Chapters Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 1: Memories and Names
Chapter 1
When I woke, I was on a bed. I kept my eyes closed, hoping that my last memories were a dream. After several minutes of waiting, I couldn’t take it anymore. I tried to move my right arm, and cried out in pain. I heard the sound of running footsteps. I heard a door open, and I opened my eyes. Several of the horse-thingies I remembered had entered the room. I pushed myself back in panic, causing more pain in my arm. Then I froze. Shivering in terror, I raised my left arm, and found it as I remembered last seeing it, covered in short brown fur. My body frozen, I started hyperventilating. It was all real.
“Everything will be fine,” said one of them soothingly, “just calm down.”
“Calm down?!” I said, incredulous. “How can I calm down?! I’m a talking horse!”
“Pony.” Said one of the other… pony -thingies.
“Your point is?!” I said.
“Just semantics.” said the pony.
I stared at them all, and then I curled up, and struggled not to start bawling.
“Can't you remember anything?” Asked the first pony.
I shook my head slightly, trying to contain my terror. I didn’t know what to do. I’m in another world, I’m not even human anymore.
“Are you alright?” the pony asked.
“Am I alright?!” I shouted. “I don’t know where, or even what I am anymore!”
I finally give in to my feelings, and collapsed, crying my eyes out. As I sobbed, I heard the sound of retreating footsteps. The door closed, and just when I think I’m alone, I hear the sound of more footsteps. I open my eyes, and the first pony who talked is front of me.
“What's your name?” the pony asks.
I can tell it’s a male, a stallion. I studied him. He’s a light blue with a black mane.
“It’s… It’s…” I falter. I can’t remember my name.
“I can’t remember.” I said as tears again start welling up in my eyes.
“Okay,” said the stallion, “My name is Blue Sky. I am a doctor here.” After a pause, “If you want, you can just call me Dr. Blue.”
“Okay.” As I continue to watch him, I notice he has a horn. “You’re… You’re a unicorn.”
He glance up at his horn, then smiled and said, “Yes, yes I am. But so are you.”
He points at my forehead, and I look up. I have a brown horn on my head. I’m not so scared anymore, I'm mainly just surprised.
“I have a horn?” I asked, surprised.
“You didn't know?” says Dr. Blue.
Dr. Blue seems like a gentle and kind pony. I decide to take a chance and explain to him what’s happened.
“Up until yesterday, I wasn't even a pony, let alone a unicorn.” I explained.
“What d'you mean?” Dr. Blue asked.
“I mean,” I said, looking him in the eyes, “Until yesterday, I was human, and most definitely not a pony.”
“Human?”
“Yeah, you know, two legs, two arms. Hands, feet, toes.”
“There aren't any humans in Equestria.”
I stared at him, uncomprehendingly. “Where?”
“Equestria.” I just gaped at him. “You know, Equestria. Land settled through the combined efforts of the Earth, Unicorn, and Pegasus tribes.” No change.
After a thinking for a minute, Dr. Blue spoke. “I will be right back.”
He walks out of the room, leaving me there alone. While I’m waiting, I look up at my horn. It doesn’t feel especially different having it there, almost like it doesn't weigh anything. I reach up and prod it. It’s definitely real, I can feel the pull on my head. I then return to looking at my hooves. They are so new to me, it’s just weird. Seeing myself like this gives me the butterflies in the stomach feeling. I’m not sure how having hooves will affect my ability to pick things up. I had noticed earlier that some of the ponies who’d followed Dr. Blue had been holding things with their hooves. I wasn't sure exactly how it worked, so I tried picking up my blanket. I flexed the fingers I didn't have, and somehow, on contact, I managed to grip the blanket. Pleased with my new found ability, I pulled the blanket off of me. I freeze in shock. I was most definitely a pony now. My body’s structure had changed completely. My hind legs were jointed differently than my legs had been, clearly designed for four-legged walking. It’s just so weird.
As I continued to stare at my new body, Dr. Blue walked back into the room. Next to him, floating in a yellow aura, was a book. The book landed on my bedside table. I looked at the cover, which was red, embossed with bold golden letters, which read:
The History of Equestria:
I stared at the book for a moment, then looked at him and said, “How'd you do that?”
“Do what?”
I glanced back at the book, then said, “Why was the book floating?”
He looked at me, eyebrow raised and mouth slightly open. I was clearly just as confusing to him as he was to me.
"I was holding it with magic, of course.”
“Magic?” I’d heard a lot of strange and new things today, but this one pushed the limits a bit.
“Yes,” he said, “Magic.”
“And… how exactly does that work?”
“What do you mean?”
“How do you hold something with magic?”
He looked at me, dumbfounded. “Do you mean... you've never used magic before?”
“Yes.”
He paused for a moment. “I… well… we'll talk about that later. Right now, Princess Luna wants to speak with you.”
“Who?”
He smacked his hoof to his face. “I will let her explain it.”
He walked over to the door. The doorknob glowed with the same yellow aura as the book had, and then the door swung open. Framed in the doorway was the purple pony I remembered seeing when I woke up in the forest as a pony. She, for it was quite obviously a she, walked over to my bed and said in a grandiose voice:
“We are pleased that thou hast awoken. We feared that thou wouldst not wake for a longer period, and are glad that we canst speak with thee sooner than we hadst expected.”
I looked at her for a second, not having expected her to be speaking old English, not to mention using the royal ‘we’.
“I’m… I’m honored your majesty.” I said. “I… well…”
She loomed over me for a second, then, her gaze softened, and she giggled.
“I will stop talking like that it makes you uncomfortable.”
I watched her nervously for a minute. “Sure.”
She laughed again. “What is your name, stranger?”
I struggled to remember, but again the memory escaped me.
“I’m sorry.” I said, holding back a fresh wave of tears. “I can’t remember.”
She studied me for a moment, looking concerned. “I am sorry that you cannot remember.”
She paused for a moment. "Well, how about we give you a temporary name, something we can call you until you remember.”
Dr. Blue nodded in agreement. “That's a good idea. It might even help you to remember your original name."
I thought about that for a second. “Well... okay.”
We sat there in silence, just me, Princess Luna, and Dr. Blue. “Wait a minute." I asked. "How exactly does the naming system work here?”
They looked at me with puzzled expressions.
“Well, your name is Blue Sky, and you’re Princess Luna.”
I pointed to them with my hoof when I said their names.
“I mean, why are you called that. I’m assuming that they’re not nicknames.”
“I see,” said Princess Luna, “Well, our names tend to fit our personalities, or talents, or something we hold dear.”
I thought about that for a moment, then said, “I see.”
We sat quietly, thinking. Numerous names presented themselves to me, but I had a question to ask the Princess.
“Princess Luna?”
“Please, call me Luna. Yes?”
“Luna. How did you get yours?”
She raised an eyebrow questioningly.
“I mean, why are you called Luna. Why is it that special? What makes that your name?”
She smiled at me, her kind eyes twinkling. “That is my name, for I am the Princess of the Night. I raise and lower the moon, and rule over Equestria during the night.”
“Really? You raise and lower the Moon?”
“Yes.” She said simply.
I pondered on this. A Princess, but also the custodian of the moon and the night. I didn’t even bother to think about the physics of it, since I had decided it was probably best not to think about it too much. That held true now more than ever, confronted with the prospect of magic, and a being capable of moving a celestial object.
“That’s amazing.”
“Thank you. It’s probably hard to understand, since you're clearly not of this world.”
I looked up at her, surprised by her response.
“I could tell by your dreams. They were of strange places and even stranger creatures.”
“What do you mean, you could tell from my dreams? How could you know what I dreamed about?”
“I am the Princess of the Night. It is my duty and honor to walk in the dreams of my subjects. And, it seems, that may now include you.”
I felt a little worried. I had always thought that dreams were something that should remain private, and untouched by outside influences.
“Don't worry.” She said. “I saw only what was relevant.”
Seeing my expression, she smiled, and added “I saw nothing you wouldn't want anyone else to see.”
I nodded, reassured, slightly. I again thought about my name. What was special about me? What did I hold most dear? I was a pretty good artist, but that didn't feel like something to work off of. I thought about my love for the night sky. I loved the stars, and the moon. I missed my old home in the country, where the Milky Way was clearly visible. Then, I thought of my favorite star. The star in the north sky. The guide of sailors, friend of the lost and alone. The North Star. I not only loved that star, the name itself felt special.
I thought about it, then I said, “Polaris.”
“What?” said Dr. Blue.
“My name. I want my name to be Polaris.”
Dr. Blue and Luna thought for a moment, then nodded in agreement.
“That is an interesting name.” said Luna. “Why did you choose it?”
“I love the night sky,” I explained. “And it's my favorite star.”
“Okay then.” said Dr. Blue.
I sat there for a minute, thinking about the name I had chosen. Why that name? It just seemed right.
“Well then,” said Luna, “now that we know what to call you, Polaris, we should go. You need your rest, and that leg won’t be ready to walk on for a few days, even with the cast.”
“Okay then.” I said. “See you later.”
She nodded, then turned to leave.
“Wait a minute.” I called after her.
“Yes?” she said, turning back to face me.
“I just noticed. You have a horn, and wings.”
“Yes?” she said.
“What kind of pony are you? I haven’t seen any others like you. And why does your mane and tail move and sparkle like that?” I blushed when I realized how that sounded.
She laughed, and said, “I am an alicorn. You haven’t seen any others because my sister and I are the only two now. And as for my mane and tail, the same reason.”
“Oh.”
“Do not be ashamed of your curiosity. Anyone who'd been transported far from their home, had their body changed, and thrown into a completely different place would want to know more.”
“Okay.”
She smiled, and then said, “Well, if that's all...?”
I blushed even brighter. “Yes.”
“Well then. Good night, Polaris.”
She left the room, and the door closed behind her. I looked over at Dr. Blue, who said, “You got along with the Princess pretty well. Most ponies can't really connect with her.”
“You did.” I said.
“Well, I get along with just about everypony. Anyway, the Princess is right, you should really sleep now. You've been awake far too long, and you've got to be exhausted.”
As he spoke, I let loose a massive yawn. He looked at me with an expression that said “See?”
I laid back down, exhausted, I pulled the covers over me with my left hoof. There was a click, and the lights went out.
“See you in the morning.” said Dr. Blue.
I grunted in acknowledgement. I was quickly swept away into sleep by the gentle but forceful waves of exhaustion. Just before I fell asleep, I rolled over and looked out one of the windows of the room. The stars were shining brightly outside. I could see so many, far more than I could have from my new house in the suburbs. Then, I slept.
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 2: Loss and Reflection
Chapter 2
When I woke, the sun was up. I stretched and yawned, still fairly tired. I froze when I saw my foreleg. I remembered where and what I am. I’m still a pretty scared, but I’m trying not to think about it too much. I know that that will just make me feel worse. Just then, my stomach lets out a massive grumble. I realize I haven’t eaten since I’d arrived. I wonder what they eat here. Since they’re ponies, I would assume that they must not eat meat. I don’t actually mind though. I never did really like to eat meat.
I can see the sky through the windows. I’d like to see more than that. I want to see where I am. I push the covers off of me, and then roll of the bed. I collapse to the floor, my right foreleg and ribs burning in protest. I try to stand up, but fall again with my ribs raging at me. My legs weren't strong enough to hold me up. I realize I’d cried out when I’d gotten off the bed. The door opened and Dr. Blue rushed into the room.
“You should not have tried to stand up yet!” he said, “Your leg is not strong enough to support your weight!”
“I know.” I said, gasping in pain.
“What were you trying to do? Why'd you leave your bed?”
“I… I wanted to see out the window.”
“I see.”
Dr. Blue walked over to me, and leaned down next to me.
“Put your foreleg around me.” he instructed.
I reached my left foreleg around him, and tried to stand up. After a few tries, I managed it. My legs were weak, and they shook from my weight.
“Get on the bed, I'll help you.” said Dr. Blue.
I climbed up on to the bed, and rolled on my back, gasping for breath.
Dr. Blue gave me a concerned look. “I told you that you would not be able to walk for several days,” he said. “You shouldn't have tried to move around yet.”
“I forgot.” I said.
“I imagine. If you wait right here, I'll get a wheelchair.”
“A what?”
“You did want to take a look around, right?”
“Well, yeah, but I didn’t think that ponies would have such a thing as wheelchairs. You just don’t, you know, sit on chairs that much… do you?”
“Actually, we use them fairly often.”
“Oh… okay.”
“I'll be right back”
Dr. Blue left the room. I stared up at the white ceiling. This was all so new to me. I wasn’t sure how to react. Not being able to walk… that’s a new one. And now I’ll have to learn again. Only this time, on four legs. How do I even start? I wondered to myself.
I turned my head and looked out the window. From this angle, there wasn’t much to see, just the sky, which was cloudless and blue. I hadn’t seen a sky that open for a long time. Not since… since… I struggled with my memories, but everything was fuzzy. First I couldn’t remember my name, and now all the absolute specifics are going. That thought brought me close to tears. I tried to ignore the feeling. I rubbed my head with my hoof, a mild headache was starting to form.
Dr. Blue walked in pushing a wheelchair. I have to say, that was unexpected. I still can’t see how a race that walks on four legs actually needs chairs, let alone a wheelchair. Despite that, he’s holding the handle of one in his teeth, which doesn’t seem particularly hygienic to me. Once he’s maneuvered the chair over to the side of my bed, he lets go of the handle.
“I'll help you get on.” said Dr. Blue.
I moved to the side of the bed, and he helped me to clamber onto the wheelchair’s seat. I sat like I usually did. The chair was more comfortable than any wheelchair I’d ever been in before.
“Now what?” I said, leaning against the backrest of the chair.
“Now,” he said, “you get your first view of Equestria.”
He took the handle of the wheelchair in his mouth and pushed it over to the window. I gasped in amazement. Stretching out in front of me was a bright green landscape, mountains in the far distance. The fields nearby gave way to a forest, which extended far into the distance.
“Good view, right?” said Dr. Blue, chuckling, who now stood next to me. “The hospital has a fantastic location.”
I nodded silently in agreement, awestruck. I looked hard into the distance, and I saw what looked like an enormous group of white clouds.
“What’s that?” I asked, pointing my hoof.
“What, those?” said Dr. Blue. “That's Cloudsdale. It can be hard to see sometimes, but today is especially clear, so…”
“Yeah.” I continued to admire the view, seeing a river in the distance, and I also noticed something else.
“And... what’s that?” I asked. I pointed into the far distance, at a faint orange smudge on the horizon.
“That's the badlands. Nopony lives there, too dangerous.”
“Nopony?”
“Yes?” I opened my mouth to question him, then closed it. I guess it made sense that they would use words like that.
“Now,” said Dr. Blue after a short pause, “how about we take you for a walk…er, ride through the hospital.”
“What?” I said.
“You do want to see more, right?”
“Well, yes. But…”
“Good.”
He wheeled the wheelchair around, cutting me off, and started moving it towards the door. I guess I had been feeling a bit stir-crazy. I wasn’t really used to being stuck in one place, let alone one room, for so long. We went out the door, and turned left, and then continued down the hallway. After passing several doors, we came to a gently descending ramp. Since I was in a wheelchair, I guess we couldn’t exactly take the stairs. I also assumed that there were no elevators. I hadn’t noticed any signs of electricity. We descended, and at the bottom, Dr. Blue turned right down a hallway, towards a set of double doors. We came to a stop in front of the doors, and Dr. Blue walked up next to me.
“Feel up to going outside?” he asked.
I looked at the doors, determined. “Yes.”
“Okay then.”
The doors’ handles glowed gold, and Dr. Blue pushed the wheelchair through. We were in a garden. Several paths went out into it. As we descended another ramp to the ground, I noticed several other ponies in the garden, all different colors. I saw multitudes of flowers and there was a fountain in the center. Benches were arranged around it, and around the benches, a green hedge circled. The golden brick paths all radiated from the fountain, which bubbled gently. I hadn’t seen plant life this green and alive for a very long time.
We came up next to the fountain, and Dr. Blue said, “Like it?”
I nodded, again awestruck by the natural beauty of this place. I may have lost some of my memory, but I definitely remembered how I loved nature in its glory. This place was absolutely stunning.
“This is a just a hospital garden?” I said.
“Yeah,” said Dr. Blue. “I know it's a little dull, but I think it is alright.”
“Dull? This is what you call dull?”
“Well, yeah?”
“No, it isn’t. This is spectacular !”
I looked around at it all. Compared to this, the fields and forests around where I’d lived were what was dull. This was awesome.
“Who takes care of all this?” I asked. I wanted to know who was responsible for this work of art.
“You know,” Dr. Blue said, “I don't actually know who takes care of the gardens. I never had reason to ask about it before now.”
“Can you find out for me?” I asked. “I want to find out how they got it so green and fresh.”
“I told you, this isn't the exactly the best garden there is. You don't have to get so excited.”
“Excited? Excited ?! What’s wrong with getting excited about this place?!”
He stared at me, confusion and concern mingled in his expression. I felt that maybe I should tone it down, I was making a bit of a scene.
“I’m just saying.” I muttered, slumping back in the wheelchair.
We stayed there for a while, exchanging meaningless banter. Dr. Blue was able to explain some of the things I had found strange, like why he had to push the wheelchair, but had opened the doors with magic. It turned out that magic is usually more specific to a pony’s individual talents, so it was a bit hard for most unicorns to multi-task unless it was something they were more familiar with. I also learned about some of the history of Equestria. Then, we just sat quietly and enjoyed the glorious day. Just as I was about to ask another question, when my stomach interrupted me with a loud rumble, protesting the lack of food. I blushed, embarrassed.
“I guess I should probably eat.” I said.
“I haven’t eaten yet either. Guess I forgot too.” said Dr. Blue.
We shared a laugh at our collective forgetfulness, and Dr. Blue wheeled me inside.
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The hospital’s cafeteria wasn’t that bad. Sure, the food wasn’t the best, and Dr. Blue and I shared a few jokes about it. I appreciated being able to eat now, though. It did take me a minute to figure out how to eat. Looking around, I figured out that most non-unicorns don’t really use silverware, I did alright, just eating it directly off the plate. The cafeteria was sparsely decorated, but the design of the room was interesting enough.
While we were eating, I asked “Do you know who the other pony was, Doctor?”
“Hmm?” said Dr. Blue, chewing on a mouthful of food.
“The one that was with Luna when she found me.”
Dr. Blue swallowed, then said, “Oh, him. That's Starswirl. He’s a friend of Luna's."
“Okay.”
After a minute thinking, I said, “When can I learn how to use magic?”
He thought about this for a moment, then said, “I can't be sure. Though definitely not until you've recovered.”
“I guess that makes sense.”
Once we’d finished eating, we returned to my room. Dr. Blue helped me back onto the bed, and said, “You need to rest now. The more rest you get, the faster you'll get better.”
“Okay,” I said.
As he turned to leave, I said, “Thanks.”
“What for, Polaris?” He asked.
“For helping me. And giving me a tour of the hospital.”
“Sure thing.”
Just before he left the room, he stopped and said, “You can call me Blue.”
I said “sure” and he left.
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When he returned, he had someone… fine, somepony else with him. She was taller than him, taller even than Luna. She had wings and a horn, and her mane rippled gently in a nonexistent breeze. This must be Luna’s sister. They approached the bed, and Blue introduced us.
“Polaris, this is Princess Celestia.”
“Your majesty,” I said, trying to bow. “It is an honor to meet someone of your importance.”
“A pleasure to meet you, Polaris.” she said, in a kind, gentle voice. “Please, tell me, are you finding the accommodations here to your liking?”
“Yes, your majesty.”
“That is good. And you need not address me as ‘your majesty’. Celestia will be fine.” After a pause, she said, “Are you having any trouble adjusting to life here?”
She didn’t need to explain further. It was clear to me she had spoken with Luna.
“A bit,” I said, “Everything is so different, but... but I think I’ll be fine.”
“Very good.” she said. “I am glad that you are responding well to the change. I just hope that it remains so once you leave the hospital. You may have a hard time adjusting to the outside world.”
I thought about it. I guess a hospital is a rather isolated environment. It hadn’t occurred to me yet, but I realized how large a world I was in now. I noticed something else. Celestia had a picture of a sun on her flank. I realized then, that all of the ponies I’d seen so far had had some sort of picture on their flanks. I looked over at Blue, curious. He had a picture of what looked like a cloud with a sun peeking out from behind it.
”Pardon me for asking,” I said, hesitantly, “but why does everypony have some sort of picture on their flanks?”
Celestia laughed gently. “Those are called cutie marks. I guess since you do not originate from Equestria, you would not know of them. They represent our special talents, and appear magically when we discover them.”
“Oh.” I said. I was struck with a sudden curiosity. I hadn’t actually looked before. Did I have a cutie mark? I pushed my blankets off, and turned to the side. My flank was blank. Oh goody, that rhymes. (Yay)
“I don’t have one.” I said, curious, slightly concerned.
“Maybe it's because you've only been in Equestria for two days.” said Blue. “I wouldn't expect someone to find theirs so quickly.”
“Yeah.” I said, feeling disgruntled. “I guess.”
“Do not worry Polaris,” said Celestia. “In time, you will discover that which makes you special.”
I nodded. I had hoped that by now in my life, I would’ve discovered something unique about myself. I had another question, one I was scared to ask. I was scared of what the answer might be. I decided to ask Celestia anyway.
“Can… can you send me home?” I asked her.
She gave me a sympathetic smile. “I am sorry, but I cannot do that. Tearing a hole in the fabric of space and time could, and probably would, have devastating repercussions. I cannot risk the safety of my subjects.”
“Oh.” I said, crestfallen. “Of course. I understand. I guess that means I am trapped here indefinitely?”
“Unfortunately, yes.”
Again, the overwhelming sadness flooded over me, washing me away in its ruthless currents. I laid back, devastated by the news that I would never be able to return to my home. I was beyond tears now.
“Are you okay?” asked Blue. I realized that I’d been silent for a very long time, staring into space.
“No,” I said, “but I hope I will be.”
He nodded, understanding.
I looked up at Celestia and managed to say, “If I’m going to stay here, can you arrange for someone to teach me to use my magic?”
“Of course, I will see what I can do.” she said.
“Thank you.”
After a brief pause, she said, “I must go now, but I will see if I can find a tutor for you Polaris. Farewell.”
She walked out the door, which she had opened with her own magic. I wonder who she would get. I couldn’t wait to start learning to move things with my horn. I wonder what else a unicorn could do, other than move things.
“What can you do with magic?” I asked. “I mean, other than move things.”
“Plenty of things,” said Blue, “you can use all sorts of spells. It just depends on what you are best at. Now, it is time for you to rest some more. You'll be able to walk soon, but if you keep overexerting yourself, you'll take longer to recover.”
I laid down on the bed, and relaxed my tense body.
“See you tomorrow.” Blue said.
“Uh-huh.” I said.
The door closed behind him, and I closed my eyes. I was swept away by exhaustion I hadn’t realized I had been fighting. I drifted into a deep sleep.
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I was back at my house. A bolt of bright white lightning had lanced down from the sky, torn through the roof, and set it ablaze. I was inside trying desperately to escape. The smoke clogged my lungs as I tried to push a collapsed bookshelf out of my way. I was trapped in the room. I circled the room, trying to find a way out. The bookshelf caught fire, and started to burn. Tears brought on by the smoke streamed down my face.
Then, a blast of cold air came from above. I looked up and saw a gap in the roof. Above, the stars twinkled. Centered in the hole, the moon blazed with white light. Tongues of flame now licked up the walls of the room. I looked up, and cried out again for help. Just when the fire had started blazing its way towards me, I heard the faint sound of a voice. Almost indistinguishable from the roaring of the inferno, but definitely there. I yelled for help again.
I heard the sound of rushing wings, and looked up. Luna was descending from above, the moon directly behind her. She flew down, and landed next to me. Her horn began to glow with a dark violet aura. The flames around us retreated slightly, held back by a glowing circle of violet fire that matched the aura of Luna’s horn. I collapsed to the ground, struggling to breathe. Luna wrapped her forelegs around me, and lifted me upward. I stayed limp from exhaustion.
We soared over the ground, the cold night air flowing past us. The smell of smoke followed us, but the fire remained on the house. Luna landed a short distance from the house, which continued to burn. I laid against the ground, tired. I looked up at the stars, bright and distant, but so few. I turned my head towards Luna. She was watching the house burn. I saw tears in her eyes. She turned to me, and she spoke.
“Was this your home?”
“Yes.” I managed, my throat dry from the smoke.
She nodded sadly, and her ears went back. Her head drooped.
“You are dreaming.” she said.
“I am?” I said. “It feels pretty real to me.”
“It would. It would.” She paused a moment, then, “When you wake, don't be too sad.”
“What about?”
She looked like she was fighting to keep herself composed, and failing miserably.
“You'll know when you wake.”
I pondered on that, then I said, “How are you here?”
“Do you remember what I told you?” she asked quietly. I shook my head.
“I told you,” she said, “that as the Princess of the Night, it is my duty to walk in the dreams of my subjects. I also told you that that now seems to include you.”
“Oh, right.” I said. Luna came over to me. She bent down, and gave me a hug.
“It is time for you to wake.” she said into my shoulder, still embracing me, her tears rolling down my back. I laid my head into her shoulder, and closed my eyes.
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My eyes shot open. It was the middle of the night, judging by the darkness outside. I was laying on my side drenched in cold sweat, and my heart was going at an extreme speed. My mane was an even bigger mess. I tried to pull myself upright, but I was restrained by a hoof to my side.
“Stay down.” said Blue, next to me. “You've been thrashing around for over half an hour.
“I have?” I asked.
“Yes.”
I laid down, my body aching.
I remembered speaking to Luna, which surprised me. I usually forgot my dreams fairly quickly. I wondered what Luna had been talking about. I tried to remember the rest of the dream, but I couldn’t. I tried to remember anything not related to my time in Equestria. I struggled with my memories. I started to panic. All I could remember was lying in the rain, arm broken, looking up at the stars finding my favorite, my star. My jaw quivered open, and I let out a dry sob.
“Polaris?” said Blue, sounding concerned.
I burst into tears. As I cried, I realized what Luna had been talking about. I had lost all of my memories. Everything, gone. I only knew a bit now. I knew that I had been human. I knew that I had ended up here, in Equestria. I knew that my name here was Polaris. I knew that was the name of the star I loved most. I knew that I was now a pony. I knew that I didn’t know how to walk on four legs. As I cried, I felt a hoof on my shoulder. I looked up. Blue was standing next to me.
“What is wrong?” he said.
“I… I can’t remember.” I cried. “I can’t remember anything.”
Blue put his hoof down, and said, “Okay. Do you mean anything at all, or just anything before you were brought here?”
“Everything before… before I got here.”
“Okay.” He stood there thinking hard, then said, “Want to go back to the gardens?”
I realized that I had curled myself into fetal position, hugging my tail with my forelegs.
“Y-yes.” I sobbed out. I wanted to go somewhere where I could feel calm, at peace. The garden might do that.
“I'll go get the wheelchair.”
Blue went to the door, opened it, and exited. He returned shortly, by which time, I had stopped sobbing, tears still pouring out. I was lying on my side, still hugging my tail. He helped me onto the wheelchair, where I continued to cry, and started hugging myself, head down. It was like I was trying to physically hold myself together.
We exited the room, and retraced our steps from earlier to the double doors. While we traveled, I became unnaturally focused on my tail. It was perhaps the newest part to being a pony. I hadn’t paid it much attention until now, but I wondered about how it was attached to me. I guess it was just like my mane. Wow, really weird things going on up here. I thought absentmindedly.
When we arrived in the gardens, I started to feel more relaxed. It felt so good to be outside. I guess that Blue had known that being outside would help me calm down. I realized something. Yesterday, there had been no wind, not so much as a breeze. Tonight, however, there was a gentle breeze wafting through the gardens. I felt a strange sensation. My coat was being softly tickled , and it felt really, really good. It was so unusual, that I shivered.
“You okay?” said Blue. He must have thought I was cold.
“Yes.” I answered. “I’ve never felt something like this before. I… I can’t remember much, but I’m pretty sure that humans aren’t covered in fur.” The statement made more tears leak out.
“Oh.”
The odd sensation continued, especially on my legs and neck. I closed my eyes and turned my head in the direction of the breeze. That felt even better, the fur on my muzzle caressed softly. My mane was ruffled gently. My ears twitched, tickled by the moving air. I tried to move my ears, and succeeded in making my ears go forward and back. The sensations were all so new to me. Then I realized something. I hadn’t actually seen what I looked like. I hadn’t seen a mirror since I’d arrived. I opened my eyes and turned to Blue.
“Can I see a mirror?” I asked.
“Why?” he asked..
“I’ve never seen myself like this. I want to know what I look like.”
“I understand.”
It wasn’t like I was being vain or anything. I just wanted to see myself. I had to know what I looked like. I knew I had a dark brown coat, but I didn’t know anything else. We went through a series of halls until we reached a small foyer on the same floor as my room. One of the walls had a mirror. Blue moved me in front of it.
I was dark brown, like I said, but my mane and tail were pitch black. My eyes were a brilliant green, the color of evergreens, with hints of lighter shades. I stared at myself. How I’d changed. Or, at least, I thought so. I didn’t remember what I’d looked like anymore. I looked at myself closer. Tears were still visible on my cheeks. I raised my left foreleg and touched the mirror. I almost felt like breaking down again, but I restrained myself. I pulled back from the mirror.
“I want to go back to my room.” I said quietly.
Blue just nodded, not saying anything. We returned to my room. I thought about what I’d felt and seen. Everything was so new. So different. My eyes started watering at the thoughts. Blue helped me back into my bed. I laid on my side, quiet, staring into the distance. I was lost in thought.
“Good night.” said Blue.
I just nodded, unable to speak. Blue left, and I stared into space. I felt my heart starting to fracture from the pain. I closed my eyes, and cried silently. I cried hard and long. After a while, I drifted into a restless sleep. I did not dream again that night.
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Luna was awake. She always was at night. She was in the throne room, gazing through the windows at the moon. Tears were trailing down her cheeks. She was horrified at what she had done. Celestia walked in, as regal and gentle as ever.
“What has happened, my sister?” said Celestia.
Luna looked at her sister, then drooped her head.
“I have done something horrible.” she said, not even bothering to be formal.
“What happened?” said Celestia, concerned.
“I have just caused a great deal of pain.”
“In what way?”
“I-I was walking through the dreams of our subjects, just as I have always done. When I came upon the sleeping mind of Polaris, I could not help but see what he was dreaming. W-when I entered, I saw nothing. I d-decided to try and h-help him regain his memory.”
Luna was choking on fresh tears. Celestia was starting to understand, but she wanted to be sure.
“And then?” she asked.
“And then,” Luna continued, “I cast a simple memory spell. It should have helped, if only a little. B-but, it did something far worse.”
“What?” asked Celestia, starting to feel a bit worried.
“Whatever magic has brought him here,” said Luna, “it has no intention of being interfered with. He started to dream, and… and.”
At this point, Luna threw herself to the ground and started crying profusely. Her wails of misery resonated throughout the room.
“And then,” said Celestia softly, “it purged his remaining memories.”
“Yes!” wailed Luna. “I have destroyed all of his memory! He can remember nothing before he arrived here, save that there was something! Only the absolute basics remain! He dreamed of his old dwelling. He watched his old life burn away before him. He nearly died tonight. If I had not been there, he… he...”
Celestia laid next to her younger sister, and laid a wing over her. She could not comfort her sister, could not say that it could be fixed. What she had done was irreversible. They both knew it. Polaris would never regain his memory. It was irretrievable. He was now well and truly trapped in Equestria, both in body and mind.
They stayed there for a good while, until Luna had stopped crying. Celestia stayed with her the whole while. Soon it would be dawn, and they would need to attend to their royal duty to care for the sun and moon. By silent agreement, they rose, and left the chamber.
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I was still sleeping. My sleep, while not fitful, was not restful either. I kept waking up, and somehow, that was more exhausting than just being awake. At some point just before the sun rose, I finally fell into a deep sleep.
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 3: Magic... How Does It Work?
Chapter 3
When I woke again, it was late afternoon. I’d slept long and deep. Somehow, I still felt exhausted. I tried hard not to think about the looming misery caused by my memory loss. I laid on my bed, staring at the ceiling. Eventually, I looked over at the windows. Still just the sky. I wanted to see out them again, but I knew from my experience the previous day that that would be an unwise course of action. After a long time, Blue walked in.
“So,” Blue said, “finally awake.”
I nodded, silent.
“Okay.” he said. “You feel like doing anything?”
I shook my head. I just wanted to stay where I was and stare at the ceiling.
“Well.” He said. “That's just too bad.”
I stared at him, startled by his insensitivity.
“I know better than to let you stay in bed.” he said, grinning. “I know what will happen. You will just get more and more depressed. I understand that you are not feeling your best, but you will certainly feel worse if you do nothing.”
I thought about that. I didn’t care very much right now, to be honest. I just wanted to stay right there. In a blur of blue and yellow, Blue dashed outside and brought in the wheelchair. I yelped in surprise as a golden aura surrounded me and lifted me into the air.
“You are not staying in your bed.” He said firmly. “You are going to socialize, and that is final .”
Before I could respond, he'd deposited me on the wheelchair and pushed it out of the room. Without a word, he started pushing the wheelchair down the corridors. Instead of following the route to the gardens or cafeteria, he went somewhere new. Doors rushed by us as we traveled, most of which were closed. Through the open ones, I caught a few glimpses of other patients.
We stopped in a large room. Inside were a good number of ponies. Some were sitting on couches, talking. Others, were walking the perimeter of the room, which was free of furniture. I looked around, a little scared. This was the most ponies I’d seen in one place yet. I was feeling really claustrophobic, in spite of the large amount of empty space and the fairly high ceiling.
“We are here.” said Blue. “Now play nice with all the other patients.”
I looked back at him, shocked by his directness in thrusting me into a new situation.
Seeing my expression, he said, “Tough love.”
He shoved my wheelchair away from himself with a hoof. It rolled right into the middle of the room, which seemed a bit excessive to me. A few nearby ponies stopped talking and looked at me. I smiled nervously, blushing.
“H-hi there.” I said.
Most of them nodded, and returned to their conversations. One that kept looking at me was a pegasus. A mare with a light blue coat, a dark blue mane and purple eyes. She had a raincloud for a cutie mark. The mare got up and walked over to me.
“Hi,” she said, “what is your name?”
“P-Polaris,” I said, “and… and yours?”
“May Breeze.”
“Cool name.”
“Thanks, my mom insisted.”
I nodded nervously. I could see how that would happen.
“So,” said May Breeze, “why're you in here?”
I thought about what to tell her. I decided it would be best not to mention that I was a human being from another world, whose memories were now completely gone. The pain of that thought caused me to tear up slightly.
“Hey,” she said, looking a little worried, “it's okay if you don't want to tell me.”
I shook my head. “No, that’s alright.” I said. “Just painful memories.” Or a lack of them.
“I broke my leg and a few ribs.” I said, after a short pause in the conversation. “And you?
“I sprained a wing, nothing much.”
“O-Okay then.”
We stood there, or in my case sat there, for a minute, then I made a decision. If I had to be out of bed, I might as well do something.
“So,” I said, “what do you do?”
“I am a cloud manager.”
“Okay,” I said, pretending to understand.
“And you?”
“Oh,” I said, “um, I’m kind of… you know… between jobs at the moment.”
“Okay. What did you do?”
“Oh.” I paused. I didn’t have a clue what kind of jobs a pony could have. “I… uh… well…”
She looked at me for a moment, clearly thinking. After a minute, it looked like she’d figured something out.
“You don't remember, do you?” she said.
“H-how…”
“How did I know? The look on your face.” she paused. “And your… your eyes. They seem kind of distant… sad.” After a moment, she added, “that and I heard there was a new amnesia patient.”
“Oh.”
“I didn't mean to hurt you, if I did.” she said. “I was just trying to keep you out of that hole you were about to dig yourself into.”
“Oh.” I said. “Thanks.”
“You're welcome. Mind if I join you?”
“S-Sure, go ahead.”
She sat down next to me, and we just watched all the other patients. We were silent, but instead of an awkward silence, it was a more... companionable silence. I tried to remember the last time someone had just sat next to me, to comfort and console. Last night, maybe, when Blue had stayed with me. Friendly, but quiet. I decided I liked it.
After a long time, she got up and said, “I need to go now. My doctor says I should rest often so I can get better faster.”
“Right,” I said. “Well, see you later, I guess.”
“Yeah, probably.”
She walked away, towards one of the exits. Blue came up to me.
“See?” he said, grinning. “That wasn't so bad, now was it?”
“No,” I admitted, “I guess not.”
Blue was looking very pleased with himself.
“Can we get something to eat now?” I said. “I’m hungry.”
“Sure,” said Blue, “why not?”
He grabbed the handle of my wheelchair in his teeth, turned it around, and pushed me out.
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In the cafeteria, I dug into my food voraciously. Sweet peas and mashed potatoes. Yum!
“So,” said Blue, “who were you talking to?”
I swallowed then said, “Her name is May Breeze.”
“Okay.”
I continued to eat. It had been interesting, I guess, socializing with another pony. Well, one that wasn’t a doctor or royalty. I didn’t know that much about her, but it was a start. I wondered what she’d meant when she said she was a cloud manager. Since when did clouds need managing? But then it occurred to me. Since when did the Sun and Moon need managing?
“Blue?” I said.
“Yes?”
“What’s a cloud manager?”
He looked surprised for moment, then said, “Oh, right, you wouldn't know. A cloud manager takes care of the clouds, keeps them under control.”
“Keeps…?” I started to ask. I decided against it. I just didn’t know enough about this world.
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Once we’d finished eating, we went back to my room. Blue helped me onto my bed, where I laid, a little tired, but not exhausted anymore.
“Now,” said Blue. “It's probably too much to ask for you to go back to sleep right away. So instead…”
The history book that he’d brought on my first day floated up beside him.
“…you can read this.”
The red book glistened in the light. I studied it for a moment, then I looked over at him.
“Um,” I said, “how do I…you know… hold it?”
“With your hooves, of course.” He made it sound obvious.
“Oh, right.” I’d forgotten about them.
“Here you go,” he said, dropping the book onto my lap.. “It's a pretty good book. Enjoy.”
He walked out of the room, and shut it behind him. I picked the book up. I still wasn’t sure how that was possible, but I’d stopped questioning things a while ago. I opened it up, and started reading.
When I finally looked up from the book, it was late evening. I’d finished the whole thing, and it had been pretty good. I wanted to thank Blue, but he wasn’t around, and I couldn’t exactly go and find him. I paused for a moment, then decided to try and sleep. I could thank Blue in the morning.
I laid back against the pillows, and relaxed. I thought about everything that had happened today. Everything was still strange, but somehow, the loss of my memories had made everything a little less so. I still felt upset about it, and a few tears escaped, but I didn’t lose control like I had the previous night.
Soon, the stars started coming out. I watched, entranced by the darkening sky. It was wondrous, how many stars I could see. I couldn’t see the North Star from my window, since they faced west. While I couldn’t see it, the moon let off its pale light, illuminating the room in a soft white light. Eventually, I fell asleep.
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I woke the next morning to the sound of the door opening. I pulled myself upright on my bed, and looked over. I immediately bowed as best I could. Luna and Celestia were in my room.
After a moment, I heard Celestia say, “Polaris, you need not be so formal.”
I straightened up immediately. Celestia was standing tall and straight, but Luna was staring at the ground, looking upset.
“Y-Yes, your high…” I stopped, remembering what Celestia had said. “…Celestia.”
She smiled, acknowledging my slip. “Luna, you may speak with Polaris, he will not bite you... right?”
“O-Of course not.” I said nervously.
Luna walked up to me, still looking at the ground. She shuffled her hooves a little, looking nervous and upset.
“Luna?” I asked.
She slowly looked up at me, then suddenly lunged forward and hugged me tightly around the waist.
“I am sorry! I am so so-o-o-or-ry-y!” she wailed.
I jerked back slightly in shock. Luna retained her tight grip.
“Please! I didn't mean for it to happen!” she continued, shouting in what seemed like absolute despair.
“W-what for?” I asked confused and a little scared.
She looked up at me, confusion evident.
“W-what do you mean?” she asked.
“What did you do, or thought you did?” I asked.
She looked at me, terrified, then blurted out, “ItriedtobringbackyourmemoriesbutwhenIdidIerasedthemallinsteadpleasedonotbemadatmeeeeeeee!”
“What?!” I said. “What did you say?”
“I said,” she said, “Itriedtobringbackyourmemor-pphbt!” I covered her mouth with a hoof.
“Slowly, please.”
She took a deep breath. “I said,” she said, “I tried to bring back your memories but when I did I erased them all instead please do not be mad at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…!”
She drew out the ‘me’ for several long, arduous minutes. When she finally stopped, she had let me go and was on the ground, forelegs over her eyes. I was shocked from what she’d said. She was the one who had caused my memory loss? Luna? I was upset, but not with her. I knew she'd meant well. I was upset that it hadn't worked. I looked over at Celestia, hopeful.
“I am sorry, Polaris,” she said, “I can do nothing to help. Your memories, your last life, all gone. Forever.”
I looked down at Luna, who was still on the floor, legs over her eyes.
“Luna,” I said softly. “I don’t blame you.”
She lifted a leg. “Y-you do not? Why not? It is my fault!”
“That doesn’t matter anymore. You wanted to help, that’s what matters.” I paused, then I added, “thank you for trying.”
She stood up slowly. She looked up, and nodded, then backed up next to her sister.
“So, Celestia…” I said conversationally. I was trying to change topics, for both Luna’s and my sake. “Did you find a teacher for me?”
“Yes,” she said, “I did. I will teach you the basics, and then you will be able to continue on your own.”
“Y-you?” I asked, surprised. “You, as in you personally? Teach me?”
“Yes.” she said. “But you do not seem to understand. “The basics themselves are not that hard. It is the more complex spells, ones that do not involve movement, that are the most difficult. I shall merely teach you theory and basic telekinesis. The rest... it shall be up to you.”
I paused at this. “Be as it may,” I said, “I’m still grateful you could take the time to personally help me.”
She smiled, and said, “We could start now, if you like.”
“S-Sure,” I managed.
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Soon, she’d helped me learn how to channel my magical energy. It’s sort of like the chills you get when you listen to your favorite music, the stuff that really moves you. Just, I don’t know, warmer I guess. You have to focus it through your horn. Then, you have to learn how to properly manipulate the energy. There were several formulas and equations for this, but if I took the time to explain them all, you’d probably all run away screaming “AAAAAHHHH, HEADACHE!” So, we’ll skip the unpleasantness.
I concentrated, and managed to light up my horn. I couldn’t see what color my aura was though.
“Ha!” I exclaimed excitedly. “I did it!”
“Yes,” said Celestia, “now, just think about what you want to move, then, just… do it.”
I nodded, then looked at the history book. I tried to move it. Nothing. I thought about what I wanted to happen. I focused on it again. I imagined what I wanted to happen. The book quivered slightly, then, a glowing yellow aura surrounded the book, and lifted it off the table.
“YES!” I shouted.
I imagined the book spinning, and it started doing so. I put the book through its paces, having it fly through the air, doing a wild assortment of tricks and maneuvers. The door opened, and Blue walked in. The book flew through the air, pulling out of a wild dive, and flew straight into his face. He was knocked flat by the book, which flew in a spectacular arc over our heads and landed on the bed, miraculously unharmed. Blue did not look happy when he got up, rubbing his head with a hoof.
“I told you,” he said, “that you shouldn't start doing that until your leg gets better. How about we take a look, since you seem so very eager to be up and about.”
He came over and lifted my right foreleg. His horn glowed as he studied it. He eventually let my leg go, and stood there, thinking. After a while he looked up and nodded.
“Time to get you on your hooves.” he said.
“You mean...?”
“Yes, time to teach you how to walk.”
I laughed excitedly. Finally, I would be able to walk on these blasted hooves. Able to look out a window without waiting for someone else. And most importantly, I’d be able to get something to eat when I felt like it!
“Just get down off the bed,” said Blue, “slowly .”
I pushed myself of the bed, slowly, of course. I put all four hooves on the ground, and promptly collapsed. Blue caught me before I hit the ground.
“Lean on me,” he said.
I leaned my weight on him, and slowly straightened up. I put a hoof forward, then another, and another. Soon, I was walking slowly around the room, Blue helping to support my weight.
I sped up a little, and Blue said, “Take it easy now.” I immediately slowed down, knowing better than to question him on this.
After a while, I stopped, tired and a little sore. I sat down right where I was standing.
“Whew! I exclaimed. “That was more tiring than I thought it would be.”
“Hmm.” said Blue. “I guess you have never actually walked on four legs before, have you?”
“Not really.”
“Then you should expect some exhaustion.”
“Yes.” said Luna.
I jumped. I’d forgotten that the Princesses were still in the room. I’d been so intent on staying upright that I hadn’t noticed anything else.
“Well,” said Blue, “you should probably rest for a little while. We can continue later.”
“Okay.” I said.
“And ,” said Blue pointedly, “that includes resting from magical activity.”
“Uh-huh.” I said, blushing. “Yeah.”
“Now, to bed.”
He helped me over to the bed, since I was still too weak to keep myself up. I climbed onto the bed, and laid down.
“We should go now,” said Celestia. “We have royal duties to attend to.”
Luna nodded in confirmation. They walked over to the door, which opened.
“Farewell, Polaris.” said Celestia.
“Bye.” I said.
“Bye.” said Luna.
They walked out of the door, which closed behind them. I looked back at Blue, who had picked up the history book.
“Rest now,” said Blue, “and I'll be back later. We can work on your walking more then.” He walked right up to me. “And , no. Magic. Either.” He poked me in the chest to enunciate every word.
I blushed brighter. “Okay.”
He walked over to the door, which he opened.
“See you later,” he said, and he exited.
I laid back against my pillows, tired from my physical and magical exertion. I went into a half-asleep state, thinking about the day. It had been alright so far. It was just late afternoon. I closed my eyes. I thought about what I’d learned about magic earlier. I could think of some interesting things I could do. Fantasizing about future magic, I drifted into a light sleep.
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Celestia and Luna were in the throne room again. The late afternoon sun’s gentle rays drifted through the windows. The sisters were deep in conversation. They were interrupted when a guard trotted into the room.
“Your highnesses.” said the guard, bowing.
“You may rise.” said Celestia. “What is it?”
“Your highness, the pegasi scouts are reporting a large storm coming out of the north. The weather teams are not sure they can repel it.”
“Thank you for notifying us.” said Celestia. “We shall attend to it.”
“Your highness.” The guard bowed, then left the room.
The sisters watched him go, then, they turned to each other.
“An out of control storm? At this time of year?” asked Luna.
“I suppose they have to happen upon occasion.” said Celestia. “Well, if the weather teams are unable stop it, we will simply have to fortify the city.”
“Yes.” said Luna.
The sisters then continued their previous conversation.
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 4: Purple is Awesome
Chapter 4
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When I woke up, it was again to the sound of the door opening. I opened my eyes and turned my head. I was surprised. Luna was walking over to me.
“Hi.” I said. “What’re you doing here?”
“I… I came to see how you were.” she said.
“You were just here earlier though.” I said. “Why come back so soon?”
“Oh, well…”
I smiled. “I don’t care why. I’m just glad you’re here.”
“Oh… okay.”
“How are you feeling?” I said after a short pause.
“I am alright. And you?”
“Okay. My legs are still a little sore, but it’s not so bad.”
“Good.”
After a second, she said. “Could… could you… no. You wouldn't want to.”
“What?” I asked, curiosity aroused. “What is it?”
“Well, could you… help me with… with my focus?”
“What do you mean?”
“I… I have a hard time focusing my magic.”
“But you didn’t have any trouble with-” I hesitated, then coughed. “-with your memory spell.”
“Well, I was in your dreaming mind. Magic works differently there, easier for me. But here it is… unstable.”
“Oh, okay. Sure I’ll help you.”
“Really?” she looked surprised. “Thanks!”
I paused, then, “Um… could you… could you help me down?”
“What? Oh, of course!”
She stood next to the bed and let me wrap a foreleg around her shoulders. I managed to step down from the bed without major injury.
“Now,” I said, “what exactly seems to be wrong?”
“Well,” she said, “whenever I try to focus on a major piece of magic, I keep losing control.”
“Hmm.” I thought about it for a minute. “Could you get me a pencil... and something to write on?”
“Of course.” She got up and walked out of the room.
She returned shortly, carrying the requested items, as well as a small black book. She set them down in front of me then sat down next to me. I opened the book, which turned out to be on magical theory. Helpful. After searching for a minute, I found a good spell to use. I picked up the pencil with my magic. I was still thrilled about that simple piece of magic. I used the pencil to write out the magical formula.
“This is the formula for a simple color change, right?” I said.
“Yes?”
“Well, do you know which part is the amount of energy in the spell?”
“Here.” she pointed a piece of the formula out with a hoof.
“Right. So, do you see how it affects this part?” I pointed to another piece of the formula with the pencil. “It maintains the energy levels, but it also helps determine the stability of this spell.”
“Okay.”
“Well,” I continued, “If we take this part…” I pointed, “…and rewrite it as part of this section…” I pointed at another section, “…you make the spell more stable. See?”
“Yes!” she shouted. “That's what happened!”
“What do you mean?”
“Oh...” She looked a little embarrassed. “I accidentally, um... turned the third floor of the castle… purple.”
I started laughing. She paused, then joined me. We laughed our heads off for a minute, then stopped, gasping for breath.
“Well.” I said, trying to regain my composure. “Want…want to try again?”
“O-okay.” she said, also struggling to keep a straight face.
She got up and turned towards the bed. She looked directly at the covers, and her horn started to glow. After a second there was a flash, and the covers turned from white to a bright green. Luna cried out happily. She turned around and hugged me.
“Oh, thank you thank you thank you!” she shouted.
“Y-you’re welcome.” I gasped.
Just then, there was a loud blast, a minor explosion, and a bright light shone through the room. I felt myself get thrown backwards, Luna landing on top of me. When I opened my eyes, Luna was on top of me, her lips against mine. After a second, her eyes flew open, and she quickly pushed herself off of me.
“Sorry!” she said. “I-I…”
“It’s…it’s okay.” I said. “But what was that?”
We looked over at the bed, where the covers had returned to their original white.
“Oops,” I said. “I think we forgot to reset the spell structure to match the energy stabilization.”
“Oh.” she said, “maybe.”
I looked at her as she studied the piece of paper. She didn’t seem too upset about her failure. If anything, she seemed more enthusiastic. I watched her, inexplicably enthralled by her. Her mane was a deep, rich blue, and it sparkled like stars in the night sky. Her blue eyes were soft and kind. She looked over at me.
“Are… are you alright?” she said, a look of concern on her face.
“What?” I looked away from her, cheeks burning slightly. “Oh, I’m… I’m fine.”
“Well then, can we try again?”
“S-sure.” I smiled. “Let’s just fix this spell first, yes?”
“Right.” she said, also smiling.
We wrote down the necessary modification, then Luna then made another attempt. This time, she changed them to a deep orange color. Thanks our modifications, the spell did not again fail with explosive force.
“That’s better.” I said.
“Very.” she said, reversing the spell (No explosions followed).
“Well, need help on anything else?”
“You would do that for me?”
“Sure. Why not?”
For the next couple of hours, we went over some of the spells that had been giving her trouble. They were all relatively simple, something I guessed most unicorns could have done, but I enjoyed helping her. I could tell that she must have just recently started using her magic. She was surprised by many things that were new to me as well. As we worked, we drifted closer together, both physically and as friends. By the end of it, we were side by side, nearly touching.
When it was time for her to leave, she hugged me said, “Thanks for helping me Polaris.”
“You’re welcome.” I said, hugging her back. “Maybe we can do this again some other time?”
“Yes. That would be nice.”
She walked out of the room, and closed the door behind her. After a minute, I realized something. I was stuck on the ground, unable to walk by myself. And nopony else was in the room.
“Darn it!” I said. “Now what do I do?”
Naturally, this is the point at which Blue decided to show up. He was surprised to see me on the ground, but after I explained what had happened, he understood. He helped me back into bed, and ordered me to sleep. He then left. I was tired from my magical exertion, but I was glad I had been able to help Luna.
I laid there, trying to sleep. I was having a problem. Luna kept entering into my thoughts. The gentleness in her eyes. The rich color of her mane. I ordered myself to stop it, but that did no good. I pulled the magic book, which Luna had left behind, over to me. I read through it, absorbing the information it contained. Eventually, I fell asleep from sheer exhaustion.
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Luna was telling Celestia what she’d been doing. Celestia listened attentively to her younger sister as she described the events of the day. She was intrigued by the caring in Luna’s voice as she talked about Polaris. Luna explained how he’d helped her with her… explosive problem.
“…and that is where I was today.” Luna finished, a dreamy smile on her face.
“Thank you for sharing that with me, Luna.” said Celestia.
She recognized the symptoms. She decided not to say anything. They sat there in silence for a while, then an idea came to Celestia.
“Sister,” she said, “How about you go back tomorrow? I have another council session to attend to, and I think you would be happier if you spent time with your new… friend than sitting still and being quiet for hours.”
“Oh!” exclaimed Luna. “Can I?”
“Certainly.”
“Thank you!” Luna said, and she hugged her sister. She let off a large yawn, and covered her mouth.
“Oh… excuse me. I think I shall go raise the moon, and then sleep until morning.”
“That sounds like an excellent idea.” said Celestia.
Luna exited the room, passing a royal guard who was entering.
“Your highness.” he said, nodding to Luna. She nodded back. He then proceeded to Celestia.
“Your highness,” he said again, bowing, “the pegasi have made a report. The storm will reach us within the next four days.”
“Thank you. Please begin preparing the city for the storm.”
“Yes, your highness.” The guard bowed again, then exited the room.
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When I woke, the sun was just rising. The warm rays were making their gradual way down the wall opposite the windows. I watched for a long time, content to remain in one spot for now. I thought about yesterday, about Luna. About her eyes, her star-spangled mane, her smile. I smiled dreamily. Then I stopped. Why do I think about her this way? I was scared of what the answer might be, what it would mean. After a while, Blue came in.
“How're you?” he asked.
“I’m… I’m okay.”
“Good. Then we can work on your leg strength some more.”
I nodded, and let him help me out of bed. My legs were still weak, but they did not shake as much as yesterday. We started walking around the room, me leaning on his shoulder. I wasn’t really paying attention. My thoughts were of Luna. Eventually I realized that we had stopped moving, and Blue was trying to talk to me.
“Polaris?” he said, sounding panicked. “Polaris?!”
“Y-yes?” I said.
“What is wrong with you?! I have been trying to get your attention for several minutes now!”
“You… you have?”
“YES!” He looked upset. “Why didn't you answer me?”
“I was thinking about something else.”
“Is that all?”
“Yes.”
“Well, try to think about what we are doing here. You were walking weirdly, and I was trying to help you.”
“Oh.”
“Now, let me adjust your posture.”
He instructed me on how to stand properly, since I had apparently been slouching significantly. Once he had me straightened up, we resumed walking. I paid attention this time, assigning each leg a number. Two, three, one, four, two, three, one, four. I kept the pattern up until I could do it myself. That’s when I noticed that Blue wasn’t standing next to me anymore. I’d been walking by myself for several steps. I looked back at him.
“When did you stop?” I asked.
“Only a few feet back.” he said. ”What is up with you today?”
“I don’t know.”
“Hmm.”
He came over and walked around me with his horn glowing, inspecting me. After a minute, he stopped and said, “There is nothing physically wrong with you. Well, other than your leg and ribs.”
“Okay.”
“So,” he continued, “there must be another explanation.”
I was feeling nervous, scared that he might figure out what I was too afraid to admit.
“Maybe…” I held my breath, bracing myself.
“…you are hungry.”
I let out my breath in relief. “Yeah, maybe.”
“Well, I think you are well enough to walk to the cafeteria.”
“If you say so Blue.”
We left the room and started walking down the hallway. My legs started to hurt a bit, but I just ignored it. I was sure that was just my lack of experience. As we walked, I told him about Luna’s visit the previous day. He seemed overly interested in the details.
“So she kissed you?” he asked.
“It was an accident.” I protested. “She didn’t mean to.”
“Yes, but did you enjoy it?”
“Ah…um…”
Blue burst out laughing. I gave him a death glare, which just made him laugh harder. He kept shooting me looks out of the corner of his eye, and my expression just kept making him burst out laughing. While he eventually stopped, he kept having to fight back fits of giggles.
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After we’d eaten, we decided to go to the garden. I walked around, enjoying the beautiful day. It was nicer now that I could walk around and smell the flowers. I loved all the new sensations I was feeling. The wind in my coat and mane. The feeling of the ground under my hooves.
I decided to sit down on a bench and rest. I closed my eyes and turned my head into the wind. The shorter fur on my muzzle tickled in the breeze, flowing gently up my nose. After several minutes, I heard the sound of hooves approaching. I opened my eyes and looked around. Luna was walking towards me.
“H-Hi Luna.” I said. “W-What’re you doing here?”
“C-Can I join you? My sister is in a council meeting that will last for hours.”
“S-Sure.” I said. “I don’t mind.”
“Thanks.”
She sat next to me, smiling slightly. I realized that I had a goofy grin on my face. I quickly replaced it with a calmer expression.
“It’s so strange, being here.”
She frowned. “What do you mean?”
“It’s all so different. So… new. I can’t remember anything, but I know that I’ve never been anywhere like this before.”
“How can you be so sure?”
“I don’t know how. I just… know .”
She looked as confused as I felt. I couldn’t blame her. I didn’t understand how I knew these things. I cast around for something to say or do. I looked over at the fountain. I had an idea. I quickly put a spell together in my head. I gathered myself, then lit up my horn.
The water sparkled, and started to move higher. It flowed away from the fountain, and floated around us in graceful arcs. Luna gaped up in amazement. I directed the water to change shape, and it responded. It flexed and shifted, flowing in intricate patterns. It refracted the bright sunlight, sending shimmering colors fluttering over us.
“Are…are you doing this?” she asked, awestruck.
“Yes.”
“It's amazing!”
I manipulated the water back into the fountain, gently letting it down so as to not cause it to splash everywhere. I looked over at Luna, smiling. I had a slight headache, but it had been worth it.
“That was fantastic.” said Luna. “How'd you do that?”
“Well, I used a basic levitation spell. I just modified it to be more specific.”
“But, that must be really complicated.”
“I suppose. But it was beautiful, wasn’t it?”
“Yes. Yes it was. Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.” I answered, also smiling.
Blue walked over to us. “Which one of you did that?” he asked.
“Me.” I said.
“You? How?”
“Just a modified levitation spell.”
“Really? That's it?”
“Yes?”
“Hmm.”
I tried to get off the bench, but instead, I fell to the ground.
“What is it?” asked Blue.
“Dizzy.” I said.
“You're probably just a little tired from that spell.”
“Yeah.”
Once I’d rested a bit, they helped me back to my room. After I was back in my bed, Luna bade me farewell, and left. Blue grinned at me, an eyebrow cocked. I glared at him, which just made him laugh.
“Now,” Blue said, “sleep, so you can get better.”
“Fine.”
I laid back, and closed my eyes. Once I heard the door close, I turned on my side. My head still hurt a little. I closed my eyes again, and let myself drift off.
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Luna was telling Celestia about her day. She sounded excited about what Polaris had done with the water, and concerned when she talked about the aftermath. Celestia smiled. It was obvious to her what was going on, but she didn’t say anything.
“…so, we took him up to his bed, and I left.” Luna finished.
“Thank you,” said Celestia. “He should be better within the next few days.”
“I know.”
Luna and Celestia sat in a companionable silence, occasionally exchanging small scraps of conversation.
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When I woke up, my dizziness had subsided. After a while, I reached over and picked up the book Blue had brought, and started to read it again. After a while, Blue came in.
“How are you feeling?” he asked.
“Better.”
“Good.” He paused. “Hungry?”
“Very.”
He smiled. “Thought so.”
He helped me down, and we started walking towards the cafeteria. On our way there, we saw a familiar mare.
“May Breeze?” I called.
“Hmm?” The mare looked over, then smiled. “Oh, hi Polaris.”
“Hi. Where're you going?”
“I was going to get something to eat in the cafeteria.”
“Can we join you?”
“Sure.”
She walked with us. We exchanged small talk as we went. I asked her more about her profession. She explained happily about all the different cloud types she had to deal with. I finally found out how pegasi could touch clouds. Apparently, it’s not just unicorns who have magic. Pegasi have some sort of low-level magic, which explains how they can fly.
After we’d reached the cafeteria, gotten our food, and found a table, we started to eat. While we were there, we talked about unimportant things, which was relaxing. I was glad for their company. It kept my mind off of unpleasant things. When we’d finished there, we decided to go outside.
In the garden, we walked around, enjoying ourselves. I stumbled occasionally, still a little clumsy on my hooves, but otherwise, it was great. After a while, we sat down on one of the benches and relaxed in the afternoon sunlight. Then, they walked me back to my room. Luna was waiting there. She went inside with me.
“Feeling better?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“Good. Um… I brought you a new book.”
She pointed at a book that lay on my nightstand. The title was:
The History of Practical Magic
“T-Thanks.”
“You are welcome.”
We looked at each other for a moment, then she looked away.
“Want to look at it with me?” I asked, not wanting her to leave.
“Sure!” We sat down on the bed, and opened the book.
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Later, when we were about six chapters in, I heard a faint odd whooshing/wheezing sound. It sounded like it was getting closer.
“Can you hear that?” I asked Luna.
“What?” she asked, puzzled.
“That sound.”
Before she could speak, something big and blue fell from the ceiling and landed on the ground with a tremendous CRASH ! Luna and I stared at it, dumbstruck. A door opened on the side, and a brown stallion walked out.
“Well, this certainly isn’t Canterlot castle!” he said.
“Who are you?” I asked. “And what is that?”
“Oh, hello!” he said. He wheeled around to face us, giant grin on his face. “I’m the Doctor.”
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 6: Magic on the Friendship Express
Chapter 6
“And you are sure this is the best thing to do?” asked Celestia.
Luna and I’d spent the past fifteen minutes explaining what had happened. Celestia was a good audience. She didn’t ask unnecessary questions. She was surprised, however, to hear what had happened to me. She’d asked to look me over. I’d let her, and she, like the Doctor, hadn’t found anything wrong. After we’d finished, I’d made my suggestion.
“I’m certain.” I said. “We need to find out what caused that storm. No natural storm has ever hit Everfree with so much force. At least, not that I know of.”
Luna nodded in agreement. “Sister, we need to uncover the source. If it happened once, it could happen again.”
She gazed down at us, then answered. “Very well, I will allow you to go.”
“But,” she added, cutting short our excitement, “you should not go alone. I want you to take Starswirl with you.”
“Who now?” I asked, before Luna could speak.
“A friend of Luna’s. Now, you should go get ready. I will arrange for you to take the nine o’clock train.”
“Yes sister.” said Luna.
“Thank you, Celestia.” I added.
She nodded and smiled benevolently as we left. I closed the doors behind us, and we proceeded through the castle. As far as I could tell, the castle wasn’t really that old, though I was sure it had been around for a good stretch. The greyish stones soaked up all the light in the place, so there were torches lit, even in the middle of the day. When Luna had brought me here, I was a bit overwhelmed at the size of the place.
Several tall towers ascended into the air above it, and a small creek flowed in front of it. We walked past several stained glass windows, bright and colorful, helping the torches counteract the dark stones. They apparently depicted scenes from Equestria’s past. I wasn’t sure what any of them meant, though. One did depict Luna and Celestia. It showed them circling the sun and the moon. I noticed how little emphasis was placed on the stars and moon. I guess that the day-loving ponies of Equestria would favor the sun.
In the courtyard, several guards were at their stations. They were different colors, but I noticed that quite a few were pegasi. I remembered reading about the pony tribes, and I knew the pegasi had been the best warriors. While the original pegasus city was lost, the city of Cloudsdale was said to be even more amazing. Being a unicorn, I could never visit, which irritated me. I decided I was going to figure out a way to go. But I put the thought aside for now and looked over at Luna, concerned. She hadn’t said anything since we’d left the throne room.
“Luna?” I asked. “Are you alright?”
“Hmm?” she looked up. “Oh, yes. I was just wondering what caused the storm.”
“Well, hopefully we'll know soon. That is why we’re going to the Crystal Empire, after all.”
“Yes.”
We continued out through the gate, and crossed the stream. Around us, ponies were going about their everyday business. They all said “Princess” when they passed by, dipping their heads in acknowledgement to Luna. I stayed silent, just walking beside her. Every time I opened my mouth to greet anypony, they’d just turn their noses and walk off. It made my ear twitch in annoyance, but I knew that many of the ponies who occupied the city were the so called ‘elite’ of Equestria.
“Sorry.” said Luna, after the fifth pony.
“Don’t be. It’s not your fault.” I paused, then said “is it my mane?”
She looked at me. “No, it looks great.”
“But not as sophisticated as theirs?”
She smiled, and we continued onward. After a minute I asked, “Where is Starswirl meeting us?”
“At the train station.”
“You have trains?”
“Of course, why?”
“Nothing.” I was more confused than ever. Trains and indoor plumbing, but no electricity. I guess it didn’t matter, but it was weird.
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It took us several hours to get what we would need. We went to the train station and waited for a long time. “Where is he?” I asked, growing impatient.
“I don't know.” said Luna.
“The train leaves soon. He needs to be here.”
“Who ya lookin’ for!?” a voice shouted from behind me.
I jumped. Behind me was a gray stallion with a crazy white mane, and a broad smile. His bright violet eyes crackled with energy.
“Looking for me?” he said. I managed to stutter out an eloquent line of gibberish.
“Starswirl!” said Luna. “You made it! Quick, on the train before it leaves.”
She dragged both of us into the train car, and closed the door behind us. The inside pastel tan, with accents of green, red, and pink. This car was lined with seats.
“The sleeper car is this way.” Luna said, walking through the door to the left. Starswirl somehow popped up next to me out of nowhere, grinning.
“So, what’s your name?” he asked, talking quickly.
“P-Polaris.” I said, taking a step away from him. “I… I take it you’re-“
“Starswirl?” he said, inexplicably ending up on my other side. “That would be me! Why're you going?”
“What?”
“Why're you going with Luna?”
“Well, it was my idea to go.”
“Yes, but are you going with her, or are you going with her?”
“What?!”
“Nothing!” he said, bouncing away.
I stared after him, shocked. This was Starswirl? I followed Luna into the sleeper car. The door furthest from me on the right was open. I walked down to it and looked in. Luna was in there, waiting.
“This is ours.” she declared. “Which bunk do you want?”
“I… I don’t care.” I said, not wanting to choose before her. “Which one do you want?”
“Oh, okay then.” she looked around, then pointed to the top bunk on the right. “I think I’ll take this one.”
“Okay.” I said. I looked around to, and selected the one across from her. Pointing, I said, “I’ll take that one.”
“Okay then.” she said. “Where's Starswirl?” Naturally, he chose this moment to pop up next to me again.
“Hiya!” he said. “Which one is mine?”
“Whichever one of the bottom bunks you want.” I said.
“Darn! I like the top bunks.”
I glanced at him, then lowered my head. “You can have mine, I don’t really care.”
“Really? Thanks!” he started to move forward, then froze. “Uh... which one is it?”
I pointed. “Thanks!” he said, then jumped up onto the bunk with a giant leap. He turned over and crashed immediately. While he snored comically, Luna laughed quietly and we left the room.
“Is he always that way?” I asked.
“Usually,” she said, “But I also think he had some sugar before he got here.”
“Oh.” The train jerked forward unexpectedly, which caused us to stumble, and our lips met. I pulled back, blushing violently.
“L-looks like we’re on our way.” I said, nervously. “Do you want to get something to eat?”
“Sure.”
We walked through the train cars, not passing anypony else. It looked like Celestia had given us our own train. In the dining car, we started to serve ourselves.
“Salt block?” asked Luna.
“No!” I shouted, panicking. “No salt!”
“What?” she asked.
“Uh... bad, well, weird experience. Just… no salt. Please?”
“Okay.” she said.
We sat down, and started to eat. The food was good, it seemed more flavorful than anything I remembered… oops. I teared up a little as my memory failed me, again.
“What is it?” Luna asked, concerned.
“Just… just my memory.” I said.
“Oh.” After a minute of silence, she asked, “What… what happened?”
“What do you mean?”
“Why did you get so upset about the salt?”
“Oh.” I blushed. I motioned for her to come closer. “Well, you see, when I was travelling with the Doctor…”
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It took me nearly an hour to explain, by the end of which she was blushing too.
“Sorry I pried.” she said. “I do understand. Nopony can really control themselves if they have that much salt. I know you didn't... didn't mean anything by what you did. It is a little funny though.” She cracked a smile.
“The thing is… I… I think he… liked it. Because he... he did it back.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Maybe.”
We sat in silence, thinking, and I turned to the window. Outside, the forest was passing by us in a green and brown blur.
“Luna, about earlier…” I started. “What I wanted to say… in the hospital. Luna, I think… well…”
“Yes?” she said, leaning forward, expectantly.
I struggled with the words. “I guess I… I l-”
At this precise moment, Starswirl banged the door to the dining car open. “What is there to eat!?” he asked flamboyantly, “I am starving!”
He walked over and started serving himself. I blushed and shrunk back in my seat. He made his way over to our table and sat down.
“How are you?” I asked tentatively. I hoped he had been on a sugar high. I’m not sure I could stand him being that way for the entire journey.
“Better, thanks.” he said. He seemed calmer than earlier, but still energetic. He started to eat. After a few bites, he looked up at me.
“Luna says you helped her with her magic.” he said, conversationally.
“Yes, I did.” I said.
“Do you think you could help me with something?” he asked. He didn’t seem nearly as nervous as Luna had been when she’d asked me.
“What?”
“I have been working on my spell-work, and I thought we could take a crack at it together.”
“Oh, cool.” I paused. “What exactly did you have in mind?”
“Oh, just some basic magic. I just thought maybe you could help me multi-task. Luna told me about what you did with the fountain.”
“She… she did?” I was surprised, and a little embarrassed.
“Yep.”
I looked him over. “Okay.”
“Thanks!” He immediately recommenced with the demolishment of his meal.
I looked down at my plate. I didn’t really feel hungry anymore. I got up and took my plate over to the counter, and left it there. I returned to the table and sat down.
“Well, where do you want to start?” I asked.
“What, now?” he asked.
“Yes, now. When did you expect?”
“Okay.”
I levitated an empty plate and several forks over from the counter, all one at a time. Then, I lifted them all into the air at once, and started the forks spinning around the plate. I set it all down and had him try it. He got it pretty quickly, and I didn’t have to repeat very much. After that, I used the color-change spell on several plates at once, changing them all different colors. He did it… with mixed results.
“Ah!” I ducked as a plate flew at my head. Luna and I had taken cover behind an upended table. Unfortunately for us, the plates were learning to get around this minor difficulty.
“What did I do wrong!?” yelled Starswirl, joining us behind the table.
“I don’t know!” I shouted back. “Can’t you stop it?” He lit up his horn for a second, but the only result was the plates’ attacks intensifying.
“That didn't work!” he shouted as he dodged another multi-colored plate.
“Let me try!”
Still avoiding the flying plates, I jumped out from behind the table and cast a spell that I hoped would destroy the spell Starswirl had cast. I managed to get the plates to slow down a bit, but they still flew around at dangerous speeds. I ran back behind the table.
“Tell me exactly what you did!” I yelled. He explained what he’d done. I face-hoofed.
“You do not EVER make a small spell last that long! Or this happens!” I pointed frantically around at the multicolored plates rocketing around the train car.
“Sorry!”
Now that I knew what he’d done, I was easily able to diffuse the spell-bound plates. I sat in a chair, panting. Starswirl had managed to put a very strong spell on them. The horrible thing about the spell he’d created, was that it took a lot more energy to stop it than it took to start it. Luna brought me a glass of water, which I gladly accepted. After I’d managed to calm my breathing down, I looked over at Starswirl. He was poking at the ground with a hoof, occasionally glancing back over at me.
“It’s not your fault.” I said.
“How is it not?” he asked, skeptical.
“Who taught you to use magic?”
“L-Luna helped.” That made sense.
“Well, maybe I can help.” I looked him up and down appraisingly. “Would you like me to?”
“Yes, please.”
“Okay then. We can do that tomorrow. But right now, I’m going to bed. Good night.” They said “good night” as I dragged myself off of the chair and walked back to the sleeper car. I got into one of the lower bunks without thinking, and slipped into sleep immediately.
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I was there again. The house was now just a burnt skeleton. A dead, blackened ruin, ash-covered and decrepit. I sat there looking, tears running down my face. Waves of sadness rolled over me, twisting my sorrows in my chest like a knife. Above, stars shone, twinkling down on me, their light drowned by the distant glow of the city. A bright moon shone behind me, casting my shadow far in front of me. I stared into it, it was so unfamiliar, but I couldn’t remember what was. I didn’t know.
Behind me, the moonlight intensified briefly, and then I felt a hoof on my shoulder. I turned my head slightly, looking behind me. Luna stood next to me, her face sad. She sat, and I returned my gaze to the house. Before long, I finally broke down. I hugged her, and sobbed into her shoulder. She hugged me back, wrapping her wings around me, holding me close to her. She didn’t say anything, we just stayed there. Time lost all meaning as we stayed, locked in an embrace.
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I woke to find that the real Luna was holding me as closely as she had been in my dream, her soft wings wrapped around me. Both of us were still crying. I pulled back and gazed into her blue eyes, and she looked back. I could see myself reflected in them. My reflection was stranger than my shadow, and that hurt worse than anything. When she did let me go, I rubbed my eyes, trying to clear away the clouds in my vision.
“Thank you.” I whispered.
She nodded. I could tell she still blamed herself, despite what I’d told her. We got up and left the compartment and walked to the dining car. I wasn’t at all hungry, but Luna convinced me to eat a light breakfast. I let my thoughts wander aimlessly as I slowly ate. At some point, Starswirl came in.
“Morning!” he said. I just nodded, staring into space. He sat down next to me. “What d'you want to do today?”
“Hmm?”
“We will not reach the Crystal Empire for another two days, so what do you plan on doing?”
“I don’t really know.” I was telling the truth. I’d brought a book, but that wasn’t really much, and to be honest, I didn’t feel like reading at the moment.
“Any ideas?” I asked.
Starswirl thought on this. “Well, we could work with magic some more.” I looked over at him. He seemed pretty excited about the idea. He must have enjoyed yesterday, despite the prismatic madness. I thought about it, but I couldn’t see the harm.
“Fine.” I said. “But can we please try to avoid a repeat of yesterday?”
Starswirl smiled sheepishly. “Yeah.”
After we’d finished eating- it took Starswirl a long time, he continually kept getting more food- we got to work. He wasn’t that bad, but he kept getting overexcited, which made his magic erratic. At least he managed not to set fire to anything (cough cough). He also managed not to repeat his mistake from last night. He was willing to learn from his mistakes, and I learned a thing or two as well, it wasn’t at all one sided. I grew to like him. He was a bit hyperactive, but he was very friendly. At some point, Luna left, saying she “needed more sleep”.
Once we’d finished, I went back to the sleeper car, while Starswirl attacked another plate of food. I laid on my bunk and pulled out the magic book Luna had given me. I read that for several hours, learning everything I could. The book was fascinating, containing spells of all kinds. I tried a few of them, and they went alright. A memory kept trying to surface, and I struggled with it, but all I got from it was a headache. I knew it had something to do with magic, and it irritated me to not be able to remember. After several minutes, the only thing I got out of it was the letter H. Whoop-de-doo. I eventually laid down to sleep, but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to return to the burnt house. Unfortunately, my body had other ideas.
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I must have dozed off at some point, because I opened my eyes, and it was morning. Sunlight streamed in through the windows, lighting up the compartment. Dust motes streamed in the golden shafts created by the window panes. I stretched in the sunlight, and pulled myself off of my bed. I picked up the magic book, and looked inside. We wouldn’t be arriving in the Crystal Empire until the next day.
I decided I’d try something a bit more difficult… how about teleportation. I read through the pages, memorizing the information. It was a ridiculously easy piece of magic, but it required a good deal of energy. I chose my destination, the dining car. It didn’t matter that we were moving, the spell made that irrelevant. I cast the spell, and in a flash of light, I materialized in the dining car.
“Yes!” I shouted “HA!”
Luna and Starswirl were at a table, eating. They were now both staring at me, jaws hanging loose. I ignored them, and proceeded to bounce around their table, laughing maniacally, shouting “Yesyesyesyesyes! Ha ha ha!”
Starswirl was the first to get over his shock. He shouted “Cool!”
Luna unfroze. “Look.” she said, pointing at my flank.
“What?” I asked, turning to look. On my flank, a cutie mark had appeared. It was a blue six-pointed star, with a white four-pointed star inside.
“What does that mean?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Well,” said Starswirl, “six-points like that usually have to do with magic. I have no idea what the four-point is though.”
“So… my special talent is… what? Magic?”
“Looks like it!” he said, grinning. “Luna said you were good, but I did not think you were that good!”
“Cool!” I said. I sat down next to them, then levitated a plate and some food through the air, bringing it to rest in front of me.
“Show off.” said Starswirl. I realized then that he was a blank-flank.
“Oh, sorry.” I said. “I didn’t mean anything…”
“I know.” he said. “I’m pretty old to not have one, but if you found yours, I guess that means I can find mine.”
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One moment, Polaris was in front of us, grinning like Starswirl when he was on a sugar high. The next, his eyes rolled upward and he collapsed. I rushed around the table to him. He was... asleep?
“What happened?” I asked.
“Has he ever teleported?” asked Starswirl.
“No. Why?”
He glanced over at me, then started trying to lift Polaris. While he struggled, he said “Teleportation is easy, but it can take a lot out of you. And the first time… the first time is always the worst.”
“So that is why-” I started.
“-he collapsed.” he finished for me. “Help me get him into his bunk so he can sleep it off.”
I helped him lift Polaris, and we half-carried him back to the sleeper car. We laid him on his bunk, and I tucked him in. His sleeping face looked peaceful, unlike the other night. I’d found him while I’d been walking through the sleeping minds of my subjects. It hurt to see him in so much pain. I’d tried to comfort him, but I was still concerned. And despite what Celestia and Polaris said, it still felt like my fault. I brushed a wild strand of his mane off of his face, then turned to leave. Starswirl was watching us attentively. He smiled at me, but I could see the glint of sadness in his eyes. He looked away and nodded, still smiling, but now it was a sad smile. I followed him out of the compartment, leaving Polaris to sleep.
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I opened my eyes and groaned. My body was sore. I was on my bunk, somehow. I wondered how I’d gotten there.
“What happened?” I asked.
“You passed out.” said Luna. She was sitting beside me.
“Why?” I pushed myself upright, my muscles protesting slightly.
“You've never teleported before, right?”
“Yes. And?” I asked, perplexed. Then it hit me. “I’ve never teleported before.” The funny thing about teleport spells, is that the first time you do it, it’s a lot harder than any other time. Oh ha ha ha, I’m soooo amused.
“How long was I out?” I asked.
“The rest of the day and the entire night. We should reach the Crystal Empire in an hour.”
“That long?”
She nodded, and helped me out of my bunk. It took me a second to get my balance, then we walked to the dining car. After I’d eaten (Luna and Starswirl had already done so), we went to the passenger car to wait. After several minutes, the trees had given away to rolling green hills, and then I saw it, the Crystal Empire.
The most notable feature was the castle, with its spire towering above everything in sight. The houses and shops radiated outward from the castle, the roads in a snowflake pattern. Everything sparkled and shined in the sunlight, the crystal that made up the place dazzling. The train came to a stop at the station, and we stood. We walked to the doors, which Starswirl opened. We exited the train, and turned towards the stairs down from the platform. Waiting for us was a charcoal grey stallion with a black mane. He smiled happily and waved us over.
“Welcome to the Crystal Empire!” he declared. “I'm Sombra.”
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Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 7: Very Big Vashta Nerada... Sort of
Chapter 7
“I'm Sombra.” said the charcoal stallion, his reddish eyes twinkling happily. “Celestia sent a message, and she asked me to help you.”
“Thank you.” said Luna. “I- we would be glad of your help.” I dipped my head in greeting. He nodded back.
He gestured for us to follow him and led us into the city. The crystal ponies were happily going about their business, meandering through the streets. Unlike in Everfree, they were all fairly welcoming, and greeted us as we passed by. Street vendors were calling out, and there was a market to our left down a street. Sombra led us through the streets toward the castle. Its spire glinted in the sunlight, refracting it into glorious array of colors. Sombra gave us a running tour, pointing out the features of the city. Several small arenas dotted the city, hosting the Empire’s famous jousting matches.
When we reached the castle, Sombra gestured to a structure that extended from the ground to the ceiling of the dome-like courtyard. “That is the crystal heart.” He said, now pointing at a heart-shaped crystal, suspended in the air between the two small spires. “It protects the Empire from outside threats.”
I examined the crystal heart. “Have there been any changes in the heart? Maybe around the time the storm started up in far north?”
Sombra rubbed his chin, thinking back. “None that I noticed, but it is not like I watch it around the clock. We should ask around.”
“That sounds like a good plan.” said Luna. “We could split up, so we can cover the city faster.”
I nodded in agreement. “That should work. Could you three do that? I’d like to examine the Crystal Heart, see if anything is wrong with it.”
They agreed to my proposition, and the three of them fanned out in different directions, moving outward back into the city. I approached the Crystal Heart, and cast a spell that would let me see the structure of spells and magic. What I saw startled me. The Crystal Heart itself didn’t seem to have any kind of magic on it, but the entire city was humming with magical energy, which radiated from the Crystal Heart.
The entire city was an amplifier, gathering in some sort of magical energy. The Crystal Heart was the part that released that energy. Something was wrong though. The Heart should have been radiating massive energy, nearly blinding me with light. But instead, it was completely dull, and none of the magical energy in the city was moving into it. This Crystal Heart was a fake! I ran to find the others.
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I found Sombra in the westernmost section of the city. He was speaking with a mare, and I assumed he was still asking ponies if they’d noticed anything. That image collapsed when I saw him hug her and lightly nuzzle her. I wished I didn’t have to interrupt, but I needed to tell him about the fake.
“S-Sombra?” I called, once I was closer.
“Yes?” he said. He didn’t look the slightest bit embarrassed. “Did you find something?”
“Yes. The-” I glanced at the mare. I could cause a massive panic if I told him here. “Can we talk? In private?”
“Sure.” He followed me to the side. Once I was sure nopony else could hear us, I started talking.
“Sombra, is the crystal heart ever removed for any reason? Maybe to clean it?”
“No. Why?” He seemed unnecessarily anxious, which made me suspicious.
“Because,” I said, watching his face closely, “the one you showed us, isn’t real.”
“Are you sure?” he asked, far less surprised than I had expected.
“Yes. Another thing I’m sure about…” I narrowed my eyes and stepped closer. “You’re hiding something.” He looked like he was about to make a run for it, so I got ready to grab him. Just when I expected him to dash off, he sighed and sat down.
“You are right. I am hiding something.” he admitted, defeated. He looked thoroughly unhappy. He looked up at me. “I guess I have to tell now, right?”
“Yes, you do.” I said, firmly. “So, spill the beans .”
He raised an eyebrow. “Do what?”
Exasperation. “Never mind, just tell me what happened.” He drew in a slow breath, then began his story.
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I was meandering through the streets of the city with my marefriend Amethyst. I was contentedly watching the citizens of the Crystal Empire go about their daily lives, and I was enjoying time with Amethyst. She was easy to talk to, and she helped me to feel less lonely. As we walked along, I looked up at the spire of the castle, radiating prismatic hues across the sky. While during the day they were bleached and outshone by the sun, at night, in the kinder light of the moon, they were radiant.
After I’d taken Amethyst home, I walked to the library. In the library, I resumed my studies of magic. I was particularly fascinated with the Crystal Heart and the magic of the Crystal Empire. I was trying to replicate its magic, but it was slow going. This led me to the conclusion that I needed something to work off of. Unfortunately, there was nothing like the Heart anywhere in the entire Empire.
I… I took the actual Crystal Heart. I figured that nopony would miss it as long as I had it back as soon as possible. I took it to the library, hidden in my saddlebags. Unfortunately, there were consequences. The storm from the north was caused by the replacement Heart. It made the magic running through the Empire go haywire, and that messed with the Empire’s weather magic. The Empire has no pegasi, so the weather is regulated by spells that were cast a very long time ago. When I realized what was happening, I immediately returned the Heart. I returned home Nopony knew but me, but that’s the problem. I’d been able to study the Crystal Heart for a good period, but this is where the real problems started.
Several days later, I was in the library, studying an old crystal spellbook, when I decided to attempt one of the spells. It was a spell that could make you… make you a sort of ruler, make others respect you. I… I admit to my selfishness. After I cast the spell, the entire library went dark. Then, I saw it. The spell hadn’t done anything to me. It created a duplicate, a shadowed version of me. The duplicate escaped from me when I tried to capture it. It’s out there now, somewhere.
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I watched him closely during the entire story. I wasn’t sure I believed him, but I didn’t see how this story could make him sound less guilty than he already was. While there was fault in his actions, I couldn’t judge him. I was curious about the workings of the Crystal Heart too.
“Any idea where this copy is?” I asked. “I’m assuming he took the real Crystal Heart.”
“I don’t know for certain.” he said. “But I think I have an idea.”
“Really? Where?”
“The castle.” he said simply, pointing a hoof towards the looming structure.
“And why would he be there?” I asked.
“Just a hunch.” said Sombra. “If the spell did what it should've, they he would be attracted to a symbol of power.”
I followed him towards the castle, completely forgetting about the others.
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We searched the entire castle from top to bottom, examining every room closely. I didn’t find anything. Sombra and I met in the empty throne room, and he told me he hadn’t found anything either. We were discussing other possibilities when Luna and Starswirl entered the room.
“Hi guys.” I said. “Find anything?”
“No.” said Luna. “You?”
“Nothing. But Sombra here has something to tell you two.” I glared at him, and he sighed exasperatedly.
While he told them what had happened, I examined the throne room. I couldn’t see anything suspicious or wrong. Everything was in order, and nopony had seen the shadow Sombra anywhere. As I reached the conclusion that this was a wild goose chase, the room began to shake.
“What’s going on?!” I asked.
Through the windows, we could see dark clouds swirling in around the castle. The sky faded from blue to a depressing orange-brown. The crystals around us began to lose their luster, fading away. In the distance, a snowstorm was moving in on the Empire. Behind me, the doors opened with a resounding boom. I turned slowly around. Behind me, framed in the archway, was Sombra. But no, Sombra was standing next to me, looking determined. I looked back at the Sombra in the door. His horn was strange, orange and curved. His incisors were longer, and his eyes glowed maliciously with green and orange fire. This must be the shadow duplicate. He advanced on us, smiling evilly. I tried to stand between him and the others, but Sombra pushed me out of the way.
“He is mine .” he growled. I moved back, not arguing.
The two began to circle each other, glaring at one another. I stepped back, watching. The two Sombra’s began to throw magical attacks at their opposite. Sombra’s magic was red, and his opposite’s a crackling green and black. They intensified their assaults, dodging and shielding against the other’s magic. They were unrelenting, and the air in the room began to heat up. I looked back and forth between the dueling unicorns and my friends, then I charged up my own horn. I began to weave a spell around Luna and Starswirl, doing so slowly so they wouldn’t notice. When I’d finished, I activated it. Swirling lights began to surround them.
“What are you doing?” asked Luna, surprised.
I looked her in the eyes. “Protecting you.” I said, my voice breaking, and finished the spell. Light flashed, and Luna and Starswirl were gone, returned to Everfree. Hopefully.
I turned back to the dueling unicorns, and repeated my spell. I had to protect the citizens of the Empire. We reappeared in the field surrounding the city. The snowstorm had covered the area in a thick white blanket, and the pond had frozen over. A chilly wind flowed through the air. The real Sombra was standing next to me, and the other was on the far side of the pond, waiting.
“Let me help you!” I demanded. “Don’t fight him alone.”
“No. This is my fight.” he said, his determination evident in his voice.
I began to protest. “But-”
He covered my mouth. “This is MY fight.” he said.
I nodded, despite knowing that it was a bad idea. I backed away, and Sombra walked towards his opposite. I watched as they resumed their duel, Sombra wielding red crystal, Shadow Sombra his dark shadows. Sombra pelted the other with red shards, which were deflected without any apparent difficulty. Sombra summoned a crystalline sword to himself, and charged the other. The other blasted him with a wave of dark power, which shattered his sword and left him covered in small burns.
Sombra reared and smashed the ice with his forehooves, and cracks ran towards the other, guided by Sombra’s magic. When it reached the other, a large red crystal erupted from the ice, catapulting the other backwards. Sombra teleported himself on top of the other, pinning him to the ground, a hoof at the other’s throat. The other smiled widely, laughing as if he’d been waiting for this. He dissolved into a shadow, which wrapped around Sombra, pulling him against the ice. I cried out and ran forward, watching as the ice underneath him gave way. He fell into the icy water and I stood at the edge, desperate, unable to help.
From below, a green light began to glow, and the source began to rise. I stepped back from the water, which splashed outward as Sombra emerged. But something was wrong. His eyes were glowing green, his mane flowed unnaturally in the wind. His incisors had grown in length, and worst of all, his cutie mark had faded, and now showed a black crystal. He laughed, and walked towards me.
“S-Sombra?” I asked, the cold feeling in my heart not caused by the wind.
“Yes.” He said. His voice resonated through the ground, causing me to back further away in fear. “Now I shall rule the Crystal Empire! The crystal ponies shall be my slaves!”
He threw a shadowy bolt my way, which I barely managed to deflect. He assaulted me, and I continued to back away, unable to hold against the onslaught. Finally, one of the dark shards shattered my feeble shield, knocking me back onto the snow, where I lay, gasping for breath. Sombra walked to me and stood over me, laughing. He stared down at me, his eyes full of the green fire and which now contained violet flames. I thought of the others, now far away. I was glad I could keep them safe. Something hit my head, then there was darkness.
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 8: The Sound of His Name
Chapter 8
Several Months Later
“Gah!” I shouted in pain as Sombra again threw me into the wall of my cell. The ribs that weren’t broken threatened to do so, sending a sharp retort up my spine, which ached. My head ached, and I bled from several places on my head, but especially one of my ears and my nose.
“You will help me!” he shouted, the fire in his eyes blazing. “If it takes me another three months, you will help me!”
I spit blood out of my mouth. “Never.” I wheezed. We’d followed this same routine the entire time I’d been here.
“Well, if you will not,” he said, smiling nastily, “then I will just have to find a better persuasive for you than pain. How about this?” He motioned to the guards, who opened the cell door, and brought somepony in. “If you refuse me again, then she will be the one to fell my anger, not you.”
It was Amethyst. I looked between the two, shocked. From what I’d seen, Sombra loved Amethyst. Or at least, he had. She shivered in terror, cringing before Sombra.
“You… you don’t need to hurt her.” I said, flattening my ears in defeat. “I’ll… I’ll help you. Let her go.”
“Good!” he said, smiling wickedly. “I will let her go, after you’ve done what I want you to do.”
The guards forced me upright, and Sombra placed the Crystal Heart in front of me. I knew what he wanted me to do. He’d shouted at me about it for ages. I examined the Heart. He wanted me to try and reverse its magic. He wanted to use the Heart’s power and spread disharmony and darkness throughout Equestria. He wanted me to invert a powerful natural magic. I’d told him, truthfully, that I couldn’t. He’d refused to believe me, and had persisted. I tried to figure out a way to do what he wanted. Amethyst’s safety, and maybe even her life, were on the line. I tried a spell that occurred to me, but it had no effect.
“Try again!” he commanded.
For hours, I tried everything, anything. Nothing worked. The spells all had no effect, and they only drained me of energy. Finally, I collapsed, unable to do anymore. My entire body was now filled with sharp pains and dull aches, which mixed in a chaotic symphony, robbing me of coherence. I faintly heard the sound of hooves, and Sombra was standing over me.
“Disappointing.” he said. “I thought better of you.” He kicked me, adding a sharp note of agony to the pain. “Now she will suffer for your incompetence.”
He turned and advanced on Amethyst, who shrank back, terrified tears pouring down her face.
“Sombra.” she cried. “Sombra, why are you doing this? Please, stop.”
He loomed over her, and raised a hoof to strike.
“No! Please!” I begged. “One more! There’s one more I can try!”
He turned to me, hoof still raised. “Well?” he asked.
“I… I need your help.”
He slowly lowered a hoof, and approached me. “What?”
I began to explain what I needed. “I… I need you to-”
I was interrupted by a loud booming voice. “Sombra!” It commanded. “Show thyself unto us!”
I recognized that voice. It was Luna’s! She was using the Royal Canterlot Voice, and she sounded very commanding.
“I will return shortly.” said Sombra, looking unfazed. “I have a small matter to attend to, then we will resume.” He walked out, and the guards followed, pulling Amethyst along with them.
He soon returned, a triumphant smile on his face. Behind him, in chains, were Luna and Celestia. Their heads were bowed, and their eyes closed. At the sight, tears began to fall from my eyes. Sombra stood before me, dark and terrible.
“Now, let us continue.” he said smugly. “What do I need to do?”
I looked up, and noticed something odd. Slightly behind Sombra and to my left, a tiny distortion was hovering in the air. I glanced between Sombra and the distortion, then I charged my remaining energy into my horn and blasted the distortion, shouting defiantly. The world blurred, then refocused. Luna and Celestia were gone, and Sombra was leaning against the wall, his neck had a burn on it. I slumped to the floor, completely spent.
“Clever.” he growled. “Not everypony can see through my illusions. But you will pay for that. You will pay a thousandfold.” He blasted me, and darkness fell.
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Sombra forced me to experience terrible things. All throughout the illusions, I could never keep track of what was real and what wasn’t. Sombra was skillfully mixing together the two, never again giving me the chance to escape. During one of these experiences, Sombra was forcing me to relive the burning of the house. But this time, there was no Luna to save me. Sombra stood in the flames, laughing, when my surroundings began to flicker. Sombra stopped laughing, and growled.
“What are you doing?” he demanded, glaring at me.
Everything around me shifted, colors whirling, and then it stopped. I was in the Tardis’s control room. In front of me, the Doctor was holding his sonic screwdriver, his face screwed up in concentration.
“Polaris!” he said. “Don’t worry! Celestia and Luna are coming.”
“How can I trust you?!” I demanded, shouting at him. “How do I know you’re not another illusion?!”
He walked right up to me and leaned in very close.
“Remember what happened, off the coast of France?” he asked.
I blushed. “Y-Yes.” I stammered. “And?”
“Did you ever tell anyone else?”
“Yes.” I said. “Luna.”
“And no one else?”
“No one.”
He moved closer and touched my shoulder.
“We’ll be there soon. I promise.”
The Doctor and the Tardis faded away, replaced by my cell, and Sombra. He charged me and knocked me over, pinning me to the ground.
“What just happened?!” he demanded, yelling in my ear. When I remained silent, he struck me across the face, causing my nose to bleed harder. “TELL ME!” he roared, the entire room resonating with his voice.
“N… no.” I gasped. “I… I won’t.”
He bellowed, and threw me across the room. I slammed into the wall, and felt another rib give way. I screamed in agony. The pain finally overcame me, and blackness fell again. Not Sombra’s, but true unconsciousness. It swallowed me, and I knew no more.
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Light. Faint, silvery light. It penetrated my eyelids. I opened my eyes. The moon was clearly visible through the window high above. I laid where I’d fallen. My body was so sore now, I felt like one big bruise. I stayed where I was, too tired to move. I watched the stars. I remembered the Doctor’s message. We’ll be there soon. I promise. I hope he meant it. I couldn’t take any more.
In front of my eyes, the moon flared, and I saw two figures silhouetted against it. They were Alicorns. It must be Luna and Celestia. They’d come. I heard Celestia call for Sombra, asking him to surrender. I heard Sombra’s defiant reply. I laid still, listening. I heard the battle commence. Two Alicorn Princesses versus demented unicorn shadow-king. Then I heard the most comforting sound I’d heard in ages. The Tardis began to materialize in front of me, blowing the dust on the floor away from itself. It solidified, and the doors opened. A tall brown stallion with a dark brown mane stood in front of me.
“Doctor?” I asked. He looked different. I hadn’t noticed the change during his message, but he looked different.
“That’s me!” he said, running over to me. He lifted me onto his back, and started carrying me into the Tardis. “Let’s get out of here!”
Inside the Tardis, he set me gently on the floor, then ran over to the controls and began piloting us away. The Tardis rumbled and whooshed, the sound was so friendly, and it felt like a lullaby. I began to drift off. The Doctor smiled at me.
“Go ahead.” he said. “Sleep.”
So I did.
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When I opened my eyes, I was in my room on the Tardis. The bed was familiar and comforting. I closed my eyes again, wanting desperately to fall back asleep. My body still hurt, though not nearly as much as before. Now it was a tolerable ache instead of an intolerable one. I wondered how I’d gotten there. The Doctor must have carried me. I reopened my eyes and turned my head to look at the bookcase. On it were mementos of my travels with the Doctor. A polished stone orb from the planet Bregedion, a small tree sapling, sprouted from an acorn from the Great Oak of Barcelona (the planet, not the city). On a chair next to the bed was a jacket. The Doctor always kept it around. When I’d tried to ask him about it, he’d changed the subject. I relaxed back into my pillows, and drifted back into a light sleep.
When I woke again, the Doctor was in the chair next to my bed. He was asleep, which was something you rarely saw. His head was leaning onto his chest. Beside him, on the bedside table, some weird metal parts were scattered on the surface. He’d stayed with me.
When I woke up for good, the Doctor was awake. He was fiddling with something I couldn’t see. He looked up at me and smiled widely.
“Finally awake are we?” he said.
“Yes.” I said. “What happened?”
“Well, Luna and Celestia took care of Sombra.”
“So… why am I here?”
“So that I can take care of you.”
“What do you mean? Take care of me? How? Why?”
“When I spoke to you, Sombra had been messing around in your head, right?”
“Yes. And?”
“Well, he caused some severe damage, and not just to your body.” He pointed at my chest, which I now saw to be wrapped in white bandages. “I thought it would be best to keep you in here for a while. Just so I could help.”
It was there for only a fleeting moment, but I caught it. Guilt. He felt guilty.
“Doctor,” I said, “there’s something else. What aren’t you telling me?”
He looked away from me. Then he looked back, he wasn’t smiling. “When you saved Luna, and the Tardis healed you… I… I ran away. I left. I shouldn’t have done that. If I’d stayed with you, like I should have, this wouldn’t have happened!”
Angry tears splashed down from his face. The Doctor was crying? What could be causing this? He had a look of self-loathing on his face.
“Doctor, I left you, not the other way around.” I said, trying to help. “It’s not your fault.”
“But it is!” he said. “What happened is my fault! I could’ve stopped it from happening!”
“But that’s not your place. You can’t decide what happens to who. You’re not perfect. None of us are!”
He looked down. When he spoke again, his voice was subdued. “I know. I learned that before. The hard way.”
When he looked back up at me, his cheery smile had returned. “I have something for you!” he said.
“Food?” I asked hopefully.
He laughed. “No, no. Better!” He lifted up a silver sonic screwdriver. “I want you to have this.” he said, holding it out to me.
I looked at him, shocked. “You… you want to give me your sonic screwdriver?” This screwdriver’s emitter tip was blue. I recognized it. It was an older one, and I knew how much it meant to him.
“Yes. But it’s not mine now, it’s yours.” He took my hoof in one hand, and using the other, placed the screwdriver in it. He let go.
“Besides,” he said, lifting his screwdriver, “I’ve still got this one.”
I stared at him, lost for words. “T-Thank you.” I stammered.
“It’s nothing. Now come on, food!” he said, hopping off of the chair and walking over to the door. I climbed out of my bed and followed him, placing the sonic screwdriver behind an ear.
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The Doctor and I managed to find food, which, as previously mentioned, wasn’t the Tardis’s strong suit. But it was food, so I ate ravenously. Sombra had restricted my food to an absolute minimum. The thought of him made me shiver. His eyes again stared in to mine, and I heard his laugh in my head. I shook my head, trying to clear it.
“That’s why you’re here.” The Doctor said, putting a comforting hoof on my shoulder. “So I can help you.” He kept his hoof there for a minute, then withdrew it.
“Be right back.” he said. He ran out into the hallway. He returned shortly, carrying something small in his mouth.
“Here you go.” he said, placing it on a console. It was a white collar, and next to it, a green bow tie.
“How do these help?” I asked.
“Hold still.” he said. He put the collar around my neck, then the bow tie, which he showed me how to tie properly. It looked pretty good once he’d finished. I’d never thought about wearing something like this.
“And… now what?” I asked, still confused.
“And now-” he said, removing the sonic screwdriver from behind my ear. He pulled the collar open, and dropped the screwdriver in. I expected to hear it clatter against the floor, but instead, it just disappeared. “-this.”
“Where’d it go?” I asked.
“That snazzy looking collar-” he said, straightening and tightening the bow tie, ”-has a pocket dimension. You can just reach in-“ he demonstrated “-and pull it out.” In his hoof was the screwdriver.
“Cool.” I said, trying it for myself. It didn’t weigh anything, and I didn’t have to carry it. “Thanks.”
“You’re welcome.”
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For the next few weeks, the Doctor and I stayed in the Tardis. I spent a great deal of time sleeping, trying to recuperate from Sombra’s tender ministrations. Several times, I had a panic attack when something didn’t seem to fit into reality properly. The Doctor was always beside me in a heartbeat, one of his heartbeats. He reassured me that everything was fine, helping me to calm down. I was grateful that he was so willing to help me. I told him this once, but he just smiled, and said, “That’s what a friend does.”
Eventually, the Doctor decided it was time for us to return.
“You’ll be fine now, I think.” he said. “So, off we go.” As he flew the Tardis, I sat on one of the seats, feeling nervous.
“How long have we been gone?” I asked. “You know, for them?”
“About three weeks.” he said. “As long as it’s felt like it’s been.” When we landed, the Doctor walked over to me.
“Come on.” he said, smiling. “It’ll be fine. I’m with you.”
We walked to the doors, and he pushed them open. We were in the throne room, in the castle in Everfree. Celestia, Luna, Starswirl, Blue, and May Breeze were all waiting. I looked back at the Doctor, fear rising in my throat again. He nodded reassuringly. I swallowed, and stepped out of the Tardis. The Doctor closed the doors, then we walked forward slowly. May Breeze couldn’t seem to contain herself. She ran forward and hugged me. I jerked back, flattening my ears. All of my subconscious alarm bells were going off. She pulled away, looking at me concerned.
“Polaris?” she said. “What’s wrong? What is it?”
I walked back slowly, but I felt a hoof on my shoulder. I stopped and turned to look at the Doctor.
“You’re fine.” he said. “Nopony here is going to hurt you.”
I turned and looked back at May Breeze. She looked a little hurt, but she seemed more concerned about me. Though my ears stayed put, I managed to smile a little.
“Sorry.” I said. I sat and opened up my forelegs.
She hesitated momentarily, then walked slowly back to me. She hugged me again, but this time she was gentler, and I hugged her back. When I let go, she didn’t persist, but backed away.
“What happened?” she asked.
“I- I don’t want to talk about it right now.” I said. I looked over at Luna. She was hovering behind Celestia, watching me hesitantly. “Luna?”
She walked forward, then stopped in front of me. “Can I-?” she asked, hesitant.
“Yes,” I said, “but first, I have a question.”
“What?” she asked.
I leaned in closer. “What happened off the coast of France?” I asked, whispering.
She whispered in my ear, blushing brightly. She told me exactly what had happened. She was definitely real. I hugged her tightly, pressing my nose into her shoulder. She wrapped her wings around me, like she had on the train. Eventually, she let go, and I withdrew to stand next to the Doctor. Then Starswirl pounced on me, which made me panic even more. I pushed him off, and rolled back upright, backing away. The Doctor stood between the two of us.
“Starswirl,” he said, “can you please try and contain yourself?”
“Fine.” said Starswirl, then he paused. “Exactly how long are we talking here?” The Doctor gave him a look that made his opinion very clear, and Starswirl sighed exasperatedly.
“Okay, fine, I’ll calm down.”
“I’m fine,” I said, laughing. “Just need to get used to him again.”
Luna laughed too. I’m sure she understood about Starswirl.
“Celestia, how’re you doing?” I asked brightly.
“I am well.” she said. “I am glad the Doctor could rescue you. I apologize that we could not help-” she pointed to herself and Luna “-but the Doctor said that it would be best for him to get you.”
“I understand. And I’m grateful you listened. I’m afraid I wouldn’t have reacted well if you or Luna had come bursting in.”
She nodded, understanding. Celestia was clearly very intelligent, but she maintained a calm, kind demeanor which made it easier to be around her. She put everyone at ease. I was glad, however, that Luna was there to keep her in balance. She would be a very scary dictator, with her understanding of pony’s feelings.
“Can I hug you?” asked Starswirl, looking impatient.
“Fine.” I said, copying his earlier tone. He approached me slowly (with great difficulty) and hugged me.
“I’m glad you are back.” he said, then whispered. “Luna is fun and all, but I need your help with magic.”
“Don’t let her hear you say that.” I whispered back, laughing. “Who knows what she’d do to you.”
He smiled happily, then made way for Blue. He eyed me nervously, then extended a hoof. I reached out and shook it. Then I pulled him into a quick hug. He tensed, then relaxed. I didn’t draw it out, not wanting to make him uncomfortable.
I let him go, then yawning said, “I don’t know about you, but I’m tired.”
Starswirl yawned four times louder than I had, then collapsed on the spot. He started snoring loudly. I laughed quietly to myself. Luna picked Starswirl up with her magic, then started out of the room. She stopped and looked back at me. I made to follow her, then stopped, and looked back at the Doctor.
“You’ll be fine.” he said. “I’m not leaving. I’ll be right here.”
I nodded, then followed Luna out of the room. We took Starswirl to his room, and put him in his bed, then Luna took me to a room I could use. After I’d put the sonic screwdriver and the collar and bowtie on the bedside table, she helped me into bed, then turned to leave.
“Luna?” I called.
“Yes?” she asked.
“Could you stay with me? Until I’m asleep?”
She smiled softly and nodded. She levitated a chair, bringing it to rest next to the bed. She sat in it, and I closed my eyes. It didn’t take me very long to fall asleep.
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I woke in a cold sweat. Outside the Tardis, my dreams had been torturous, Sombra making an appearance in all of them. I cried out as someone touched me. I squeezed my eyes shut, curling into a ball.
“Don’t! Please, no more! Please!” I shouted in panic. I’d forgotten where I was.
“Polaris?” a voice said.
The door burst open, and the Doctor rushed in. He ran over and grabbed me, pulling me close.
“Listen to me!” he said. “This is real! It’s all real!”
I sobbed into his shoulder, emotionally spent. When I looked up, it was to see Luna. She was standing to the side, her head down. She looked at me, upset.
“I tried to help.” she said. “But your dreams, they kept me out.” I nodded, unable to speak.
The Doctor held me, rocking back and forth. He was mumbling something into my ear. It sounded like a lullaby, but I couldn’t understand it. That was weird, since I’d travelled in the Tardis. Whatever it was, it was working. I began to drift off again. The Doctor was crying again, I could feel the tears on my back. What could make the Doctor act like this? He never cries. What was it that could make him break down like this? Just before I fell asleep, the Doctor whispered another word into my ear. The word resonated with a subtle power. I shuddered, realizing what he’d just said.
The Doctor had told me his name.
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Chapter 9: A Broken Heart
Chapter 9
I did a lot over the course of the next year. I helped the Princesses out with quite a few problems. I made a spell for the royal guard that caused their armor to make them all look the same, so as to protect their identities. I worked with Starswirl on his many and varied ideas, including one to “send you back in time”. I didn’t think that one would work, but he refused to give up, working on it by himself. I even helped to cut back crime in some of the smaller cities.
The whole time, the Doctor stayed close to me, always there help when I had a panic attack. The frequency of the attacks decreased, and I was able to calm down enough to leave the castle. Luna and I would often go for walks along the edge of the city. Sometimes, Blue or May would join us, or even Celestia when she had the time. Luna and I grew closer together, but I still couldn’t tell her… that.
I often wondered why the Doctor had told me his name. Whenever I had a panic attack, he’d hold me and break down too, but I still didn’t know why. I didn’t forget his name, and I didn’t tell anyone that he had told me. I didn’t understand why he’d told it to me, the Doctor never told anyone his name.
I noticed something strange. Luna had been fine when I’d gotten back, but she’d gradually grown more and more irritable. When I asked her what was wrong, she refused to answer, and acted like everything was fine. I dropped it, but I didn’t forget.
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Celestia and I were in the throne room, talking about Starswirl’s latest comical attempt at time travel. He’d managed, not to jump through time, but through the wall of his room, and had ended up having to teleport to safety to avoid dropping off of a cliff. Safety, it turned out, was right on top of the Captain of the Royal Guard. The ensuing argument had been hilarious, and we were still suffering from minor giggling fits. During one of these, I heard the sound of a door slamming. We stopped laughing, listening. It had come from behind the thrones. I turned to see Luna emerging from behind hers, looking angry.
“Luna?” I said, starting towards her.
“Not another step!” she said.
I stopped and drew back slightly, surprised by her angry tone. “What is it?”
She ignored me and turned her gaze on Celestia. “Did you really expect me to sit idly by while they all basked in your precious light?”
“What are you talking about?” I said. “Basking? What?”
“There can only be one princess in Equestria!” she yelled, walking up on to the balcony between the two thrones. “And that princess will be ME !”
She smashed the balcony’s front, her eyes glowing bright white with power. Behind her, cracks spread up the wall, followed by a dark shadow. The window above the thrones burst open, and the sun shone through, blindingly bright. Below it, the moon appeared, dark and threatening, and covered the sun. The stars appeared in the sky, and darkness streamed from the fiery moon, surrounding Luna in a dark sphere. I backed away, but Celestia stood her ground. The sphere glowed from within, and the darkness gave way to an orange light.
The light faded, and Luna emerged. But she was different. She was now as tall as Celestia, and her coat had become as black as the night sky. She opened her eyes, which were had slit-pupils, like a cat’s. They were no longer kind, but cold and hard. She laughed, pointed teeth flashing. It wasn’t her soft, kind laugh, but a merciless and elated laugh.
She blasted the ceiling, dislodging large chunks of the stone ceiling. I jumped out of the way of a large falling piece, landing at Celestia’s hooves. She glanced down at me, then back at Luna. She emerged from the dust clouds, the stars shining through what had been the roof. Celestia took off, her wings stirring up the dust. Luna unleashed a magical blast at Celestia, who dodged and returned to the ground. I jumped between them.
“Luna!” I yelled. “What are you doing?!”
“Luna!” said Celestia. “I will not fight you! You must lower the moon, it is your duty!”
“Luna?” Luna said. “I am Nightmare Moon.” My heart began to crack in my chest. Why was she doing this? Why?
“I have but one royal duty now.” she continued. “To destroy you!”
She unleashed a blast at Celestia, who took off. I dodged to the side, avoiding the magical bolt. Celestia flew out through the hole in the ceiling.
“And where do you think you are going?” said Nightmare Moon.
I watched as she took off in pursuit of her sister. From outside, I heard the sound of magical chaos, and saw flashes of light arc across the sky. Then above me, Celestia shrieked in pain as one of the blasts made contact with her, blasting her from the sky. She landed in front of me, and I ran forward, as above us, Nightmare Moon cackled with glee. Celestia lay on the ground, unmoving. Then slowly, she stood, looking up at Nightmare Moon.
“Oh dear sister,” she said, “I am sorry, but you have given me no choice!” She looked over her shoulder at a spot on the floor.
“Celestia?” I asked. “What do you mean?”
“Polaris.” she said, turning to me. “I need you to help me. Please.”
“With what?” The look on her face scared me. I’d never seen Celestia look like this. I looked back at Nightmare M- no! Luna! It was Luna! Tears welled in my eyes, my heart aching. “What’s wrong with Luna?”
“You heard her. She is not Luna. She is Nightmare Moon. I must protect the ponies of Equestria.”
“What are you going to do?” I asked, scared now.
“Do you know what the Elements of Harmony are?”
“Yes. Why?”
“They will only work if more than one pony helps to use them. I cannot do this myself.”
“Do what?”
“I must send her away. She is too dangerous.”
“Send her away? Where?”
“That does not matter.” she said, angry. “Will you help me?”
I hesitated, and then a loud crash sounded, and I whirled around. Nigh- no! Luna! Luna had landed in front of us.
“Luna!” I cried, tears now starting to fall freely. “Stop this! Please!”
“And why should I do that?” she demanded. “What’s to stop me from ruling?”
“Luna…” I hesitated, then forced myself to talk. “Luna… please, stop. I… I love you.” The words came out at last. I cried silently, watching her, begging her to stop.
“Well, that’s just too bad!” she declared. “Because I don’t love you! You are just as bad as the rest of them, so in love with her light!”
She lashed out at me. Her dark mane slashed at me, sending shards of darkness whipping through the air at me. I couldn’t react quickly enough, and they struck me in the chest. I staggered, gasping as burning and freezing sensations ran through me, tearing at my nerves. I started to fall, but Celestia caught me and laid me down gently.
“Sister?!” she exclaimed, as the fire burned through my heart, tearing it apart. She tried to help me, but the pain only seared hotter and colder. I gasped, unable to even muster the energy for a good scream. She stopped immediately, and turned to face her sister.
“What have you done?!” she demanded.
“I have attended to one of the insignificant threats.” she said, advancing on Celestia. “And now for the other one.”
Celestia’s horn glowed, and behind her, a large section of the floor slid away, and a stone pedestal rose out of the ground. Though my body blazed with pain, I was still able to see. Five arms extended from the pedestal. Hovering above each, turning slowly in the air, were five crystals, each a different color. Celestia flew to the top, and the five crystals whisked through the air, circling her. From the top of the pedestal, a sixth crystal emerged, carved in the shape of a six pointed star. It joined the others, and Celestia descended to the ground.
The two of them faced each other, Luna grinning evilly, completely confident, Celestia grim faced and determined. The two of them blasted each other with beams of magic. Luna’s glowed icy blue, and Celestia’s a prismatic display. Luna’s magic pushed back Celestia’s, who was forced backward slowly.
I made up my mind. I forced myself upright, tears of pain pouring down my face. I walked slowly to Celestia’s side, and stepped inside the circle of crystals. I turned to face Luna.
“Please.” I said. “Don’t… don’t make me.”
She flashed her pointed teeth at me. “Go ahead, I don’t care.”
I lowered my head, and channeled my magic into the crystals around Celestia and I. They glowed brighter, and began to spin faster. They lined up in front of us, and the five lesser gems flared, their light flowed into the star-shaped crystal. Celestia’s magic intensified, and now she forced Luna back. It over came her, surrounding her in bright white light. It flared, and a multi-colored comet blazed upward, flying into the sky, and impacting on the moon. On the moon, a dark formation appeared.
I watched for a moment, then I collapsed, the agony in my chest redoubling. This time, I managed to scream. I lay on the floor gasping, and Celestia stood over me, her eyes flying over me desperately. My vision faded slightly, darkness looming on the edges of my vision.
“I… I do not know what to do.” she said. “What do I do?”
Behind her, the Tardis began to materialize, light flashing, dull in my sight. When it solidified, the doors flew open, and the Doctor ran over to me. As he stood over me, he began to cry.
“I’m too late!” he sobbed, sitting down. “I’m too late!” He lifted me upright, holding me gently to him. He pulled away. I was barely breathing now, my heart was seizing up.
“I’m sorry!” he said. “I’m so sorry. There’s… there’s nothing I can do!”
I coughed, the pain of which made more tears come. But the Doctor froze, staring at me. Then he started to pull me onto his back.
“What are you doing?” asked Celestia.
“Saving his life.” he said, staggering on the uneven floor. “Help me!”
She gently lifted me with her magic, and started towards the doors of the throne room.
“No!” he shouted. He pointed at the Tardis. “In there!”
She paused, staring at the Doctor. His eyes were full of desperate rage, his teeth clenched. She hesitated, then did as he instructed. The pain had continued to escalate, and my vision was now almost gone. The Doctor followed her, and once I was in the Tardis, he turned to face her.
“I’m sorry.” He said softly. “You won’t… you won’t… see Polaris again.”
“What?” she said. “Doctor?”
The Tardis doors closed in her face, and the Doctor ran to the controls. From outside, I could barely hear her as she yelled for him to open the doors. The Tardis took off, and this time, the sound of the engines wasn’t like a lullaby. Instead, was telling me to stay awake, to hold on. The pain began to fade. When it was almost gone, I staggered upright. Around me, a faint, glowing golden aura was starting to form.
“Doctor?” I asked, terrified. “Doctor, what’s happening?” He stopped moving, then slowly turned to face me. A wave of pain flowed through my body, making me stagger, grimacing.
“I’m sorry.” he said. He walked over to me, and reached into the pocket dimension of my collar, which had somehow miraculously survived. He pulled out the sonic screwdriver, and handed it to me. “Hold onto this, and don’t let go.”
I stared at him. He was scaring me, more than anything I’d ever seen while I’d travelled with him. “Doctor?”
The Tardis landed with a definite thud. I collapsed, as another wave of pain ran through me. The Doctor caught me, and held me to him again. I could feel his tears running down my back. The Doctor again whispered his name in my ear. I finally understood. He really, truly trusted me. I went limp in his arms as the pain again intensified.
He picked me up gently, and carried me out the doors. We were in a forest, one far calmer than the Everfree. Above us, the stars and moon shone softly. He stopped walking once we were a small distance from the Tardis, then set me down gently. He was still crying. He turned, away from me, and started to walk back to the Tardis.
“Doctor?” I called. “Doctor?! W-Where are you going?”
He continued to walk, and I called out more desperately. “Doctor! Please, don’t leave me!” The Doctor stopped at the Tardis, and looked back at me, his face tearstained.
“I’ll be back!” he said. “I promise!” He whispered something I couldn't hear, then he stepped inside.
I whispered, “Please.” But the Tardis left, its light flashing softly.
Another wave of pain assaulted me, and I gasped, shuddering. I forced myself to stand up. My breathing sped up, my heart racing, the pain intensified, then disappeared. The golden aura was now thick around me, flowing off of my body. I shuddered, then I breathed in sharply. My entire body was on fire! The tongues of flame raced through me, more painful than anything I’d ever experienced. They raged in a way indescribable, burning through every cell in my body. In my hoof, the sonic screwdriver had activated, the sound resonating through my body. As I stared up at the stars, twinkling above me, I cried. Then I yelled loudly as the pain reached its peak, then stopped. I shuddered, gasping for breath. I collapsed slowly to the ground. In the silence, I could hear my own heart. But something was wrong. Instead of the usual one-two, one-two, I heard something else.
One-two-three-four . One-two-three-four . One-two-three-four .
All went black.
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Epilogue
3 years after the Return of Luna
Luna and Celestia sat on the balcony of the tallest tower in Canterlot. A gentle breeze waved through the sisters’ manes. The stars above twinkled as Luna was stared at the moon. She was remembering the night, over 1000 years ago, when she’d mercilessly killed the stallion who had professed his love for her. The memory was still fresh in her mind, despite its age, and it tortured her. She turned to Celestia.
“Sister?” she said, addressing Celestia.
“Yes?” Celestia asked.
“I can’t… I can’t stop thinking about it. What happened that night...”
Celestia did not have to ask what her sister meant. She too had been thinking about it. It had never left her mind, but now it had returned to the fore.
“It wasn’t your fault.” she said, attempting to console her younger sister. “You were not yourself that night.”
“That does not excuse my actions. What I did… there is no excuse.” Luna looked down at her hooves. “I wish I could have told him. Told him I was sorry. Told him…” Tears gathered in her eyes, but they did not fall. “Told him that I loved him too.”
“Do you not still?” asked Celestia.
Luna thought carefully on this. Then she spoke. “I… I did, once. I am sure I did, but now… it’s been so long. I want to love him. To tell him I’m sorry.” She looked up at her older sister. “What do I do?”
Celestia smiled sadly. “I do not know.”
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The Doctor sat on the floor by Tardis's doors. They were open, and he was staring out at the stars. Close by, a bright yellow sun hung shining in the black void. He was crying silently, his eyes flitting from star to star. Behind him, the Tardis's consoles flickered, and the engine pillar moved silently up and down.
"I'm a coward." he said quietly, shifting his gaze down. "I told him my name, but I couldn't even tell him the truth."
He returned his gaze to the glimmering stars. After a while, he stood. He closed the doors, and walked over to the control panels. He flipped a few switches, then pulled a lever. The Tardis whooshed, propelling them through space and time. The Doctor sat, and glanced back over at the doors.
"I will be back." he whispered. "I will."
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He thought of her
He wished to return
He missed her light
He reached for her hand
She fades from view
He calls out her name
The tears fall from his eyes
He cries out his pain
The shadow consumes
In anguish he cries
The starlight remains
Though shadow holds
In time he reawakes
The starfire consumes
The shadows are gone
Though first love is gone
His heart shall be re-forged
Through darkness he will fight
The end is unknown
His end is not yet
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Written by: Thrawn1800
Copyright to:
BBC - Doctor Who
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Prologue
Peaceful. That’s how I would describe my surroundings. Peaceful and quiet. The birds are asleep, and the crickets are gently chirping. The night animals are all silent. There are no frogs tonight. I wonder about that. Slowly, I rise from where I am sitting under the tree. As I begin to walk home, I listen to the soft sounds of the night. I admire the stars, distant, but welcoming and friendly. I used to be able to see so many more when I lived in the country. The small size of this forest is just a reminder that I am here and not there. I miss the open fields and close forests of my old home.
As I continue along a small path, I again look up through the trees at the stars. I find my favorite star, Polaris, the North Star. As I gaze upon it, I feel the need to make a wish. I slowly come to a stop, and focus on the star. I make my wish. I wish… I wish I could be someone, someone who could make a difference. I wish I could be somewhere I could make a difference. A man everyone would read about, would know. I look down at my feet, saddened, then continue walking forward.
I feel a gentle breeze start up. As I look forward, I see the trees swaying slightly in the breeze. When I reach a branch in the trail, I take the right path, and continue on my way. After several minutes, the breeze has picked up, and it’s now a good strong wind. I again look up, and see that clouds have started to move in from the west. I start to hurry now, not wanting to be caught in the storm. I trip over a branch, and fall forward. Gasping out in pain, I push myself up, and continue forward. It is getting very dark now, and I am having difficulty finding my way. As I approach the next branch of the trail, it starts to rain. Not just a light rain, but a torrential downpour.
The ground is starting to get slippery, the dirt trail turning to mud. I again fall, slipping in the mud, and this time, I yell out. I’ve broken my right arm. Grimacing as lances of pain race up my arm. I push myself up with my left arm, and struggle forward. The dark clouds have now made it too dark to see far, and I slow down, fearful of accidentally leaving the safety of the trail. My foot hits a rock, and I again fall. I hit the ground, and this time, I scream in agony. I’ve fallen on my broken arm. I roll over, unable to find the strength to lift myself again. Above me, I see the dark clouds. I feel the rain pouring onto me. I gasp for breath, pain tearing through my body. Above me, through a gap in the clouds, I see the North Star. Its light shining down on me, a beacon in the darkness and the cold. I wish again. I wish for safety, for help. As the rain continues to pour down on me, I black out.
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When I wake up, I’m lying on my side. I’m still very tired, but the pain in my arm has gone down. When I try to move it, I grimace as a lance of pain goes up my arm. I can’t feel my fingers, but I expect that is because of the pain in my arm and the cold. As my awareness begins to return. I realize that there is a fire in front of me. I must not be alone anymore. I wonder who could have found me. Who in their right mind would have been in a forest during a storm? Oh wait. Me. I open my eyes, and see the small fire. I try to sit up, but I cry out as stabbing pain blossoms in my chest. I hear running. It sounds like several people running towards me. I close my eyes as the pain continues to burn in my body. The footsteps come to a stop.
“What's wrong?” a woman’s voice said.
“He must've tried to move,” a man said. “He shouldn't have done that, with several broken ribs and a broken leg.”
“Will he recover?”
“If we get him back to the castle, I'm sure. If we don't, it's harder to say.”
“You know, I’m here too.” I manage to say.
After a shocked silence, the woman said “How're you awake, after your injuries?”
The man’s voice said “By all means, you should be out of it for several more hours young stallion.”
“I… What do you mean?! Stallion?!”
“Not only do you seem to have several severe injuries, you seem to have amnesia. You're definitely a stallion.”
I open my eyes, in spite of the pain in my head, and pull my left arm out from under me, and raise it in front of my face. I see, instead of my usual pale skin and five fingers, I see my arm is covered in short, brown fur. At the end of my arm, no, my leg was a hoof. I started breathing hard. I’m some sort of horse-thingy.
“Are you alright?” asked the woman.
I looked up, to find another horse-thingy standing over me. It was… purple? I looked to my right, and saw another thingy, this one gray.
I pointed my hoof at the purple one and said “Horse-thingy.”
I then promptly passed out. Again.
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Chapter 5: Mountains Are Cool, Snowstorms... Not So Much
Chapter 5
The stallion was brown and had a brown mane with some grey streaks. He had a wide smile on his face. He didn’t seem even the slightly fazed by the looks on Luna and I’s faces.
“Hello. I’m the Doctor!” he said. “Who’re you?”
“Um…” I said. Luna stayed silent.
“I-I’m Polaris.” I managed to say. “Doctor… doctor who?”
“Wouldn’t you like to know?” he said, still smiling widely. “Just the Doctor. Now, when and where are we… as this is clearly not the Canterlot Castle.”
“This… this is the Everfree Hospital.” Luna said.
Something he’d said struck me as weird. “What do you mean? When?”
Before he could say answer, Luna asked “Who are you? What is that?”
“I’m the Doctor. A thousand year old time lord from the planet Gallifrey. That’s the Tardis.”
“A what? The what?” asked Luna incredulously.
“I’m the Doctor. That’s Tardis. Time and Relative Dimensions in Space.”
Luna’s shocked silence gave me a chance to ask, “What… what are you doing here?”
“Well,” the Doctor said, popping up between Luna and me, causing us to jump. “I was trying to visit Canterlot Castle. Clearly, however, that isn’t what happened.”
Before anyone else could speak, the Tardis started to make the weird sounds again. The light on the top started flashing, and the box started fading in and out.
“Oi!” shouted the Doctor. "Now what?" Walls began to materialize around us.
“Doctor, what’s going-?” I started.
“The Tardis is moving by herself!” shouted the Doctor, cutting me off.
The walls solidified around us, the Tardis continuing to whoosh.
“Where are we?” I asked. “What is this?”
“What’s going on here?” said the Doctor. “How did this happen?”
The sounds continued as the Doctor ran around, fiddling with the controls frantically. With a loud thump, the sounds stopped. The Doctor pulled a view screen over. After taking a quick look at it, he pushed it out of the way and sat down on one of the seats.
“I don’t believe it.” he said quietly.
“What is it?” I asked, concerned. “What’s wrong?”
“She moved.” he said.
“So?”
“She moved by herself.”
“And?”
“And she’s not meant to do that!” he said bluntly.
“Oh.”
After a moment of silence, I asked, “What is this thing Doctor?”
He looked up. “It’s a time-and-space machine.”
“What?”
“It can move through time and space.”
“Really? Cool.”
“You’re taking this pretty well. At this point, most people are still stuck on it’s being bigger on the inside.” On the other side of the room, Luna was turning in circles, mumbling gibberish.
“I guess… I guess the idea isn’t so hard to accept.” I hesitated. “Compared to what happened to me anyway.”
The Doctor looked directly at me. “What do you mean?”
I looked him in the eyes. They were a dark blue. But I looked past that. They were very old and kind. But they were also sad and lonely. With what I saw, I couldn't help but trust him, and feel sorry for him. Whatever had happened to this stallion, I thought it might have hurt him a great deal.
I told him what had happened to me, explaining in as much detail as I could manage. He listened carefully, not interrupting, not questioning. Just listening. Once I’d finished, he looked away, frowning slightly.
After a while, he looked back, wide smile back. “Right. Let’s take a look around shall we?”
He walked over to the doors and pulled them both open. I walked to his side and looked outside. We were on the peak of a mountain. We could see the peaks of mountains, fading out of sight in the distance. Far below, glaciers glistened in the sunlight, sparkling all shades of blue and white.
“Wow.” I said.
“I know.” said the Doctor. “It’s fantastic. It's a mountain. Mountains are cool.”
I looked back at Luna, who was still standing by the consoles.
“Luna? What is it?”
“How can you trust him so easily?” She asked, eyeing the Doctor warily.
“What?”
“He just crashed into your room and abducted us!”
“I trust him,” I said, “but I don’t know why. I just do.” I glanced over at the Doctor, who was monologuing about something, leaning out through the Tardis's doors.
She didn’t answer, but she did come to the door. She exclaimed in wonder. I looked back outside. Eventually, we all stepped back from the door.
“Well,” said the Doctor, “I assume you want to go home now?”
“Yes.” said Luna.
The Doctor went over to the consoles and started messing with the controls again. After a second, the Tardis began to whoosh. Once we’d landed, the Doctor opened the doors for us. Luna left, but I stayed where I was.
“Doctor?” I said.
“Yes?”
“Where are you going next?”
“I don’t really know.”
I hesitated, then asked “Can… Can I go with you?”
“What?” he asked, startled.
“Can I go with you?” I said slowly.
“W-Why?”
“Because I don’t think you should be alone. You’ve been alone a long time, haven’t you?”
The Doctor’s jaw hung slightly open. “You really mean it?”
“Yes.”
Luna looked at me, eyebrow raised.
“You- you really want to stay?” the Doctor asked. He seemed to be having a hard time accepting this.
“I want to see more.” I said.
The Doctor’s face was expressionless, his eyes searching mine. I stared back, resolute.
“Really?” he asked again. “You really want to travel with me?”
“Yes!” I said. “I do!”
The Doctor beamed. “Okay then!”
“You're leaving?” asked Luna.
“I guess so. Are... are you angry?”
She hesitated. “Well... no, not really. Just surprised.”
I looked back at the Doctor.
“We can leave whenever you’re ready.” he said.
“I turned to Luna. “Goodbye.” I said.
“G-goodbye.” she said.
“It’s a time machine,” said the Doctor. “We could be back by tomorrow.”
“Oh. Okay.” She looked less worried.
I hugged her. “B-Bye.” I whispered into her ear.
“Bye.” she whispered back.
I got in the Tardis, and the Doctor followed. He closed the door then turned to me.
“So, where do you want to go?” he asked.
“I… I don’t know.” I said. “Where can we go?”
“Anywhere, anywhen.”
“So… could you… could you-?”
“Take you home?” he asked, clearly expecting the question. “No. I’m sorry.”
“Didn’t think so.”
I hadn’t expected him to be able to, but I had to ask. To know, to be certain.
“Well.” said the Doctor, breaking the silence. “We could visit another planet?”
“Sure!”
The Doctor pulled a lever, and we were off.
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After a long time travelling with the Doctor, including several dangerous adventures, a trip through a not one, but two supernovas (one of which turned into a black hole),a cruise along the Mediterranean coast of France, and an extremely unpleasant run in with the Spanish Inquisition, we made it back. By that time, my leg and ribs had healed, and I’d helped the Doctor find a new companion, a grey pegasus mare called Ditzy Doo. We had all become pretty good friends during our travels, and I felt I’d done my job. I was ready to go back.
“Are you sure?” asked the Doctor persistently. “There’s still so many places we could go. Like-”
“I’m sure.” I said quickly, not wanting to be on the receiving end of one of the Doctor’s dissertations.
“Okay then! Let’s get to it!” The Doctor began to mess with the controls, piloting us home. We landed with a faint thump, and I walked to the doors.
“Here we go, the Everfree Hospital.” the Doctor announced. “Safe and sound.”
“Thank you Doctor.” I said. “Bye Ditzy.”
“Bye!” said Ditzy, smiling widely. “And thank you!”
I walked out the doors, confident in my decision. I knew the Doctor would be fine, Ditzy could take care of him (and he could take care of her). As the Tardis whooshed and faded away, flashing. I left the room, still thinking about what’d happened over the past several weeks. I decided to get something to eat. When I reached the cafeteria, I got some food and sat down at the table. I was glad for the food, since I’d spent several days at sea with the Doctor. Fresh food wasn’t exactly the Tardis’s specialty either.
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While I was eating, May Breeze walked over.
“Hi Polaris!” she said, grinning. “Where you been?”
“I went on a trip.” I said.
“Really, where?”
I quickly tried to come up with a convincing story. I knew better than to try and tell her where I’d really gone. She’d definitely think I was a mad-pony.
“Oh, you know, just… out of town.”
“Cool! Mind if I join you?”
“Sure, go ahead.”
She sat down next to me. We talked for a while. She told me more about her job, and I told her about some interesting things I’d seen while traveling. I didn’t say how I knew what I did though. While she didn’t seem as interested as I was, I was grateful for someone to listen. While I was explaining about the Spanish Inquisition (which I knew more about than I would have liked), Blue walked in.
“Where have you been?!” he demanded angrily. “Luna came to me three days ago and told me you'd left!”
“I took a trip out of town.” I said quickly, instinctively backing away slightly.
“Without telling me?”
I’d forgotten that Blue was my doctor as well as my friend. I guess I should’ve told him I was leaving. However, he might have tried to stop me, and that would have been unpleasant.
“Sorry.” I said. “I should’ve told you.”
“Yes, you should have.” he said. “So, where did you go?”
I was saved from having to answer when Luna ran into the room. She was panting, and looked like she’d just run a marathon. After several deep breathes, she managed to get my name out.
“Polaris!”
“Yes?”
“I need your help.” She looked tense.
“What with?”
“Storm. Really big storm.”
“Could you explain better?”
“I need you to help me get the city ready.” She rushed through the sentence, clearly eager to be going.
“Why? How?”
“I'll explain on the way.”
I nodded. “Sure. Let’s go.”
“Wait!” said May Breeze.
“Yes?” asked Luna.
“We can help to.” She pointed to herself and Blue.
“But-” started Blue.
“Ah! No buts.” she said, cutting him off. “We can help.”
“Fine.” he said, defeated.
“Sure, the more the merrier.” said Luna. “Now come on!”
As we went she explained what was going on. Apparently, there was a snowstorm coming from the north, and the city needed to be surrounded with special enchanted stones that would shield it. But, we only had half an hour to do it in. We were to take care of the area near the hospital, the northeastern side. Luna already had our stones in some saddlebags, which we picked up on our way out. The streets were lined with houses, and ponies were galloping about, preparing for the coming storm.
“What’s been happening while I was gone?” I asked.
“Not much.” said Blue. “I was just worrying about where my patient was!”
“I said I was sorry!”
“Yes, I know. But still.”
“Next time I decide to take a trip, I’ll tell you. Happy?”
“Very.”
As we went, May Breeze trotted next to me. She examining the storm clouds in the distance. She looked worried, her eyes wandering over the clouds.
“What is it?” I asked, seeing the concerned look on her face.
“Those seem too... big.” she said, her eyes still on the storm.
“They are storm clouds.”
“Yes, but these seem wrong. They are… unnatural.”
I wondered if it might something to do with some sort of Pegasi magic, or maybe just a natural instinct. But I did agree with May Breeze. The storm clouds’ intensity was- well, unnatural. I wasn’t sure how we could tell, but I guessed in a place so full of magic, anyone who lived here had some amount of abnormal perception.
Eventually, we reached the edge of the city. It was a hill gently sloping down into the forest. In front of us, the storm clouds towered over us, grey and menacing. They were moving rapidly towards us. Far in the distance, you could see the forest rippling under the torrential winds moving with the storm, the lighter undersides of the evergreen branches flashing.
“Go!” shouted Luna, putting down the saddle bags, and opening them. Inside were gray rocks, each one looking completely ordinary. When I picked one up, I could feel a static charge around them. I guessed that was the magic in them.
We immediately started placing the stones along the top of the hill. We worked quickly, not talking. I kept glancing up at the approaching storm clouds, seeing them draw nearer. Immediately after Luna had placed the last of the stones, the storm hit us full on. The wind was howling with such terrifying force that it was bending trees over and breaking them. Then I realized that I was inside the barrier... but Luna wasn’t! She couldn’t move, trapped between the powerful winds and the protective barrier the stones were creating.
Without thinking about what I was doing, I charged up my horn and disrupted the barrier. I ran through I pushed Luna back inside. My magic failed, the barrier’s magic reasserting itself. I looked back at Luna. Our eyes met, then a sharp pain blazed through my body, and I blacked out.
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Polaris shoved me through the barrier. His emerald eyes met mine, and I watched, frozen with horror, as a splintered fragment of a tree trunk smashed into him. It knocked him into the barrier, and he fell to the now snowy ground, unmoving. I tried to replicate his spell, failing several times before I managed to reach out and pull him through the barrier.
He was unconscious, and struggling to breathe. He was bleeding profusely from several deep cuts on his left side and a gash across the side of his head. I held him close, not sure what to do. I didn’t know how to help him. I knew that if I tried something with magic, I might kill him.
“What happened?!” shouted Blue, who came running over.
I couldn’t answer him. The words wouldn’t come. Blue came over to me, and started trying to help Polaris. He couldn’t seem to make any headway. He gave a frustrated yell.
“Gah! I cannot stop the bleeding!” he raged as May Breeze approached.
“What happened?!” she asked, worried. “Why is Blue so…?” She faltered when she saw Polaris.
After a minute, I started to hear something besides the wind. A whooshing sound. I looked behind me, and saw the Tardis materializing, light flashing. As soon as the door opened, the door opened. The Doctor, wearing a black jacket, and a grey pegasus mare with yellow eyes emerged and ran over to us.
“What happened?!” asked the Doctor, stopping in front of me, looking down at Polaris.
I tried several times to explain, but I just mouthed wordlessly.
“Never mind that.” said the Doctor. “Let me see him!”
He began to examine Polaris. He pulled something out of a pocket, and pointed it at various parts of Polaris’s body. It made a whirring and the tip glowed green. As he worked, the Doctor looked more and more panicked. He kept gravitating back to Polaris’s chest.
“Argh! His heart’s failing!” he said, stomping angrily. “And the sonic can’t do a thing! Does anyone have a defibrillator?”
“A what?” Blue asked, completely confused by the strange request.
“Stupid archaic pony civilization!” stormed the Doctor, stamping a hoof on the ground. “No blasted defibrillators!” He paced back and forward, having a shouted argument with himself over how to proceed.
“Doctor!” I shouted, unable to stand it. “Do something!”
“I am!” he yelled back. “But I can’t be clever if everyone is yelling at me!”
He continued to pace, still talking to himself. I looked at Polaris’s face. His mouth was open, and he was hardly breathing anymore. I started to tear up. He’d saved me from this, but I couldn’t do anything. I stared at him, bleeding and dying, unable to help him. The Tardis’s light blazed to life, glowing like a lighthouse's beacon. We all looked over at it. However, this just seemed to make the Doctor more agitated.
“Now what!” he yelled, looking frenzied. He tried to open the Tardis’s doors, but they didn’t move.
The Tardis began to make its whooshing sound. But it didn’t fade, and it didn’t move. The light was flashing blindingly. The doors flew open, the inside of the Tardis glowing with a bright yellow light. A warmth spread through the air, and I felt a deep vibration resonating through the air and ground. I looked back down at Polaris. A faint golden light spread around his body, glowing like soft yellow flames.
I watched in wonder as his cuts stopped bleeding. They started to heal over, and soon it was impossible to tell they had been there, the only evidence his bloodstained coat. I looked over at the Doctor. He was silent, expressionless, just watching Polaris. I jumped as Polaris gasped and opened his eyes, breathing hard.
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I opened my eyes and gasped in the cold, sharp air. I felt sore, my limbs heavy. I looked up to see everyone standing around me and Luna, who was holding me upright.
“W-what?” I managed, breathlessly.
“Stay still.” someone said. It was the Doctor. He was standing next to me, his face blank, just watching.
I obeyed, not really feeling up to moving anyway. Luna was holding me tight against her. I could feel her tears rolling down my back.
“What happened?” I whispered, my voice weak. “What...?”
“Um…” started Blue. “Well, you see… um…”
“What?” I asked, now feeling anxious.
“You were hit by something.” said May Breeze quietly. “You were bleeding pretty badly, and your... your heart was giving out. You… you were... dying.”
I stared at her. “And…?” I said.
“Then… then the Tardis, it did… something. I do not know what, but it stopped the bleeding, and… and got rid of the cuts.” I looked at the Doctor.
“I don’t know what happened.” he said flatly.
“Luna?” I asked, concerned. “Luna, I’m fine now.”
She nodded, but didn’t let me go. Her tears continued to fall onto my back. I shivered in the cold air. I raised my left foreleg. It was bloodstained, but there weren’t any cuts or other injuries, nothing to have bled. Eventually, Luna let me go, and wiped her eyes with a hoof.
“Why…?” she asked quietly.
She didn’t have to finish, I knew what she meant. Why had I pushed her out of the way? I looked into her sapphire eyes, and she looked into mine. I tried to speak, but words failed me. Instead, I reached forward and gently brushed her cheek. She started, but she didn’t move away. I slowly leaned forward and pressed my lips to hers. My heart raced, I went deaf. She was kissing me back!
When we broke apart, I hugged her tightly and whispered in her ear. “That’s why.”
She hugged me, and I hugged her back. I looked at the others. They’d been respectfully looking elsewhere. Now they were again looking at us. I blushed, avoiding their eyes.
“Well,” said Blue, “how about we get you back to the hospital. Check you over and see if there is anything else.”
I nodded. Luna and I got up, and we started to follow the other two. I looked back at the Doctor and Ditzy.
“Doctor?” I called.
“You go ahead.” he said. “Ditzy and I’ll see you... around.”
“Okay.”
Luna and I walked next to each other, leaning on one another. I didn’t know what to say, especially after what had happened. I guess I knew my feelings now, but I wasn’t sure how to say it out loud. I was filled with doubt. Did she… well, you know? I was scared, but I was happy too. I tried to think about something else. How was I alive? According to them, I’d been nearly dead. What had the Tardis done? Luna nudged me, and I looked over at her.
“Yes?” I asked quietly.
“Is something wrong?” she asked, equally quiet.
I told the truth. “I don’t know.” She didn’t say anything else, and we continued walking.
When we reached the Everfree Hospital, I held the door open for Luna. She smiled at me. I followed her in. Blue led us back to my room. Everything seemed normal. Through the occasional window, you could see the storm raging against the barrier. Everyone we passed stared at me. I was still covered in blood, so I guess they were wondering how I was even walking. In my room, Blue had me sit in a chair while he checked me over. He didn’t seem to find anything.
“You seem fine.” he said. “You just need to clean up, and you will be fine.”
“Okay.” I said. “Where…?”
Blue walked over to a door which stood next to the one to the hallway. He opened it. It was a bathroom.
“Here you go.” he said, gesturing with a hoof.
“Um… could you…?” I asked, motioning for them to leave.
“Oh! Sure.” Blue and May Breeze left, and Luna started to follow.
“Luna?” I called.
She stopped. “Yes?” she asked.
I tried to say something, but I couldn’t, not yet. “I... N-nothing.” I said.
She nodded, and left. I think she knew, and understood. I went into the bathroom. I was glad that I at least still had some basic memories. I turned the shower on, and stepped into the stream of water.
I gasped. The sensations caused by the water flowing through my coat were overpowering. My brain went numb from an immense wave of nerve signals. Eventually, I managed to regain control of myself. I washed the blood out of my coat. After I’d dried myself off, I went to the mirror. I looked at myself. Brown coat, black mane, green eyes. I decided I should do something to my mane, make it look less… messy. I charged up my horn, and went to work.
When I’d finished, I walked out into the hall. Luna, Blue, and May Breeze were waiting. I was glad they were here. I didn’t feel like being alone. I felt the need for company. I smiled faintly at them.
“Let’s get something to eat.” I suggested. My stomach was gnawing on itself.
“Sure.” said Blue. Luna just nodded, a smile like mine on her face.
We walked down the hallways to the cafeteria. I kept glancing at Luna out of the corner of my eye. I didn’t know what to say to her. Once we had our food, we chose a table in the corner and sat down. The other three managed a conversation, but I stayed silent, eating my food. I felt a hoof on my shoulder. It was Luna.
“Are you okay?” Luna asked. I nodded absentmindedly, disconcerted by the day’s events.
“Are you sure?” she persisted.
“What caused the storm?” I asked. “That wasn’t a natural storm, so where did it come from?” May Breeze nodded in agreement from across the table.
“I don’t know.” said Luna. “But… maybe someone in the Crystal Empire does? Since it’s to the north.”
“Can we go to the Crystal Empire?”
“We should ask Celestia,” she said “but I think it is a good idea.”
“Well then, lets’ go ask her.”
“Bye you two.” said Blue, grinning roguishly. I blushed and looked away from him and May Breeze. Luna and I left the cafeteria together. Unbeknownst to us, the two of them shared a knowing smile.
Time Lord: The Story of Polaris
Character Log
Polaris-
Sex: Male
Blue-
Sex: Male
May Breeze-
Sex: Female
Starswirl-
Sex: Male
The Doctor-
Sex: Male
