Voices in My Head

by RachWrites

Rating: everyone
Tags: Random, Dark, Comedy
Length: 7977

Pinkie Pie has a little mental breakdown.. Well maybe a big one.

When Pinkie plans way too many parties, she begins to get stressed and angry. She beings to think that her friends don't really appreciate her. Can she snap out of it before its too late?

Edited by firebirdabirdmadeoutoffire

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2013-10-08 00:49:30 UTC

A Nightmare Awakened

Voices in My Head

by ponyofawesome92

Edited by firebirdabirdmadeoutoffire

Chapter 2 - A Nightmare Awakened

Pinkie was certain she was dreaming. She was sure because the last thing she remembered was falling asleep. She was also sure because she wasn't in her room. She was in a strange yet familiar building. It was like a darker version of Sugar-Cube Corner.

The scene was at night. The whole room had a blood red tone to it. The walls had something oozing down from them. Pinkie looked away, she didn't want to know what it was. Pinkie stiffened as she walked further into the room.

She noticed one of her 'friends' as she walked closer to the center of the room. It was Madame Leflour. Pinkie shuddered as the bag of flour began moving on its own. It hopped towards her.

"Madame Le-Flour? What are you doing here!?" Pinkie asked. Her voice had a strange echo-y sound to it and it made Pinkie's hair stand up.

"Ooh, don't vous remember? Vous invited moi to zis petit party."  Madame Le-Flour replied.

The bag of flour had grown a ripped mouth and was smiling devilishly at Pinkie, who looked back at it stunned.

"N-No! You aren't real!" Pinkie cried. She turned around to run but another one was blocking her path. It was Rocky.

"So I ain't real either?" Rock asked as he jumped. Pinkie wasn't really sure how he talked, since he didn't have a mouth but it still creeped her out.

"Yes.. No.. I don't know! You're both part of my imagination, I made you up." Pinkie replied.

She tried to back away from the two of them, but she tripped and fell over something. A metal something.

"Hey! Watch it Pinkie! You're so clumsy." Mr. Turnip gripped as the bucket full of turnips somehow sighed.

"Why are you guys even here? I haven't seen you since my birthday two years ago!" Pinkie cried.

The cry landed on dead ears though, and the objects did not answer back. Instead they all crowded around her and Pinkie stiffened. What are they going to do to me? Pinkie thought as they came closer.

"Hey guess what? No-pony really likes vous.. Or votre parties." Madame Le Flour whispered in Pinkie's ear.

Pinkie frowned. So they were going this route again. She knew how to handle them.

"Sure they do!" Pinkie replied with a flip of her pink mane. Madame Le Flour just laughed softly her ripped mouth spilling some flour on the floor.

"Oh, do they? Do they really?" Madame Le Flour persisted. She was so close Pinkie could almost touch her.

Pinkie squirmed as the three of them circled around her.

"Could you all please give me some space?" Pinkie asked with a small smile.

They all laughed. Pinkie noticed their shadows growing bigger and bigger behind them. They had somehow managed to lift Pinkie up and had begun to drag her up the stairs.

"Come on, Pinkie. We'll show you a real party!!" Mr.Turnip said ambiguously as they continued up the dark staircase.

Pinkie gasped as she came out of the nightmare. She noticed that she'd thrown her sheets completely off her bed during the nightmare. Which was more strange than scary.

"Great.. Now there's more for me to clean." Pinkie muttered groggily as she tried to wake up.

She wasn't even sure what time it was, but she didn't really feel like sleeping after that nightmare. She felt a cold chill sweep over her. She had to tell some-pony about that dream.

Pinkie sighed, she couldn't tell her friends. They wouldn't understand. She needed some-pony who always understood her, no matter how crazy her life got.

She needed Mrs. Cake.

Mrs. Cake was actually quite busy. She was happy to be busy though, for it kept her worries at bay. She was worried about lots of things, but she was mostly worried about her son Pound. He had been fighting a cold for a while now and he wasn't getting any better. Carrot suggested it was just allergies, but she worried still worried.

"No Pumpkin. Don't chew on that, sweetie!" She told her daughter as she took the block out of her mouth.

Pumpkin was about two years old now, and she still put her blocks in her mouth.

"Bad mommy!" Pumpkin squealed as she flipped her little mane in disgust at her. It was oddly cute.

"Hey Mrs. Cake, can I talk to you?" Pinkie asked as she trotted down the stairs.

"Sorry hon, I'm a little busy right now. Why don't you ask Carrot and see if he can help." Mrs. Cake replied with a sorry smile.

"Oh, that's alright! Do you need any help with Pumpkin? I can play with her if you want me to!" Pinkie suggested with a hop down the last stair.

In a flash she was right in front of Mrs. Cake. Who blinked, clearly surprised.

"Ah, well.. Sure why not?" Mrs. Cake replied. She knew Pinkie's intentions were good, so she didn't mind.

"Okay! Where's my widdle Pumpkin!?" Pinkie squealed as she rushed to Pumpkin and lifted her in the air.

Mrs. Cake smiled as she lifted the box on top of her to-do pile. She frowned as she watched the pile lean to one side, hopefully it wouldn't fall on any-pony.

"Pinkie, what was that you wanted?" Mrs. Cake asked after she was done most of her work.

She smiled as she watched Pinkie hold Pumpkin close.

"Oh.. It's nothing too serious. I was just a little upset because.. Well.." Pinkie replied as she played with Pumpkin's mane.

"Pinkie.. You know you can tell me anything, right?" Mrs. Cake reminded her.

Pinkie didn't really need reminding, but she liked hearing it. Mrs. Cake smiled as Pinkie sighed and let go of Pumpkin who frowned and walked towards her blocks.

"It's just that last night.. I had one of those nightmares again." Pinkie replied.

Pinkie had remembered that this nightmare was a reoccurring one. She had the first one about a week ago, and they were starting to scare her.

"Oh, did you? That's a shame.." Mrs. Cake said as she let out a sigh. Mrs. Cake worried that Pinkie had discovered a new, dangerous hobby or something equally crazy.

"Yeah.. I didn't really get a lot of sleep last night, well I did but.. It wasn't a good one." Pinkie rambled as she trotted with Mrs.Cake towards the back of the store.

"Well.. If it continues, we'll see a therapist or a doctor about it okay?" Mrs. Cake replied. She wasn't too worried about her, Pinkie could always bounce back from these things.

"Yeah, but what if I go crazy or something!?! I don't wanna be a crazy pony Mrs. Cake!!" Pinkie replied.

Mrs.Cake was surprised when she found Pinkie was now clinging on to her. She sighed and peeled her off of her front legs with a tired frown.

"Now really, Pinkie! I don't have time for all this! Why don't you go and talk to one of you're friends about it? Maybe it'll make you feel better." Mrs.Cake replied tiredly.

Mrs. Cake sighed as Pinkie gave her a very sad look and she smiled kindly.

"... And no, you're not gonna go crazy...well crazier." Mrs.Cake murmured. Pinkie smiled.

Pinkie sighed as she trotted down the street going to Twilight's house. She knew Mrs. Cake had good intentions and she knew she understood her, but something about her dream still bugged her. But she didn't really know what it was.

"Ugh! Why can't I get this outta my head!!" Pinkie cried to herself and she shook her head. Her mane flopped around her face and she sighed again.

"Hey, Pinkie! What's up?" Twilight asked as she saw Pinkie come closer to her.

"Oh, it's nothing Twilight... I'm okay." Pinkie said. She sniffled for dramatic effect. She hoped Twilight would buy it.

It worked, Twilight rushed over to Pinkie and smiled brightly to her.

"Ooh, what's wrong Pinkie? You can tell me.. I'm you're friend!" Twilight said as she batted her eyelashes.

Pinkie smiled, "Sure, but can we go inside first?" She asked pointing to Twilight's open door.

Twilight beamed as she lifted her hoof towards the door.

"Lead the way!" She replied with a laugh.

Once Twilight got Pinkie to lay on her couch, she trotted excitedly to the desk where she kept all her reading materials, she picked out her reading glasses. They was scattered parchments and quills in the door so it was a little difficult to find them, but they were right in the back.

"Ah Ha!" Twilight exclaimed when she finally found them.

She smiled as she plopped them on her face. She trotted over towards the couch and Pinkie looked at her with a curious expression.

"Uh.. Twilight. What's with the glasses?" Pinkie asked with a small smile.

"Oh, I just like to wear these from time to time, it's no big deal! Twilight replied nonchalantly.

"Okay.. So.. How do we start?" Pinkie asked.

Pinkie was comfortably lying on the couch awaited for Twilight's response.

Twilight didn't actually know how to address Pinkie's problem. She knew Pinkie was a very sensitive pony when it comes to feelings, and she definitely didn't want to hurt one of her best friend's feelings.

"Hmm... Well, what's bothering you?" Twilight asked. She really preferred to ask her friends about their problems and it was probably the most effective in this case.

"Well.. This might sound a little well, silly." Pinkie replied softly.

Twilight's ears flicked, since when was Pinkie not silly?

"It's okay, Pinkie. It's probably not so bad." Twilight consoled.

Pinkie smiled at Twilight. She didn't really know how to explain her nightmare and not sound foalish. She sighed and placed a hoof to her eye.

"Do you Pinkie Swear not to tell anyone, Twilight?" Pinkie asked softly with her hoof still on her eye.

Twilight blinked, she wasn't excepting this. Hopefully it was nothing really bad happened to Pinkie, but she promised anyway.

"Sure.. Whatever you need, Pinkie." Twilight said as she did the silly promise.

"Good.. 'cause it's a little, well strange. Even for me." Pinkie replied with a sad smile.

Twilight looked at Pinkie over her glasses. Strange for Pinkie Pie certainly sounded strange.

Pinkie sighed and got her bearings, telling Twilight about her nightmares was tough for her. She didn't usually want to go down the serious road, she just enjoyed her friends when everypony was happy and having fun, not all stuffy and anxious.

"I.. I'm having nightmares.. About my imaginary friends. You know the ones Rainbow told you guys about." Pinkie explained with a big sigh of relief.

"Wait, you're only worried about nightmares?" Twilight replied with a little laugh.

"Pinkie that's not much to worry about. Everypony get's nightmares." Twilight explained as she patted Pinkie's shoulder.

Pinkie stiffened. She thought Twilight of all ponies would understand her issues, she had some anxiety herself. Why wasn't she getting this?

"I knew this was gonna happen! I knew you wouldn't understand!" Pinkie gripped as she tried to get up.

Twilight held her friend back with a small frown, she wasn't used to seeing Pinkie so distressed and it worried her. She gave Pinkie a grin and Pinkie seemed to calm down.

"No, I do understand. I get nightmares sometimes.. Do you want to tell me what they're about?" Twilight asked more kindly as she summoned a notebook with her magic.

"I dunno. It's a little creepy." Pinkie replied with a shudder for effect.

Twilight sighed and rubbed her temple with her hoof.

"Aren't nightmare's supposed to be creepy?" She asked. Pinkie smiled and nodded and Twilight removed her hoof from her forehead.

"Yeah but this one's really creepy!" Pinkie replied with wide eyes.

Twilight sighed and waved a hoof for Pinkie to continue.

"Well.. It always starts the same.. I'm at Sugar Cube Corner. It's really diffrent though, it's pitch black and I can't see anything.. Then a big spotlight appears and It's over me.. I wanted to run, but I couldn't 'cause I'm in a bakery and I didn't want to break anything. Anyways, The spotlight began flicking on and off and it suddenly turned completely off! I couldn't see anything anymore."

Pinkie gasped for air as if she was still having this nightmare. Twilight was on the edge of her seat, Pinkie's mind is so fascinating she thought. I really should study her sometime. Maybe I should take up a job of a part time therapist.

"What was different about this one?" Twilight asked. Pinkie had scrunched her face up in concentration and it looked rather amusing.

Pinkie nodded and gave Twilight a worried look. She sighed.

"That's just it. The dream I had last night was a continuation of that last one." Pinkie replied with a shrug.

Twilight nodded in response as she jotted down some notes on the notebook. Twilight smiled after a while and patted Pinkie's shoulder again.

"I can tell you my newest dream if you want.." Pinkie said. She was unsure of this though, she didn't want Twilight to laugh at her again.

"Alright. Tell me whenever you're ready." Twilight replied.

She noticed Pinkie's sad smile as she continued on with her story. Twilight wasn't very concerned about Pinkie, but her sadness was always a little worrisome, Pinkie could get quite upset if something was bothering her.

Pinkie's smile turned into a frown.

"Okay.." Pinkie sighed. "So last night's nightmare was a little different, but it was in the same place. I was just standing there minding my own business and hoping that the lights would come on.. When I heard a little noise coming from the center of the room, so naturally I followed it."

"Naturally." Twilight agreed with a stout nod. Pinkie smiled and continued.

"The noise was actually a bag of flour.. Madame Le Flour to be exact. I knew it was her 'cause she started humming, what other bag of flour can talk? I asked her what she was doing.. and she told me that I invited her." Pinkie continued.

Twilight's eyes widened. She knew of Pinkie's imaginary friends from Rainbow Dash's explaining, but Twilight didn't know that Pinkie had made up names for them all.. This could be more serious than she thought it was.

A Bittersweet Discovery

Voices in My Head

by ponyofawesome92

Edited by firebirdabirdmadeoutoffire

Chapter 3 - A Bittersweet Discovery

Twilight sighed as she watched Pinkie play with her forelock. She smiled at Pinkie.

"You made these 'friends' up, right?" Twilight asked. She already knew the answer before Pinkie nodded.

"Yeah.. I guess they're coming back 'cause I'm stressed.." Pinkie guessed as she continued playing with her mane.

Twilight was surprised, Pinkie was a pony who rarely got stressed. She frowned in concentration as she looked at her notes, they weren't much of a help.

"Why are you stressed?" Twilight asked. She didn't really know what reason Pinkie had to be stressed about. All she did was plan parties, right?

"Well.. I think that I'm maybe planning too many parties.. But I don't really know." Pinkie replied quietly.

Twilight was thinking. Why would Pinkie be stressed out by her special talent?

"Pinkie. Planning parties is your special talent remember?" Twilight replied with a kind smile.

"Well that's paradox if ever heard one."

"That sounds like a problem. I'll see I can find anything to help you."

Pinkie beamed and jumped off the couch. Twilight jumped off her chair, she was glad Pinkie was feeling better. Pinkie was laughing and thanking Twilight.

"Anytime, Pinkie! You know you can always talk to me right?" Twilight answered as Pinkie repeated a cheerful thanks.

"Right.. I know that, Twilight." Pinkie said and she smiled. The smile was a bit dimmer though, and Twilight wondered why.

Pinkie seemed fine three seconds ago.

"I'm fine, Twilight." Pinkie said. She smiled as she trotted towards Twilight's door.

"Good.. I'm glad I could help." Twilight replied with a smile.

Pinkie sighed as she left Twilight's house. The feelings of loneliness and unease were still seeping through her mind. It scared her because she didn't really know why they were there to begin with. She was supposed to be the happiest, friendliest pony in Ponyville! How could she be that if she felt so lonely?

Pinkie grumbled as she kicked a stray pebble. She frowned as the pebble rolled right off the street, totally out of her reach. Pinkie rolled her eyes and continued walking, the pebble was not the worst of her worries. Actually it was the least.

Pinkie kept frowning as she turned back home. The market was packed. How was she supposed do buy anything? Pinkie realized she probably should've came earlier. She chided herself on her stupidity as she walked up to one of the many stands.

This particular unsuspecting stand was selling fruits. Pinkie needed some for her famous fruit punch and she smiled widely when she saw that they were on sale- two for a bit.

The stall's vendor was a pretty looking mare. She had a bright brown coat with a white stripe down her nose. Pinkie smiled at her and she smiled back, she obviously had been to one of Pinkie's parties, but Pinkie wasn't very sure what one. It was probably the 'Welcome to Ponyville Party' now that she thought more about it.

"Hey Star! Nice day isn't it?" Pinkie said casually. She was always in the mood to chat, no matter how stressed she was on the inside.

"It's certainly nice outdoors." Star replied. She had come from Canterlot, like Twilight. Pinkie knew that Star was one of those posh unicorns, like Rarity.

"What would you like today?" Star asked. She looked at Pinkie curiously and Pinkie smiled at her. She was deciding on the grapes or the pineapple for the punch.

She really had no idea so she shrugged.

"I guess I'll take one pineapple and a couple bushels of grapes, since fruit's on sale today! Lucky me!" Pinkie beamed as she handed Star the bit.

Star looked at her with a little disappointment. "Right.. Lucky you." She replied.

Pinkie really had no idea why Star was complaining, her fruit was the best in Equestria. Ponies would buy more of it when it was on sale, wouldn't they?

Pinkie just smiled and happily grabbed the fruit with her hooves. The pineapple was prickly so she quickly put it in her saddlebag. She smiled at her friend and waved goodbye as she walked away.

"Good, I have the fruit. Now all I need is some sugar." Pinkie muttered to herself as she wandered around the market. Usually Bon-Bon had a cart filled with baking stuff, but she couldn't find her.

"Huh, maybe I'll just get some apples for the pies.." Pinkie rambled as she trotted towards Applejack's stall.

Applejack was there as usual, she was busy sorting the bad apples from the good ones and didn't notice her friend approach her.

"Hay, A.J!!" Pinkie said happily. Applejack, startled looked at Pinkie with a smile after she noticed it was her.

"Oh... Phew.. Pinkie ya scared me! What can I get'cha?" Applejack asked with a laugh as Pinkie's smile grew.

"Well.. I know I'm kinda late, but can I have some of your best apples for Twilight's party? I'm baking my famous apple pies!!" Pinkie said temptingly selling her pies.

Applejack smiled and licked her lips, she always loved Pinkie's pies. Even as much as her Granny's.

"Well sure! I've got some real good ones, I'll sell 'em to ya cheap!" Applejack replied as she found said apples and passed them over to Pinkie.

Pinkie smiled as she saw the perfect apples. They were very big, she would probably only need two of the four Applejack gave her.

"Thanks A.J! But, I really only need two.." Pinkie said honestly. She knew she'd feel bad if she lied.

"Oh, don't worry about it. Those two are on the house, fer a good friend!" Applejack replied with a grin.

Pinkie laughed and thanked Applejack.

"Thanks Applejack!" She said as she gave her a wink.

"No problem, be sure to make somethin' good out of 'em now!" Apple Jack replied with a grin.

Pinkie kept smiling as she walked down to Sugar Cube Corner. She was hoping Mrs. Cake could lend her some sugar.. Or else she'd be wasting her time.

Pinkie hummed happily as she walked into the bakery, the familiar and delicious smells made her feel much calmer than she had been at Twilight's.

She smiled as she went past Mr. Cake, he was hard at work as usual so Pinkie didn't want to bother him. She breathed in the smell of all her favorite baked goods as she walked into the kitchen.

Mrs. Cake was working, she looked like she was mixing some sort of batter. Pinkie didn't know what it was for, but she knew from experience that it would probably be really good.

"Hey, what're baking Mrs. Cake?" Pinkie asked, she had pulled herself over the counter and was peering into the mixture.

Mrs. Cake smiled and tried to push Pinkie away, but with no luck.

"Pinkie, you're being a pain." Mrs. Cake replied bluntly, she knew Pinkie would only back off when she used a forceful-ish tone.

"Aw.. I don't mean to be I'm just curious is all.." Pinkie replied innocently as she dipped her hoof into the batter and took a lick.

"Mm.. Carrot Cake! I love it!" Pinkie replied smacking her lips.

Mrs. Cake sighed as she pushed her bowl away from Pinkie. She didn't really mind Pinkie being there, but sometimes she could really be a pain.

"Can I help you?" Mrs. Cake asked sharply as Pinkie daydreamed, probably about Carrot Cakes.

"Oh! That's right.. Can I borrow some sugar from you if you're done with it?" Pinkie asked sweetly.

Mrs. Cake sighed, if that was all Pinkie wanted.. Why did she even bother questioning her?

"Sure thing, are you going to bake pies?" Mrs. Cake asked somewhat hopefully. Maybe Pinkie could help with her dozen pie orders she needed to fill.

"Yeah! They're for Twilight! It's her birthday you know." Pinkie stated proudly.

Mrs. Cake smiled, she was a tad disappointed, but she knew Carrot would help her if she really needed it.

"Well that's nice of you Pinkie, dear." Mrs. Cake said after a little sigh.

Pinkie smiled and hopped anxiously as Mrs. Cake got her the spare sugar they kept under the counters. Pinkie wasn't allowed to touch it. Not after the last time..

"Ooh!! Thanks! I wasn't sure you'd give it to me. You just seem so busy lately." Pinkie exclaimed while she hugged the sugar.

"I am busy actually.. You know the holidays are coming up. Families always want pies." Mrs. Cake said, her mind was actually spacing again. There were no holidays.

"Well, I'm here if you need me!" Pinkie squealed as she rushed off with the bag of sugar in her arms.

Pinkie smiled as she looked at her finished masterpiece of a pie. The pie was beautiful, it was perfectly made and it looked delicious. Pinkie desperately wanted to try a piece but she held back. She reminded herself that she could have some with her friends at Twilight's party.

"Well Gummy, I'm quite proud of this beauty!" Pinkie exclaimed to Gummy as she put her pie on her high shelf. She didn't want anything to happen to it.

Pinkie sighed as she plopped down on her bed. She was so hot from the baking, she wiped her sweating face with her hoof, she felt exhausted. This was the fourth baked good she'd made this week.

Maybe I *am** planning too many parties*. Pinkie thought worriedly. She wasn't getting any younger, and baking all these treats was hard work. She just hopped her friends liked them.

Pinkie sighed as she thought about all the parties she'd planned this week. First there was Derpy's anniversary party, she couldn't have forgotten that.. She would've been so sad.

Then there was Pipsqueak's birthday party it was a big one, she had planned a clown who made balloon animals.

And of course there were Twilight's and Fluttershy's birthdays, their birthdays were so close it was almost scary. Pinkie didn't mind though, she would've thrown a party for all of Ponyville if they asked her to.

Pinkie's mind wandered, she was so tired. She wanted to just sleep forever.. That actually sounded really good. But she couldn't sleep. She didn't want another nightmare. So she just snuggled deeper into her pillows and thought.

She thought a lot.

She thought about all her friends, and how good she felt throwing these parties for them. She knew her friends loved her and her parties, no matter what. She was Pinkie Pie! How could she not throw a great party!?

But the more she thought about it.. How many times did other ponies thank her for the parties she threw them? Not many. She didn't even know if Pipsqueak had thanked her.

Pinkie scowled as she looked down to her wood floor. It wasn't fair. Did every-pony think she was just a party-planning machine? She sighed as she tugged her blanket over her head.

Her hair was flattening again, she hated when this happened. It didn't happen often, Thank Celestia. But when it did, Pinkie thought of the world quite differently.

Pinkie desperately tired to think of happy things, like Fluttershy's new crop of baby chickens... Or happy sunflowers blooming in the bright green meadow.. It didn't help.

Frustrated, Pinkie threw the covers off and slid off her bed. The floor was cold and she shivered as she trotted over to her full-length mirror.

The semi-familiar straight haired version of herself was starring back at her with the same scowl she had on her face. She frowned deeply and her mirror-self frowned back.

Pinkie sighed as she pulled at her pink hair, she didn't really like it but hay, it worked. Pinkie smiled softly to herself as she ran her hoof threw her mane. It felt surprisingly good, it felt like silk.

Pinkie spun around and looked at her full body. She had grown a lot in a couple of years, it seemed she finally had her growth spurt. She smiled as she formed a sultry pose just for the heck of it in the mirror, along with a sexy look on her face.

To her surprise, her reflection winked at her.

Pinkie stopped being 'sexy' and  turned around. She stared as her reflection smiled brightly at her.

"What in Equestria is going on?" Pinkie exclaimed, shaking a little.

To be continued...

Pinkamena's return

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Voices in My Head

by ponyofawesome92

Edited by firebirdabirdmadeoutoffire

Chapter 4 - Pinkamena's return

Pinkie gasped as her reflection talked back to her... Well it talked to her in her mind, with a voice surprisingly matching her own.

"Did you miss me, Pinkie?" The voice said. Pinkie blinked stupefied as her reflection laughed.

"Wow, you really should look at your face right now.. Here I'll show you!" Pinkamena continued as she mocked Pinkie's true reflection, but she quickly returned back to herself.

"Would you please stop.." Pinkie whined with a frown. Pinkamena just laughed, she laughed so hard she had to hold her stomach.

"Please stop!!" Pinkamena mocked, making fake tears come out of her eyes.

Pinkie growled and turned herself away from her. If there's one thing Pinkie hated, it was being laughed at.

Pinkamena looked a little hurt inside the mirror. She scowled at Pinkie and sighed dramatically.

"You can be a real party pooper you know.." Pinkamena said sourly with a pout.

"I don't know what you're talking about, I throw great parties.. Ask my friends." Pinkie replied with a stomp of her hoof. She had just about enough of this.

"Oh, sure you do... But I don't really think your friends appreciate them." Pinkamena replied softly. Pinkie frowned and turned away once again her eyes focusing on her bed.

Pinkamena sighed and stomped her hoof.

"Will you just listen for once. I'm just saying we're not that different!" Pinkamena exclaimed.

Pinkie turned as she thought about this, how in Equestria were they similar?

"No.. I'm not like you AT ALL.. You're the crazy, non-sensible side of me and I'm not crazy." Pinkie replied.

Pinkamena's eyes widened in shock. She laughed after Pinkie turned back towards her. She fell for it.

"Says the pony with voices in her head. Wow.. You are stupid aren't you?" Pinkamena mocked, she had a sly grin on her face.

Pinkie shivered as she fake smiled at her reflection.

"Oh, I'm not stupid, I just care about people.. There's a difference." Pinkie replied. Pinkamena just laughed again and Pinkie noticed her eyes flashed.

"Have you ever wondered what your friends think of you behind your back?" Pinkamena asked semi-sweetly, Pinkie shook her head and Pinkamena's smile grew.

"Why don't I show you?" Pinkamena whispered. Her voice faded in Pinkie's mind, along with Pinkamena's image.

Pinkie gasped as she saw Twilight in the mirror now. She was still in the library and it looked like she was talking to Spike.

"Hey, Spike!" Twilight was saying to Spike who was just entering the room, he looked sleepy like he just woke up from a nap.

"Hi, Twilight.." Spike replied with a huge yawn. Twilight smiled at him.

She and Spike walked over to the library and Spike sat down on one of the couches.

"Who was here? You guys woke me up." Spike complained as Twilight levitated a random book from a shelf.

"Oh, it was only Pinkie." Twilight replied and she rolled her eyes. Spike looked mildly interested.

"What did she want now?" Spike said in an accusing tone.

"Well.. She wanted me to help her with something stupid again.." The mirror Twilight lied.

Pinkie gasped, why were they being so mean?

Spike laughed a little at this and Twilight joined in.

They faded away. Replaced by Applejack.

"How's your day sis?" Big Macintosh asked his orange coated sister.

"Well Ah had done some mighty fine business. Just look at all of them bits Ah earned today." Applejack told Big Mac before she sighed.

"What's wrong?"

"Ah saw that stupid Pinkie again today."

"Oh. Please tell me you haven't accepted another of her parties." Big Mac replied worriedly.

"Technically, I did but Twilight and the rest of the gals finally decided to celebrate her birthday on a different day so we can avoid her. Ah also gave her some the 'special' apples for her pie." Applejack laughed maniacally.

"Ya mean?"

"Yeah. The apples that Applebloom somehow accidentally mixed with Poison Joke!"

"Yer getting smarter every year A.J."

"Ah know." She began chuckling. Big Macintosh joined in. He laughed pretty hard too.

Pinkie's jaw was twitching. The vision changed once again. The walls and floor were all white, there was a lot of cloud furniture. Rainbow Dash and Fluttershy were playing darts competitively.

The dartboard was just your standard one. Just with a picture of Pinkie with the word 'stupid' written under it taped to it.

Rainbow Dash threw a dart. It landed on Pinkie's eye. Rainbow Dash sighed as she wrote down her score.

Now it was Fluttershy's turn. Her dart landed in Pinkie's nostril (Inner green 16). Both Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash laughed their flanks off.

"No.. NO!" Pinkie screamed as a tear dropped down from Pinkie's eye.

She now saw the inside Carousal Boutique. "Finally. My new wine has arrived. I still need to drink the previous stupid Pinkie Party away. But what is there to do about but wine-ing." Rarity giggled at her little pun.

All the laughter of her friends came back as disembodied heads circling around her.

Pinkie's shock turned to anger as the images faded back into a laughing Pinkamena. Pinkie ran to the mirror and placed her front hooves against it, and she cried out to Pinkamena.

"Is everypony really saying those mean things about me? Do they really mean those things?  That I'm stupid?" Pinkie asked ending the sentence in a squeak.

Pinkamena just sighed comfortingly. "Yup, 'friad so. Awful 'aint it?"[i/] She lied. Not that Pinkie noticed.

Pinkie sobbed as she pressed her face onto the mirror. "How do I make it stop?" She asked after a long while of crying.

Pinkamena seemed to really enjoy Pinkie's sobbing, but Pinkie of course couldn't see this. Pinkie only heard the sweet musical voice telling her..

"You can become.. Like me."

Pinkie grumbled to herself as she paced around in her room. Pinkamena was long gone by now, but her words were still etched in her mind. Like ink on parchment.

You can become like me.

Pinkie didn't want to be like Pinkamena, but she didn't really know what Pinkamena was actually *like. When she was in that state everything she did would be wiped out of her memory after a while. She didn't know why it just always happened.*

Pinkie sighed as she started to trot down the stairs. She was still mad at her friends for saying such awful things about her so she decided to go and talk to Twilight, to see if she really meant it.

Pinkie got down the stairs and she quickly trotted by Pumpkin and a sniffling Pound. She didn't want them to see her like this.

Pinkie smiled faintly as she finally got passed the twins and through the door. The twins were trying to get her to play, but Pinkie just wasn't in the mood. So she quietly and quickly passed them.

It was getting darker by the hour now, and the sky was almost a coral color. Pinkie shivered as a cool twilight air swept by her. Pinkie frowned as she walked down the road to Twilight's library, her mind wandering again.

Gently Twilight picked up a roll of very old parchment on her desk. Princess Celestia had told her it was an ancient and very powerful spell, she herself had learned it and was now passing on to Twilight.

Twilight had felt pretty honored when Celestia had sent her a message via Spike that she should learn this spell. But now that she held it in her hoofs, she didn't feel so confident anymore.

"Spike, what if I can't do this?" Twilight asked nervously. Spike sighed, Twilight had asked him this about three times now and it was getting kind of old.

"Come *on, Twilight! You're the Element of Magic!! Of course you can do it!" Spike encouraged for the fourth time. He reminded himself of a broken record.*

"Okay, Okay.. Just what if I?" Twilight asked but she was interrupted by a grunt from Spike.

"I'm not dealing with this all night, Twilight. Just do the spell, or don't do it. It's you're choice." Spike replied as he walked out of the room, leaving Twilight alone.

Twilight sighed as she finally rolled the parchment open. The spell looked pretty complex, but Twilight felt pretty sure she could do it. A couple of mutters and chants here, and a couple of flashes and she'd be done! But something about the spell seemed a little.. Dark..

Twilight wasn't really sure what it was, but the spell bothered her.

Pinkie took a deep breath as she walked towards Twilight's front door. She was gonna do this, she was gonna tell Twilight how she really felt, like Pinkamena.

She frowned and waited for what seemed like a long time. It was weird, usually Twilight left the library open later on weeknights.

Pinkie sighed and flicked her ears back impatiently. She didn't really care that Twilight had closed the library but it was a little rude to make somepony wait, wasn't it?

Pinkie's scowl deepened as she waited even longer, to make her mood worse it had started to rain. Hard. Pinkie shivered in the rain, both from cold and growing anger.

Pinkie left after a while, finally fed up with waiting. Unbeknownst to her, Twilight had been studying her new spell very diligently. She didn't hear her knock, she was so intent on learning this new spell.

Pinkie sniffled back her tears as the rain poured down on her. It was getting really dark now and Pinkie felt extremely alone.

The voices in her head were back.. and they were getting worse.

*She doesn't like you anymore.. The voice said, it sounded suspiciously like Twilight's but more deeper and it was raspy.*

Pinkie blinked back the tears as she tried to ignore the voice. The rain was coming down harder now and she kept splashing in random puddles on the street. She didn't really care, she just wanted to go home and mope.

Pinkie sighed as she got into Sugar Cube Corner. The shop was dark, it looked like there wasn't any power, because when Pinkie flicked the light switch to on, nothing happened.

"Great, just great.." Pinkie mumbled to herself, realizing this was like her nightmare.

Pinkie tried not to freak out as she walked up the stairs, she didn't like the dark and her past nightmares didn't really help. She kept remembering them.. She remembered how her inanimate friends had carried her up these same dark, damp steps and she shivered trying to keep back the memories.

Pinkie blinked as she tried to see through the darkness, she hoped the power would come on soon. She sighed as she crossed the hallway, looking for her familiar bedroom.

She finally found it after the long walk down the hall. Twice she stumbled into one of the bathrooms and the twin's room. Pinkie smiled to herself as she wandered into her bedroom.

Pinkie's bedroom was pitch black. She sighed and walked over to her bedroom, but to do this she had to pass her mirror. It was just as she feared, Pinkamena was still inside the mirror. Her eyes were glowing bright red.

*"Do you like my little storm? I made especially with you in mind." She asked with a laugh. Pinkie sighed and shook her head, making Pinkamena frown.*

"No, I don't. You of all ponies should know I don't like the dark.." Pinkie said, she pointed her hoof at her reflection accusingly

Pinkamena threw her head back and laughed. The wind outside grew as Pinkamena laughed harder. Her eyes flashing as she took brief looks at Pinkie's stunned face.

"S-stop laughing at me!!" Pinkie said as she began to tremble.

"Why? I'm the Element of **Laughter!! If didn't laugh like a Hyena than there's something wrong with me!"* Pinkamena replied, spitting out the word laughter.*

Pinkie looked at Pinkamena confusedly until the darker mare sighed.

*"You don't get it, do you?" Pinkamena asked her tilting her head a little.*

"G-get what?" Pinkie asked, trying not to cry and thrash at the mirror.

*"Your friends think you're stupid...That you're talent is stupid.. Your high pitched voice is stupid.. That everypony thinks you're stupid.. Everything about you is STUPID!!" Pinkamena shouted.*

Pinkie's eyes widened as her hair completely flattened, matching the pony in the mirror.

"That's.. Not... True.." Pinkie said in between sobs. Pinkamena just nodded her head slowly and smiled gleefully as she watched Pinkie's depression slowly turn into rage.

*"Oh, but it is my dear. It is.." Pinkamena replied in a semi-sweet tone. She smiled as Pinkie looked at her curiously.*

Pinkie stared at her dark reflection for a long, long while. She had no idea what time it was when she finally sighed and looked at the ground. She felt empty inside.

"So.. This is how it feels?" Pinkie said softly. Pinkamena smiled nodding.

*"Yes. Pinkie.. What do you think?" Pinkamena replied with a small grin.*

Pinkie sighed. If all those things were true.. If her friends weren't her friends anymore.. This emptiness...

"It feels *good.."*

Pinkamena beamed

The Busy Party Pony

Voices in My Head

by ponyofawesome92

Edited by firebirdabirdmadeoutoffire

Chapter 1 - The Busy Party Pony

Pinkie hopped along the crowded main street. She was busy today, she had about three parties to throw and she was getting supplies. The pink mare pulled along her trusty wagon and it was already filled with supplies.

There was so many things for Pinkie to do, she was so happy her friends all had special occasions to celebrate. Twilight had her birthday coming up, and all her friends had other extravagant things going on.

Pinkie's mind was so filled with these activities that she didn't even notice some of her supplies, mainly streamers, falling out of her wagon and rolling onto the ground.

Pinkie hopped along absently until she got to Rarity's. She beamed when she reached the front door. She knew she could always count on Rarity for some nice dresses.

Pinkie's hoof rang the doorbell and she hopped in place, she was still smiling and she smiled bigger when Rarity finally answered the door.

"Oh, Pinkie! I wasn't expecting you here. Do you need any-" Rarity was cut off from her question by Pinkie rushing into the dress shop and rummaging through her dresses.

"Hiya, Rarity! I'm just looking for a few supplies.." Pinkie replied with a grin as she tossed random items into her wagon.

Rarity sighed. "I noticed. Do you need anything specific?" She asked.

Pinkie shook her head. "It's fine, I have a list.. Somewhere." Pinkie replied as she pulled her wagon towards Rarity's counter.

"Alright then, that'll be fifteen bits." Rarity said eyeing all the things in Pinkie's wagon.

Rarity gave Pinkie a curious look. "What's with all the decorations?" She asked.

Pinkie beamed as she pushed her money onto the counter and Rarity took them.

"Oh, that's for all the parties going on this week! I'm kinda behind schedule.." Pinkie sighed as her smile dimmed a little.

Rarity nodded understandingly; she herself was behind a little. She had three orders she needed to take care of before the end of the week, and the clients were fussy ones.

"Well, thanks for the stuff Rarity! I'll see you at Twilight's party?" Pinkie asked as she walked out of Rarity's boutique.

Rarity smiled and nodded. She couldn't wait to give Twilight a new dress design she'd been working on, the wing holes weren't even noticeable.

"I'll be there, a Pinkie party is not one to miss!" Rarity beamed at Pinkie who smiled right back.

"Especially if it's a royal one!!" Pinkie replied and she hugged Rarity and waved goodbye as she walked down the street.

"Okay so that's Twilight's party done, and check off the decorations for Rainbow's too." Pinkie muttered to herself as she pulled out her checklist from her saddle bag some time later.

"Now what's next?" She asked herself as she walked down main street once again.

"I think I need to ask Fluttershy for the music. Twilight would like a bird choir for sure!" Pinkie smiled to herself as she changed paths and headed towards Fluttershy's house.

"Ooh.. I'm sorry Pinkie.. Don't be mad but, my birds aren't ready for a royal party. They might get stage fright." Fluttershy explained and Pinkie laughed.

"Oh Flutters! It's only Twilight!! Not Princess Celestia or Princess Luna!" Pinkie replied as she put her arm around her friend.

"Oh! In that case.. You should probably take the bluebirds, they have the sweetest voices!" Fluttershy replied happily and more confidently as she strode with Pinkie over to her birds's tree.

"Thanks Fluttershy! How am I gonna keep them in my wagon?" Pinkie wondered as she scratched her head with her hoof.

Fluttershy giggled. "How about I bring them when I come to Twilight's?" Fluttershy replied sensibly.

Pinkie beamed at her. "That would work! Thanks!!" Pinkie replied with a laugh.

"No problem. I know how you like your parties to be... um. epic." Fluttershy said with a small smile.

"Epic is right! I'm the best party thrower in Ponyville!!" Pinkie replied happily, she wasn't bragging. It was just the truth.

"Yeah you are. Well, I'll see you there Pinkie.." Fluttershy said as Pinkie hopped off happily.

Pinkie was happier than she had been this morning and she had been very happy. The sun was set in the middle of the sky and Pinkie smiled up at it.

Pinkie wondered what Rainbow Dash was doing. She hadn't seen her blue friend all day, usually she saw her clearing the clouds or napping somewhere.

"Oh well.. She's probably busy too!" Pinkie told herself as she continued walking.

Pinkie had been walking all day, and she was beginning to get a little hungry so she decided to get some lunch.

"Oh! Hi Pinkie!" Twilight called from the restaurant. Pinkie gasped and hid her wagon, the sudden movement made some of her supplies fall out.

"Hiya Twilight! What're you doing here?" Pinkie asked as she awkwardly pulled her wagon behind her.

"Well.. I was waiting for Rainbow. She was supposed to be my flying coach, but she never showed up. So I'm just having some lunch." Twilight replied.

"I wanted some lunch too! I'm starving!" Pinkie replied as she swiped the seat Twilight had been saving for Rainbow.

"Oh, alright." Twilight replied. She had picked up a menu and Pinkie did the same.

Pinkie already knew what she wanted; she always got the exact same thing when she went here. An Apple Crumble with a side of Hay Fries.

"Are you excited for you're birthday, Twilight?" Pinkie asked with a look over her menu.

Twilight just nodded.

Pinkie's ears fell a little and she gave Twilight a small smile.

"What's wrong, Twi?" She asked.

Twilight sighed. "It's nothing.. Nothing you need to worry about! I'm fine." Twilight said unconvincingly.

Pinkie's ear twitched. She hated it when her friends said she didn't have to worry about things, Pinkie Pie worried about lots of things. If somepony was sad or angry-it worried her.

"C'mon, Twilight. I'm you're friend. I'll understand." Pinkie smiled at Twilight.

Twilight just sighed and smiled back, she didn't want to worry Pinkie with her lame worries-Pinkie probably wouldn't even care.

"It's okay. Really." Twilight said with a smile.

Pinkie nodded and smiled back, just in time for their lunch to be served.

"Hey these fries are burned!" Pinkie noticed.

Pinkie sighed as she flopped onto her bed. It had been a crazy day and she was exhausted. She had finally gotten all of her planning done and it had taken much longer than she'd thought it would.

"Oh Gummy, what's a pony to do? All these parties are wearing me out." She said to her pet alligator, who had grown much bigger after a couple of years. Pinkie wondered if he would fit in her bathtub now.

"Don't get me wrong, it's still worth-while. But I'm not sure if my friends appreciate all the hard work I have to do preparing them.." Pinkie continued, still talking to herself.

Gummy wasn't the talkative one. He couldn't talk at all.

Pinkie sighed as she watched Gummy snap his jaws in response.

"I know they're good friends and would never hurt me.. Gummy you're so silly!" She exclaimed.

Pinkie crossed her arms and looked around her room, things were getting really messy. Her usually tidy bedroom was pretty much trashed. Various things had been thrown in random corners and things on the walls were askew or had fallen off completely.

Jeez.. I have to clean up sometime.. Pinkie thought. She smiled as Gummy tried to cheer her up by trying to eat one of her balloons she used for parties.

"Thanks Gummy, but I don't think we can eat our problems away." Pinkie said as she snuggled into bed.

Pinkie's smile dimmed as she settled into a very disturbing nightmare.