III - Moon's Past

Moon's Past

"When I was born, I took over Princess Luna's mind and made those feelings stronger in a very short time." Moon said calmly as she continued on, "I was making her do all of the things she did all that time ago. I just couldn't get enough of the envy she had for her sister, it fed my power over her will to the point that all I had to do was repress her thoughts to my will." I listened carefully to her as she explained that process but I didn't really understand the complex parts. "After a while I had enough power to challenge Princess Celestia at her full power. I waited patiently for the right moment then I lashed out a Celestia."

I could understand that much but something was nagging at me that I had to ask. "Moon?" She gave me a questioning look but she seemed to pause her story for a moment for me to speak. "I can understand that you lashed out at Celestia but why did you have to? I mean I know you were created by negative feelings but I don't fully see or understand why you had to do what you did. While as a friend I can try to respect whatever decisions you made in the past, but as a normal per-... er pony I can't really see why you'd just do it." Moon's face scrunched up in possible thought or anger, I'm not fully sure which so I decided to shut up after I said that.

"..." Moon remained silent for a long while and it was getting really awkward for me. I tried to direct my attention to the room we were sitting in but after a minute or two it got even more awkward for me. "I don't know." I looked back to her to see her looking at me with almost pure void of emotion. "I really don't know why. It's possible that I just thought it would make myself happy and maybe Luna too, but I can't fully remember back that far what I thought about that." That statement struck me as odd, why couldn't she remember?

"You don't remember? Why not?" Moon just shook her head and shrugged a bit at my question. "Hm, maybe Luna has that memory... I mean you both shared a mind right? So, there maybe a possibility that she has that part. There might even be some memories you have that Luna doesn't." Moon cocked her head sideways slightly and seems to understand what I was saying because her eyes had widened in possible realization of what I just had said to her.

"You must be right..." She stood up from where she was sitting and walked to the window and looked out of it. Curious as to what she was looking at I also made my way over to the window she was at. The window was huge, it must have been an old stain glass window at one time. Looking up to her eyes and guessing where she was looking I spot what looks like to be a town or village in the distance.

"Moon... Why don't we try going to that town in the distance, it doesn't look that far away. It may be that you could start looking for forgiveness there." I look up to find she wasn't looking out the window anymore but looking down at me with a slight frown and a less than happy look in her eyes. Those turquoise dragon-like eyes seemed to be filled with a regret and sorrow. I couldn't say anything further because that sad look made my words freeze in my throat. I decided to not pressure her anymore, instead I did what I thought would make her smile. I edged closer to Moon and hugged her. I could feel her move a bit as if she was uncomfortable but after a few seconds she hugged me back gently.

"I- " Moon started as she let go of me and I let go of her as well. "... Thank you Jay, I needed that more than I thought I did." I gave her a smile and a nod to which she stood up. "I think going to that little town would be a good idea but maybe it would be best for us to go in the morning."

I smiled a bit wider and nodded again in agreement getting up slowly hoping not to fall flat on my face. "I just wish I could walk without worrying about falling on my face." One of my hooves slipped out from under me just after I said that to myself and I felt myself freeze in mid fall and be put into a standing position as Moon stared at me from what I could tell the whole time. "Did you stop me from falling?" She shakes her side to side slowly a few times. "O~okay that's getting a bit creepy..."

A nod of agreement was about all I got from Moon and a uninterpretable mumble. I was confused as to what she was mumbling about, but I pop my neck and look around, unsure what to do now that there is a now growing awkward silence in the room. So, I turned on my mental music player. I've memorized so many songs that I just think of the lyrics or the tune and it starts playing as if from a CD or YouTube into my ears like I actually had headphones in. I start slightly nodding my head with my eyes closed with the beat of Streamline by Newton.

After about 3 minutes of it I got annoyed and switched songs to Up in the Sky by 77th Bombay Street and made my way around the room inspecting various cracks in the walls, crumbled pillars, and shredded banners. I started mouth the words about into the 5th line of the song and continued from there. I got so caught up in the song that halfway through I started singing it in normal volume. I almost got so caught up in the song that didn't hear Moon call my name.

"Jay, what is that your singing. I've never heard it before."

"Up in the Sky, and I wouldn't be surprised if you haven't heard of it. It's a song from where I'm originally from." I explain to her as the song starts again in my head.

"It reminds me of when I was on the moon with Luna. She always asked to sing with me and I scolded her for it..." She clearly felt bad about it by the new frown appeared and she stared at the ground. I immediately turned my mental player off and go over to her. She was laying on the ground now clearly beating herself up about what she did all that time ago.

So, I did what I could guess no per- er... pony has done before I laid right next to her and wrapped her in my wing the best I could given I'd never even tried to use them and I don't have full control of them yet, plus her size compared to mine it didn't really work like I had envisioned but I think I got my message across. One of Moon's wings wrapped around me pulling me to her, I could only smile as I felt her warmth, and it got to my rather quickly, for soon I was asleep in Moon's warm embrace.