Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better take things as they come along with patience and equanimity.
Love is always a very beautiful relation in the world. Without love our life is empty. Only a hallow shell you try not to look back on. You try to run from it, but it keeps bringing you back making relived the pain.
Your true love is always life in your heart. No matter how much you try to forget, it never goes from your heart. It's hard to forget some pony who gave you so much to remember. The pain is not on the day of missing our dear ones. The pain is really when you live without them & with their presence in your mind.
My tears are like anchors that sink my heart to the depths of the deepest oceans. A promise means everything but once it is broken, sorry means nothing. You broke your promise Rainbow,a promise that will be together until the day we die. But you left me, left me to die alone cry alone,made me not none the meaning of love anymore.
I want to wrap you up,want to kiss your lips, i want To make you feel wanted.. i want to call you mine, i want to hold your hoof forever, and never let you forget it. But I can't do those things anymore. My heart sanked with you that day, the day you broke your promise.
With a just a leap off of a cliff, I drop into the cold dark river, the very water that stole you away from me.
I can feel my lungs squeeze smaller by the pressure; I choke and gag on nothing. My throat burning with trapped air and my ears pounding with my heart as it beats against my chest at a rapid tempo, while all I hear is the rumble of the clear liquid that has surrounded me. I can take no more, I open my mouth to scream, but all that comes out is a queue of bubbles and I realize I have little time left. I can’t tell down from up, which is death and which, survival. I sense more than feel the sudden rush of cold water flowing to the back of my throat. I feel nothing but relief, as the bindings of the world slowly slip from my conscious. The grumble of the river slowly fades into silence, and ever so slowly sight and consciousness start to slip away as I’m enveloped by darkness.
When I am without her, the sun doesn’t shine as brightly. When I am without her, the clouds are dark and foreboding. When I am without her, the birds don’t sing as sweetly. But that all about to changed, Here I come Rainbow.
Before Twilight fell unconscious deep in the river a grin appear on her face. She was going to see her lover, the missing piece of her heart, she was going to be with Rainbow again. Her suffering finally coming to a halt the days spent without her. She was going to drown herself for Rainbow.
Hours later,
Twilight woke up coughing up water from her lungs trying to regain her breath. She wasn't in the river anymore nor drowning. She was laying on something soft that was brushing against her fur. A bright light blinded her eyes making hard to see where she was. “Am I.. Am I dead?”
“Ha! If you was dead, I wouldn't be talking to you. Twilight flip on her back to see who she heard. Well your kinda dead, For now.” the voice sounded in the air. she looked to the left and right but no pony was there. “As for me. A cyan peagus appeared in front of Twilight staring down on her grinning. I'm permanently dead”
Twilight felt like she almost had a heart attack because what she saw. Standing in front of her was, her dead lover Rainbow dash. The one who left her alone days ago the one who drowned. Without hesited Twilight jump in for a hug but to no avail she went through Rainbow's body. “Why..why I can't touched you.”
Rainbow grin turn to a frown. “Because you''re not fully dead. She lay down on the grass next to Twilight. So hows it hanging at pony ville.”
Her eyes started to water on the urge of crying. “HOWS IT HANGING!... HOWS IT HANGING!
“Oh boy here we go.”
“I'm a wreck without you. Twilight fell to her hanuches and let the tears come out full force. You're broke your promise Rainbow! She wipe the tears from her eyes but was quickly replaced but new ones. “YOU BROKE IT!”
“Twilight, I'm sorry. Rainbow felt tears started to form but quickly vanished in her eyes and anger started boiling up inside her. I DIDN'T LEAVE YOU ON PURPOSE! She took a couple deep breaths to bring her anger down. “You know I wouldn't leave you, I'll do anything lived up to that promised, I made. But you're not dead, the only way we can be together is to let yourself drown.”
“But I did or I wouldn't be here.”
“No something is keeping your alive, something is fighting to keep you alive. Your not letting go or It's something keeping you from drowning. What's ever doing it is keeping you from being with me.”
Twilight looked around where she was. “Where are we?”
“We're in the lands of peace. Its where the dead lived after they die.”
Twilight was about to ask another question when the bright light blinded her again an agonizing pain started shoting through her head
pain, and everything went black. Hours she finally regain conscious. But She wasn't with Rainbow anymore or she couldn't move. All she heard was a beeping sound coming from her right.
Drowned part 2: What did you do
I felt so rejected, alone and sad.
like an abandoned puppy left to wander a street.
it was then that I realized, that my life was real bad without you. Like a Flower, but without the blooms.
so I disowned every challenge I happened to meet.
A special place for you and me.
An undying bond to guide us free.
Loneliness blocking the day.
Our Love lighting the way.
Your gentle touch.
Your smiling face.
You telling me it's going to be alright.
There is no corner only if you let me drowned I'll be able to see it. Hours, days, Weeks, it didn't manner how long. Twilight couldn't see the light, Only darkness.
“Sorry for your lost darling,”
“Don't worry Twilight, she must been smiling where ever she is,”
“it must be hard losing some pony I'm very sorry Twilight,”
“Be strong my student you will lived through this,”
“Ah know how it feels losing some pony yer love, but you can't just killed yourself to be with them.”
TWILIGHT WAKE UP!
*gasped*
“Where am I?” Twilight question, as she prepare to get up a beep sounded. Wires were taped to her chest making it difficult to get up.
“Oh ms sparkle, your wake,” said Nurse red heart, checking the heart monitor. “Your pulse seems normal,”
“Need water,” she said breathlessly.
“Sure thing,” replied red heart, handing Twilight a glass of water.
Quickly drinking the water, Her throat no longer felt dry she were able to speak clearly. “Nurse red, am I in the hospital,” she asked.
Nurse red sat down on a chair next to the bed Twilight’s on,and shook her head. “No, You're in my house,” said Nurse red heart. Applejack, wouldn't made it if she brought you to the hospital.”
“Applejack, save me?”
She replied with a nod, “she burst in here dripping wet with you unconscious on her back,”
Applejack save me? Why she couldn't just let me drowned. Ending my suffering, and the pain. I was so close to Rainbow, but I couldn't touched her because I'm one thing shes not, Alive. I have to see her again. She said something were holding me back from fully drowning, but what and why? Whatever it is I'm going to find out. There so many questions she left unanswered, and I'm going to uncover them.
“Twilight, you OK dear?” Nurse said, shaking Twilight.
Twilight snapped of her train of thought, and saw she worried Red heart. “Yes, I'm OK just was thinking.”
“Of what?”
“of Rainbow,” she murmured, head hung low.
“Oh,” Red heart was expecting to hear something about Rainbow. I missed her too Twilight.”
“Yeah me too.” Twilight said, Applejack should of let me drown” Twilight were silenced with a slapped on the face from Red heart. Her eyes widen in shock, wh-why you do that”
“Don't you ever think of killing yourself again!” Red shouted, with tears now staining her face. I can't believed you would do something so selfish, and not think about your friends or family!”
Twilight felt ashamed. She hadn't thought about how her friends and family would react to another lost. “I'm sorry,” she murmured, tears streaming down onto her cheeks.
“Your sorry! Thats it, thats all you got to say! I'm sorry!” she shouted, her rage at maxim. “Did you stop to think someone else lost some pony huh! Did you!” no course you didn't instead you were acting like a whine little bitch who hadn't got her bottle!”
“I'm sorry OK!” she shouted, tears streaming down full force. “I loved her! And she just died leaving me to suffer with her memory, but I can see her again! I can see her if y'all let me drown! Red heart I can love her-,”
Red slapped Twilight once again silencing her.” TWILIGHT SHE'S DEAD YOU FUCKING Worth Less PIECE OF SHIT!” Shes lucky because she don't have to be near someone so worthless!”
An instant Twilight launched at Red heart knocking her on the floor along with the heart monitor. While choking spit falling out of her mouth like a rapid dog. “SHE WAS MY LIFE YOU SON OF BITCH!” Twilight shouted, then started banging Red heart head against the floor with every word she shouted. “and she's not dead! tell me was saving me worth it! huh did you get what you wanted! to see me suffer living a life without her! Did it turned you on! You sick twisted fuck! huh tell me! tell me!”,
“We loved you Twilight, but you're just a mindless stupid bitch without Rainbow,” Red said, with a smug smile her teeth painted red from the blood.
Seeing Her smile while insulting her dead lover. Twilight started beating Red heart striking in the face with every word she shouted. “I loved her! I loved her! I LOVED HER!” Twilight repeatedly shouted, lifting her hoof to deliver the final blow.
Twilight suddenly felt Her throat burned with trapped air and her ears were pounding. Her heart was beating against her chest threaten to rip out of her chest. Slowly losing consciousness she fell off of Red Heart, and into her blood. Heart monitor decreasing. Her eyes darted to where Red were. She was unconscious lining in a puddle of her own blood. Last thing Twilight heard was the faint sound of the deflating monitor.
*Gasped*
“Hey, sleepy head,” Opening her eyes she saw a cyan Pegasus standing over her grinning. “And if your going to ask this question no your not dead.” said, Rainbow.
Twilight eyes searched to see where she was. She were at the library,but something look familiar. There was a lavender unicorn standing on the steps just like she did,and a cyan Pegasus leaving the house. “Rainbow,what's going on?” Twilight question, walking inside the library.
“Twilight it's time for you to know the truth,” said Rainbow.
“Truth, what truth?” asked Twilight.
“The truth behind my death. Twilight’s eyes widen mention about her Rainbow's death. “It wasn't an accident, it was murder.”
