What's Left Unsaid

by Kamikakushi

Rating: mature
Tags: Princess Celestia, Dark, Drama, Porn, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Fetish, Non-consensual, Sex, Twilight Sparkle
Length: 6133

Twilight hates what Celestia has done to her. She should run away and never look back, but she can’t.

Twilight finds herself in front of Celestia’s chamber door once again, questioning why she keeps coming back. She hates this door, she hates this whole wing, she hates this room, she hates herself. Celestia has ruined her, made her into something she hates. She wants to run away—no—she should run away and never look back, but she can’t.

Contains: F/F, Rape, Mindbreak

Published 2013-07-24 01:50:02 UTC
Last updated 2013-07-24 01:50:02 UTC

What's Left Unsaid

What's Left Unsaid

Twilight stood outside the entry to her teacher’s chamber. The sheer size of the door, was truly immense. For Twilight it stood roughly five times her height, dwarfing the unicorn, and even dwarfing Celestia herself. An ornate sun carving, vaguely reminiscent of the princess’s cutie mark, was carved into the center of solid surface. The sun engulfed most of the door, with strong lines representing the life-giving rays jetting off from the elaborate carving. Floral patterns drew sweeping, elegantly curved lines around the wooden canvas, leading one’s attention back to the overbearing golden sun at the center. The vine-like curves stood as a backdrop, with small flowers sprouting out seemingly at random; in the grand scheme of the design however, they were mirrored symmetrically on each side of the door. Polished golden rivets held a sculpted golden framework in place, leaving a gaudy, almost sickening border around the whole motif. Gold and white drowned the senses in a nauseatingly garish display of the princess’s role in Equestrian life. A few welcomed splashes of purple came from embedded amethyst in the flower-like features, but it was far too little to save this calamity.

Twilight shook her head in disgust, dreading this door. No matter how many times she saw it, it always sickened her down to her core. Today she found herself staring into the intricate design; forcing herself to look at its loud, over-the-top craftsmanship in hopes of delaying her purpose for being at the castle, even for just a moment longer. On the other side of that door lie Celestia’s chambers, an entire wing of the castle devoted to her petty endeavors. She had her own private library, stocked with first editions—most of which she seized under royal authority—a private study, spa, terrace, observatory, office, the list went on. It was utterly disgusting that her kingdom’s taxes paid for the princess to live in such unnecessary luxury.

The worst part though was Twilight’s visit to her teacher today for some “special lessons”. Twilight’s stomach churned as she fought the urge to vomit right there. Special lessons, that was good for a laugh. She knew the purpose of this twisted call once she read the summons. Twilight held a hoof to her stomach, holding back her thought-induced sickness. Once she managed to calm her stomach, she took a deep breath to ready herself further. Beyond the disgusting excuse for a door, was her mentor, waiting for her. She couldn’t delay any longer, she had to go inside.

Twilight opened the hulking door, leading to the main foyer of Celestia’s private wing. Statues and paintings of herself were the main décor. Accompanied with obscene golden carpet, and enough pure white on the walls to make you want to drown yourself in a small puddle. A purple border lined the room towards the ceiling, giving some vague sense of an accent color, but it was too little. The floor itself was of course marble, and really beat the white and gold motif into your skull. Golden suns were engraved into the floor and walls leaving a grid pattern in the floor, and placed evenly between the paintings on the walls. Each sun was a carbon copy of Celestia’s cutie mark. Looking up, one could see the dome ceiling, which actually had some color to it. Unfortunately it was another vain rendition of Celestia herself. The colors of her flowing mane were painted onto the ceiling, in wavy segments to further mimic the princess’s mane. Imbedded into the plaster were diamonds, which gave a soft twinkle when the light hit them. To add more insult to injury, at the pinnacle of the dome sat yet another gaudy, downright sickening sun, glaring down at whomever entered these godforsaken chambers.

The whole design of the foyer made Twilight feel woozy with how utterly gaudy, daft, and tasteless it was. No restraint, no sense of design, and a revolting display of vanity cursed this entire wing of the castle. It was utterly putrid in its presentation, with a nasty aftertaste that left one feeling lightheaded. Twilight could have passed out right there, but she didn’t want her mentor to find her like that. The last time that happened, she couldn’t walk right for a week. She groaned like a foal preparing for school after a long summer, feeling her mind and body yelling at her not to get her mentor’s attention, but she had no choice. Reluctantly, she called out into the endless quarters.

“Princess?” She felt a small piece of her soul die in that instant she called out to alert her teacher. A sinking feeling settled into her chest, pulling down on her heart, as her call echoed down the hallway in front of her. She shouldn’t feel this way, but it was all Celestia’s fault she was like this. All Twilight wanted to do was leave and get out of there, but years of conditioning on Celestia’s part held her in place. Her hooves remained still no matter how much she told them to move, as if they were glued to the floor. Her eyes fell upon her useless, piss-poor excuse for hooves, utterly revolted by the sight of them quivering. They had the power to get her out of this, but they refused to move. That disgust she felt turned inwards once she heard the clip-clop of hooves coming towards her. Twilight was pathetic. She hated herself for letting this happen. It wasn’t her hooves that had the power to end this, it was Twilight herself, but she was too much of a coward to stand up for herself. As the sound of hooves came ever closer, she whimpered slightly, dreading the sight of her monarch appearing in the doorway across from her. In a final cop-out Twilight closed her eyes tightly, squeezing them shut in hopes to shut out the world.

Finally the sound stopped. Twilight lifted one ear, expectantly. She didn’t have to wait long for the kind, sugar-coated voice of the princess to grace her ears. “Twilight Sparkle, my most faithful student, I am pleased you decided to accept my invitation.” Her tone was almost melodic, and was sweeter than all the sweets in Sugarcube Corner. One could get diabetes if they listened to her talk too often, and if that was the case, Twilight should be dead from the amount of coma inducing ear-candy Celestia stuffed her with. Needless to say, it made Twilight sick just hearing it; the overly nice tone turned her stomach in knots, mostly because Twilight knew what would come shortly after these pleasantries.

“You know I couldn’t refuse, even if I wanted to...” the defeated unicorn muttered, barely audible. She opened her eyes, but kept them firmly glued to the ugly golden carpet beneath her; She didn’t want to see the princess, not now, not ever. Twilight miserably walked towards her mentor’s voice, her body working slowly, and very purposefully now. She had to actually focus on moving every muscle, or else she wouldn’t move at all. If she didn’t move, it would be a great insult to the princess—besides, Twilight had already tried that before, and it did not work out.

Twilight followed her teacher to her bedroom. For the entirety of the short trip, she refused to even glance up, finding much comfort in what the floor had to offer—mostly the lack of a white alicorn looming over her. Plus it didn’t matter if she looked up, or followed the princess, she knew the way there like the back of her hoof—straight out of the foyer, take the first left, and all the way down the hall. Twilight had plenty of lessons in the princess’s private wing when she was just a filly, so she knew the layout almost as well as Celestia herself. The bedroom though, that was only for Celestia’s “special lessons”.

She heard the door open ahead of her. Her body froze for a moment before taking that step into Celestia’s bedroom. The thought of one last chance at freedom almost seemed too sweet to pass up, but her fantasy was interrupted by a gentle siren’s call from beyond the doorway. “Twilight, aren’t you coming?” Twilight could only close her eyes, yelling at herself mentally to run. But she instead took the last step into her awaiting doom, unable to resist the sweet, motherly tone of her mentor.

As the soft click of the door closing behind her hit her ears, Twilight felt yet another piece of her soul die, her heart fell further in her chest, and that self loathing grew just a bit stronger. Reluctantly, she lifted her head, finally working up the nerve to look at the princess. The large alicorn was on her unnecessarily large circular bed. She lay on her side, looking at Twilight with half closed, but undoubtedly smug eyes. A seductively sweet smile rested on her lips, accented by a slow lick across them with her tongue. Over her long, slender legs she wore black stockings accompanied by a matching garter belt. The set accentuated her ample flank, framing it for Twilight to admire like a piece of artwork. Her billowing mane gave a picturesque backdrop to the lust-driven princess.

The whole scene left Twilight with a lot to take in. As she absorbed the image of her awaiting teacher, she was silently beckoned with one last bat of the eyes. That subtle invitation made her cheeks flare with a burning heat. Twilight’s eyes quickly found themselves looking at the floor again. This time she was too embarrassed to even look at Celestia. The anger, and self-loathing were replaced by a growing need, and a meek willingness to comply. With its dying breath, her self-hatred cursed Twilight for blindly giving in once more before falling silent. Deep down, she knew appeasement wasn’t the right choice, but her hooves moved on their own. A small sniffle escaped from her as she drew towards the bed. Her small journey across the room left her heart with an empty feeling that Twilight vaguely recognized as the last piece of her soul dying off for the day. Tomorrow she would have to start anew by repressing today’s events, at least until the next summons came.

“Very good, Twilight. You were hesitating for a moment, but I see you’re ready for your lesson now.” The soft encouragement from the princess elicited a small groan from Twilight. She lay herself on the bed, with a small buffer between herself and her teacher. Once again, Twilight found herself unable to look at Celestia. This time she feared she might just start crying if their eyes met.

If the princess noticed Twilight’s pain, she didn’t care. Celestia readjusted herself next to her faithful student, pressing her side to Twilight’s. Her prey shirked her advance, by scooting away slightly. In turn, she cut off her escape by placing an enormous wing over the unicorn’s smaller body. She finally had Twilight right where she wanted her. With a victorious smile, she scooped up her prize with her majestic wing, pulling her in close, and keeping her there. A soft whimper could be heard from the defeated unicorn as she was forced to her mentor’s side, no matter how much she fought against it. Celestia lowered her muzzle down to Twilight to truly claim her prize she so rightfully won. With one last show of resistance Twilight turned her head away, evading Celestia’s awaiting lips.

“There’s a difference between coy, and being rude, Twilight.” She placed a hoof on the unicorn’s cheek, forcing her to submit. She placed her lips on the smaller pony’s, causing Twilight to go limp in her hoof. All resistance faded, leaving her student’s mouth open to plundering. Her tongue pushed past Twilight’s lips, invading the vulnerable orifice. Another pained whimper came from Twilight as Celestia explored the unicorn.

Twilight’s tongue welcomed its usual visitor, by instinctively dancing with it. Her tongue rolled across Celestia’s, tasting her teacher’s unique flavor, savoring it. She couldn’t even fight back anymore. This was part of Celestia’s spell, one she cast on Twilight long ago. It wasn’t magical in any sense, it was all psychological. With the years of forcing Twilight to submit to her, she had slowly sapped the unicorns will to fight back. Before she knew it, she had become Celestia’s toy, and her body had grown to enjoy the pleasures being her toy brought.

Twilight couldn’t help but force her eyes closed, hating that she was giving in to her mentor once more. Her mind was utterly revolted by how weak-willed her body was. It betrayed her by relishing in Celestia’s advances. A deep warm sensation swelled in her chest, filling the emptiness from earlier. The warmth seeped out, through her legs, her back, up her neck, until it engulfed her entire being. As her body heated, her loins began to ache with desire. This was the second part of Celestia’s spell, a craving she instilled into Twilight at a young age. This was the reason she always came back, and never tried to flee. That craving disgusted Twilight more than anything. She hated her tongue for playing with Celestia’s, she hated her legs for not getting her out of here, but mostly she hated herself for not standing up to her. Being held there, forced to kiss her mentor, and loving every minute of it, it all made her feel like a cheap whore.

As Celestia pulled away from Twilight, a string of their shared saliva hung between the two ponies. After a moment it snapped under its own weight. The princess smiled down at her toy, content to see her squirm under wing. The fact that she refused to open her eyes only succeeded in exciting the alicorn more. Gently she pushed Twilight onto her back, leaving the defenseless unicorn fully exposed to Celestia’s assaults. She placed her elegant hoof on Twilight’s chin, before tracing a line with it down her neck. She rolled it across Twilight’s cute, exposed chest, causing her to shiver ever so slightly under her mentor’s soft touch. Her toy let out an adorable gasp as she continued running her hoof across her body. Finally, she paused just above her student’s breasts, a sly grin coming across her face.

The unicorn reluctantly opened her eyes after noticing her mentor had stopped. First she noticed the grin on her teacher’s face, that was usually not a good sign. Next her eyes found that Celestia’s horn was glowing, and that was never a good sign. Before she could react in any way, even so much as a yelp, she was hoisted into the air. Her forelegs were forced behind her back, and bound tightly together with magic. Her vision suddenly went dark as a blindfold found its way over her eyes. The ring of a small teasing chuckle could be heard from Celestia. Twilight groaned as she was forced down, head first into the mattress. Magic made sure Twilight’s hind end stayed suspended in the air, giving Celestia an exquisite view of her marehood.

“No!” Twilight whined, as a rush of warm breath brushed against her swollen lower lips. Twilight tried to fight back with her own magic, hoping to break the hold Celestia had on her, but it wasn’t enough. The princess could move the sun across the sky; Twilight’s power couldn’t even compare to what Celestia could do. Though that thought cried out from the back of her mind, she still wasn’t deterred from trying. Wild, sporadic bursts of magic shot from the unicorn’s horn as she tried every spell she could think of to get loose, but nothing helped. She stayed firmly planted, not even the recoil from her spells budged her.

“Twilight, you should know better than to use magic like that,” the princess cooed into her ear softly. The sweet, gentle tone was undoubtedly condescending, and low blow to Twilight’s already beaten pride. She could overpower just about any unicorn in the world with her power, but compared to Celestia, she was an insect. That realization slowly sunk in, leaving Twilight with absolutely no hope. She had always took some solace in that if worse came to worse, she could have escaped by force, but now she knew that had always been a pipedream. A solemn tear slowly formed in Twilight’s eye, and was quickly absorbed by the blindfold.

“Please stop, Princess, I don’t want this...” she murmured. Her sentence was a broken mess, riddled with soft sobs as she pleaded to stop her humiliating torment at the hoof of her mentor. Finally Celestia placed a hoof on Twilight’s flank, causing the bound pony to gasp slightly. She knew what would soon follow. Her hind legs squirmed slightly in anticipation of the coming reward, though Twilight herself on the other hoof was not so excited. The wetness in her loins betrayed her. No matter how much Twilight’s mind told her she didn’t want it, her body screamed that she did.

“Oh Twilight, you always make this so much fun.” A familiar lust filled tone drifted from behind her. With a loud slap, a quick flash of pain came from her flank. Twilight only managed to yelp as the sting ran through her body, finding it to be just about the only thing she could do. She was so utterly helpless, and completely at her teacher’s mercy—or lack there of. Celestia’s hoof rubbed the spot she struck just a moment before, easing the pain she caused. As the pain subsided, the alicorn’s warm breath was the next thing Twilight felt against her soaking sex. She braced herself, knowing what would follow in a moment. Suddenly, her teacher’s muzzle dove deep into her awaiting marehood.

Twilight let out a sharp gasp as a shot of pleasure ravaged through her body, like a bolt of lightning. Her tongue lolled out of her mouth, as the ache in her loins was finally being sated. The intense bliss drowned out her thoughts, letting instinct take hold. she could feel her whole body going limp in Celestia’s magic as her teacher’s tongue wrecked utter havoc inside her. Each bolt of pleasure that shot through Twilight dulled her senses more, until she was completely dazed. The spell the princess had cast on her protégé all those years ago was now in full effect, Twilight was truly Celestia’s toy now.

Carefully she released the spell suspending the unicorn in the air, taking her in her forelegs as gravity once again took hold. With Twilight firmly in her grasp, she reclined back onto the bed, resting her now docile toy on top of her. That picturesque lavender flank in front of her was utterly irresistible to Celestia. Her hooves found their way on top of their perfectly shaped form before she even told them to move. They stoked her precious student’s beautiful flank once more, eliciting a small moan from the dazed unicorn. Celestia laughed slightly at how quickly Twilight would turn into a useless pile of putty for her beloved teacher with just a little bit of teasing.

Twilight felt like a dense fog had rolled in over her mental landscape leaving her unable to even think. All she knew was her hind legs were shaking slightly from the intense pleasure shooting through her body, and her flank felt wonderfully relaxed. Her whole body felt so good that that she could only nuzzle her face into the softness below her, smearing some drool into it. This softness below her smelled so nice, so familiar, like a beautiful field on a spring day. In fact, it smelled just like Cele—suddenly Twilight realized it was Celestia she was smearing her drool into. The fog in her mind receded slightly, letting Twilight focus.

“Stop! No, this isn’t what I want!” she cried out, flailing to get off her mentor. Her wish came true, as she was quickly tossed off her lovely alicorn pillow she was so at home on a moment ago, landing across the bed. As soon as she hit, Twilight tried to get on her hooves, but found it impossible. Her legs were like jelly, and her body was too upset at her for interrupting its orgasmic bliss to listen. Suddenly her blindfold came off, letting her see once more. In that instant she realized she was in trouble. Her eyes meekly made their way to Celestia, seeing she was not amused by Twilight’s little fit. The alicorn’s horn was aglow once again, readying a spell.

“Am I going to have to hold you down with magic again?” her irritated mentor asked, levitating Twilight’s still limp body back over to her. Once face to face with her teacher, she responded by weakly shaking her head. Being hoisted into the air so easily only made Twilight feel even more helpless; she felt like a puppet on a string, dancing when Celestia said dance. “You almost kicked me, Twilight, so please don’t do that again.” Her stern tone reminded Twilight of their lessons when she was younger. Suddenly she felt not only like a puppet, but now like a little filly again. She was no longer Twilight Sparkle, personal protégé to the princess, and Element of Magic, she was Lil’ Twily, personal entertainment and fuck toy to the princess, and Element of Lust.

“For your little outburst, I believe you should be the one to pleasure me.” Twilight tried to make herself as small as possible, feeling too ashamed to even look her mentor in the eyes. She hated this feeling of being so powerless, but her body tingled with a strange excitement as she was lowered down to Celestia’s nethers. Sick, twisted, depraved, all those words came to mind when Twilight realized her body enjoyed this sort of treatment. When she looked back up, she was met with the lovely sight of Celestia’s drooling marehood. The feminine musk coming from her soaking sex filled the air, and when Twilight got a whiff, her whole body shuddered at how absolutely wonderful it smelled. As the familiar smell filled her lungs, the mental fog Twilight pushed back a moment ago was rolling back in, dulling her sense of reason once more.

Without much ado, she buried herself in her teacher’s matured slit. A gush of feminine juices poured into her mouth, giving the unicorn a familiar sweet flavor to savor as her tongue ran over every inch of her master’s sex. The folds before her were no mystery, and had been ingrained into her as much as magical theory. She ran her tongue from the bottom of her teacher’s sopping slit, up to her swollen button, gathering the oozing love-juice in her mouth. As her tongue traced up to her mentor’s clit, she circled around the aroused flesh, teasing it for a moment. A strong hoof suddenly pressed on the back of Twilight’s head, telling her to stop teasing. Twilight got the message, closing her lips around the sensitive flesh, and suckling gently.

Celestia let out a sharp gasp as a dose of ecstasy ran through her. Her hoof went from pushing Twilight into her, to stroking her mane as a reward for a job well done. She had groomed her toy into the perfect pony to pleasure her, and Twilight exceeded expectations. Twilight’s vicious sucking at her swollen clit caused Celestia’s head to finally fall back onto the pillowy sheets below, utterly absorbed in bliss. Her own hoof, moved from her student, to her own chest. She couldn’t stop it from rubbing all over her body, trying to chase the pleasure running through her.

“Oh Twilight, you’re always so good at this,” she remarked, sparking her horn. A golden aura appeared behind Twilight‘s rump, shifting into a vaguely phallic shape. The golden phallus gently brushed at Twilight’s quivering sex, drawing her attention for a second. With a desperate shake of her hips, she moved her tail to the side, giving the magical shape access to her aching marehood. Once clear, it quickly thrust itself deep into the lust-driven pony’s slit, eliciting a strong moan from the unicorn.

As a thanks to her teacher, Twilight, shifted from sucking her clit, and started licking her trembling lips once more. Her horn lit up, causing a vibrant purple aura to engulf the princess’s lonesome swollen clit. The magical aura began vibrating, sending an endless wave of pure ecstasy through the alicorn. As her mentor’s legs flexed with raw power around her, Twilight braced herself. Suddenly she was trapped between the two powerhouses, forcing her muzzle deep into her mentor’s loins, as the alicorn’s powerful legs closed around her head. Celestia’s vice like grip squeezed on Twilight, keeping her in place; it was tight, but not unbearable for the unicorn.

Both ponies gasped in ecstasy as their magic intensified, thus heightening the orgasmic bliss each other felt. Celestia’s magic grew brighter, making the her phallic projection bigger inside Twilight. The small pony whimpered slightly as the growing shaft thrust into her abused marehood. Each thrust rippled a mixture of pain and pleasure into the young unicorn, sending shockwaves through her. Her horn brightened between her mentor‘s legs, casting a bright purple glow on her white fur. The vibrations she felt sent the monarch’s head back, slamming into the bed below.

In an instant both ponies cried out, their voices echoing through the room as their climax peaked. Celestia’s legs squeezed hard against Twilight, forcing her muzzle deeper still into the larger pony’s quivering sex. Celestia’s legs, her inner walls, everything was sent into spasms around Twilight. Gushes of feminine juices soaked her face, almost suffocating her inside her teacher’s death grip. Though she didn’t notice too much, her senses were dulled from her own climatic bliss. Twilight’s body felt numb, as pure unbridled pleasure ravaged through her body. Her horn grew brighter, and brighter, until it finally stopped. In that instant her whole body fell limp, resting against her teacher’s groin, completely spent. The magic that had been ravaging her nethers faded, finally letting the exposed slit close.

Celestia hoisted Twilight back on top of her, bringing the unicorn face to face with her once more. Gently she pressed her lips to Twilight’s. The limp, beaten pony put up no resistance against her mentor’s invasion, letting Celestia have her way with her mouth. Her tongue pushed inside, playing with Twilight’s for a moment. The strange taste of Twilight, mixed with her own juices seemed a bit strange, but it wasn‘t something she had never tasted before. After she stole her kiss, she released Twilight from her magic, letting the exhausted unicorn rest on her chest once more. Her closed eyes, and look of complete peace prompted Celestia to stroke her little lover’s mane once more. With a small smile, she squeezed her in her forelegs, gentle, but firmly, holding her as close as she could. Finally she wrapped her majestic wings around her, keeping Twilight to herself for a moment. When she looked down, she noticed her student was fast asleep, snoring ever so softly.

“I love you so much, Twilight. You can never be with anyone else but me, ” she remarked, kissing her faithful student on the forehead.

When Twilight awoke, the first thing she noticed was Celestia was not in the bed with her, the second was that she was across the room. The alicorn was staring out the window, while brushing her mane after a long day. The sun was already set, the stars and moon already in their place. The world was filled with the pale glow of moonlight, save for Celestia’s bedroom. A fire crackled softly in the fireplace, giving a warm glow to the white walls of the castle. The gold seemed much less gaudy at night, taking on an orange tinge from the fire. In the dim lighting, it looked more aged, more approachable, and less nauseatingly overbearing. Twilight had never been in this wing at such a late hour. She realized it wasn’t so bad considering this is when Celestia saw it the most, when in its nighttime beauty. She glanced down at the bed, remembering what had transpired a few hours ago on its still soiled sheets. She let out a small sigh, as her self-loathing crept back into her heart.

“Why did I let this happen again?” she asked herself in a soft whisper, crawling to the edge of the bed. Looking over at her distracted mentor, she decided this would be the perfect time to leave. Slowly she tiphoofed down off thedowny sheets, trying her best not to alert the princess. This was her chance to make her escape. She could be out of the wing before Celestia even knew she was gone, out of the castle before she could do anything about it, and be on a train home before anypony caught up to her. All she would have to do is write a small apology letter, telling her she had to take care of something back in ponyville. It was the perfect plan. As Twilight moved her last leg off the bed, she lost her balance, making her slam her hoof on the ground to stop from falling over. The loud clop seemed to echoed in the room, making more noise than a sonic rainboom. She glared down at her hoof, cursing her lack of grace.

When she looked up, Celestia stood in front of her, cutting off her only escape. The large, imposing figure of the alicorn caused Twilight to shake slightly, as she made herself as small as possible. She knew she was caught. The thought of looking into Celestia’s eyes, and seeing her discontent from Twilight trying to run out on her sent a chill down her spine. All she wanted to do was go home. She was tired, dirty, reeked of Celestia, and she had been thoroughly humiliated, she had enough for one day. But now she was caught trying to flee, how was she going to explain this one?

“Did you plan on leaving so soon? Without so much as a goodbye?” Disappointment sat heavily in her voice, with a small touch of sadness. The princess sounded like Twilight really hurt her feelings, making her feel even worse than she already did.

“I didn’t...want to disturb you...” she lied. Her voice was small, and timid, making Fluttershy look boisterous by comparison. The trapped pony still avoided looking Celestia in the eyes. She thought she might try by burying her gaze deep in the fireplace, hoping the dancing flame would assist her in her plight. After a moment, it became abundantly clear that it would not.

The princess sighed, disappointment filling her eyes. “You have been avoiding me all day. At first your little game was cute, and I played along, but now it’s starting to worry me.” She sat down side by side with her student. When Twilight winced from Celestia brushing against her, she realized something was truly wrong. Twilight had never had a problem with her mentor’s touch before. “Twilight, what’s wrong?” she asked.

“Nothing...” she said plainly, still staring deep into the fire across the room.

“It’s not nothing, tell me.” Celestia continued to probe. Twilight broke her staring contest with the fire, finally glancing up at her mentor. She fought hard to hold the tears in. She wanted to tell her everything, but Twilight wasn’t strong enough. She wanted to tell her how it was her fault Twilight couldn’t be in a healthy relationship, she wanted to tell her it was her fault Twilight hated herself, she wanted to tell her that it was her fault Twilight had no self-esteem, she wanted to tell her it was her fault she gets off on being abused—but she didn’t. Twilight feared Celestia’s wrath more than anything, and telling her would certainly draw it. So she did what came best to her, and hid those feelings deep inside. She locked them in a small mental box, and buried them deep in her mental attic, to dig out and hate herself over once she was home. She could sit up all night, on her bed, crying until she couldn’t cry anymore about how weak and pathetic she was, and how she let Celestia take advantage of her once again. Ending when she finally fell asleep after being too exhausted to even think. And when morning came she would put these memories back in her mental box, and bury it until the next time.

She put on a fake smile, and gave her teacher a reassuring hug. Lil’Twily made her grand appearance again, putting on a fake show for the princess. A royal puppet that shirked any confrontation, and let the princess live blissfully unaware of how her prized student truly felt about their relationship. “It really is nothing, Princess. I just...need to use the restroom.” Twilight lied one final time, feeling a still lingering piece of her soul die off. Her heart sank deep in her chest, leaving a tangible pain digging at her. Utter disgust for a pathetic unicorn that couldn’t even tell the pony who just raped her how she felt filled her mind. Strangely, she was comfortable with these feelings. Twilight felt them every time her special lessons ended, and she had come to know them quite well—like old friends.

Celestia raised a skeptical eyebrow to her student. After a thousand years, she knew when a pony was lying to her. However, she also knew Twilight enough to know when she wouldn’t get a straight answer from her. Reluctantly, she put on a fake smile too, though hers was much more practiced. She wrapped a foreleg and a wing around her beloved student, returning her hug. The two shared a fake moment, wearing fake smiles, in a fake hug, hiding what they didn‘t want to tell each other.

After they pulled away from one another, Celestia raised Twilight’s chin with her hoof. Her lips met the smaller pony’s for a quick kiss, but something wasn’t quite right. She noticed her student squeezing her eyes closed, and holding back a pained expression. She wasn’t enjoying this at all. It broke Celestia’s heart to see Twilight so uncomfortable with her show of affection, but begrudgingly, she chose to ignore it.

A picture was forming as to what Twilight was hiding from her, but Celestia wasn’t too sure if she was ready to admit it to herself. Besides, Twilight would tell her when she was ready to talk about it. And just maybe when that time came, she would have the courage to apologize to Twilight for everything she had done. Hopefully Twilight would have it in her heart to forgive her teacher for being so selfish, and possessive. And by the slightest chance, just maybe they could salvage their relationship. Which relationship that was would be up to Twilight. Be it the surrogate mother–daughter relationship that formed between them, the teacher–student Relationship Celestia took on, the friendship they forged together, or the sexual relationship she forced upon Twilight. Only time would tell.

But for now Celesita bid farewell to her faithful protégé. She realized things wouldn’t remain this way for long as she watched Twilight leave. The feeling that she was on the cusp of losing something precious to her once again dug at her heart; it felt much like when she lost her sister all those years ago to Nightmare Moon. With her bedroom door closing, she wanted to call out, she wanted to stop Twilight, and tell her she was sorry. She wanted to beg her student to forgive her despicable acts—but she didn’t. Asking for forgiveness now would only anger Twilight, driving her away, and that scared Celestia more than anything. So she did what came best, and buried that fear inside her. She locked it in a little box to dig out on days when Twilight was with her. She would relieve the pent-up fear on her student, controlling her, dominating her, making her into the perfect soul mate. A pony who would never leave her side. And when Twilight would go home, she would bury that fear again, too ashamed to talk it over with her beloved student, too ashamed of herself to even apologize for the pain she caused, too ashamed to admit she was wrong, so it’s left unsaid.

Author's Note

So this started as an "I want to do a Celestia x Twilight" fic, and after writing the first paragraph it took on a life of its own. A life full of walls upon walls of text, way too in-depth descriptions, and a tear-jerker ending. I hope you all enjoyed.