I am Twilight Sparkle

I am Twilight Sparkle

Day 30

Day 30

afternoon

Many things have happend today, and they have kept me from writing earlier. I have learned something quite disturbing, after I organized my belongings this morning. Cherry Pie, a red coated Pegasus mare with blond mane and tail who was a royal guard when that order still existed, walked in on me while I did so. She almost fled after seeing Lunas crown among my things. When I wanted to know why she was so frightend of it, she asked me where I got it in return. I told her the story, and she looked verry sad when I finished, and ofcourse I wanted to know why that was so. I write the conversation down as good as I can remember it.

"So why are you looking like this, by hearing I was brought here by Princess Luna? As a royal guard, shouldn't you be happy to hear another princess is still alive?"

"Your highness.... I myself was a witness to princess Lunas death. I was part of her squad during the fight for Canterlot."

"That can't be, I saw her just yesterday."

"The thing you saw, was not princess Luna. We, meaning those of the guards that are still among the living, honor her as a hero. But that thing defiles her memorie."

"What do you mean? I talked to her, and her magical presence is definitly that of Luna!"

At that point, I was getting a little angry, since even so I am not one to ask for respect for myself because I am a princess, but Luna truly deserves as much.

Cherry Pie let her head hang, and did everything to avoid my gaze.

"Your highness... I was there when she died and... I was there when she rose again. She is no longer princess Luna. She is one of them, with only so much of her former self still fighting the influence of the curse, but her body is dead. I checked it myself. She does not breath, and neither does her heart beat. Most of her self has been consumed upon infection. The only things that are left in her are two simple desires, aside from the one to feed on Ponies. The first one is to protect her subjects and friends. The other is getting revenge on Chrysalis."

"But it's a curse! I am sure if we look into it..."

Cherry Pie shook her head at that point.

"I am sorry your majesty, but no. The curse is what keeps her body moving, and if you were to lift it, she would drop dead. All of us who know the truth, fear her. The last bits of her mind fight the curse every second she exists. It also is the reason she does not approach this place of any place where ponies that know the truth are. They would try to kill her. It is because... one day she will loose the fight entirely."

"I still can't believe it... She was...."

"Cold? You told me that you found it strange that she would not allow you to treat her wounds... also that her back was cold as ice. Princess... her magic keeps her body from rotting but her body has stopped producing heat long ago. Also her wounds are permanent. Next time you see her, I ask of you to put her out of her misery."

Cherry Pie had began to wheep, but did not stop to talk.

"Your highness... I can only imagine why she did bring you here, but that is most likely one of the last shreds that was left of Luna.... She brought you here, so you would survive I think.... She will not be able to rule, or ..... continue her duty once the curse overtakes her completly.... so you are ment to be her successor...."

I was stunned at the revelations. Suddenly everything made sense. Luna had not slept while she had watched over me, nor had she seemed tired when he had made our way here. It also explains why she was unwilling to approach the fortified part of the city. The Pegasi would have attacked her immideatly, and she would have been forced to fight back.

Hours have passed since that conversation, but I still can't stop shaking. Luna was so close to me, and I didn't even realize that she was not breathing.... Could this be why she was so different? Would it explain her aggression? Was she so angry because she was fighting her urge to attack me? I don't know but.... I can not imagine how much she must suffer... If what Cherry Pie said is true, she barely knows who she is, and has only rudimentary memories of the relationships she had during her life.... Luna... When we meet again, I will try to end your suffering.... If Chrysalis needs to be dealt with, so let me do it. You have done more then enough, and deserve peace....

Day 30

late night

I have packed everything I need and asked for some stuff from Plain Beard. He was happy to give me what I needed. Being a princess sure has it's advantages, even after so long. I got fourtysix packs with dired rations his scavange teams had gathered from the towns around Los Pegasus. Also I got a set of barding for Cherry Pie and Quick Arrow, including a single sword for myself. Those are from the Los Pegasus museum, but they will have to do. I told him what I had in mind, and he was more then generous, but I could not accept any more. He wanted to send a hundret of his stallions with me, but I didn't want that. First of all, a bigger group has a higher chance of being attacked. Second of all, I don't want the already crumbeling defenses of Los Pegasus even weaker. The three of us should be enough for the trip, and we will leave first thing in the morning. I would prefer it if we could manage to slip away, without them noticing it....