{Twilight’s P.O.V}

My heart stopped. What did Spike just say?

“Umm... Spike what exactly are you going to do at Celestia’s castle?” Honestly I felt happy, I have never been happier, and that scared me to my very bones.

“I am going to ask Celestia to marry us.” Yes I heard him right... Spike want’s to marry me... Oh my Celestia!! Spike wants to marry me! He loves me and he wants to marry me!! He... he loves me... and I love him... he wants to marry me... and... And I want to marry him... WHAT THE BUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!! I can’t feel this way about Spike! It’s immoral, it’s unethical, I could be arrested under penalty of law!! I’m disgusting!! I should feel horrified, ashamed, scared... But even when I know how I’m supposed to feel, even when I know that this is wrong... all I can feel is happy. I know I have a grin plastered on my face like some wonton whorse. I should be worried, concerned, I could be tossed in prison for this! Spike could be taken to a mental institu... They could take Spike away from me... no.

“Anyways come on. Go get the stuff you need.” We were at the tower already? Gosh I need to think of something! If Spike walks in asking Celestia to marry us... NO!! I won’t let them!

“Spike come with me... I might need you to carry some stuff.” I blurted whatever came to mind as I tried to make up a plan on the spot... I could use... No. That’s crueler than anything the noble houses or doctors could ever do to Spike. Is it worth losing him though?

“Okay Twilight.” Spike... You truly are the best thing that could ever happen to me. You know that right? Maybe I should have told you more times, maybe I could have showed you how... Maybe... maybe I can. There was one thing that would solidify my relation to Spike, both to myself and him, but it... It isn’t something that can be shared with the world.

We were already at the second level of the tower. It was now or never.

“Spike...” Come on Twilight you have to do this! “Can you come into my room please we need to talk about something.” This was a half truth, more so, I wanted him to help me make a decision. It was terrible, horrible even, but I will not lose him, not like that, not when I just got him. Celestia I need to stop this! He isn’t mine! He can’t be! He can be with those other mares, Lyra seems good, Bon-Bon too, they could treat Spike right... Maybe.

He would have to move with them though... When he gets older. Wait... If he gets older his dragon side could present itself more vividly than they already do. Scales are already showing on his body, little patches here and there but in a year they could cover his arms, legs, his head even! If they found out he was a dragon... Would they judge him for it? Would they toss him out onto the streets like some monster? Spike kept this a secret from everypony... How am I supposed to change their minds about dragons! Spike is special, he’s one in a million, one in a billion probably! But they would still judge him for simply being a dragon. Spike started shaking me.

“Twilight! Equestria to Twilight are you home!?” I looked at Spike. Just stared at him for what felt like a few seconds, a few hours, whatever it was it wasn’t enough. I looked at Spike. I took in every detail. His green hair, those deep jade eyes, his tiny little snaggletooth, the hoodie he was wearing, those deep blue jeans, his everything! His smell, the feel of his skin, not even the little detail escaped my inspection of him in that moment. He may have been scarred, terrified even, but if I... If it came to that I want this Spike to be the one I remember.

"Spike... How many ponies know you're a dragon, specifically?"

"Just Pony Joe. He was there when... Well he was the first pony, besides you of course, to see the little whelp grow up. Most ponies just forgot I even existed after a while." He spoke as he ran around my room picking up a scroll here and there, a book or two from the shelves, and a quill and ink well. He balanced all of these things perfectly in his two hands as he strode up to me in confidence.

'Look... He's so proud, happy, how can I even think of taking all that away from him?' My own mind was teasing me now. If you are presented two evils you pick the lesser of the two, that's how it works, that how it should work, but the lesser of the two evils is to let Spike be taken, to have him treated, cured probably, of the horrible things I've done to him now. I would go to jail for Celestia only knows how long. Spike would never see me again and he would be able to live a normal life with only a vague thought of kissing something. That was the better of two evils... But I wasn't strong enough to make that choice.

"Have you ever thought of loving somepony else Spike?" I asked, swinging my hoofs on the stool I sat on.

"Nope!" He said placing the amalgamated pile of supplies on the floor knowing it would be a while before we left. "You are the only pony that accepted me as a dragon from the get go. Every other pony thinks I'm just a pony. I've never really tried actually. I mean you’re smart, beautiful, kind, strong, what more can a hopeless dragon want?" His big toothy grin, the beam of light in a world of darkness, shone in that moment. It broke my heart to see it. It tore into my soul that such a kind, loving, and innocent creature could have ever known a horrible wicked monster like me.

"What if I had to send you away?" My voice was barely above a whisper when I asked that.

Spike's face contorted into his regular face of concentration. He was using every ounce of brain power he could to come up with an answer for this one question.

"You wouldn't." Was his response.

"What if somepony tried to take you away?"

"You would stop them."

"What if Celestia herself want you away from me?"

Spike looked horrified when I asked that. As if the possibility of such an action had not even corseted his mind.

"She... she wouldn't do that." His voice was weak and quiet.

"But what if she did?"

"She wouldn't!!" He yelled his eyes teary and ready to let loose a waterfall of emotions that I had been jabbing with a needle. "Why... Why are you asking that Twilight. You and... You and Celestia are everything to me." He choked a bit when he said that. "If... If you want me to go away that's fine... I mean if I bothered you today I'm sorry! We don't even have to be married! Just... Just promise me that if you do want me to go we can still be friends.. Okay?"

I smiled. A kind honest and true smile.

"Oh Spike of course we will always be friends, better than friends! You will be my husband! And I can be your wife." I said my voice dripping with honey and dew as those words escaped my mouth. "But before we get married I have to give you something very important something that if I give to you, you won't be able to give to anypony else. Can we do that?" My eyes were shut, my mouth pulled in that convincing smile, as I tipped my head in Spike's direction.

"Of course Twilight!! If it's important you can always count on this dragon to keep it safe!" He said making a salute with his cloth covered hand.

"Okay." I said simply.

Moving to Spike I grabbed him by the arm of his hoodie and lead him to the bed. Sitting down I placed Spike in front of me. Pulling at the zipper of his hoodie he complained.

"Twilight what are you doing? We gotta go out soon." He tried pushing my hands away from him as I pulled his hoodie off tossing the abhorable piece of clothing to the farthest reaches of the room. When I had completed that I placed my finger on his lips as well as mine and simply said 'shh' as I started to unbuckle his pants.

Spike had looked at me with curiosity before panics began to muscle in on his features.

"Twilight is the poison back!?" He began to move before my magic held him firmly in place.

"Don't worry Spike. That poison won't hurt me anymore. I found a cure. It's a bad cure. Really bad. So bad no one talks about it." My voice was aloof, mysterious, and held the hint of truth as I spoke. "I need you though, you are the only one I will ever trust to give me this cure." I pulled his pants and underwear down all the way to expose his perfect little cock in full display before me. I took in every detail. Yesterday it had been hidden from me, my own body in the way of viewing the most intimate piece of Spike any mare could ever hope to see. It was small, no bigger than the plan of my hand, yet knowing that it was Spike's made me shiver in a way that just can't be explained. I looked him the eyes before I placed him on the bed. I started to strip before him.

Spike kept his eyes on me. Watching my every movement, the shake of my hips as I grabbed the hem of my jeans and pulled them down. The slow and sensual way I revealed my chest to him. My bra following soon after my unbuttoned shirt and discarded vest. I was hoping to get a reaction from him, a blush, a stutter, anything to at least shake my thought of his innocence... It wasn't to be.

"You look beautiful Twilight." His voice was full of nothing but awe and admiration. "You are beautiful Twilight."

I'm horrible. Even now I could feel the butterflies in my stomach soar as he spoke those words. All pretexts were gone. I sat in front of Spike on my hands and knees my face level with his calfs and I began to cry.

"AHH!! I'm sorry Twilight! Really! I didn't mean to get you upset... I was just... You were so pretty.. I... I'm sorry." This made me cry even harder but I had to rid Spike of any doubt he held in his head.

"No... Spike it's fine. I've never had anypony... Any dragon talk about me like that before. It just made me so happy to know that you see me as something beautiful." I sobbed. My tears of shame and guilt washing over my pelt. I couldn't do it. I can't. Spike doesn't deserve this! I really should go to jail for loving him. I doubt there is a being on this planet as horrible as I am.

"I'll be here everyday to tell you that if it would make you happy." I stopped. He would be here everyday... He could. He could be there everyday for me... He could be my number one assistant like always, we could go back to the way things used to be. I wouldn't have to do this. He would soon forget and we could both just live like we did before all of this!! I wished... From the bottom of my heart that that could be true.

My eyes blank absent of any emotions I laid Spike on the bed. My horn glowing as it surrounded his tiny member, using an impractical magic to make it bigger, not big just big enough.

"Spike... I love you. You know that right?" I looked into his, mine silently pleading begging him for the answer I knew he knew I wanted to hear.

"Of course I do Twilight."

With my magic holding him steady and rigid I slowly slid him inside me. My pain was audible, my tears were hot, yet they did nothing to stem the pure joy that coursed through my veins. It was my first time. It was his first. I had stolen his and I had gave him mine. I had plucked this forbidden fruit from its tree and had loved every moment of it. I stared deep into Spike's eyes. They watched me with concern, love, and confusion all at the same time.

"There Spike. This is my gift to you." I smiled as I pulled him into my breast suffocating him for all he was worth. I placed all my love, my affection, and my devotion into that single moment. I placed everything I had into giving him something so special. It just made what was going to happen next all the harder.

I began charging my horn, telling Spike that I loved him as I began the incantation to do something horrible to him. My horn drew closer and closer to Spike. I could see the vision dance in his head. There they were the first time he saw me right after being born in his purple green egg. He won't remember it. I looked at each and every precious memory he had of me... And I started to take them away.

Spike struggled against my using all his strength to get me off. It was useless my horn glew brighter and brighter and I could see each one flash before my eyes, The first time I fed him, the time I named him, Moving in together, his first official letter. Everything that made him the drake he was today was being stolen by the mare that made him.

“Twilight!” He shouted his struggles and please met with the bright horn and the concealed eyes of his lover. “Please don’t do this!” He implored. “Did I do something wrong? Why are you doing this? Do you hate that I love you! I won’t I swear I can stop loving you just please stop!” His argument was senseless but each word cut into me like a knife, I just couldn’t keep quiet.

“Do...” I began, lifting my tear stained eyes to stare at the drake. “Don’t you ever think this is your fault!” I wailed. “I love you Spike and it’s wrong that I love you. Not because you’re a dragon! Don’t think for one second that is the reason! I’m wrong for loving you. I should have been mature, I should have told you that it is illegal from someone as old as me to love you. I love you Spike, I love you more than I can ever say.” A smile dawned on my face as I spoke. “But if anyone ever found out... They would take you from me.” Those words stopped Spike cold... I shared his fears. “And I know you are afraid of that... So please Spike just let me finish and you will never have to worry about any of this again.” I could see the visions of him two days ago waking up. I was almost done.

Spike’s struggle increased after that his arms attempting to flail free his legs trying to kick themselves off the floor... Only one of his arms were released. I had seen Spike’s hand escape and was fully prepared to take whatever punishment he deemed necessary. Spike cupped my face in his hand gently stroking away the tears as he said, “You lied to me Twilight.”

My eyes grew wide. “You said stuff like this was done to people you love. You said that people that love each other can share something special... All of that was a lie!” He screamed never once tensing his hand as he cupped my face. “Why did you say all that if you would just take everything back! Everything you said was a lie!” I had wanted to say something to tell Spike why I was doing this to explain to him why this was necessary... But I didn’t have a reason. Not one that would justify all this. I was afraid. Afraid that I would lose the one person that made me who I was today. I could remember the nights where the small drake would stay up late just to help with me studying, cook for me when I would forget to do so myself, even care for me when I was sick. Still making sure I stayed up to date on my assignments. There was so much I wanted to thank him for, to speak and shout from the rooftops how much I loved the drake. But I made my choice and I would live with it. I was seeing what he saw, all the memories that he had of me. I would reached the current date in a few more seconds every trace of emotions of love would be gone... My breath came short and labored, my vision began to blur from tears, the final images of the Spike I loved were just splotches in my vision. I could see his shape coming closer to me, his face just mere inches apart from mine, centimeters, millimeters, and then I felt his lips on mine his tongue slither into her mouth coiling around mine... Our first kiss.

“I will always love you Twilight.” was the last thing I heard before the spell was complete and Spike had been rendered unconscious. It was done... I had done something horrible, something disgusting, and something necessary. It didn’t change the fact that I was disgusted in myself, in Equestria, in the law that would keep them apart, I was disgusted beyond words. Tomorrow I knew I would have to smile, go about my day as if nothing had changed whatever Spike’s mind used to fill in the gaps for all that I had taken I would have to play along. But that was tomorrow for now, for this exact moment, I could feel anger, hate, rage, for now I could hate the world, for now I could hate myself all I wanted. Tomorrow I would smile, but not today.

Author's Note

This is the last official chapter for this fic. I will have a short chapter when I finish the sequel and if you guys want to read it. I can't tell you what it's about but... There will be a lot of clop, a lot of emotional baggage, and many many ships. Centered around Spike and Twilight of course.