Seeing Yellow

I woke up with Fluttershy in my arms, exactly in the same positions we were in when we went to sleep. I sighed. Today was the day. A day I have been dreading for the past year and a bit. July 13, 2018. This day would be filled with more love than all the others, but also more heartbreak. We spent the entire day and afternoon together, not speaking much, just holding each other so hard that it might take a crowbar to separate us. Unlike all the others days I have experienced over the last year, this day went quick. Morning, afternoon, night, it all seemed to blur together.

It was 11:33pm. Fluttershy had gone out for one last fly around. I was sitting in my living room, having a look through my spellbook once more. Just for fun. I was about halfway through when something caught my eye. Large letters spelt, "Appearance Spell.". I couldn't believe how I missed this before. The words were so large and obvious. I don't know how I couldn't of seen it. I must of read this book hundreds of times. But here it was. A spell I didn't notice before. A spell that caused invisible objects to be revealed to all people in a 5 metre radius. I dropped the book. My mind was racing. Fluttershy was technically an 'invisible' object. My mind already formed a plan. I picked up my phone and dialled my friend. He picked up on the fifth ring.

"Yeah?" he asked.

"If you want to see Fluttershy, get to my house now."

"What? Now? Do you know what time it is?"

I checked my watch.

"Yes. 25 minutes from midnight. 11:35pm Just get over here now!"

"I'll be over in a few minutes. This better not be a prank or I swear I-"

I slammed the phone back on its hook, cutting him off. If he came, then he could see Fluttershy before she had to leave. Then he would know for all these years that I wasn't lying. Plus, he would be able to see his favourite pony. I could only imagine his expression when he saw her. I picked up the book and checked the spell. It wasn't that hard at all. I memorised the spell just as Fluttershy flew back in.

"How was your flight?" I asked.

"Same as usual." she replied.

"I've called my friend. He's coming over to see you."

"See me? You said that no one apart from you could see me."

"Another spell." I replied simply. I checked my watch again. 11:40pm. "Come on. Lets get ready."

She nodded. I cleared a small space in the living room, which I knew I should have done before. I lit some candles. The book had specified that at least three candles be lit in the room when casting the spell. I lit 5. One for each year she had been in my world. I turned off the lights, then Fluttershy and I sat down in the center of the room. These candles were really good. I could see the entire room with the light from the flickering flame. I checked my watch once more. 11:42pm. 5 minutes left. I didn't need to check my watch all the time. I already had set my watch alarm to 11:47pm. The time I had to cast the spell. But I liked checking my watch. Fluttershy had two things with her. The collection of my Fanfictions and the necklace. I still didn't know if they would go back with her to her world. I hope they did.

"This is it." Fluttershy said. "Our last moments together."

I nodded. "This last year and a few months have gone slow for me. But I enjoyed that."

"Because you got to spend time with me?"

I nodded and we both laughed. Her laugh was still the same lovely laugh I heard when I first talked to her. I remember back to the trashed kitchen.

"Yeah... more time with you."

I then grabbed her right hoof, holding it in both my hands.

"Fluttershy, I want you to know." I felt tears running down my face. "This past year and a few months have been the best time of my life. Before you came into my life, it was meaningless. I was just living one day through to the next. I wasn't living life. And, when my family died, and you revealed yourself to me, I started to live again."

Her eyes were also filling with tears.

"For months afterwards, I had something I never really ever had. Someone to listen to me. You certainly listened to me. And you found that tree on that hill, and I took that picture." I drew the picture from my pocket and held it up to her. "This one here." I replaced the picture back in my pocket. "We became close, you and I."

I trailed off and when I started to speak again I started to choke up, but I pushed myself to continue.

"Then, when my brother died, I did the unforgivable. I made you cry. And you ran away."

She was openly crying now. Tears leaked out of her eyes and down her face. Her soft, beautiful face. I let go of her hoof and lightly grabbed her shoulders.

"That was the worst time of my life. I could never forgive myself for what I did, and I never expected you to either. Days passed, and I had a hole in my soul. One that I knew could only be filled with you."

I couldn't continue for a few seconds. And then I found my voice.

"So I went to the tree. I had given up looking for you. I threw that picture away. I didn't deserve your love. So, I was about to leave when I heard something land next to me."

She was smiling now, tears still coming down her face.

"I couldn't believe my eyes. But you had returned. And you had the picture I threw away. You passed the picture across to me, and I read what you had wrote on the back."

I pulled the picture out once more, turned it over and read.

"I forgive you, and I love you. -Fluttershy. That's what you wrote. So I wrote back. Fluttershy, I've missed you. My life was, and will be, meaningless without you. Your forgiveness to my actions is all that I wanted. And you have forgiven me. Fluttershy, I will never, as long as I live, yell at you again. I love you too. -Michael. You gave more than I wanted, more than I deserved. Your forgiveness. But you also made me find something very special."

She wiping some tears out her eyes with her hoof as I said this.

"I found my love Fluttershy. You. You and I, together. We returned home together that night, in the rain. You came into my room and laid your head on my chest. And man, what a feeling. The day after, I gave you communication with animals, something you could freely do in your world, but was impossible in mine. And afterwards, I told you I had to send you back to your world."

She looked down at the ground, tears still coming out of those eyes.

"It was a hard choice for me to make. Especially after you had confessed your love to me. But it made that year and a few months we've lived together all the more special."

I touched the necklace around her neck. The same one I had given her for Christmas. The same one I had around my neck. I touched her chin and moved her face up so it was level with mine. My small green eyes met her large aqua ones. I moved my hand from her chin, and caressed her cheek. She closed her eyes at my touch. I leaned in and kissed her lightly. Her eyes flew open. In surprise? Or was she about to use 'The Stare' on me? However, she closed her eyes again and returned the kiss. For several moments, we kissed, and for a guy who had never been kissed by a girl before, this was paradise. I knew then that I could never love anyone more than I did Fluttershy. The beauty of my own species quailed in comparison to the mare I was kissing. My hands found the back of her head and I started pushing it lightly, deepening the kiss. I felt her hooves do the same to the back of my head. It would be the first and last time we ever kissed.

The door opened behind me. I stopped kissing Fluttershy and we laid our foreheads against each other. I saw a tear falling down her face. I wiped it aside and looked out of the corner of my eye I saw my friend standing in the doorway. He was looking at me with a surprised expression on his face.

"Did you- Were you just-" he struggled to get the words out. He shook his head a couple of times and took several deep breaths.

"Did you just kiss-" he started. I silenced him with quick flick of my hand. I turned my attention back to Fluttershy. I started to slowly brush her long pink hair with my hand. I checked my watch.

11:46pm.

"Fluttershy, it's time for you to go."

I saw my friend rolling his eyes, but I didn't care. Cliché sayings aside, it was the truth. I moved so I was kneeling to the left of Fluttershy. I placed my hand gently on her soft coat and spoke a few lines of ancient dialect. There was a flash of light, followed by the familiar drain of my energy, and I looked at my friend. His jaw dropped. He fell to his knees and basically crawled over to the yellow mare, his hand extending out, reaching for her hoof. He took it; Fluttershy smiled at him warmly. His expression was one of many emotions. Shock, awe, wonder, happiness, relief and more noticeable, sadness. He looked up at me, tears forming in his eyes.

"Do you have to?" he said, voice barely more than a whisper.

I nodded, barely having the strength to speak. I understood his pain. Fluttershy was his favourite pony, and, for the past few years, I have been seeing her almost daily. Not only that, but she loved me. My friend had only just seen her, realised her true existence, and now she had to go... It was unfair, but it had to be done. I heard a noise. My watch alarm had gone off. I placed my other hand on Fluttershy's cutie mark and continued speaking. The unrecognisable words flowed from my mouth without fail. My hands grew warm and started to glow. Fluttershy also started to shine; a brilliant yellow light emanated from her, filling the darkened room with light. I finished my spell and looked at Fluttershy. She looked back, smiling sadly. Then she caught me off guard with a hug. She was warm; nice and soft to hold. I could feel her heart beating, slowly and steadily inside her. She whispered in my ear, a small quavering voice.

"Don't forget me."

She started to glow brighter now, and her time on this world was shortening. She had grabbed the Fanfiction ring binder. I then realised. I hadn't written any Fanfiction for over a year. I held her and whispered back.

"I won't. Don't forget me either."

"I won't. I'll write to you."

We both laughed, but we both knew we wouldn't see each other again. And we both knew she couldn't write to me.

"I'll write back. As soon as I get your letter."

"Goodbye." she whispered.