Memories Of Days Past

Chapter Thirteen

        They lost. I can not believe that after everything was going so fantastically, the entirety of my plans all falls apart because of some unknown factor that I can not predict. It is almost as if the universe wants me to fail, how silly for a mere mortal to control the universe in a predictable pattern it thinks to itself. Well, better luck next time I guess, maybe this time Celestia and Luna will not kill me on sight.

                Starting over again was about as exciting as it sounds, you do everything the same up until the point you had  messed up and fix all your errors. So instead of long range power transfer that could be accessed by both sides during the battle, I would planeswalk into Equus for a bit and merge the minds of Sara and Amanda, all the while sneaking in power through the bond. It may work, hopefully it does, but incase it does not, I have a backup plan.

        This plan also is not guaranteed to work, I guess I always did believe in the saying high risk, high reward. Phase one of the plan is reversing the fight with time magic and freezing it in critical places to make changes to make sure Twilight Sparkle and Rainbow Dash will lose. Phase two includes the real tricky part, too make sure no other outside entity helps them I have to enact a null void contract, but in me doing so it will also apply to me. If they mess up at this part and still lose, either the outside force is stronger than me, which is possible but unlikely or there is no outside force and always randomized. Phase three is the last part, where I release the null void contract around the two and seeing the victor take control of the body, if it is Sara and Amanda then I was successful and my plans will have to be speed up around a year. If the other is true, then I will have lost once again and will wait till next time to determine if it is an outside force or a universe hates me moment.

        Patience was something I was not originally good at, but after a few hundred loops you get used to waiting. The most recent impasse I have stumbled upon is not a difficult one but a random one, no matter what I do the outcome is always random. Last time I wrote in this was when I had though to succeed, I did. The real issue was not me succeeding or not, it was how or what was going on. Still I do not have an appropriate response for the event we shall call a divergence point. There are only two big outcomes in this, one where I am victorious or one where the universe is.

        Well this time I failed...again, but soon I’ll find out all the variables and when I do, all will be smooth sailing hopefully for a bit after.

        Well, at least this time I found out that the variable is either a planeswalker with their former powers, or a Celestial with powers that circumvent my own. Who knows, maybe it is actually my own incompetence that is doing all this, in all actuality it probably is.

        Instead of doing anything this time to directly affect the outcome, I decided to scan the area around them for any type of magical or mundane variable, committing to memory the entire room, this may take a few tries.

        It only took around twenty loops but I had finally figured out the variable, of course it seems silly now but it was me. The only thing that changes each loop is me, so when I tried all those different approaches to the situation I am the one effecting them. I feel pretty “smart”, I mean really after so long you tend to forget such trivial details like you are the only one in the world that controls the outcomes of what you directly effect.

        I have come to remember two very important facts that I had discovered when I first realized the I will never die fact. One is the universe and time is not one straight path towards an unknown destination rather it is a multitude of separate timelines. Think of it like a cable, it may look like one wire, but really it is lots of wire bunched up. It goes even further and each wire is a major change in the decision, so there are multiple wires, even these bunch up into a area. This is what determines the future of this one timeline.

        Two, I am not outside the influence of time. Many may say I have ascended time, but in reality what happens when I die is instead of moving on and accepting death I uncontrollably send a pulse that sends my memories back in time. So really I do not “time travel” I just change the electric impulses on my brain in the past to remember all the knowledge I have learned.

        The end result will be worth all that I have sacrificed in order to make it come true. Hopefully this is my task, that after all this I will finally be able to die. Many mortals say why wish for death earlier when it is eventually going to kill you…, well I learned that when you cannot die life becomes a series of events that mean nothing because anything you experience now, you will experience it again. I hope I am the only one who suffers this fate, it is so horrifying I wish for even my adversaries to not suffer this. You help me remember what is truly important, and make sure I do not repeat my mistakes over and over again in a fruitless attempt to succeed over fate.  When I write in you again I hope it will mean a success after all this failure, till we inevitably see each other again. I shall bid you farewell and goodbye.