True Love Does Not End With Mere Death

by zsunknown

Rating: teen
Tags: Romance, Tragedy, Sad
Length: 3245

Celestia is devastated when Twilight dies, and decides to take her own life than live without Twilight. However, Twilight's death is only the beginning. Love always hurts in the end.

Celestia is heartbroken over Twilight's death, and her life has been extremely painful without Twilight by her side. Everyday, she feels immense grief and sadness plaguing her, and it grew so intense that Celestia could not handle it anymore.

And so she decided, the only way to get rid of this pain…is to die. But, Twilight's death is not as simple as it looks…

Love might hurt at last, but in the process…it makes it all worthwhile.

(This story also shows more of the events that occurred.)

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2013-09-18 13:35:55 UTC

Chapter 1- The Declaration: Luna

Luna had been in Twilight`s bedroom, watching her sleep. There was something hypnotic about it that made Luna watch her- the way her chest heaved in sync with her breath, the occasional moving and muttering in her sleep. Of course, these were just excuses, for Luna knew herself that she was in love with Twilight. And even though admittedly it was quite taxing to watch her sleep for so long, it was not boring at all. For Luna loved her.

However, Twilight did not know about her feelings. No one did. Not even her sister. She had tried to break this news to Twilight, but everytime she wanted to, she always found herself not able to speak. And she cursed herself for that. She was going to tell her the next morning, no matter the implications it might bring. She wanted to let this all out, as it had been burdening her since a few weeks ago. And she knew, if she could not bring up the courage the next morning,she never would in the future. With those thoughts in mind, she flew out of Twilight`s bedroom.

"Strange...It felt like somepony was watching me last night..." Twilight muttered as she woke up.

Before doing anything else, she reached for her calender, which had schedules written down on it.

"Lets see...today Im supposed to...theres nothing written here, so its a free day. Huh."

She then proceeded to clean herself up, and before long she was all ready to do...nothing.

"Don`t really know what to do today..." Twilight thought to herself.

Occasionally, she had days where there werent anything planned for her. And on those days, she could relax...but she had the same problem everytime during this 'free' days. She didnt know what to do.

"I guess I`m going to...ahhhhh!" Twilight screamed.

A huge ball of dark magic had just appeared in her library. Not an everyday sight. "I must be hallucinating." Twilight rubbed her eyes. It was still there. "Okay, this is weird." She hesitantly walked forward and tentatively touched it with her hoof.

The dark ball of energy shimmered and disappeared, and left behind a...chuckling Luna, who was rolling on the floor laughing.

"Uh......"Twilight was speechless.

"You should have seen your reaction when I entered! It was priceless!"

"Err...thanks?" Twilight meekly responded, aware of the blush that was creeping up her cheeks.

Luna laughed for a few seconds more, before managing to stand on her hooves.

"I actually came here to tell you something..."Luna said, her tone immediately turning serious.

Twilight cringed at the sudden change in her voice. This was going to be bad...

"I am...in...in.......in......" Luna stammered.

"What?" Twilight asked.

"I mean to say, I am...in...in......lo...lo...oh, why is it so hard to say?" Luna disappeared instantly.

"Okay...that was...uhh...a nice talk, I guess." She said.

That was strange. What was Luna going to say? Why did she find it so hard to tell her? And why did she just leave her in the middle of their conversation. She could not help pondering these questions as she went to read a book while waiting for Spike to wake up and make breakfast, for she was horrible at it.

"What is wrong with me? Why cant I just say it! It was only six words!" Luna thought. She wanted to kick herself in the flank. But she knew that those words could change everything. However, she had promised herself that she would tell Twilight this morning, and it seemed Luna had failed to do so. "Wait, technically it is still morning. I might still be able to make it!" Luna told herself. "Okay, this time dont be scared. Just relax, take a deep breath, and tell her how you feel. Imagine it as a normal conversation." Luna calmed herself down with these thoughts. But deep down, she did not feel optimistic. Twilight was not just a friend...she was more than that to her. And it was not just a normal conversation, was it? It was more of a declaration of her feelings than a conversation.

Twilight had finished reading quite a couple of books before Spike woke up. Spike looked at her and the pile of books beneath her...and realized she was waiting for him to wake up.

"Sorry Twilight! I didnt mean to make you wait! Ill go make breakfast now!" Spike apologized.

"You always wake up at this time, dont worry. And I didnt mind at all." Twilight flashed her a smile.

Spike gave her a smile back and immediately ran to the kitchen to make breakfast. The smell of pancakes was overwhelming her senses, and she drooled a little. She was hungry, after all.

As she ate her freshly made pancakes, she could not help but think about what had just happened.

Thirty minutes before afternoon. Time was ticking away, and Luna was pacing around in her private bedchambers. "What should I say? Should I send her a present?" she said to nobody in particular. She glanced at the clock again. This was bad... she was running out of time. It was driving her crazy. Just then, a knock on her door interrupted her thoughts.

"Luna? Are you busy? I have something I need to ask you." The unmistakable voice of Celestia rang out.

Luna sighed. This was going to waste even more of her precious time, but if she rejected Celestia she would be suspicious.

"Sure, Tia. The doors are not locked."

Celestia hesitantly stepped inside, her expression filled with sadness but here eyes twinkling like diamonds.

"What happened to you Tia? You somehow look sad...yet feel happy inside."

" I was going to ask you, since you control the night, when ponies...ahem...make love." Celestia's face was red now.

"I...I don't get it...what do you want to know about that?" Luna could not help laughing. This was the first time she saw Celestia so embarrassed and unlike herself. This was one of the rare occasions in which Luna could extract information out of Celestia that she wouldn't normally tell Luna.

"It's not that! It's just...well, how do ponies admit their love for others?"

"You're in love aren't you, I mean, it is quite obvious from the questions you're asking." Luna leant a little bit closer to Celestia, and whispered into her ear, causing Celestia to flinch. "Who's the one?"

" I...I...can't tell you." Celestia muttered, her voice just audible enough for Luna to hear.

"Stallion or mare?"

Celestia's blush grew even redder, and she whimpered. "A...m...mare."

"Lucky for her, then."

Celestia gave a weak smile. " No, Luna. It's not her that is lucky to have me, it is the other way round."

"Then why are you sad? Isn't it good news?" Luna was confused now.

"Because, like all others...she will die someday. And it will hurt a lot." Celestia's smile disappeared.

"But to love while you can...it's all that matters. It's always worth it in the end, isn't it?"

"I know...but I still feel this way." Celestia sighed.

Both of them stayed silent for awhile, before Celestia gave a soft chuckle, which caught Luna attention.

"What is it, Tia?"

"I just realized, we have talked so much, yet you have not answered my question."

Luna laughed. She never noticed that until now.

"Just tell her truthfully, Celestia. Just tell her the truth on how you feel about her." Luna realized that would solve her problem too...the time!

Luna glanced at the clock again. Five minutes left! She knew it wasn't actually a must to tell her before the morning ended, but...she felt the need to, for she had failed to so many times. And, mostly, because she was excited...and terrified at the same time. For she wanted to know if Twilight would accept or...she gulped. Reject her love.

"Sorry Tia, but I really have to go now!" Luna said in an anxious tone.

"I thought you said you weren't busy?"

"Just now I wasn't! Now I am!"

Luna hurriedly teleported away.

Twilight had nothing to do, so she decided to do something useful- she was on her way to buy some groceries. She had forgotten all about the incident this morning, and was humming a tune to herself. Just then, Luna appeared right in front of her, causing Twilight to jump back and scream in fright. Twilight fell down, her back hitting the floor."

"Sorry, Twilight! I didn't mean to do that, but I was in a hurry, and needed to talk to you." Luna exclaimed, and lifted Twilight up.

"Princess Luna, just don't do that again..." Twilight moaned, her heart still threatening to explode.

"I came here to tell you something...something which I had wanted to tell you weeks ago."

"Is it related to the one earlier just now?"

"...Yes."

This was going to be big news. What could it be? Twilight thought. Maybe something major cropped up, and they needed Twilight's help. Maybe the changelings invaded Equestria again. Or Sombra somehow returned.

"Twilight..." Luna spoke, steeling herself to continue on.

Twilight could sense Luna was going to continue on, so she stayed silent.

"I am in love with you."

It took a full five seconds before the meaning of the words dawned on Twilight.

"WHAT???" Twilight screamed, her mind overflowing with thoughts.

Chaper 2- The Declaration: Celestia

"I know I love her a lot, but why?" Celestia thought, looking at the photo of her love.

"Why can't I bring myself to be with her?"

She had asked Luna how to admit her love for the mare she loved. And the answer was simple and obvious enough, tell her the truth on how Celestia felt for her. To say the truth, the mare she loved...Celestia had loved her for quite some time, even if she did not notice it. Lately, Celestia had even been dreaming of her at night. It was a wonderful feeling, for she had never felt such affection for somepony for a few hundred years, and even princesses needed love. But somehow, this was different.

She could not bear the fact that she would leave her someday. Previously, she would never have thought about such things. "Live life to the fullest. Love while you can, so you will not regret it later on." Celestia liked that quote. It was what Celestia followed for the past millennia. She loved, then watched the pony she loved die. And this horrible cycle continued for many years, torturing her for an eternity. But she was used to it, wasn't she? For she was an immortal after all. She had watched countless ponies die, and hardly shed a tear, save for her loved ones or friends.

This mare, however, made her feel otherwise. She was so special to Celestia in that way. She was the only pony that made her so worried before, that she would not survive through the ravages of time like Celestia. That Celestia could never once again be with her. To comfort her. To touch her. To love her.

Celestia could not help crying. Why was it so hard for her? Couldn't Celestia just admit her love for her? She was so, so afraid of the grief and sadness she would feel when her love passed on. But her every instinct told her to admit her love, and they might live happily. She felt her heart wrenching, and her tears flowed even faster. "Why...why must she make it so complicated for me?"

"Oh my gosh. I am so sorry, Princess Luna! I didn't mean to shout at you! I'm so sorry!" Twilight literally screamed.

"Don't worry about it. Though, I must admit, your reaction was a little...surprising." Luna perked her eyebrows.

"I didn't mean to...I have never thought that anyone would love me..." Twilight whispered.

"Their loss then." Luna snickered.

Inside she leapt with joy. Twilight was going to accept her love! She could be with Twilight for her rest of her life. She would not feel lonely anymore at night. She could have fun with a mare she loved. She could...

"I'm sorry, Princess Luna, but...I need some time to consider what you just said..." Twilight interrupted.

Luna was crestfallen, and it obviously showed with the frown on her face.

"I'm sorry! I didn't want to, but...I need time to think this through. I mean, it is a major thing for me..."

Luna perked up a little. "Don't be silly, Luna. It's not like she rejected you outright! You still have a decent, no wait, big chance at gaining her love!" she thought to herself.

"Sure, Twilight. It must be big news for you, I'm sorry if I was too hasty. Just don't take too long..." Luna's smile was back.

"Yes, Princess Luna."Twilight smiled.

"Please, just call me Luna."

"Yes, Luna." Twilight chuckled.

Much to Luna's surprise, Twilight walked forward and gave a light peck on her lips.

Luna blushed so brightly she could swear it showed on her dark fur.

When Luna went away, Twilight ran as fast as she could back to her home. "I can't believe I just did that! Oh my gosh, what was I thinking!" Her mind raced as she rushed back home, her face red with embarrassment. " What would Luna think of me?"

She opened the door to her home and immediately slammed it close. The door closed with a deafening thud, but Spike was still taking his afternoon nap, and pretty much could not be woken up. Still, Twilight went to check on Spike, and he was obviously sleeping. So she went to her room and sat on her bed, recalling what had just happened.

She blushed. She did just kiss Luna. It was driven by some sort of primal lust inside of her, something that craved love. For Twilight never did find time to love somepony, and even though she did not show it, deep down she was sad. Her friends, at least, had found their loves. She was the only one left, and it weighed constantly in her heart.

But...she had never had such thoughts about Luna...she loved her as a friend, and nothing more. Was she willing to be with somepony she did not love? Could she be happy with Luna? She was lost in thought.

Celestia decided to use the old trick- write a letter to her that she would never send. For she could not bear to love her. To be with her. So she decided to express all her feelings into a letter, and hoped that she would forget all about the mare she loved.

And so she started writing. She wrote down all her thoughts, her feelings, all in one letter. It took a few hours, and when she was done, she placed it under her pillow, which was haphazardly located on the bed. For her bed was in a mess, after nights of thinking and dreaming about her love. She would unconsciously squirm at night, and wake up the next morning finding that the bed had been messed up. And she would never tell anybody this, but... she cried at night. Torn between wanting her...and not willing to.

She sat on her bed, her thoughts wondering on what to do. She needed some relief from writing that letter.

It was exhausting, to spill out all of what she felt in words. So she planned to ask her student in for a study session. Twilight...she always seemed to know Celestia's troubles, and could always manage to make her feel relaxed.

" Princess Celestia? Are you okay?" Twilight asked, genuinely concerned. Her mentor looked out of sorts, and her eyes betrayed a sense of sadness.

"...Yes. Thank you for your concern, but I assure you, I am fine."

Celestia wasn't even looking at Twilight anymore, and she looked away into the balcony, to where the sun had set. She didn't even bother with the ceremony of lowering the sun, and had lowered it right there, which panicked Twilight even more.

Princess Celestia was never this...troubled before. It frightened Twilight. What happened to her?

Just when Twilight wanted to speak out, Celestia interrupted, "I'm sorry Twilight, but I have some...things I have to do. I have to leave you for a while here, if you don't mind."

"Sure...I guess."

Celestia flashed her a sad smile and walked away out of her private bedchambers.

Twilight sat there, her mind spinning. This was weird. Something must have happened to Celestia. She seemed extremely distracted, and during her study session...Celestia hardly looked at Twilight. It was like...she couldn't bear to look at Twilight. And Twilight felt sad. Was Celestia disappointed at her?

She placed the book in her hooves away and sighed. She walked over to her bed, which she had noticed was a huge mess, pillows strewn about, her blanket literally on the floor. She decided to clean it up. After all, it was the least she could do. So she started clearing up the mess, arranging them properly.

And then she noticed a letter under one of the pillows. It looked ordinary, and wasn't even sealed, which could only meant that whoever wrote this had only recently completed it, and might have been in a hurry. She knew it was wrong, but she couldn't resist the urge to look at its contents.

"Dear Twilight Sparkle

All those years of nurturing you, shaping you into the mare you are today, it makes me contented. You have helped me so much. Defeating Nightmare Moon, managing the winter wrap-up, and so many more... And all I can say is I am happy and proud of you. All those years of teaching you, taking you in as my student. I have never regretted those decisions I made, decisions that had helped to shape both you and me to who we are today.

But somehow, watching you grow as time passed, as you turned into a beautiful, mature mare...My feelings for you got more than just pride and happiness. I realized...I had fallen in love with you. And I was excited at first. I had wanted to declare my love for you. But then I remembered...to love you, to be with you for the rest of your life...it meant that I would suffer when you finally left me. It scares me. I had never loved anypony so deeply before, never truly gave all my love. But you...I love you too much...and I am afraid that I would dive too deep...and lose myself. I love you so much, Twilight Sparkle."

Tears started to flow from her eyes. Twilight sobbed faintly, and forced herself to continue reading.

"But I cannot bring myself to tell you that. For I am afraid...what would I do, if you inevitably left me? Even I would not know. Would I destroy Equestria in a rage? Would I become insane? To love you...means having to lose you too. And I will never, ever, be able to bring myself to that. I love you so much, Twilight Sparkle. And even though I know you will never know, I will say it again. I love you Twilight Sparkle. Always, eternally, forever. Till the end of time.

I love you.

Celestia"

Twilight cried freely now, her tears staining the bed. She sobbed hysterically. She never thought, never realized...

She slid the letter back under the pillow, and teleported away, back to her home. She could not bear to stay there, to see Celestia.