good. Mom pointed out the window and I saw a single snowflake drift down! So we ran outside and caught snowflakes on our tongues and had lots of fun. -Discord * * * December 25th Happy Hearth's Warming Eve! I woke up at 8:00 and when I came downstairs, mom was already in the kitchen making breakfast. It was pancakes and bacon - my favorite! We ate breakfast and then we went to the living room. There was a bunch of presents under the tree! Santa Hooves must've thought I was really good this year! We sat down and started opening them right away. I got a bunch of cool stuff and we had lots of fun! We and more hot cocoa and some cookies too. After lunch, I flew up to castle. It was super pretty and here were guards everywhere. I left a present on the doorstep for Tia. I hope she finds it and likes it! We had a fancy dinner with turkey and then I got to stay up really late listening to mom's stories. My favorite story was about the founding of Equestria. I was really tired so I am about to go to bed. Goodnight! -Discord
MayMay 12th Today is Mother's Day. So to change it up, I made mom breakfast in bed! I made her cereal (because I accidentally burnt the waffles) and orange juice. I put a rose from the garden in a glass too. I shook her awake and we ate breakfast beside each other. We took a walk down to the park. It was kinda wet out because it rained last night, but it was still really nice. The birds were chirping and lots of other ponies were around. Some looked at me funny. But my mom didn't seem to notice. Maybe she's used to ponies gawking at her. Oh well... I made her a card too! She really liked it and she gave me a big hug. I love my mom. I hope she gets better soon. -Discord * * *
DecemberDecember 16th Hello diary! The class is going to do a Secret Santa Hooves gift exchange. Three days ago, we all chose a name from a hat and then we had to get a present for that pony. I got a filly named Luna. I don't remember ever seeing her in class, but apparently we have been in the same class for three years. She is the sort of filly that is just naturally invisible. Hardly anypony talks to her. Hardly anypony cares about her. She has no friends. She seems nice, but I had no idea what to get her! That's the problem when you don't have lots of friends... you don't know what people like. I asked mom and we went out to the market. I got her a pretty necklace with a bit of opal. It was pretty and I think she will like it. I hope she does. I wonder what I will get? It was expensive, but I think it will be worth it. Luna is very pretty too. She reminds me of the night sky. Her coat is a dark blue and her mane a lighter shade of that. She doesn't have her cutie mark either. Luna is an ali-acorn too! She has wings and a horn as well. Maybe we can be friends! -Discord * * * December 17th We did the exchange today and I gave her the gift. She seemed really happy and she blushed when I gave it to her. I like Luna. She doesn't care that I look weird. I promised her we would hang out tomorrow at lunch recess - but Luna is so nice, I think I might hang out with her for the whole week... if she's okay with that. Luna is Tia's sister. She is younger, but I guess she got to skip a grade because she was very smart. She can fly and her magic is super powerful... but not as powerful as Tia's magic. I wonder what magic is like. I bet it is really fun to use. I can't wait to see Luna again! -Discord * * * December 25th 8:00 Happy Hearth's Warming Eve! I am going to go wake up mom now so we can eat breakfast and open presents. 8:30 Mommy isn't waking up. I guess she is just really tired from last night because she had to work late. I will let her sleep in because we still have a whole fun day ahead of us and I want her to be happy and not grumpy. I will go read my book for an hour. 9:45 Mom still isn't waking up! She usually snores really loud, but she isn't snoring right now so that is good. I will try again in a bit. I am really hungry... I think I have an idea.... 10:00 I made waffles and they didn't burn this time! I am putting them on a tray with some orange juice so mom doesn't have to get up and make breakfast. I hope she wakes up when she smells breakfast. 10:12 Shh. Be very quiet, diary! I am snuggled up next to mom (who is still sleeping!) with my breakfast. I hope she isn't mad... I spilled some orange juice on the blanket. She is very cold right now, and stiff. She is very pale. I just pulled the blankets over her so she isn't cold anymore. I hope she wakes up soon... I am very lonely. 12:00 Mom isn't awake yet, but I am okay. I went downstairs and made a sandwich for lunch because that is the only thing I can make. I made mom one too and I put it in the fridge so it'll stay fresh. I am eating my sandwich next to her, I hope she doesn't mind a few crumbs. I brought my book in too and I read a story out loud to her because she always wants me to practice my reading. I bet she is very proud right now because I pronounced a lot of the long words right! 2:00 I am starting to worry a bit. Mom hasn't moved since this morning. She doesn't even open her eyes a little when I shake her. I think she is very sick. That is why she is so pale and stiff... I brought her some tissues in case she sneezes. 6:00 I brought Cupcake into the bed and had a nap. Mom is still cold even though I put a bunch of blankets over her. I drew mommy sleeping, she looks very peaceful. I am hungry. Usually mom would make dinner for me but she is sleeping. I don't know how to make a dinner. I guess I will just have cereal. 10:00 Mom is still asleep but it is like she is awake, like she is here with me! I put a fire in the fireplace... it was a lot of work and the wood was very heavy but it worked. Maybe mom will warm up now. If mom were awake, I think she would tell me to go to bed now so I am getting ready to fall asleep. Cupcake is here beside me and the snow is so high that the downstairs windows are covered! I just gave mom a kiss and a hug goodnight. I hope she wakes up tomorrow. If she doesn't.. I won't be mad at her because she is just really tired and sick. I will call a doctor tomorrow. Goodnight mom! Happy Hearth's Warming Eve! I love you. -Discord
JanuaryJanuary 1st Happy New Year. Mommy didn't wake up after that day. Then the neighbors dropped by after a week and saw that mom was sick. They took her to the doctor and I had to ride in a cart with a mare I didn't know to an orphanage. Mommy will be asleep for a very long time. They tell me she is ' in the better place'. What is the better place? I hope it is nice and mommy is happy. Maybe daddy is there too. The orphanage is old and there is ivy growing on the old brick walls. It's really musty and grey inside and everyone doesn't look too happy. The mare tells me she will take care of me and she let me bring all my stuff into my new room. The room is kinda small and boring, but it has a comfy bed and a rug. I put Cupcake on the bed and put all the books mommy gave me on a shelf. They told me I could take a week or two off from school to 'recover from the trauma' but I am fine. I will go back to school tomorrow and see Tia and Luna again. -Discord P.S. I miss mom, but the nice mare is named Ms. Willow and she is super awesome. I'll be okay, diary.
MarchMarch 15th Remember that colt that bullied me? I never thought I would see him at the orphanage as well. All this time I spent blaming him for his anger... and it wasn't his fault. Some ponies might say that it's no excuse for beating me up, and I thought I would too, but - well, his mother died in a cart crash when he was three. I feel really bad for him. His dad abandoned him in the orphanage. Saying he wasn't 'fit to be his son' for whatever horrible reason. He must've been so sad... or maybe angry... with his father that he took it out on me. At least my mommy loves me. I still don't understand why everypony keeps saying they are so sorry for me! Mrs. Ivy talked to me after school one day and asked me if I was okay. Of course I am okay! Mommy is on vacation for a very long time. She is getting better because she was sick and one day she will come back and take care of me again. Luna looked sad too. She said she knew what it was like to lose her mom. Losing mom? No! She's coming back for me! She'll come back when she feels better! ... right? -Discord
SeptemberSeptember 4th Today was the first day of grade three. There weren't very many new ponies this year, and if they were, they are still too good for me. Tia has a lot of friends. Basically everyone is her friend. She ignores me and Lulu though. I thought sisters were supposed to stick together...? Lulu and Tia hate each other. They always glare at each other from across the classroom. Well, actually, Tia does most of the glaring. Luna tries her best, just like me, to impress Tia. Live up to her expectations and be her equal. But Tia just looks down on us. I wish I could fall out of love. It would be so much easier. I'm in love with a filly who hates me! Lulu is so nice to me. But I just... can't love her. I don't know why. She just isn't her sister. And her sister is the most beautiful thing in all of Equestria! Lulu is just a friend to me. I wish it didn't have to be that way. Love is hard, diary. -Discord
DecemberDecember 22nd I thought mom was just gone. I thought mom would come back after she got better. I didn't think that I would see her name on a tombstone. Mrs. Willow took me to the cemetery today. She told me there was something very important she need to show me. I don't like cemeteries, they're old and you always feel creeped out. We trotted through the belly-deep snow until we stopped at one of the graves. I looked up at Mrs. Willow and she looked very sad... but not for herself. For me. She brushed off the snow on the grave and I saw mommy's name. I saw mom's name and the day she died. Here lies Ataxia April 21st 1209 - December 24th 1239 A.R Beloved Mother to Discord And then I realized she was gone forever. I collapsed crying and Mrs. Willow had to carry me home to the orphanage. One year... I wasted one year waiting for my mom to come back. But now I know. I'll never see her again. She won't come back. I miss her. -Discord
AugustAugust 3rd I guess it's my birthday again, huh? Well, happy birthday to me. It's been a long month. They found me. The royal guards searched high and low for the little 10-year-old freak that just killed somepony. And, of course, one of the downfalls of being a draconequus (and the last one at that) is that you're pretty easy to spot in a crowd. I knew it wouldn't last forever. My hiding place was the park mom used to take me to, it was good enough for a night or two: sleep under the stars or take shelter in a tree... But my stomach protested. I was starving. So, I made the mistake of sneaking into the local market to swipe an apple or two. One, I'm a horrible thief so they caught me. Two, the owner recognized me from the wanted posters that are everywhere. Figures. I'm in a Royal cart right now, being taken to some weird place out in the country. They call it an 'asylum for foals' whatever that means. When they found me, they forced me into some white jacket with a bunch of locks. Now that I'm chained up, I can't use my paws (or talons), so I'll have to write with my mouth like I'm doing now. The cart ride takes forever, but on the bright side they are allowing me to keep my journal so I can entertain myself. We passed the orphanage long ago as I was wheeled down the streets of Canterlot while several ponies stared in awe at the freak in a weird jacket thing being hauled away to the nuthouse. Mrs. Willow was standing on the step shaking her head as she stared at the ground, I tried to call to her but she didn't hear me. Being in this jacket sucks. I can hardly move. I guess that;s the point: so I don't kill everypony in the city, because a ten-year-old can totally do that. As for the voices, they seemed satisfied after I... did that horrible thing to the bully. They haven't told me anything else yet, but I still hear them whispering nonsense in my ear sometimes. The voices are a normal thing, right? Do you hear them too, diary? Oh, they say we're arriving soon. Wish me luck. -Discord * * * August 4th So I have officially arrived at Mrs. Wilt's Home for Unstable Foals. It reminds me a bit of the orphanage, except everything is much, much older. The ivy snakes up all the walls and it smells like rotting leaves in here. Oh well, I guess I'll have to get used to it or something. I arrived yesterday and I already hated the place. It looked like a crumbling prison to me. I was greeted by two of the workers at the asylum, dressed in white uniforms that resembled those of a doctor. The guards held me down while they tightened the jacket around me to stop my struggling. One of the nurse-ponies brought a mask over to me and put it over my muzzle, strapping it on. This was really uncomfortable, and it hurt a little... I whimpered and one of the nurses looked down at me sympathetically. She told me everything would be okay and the mask was only temporary. Then they wheeled me off on a metal cart they use to move boxes. The place is musty and gross, as I mentioned earlier. It was large, but there were only about twenty cells, almost all of them empty. Each had the same thing in them: a rusty sink, some sort of toilet thing, and a clunky sagging mattress on an old bed frame. Eww. They wheeled me into one and lit a candle to guide me into the dark room. The guards left the room, all except for one, who helped me by untying the mask and letting it fall to the ground before he picked it up. He then untied the jacket, which he picked up as well. It felt awesome to be free. "You're not alone here. We'll do our best to help you." were his exact words before he left the room, slamming a large metal door shut behind him. The room went completely dark as he had taken the candle with him. Well, crap. And what exactly did he mean by 'not alone here' anyway? Were there other foals here...? I... can't tell yet. The room is so dark and cold. And the voices are back. -Discord
SeptemberSeptember 29th I can't believe I've been here for for almost two months. Being trapped here in my new home has taken some getting used to. Every day all day, we pursue the same old routine. Wake up to complete darkness, lie there in darkness until the guards arrive to unstrap me from my bed, then I wait in utter darkness until they take me to a counsellor who asks me questions and performs tests. The rest of the day is just pacing around the cell. It's hard to write in the lack of light, but I'm adjusting. There are still a few lanterns here and there to help me. My counsellor's name is Mrs. Blossom Gertrude Wilt, but she makes all of us call her Mrs. Wilt. She owns this place and has maintained it since she got out of her parent's place. She's strict and cruel and seems to like watching us sob into our pillows after our little melt-downs. I've had, like, six since I got here. I'm not used to pretty much solitary confinement. I thought I was alone in this place at first, I mean, how many insane foals can there be? No, I was merely one of three patients. They didn't know I was here either, not until I heard one of them singing. It was a filly, and her voice was beautiful but chillingly hollow. It echoed of the walls like the droning of an insect's wings. I called out to her and she stopped immediately. "Who are you?" she had asked me. I said I was Discord, the new colt here. She introduced herself as Chrysalis, but told me I could simply call her Chrysi. Finally! Someone to talk to that wasn't trying to cure me of my crazy. Another foal to speak with. We began playing games where we described ourselves so that when we did see each other in the light (Mrs. Wilt allows us outside once a week for two hours), we would tell each other if the other was anything like we had imagined. She told me she had long green hair and a completely black shell-like coat. There were bite-like holes on her legs and in her hair and she had insect wings. She also had green eyes. I was getting a pretty vivid image, and I had no idea what species she could possibly be. She was certainly not like any pony I have ever encountered. I did my best to describe myself, but I could tell she was very confused. "Wait, wait - do you have paws or talons?" "Both." Yeeeah. Good luck trying to imagine a draconequus, every one of us is... er, was totally different. I asked Chrysi if we were the only ones here and she said no, there was another colt in the cell beside me. I drifted over and rattled the bars a little. You can imagine my surprise when I heard what sounded like a growl coming from the other cell. A pair of green eyes... and I don't mean the iris was green, I mean the eyes were literally glowing neon green, blinked at me. His voice was kind of like a bear cub that earned english. He called himself 'King Sombra'. I asked him what he was king of. He told me he didn't know yet. This looks like an interestingly unlikely pair of friends. But I think I can make it work. After all, I'd much rather I get along with the only two foals I'll see for the foreseeable future. -Discord P.S. Outside day is in a few days, yay!
OctoberOctober 1st Mrs. Wilt woke all of us up and told us today we would be going outside before our testing. The guards came in and handcuffed my paws behind my back and then led me out of the asylum. I don't know how I lasted so long without a drop of sunlight, but now that I am outside, I really don't want to go back in. I don't mind that it's a little chilly, the autumn breeze is nice because the inside of the asylum is either A: boiling hot or B: freezing cold. The backyard is roughly twice the size of the actual 'house'. We're out on he countryside, so there's hardly anypony here. Hardly anypony to hear us scream. All the kids were led outside one by one, un-handcuffed and left to roam free in the field for an hour or two. Chrysi, Sombra and I all made our way to each other after a few minutes of wading through the tall grass and calling eachother's names in a marco-polo-like fashion. The first foal I saw was Chrysi, and though I was distracted by her insectine figure and sharpened fangs, I found her pretty. I've come to know her as the modest type -- sometimes a little ashamed of her looks, sadly. I want to tell her she is beautiful, I want to tell her I like her. But I'll have to wait until I work up the nerve to do so. Chrysi grinned at me. Sombra arrived right after. He's kinda scary-looking, but I'm not too shocked seeing as his voice was equally sinister. He is completely grey with a black mane and tail. His green eyes still glowed in the daylightjust as it had in utter darkness. It took a while for me to notice this, but I now realise that both Chrysalis is an alicorn, just like Tia... and Luna... Mommy always told me that there weren't very many alicorns in Equestria because the rare gene runs only in royal blood. I don't know what 'gene' means. I think it's a type of fabric. Sombra is a unicorn, but he has really powerful magic. She told me that each alicorn is the embodiement of an element or emotion. Like light (Tia), and night (Luna). I wonder what my new friends control. Mom used to say that sometimes, a draconequus could inherit the powersof an alicorn. I wonder if she was telling the truth. I wish I could ask her. Oh,and before I forget, the voices haven't been speaking to me a lot lately. Not since I... hurt that colt. Sometimes the voices do whisper to me. One voice that keeps coming back sounds just like mommy. But I know it isn't her. it can't be. As much as I'd like to think she is still with me, I know because... Because mom wouldn't tell me to hurt the guards. And that is what the vices want me to do. I'm starting to wonder if I really am crazy. -Discord
DecemberDecember 12th Chrysi, Sombra and I have hardly seen each other in the better part of two months. Due to the snow, we have been kept inside in the almost total darkness non-stop for several weeks. The only time I've had the pleasure to glimpse my changeling cellmate's beautiful face was the brief and occasional moment when a guard would stroll by with a lantern. I just got back from my weekly tests. Basically, they have a doctor come in and ask me all sorts of awkward questions like 'do you want to kill everyone you see?' I shook my head nearly every time. It was easy to lie to them, but it felt funny when he asked me whether I heard voices or not. I said no, because if you say yes, you have to stay in the tests a lot longer. That is what Sombra told me. I feel so bad for him. He was brought here when he was four years old because he killed a crystal pony foal with his bare hooves. Apparently, the teacher said in a report about the incident, the filly had 'turned a sickly shade of green, then black, then died on the spot'. I'd take her word for it, cause that is something I certainly would not like to see. The guards agree, I suppose, because Sombra has to have his hooves bound and his horn clipped. 'Clipped' is what they call it when they perform this one spell that makes the target incapable of using magic for a couple days. I feel even worse for Chrysi. She's been here since birth. Or, um, since hatching. Changelings are so deadly, that Celestia's mom and dad were forced to banish them. All changelings found are immediately destroyed. Even the babies. Chrysi told me that she had been spared by the queen for some unknown reason. Sombra has been here for five years. Chrysi has been here for nine. The doctor says I'm making great progress. He even says I might be able to go back to the orphanage in a year or two. As long as I keep lying about the voices, I'll be free soon! Lying is hard. But the voices tell me to lie. I must listen. -Discord
MarchMarch 28th Chrysi has gotten worse. She can hardly move without tumbling over. Sombra is worried as well, and we've been trying to figure out ways to help her. We've been giving her some of our lunches, because she is growing thinner and thinner. It isn't helping. The doctors have been force-feeding her because they think she is starving herself. Then it came to me. Duh. I like her. ... love her. She can feed on me. I'll be okay. She will get better. I told Chrysi my idea and she agreed, but she seemed reluctant. She warned me that being fed on was no laughing matter. It can be scarring. I don't care. I'll do anything to save her. We stood face-to face against the steel bars that divide us and I closed my eyes. At first, it tickled me, I laughed as it tingled through my body. Then it started to hurt. It felt like I was being burned alive from the inside out. I screamed, but the guards couldn't hear. Or they just didn't care. When the burning stopped, my head ached. That was only the beginning. Do you now what it feels like to have everything you have ever loved and held close be sucked out of you? Do you know what it is like to have your heart emptied, to feel only sorrow, misery and pain, and then to have a remnant of your happiness tossed back half-heartedly into you? I do. I collapsed, at Chrysi tried to help me up the best she could. She asked if I was hurt, I said yes, but it was worth it. I feel so empty. She said she was sorry. It's okay. I'll be just fine. I'm feeling sort of weak right now.... my head...spinning....
JulyJuly 31st I had hoped it wouldn't take this long for the plan to come together, but it isn't easy planning a jailbreak with three misfits against fifty guards, workers and doctors. Sombra was all for it, but Chrysi was a little hesitant. Because changelings are so discouraged in Equestria, she never truly learned how to shape-shift. She has spent the last month practicing morphing into me. The first time, she mixed up the sides my wings were on and my eyes were the wrong color, but she has slowly gotten better. She had me down-pat, and soon after she began practicing a guard we had been seeing a lot lately. He works the day shift, and we've done our best to memorize his looks when he passes by. Tomorrow is the day we'll break out. We'll all get up early, waiting for when that poor guard will walk by. Sombra will do the rest. You see, he hasn't been 'clipped' this week. -Discord
SeptemberSeptember 1st So much has happened in the past month, it all feels like one long day dragging on and on. I hadn't found the time to write about it, since we were constantly on the run or scrounging for food. I owe you a long entry to make up for all this waiting. It worked like a charm. Nopony seemed to question or even care about the suspicious guard escorting two 'insane' foals out of the asylum, most likely since Chrysi explained to them that the doctors had ordered more fresh air for us for the next little while. It was a long trudge across the field, but it would be worth it to escape. We were out of the range for the asylum, but we had to remain calm and collected if we wished to escape past the two guards posted just ahead. They had already been eyeing us by the time we arrived at the large, metal gates. Chrysi tipped 'his' hat to them. "Special orders from Ms. Wither. I'm supposed to take them for a stroll outside of the limits, let them run free and examine their behaviour. If they try to leave, well..." Chrysi winked at the guards, they were smirking. "You know." I guess it is common knowledge here what happens when you're bad. Luckily enough for me, but not quite for my friend, the guards seemed to focus on Sombra most of all. I tried to sleep through his pained screams. The guards gave each other a sideways glance and let us pass. It seemed as soon as we had stepped hoof past the gates, we were free. The air was clean, not dusty. It smelled like autumn and the lingering scent of honey. The sun was brighter, there was skip in our steps, and the trees... I had missed the trees! They didn't seem to like growing beneath the looming shade of the asylum. I hate that word. Asylum. Ha! If mummy could see me now, she would be so... Scared. No! She would understand what happened to that colt back there. I didn't know the limit to my strength. She would still love me. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'M NOT A BAD GUY. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm not a bad guy. I-I'm sorry. I don't quite know what happened there. Chrysi says I fell over while writing in here and just whispered stuff she couldn't quite hear. She had to comfort me. I'm okay now. The voices are gone. The voices are... gone! They haven't spoken since they last gave me the idea to escape. Maybe they won't come back. I know it's wishful thinking, but.... Where was I? Oh yeah. Once we were far away from the guard, Chrysi changed back. She shrunk, her hair grew long and blue, and she grew fangs. That's the Chrysi I know and love. She grinned at us. I think this was the first time I ever saw Sombra happy. I see him smile lots, but it's either fake, or an evil grin after he stole some extra food or some other prank on the asylum guards. After all, lost supplies comes out of their paycheck. We must've spent at least an hour or two simply running, running through the trees or flitting around the forest. I missed being outside. The fresh air felt so clean it made my lungs burn at first. Finally, we were free! Our faces fell as it began to get dark. We had stupidly neglected to find somewhere to hide, or somewhere to sleep. We found an overturned tree with just enough room below the fallen trunk for us three to sleep, then we took sticks and logs and rested them against the trunk, which made some sort of odd tent. It would have to do. We had to fight about the thought of a fire. We needed it to survive, but the guards might see the smoke and find us. It was decided we would make one, and one of us would guard for a couple hours while the others slept, and then we would switch. Sombra said he wasn't tired, so he volunteered the first shift. Speaking of sleep, I might hit the hay, diary. I'll continue tomorrow. Goodnight. -Discord * * * September 2nd The following day, I remember waking up with an overwhelming sense of dread like a rock in my gut. It was horrible. I felt fit to vomit then and there. I was so scared the guards had found us. It didn't help that Chrysi and Sombra weren't beside me. When I stepped outside, nopony was there. The fire was dead. There was a note near the logs though, to my relief. Discord, Sorry to leave you. Sombra and I didn't want to wake you yet, so we thought we'd just go look for some food or something. I flew up above the trees, and luckily we're not far from Canterlot. stay here. If we don't get back in a bout an hour, yell for us. Be back hopefully, Chrysi I still have the note. I guess something about letters, notes and the written word makes me happy. I love notes. It's really weird, I know, but I used to collect everything my mom wrote. If she made a grocery list, I would tuck it away in my special memories box under the bed. They let me take it to the orphanage, and I would read them every night, to make me feel better. Even through words on a paper, it's like she's still alive and talking to me. Comforting me. You wouldn't understand. Nopony ever does. I waited for some time, and it was funny how easily I jumped. Even the faintest rustle of leaves startled me. Light still hurts my eyes. I spent an entire year in darkness. Finally, Chrysi and Sombra got back. They didn't have too much, but just enough. There were a few berries and some mushrooms. I guess Sombra kept finding stuff, but Chrysi almost always tossed it away because she didn't want to risk us getting poisoned or something. Chrysi's smart like that. I like her, but something about her reminds of someone... Tia always comes to mind. But I hate Tia. Lulu is always calling to me. Her voice always echoes in the back of my mind. Sometimes, just thinking of her would make me cry. She's so misunderstood. Even though she's normal. Even though she's beautiful... They treat her like a monster. And I never knew why. She doesn't deserve it. I should probably go, diary. So much more has happened since our escape, but I'm getting tired. I'll tell you more tomorrow. Sincerely, Discord * * * September 3rd Hey again diary. I guess it's about time I got you fully caught up on our adventures, diary. We've spent an entire month in the woods, but it seems like years. We kinda have a rhythm now. We have night shifts, and Chrysi and I go every other day to look for food. Things are going really well. We haven't seen any guards from the asylum. I'm starting to wonder if they just gave up looking weeks ago. But better to stay hidden than blow our cover and get sent back. We know we're close to home. Canterlot is about two days walking-distance away. We could be home. I want to go home. I want to see Lulu. But we have to decide. Sombra is really hesitant, he keeps saying we should stay here longer or go to another town. If we go back, they'll only send us to the asylum again if we get caught. As much as I wish he was wrong, I know he's right. It's not safe, but neither are these woods. Sooner or later, somepony will come looking for us. Going back, we'd be forced into hiding anyway. If I can't see Luna, what is the point of even going back? The weirdest thing happened the other day. Just yesterday, Chrysi and I were out looking for food. I found some more mushrooms. This specific type of mushroom seems to grow a lot around here, and we know they're safe from experience. I was just turning around when Chrysi ran up to me. She came really close. Like, super duper close. She looked straight into my eyes. Then she kissed me! Kissed me! Then ran away giggling. She hasn't said a word to me since. Sombra keeps asking why she always blushes when we make almost-eye contact (cause she keeps looking away!), and I seriously have no idea. She's weird. Fillies are weird. But I kinda like it like that. Sincerely, Discord
OctoberOctober 1st Hey diary, really sorry I've been waiting so long between entries! Turns out hanging out in the woods is actually waaay harder than it seems. Mommy used to take me camping every summer out here, but things seem different without her there. They're darker. They're colder. Home sweet home, I guess. Chryssi and Sombra try to make the best out of it, but it's hard for me. They have an avantage though because they come from dark, scary places where light is what's scary. Chryssi once told me about the hive she lives in and how itimi intimada intimidating it can be. It's all big and sticky and really really loud! Loud like a million pony-sized bees flying around is what she said! It sounds kinda cool actually. Maybe Chryssi can take me there sometime. ... You know who I miss? I miss that Luna filly a lot. She was so kind. And she was real smart because she had the most avanced vocabullarily EVER! She talks all fancy, but I guess princesses do that kind of thing. The last few days I saw her, we would sit and talk about life and stuff. Actually, we talked more about cooties. She would say all sorts of weird stuff like 'thou' and 'verily'. What was her sister's name again? Tia? I've tried real hard to forget that name. Guess I'll have to try again! ~ Discord * * * October 3rd I'm tired of this forest, diary. I'm sick of all the shadows and the dark. I want to leave soon, and I have a plan. I'm going to wait until tomorrow to tell Sombra and Chryssi about the plan though because I don't feel so good. I'm happy the voices gave me the plan, but it was also bad because they wouldn't shut up and kept me up aaaall night. That's okay. I hope the voices won't be mad that I told you that diary. Sometimes they get mad and yell at me! * * * October 4th I told them the plan and they love it! I mean, Sombra liked it more. Chryssi was kinda scared. She doesn't like doing bad things, but neither do I. We've been stuck in the forest for far too long and I might just go crazy! Am I... already crazy? NO. shut up shut up shut up shut UP shUT UP SHUT UP ... Sorry. Let me explain the plan. Basicaly, we're gonna reach the edge of the forest where it reaches this nearby place called... what was it? Pony - something? Ponyville. It's kinda far from Canterlot, but we've been slowly moving towards this Ponyville over time. A couple times we had to hide because these flower carts keep driving through this one route close to us. I overheard one of the cartponies talking about Canterlot and how excited they were to sell their flowers at such a 'fancy schmancy' place. So, We're gonna jump out when the next one drives by and... umm... steal the cart. We won't hurt the ponies, I swear! I'll control myself, I swear! They won't die. I promise! They won't die. ... I should go. Hopefully the plan works! ~ Discord * * * October 4th I've done something bad. I've done something really really bad. I... I killed them. I said... I promised I wouldn't but I did. On accident, I swear! There was that same flash of light and I just lost control! It was just like when I killed that little colt... I didn't mean to. I'm not a monster. But Chryssi's eyes... say differently. She's afraid of me. Maybe I am a monster after all. Mommy was just wrong. And the whole world was right. ~ Discord
NovemberNovember 22nd Hey diary, The plan didn't work. I mean, it would've if I hadn't killed that mare. Everything was going fine until Chryssi sneezed and the mare looked up to see us hiding in the bushes. I didn't know what to do! I just... froze in place. She came over and at first seemed pretty nice, like she was gonna help us. But then... Well then, she saw us. She jumped back and was shouting at us. And you know what she called us? She called us monsters. That's why I thought maybe... well, in my last entry. i thought maybe she was right. "Get away from me, you little monsters" she had said. Sombra gritted his teeth and jumped at her, hoping to keep up with the plan and get the cart by whatever means possible. I honestly think that if I hadn't done it first, he would've killed her. She was screaming bloody murder and managed to wrestle off Sombra. She threw him to the ground and he started... crying. I'd never seen him cry before. I was already getting pretty angry. But then Chryssi flew over to help him up... And the mare stabbed her. Everything seemed to be in slow motion then, diary. I was so scared. The mare had taken a loose branch and snapped it off, widdling it down with her magic. Before I could stop it... she had sent it right into Chryssi's side. I just lost it. There was a blinding flash, and everything seemed all dreamy-like. It was a though I was watching from far away. I watched myself kill the mare with my own two hands. I just... I didn't strangle her or anything... I didn't even touch her. She just died. She just lay there all lifeless. There was blood trickling from her mouth and tears in her eyes and I... laughed. Why did I laugh? Was it fun to kill her? No... The fun thing was losing control. The fun thing was letting myself lose it and not care if everypony around me lives or dies. I loved the... disharmony. The chaos. And in the back of my head, the voices whispered to me that they were proud of me. they sound like mommy, but I know it isn't. Mommy would be ashamed. These voices told me it was okay. They told me it was good that she had died and that we didn't need her anyway. Chryssi was bleeding a lot. I always thought changeling blood was green or something like that, but it was red. Red like mine. Red like the blood coming from the mare's body. Sombra and I did all we could, and she's patched up now. She's lost a lot of blood though, and needs to sleep. She's sleeping next to me, and I think the rustling is waking her up, so I better go! ~ Discord * * * November 26th It's getting colder here. I'm worried that it'll snow soon, so i think we need to get a move on. We were hoping the flower cart would take us to safety, but after how well that went... We're just going to head into Ponyville and keep as low of a profile as three misfits can. We cross the border from this forest into Ponyville tomorrow. Wish us luck! ~ Discord * * * November 27th We arrived in Ponyville. I had forgotten how great being in a town can be. It was so busy and filled with kind ponies. Hardly anypony even cared that we looked different. But... there's some bad news. We arrived at the wrong time, diary. There was a terrible fire that broke out into the library, I hear. Anyways, the queen came down here with Lulu and... you guessed it, Tia. We've managed not to get seen by them, but I'm not sure how long we can stay in the alley. I don't know how we'll mange, but we have so far! Maybe things won't be so bad! Hey, maybe i can try talking with Lulu. maybe she'll help us out. ~ Discord
OctoberOctober 9th Hey diary, Things got worse. Really bad now, diary. Mom found out about the bullies and called the teacher. The teacher was really upset and everyone had to stay in for recess to have a talk about bullying and stuff. And then, like the cherry on top, she suspended them. Being expelled would've been better but at least I get a break from those meanies. At least that is what I thought. The bullies have been following me home every day after school. They taunt me and called me naughty words that they really shouldn't say. Mom hasn't asked about the new bruises yet. Hopefully she doesn't notice them at all. I just have to wait until they fade and then I can stop hiding in my room all day. On the bright side, Tia has been talking to me. She is soooo cute! She is my only friend. She is very nice and a really good student. She gets special treatment because she's a princess, but I don't mind. I always give her some of my lunch so maybe she'll like me more. I gave her all my candy and she seemed really happy. Yesterday was show-and-tell so Tia brought in her crown. It was very fancy and had gems. She put it on and she looked so pretty. I had nothing to bring in so I got in trouble. We have a substitute and she is really super mean and doesn't like me at all. Bye, -Discord * * *
June and AugustJune 27th Hey diary! Today was the BEST DAY EVER! Today was the very last day of school... can you believe it? I can't! I will miss school but I will not miss the bullies. We all played games and said goodbye for the summer. I spent as much of the day as I could with Tia because I will miss her a lot when I am gone. The school bell rang and everyone was leaving. I grabbed my book bag and before I knew it - she kissed me! Not on the lips (aww) but on the cheek! I blushed a lot which made her giggle. She said she would miss me too. I am never washing this cheek again! The colt saw me and looked real angry but I didn't care - it was worth it! I said goodbye to the teacher and then I left. It feels nice to be off from school for two whole months. We have nothing planned, mom and I, cause she is still very sick, but I don't mind. Discord * * * August 3rd Sorry I didn't write to you all of July, but I have been too busy playing outside! Happy birthday to me! I am turning seven years old today. Mom got up from bed to surprise me, and she brought me breakfast in bed and she even gave me a chocolate cupcake with rainbow sprinkles when I was done. There was a candle in the cupcake and we sang Happy Birthday and then I blew out the candle. I wished that mommy would get better. I didn't tell her though, because then the wish wouldn't work. She felt really dizzy after so I helped her back to her bed and then she had a nap. When she got up, she told me to close my eyes and walk into the kitchen. So I did and when I opened them there was a gift on the table! She got me a stuffy and a book. The stuffy was a bunny and I named her Cupcake because she reminds me of my birthday cupcake. I love Cupcake! I was really happy and mom gave me a hug. I am reading the book but the book is very hard to read so mom helped me out a little. This was the best birthday ever! -Discord
NovemberNovember 21st Hey diary. I am really sorry I haven't written anything in months. I dropped you under my bed and couldn't find you for a few months, but when I did, I was too busy and didn't have time to write about stuff. Another grade went by and another one is here to be faced. Mrs. Ivy is still teaching us, but she really grows on you... kinda like ivy. We are learning about pony history this month. She taught us about all the wars and stuff Equestria has had over the years - like the Great Griffon Siege. Today she told us about the rivalry ponies and the draconequus' had not long ago. Apparently draconequus had been causing trouble in the villages so the ponies fought back. That is why my mom and I are the last left. They killed all of them except for my mom... who was a 'filly' at the time. It was sad knowing about it... but it was also nice knowing why we were the last of us. Maybe it was for the best. All we did was wreak havoc and destruction upon a perfect world. I guess we were just misfits. So anyway, I guess I should tell you about myself. My favorite subject in school is art class because I love to draw. I have a sketch book that I doodle in all the time. I sometimes show mom my drawings and she likes them a lot. I make her drawings too and she puts them up on the walls or on the fridge. I still have Cupcake (of course!) and she is my favorite stuffy ever. She is super soft. Tia and I haven't talked a lot lately... I'm sad about that. Bye! -Discord
June and JulyJune 29th School ended two days ago and things have been super boring here. I miss Tia a lot. We didn't speak much this year, I guess she just caught that disease that makes everyone hate me. I thought she was so nice... I overheard her talking with some of her better friends in the last week of school. She called me a freak. I'm not a freak. Right? Mom told me that there was nothing to be ashamed of. That I should be darn proud of myself, but... it's so hard to love yourself in a world where everyone hates you. I thought Celestia would love me one day. But why should anyone love me? I'm just a freak. I miss Luna too. She's weird. But in a cool way... if that makes sense. She gets me. She doesn't judge me or call me mean names. A month ago, she told me to call her Lulu. Lulu is so kind to me. She gives me part of her lunch everyday and hse always sits beside me. I hope one day Tia will love me too. -Discord * * * July 17th I'm in my room right now. All the orphans are only allowed to go outside once a day for an hour for 'security reasons'. I finished all my books and we only get new things on our birthdays or Hearth's Warming Eve, so all I have is Cupcake and a tennis ball they give us. I played this game where I lay on my bed and threw the ball at the ceiling and then tried to catch it again. But then one of the caretakers burst in and yelled at me because it made a thumping noise. I cried after she left because I don't get yelled at a lot. Mommy never used to yell at me. I can't wait until she comes back for me so we can go home. -Discord
AprilApril 8th Today was awful. I was eating lunch (ham sandwich, go figure) alone. Luna got the flu and has been away for a week, so it's been lonely. I couldn't believe it when Tia trotted up and asked if she could sit beside me. I said yes, of course and she sat down. She took out a cookie from her lunch and gave it to me. "Want it?" she asked. I nodded and took a bite. It tasted terrible! I spat it out, but it was too late! My tongue started to feel really heavy and when I reached my paw to my mouth, I realized it was swelling. It go so big I couldn't close my mouth, or talk. The worst part was... Tia was laughing. She was laughing at me. A couple of her mean friends walked over and gave her a high hoof. She did it on purpose. How could she? I thought... I thought we could be friends. I can still hear everyone laughing at me... taunting me... calling me 'Spitcord' and other stupid nicknames. I wish their voices would go away. Now they're whispering to me. ... those voices.... They're telling me to hurt her. To hurt Tia. Should I... listen? -Discord
JuneJune 1st I did it. I don't know why. I don't know what. But I finally did it. And I feel so much better now. And yet, I feel so empty. So hollow. So... scared of myself. Luna came back, she was happy to see me and I was happy to see her. It was the middle of lunch recess and I was sitting on the slide with Luna. We were talking about stuff. We were talking about our future and crushes and... things friends talk about. Then that colt came up to us. He started taunting Luna, calling her mean names. I said nothing. I couldn't say anything. I was frozen in place. He grabbed her necklace -- the one her mother gave to her before she was destroyed by a curse -- and ran off with it. She screamed for him to give it back. He didn't let up. We chased him out into the field. The other foals joined in, the colt's posse and some other kids. They started tossing it back and forth in a giant game of keep-away. Luna did her best, and so did I, but they were too quick. Tia joined in too, she tossed it a bit, but then she saw just what they were throwing. She saw her mother's necklace. Tia tried to stop them, but they just kept throwing it around. Holding it just where we couldn't reach. All the while, they taunted us. Then the colt took it again, he took it and laughed as he threw it on the ground, stomping on it over and over. Luna was sobbing, Tia screamed for him to stop. He didn't quit. I felt so much... anger rising in me. It was pure fury. All I wanted to do right then and there was hurt him. Laugh when he suffered as much as I had. All I remember was a blinding flash of light, horrified screams as ponies scrambled away from me. I opened my eyes and the colt just lay there, bleeding from his mouth and nose. Bleeding from his... eyes. Ponies ran off, screaming and shrieking and sobbing. I killed him. I checked the pulse. None. I... killed him. Why am I smiling? No, Discord, no! This isn't funny... you killed him. I looked to Luna and Tia... that is when my smile faded. Luna just stood there, staring at me in shock. Tears dripped from her eyes. Tia put a hoof on her shoulder and the two looked away, trotting away from me. Luna looked back, I thought maybe she felt bad for me. She looked at me with disgust. She look at me with hatred. It isn't my fault... I didn't kill him! It wasn't me... it was something else. I don't know what went wrong. I'm not the monster I see in the mirror. -Discord
FebruaryFebruary 9th I worry for Chrysi. To pass time, she told me all about the long-lost species called changelings. I guess the dracoequus' weren't the only ones who were terminated by the almighty king and queen. Anyways, changelings have the ability to shift form into anything they want. To do this, they are forced to feed off the love of others. Without it, they grow weak. There is no love here. She is terribly sick. Every minute she spends without love, she grows more ill. I hear her coughing all day, and when I see her, her eyes are bloodshot and filled with tears. The guards get more and more concerned every time they find blood in her cell. She's dying. And nopony will listen to me when I say the only cure is love. They laugh! NO! Chrysi is dying. She's dying. Please, somepony! Save her. -Discord
JuneJune 2nd I don't think I can take it anymore. After the whole 'feeding' incident I have been slowly growing stronger. Keeping up your health here is hard, seeing as the mental hospital food mainly consists of lumpy mashed potatoes, some small cube-shaped vegetables slices and stale water. Every... single... day... On the bright side, Chrysi is doing much better. She isn't as scrawny. Sombra and I talked yesterday -- mostly about kingdoms and royalty and crystal ponies. He still insists I call him 'King Sombra'. I do my best. This place is so dark and the air is musty. You get used to the scent after a while. At least that is what Chrysi says. Sadly, this hasn't happened to me yet. I'd do anything to get me and my friends out of this Faust-forsaken place. It is a complete Tartarus-hole here. The guards remain ever-vigilant, so I see little chance of that. Hold on, diary. The voice is saying something. ... it has an idea. -Discord
AugustAugust 1st Today is the day. Now all I need to do is wait, just like the others. I believe I hear something rattling outside my cell. This is it. Success! The guard that passes through here everyday was walking along the cells tapping the bars, probably just to annoy us. I have the longest body of all of us, so I stretched through the bars and seized him with my talons, holding my paw over his mouth to muffle his screams. This is the good thing about the darkness they keep us in near 24/7, it makes it so easy to sneak up on others. I had to hand him over to Sombra's cell. It's difficult to keep my grip, he's struggling so much. Sombra took the guard. Chrysi thought we should look away, but my eyes were glued to the sight of a black goop covering the writhing guard. It took me a second to realise I was actually staring at this. Smiling, too. Chrysi gave me a very concerned look before closing her eyes again. When we looked up, the black had receded and the guard lay motionless in the hall. Sombra was taking a drink like nothing had happened. "That was cool." I remarked. Chrysi elbowed me, it still stings. It's taking Chrysi a while to transform completely, since being a changeling takes a lot of practice. Sombra and I said her transformation looks perfect, but she shook her head saying 'it wasn't good enough'. It's taking at least fifteen minutes. It doesn't seem like a long time to you, but we were a little on the edge seeing as another guard could stroll in at any second looking for his co-worker. Luckily, this didn't happen. The coast was clear, Chrysi looked exactly like the guard, and we, two outcast being led to new cells. I grabbed the guard again and wrestled his keys out from his uniform, and unlocked each cell door with ease. We were free! Not quite safe, but still free. We're about to leave the cell. I'll tell you the rest later, diary. It's show time. -Discord
