I was sitting on Twi's bed, looking out through the window, looking down at the town, like I did earlier.
What I saw through that window, was pain and suffering, destroyed things everywhere. I closed my eyes, unable to take in sight anymore.
And, what made it worse, was that I was the one that had done it.
I transformed into this, this monster, a beast that destroyed most of the town. All because I wanted things, I caused harm to everyone, and I almost killed the ones I loved.
When I was that beast. Everything just looked so shiny, that I needed to have it all, no matter the cause. But part of me was still there, I could still feel things, I could hear things, I could feel the suffering I was creating. But I didn't care; I just wanted things I didn't need.
But the sad thing about it is that wasn't even the worst part, the worst part was after. At least for me anyways.
My friends...I mean Twilight’s friends, they were understanding at first. Aside from the surprising little scolding from Twi, and a couple of bad comments about my actions.
Though what was the worst, was everyone else. I was forced to go home, walk down those streets, the ones minutes ago, I was that monster, destroying everything. Now, I'm a puny baby dragon, walking in shame.
Everypony I walked by, would give me this cold, hatred stare, some would even call me something horrible, and others would push me down to the ground, and I deserved it all.
Twilight and the others were too busy to notice all this, as they were helping rebuild the town.
I should have been helping, and I should have been in jail. But since I'm a baby dragon, I'm unable to stand trial. But I am forced to live now in the shadows, stay locked away in that tree.
Though I wasn't sure if jail would be better, never having to show my face again.
All I got was to stay out of everyone way, and even Celestia herself, the one pony I most view as a mother, told everyone that I was dangerous, that no one was allowed to give me stuff anymore.
Though my thinking was cut off, as my face once again met the ground. As I heard their voices once more.
These things they were saying, it hurt. Even Rainbow Dash said bad things about me when I was a monster. Though it didn't hurt as much, as I know already she hates me, to begin with.
I Wouldn’t be surprised if they all hated me. But with all things being said, I could help but to think.
Maybe I'm not wanted here.
What if I was never wanted here, what if I was just everyone problem? That drake that no one likes, and this monster act, just put the final nail in the coffin for everyone to hate me.
At least then I reached the tree house. Where I could be where I am now, just thinking, just being able to be alone with my thoughts.
But a thought that came to mind the most was that did they hate me? I started thinking more.
Thinking about all their adventures, and how I'm left behind. All the times that they sing and have fun, only for me to be left behind.
But then it makes sense, they all do hate me, all the stuff that they did.
They left me out when they went to Cloudsdale when Twi and I had a small fight on her birthday; she just left me home alone while she went out. They even almost killed me, a cold-blooded reptile, being surprising dropped into cold water, feeling death nearby, scared out of my mind. But then, I see them; I see them laughing at me falling around, as they just walked away, not a care in the world.
This gave me, anger. How was I so blind not to see it before? They never liked me, so much that they tried to kill me.
After all, I did?! I was the one that defeated Discord, I was the one who took Twi fears seriously. I was the one left behind all those times, just cleaning up, only for it to be messy again the next day. All for a mare who stopped giving a buck to me. I'm going to kill...
No, I'm going to do nothing, I now clearly see the truth. And, if I'm not wanted here, then I shall do what they wanted so much, I'll leave.
I finally open my eyes once more, as my mind is finally clear, as I make my way off the bed, and out to the stairs.
I don't take anything with me, as I don't need or want anything anymore.
When I finally make it downstairs, I see Twilight, sleeping peacefully over a book.
Though as much as I didn't want to, the sight brought a smile to my face. As I grabbed a nearby blanket, and cast it over her sleeping form.
She snuggles more into it, as I smile more. Though the reasons for running away come back to mind.
I make my way to the table, with a parchment already on it, I dink my pen into the ink, as I write what I found out on it, as well as my goodbyes to everyone. As I sign it with my name, Spike the dragon.
That is, if they care enough even to read it.
With it finished, I roll it up, ready to be seen by others.
I think where to run to, I can't go to Cantorlot, as my moth- Celestia, would be sure to send me back, she would take their side rather than mine. I know she stopped caring about me as soon as she stopped responding to my scrolls. I doubt she even reads them anymore.
But then I think of the Everfree forest. Sure it may be dangerous, but I have more room to hide and survive. And even if I do die, the others wouldn't be able to find the body, as the wild animals would be sure to eat at it, making them think I'm still alive and safe somewhere.
That is if they care.
I turned to look at Twi one more time, and I just want to say goodbye.
But I withhold it, as I head to the to the door one final time, I look back at her, as well as the library.
But before I leave, before I walk away and start a new journey, a new life, I say one last thing to Twi. Ah, hell...
“Goodbye.”
