Dear Princess Celestia,
I’m in love with this girl that wants to run away. She wants to run away from a lot of things, especially me. But what amazes me is that she's still here. I’m aware that one day she'll disappear and she doesn't want me to look for her. But ya know, lovin’ someone this much doesn't make things easy to just let her walk away from ya. She's been part of my life for three years now and I’ve never expected her to mean this much to me. I loved her first and I've been there for her through thick and thin. All I ever wanted to do was to make her feel like someone is there when she needs it. That was kind of like my mission. To be that person for her.
To be her person.
But as time went on I've been rejected several times and she's been seeing other people. Which hurt me every time I reminded myself about it. I even gave her advice for this one guy. It was painful for me to say things I've never wanted to tell her. I remembered that night when we talked about it. We were lying on the floor next to each other, staring at the ceiling and talked till three in the morning. She talked about the guy. I listened. I was jealous. But I had to let it go. Every time I looked at her, I just want to hold her close to me and tell her how I felt. But I couldn't.
Then after that, we've been talking nonstop. Which excited me. I looked forward to everyday because I know she'll be looking for me and I would always visit her. Then the small visits became constant and we would talk till the morning. We got caught a couple of times by her Mom but it really didn't stop us.
Then the topics came to love and stuff. Then I mentioned about kissing. I learned her history, she found about mine. But after that talk, all I could think about was kissing her. I thought I saw signs that I should do it. I took the chance. She wanted to kiss me and at the same time she didn't. Days after that. We met. Sat on the bench on her porch. Talked. Held hands. Talked some more. We even danced for a bit. Then when I tried to seize the moment, she collapsed. I caught her. We were on the ground and she was trying to breathe. I was panicking. But that didn't stop me. I leaned in. I kissed her. I felt every nerve in my body come alive. I felt her lips on mine. The lips I've wanted to taste for so long. I couldn't believe it was finally happening. But the best part of everything, she responded. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever believe that she would kiss me back for real. We kissed some more. Breathed each other’s atmosphere and I felt the need for her and it amazes me because I felt she needed me too. We stood up. I fell. I couldn't breathe. Probably cause I was overwhelmed to kiss the woman I liked for a very long time. She struggled to pick me up and support me. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see. But I can still feel. Next thing I knew, I felt her hands on my face and her lips on my lips. I was losing breath but her kiss just took it all away. When we both recovered and went home. I lay on my bed, tired and extremely happy.
But as the days passed, we kissed, we were talking, and we had some problems. She was scared. She wanted to run away. But I held her closer to me. I couldn't let go of something I've worked hard for. But she told me that I was a part of her already. I then realized she was a part of me too. How can ya let go of something that is a part of ya?
Then days passed, I got a cat. I named her Jade. Because she would name herself Jade if she was to be part of a story. I was the Dad. She was the Mom. We were parents for a small white kitten. I kept her with me. She would visit Jade if she had the time. More chances of me seeing her.
Weeks passed. A month. Then, we were dating. It felt great to date again, but even better because it was her. I knew her more, I knew her better. I saw who she really is. But it made me just love her more and more.
Then one night, we watched a movie she really liked. We were cuddling while we watched the movie back in the barn. When the movie was done, we lied down next to each other on the bean bag. I looked at her with a really big smile on my face and I fell in love with her all over again. She looked at me and I knew she was happy to see me next to her. It was almost twelve midnight. I asked her if she would kiss me when the clock strikes twelve. We checked the time and waited. When it was twelve, we kissed. And it felt like magic. My heavy heart was being lifted up by her and all of my sorrows were just gone. Then she held her chest and asked me,
"Will you take care of it?" I looked at her with love in my eyes.
"Always."
Then she cleared her mind and told me she wanted to say something. We used to say this in a playful way but she wanted to say it properly. She looked at me and I just looked at the beauty of her face and anticipated.
"I love you, AJ." My heart was on air, higher that it can ever be. I lost all the words in my head. All that was there was her saying those words to me. "I love you, AJ." I looked at her.
"I love ya, Fluttershy." We kissed. Saying I love you in between our kisses. All of those times I struggled just to be with her, those three years of being there, of loving her and caring for her. I am blessed.
Then more days passed she said we have to be friends. It was for her parents. I understood and agreed. But we kept cheating because we couldn't control our feelings for each other. I love her so much and I knew, I knew she loves me too. Days passed. We were "friends". But one Saturday night, we were out with friends and we were like a couple again. We kept saying I love you, holding hands and just smiling at each other like we were the only ones around. When she brought me home, we talked and talked. Then I asked her.
"Will you be my girlfriend?"
"Will you be my boyfriend?" Yes. Yes. A million times, yes. I was the happiest guy ever. I never imagined this day will come. She was mine and I was hers. It was the best moment for me. I was getting better.
But as days passed, I've been having a problem. With myself. I can't understand what's happening to me. I was having a war with myself. I needed her. I needed her smile and her arms around me. But she has a problem with herself too. I couldn't find a way to be strong for her, for me and for us. I need her. I know she needs me. If you'd ask me, why I'm still with her despite of her wanting to run away? It's because I love her. I want to be with her. She's everything I've ever wanted in a woman. If she's not herself, I'll bring her back. I just can't see myself with anyone else but her. Nothing will be the same without her. Fluttershy, I know you’re with the Princess and if you're reading this, I love you and I will love you no matter how broken you are. I love you because you loved me when I couldn't love myself. We'll get through with this. Together.
Jackson Bertram Apple
Author's Note
This is actually about me. I just changed it to AJ and Fluttershy cause the personalities seem pretty the same as to what happened with me. I wrote this the other week on my blog about my girlfriend. I hope you guys like it though.
Here's the link to the real blog:
http://applesssmack.tumblr.com/post/68438880712/im-in-love-with-this-girl-that-wants-to-run-away
Prince Artemis to Fleur de Lis
Fleur,
For a very long time, I dreamt of you
I see a fading vision of your face in my mind.
A small and quick sight of the beautiful smile
That lay comfortably on your face.
Seeing it before my eyes seemed almost perfect for me.
I cannot thank Princess Celestia enough to shine
Her radiant light upon your eyes,
The way it glows in the sunlight of the early morning.
I feel unworthy to be in your presence,
To smell the sweet scent of your atmosphere.
I cannot tell if time stopped whenever I hear the sultry sound of your voice.
That whispers upon my ears, slowly singing me to sleep.
I have never seen anyone as beautiful as you.
The way your hair falls perfectly on your soft shoulders,
The way your lips turn into an amazing smile.
That smile, it has imprinted itself in my mind permanently.
Every morning when I wake, I see your face clearly in my mind,
The thought of you fills my morning.
I breathe in the precious thoughts of you in me.
You are the reason why I enjoy the morning.
But I have no courage to ask you to be mine.
Even just for one day.
But please, accept this letter and hold it close to you.
Even though my love isn’t enough for you,
Just remind yourself there is someone who does.
Prince Artemis
Author's Note
This one's for you April. :)
