The truth about my darkness

Rainbow Dash. The one and only Rainbow Dash were beating her wings so hard and rapidly, that they started cramping. Every muscle in her body screamed at her to slow down. But she wouldn't. She couldn't. She had to make it back, back to safty, back to the place where no pony would see her. Her mind was a mess, Litterly. Thoughts raced by.

Breathe in.

'Why?! Why did i say that... Argh! Stupid... Stupid, stupid STUPID! And why did i say yes? That makes it even worse! I could say something like... "No, sorry i dont like camping." But no... Instead i say yes...'

Breathe out.

'I could always fake being sick... No... that wont work. Fluttershy notices directly if im faking it. How about... How about i visit some.. fake freinds. Yeah... That could... Nope. That wont work either.

Breathe in.

I could run away. That might work. Oh right... Pinkie... Ehh.... Come on Rainbow! Think! I could... I could fake a disaster so we have to save Equestria! Oh, who am i kidding! I can't escape it can i? Hmm... Maybe...

Breathe out.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

'Hmm... Huh. I never painted my house so it would look like a red barn. Wait a minute. A RED BARN!?'

Gasp.

Crash.

Scream.

"What in tarnation!?"

'Ufcourse.'

Applejack walked to the hole that had appeared in the ground from nowhere. She trotted carefully to the hole that where mere inches from her familys home. What she saw was not a pleasant sight.

Blood.

Feathers.

Rainbows.

In the pit, a bloodstained Rainbow Dash layed flat on her belly.

"Holy pony eating macaroni! Rainbow are you okay!?" Applejack asked instinctively.  Is that a word?

"Im fine. Its just bruises. Nothing to worry about." She said as she stood up. There where cuts all over Rainbows brutaly beaten body. Most of them was just scratches, but atleast 5 of them were deep.

"Rainbow, ya need help with those cuts. Some of em looks deep." Applejack looked at a perticular cut that went straight over Rainbow's right wing. She was sure that it would leave a scar, another one went over her nose and yet another on her hind leg.

Rainbow looked at Applejack, almost admitting that she needed help when she remembered one of her mothers last phrases.

"Stay strong. Stay strong for me, for you and for your father"

She quickly built up the barrier again.

"Don't worry Applejack! Remember that you are talking to THE Rainbow Dash!?" Rainbow opened up her wings and flapped them to start hoovering above Applejack. After a second or two, she fell too the ground grunting in pain. Applejack ran over to Rainbow and helped her to get up on her hooves again.

"You need help. Now." Applejack said deteminated.

"Fiine..."

Applejack fixed the last bandage around Rainbows wing.

"Y'all were very lucky that Ah was around. And ya were extreamly lucky that those wounds could be fixed here. Now Ah'm just wonderin'.... How did'ya get such a horrible crash? Ya usually only get bruises." Applejack looked Rainbow in her eyes, she avoided her gaze. Rainbow sighed deeply, but didn't respond.

"C'mon Rainbow... whats wrong?"

Rainbow shut her eyes hard, but still no reply.

"Rainbow... Ya know that Ah' wont think anything diffrent of y'all even if you tell me something horrifyin'. Ah' will always be there. And the other gals too. Now please Rainbow, whats wrong?" Rainbow opened her eyes and looked into Applejack's emerald green eyes. They screamed affection. Their faces where only a inch appart. After a few seconds, Rainbow finally said something, but it wasn't the thing Applejack hoped for.

"I... I-I can't tell you. Sorry Applejack."

And with that, Rainbow walked away. She walked and walked. Her destination was clear. Hill 364. The place of her mothers funeral. It was also the place where she and her mother first had met after 12 years. It was the place where she had forgiven her long lost mother, and it was also the place where she and her mother had spent so much time at. A tree had grown on the top and it was allready 2.5 meters tall. Underneath the tree, a stone layed peacefully in the ground. The stone in the ground had a poem on it.

'A pegasus without wings is shameful for its kind,

Thats why its wings it must find.

The very place you stand on is the last place this pegasus took off,

Her destination unknown and her soul strong and tough.

May she arrive in peace to her last resting place,

As she will soar to find her rest in the empty space.

Rest in peace FireFly,

Your memory will never die.

Rainbow sat down infront off the stone. She had read the poem so many times now. After her mothers funeral here, her freinds were kind enough to pick a new spot for their weekly picnic. She still remembered the picnic they had earlier today... she remembered it all.

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"I have the two following weeks off, so i dont have any work to do. Im all free." Rainbow layed on the red and white blanket as she spoke. Her sunglasses covering her eyes.

"Well... Applebukin' season just ended... So Ah' am free too."

"And i dont have any orders for any new dresses."

"And my studies have slowed down a bit..."

Twilight placed a hoof under her chin. Pinkie grabbed a flashlight and placed it over Twilights head just as she got an idea.

"I got an idea! How about we all go and do a little camping trip?"

Rainbow's eyes went wide as dinner plates in shock. Luckily, her sunglasses covered it.

"That sound like a marvelous idea! The last time i went camping it was actually pretty delightful!"

"I don't know... What if Angel Bunny gets scared when im gone?"

"Belive me Fluttershy, he'll be just dandy."

"Well then, should we do a camping trip?" Twilight asked.

Everypony nodded except Rainbow Dash as she still were in shock.

"What do you think Dashie?" Pinkie asked.

Rainbow decided to stick to her image. "I... Uh... Sure! But where should we go?"

"Hmm... Roseluck told me about this forest called Manestream Forest. Its just outside Manehatten. Its supposed to be a really good camping spot." Pinkie said.

"That sounds perfect Pinkie! We'll go and camp in Manestream forest! How about... Tomorrow? Should we meet at the trainstation tomorrow morning?"

"That sounds perfect."

"Excellent."

"Ok... Sure... ehm..."

"Okie-dokie-lokie!"

"How about you Rainbow?“ Twilight asked.

"Yeah... sure. Why not?"

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"I want them to go away! Mom, can you please make these stupid dreams go away!? Just for a week?" Rainbow asked out into the sky.

No response.

"Tomorrow.... Its all over... Then they will find out and ask me why? and What?.  They will find out that im haunted when its dark and i only see black in the never ending void ruled by Sithis... they will find out The truth about my darkness..."