I was once a normal pony. Our world was once a wonderful place. It isn't anymore, at least not for me. My name is Pinkie Pie. Ponies say I'm crazy. I don't think I'm crazy. But maybe I am and this whole world is real and normal as I always thought it was until now.
I heard somepony talking yesterday. I don't know what he was saying but it was odd. Something about 'turning off the television'. I don't understand what that means. I thought nothing of it at first but its happened more and more often since I met Twilight. I don't understand. Occasionally I run into walls I can't even see. Every morning I hear the same song that I have never heard played by a pony. I've managed to hide it from my friends. They probably will think I am insane if I tell them about it. One time I heard the voice say 'change the channel' I don't know what it means either but after that the voice stopped for a few days. Am I going insane? Somepony help me.
It happened again. I think I know what it is. But the thing is, when I asked Fluttershy yesterday, she said she didn't know what I was talking about either, she's heard music coming from the air as well though. I'm scared. I heard banging coming from the wall I keep running into, the one nopony else sees. I just have to pretend everything is normal. Maybe it is and I am just insane like everypony says.
Something odd happened Derpy Hooves, a once beloved member of the community was talking to Dashie. I heard a loud outraged rant that I couldn't make out from the other side of this invisible wall. Then the very next day the whole scene repeated. Derpy sounded different, and since then she's afraid to speak.
I know what it is. Somepony is watching me, they always have been, and that's the worst part. Every part of my life that has ever happened, good or bad, somepony has been watching. I heard the voice talking about me being 'best pony' that means they've been watching all my friends and neighbors too. I need to warn them, but I can't. If I don't warn them I will be forced to keep this up forever or the world as I once knew it will be gone and my life will be miserable. If I do tell them then they will put me away forever and I won't be able to keep it up even if I wanted to. So either way, no matter what choice I make, everything will be over soon.
The voice said I'm not funny anymore, that I'm boring, that 'the show was going to be canceled' what does that mean? Is equestria just a show that this invisible thing watches for entertainment? That means . . . if I don't shape up and be funnier then everypony is going to disappear forever including me. That means I have to give the thing clues that I know. I will. I do what I must. I will make the thing happy, I will save my world.
I started the process today. I am talking to the thing behind the wall. It never speaks back. But I know it's there. I flatten myself up against the wall and smile. The other ponies think I am crazy. I tried to convince Twilight the wall was real, but she said maybe I need help. I tried to be really entertaining for it, causing a bunch of accidents around Ponyville and pretending to 'sense' them. Twilight got really angry at me. Everypony I talk to treats me like a freak. But the thing behind the wall says its funny when I 'break the fourth wall' I don't know what it means. But I think my plan is working. I just don't know how long I can keep this up.
Today was the day I convinced Twilight something might be up. She's still skeptical. I told her to try making a spell to break this mysterious wall and get to the bottom of this oddness. I am worried that if we break it, the thing will 'cancel' our world. I have to keep satisfying this invisible beast. It seems happy, that makes me happy. It likes Rainbow Dash a lot as well, it says her name all the time. I hope she can keep him happy. I can't live like this anymore. I need a break.
It said it missed Trixie today. I'm not good enough anymore for it. This creature is more than I can handle. I traveled to canterlot and looked for her, convinced her to put on a good show for it. She says she's heard it too. She listened to me. When she arrived she took my mouth away so I wouldn't give away that this was all staged. When it was all over I guess Trixie told Twilight what happened. She found me in this 'fourth wall' alone and restored my mouth. I think we won. At least for now it's happy.
I've been crying all day. My cutie mark may have been restored by Twilight but the thing in the wall said it's unhappy. It said it was angry. It said 'Twilicorn' needs to die. He means Twilight. He's going to kill her. I need to keep it amused long enough for Twilight to come up with something. I've managed to keep this going for almost three years. If it ends like this I don't know what I'm going to do.
Today was an odd one, after Twilight left to the alternate universe the voice vanished. It was like it was somewhere else. I haven't heard it in a while. Maybe I am imagining all of it. I wish I knew. It's been a few months now. But it will come back, it always comes back.
It came back. It likes Twilight now. I was free for a while though, a few months at least. It said some really weird things today. Something about "innuendos" I think. I don't know what it means. I was talking about frosting . . . does it mean frosting is the end of something or made of dough maybe? I don't get the joke. It was laughing like crazy though. I guess I did good. After I heard it the first time I just kept going with it. I think I amused it. That's good. I'll be safe for a while now I am sure.
It said the same thing to Twilight to when she drank the potion. I don't get it. Well. At least its happy now. I should be able to tone it down to the way things used to be now. I hope so at least.
It will get mad again soon, it always does and always will. It says it "leaves the fandom" but it always comes back the next day. Somepony get me out of this 'television', please, I don't want to live my life in fear anymore.
