I Cry Blood

Written By: Cameron

Chapter 1: Tear Stained Pillows

Morning, Fluttershy's cottage.

In the bed, under the big covers of blankets, was the yellow pegasus. She was sound asleep. The room had light, but she did not wake up from the warm sun. She lied there with tears coming out of her eyes while she slept. Her pillows had big puddles and stains of tears.

Fluttershy slowly opened her watery eyes. She slowly leaned up from her pillows and wiped the tears away from her eyes. She slowly turned to her right to face the desk next to her bed. On the desk was a bottle. The bottle said "Vodka" in big letters on the front. Fluttershy grabbed it and looked inside it. It was dry empty and out of nowhere, Fluttershy threw the bottle across the room. Causing the glass to hit her door and shatter glass everywhere. Tiny bits of it sprinkled in the air. Fluttershy covered her eyes with her hooves and started sobbing.

"You drunk little fucker." Fluttershy said aloud. "You couldn't have resist the bottle could you?" Fluttershy moved her hooves away from her eyes and looked at the shattered glass that was scattered in front of her door. "You've made another mess, yet again Fluttershy." Fluttershy threw the covers off of herself and got out of bed. "Time to cleanup, again."

Fluttershy walked over to the other side of her bed and got on all four of her knees. She reached under the bed with her right hoof and pulled out a mini broom and dust pan. She walked over towards the shattered glass and started to scoop it all up in the dust pan. She swept the floor, until she was certain that she picked up all the glass. She walked out of the her bedroom and into the living, so she could get to the kitchen. She walked inside her kitchen and walked up to her trash can that was standing next to her back door. She poured all the glass into the garbage can and it made a noise like as if you were at a new year's party and you tapped glasses and said "cheers".

Fluttershy walked out of her kitchen and through the living and right back into her bedroom. She walked into her bedroom and felt a sharp pain in her left hoof. She yelped and backed away from the door. She looked down on the floor and saw little blood puddles on the floor. It had a trail leading towards her. She lifted up her left hoof and saw a piece of glass stuck inside the hoof.

"You little fucker." Fluttershy bit onto the piece of glass and felt sharp pain in her hoof. Tears were slowly streaming out of her eyes. "Okay Fluttershy. 1....2...3." She groaned and quickly pulled the piece of glass our of her hoof. "Fuck....ow...fuck, fuck, fuck." She quickly ran into her kitchen and threw away the shard of bloody glass. She ran into her bedroom and started digging under her bed with her right hoof. "Ow not again. Not again. Shit." She pulled out a small box with a red plus on the front. She flipped open the box and pulled out bandage wrapping and some tape with all other types of different supplies.

Fluttershy pulled out a bottle of antibiotic and placed it on the wound. She picked up the bandage wrapping and wrapped her hoof while adding pressure to the open cut. Once the bandage was wrapped around her hoof, she used her chin to hold down the end of the wrapping. She picked up the roll of tape and brought it up to her mouth and bit a small piece of tape off of the roll. She quickly lifted her chin and pressed the tape against the end of the bandage. She examined the her bandage for a moment to see if the blood would seek through.

After a moment or two, Fluttershy noticed that no blood was seeking it's way through the bandages. Her face was from worry to sadness.

"Oh Fluttershy. You cut yourself again. You fucking idiot." She insulted herself.

Fluttershy slowly walked over towards her bed and gazed at it. She slowly hopped onto her bed and covered herself in a big blanket that was big enough for at least three adult size ponies and five foals. She laid her head onto her pillow and turned over onto her back. She stared at the ceiling with many, many thoughts rushing through her mind. Such as.

"You fucking idiot. You should have double checked before you left the room?" Or "Why the fuck didn't you check before you walked in the room? Even "You still drunk. Because if you didn't have so much last night, you wouldn't have that cut on your hoof." Especially "I'm a quiet, shy, little drunk fucker. Who deserves nothing more than the least."

Tears started to form in her eyes. She closed her eyes to prevent tears from streaming down her cheeks, but it was hopeless, tears started to stream down her cheeks and onto her pillows.

"Oh Fluttershy. Will you ever, ever be fixed?" She turned onto her left side. "Will you ever stop fake smiling? Will you ever feel better? Will your pain ever end?" She slowly opened her eyes to face a picture of her and her friends. "Will you they ever see your true feelings?" Fluttershy closed her eyes and imagined the thought of telling them. "They won't understand. They can't comprehend on what I go through." Fluttershy quickly turned to her right and faced away from the picture frame. "They can't ever know."

After a couple of moments, Fluttershy's spine started to feel comfortable and her eyes were starting to relax and the tears have ceased. Her face started to look more peaceful than sad.

"Go to sleep Fluttershy. Hopefully, a good dream will come to you." Fluttershy thought to herself.

Fluttershy's mind started to slow down on the thoughts. The thoughts were now becoming unclear and her mind was starting to quiet down and drift. And soon she was asleep.

Outside of Fluttershy's bedroom window. Rainbow Dash was hovering next to her window watching her friend. Rainbow saw her throw the bottle against the wall and scream at herself. Rainbow Dash's expression was complete shock.

Once Fluttershy walked back into the bedroom with a bloody hoof, Rainbow Dash leaned closer to the window. She saw Fluttershy wrapping herself up with the bandages. Fluttershy stood up and walked over towards her bed. Rainbow Dash, quickly, ducked under the window so she wouldn't be caught.

Rainbow Dash heard Fluttershy saying awful things to herself. Rainbow Dash had tears streaming down her cheeks. She slowly flew up to the window to check on Fluttershy. Fluttershy was in bed and her face showed that she was asleep. Rainbow Dash wiped the tears away from her eyes and glared down at her friend.

"Oh Fluttershy." Rainbow checked the window to see if it was unlocked. "Why didn't you tell me that you were in pain?" Rainbow asked, in a whispered.

The window was unlocked and Rainbow slowly pushed it open and entered the room. Rainbow closed and locked her friend's window. She landed next to the yellow pegasus' bed and started to gaze at the her.

Rainbow Dash walked around the bed and laid down right next to her friend. She pulled the big blanket over her and laid right next to Fluttershy. She slowly put her left hoof around sweet pegasus' torso and laid her head onto the pillow next to her head. She glanced down at the pillow that Fluttershy had her head on. The pillow had a big stain and it was damp.

"Oh Fluttershy." Rainbow mumbled. "You don't deserve this."

Rainbow moved closer to Fluttershy and leaned her head against Fluttershy's. She whimpered and Rainbow lifted her left hoof to brush her mane.

Fluttershy stopped whimpering. Rainbow stopped brushing Fluttershy's mane and put her left hoof around Fluttershy's torso again.

Rainbow's eyes were getting heavy and she yawned as quietly as she could. "You aren't alone Fluttershy." Rainbow whispered. She closed her eyes and soon she was asleep.

Author's Note

I'm not picking on Fluttershy. I'm only saying that because that's how I feel right now. I'm using her to show that even the quiet people like me can be fucked up. I have broken a couple bottles. I haven't cut myself from glass before. I had to use a tourniquet before. I never had anyone to comfort me. I still don't. I'm alone. I'm trying to put a tiny bit of happiness in this story. Yeah I'm fucked up in the mind and the heart. I don't have any respect for myself. In fact I call myself "The quiet pathetic little sorry drunken fucker" yeah. I have no recourse but I've been looking for it for years and years. Yeah, I guess I am pathetic. I've never found recourse or never will. Attempted suicide and got drunk many times with vodka. I don't know how you react to hearing this from me. Because I am not an adult. I'm only fourteen years old and yet I'm so "fucked up" or "pathetic". You choose one. I'll be honest. I don't like seeing others walking down the same road I am. The road to suicide. I do my best to put you back on the right road while I walk down this road. I do it because nobody deserves the kind of shit I'm going through. I will be making more chapters while working on my other story called "The Dead Rise". I got myself a new avatar of a pony called "Pony 3 Tears" from the actual human being called "Johnny 3 Tears" from the band "Hollywood Undead" He is a sad person who sings songs about prevent suicide and taking away children's misery. I guess that's why he's my favorite. Anyway I hope you guys enjoyed this Chapter and there will be more. Have a good day or night In case if your feelings feel sad. I apologize. Try to find something to cheer you up.