Looking Back

"I'm still confused. Seriously, are you a ghost or something?" Pinkie asked."You could say that", the strange voice replied.

"Ooh, are you the ghost of a zombie? Because zombies are scary!" Pinkie innocently stated.

"I'm not a zombie ghost. But trust me Miss Pie, I'm VERY scary."

Pinkie still didn't understand any of this. How could she? None of it made any sense. It was downright inexplicable. "Let me take you back Miss Pie." And just like that, Pinkie found herself at the old rock farm. She was looking at her ma yelling at her sister. "You children don't appreciate anything. Sure, your dinner may be made of rocks. What does it matter? You children dread the thought of dinner! Well guess what? Imagine not even knowing if you were GETTING dinner!" "Exactly," she could hear her father's rough voice,"You kids don't even deserve to live on this beautiful land!" Pinkie saw the sadder version of her again next to her saying, "All I ever wanted was to please him. And all I ever did was FAILED.Do you know what fail means, Princess? Oh that's right, you don't. Because your mind is merely filled with sunshine and rainbows! Well guess what! Not everyone gets to live in PinkieVille." Pinkie wanted to know more about what this 'Saddy Pie', as she would say, had to say. She then heard her say in a deep, spooky voice,"NOT EVERYONE GETS TO BE HAPPY." "We'll that's plain horrible!" She innocently replied. "Predictable Pinkie. Well guess what. All I ever wanted was to be happy. All I ever wanted was to get to have the same joy as others. But I was cheated. They got their happiness. And guess what I got. ROCKS. STUPID, STUPID ROCKS." Pinkie's eyes followed Pinkamena as she slowly strutted around. "You have everything. You mindless, little THIEF!" "That's not very nice to say!" Pinkie exclaimed. "Well guess what. The world isn't very nice. Tell me Pinkie, do you remember your childhood?" "Yep! I grew up in the bake shop! That's where I learned to make cupcakes, and brownies, and other bakery delights!" "Your'e a delight Pinkie." "Thank you!" "IT WASN'T A COMPLIMENT!""Oh."

"And that wasn't your childhood. It's just what you remember. That's because I lived your childhood. I lived the hard parts FOR you.""Well that's VERY nice!""Oh Pinkie. When will you learn? I'm not NICE. YOU'RE not nice. WE'RE not nice."

"Well maybe you shouldn't be such a grumpy-pants!""SHUT UP MERE ONE!" Pinkamena's voice angered Suddenly, Pinkamena's father started beating her sister."You shouldn't do that! Apologize to her! NOW!" Pinkie scolded her father.

"Silly pony, they can't hear you. They can't hear me either. This is a flashback. But they can hear filly me. See, there I am."

(Filly Pinkamena) "Father, you truly are a despicable pony. I'm done trying to please you." "You should have stopped trying a long time ago. You never will please me. You never have and never will.", said her father.

(Present Pinkamena) "Those words echoed in my brain Miss Pie. Well, our brain."

"Weird, considering its a rock farm, not a cave. Wow, did I just say something smart?"

"You never did have a bright mind. At least you didn't have a dark mind, like me."

"But you've been saying this whole time that I AM you!"

"Well, it's complicated. YOU wouldn't understand honey."

"Oh. I wouldn't?"

"You're much too happy."

"I'm not THAT happy." Pinkie said.

"Yes you are. You shouldn't be though, considering everyone in your life thinks your'e dumb and hates you."

"Not true!"

"True indeed. They have to make everything they say more simple when you're around because you're so dumb. Not surprising you're so dumb though. You've lost a while of education. You know, since you don't remember anything from your filly years since I had to live them FOR you."

"I- I don't g-get you." Pinkie stumbled upon her words, knowing that for sure Pinkamena would contradict her.

"Not surprising. You don't get anything. Because the world is so simple for you. It's like you live in a dream. But guess what. Guess what. I am your opposite. I live in a nightmare. You do too. You just don't realize it yet. Everyone thinks you're dumb and hates you. You shouldn't be happy. Wait till you find your nightmare. Then you'll understand."

"I DON'T LIVE IN A NIGHTMARE! LEAVE ME ALONE!"

"Oh, so I see. The anger is teeming out of your top. I see myself in you. Probably because you ARE me." Pinkamena was obviously very clever.

"I'M NOT YOU! AND I'M NOT DUMB AND EVERYBODY LOVES ME! EVERYONE HATES YOU! WITH GOOD REASON! NOW STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME SAD!"

"Oh Miss Pie, dear, I'm not making you sad. The sadness is already in you. It's always been in you. You're just finding it now."