Almost nothing left

Chapter 3

There was almost nothing left of Trixie Lulamoon.

It didn't make sense anymore, nothing did. Why was she still alive, why was Fate such a fickle thing? Why did the universe feel the need to torture her? What had she done to warrant this kind of punishment?

She wanted to remember. No... NEEDED to remember! But she couldn't, and that terrified her.

Her mind was broken, like the mind of a small child who watched their parents get murdered in front of them, and she couldn't help but want to commit suicide so that the pain would finally end.

But she couldn't bring herself to overload her magic, she just couldn't. And so she dealt with the pain the only way she knew how; by letting her mind take her where it wanted to go, hopefully to a happier place.

She heard somepony enter her room, but her mind was in another place.

"SNAP OUT OF IT!"

She looked up, her daydream shattering at the loud voice of Princess Luna. She scooted backwards, placing her hooves over her head in a protective fashion, and tried to make herself smaller.

"Was that really necessary Luna?"

She quickly looked over at Princess Celestia, she hadn't even known she was in the room.

Princess Luna snorted. "Yes sister, it was. You should know by now that simply nudging or talking to her normally won't work."

She slowly placed her hooves back on the bed, much calmer now that the loud noise was gone.

"But look at her!" Celestia pointed a hoof in her direction. "She's scared out of her wits, the Royal Canterlot Voice isn't good for her already damaged and rapidly deteriorating mental health."

The two sisters quickly began a full fledged argument, and the rapid increase of the volume of their voice's was once again beginning to freak her out.

"STOP IT!" She screamed as she smacked her hooves over her ears to block out the noise, cowering when the two princesses stopped shouting and looked at her. "J-just s-stop it..." She whispered.

There was almost nothing left of Trixie Lulamoon.

Only after the princesses had apologized and Luna had left the room did she let go of her ears.

Princess Celestia walked over to the side of her bed, and she had to force herself not to move to the edge of the bed away from the Princess.

"W-what d-do you w-want?" She hesitantly asked.

Princess Celestia looked down at the ground, a mixture of shame and guilt rising up in her chest. "Well... We came here to give you something that we hope helps restore your memory. My sister and I were told that they belonged to you."

Her eyes widened in surprise. And when Celestia brought over a matching cape and hat she felt joy bubble up inside her, and although she didn't know why she felt this way, she decided to follow her mind's lead.

She jumped off the bed towards the surprised Princess and gave her a hug, snuggling into Celestia's chest like a child does to its mother. She felt Celestia place the hat on her head and the cape on her back, her heartbeat slowly decreased as Celestia wrapped her wings around her comfortingly.

When Celestia finally got up and walked towards the door she heard a whimper escape her throat. She didn't want Celestia to leave, she made her feel calm, whereas Princess Luna made her want to look down in shame whenever she did something wrong, and the other ponies just made her feel angry.

"It's okay," She heard Celestia say. "I'll be back tomarrow, maybe even with another surprise."

She nodded, slightly reassured that Celestia wasn't abandoning her. "Okay..."

She took off her hat and cape and layed them out in front of her, studying the colorful stars and the jewel that completed her cape with great interest.

The bright green gemstone that completed the clasp was what interested her the most, and just looking at it made her head hurt. It had to be something significant from her past, it just had to!

She decided she would figure out what made this gem so important... After her head stopped hurting so much.

It was the next day, and Princess Celestia still had not arrived. She was getting impatient, and just a little bit worried.

What if they had truly abandoned her? What if they were going to just let her starve to death? W-what if they were going to torture her?

'No.' She told herself. 'She promised, she's just not here yet is all.'

But what if she was lying?

That realization sent shockwaves of anger throughout her body. She couldn't trust any of them. For all she knew, they were the cause of her amniesa.

She could only trust herself, only count on herself. Nopony else was dependable... Except maybe the one she loved.

She spent the next few minutes, or possibly hours since she no longer had a concept of time, pondering over who she could and could not trust. She decided that while she could trust the one she loved, and even Princess Luna, she could not trust Princess Celestia.

She looked up, snapped out of her thoughts, when she heard the door to her room beginning to open.

She was expecting Princess Celestia to walk through the door, but what she got instead was so much better.

A wide smile gripped her face, and she couldn't help but jump with joy. There, standing directly in front of her... Was the unicorn she loved.