I Understand

by marineproductions100

Rating: teen
Tags: Slice of Life, Dark, Sad, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dinky Hooves, Romance, Fluttershy, Derpy Hooves
Length: 4436

Derpy has been shunned and hated by her family. She has been beaten by many. Years have past and now she has a daughter now. She has friends now.She is still a single mother. She's still haunted by her past. She found somepony to talk to. Who is

Derpy is a wonderful pony. Not a lot know that. Derpy is a single mother because many hate her. Derpy has been shunned and hated by her family for her countless mistakes. Derpy is still haunted by her past. She finally found somepony to talk to. That pony is Fluttershy. Fluttershy comes over to talk about Derpy's past. Fluttershy can imagine every word that Derpy is telling her. Why is it that Fluttershy understands Derpy so well.

The following story is rated "teen" for mild language.

Published 2013-10-15 09:00:03 UTC
Last updated 2013-10-17 03:31:17 UTC

Chapter 1: Hello 'Shy

I Understand

Chapter 1: Hello 'Shy

Inspired by my sad mind.

Afternoon, Fluttershy's cottage. The sun was high in the sky. There were hardly any clouds. You could hear the birds chirping and the school bell a mile away. It was a beautiful day to get out and be about. But for Fluttershy. Its different today. Fluttershy is in her cottage in her living room.

Fluttershy was sitting right next to a window with the curtains open and Fluttershy was staring out the window. She saw a dirt road with nopony in it. She was just sitting there doing nothing. She had absolutely nothing to do. She took care of all her animals and all her chores around the cottage. Absolutely nothing to do. She was just sitting there daydreaming. Little birds flew by the window and it caught her off guard. She jumped and giggled to herself about the little scare. She looked at her mailbox and saw a grey pegasus with a sad look on her face. Fluttershy instantly knew who this pony was.

Fluttershy opened the window. "Hello Derpy."

Derpy looked at the cottage and smiled. "Hello Fluttershy."

"Can you I mean if it's okay with you. Um bring the letters to me?" Fluttershy asked sheepishly.

"Sure." Derpy replied.

Derpy flew over towards Fluttershy's window and landed herself right in front of Fluttershy. Derpy handed Fluttershy her letters and turned around.

"Um Derpy. Can I ask you something? I mean if it's okay with you." Fluttershy asked.

Derpy turned around to face Fluttershy. "Sure. You can ask me anything." Derpy replied.

"Um. Why do you always seem so you know sad?"

"Um....well...I don't really talk about it...You see it's a long story."

"Oh it's okay I'm not doing anything at all today."

"Well....How about we make a deal. You come over to my house after my shift and when Dinky gets home and I'll explain everything. Sound fair?"

"What time?"

"My shift ends at three o' clock and I'll pick Dinky up at three thirty. Come around at five because I don't want Dinky to hear this and that's what time she'll be at her sleepover today."

"Okay. Sounds good to me." Fluttershy smiled.

"Would you like dinner as well?"

"Oh that won't be necessary."

"Are you sure?" Derpy reassured.

"Yes I'll be fine." Fluttershy acknowledged.

"Okay then I guess I'll see you at five?"

"I'll see you at five o' clock." Fluttershy nodded.

"Okay. Goodbye Fluttershy." Derpy turned around and waved.

Fluttershy waved back. "Goodbye Derpy."

Derpy took off into the air and with a strange coincidence. The only cloud in the sky made Fluttershy lose sight of her. Fluttershy sighed and closed her window. She stared up at the sky and made sure that she couldn't find Derpy. Once she was she that she couldn't find Derpy, she went back to her daydreaming.

..........

Five 'o clock, Derpy's house. Derpy was in her living room sitting on the couch with Dinky in her lap. Dinky was sleeping and Derpy was brushing her mane. Derpy stopped brushing Dinky's mane and started to gently poke her back with her right hoof.

"Oh Dinky. You better wake up. Rarity will be here any minute to pick you up." Derpy said softly.

Dinky slowly opened her eyes and looked up at her mother. "What time is it?"

Derpy turned her head towards the clock. "Its five o' clock."

Dinky sprung out of Derpy's lap and onto the floor. "Oh my gosh, oh my gosh. Rarity will be here any minute with the cutiemark crusaders." Dinky was hopping all over the place.

Derpy simply just smiled and kept an eye on her to make sure she didn't knock over anything. "Who's in the cutiemark crusaders and what do they do again?"

Dinky stopped hopping so she could face her mother. "The cutiemark crusaders are to help fillies like me find their cutiemark. Um...There's Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, and Scootaloo, including me."

"Anyone else?"

Dinky placed a hoof on her chin. "There's Apple Bloom's cousin Babs Seed but she's in Manehattan." Dinky placed her hoof to the floor and smiled at her mother.

"I'm so glad that you have friends and they accept who for who you are. But you need to listen to Rarity and follow her rules. Understand?"

"Yes mommy."

"I love you muffin." Derpy pulled Dinky into a hug.

Dinky embraced the hug with a wide smile. "I love you too mommy."

*knock* *knock* Dinky jumped out of Derpy's arms and started hopping in place.

"They're here, they're here." Dinky cheered gleefully.

"I'll answer it." Derpy got up from the couch and towards the door.

Derpy answered the door and saw Rarity in the doorway.

"Hello Rarity." Derpy greeted.

"Hello Derpy. Is Dinky ready for her sleepover?" Rarity welcomed the greeting with a warm and encouraging smile.

"I'll check."

"Fantastic."

Derpy turned her attention towards Dinky. "Dinky are you ready?"

"Yes mommy."

Derpy faced Rarity. "She's all set."

"Splendid."

Dinky walked out the door and could not see any of the cutiemark crusaders. "Where are-" Dinky was interrupted by a dog pile by her fellow crusaders.

"Hey Dinky." The crusaders said in unison.

"Hey girls."
The crusaders got off of Dinky and stood in a line. They all wore a crusader robe and Dinky placed her hoof on her chin. The position they were in made it look like they were hiding something behind their backs.

"What'cha got behind your backs." Dinky asked.

Apple Bloom pulled out a cutiemark crusader robe. "This for you." Apple Bloom smiled.

Dinky made a wide smile on her face. "Oh thank you, thank you so much."

"Hey your apart of the cutiemark crusaders." Scootaloo said.

"Every member gets one." Sweetie Belle said.

Apple Bloom walked up towards Dinky and handed her the robe. Dinky took the robe out of Apple Bloom's hooves and slipped it on. Dinky looked down at the fabric and smiled at the site.

"Thank you so much." Dinky said again.

"Your welcome." The three said in unison.

"Are you girls ready?" Rarity asked.

"Yes Rarity." The crusaders said in unison.

"Thank you for doing this Rarity." Derpy said.

"Oh its no problem at all." Rarity acknowledged.

"I'll pick her up tomorrow afternoon."

"I'll see you then."

Rarity started walking away from the house and the crusaders followed her move. On their way out, Fluttershy was walking towards Derpy's house. They greeted Fluttershy and Fluttershy acknowledged the greeting and kept moving to Derpy's house. Fluttershy walked up to the door and smiled at Derpy's welcome.

"Hello Fluttershy." Derpy greeted.

"Oh hello Derpy. May I come in?" Fluttershy acknowledged.

"Certainly."

Derpy moved to the side and allowed Fluttershy inside. Fluttershy walked inside the house.

"Would you like something to drink?" Derpy asked.

"Some tea would be great." Fluttershy replied.

"What kind would you like?"

"Whatever you make is fine."

"I'll go get it started."

Derpy walked into the kitchen.

"You can sit on the couch. Make yourself at home." Derpy said from the other room.

"O-Okay." Fluttershy said.

Fluttershy walked up to the couch and sat down on it. She looked up at the ceiling and started to daydream. Moments later, her daydreaming was interrupted when Derpy walked in the room with an antique tea set. Derpy handed Fluttershy her tea and Fluttershy grabbed the tea and nodded.

"Thank you Derpy." Fluttershy thanked.

"Your welcome Fluttershy." Derpy acknowledged.

"Oh. You can call me 'Shy if you want to. I mean if that's okay with you."

"Okay. Your welcome 'Shy." Derpy smiled and sat down on the couch.

Fluttershy took a sip of her tea and faced Derpy. "Where do you want to start?"

"With what exactly?" Derpy took a sip of her tea.

"Earlier I asked you why you always looked depressed and you said its a long story. That's why I'm here. I am here to listen to you."

"Right. I forgot why you were here. *chuckle* Silly me." Derpy took another sip of her tea.

"Where does this story start?"

"Well.....My story starts when I was a filly."

(cliffhanger *chuckle*)

Author's Note

Decided to start this story off with a warm welcome. I hope you guys enjoyed the first Chapter and I will make more because this is something I enjoy making and hopefully you've enjoyed it as well. Also the cussing won't start until the next Chapter and it will be mild. Not excessive. :twilightsmile:

This story and message is for one of my dearest friends named Taythen. Thank you for being the only person in our group for reading my stories and enjoying them. Thank you for giving me your opinions. I know you need someone to talk to. So please talk to me my friend.

I hope you guys enjoyed and have a good day or night. :twilightsmile:

Chapter 2: The Beginning of Pain

Chapter 2: The Beginning of Pain

(the stories that Derpy will tell Fluttershy will be in a person/pony's perspective. Ex: I saw him beat me with a crowbar.)

"Well it all begins when I was a filly." Derpy said.

...........

Derpy's story.

I was thirteen around this time. Well I was walking home alone. I had a few cuts on all four of my legs because the kids were poking me with scissors that day. I kept my head low and I wasn't flying. Nothing was wrong with my wings its just that I felt powerless that day. So I walked. I kept on walking until I got home. Once I was home, I opened the door and walked inside. I went into the living room and saw my mother yelling at my dad. They stopped yelling at each other when I walked in the room and they noticed the cut marks.

"Oh my Celestia. What happened Derpy?" Mom asked.

"It's nothing mom." I replied quietly.

"What do you mean nothing. Sweetie look she has cuts and they're dripping blood." Mom freaked.

Blood? I looked down at my cuts and noticed that blood was starting to slowly stream down each leg. I started feeling dizzy and my legs started to feel shaky. I fell down on my front two knees and my dad reached out a helping hoof. I didn't take it. But instead I stood up and walked to the bathroom. My dad followed me into the bathroom. He sat me on the bathroom counter and pulled out a rag from one of the cupboards that were in the counter. He turned on the faucet on my left and started to wet the rag. He lifted my front left leg and started wiping the blood off my coat.

After he was done wiping the blood off of my legs, I walked out of the bathroom and into the hallway. I was making my way to my bedroom. But I was stopped halfway by my mother. She stood there with a worried expression on her face.

"Derpy are you sure that your fine? There was blood and you almost passed out." Mom said.

"Mom there's nothing you can do. What's done is done. Shit happens." I said softly.

"What did you say?"

I looked up at her confused. "Huh?"

She grabbed me by my front left hoof and jerked it towards her. I was jerked forward and she slapped me on the right cheek with her left hoof. I gasped and the sound echoed through the house. My dad walked out into the hallway and stared at us. I gazed up at my mother and she had this anger expression on her face.

"Don't you ever talk to me like that." She said aggressively.

"What did I-" I was interrupted when my mom shoved me away. I fell on the floor and gazed back at her once I was done collapsing to the ground.

"Go to your room and think of what you did."

"But-" Once again I was interrupted quickly.

"Go!" She yelled.

After she yelled, I ran straight to my room. I quickly opened and closed the door behind me. I slowly approached my bed and I saw the pillows. That's the first thing I ever notice of a bed. That's all I ever notice. I know that there are blankets and sheets. But the pillows always seemed to be the most important part to me of a bed. I picked up a pillow and held it in a hugging position. I laid on the bed while holding the pillow. I muzzled my face into the pillow and started to cry. It was an almost everyday thing in my life. Either I was broken by the kids at school or by my parents when I'm home. Sometimes its both like today. I'm telling you this one because it was the very first time my mother hit me. But it wasn't the last.

After a couple minutes of crying, I stopped hugging the pillow with my right hoof. I placed that hoof under the other pillow so I could pull out some.....vodka. It wasn't the strongest alcohol in the world but it was the strongest in the house. I stopped hugging the pillow completely and paid full attention towards the bottle. I placed my teeth on the lid and twisted the cap. There was something about vodka. It always smelled the same in every bottle but it had a different taste when it's by different brands. I placed my lips on the bottle and started to drink it. I was consuming it very slowly because if I chugged it down. I would have thrown it up quickly and the smell would have spread through the house.

I got through half the bottle and then I started feeling sleepy. I looked around for the lid. Because I forgot where I put it. I found the lid on the pillow I was holding. I picked up the cap and placed it on the bottle. I put the half filled or half empty container back under my other pillow and laid my head on it. I couldn't feel the bottle at all. The pillow was too soft to feel it. I grabbed the other pillow and held it close to me. I was laying on top of my thick covers that I still have today as an adult. It was always bigger than me. I got up for a quick moment and laid myself under the covers. There was a window on the right side of my bed. It was night outside. My dad didn't call me for dinner. I guessed that they didn't want to see me so it was best not to disturb me. I saw the mare in the moon. You know before Nightmare Moon came out of her prison. Well anyway. I laid my head against the pillow and stared at that moon. And soon my eyelids were getting heavy. I made a smile of approval because I always enjoyed going to sleep. I felt my mind drifting and my dream was on its way to me. I closed my eyes and soon I was asleep.

............

(Everytime we get out of Derpy's story. We get out of a person/pony's perspective. So your not confused.)

"Oh my goodness." Fluttershy said while covering her mouth with a hoof.

"What?" Derpy asked.

"It's just that.....Well." Fluttershy hid herself behind her mane.

"It's a lot?"

"No....I'm a bit shocked hearing this from another pony." Fluttershy stopped hiding herself.

"Fluttershy before I continue. There's something I want to ask you." Derpy set her tea on the table next to the couch.

Fluttershy did the same as well. "What is it?"

"Why are you here?"

"How about we make another sweet deal. If that's okay with you."

"Depending. Tell me what the deal is and I'll let you know."

"Okay um....You tell me your story and I'll give you my reason for being here."

"I guess that's fair. Sure, I can agree to that."

"Okay would you mind continuing?"

"Sure. Let's go a bit further. I was fourteen years old when this happened."

(another cliffhanger.)

Author's Note

I hope you guys enjoyed this Chapter. I wasn't really going to work on it but all it did to convince me was listening to some sad music. I also was writing a story that's sad but it's not on fimfiction or fanfiction. It's in my notebook and it's human. Thank you my friend Taythen and thank you guys who are reading this story. Means a lot and stick around for Chapter 3. Don't worry it'll be here soon. Have a good day or night. :twilightsmile:

Chapter 3: An End To Misery

Chapter 3: An End To Misery

"I was fourteen at the time." Derpy looked down at the ground and back up at Fluttershy. "Never mind." Derpy looked back down at the ground and lowered her head.

Fluttershy's ears perked up. "I-Is something wrong? Did I do something wrong?" Fluttershy asked.

The room stayed silent. Derpy lifted her head back up to face Fluttershy. "No its just that.....I don't want to talk anymore."

"Are you sure?" Fluttershy put a hoof on Derpy's shoulder. "Am I being a nuisance?"

"No, no, of course not. Its just that I.....I hate this memory." Derpy gently pushed Fluttershy's hoof off of her shoulder. "I don't want to remember it."

"Do you feel that talking about it would make you feel better?" Fluttershy asked

"No. I don't. I feel like it'll make it worst. But I'll just give you the short version of it. I won't go into details." Derpy replied.

"You don't have to do that. If you don't want to talk about it. I'll understand, don't worry." Fluttershy placed her right hoof over Derpy's.

Derpy looked down at Fluttershy's hoof and smiled. Derpy looked back up at Fluttershy. "A deal is a deal. But I'm going to give you the short version, alright?"

"Of course." Fluttershy smiled.

"O-okay. I was sixteen at this time."

.........................

I was in my room. On my bed. I was just staring at the ceiling. I was getting sleepy until I heard a THUD noise. Then, I heard my bedroom door open and the room started to reek of hard liquor. I reacted by curling myself up in a ball and stare at the door, while covering my head. It was my dad, he's drunk again. Dad tossed something at me and then I felt glass shattering on my wings.

"AAAHHH DADDY!" I screamed. Tears quickly started pouring out of the corner of my eyes and streaming down both of my cheeks. "What d-did I d-d-do this time d-daddy?" I sobbed the question out of me.

"Don't call me that you, you, you little f-fucker." Dad replied drunkenly. He seemed more drunk than he usually was. Like he just invaded the bar and chugged down everything they had. I knew I was in trouble, the only thing was. What was I in trouble for? "I'm sick of y-you living in t-this damn house, the thought of you l-living here is sssickening."

"W-what are you saying?" I wiped my eyes with my hooves. Once I was done wiping my eyes, I immediately placed them back over my head. Not wanting to risk a blow to the head.

"I want you out of here!" Dad yelled. He took a few steps towards me and started to smile. "Starting now!"

Dad grabbed me by my wings and threw me to the ground. He dropped my wings and grabbed my forehooves. Then, he dragged me out of my.....old bedroom. Then, down the stairs. I tried flapping my wings so I could stand up. But then dad would stop and throw my body into the wall. Then right back to dragging me down the stairs.

Eventually, we made it to the living room. I saw mom on the couch with a book in her hand. The title said fillies and colts adoption center. Right there and then, I knew what they were doing but I had to confirm it.

"Mom what's dad doing?" I asked.

Dad dropped me and then he slapped me with his hoof. He picked me up and brought my face up to his. "I told you not to call me that anymore!" Dad yelled.

"Oh what about Silk? Yes Silk will do." Mom smiled and looked at me. Once we made eye contact, her smile vanished and her face started frowning at me. "Why is she still here? I thought you told her already." Mom said.

"I just walked up the stairs and dragged her ass down here. I'm throwing her out the door right now!" Dad yelled at mom.

Mom's face turned from anger to a I'm sorry dear. Was work a little rough today? kind of face. "I'm sorry honey, I won't interrupt what your doing." Mom smiled.

I knew it, they're getting rid of me. Dad opened our front door (which was in the living room, right in front of the stairs) and grabbed me by my forehooves. He threw me at the open door and I tripped on one of our doorsteps. There was four, and I tumbled down the stairs. I barely could move. I almost had my neck snapped. Dad still had the door open. Once I was able to stand up, I looked at the open door.

"Don't ever come back here! We don't need ungrateful children like you!" Dad slammed the door.

Tears started to stream down my cheeks, again. I started walking away from my home....old home. I was walking all the way to the cliffs of Cloudsdale. Once I got there, I stared at the ground. I can't stay here anymore. I don't have a home or friends. I have to find a new home. So I flexed my wings, making sure they weren't badly hurt. Luckily they weren't injured. So I jumped off and flew to the ground.

.................

"Once I got to the bottom, I found this abandoned house and tidied it up. Got a job as a mail pony and about three months later I got drunk one night and woke up pregnant with Dinky. Eventually, she came out of my belly and we lived here in Ponyville ever since. That's what I want to talk about." Derpy finished her story and looked at Fluttershy.

"Oh.....my....goodness." Fluttershy pulled Derpy in closer towards her.

"What are you-"

"Shh." Fluttershy interrupted Derpy. "Trust me." Fluttershy wrapped both of her forehooves around Derpy's head and hugged her.

Derpy had her head on Fluttershy's chest. This feels nice, Derpy thought. This feels real nice. Derpy looked up at Fluttershy and their eyes met. "Its your turn." Derpy said.

"What?" Fluttershy asked.

"I did my part of the deal, now its your turn." Derpy replied with a soft voice.

Fluttershy's cheeks started to burn red. She sheepishly smiled. "I've been....um...wanting to...do something with....you for a while."

"What's that?" Derpy smiled.

"If I do this, will you promise not to hate me for it?" Fluttershy asked.

"I promise." Derpy replied.

"Pinkie promise?"

"Cross my heart and hope to fly. Stick a cupcake in my eye." Derpy pinkie promised.

"I've been wanting to do this." Fluttershy lowered her head to Derpy's and they locked lips together. Derpy didn't hesitate to kiss back.

Oh my gosh! She's kissing back, she's kissing back, she's kissing back! Fluttershy going frantic in her mind. Both pegasi closed their eyes and stayed in the same position for awhile. Eventually, Fluttershy broke the kiss and blushed. "I've always loved you Derpy. Everytime you came to my door to give me my letter, it'd always put a smile on my face. I always felt sad whenever your sad and I always felt nervous around you like my knees would get shaky and-" Fluttershy was interrupted by Derpy giving her another kiss on the lips. It was more of a passionate kiss than a shut up kiss.

Derpy broke the kiss and looked into the yellow pegasus' eyes. "I love you too. I just thought you weren't a fillyfooler. But I'm glad you confessed."

Fluttershy placed her lips onto Derpy's again. Derpy opened her mouth and Fluttershy did the same. Derpy slipped her tongue into Fluttershy's mouth and started wrestling her tongue with Fluttershy's. Then they swapped, Fluttershy's tongue was inside of Derpy's mouth and both of their tongues wrestled each other. Fluttershy retracted her tongue and broke the kiss.

"'Shy?" Derpy spoke softly.

"Yeah Derpy?" Fluttershy said. (same tone as Derpy's)

"Will you sleep here tonight, with me?" Derpy asked.

"Of course." Fluttershy replied.

Derpy laid her head onto Fluttershy's chest. Fluttershy (still having her hooves wrapped around Derpy's head) lightly kissed Derpy's mane and laid her head back against the couch cushion.

"Whenever you want to talk, Derpy. I'll always be here for you and I understand you completely." Fluttershy said.

Sleep slipped into Derpy's mind. Soon everything started to drift away and her eyes became heavy. She closed her eyes listened carefully to the sound of Fluttershy's heart and breathing. The sounds soothed her ears and soon she was asleep.

The End

Written By: Cameron aka marineproductions100

Author's Note

Hope you guys enjoyed it. Its not as long as I promised it but its just a short sad, and romantic story. Thank you so much for giving time out of your lives just to read this story. I know its not perfect but I enjoyed making it and I hope you guys enjoyed the little ending. I wanted to make it longer but I never had time to and this is not the only story I'm ending. I'm making one more chapter for "I Cry Blood" and "The Dead Rise". Honestly I bit off more than I could chew by putting out four stories at a time. Soon the final Chapters are coming out for the other stories and I'll have a new story up as soon as my cover art is done being made. Thank you for reading!

Message to my friend: Taythen. I hope your proud of me! I finally finished one of my stories and got a new chapter. Thank you for reading this story man and you've been really patient with me. I'm glad to have you as my friend. Love you man.

To rarityxspike: I know you go through rough times. But I want you to know that "I Understand" your troubles. And I'm here to talk to you man.

Have a good day or night and thank you for reading! :twilightsmile: