Forever Pinkby SupaSqueegeeChaptersEntries 1-9Entries 10-18Entries 19-24Entries 1-9Entry One Hi diary! This is sooo neat. So Twilight went out and bought us all these fancy diaries from the bookstore so that we could write stuff! She said keeping a diary will help us review what we’ve done and stuff. Something about it being a good escape from the day to day stuff. I don’t know about all that though! It seems like it could be lots of fun! I don’t really like writing or reading, but since Twilight made us promise to try, I’ll at least do that much! So I guess I should get started, huh? Or maybe I should wait until I do something super fun like throw a party. Oh my gosh! You could be like my party diary! I gotta go plan party, quick! Bye diary! Entry Two Hi again, diary! Sorry about not writing in you for a few days. I’ve just been so super duper busy! Remember when I said I had to go plan a party? Well that’s totally what I’m doing! But you’ll never guess for who! It was so totally crazy. I was bouncing around Ponyville yesterday being my normal all smiles self, looking for someone who needed a party! But do you know what? No one needs a party! I mean I asked like everyone in Ponyville! I mean come on! It’s Fall! Everyone should want a party! You don’t know how great my parties are, diary. Especially when it’s chilly outside. All my friends come together and we eat, and play games, and get all cozy by a fire! They’re seriously the bestest things ever! But for some reason nopony wanted a party! Even my bestest best friends said they didn’t want one. I got a little sad, but I just knew that somewhere somepony needed a party! So there was only one pony who I hadn’t asked yet. Wanna know who it was? You’re right, it was Zecora! But you’ll never guess who I ran into when I was walking out to Zecora’s hut! Dang, diary! Right again! It was Trixie! I didn’t know what to do, of course. The last couple of times she’d come to Ponyville she’d made a real mess of things. Like, way worse than I do even with my biggest party canon! But she was just sitting in the middle of the road and crying right outside of town. Even if a pony was a meanie butt the last time I saw them, I can’t just let a pony cry! Not on my watch, nu uh! She didn’t really seem all that happy to see me at first, but I think I might have gotten through to her. I could totally tell that she felt really bad about everything that had happened before. Both times. I told her not to worry because the ponies here in Ponyville are really sweet and forgiving! I mean, after that time I almost flooded the town in orange soda they forgave ME pretty quick! She finally stopped crying and asked me what she should do. So I told don’t you worry, Trixie! Pinkie is here to save the day! I’m gonna throw a Welcome to Ponyville party for like nopony’s ever seen! It’s gonna be amazing! But I didn’t want to leave poor Trixie out in the cold while I got everything ready, because I could tell that she didn’t have her cart thing. She said she would be okay, but I said nope! You’re comin with me, sister! So after some makeup that I totally didn’t borrow from Rarity, and a fancy cloak I snuck her into Sugarcube Corner! I told the Cakes, the talking ones not the eating ones, that I was having a friend in need over for a few days and they said o-kay! So long as I don’t burn the place down or anything. I don’t know why they’d say something like that! I love baking here because it’s the best baking spot in the whole town! Anyway, it’s almost time for dinner, and I still have lots of planning to do! Bye bye, diary! Entry Three Wow, diary! You wouldn’t believe how hard it is to put together a super secret surprise party for a pony nopony wants to see! I’ve been running around all day putting everything together, but ponies keep asking me why I’m putting together a party! But I told them that it’s a Super Pinkie Pie Secret! But that they should totally come tomorrow! I even made sure to help all my bestest friends finish up whatever they were working on so that they would have the free time to come! I know it’s just going to be amazing! I’m throwing it right here at Sugarcube Corner! Trixie doesn’t seem as certain as I am that this will work though. She spends most of the time up in my room. I hear her crying sometimes. I think she’s worried that everypony is still gonna be mad at her. I told her I know that it’s scary, but sometimes you just have to believe that friendship can overcome anything! And I just know that if she tries, and apologizes, that she can make friends with the ponies here in town. I can tell that she doesn’t fully believe me, but I know that she’s willing to at least give me a chance. Which is all I need! Because if there’s one thing I know, it’s that a party can fix anything! Entry Four We totally did it, diary! The party was a success! At least mostly! I waited until everyone was settled in and munching on treats before I showed Trixie in. At first nopony wanted to even give her a chance. But after I asked them too, and told them that Trixie had really changed, they all decided to try. Twilight helped a little with that, too. She said that everypony, no matter what they’d done in the past, always deserves another chance. It didn’t end up as fun as most of my parties, but it was still a blast! We ate, talked, drank, and played fun party games! All of my friends couldn’t stay very late, though. Which made me a little sad. They all said they had to get back to their duties tomorrow. Which I guess I can understand. Silly Pinkie! Throwing parties in the middle of the week is not a good idea! But that’s okay, because after they all left I got to spend some time with Trixie. At first I thought she was going to go to bed, but she stayed up with me to help me clean. Which was super nice of her. After we finished cleaning she asked if we could sit by the fire. I was all for some cozy times! She didn’t say anything for awhile once we were laying on the rug in front of the fire. But when she did, she started crying! I thought I had done something wrong! She told me she was just happy, and that her tears were ones of joy! And she thanked me a bunch of times. I told her that it was okay, because what are friends for? And do you know what? She smiled. It was the first time I had ever seen her smile like that. It was a happiness, and that made me happy! We ended up staying up most of the night talking about all kinds of things! She told me about all of her crazy adventures she’s had as a traveling magician, and I told her all about my life in Ponyville! We talked and laughed for hours! I did notice something kinda strange, though. Every now and then she would scoot a bit closer to me. And then we were cuddling! It was so cute! I do make the best Pinkie Pillow ever, of course! She ended up falling asleep leaning against me, so I carried her upstairs and put her to bed. Oh yeah! She’s totally been sharing my room. She’s sleeping in this awesome fold out bed! Well diary, I need to sleep! It’s been fun! Entry Five Today sure was interesting, diary! I had to get up early because I needed to set up the shop for our early morning customers. So I left Trixie in bed to get ready. She got up a couple hours later and said that she had some running around to do, and asked if I would like to have lunch with her, saying she wanted to thank me properly for last night. I told her sure! Once the lunch rush died down she came in and the Cakes said I could go. We ended up eating at this place called Bales. We had hay fries! Trixie apologized for not being able to take me someplace nicer, but I told her that food with friends, no matter what food it is, is amazing! She told me about her day so far, too. She said she had been going around and talking to ponies, asking for forgiveness and extending a hoof of friendship. I have to say, I didn’t expect that part! She’s really trying, and I think ponies are starting to notice. I wished her good luck when I went back to work. When she came in later she was beaming! I don’t think I’ve ever seen her so happy! She pulled me up into this big hug and told me that somepony had given her a job! She was making her rounds like she had this morning when she went into the spa. Rarity and Fluttershy were there, and they all talked to Aloe and Lotus together. Trixie said the Spa Sisters were so kind to her when they accepted her apology. They told her she could be their new receptionist! She starts tomorrow. I’m so happy for her. We stayed up talking again tonight. And this time we spent the whole time cuddling together. Before we went to bed she told me how much she appreciates everything I’ve done for her. I think she’s going to be okay here in Ponyville! Entry Six Wow-wee! I almost forgot about you, diary! It’s been almost a week since I’ve written in you! Don’t be mad at me, okay? I’ve just been super busy! Things with Trixie have been going so well! She’s been working full time at the spa since I told you about all that. And every night we stay up drinking cocoa and talking. She told me last night that she wants to buy her own place her in Ponyville. She said she never realized just how perfect of a little town this is, and that she would love to stay here for good. I’m so happy! My new friend decided to stay! When she finds her own place I’m totally gonna throw another party for her. Because she’s awesome and she deserves it! Besides working at the spa she’s been spending time with Twilight. Twilight is teaching her magic. It makes me so happy that she’s making friends! Tonight when we were talking and cuddling, though, I think I noticed something happening. Diary, can you keep a secret? Pinkie Promise! Oh wait, no hooves. I believe you will anyway! I think I like Trixie. Entry Seven Hi diary. I’ve been thinking a lot the past couple of days about what I told you before, which is why I haven’t talked to you. I DO like Trixie. I’ve liked ponies before, and I’ve dated before! So this is nothing new, right? Maybe it’s because we’ve become such good friends. Or maybe it’s because we spend every night talking in front of the fire. Oh gosh! I hope I’m not sending the wrong message! Trixie is such a good friend, I don’t want her to get the wrong idea! Romantic fires are romantic! Oh yeah, silly Pinkie. It’s getting cold outside. Of course we’re going to have a fire! But what about the cuddling? Oh yeah, she started the cuddling. Wait! Diary...do you think Trixie likes me back? She’s never talked about other ponies like that before. I don’t know. I know I’ve always like stallions and mares, but what if she doesn’t like mares and is only cuddling with me because I’m super comfy? Oh diary I don’t know what to do! And what’s worse is that she’s going to start looking at places of her own tomorrow! Oh gosh. I need to calm down like Twilight keeps telling me. So long as she’s happy, that’s all that matters, right? Silly crushes are silly. I probably only think I like her because of how much time we spend together. Anyway, diary, I gotta get super early tomorrow to help Dashie with her flying practice! Night night! Entry Eight Four whole days! Sorry diary! But guess what?! Trixie got her own place! And it’s just right down the road from Sugarcube Corner! I can totally visit her whenever I want! She’s all moved in, so I threw her a party at her new house! She was so happy and excited that all of her new friends showed up. They’re really doing a good job making her feel welcome. I’m so happy that she’s doing so well. We all wished her good luck! She was so happy that she even danced at her party this time! Twilight told me that she’s coming along really well with her magic lessons, too. Then...Twilight asked me something else. She asked me how I feel about Trixie. At first I couldn’t think of anything to say! Twilight knows, diary. Don’t worry, I know you didn’t tell her because you stay tucked under my pillow all the time! She said she could tell how I always watch her and how I always talk about her. She thinks I need to just go up and talk to her and see how she feels! But I can’t do that. What if she said no? I’m happy being Trixie’s best friend. I don’t want that to change just because I feel all silly around her. Good night, diary! Entry Nine I was really scared that once Trixie moved out that we wouldn’t stay up with our cocoa anymore. The first couple of nights made me really sad. But then last night guess what happened! She knocked on the door and asked me to come over! She smiled and said that she didn’t know how to make the kind of cocoa I make, and that even if she did, it wouldn’t feel right to drink it without me! She’s such a sweetie! Her new place is kind of small, but she loves it. It’s got it’s own fireplace, too! We snuggled up on the couch like old times and talked and drank our cocoa. We stayed up way later than normal too. I thought she had fallen asleep again when she stopped talking. But after a while I noticed that she was just being quite. I asked her if everything was okay. All she did was smile and nod! Then she did something I really didn’t expect. Diary, she kissed my cheek. She kissed my cheek! Then she fell asleep on the couch. Oooooh I don’t know what to think anymore! I couldn’t just get up and leave her there. So I slept there on the couch with her, all cozy under a blanket. There’s no turning back now! I definitely like her. And I think, somewhere inside, she’s starting to like me too. You know what, diary? Today is going to be a great day! Author's Note Time for a new story! I think this is going to be so much fun. I hope you all enjoy this first little bit of the story. With as much enjoyment as I'm getting out of it already, I'm sure that you'll all be pleased as well. Plus, this is actually really challenging for me. I've never written like this before, and I've set myself a heck of a challenge. Comments and likes and favorites and criticisms are always appreciated! Entries 10-18Entry Ten Hey again, diary! I know it’s been a few days. I don’t know why but I keep forgetting about you for some reason! Don’t worry, you’re still one of my best friends! Even if you never say anything back to me. That’d be crazy if you did, though, huh? Just imagine! You could probably give me all kinds of advice! Things have definitely been interesting the past few days. I’ve still been seeing Trixie every night. She’s doing so well! She’s really settling into life here in Ponyville. She’s making lots of new friends, she loves her job, and she’s becoming better and better at magic! Before I left her house tonight she was telling me about this new spell Twilight is teaching her! I don’t really remember all the details about it, but it sure sounds exciting! She’s talking about trying to use it in a magic show she’s putting on in a couple months. I never would have thought that she’d be performing magic again for other ponies. At least not like she used too. But she loves it and it’s something that makes her really happy, and I like seeing her happy! She’s going to put it on in the park during the first snow fall. It’s going to be really exciting. I’m still confused about my feelings, though. Every night we get together at the same time. Sometimes we’ll talk about our days, or just gossip. Other times we’ll just lay there and cuddle and stare into the fire. Other than the other night, she hasn’t kissed me. I don’t know if that kiss was just a show of appreciation or not. I want to tell her so badly how I feel, but at the same time I don’t want to run the risk of hurting our friendship. You understand, don’t you, diary? Of course you do. You’re the best listener ever! Twilight hasn’t said anything else since Trixie’s housewarming party. But I know she still thinks about it. Every now and then I catch her looking at me with sad eyes. I can tell she’s worried. Maybe I should talk to her about it again. I wonder if anypony else notices? Maybe asking my friends for advice wouldn’t be such a bad thing. Just because I’m Pinkie Pie doesn’t always mean I have an answer for everything! Anyway, goodnight diary! Entry Eleven I decided to talk to Twilight today. Since I wasn’t working at Sugarcube Corner, and because I knew Trixie would be working all day, I went and saw her bright and early this morning. Twilight was really happy to see me! An she seemed to know what was on my mind. She sent Spike on an errand that she knew would take a while and made us some tea. I don’t really like tea because it’s not very sweet. Not like hot chocolate! Oh I wonder if we can order some of those big marshmallows for this winter again! They were such a big hit last year when ponies came in from the cold for hot cocoa! Anyway, I told her everything. I know Twilight doesn’t know a lot about relationships, but it felt good to sit down and talk to somepony about it. I think I surprised her a bit because I wasn’t my normal bouncy self. After I told her that I do have feelings for Trixie, she just stayed quiet for awhile. Then she told me that the best thing to do was to just tell Trixie how I feel. Even if she doesn’t reciprocate my feelings, I would feel better in the long run. What a silly word! Reciprocate. It almost sounds dirty! She also said that if I didn’t want to tell Trixie, that I at least needed somepony to talk to about it. Somepony that could give better advice than her. I’m not really sure who she meant, if she meant anypony at all. Maybe Rarity? I think she would probably be the best pony to talk to about this kind of thing. Entry Twelve Well diary, it took a few days, but I finally managed to catch up with Rarity. She’s been so busy with her store lately because of Winter coming. And I’ve been busy with Sugarcube Corner for the same reason. But we finally managed to set a lunch date. She seemed worried about me. Kept saying that my mane and tail were looking flatter and flatter recently. I can’t tell if they have been or not. I haven’t really paid attention. Maybe all of this worrying is getting to me. Anyway, I told her everything. She was surprised at first, saying she could hardly believe that I would fall for another pony, especially one like Trixie. I didn’t really know what she meant at first. Have I fallen for Trixie? That would certainly explain my cupcakes haven’t been baking right recently. You wouldn’t believe how much a bad mood can affect your baking! I remember when I thought all my friends hated me and I was really sad that my cookies always came out burnt! I don’t think it’s that bad this time though. To be honest, the only time I feel really really happy is when I’m with Trixie. But even now, sometimes when we’re together, my chest hurts and I feel sad. Like looking at her is kinda painful. Anyway, Rarity told me that the best thing to do would be to try and gauge Trixie’s affection for me by slowly revealing my feelings. She said that if I show her little by little then I won’t run the risk of hurting our friendship in the long run. I guess it’s worth a try. Who knows? Maybe I’ll feel better. I think tomorrow I’m going to bring her a flower. Red Hibiscus is her favorite. She said the taste reminds her of cinnamon. I know Roseluck and her sisters always have plenty of flowers, all year long! Entry Thirteen They had one, they had one! Trixie was so surprised when I showed up at her door and gave her that flower. I think I even saw her blush! Did I ever mention just how cute she is when she blushes? I guess not since I don’t think I’ve ever seen her blush! I could tell that things were different tonight, though. I thought that maybe there might be some awkwardness or nervousness or somethingness. But there wasn’t! We snuggled up, drank our cocoa, and talked. It was just like every other night, but every now and then I’d catch Trixie looking at me in a weird way. Not bad weird, but good weird! She would always try to play it cool though and look away. The first time it happened she used it as an excuse to pull the blanket from the back of the couch over us. I don’t know if she meant to or not, but she laid her tail across mine too. I don’t know if she’s starting to see me in a different light or what, but I think I’m definitely making progress. I’m not going to rush it though. Because this might just as new for her as it is for me! So I think tomorrow I’m just going to go over there and do what we always do. Entry Fourteen She didn’t want to see me tonight. When I knocked on her door she opened it, apologized and said she had some work to do. Did I do something wrong? I hope I didn’t come on too strong. Before now, for the past two weeks, even if we were both super busy we’d always make time for each other. Even if it was only a little while. Maybe I’m overthinking things. I guess I’ll just wait to see what tomorrow brings. Entry Fifteen. Sorry that I haven’t written in you for so long, diary. I don’t even remember when the last time was. A week ago, I think? I feel bad for not paying you enough attention. It’s probably because I’ve been so sad lately. I haven’t seen much of Trixie lately. We haven’t had our usual nights in in so long. I don’t think she wants to be friends with me anymore. I tried to bring her some cupcakes to the spa, but she said she was too busy. I left them for her anyway. I said she could eat them on her lunch break. I haven’t tried talking to her since. Twilight and Rarity both came by to see me today. They said they’d noticed that I haven’t been my usual self, even though I’ve been acting so hard to be. I actually cried. I told them everything. They didn’t really say much. But they hugged me a lot and told me that everything would be okay. They really are the best of friends. Don’t worry, diary. I know you’re my friend too. I just wish I knew what to do about Trixie. If she would at least tell me that she didn’t want to see me anymore, then that would be okay too. At least then I would know. Entry Sixteen I saw Trixie today, diary. I was at the marketplace stocking up on things for the new cold spell the pegasi were talking about when I saw her. She was buying some apples from Applejack. I got so happy for a minute. I just wanted to run up to her and hug her and tell her that I’m sorry for everything. But I didn’t. I know she wouldn’t want to see me. So I went back to my shopping. Right when I was getting ready to leave, though, guess who came up to me. Yup! It was Trixie. She told me that she’s sorry for avoiding me. She wanted to know if I would come over tomorrow night for cocoa. I told her I would. I don’t really know what to expect, though. I guess I’ll find out when I get there. Entry Seventeen Good morning, diary! Wow was last night unexpected. So I went over to Trixie’s like I said I would. At first it felt very, very weird. We didn’t touch, and we hardly talked for the longest time. Finally she broke down and started crying into her cocoa. I had no idea what was wrong! Had I made her cry? Was I the reason she was so upset? All I knew to do was to sweep her up in a big hug and hold her as tight as I could. She held on to me just as tight. And while I know she was sad, it still felt really, really good to hold her. She smelled like lilacs and fancy shampoo. I loved it. When she finally stopped crying enough to talk, she started rushing out apology after apology. She said that she had never had another pony show any kind of feelings for her before. She had been hated and disliked for so much of her life that when she caught on to what I was doing and how I was feeling, she started to get scared. Which is why she had been avoiding me. Turns out she was worried about the same thing I was! She didn’t want to ruin our friendship. I told her that it was okay, that there was nothing to worry about. And then I lied to her. I feel so awful about it! But...I saw how much I was hurting her. So instead of telling her that I love her, I told her that it was just a silly crush and was not even worth mentioning again. We spent the rest of the night cuddled on the couch. When she finally fell asleep, I cried. I haven’t ever been so heart broken in my life. But now that I know that I have a true friend like Trixie, even if she doesn’t want to be with me like that, I think I’ll be okay. I’m a strong Pinkie. Like I always say, some days are dark and lonely. And if you feel sad, Pinkie will be there to show you that it isn’t that bad. Even if that means I have to show myself, sometimes. I think, though, that I need to talk to another pony. I need to see my Granny Pie. Tomorrow I’m going to tell the Cakes and all my friends that I’m going to go away for a while. If anypony can make me feel better, it’ll be my Granny Pie. She’s the smartest pony I know. Sorry that you can’t come with me, diary. But I need a break from you, too. With all my love! I’ll see ya real soon. Entry Eighteen Wow! Diary I feel like I haven’t written to you in sooo long! I know it’s only been a month, but sheesh! I can’t believe you’re still right where I left you! I know! A whooole month! Feels like forever, doesn’t it? Don’t worry! I’m gonna fill you in on everything! So remember how I was all sad when I left? Well I went and saw my Granny Pie and she made it all better. She lives all the way outside of New Appleloosa now. And whoo was that a long train ride all by myself! But it totally ended up being worth it! I had so much fun! It was like I was a little filly all over again. For once somepony baked for me, and sang me songs! We played games, ate lots of yummy food, and I helped her around the house! It was the best trip I’ve taken in a long time. Of course she knew something was wrong when I first came knocking on her door. The very first thing I did was break down crying, AGAIN, in her hooves. I told her everything about what had happened with Trixie. She held me for what felt like two solid days. She didn’t give me any advice, but I know she didn’t have too. Her being there was simply enough. And when I felt well enough to finally get out of bed, she had the biggest tray of super duper chocolate chip fudge cookies I had ever seen! The rest of the time I was there was a blast. She even taught me a new recipe! I can’t wait to show my friends. She never once brought up what I had told her about, Trixie, though. At least not until I was walking out the door. She stopped me, gave me another big hug, and told me that I’m special, and that I deserve a really special pony to call my own. Whether or not it’s Trixie wasn’t up to anypony BUT Trixie. But for now, I shouldn’t worry about it. I have friends who miss me and who want to see me! And do you know what, diary? She was totally right! How can anypony be sad when it’s so pretty outside?! All the snow! None of my friends know I’m home yet. They all think I’ll be back tomorrow, so they’re meeting after Sugarcube Corner closes. I’ll have such a big party for them! I sure missed all of them. No, diary, I still don’t know what I’m going to do about Trixie. All I know is that I need to tell her how I really feel, and apologize like crazy for lying to her. If she’s a true friend like I know she is, she’ll understand and forgive me. And if she’s my special somepony, then maybe we can be happy together. If she’s not, then that’s okay too. Because we’ll always be friends. Anyway, diary, it’s been fun catching up! But you know as well as I do that I’ve got a lot to do tomorrow, so I need to wake up early. I’m also super sleepy from the train ride. If I don’t write in you tomorrow, then I definitely will the next day! Entries 19-24Entry Nineteen Wow, diary! You wouldn’t believe how many ponies showed up to my party last night! It actually got to be so crowded we had to move the party outside. I almost cried when I saw that almost the whole town had showed up! Mayor Mare even managed to organize some ponies to build a fire in the town square. Everypony really missed me. I got to see all my friends! There was lots of eating and drinking and playing and dancing! It was everything I would expect a party to be! The only thing was, I couldn’t find Trixie the whole time. I saw all the rest of my friends! But no Trixie. I asked Twilight about it, and all she did was smile a little and told me that Trixie was waiting for me out by the pond. I thought that was really weird! But I decided to go check it out anyway. I mean, I didn’t know what Trixie was doing down at the pond. I do now! But you don’t. Don’t worry, diary, I’ll tell you. So I went down to the pond and there she was, sure enough. She looked just as amazing as I remembered. She gave me a big hug and told me that she was glad I was back. After that we just kind of stood there, looking out over the water. She seemed really nervous. I told her that I understand, and that she doesn’t have to go out of her way for me. I said ‘Trixie, you won’t lose me as a friend just because I love you and you don’t love me. It’s okay, because I think I can live with it.’ Trixie just smiled at me. And do you know what she did next?! Diary she practically pounced me! Next thing I knew she was kissing me as hard as she could! Whoo! When she finally stopped, and I finally came back down from lala land, we went back to the party. The rest of the night was a blur. I can’t really remember much of any of it! All I remember is spending the whole evening, and then night, with Trixie. Entry Twenty This week sure has been hectic, diary! I’ve had to get back in the swing of things with the Cakes, and I’ve been spending even more time with Trixie than normal. And then there’s all the fun things I’ve been doing with my friends! It’s great seeing everyone so happy together. I don’t think I’m the only one with a new special somepony, though. I asked Twilight about it and she just kinda got all quiet and blushy. It was adorable! I hope everything works out for her like it did with me and Trixie. Speaking of which! Tomorrow is going to be our first official date. Rarity is even going out of her way to make us something to wear. She really is a generous pony! I’m so excited. Trixie says she’s going to take me someplace special. I can’t wait! [Entry Twenty One Well diary, we went on our date. It was strange, though. Because she didn’t really seem like her normal self. And I didn’t either. We were both kind of somber, at least while we were at Hoofington’s. While we ate she explained a bit more to me about why it had taken her so long to push past her feelings and finally say yes to giving us a shot. She said that over her life she had experienced so much hatred that she had come to believe that all that hatred was justified. While she didn’t really show it on the outside, she was using her ego to cover it up, she really despised herself on the inside. It was terrible. I couldn’t even imagine hating myself! I love being me because being me means that I can make other ponies smile! Anyway, when she was done explaining, she told me that none of that mattered anymore. Because ever since she came back to Ponyville, she’s felt welcome, and loved. She said it was all thanks to me, too. It was so special. I almost started crying again when she told me that she loved me too! It’s crazy, isn’t it diary? How two ponies who seem so completely different can end up together? Know what else, diary? I don’t remember the reason I started writing in you anymore. All I know is that doing this has helped me somehow. Being all analyze-y I think has helped me to slow down a bit and appreciate what’s around me a bit more. Thank you, diary. You’re the best book a girl could ask for. Entry Twenty Two To be honest, diary, I completely forgot about you! I guess I should apologize, huh? Soooorrryyyy! There we go. I guess you want some updates since it’s been so long, don’t you? Wow, I wonder how long it’s been. About a year, I’d say. We just got our first snowfall of the year. It’s so pretty outside right now. Right! News, news...okay, so Trixie and I are doing absolutely fantasticalicious! I know, I know. It seems kinda silly to say it, but we are! We moved in together after we had been dating for about four months. That was a big step! But waking up to her snoozing beside me makes it so totally worth it. We still cuddle up on the couch almost every night to talk about our days. Sometimes we don’t talk at all. We’ll drink our tea or cocoa and just hold each other. I never knew I could be still like that for so long! But Trixie is always there to help bring me down from an energy high. She knows me so well it’s almost scary! But that’s okay because I know just as well. All of our friends say that we’re perfect for each other! And I couldn’t agree more. It’s actually really neat that I found you today, diary. Because there’s something you should know. I think Trixie is gonna ask me to marry her tonight! I’m meeting her at the park when she gets off work for a walk, and then we’re gonna go to Hoofington’s for a date! We haven’t been there since we had our first date. And I’ve been getting some really strong vibes from her lately. And don’t think I haven’t noticed all her secret little trips around town talking to everypony! I’m so excited! Well, I need to go start getting ready. Thanks again for listening, diary! I promise it won’t be so long before I talk to you again. Entry Twenty Three I always keep my promises, diary! I told you that it wouldn’t be so long before I talked to you again, and it hasn’t! It’s only been about two months! But guess what? She totally asked me to marry her, just like I thought! The past two months have been crazy busy since then! We’ve been working so hard getting everything ready for the wedding. I can hardly believe that this is happening. The date is set for next month. All of our friends are showing up. Even Princess Celestia and Princess Luna are coming! It’s gonna be so amazing. I must be the luckiest mare ever! Well diary, I think this might be the last time I write in you for a while. Twilight told me a long time ago, when she gave you to me, that you would help. And you have! And looking back and reading everything I’ve written, I realized that you’re not a diary so much as a story about Trixie and me. And what’s a good love story without a happy ending? So wish me luck for my big day! Goodbye, diary. It’s been lots of fun! Final Entry It’s funny that I found you again. Just yesterday I was telling Trixie about how I kept a diary from right before we just met up to the point of our wedding. I guess you got packed up and forgotten about. I couldn’t help but give a big smile as I was reading you, though. It all seems like so long ago, but at the same time, I feel like everything could have happened yesterday. It’s been about ten years, diary. I know, that’s a long time. I still can’t believe that I’m a middle aged mare! It’s strange, looking back on things now. How friendships can drift and change, how bonds that were forged in steel can warp but never break. I don’t see my friends as much anymore. And sometimes that makes me sad, but I know that we each have our own lives we’re trying to live. Our own families that we love and cherish. We still all get to together at least once a month. Sometimes it’s just the six of us, but other times we bring our families for a big picnic. Those moments are some of the happiest in my life. The rest of my happiness goes to my beautiful wife, though. Trixie has been an angel. I’m not saying everything has been perfect all these years. Quite the opposite, in fact. We’ve had our low points. We’ve had our fights. But our love is true, and so we’ve always managed to make it back. All in all, we’re both happy. I still remember that first day I looked at her in a new light, from across Sugarcube Corner, and realized that I liked her. I still get those butterflies sometimes. When she says something really sweet, or when she surprises me with a kiss. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that this is my life. I have everything I could ever want and more. And, strange enough, diary, you’ve been there through one of the biggest adventures of my life. Granted, I’ve had quite a few. Over the years my friends and I have had to face many dangers. The Elements of Harmony could not have picked a better equipped group of girls, I think. But my greatest adventure will always be the one I had with Trixie. Discovering love changed my life in so many ways. The greatest of which was that I was finally able to look at myself in the mirror and know a type of happiness I had only once dreamed about. The happiness of completion. That’s right, diary, I said something cheesy. But come on, this is Pinkie Pie that’s writing in you! I think I’m allowed a little cheese once in awhile. Thank you for listening to me, and thank you for holding this story for so long. If there’s one bit of wisdom this silly pink mare can impart before she sets down her pen, it’s this. The true light of happiness can sometimes be shrouded in the darkest of places. But that doesn’t mean it isn’t there. If you don’t strive for it, and hope for it, and long for it, you’ll never reach it. If you do find that light, then cling to it and never let it go. Because the wings it gives your heart will help you soar forever. Goodbye, diary. And thank you again. Author's Note Now that was a crazy ride! I hope everyone enjoyed this first part of my series 'Diaries Six'. I wonder if, instead of doing them all as separate stories, if I should just combine them into one? What do you guys think? Again, thanks for reading and commenting and stuff! Love you guys. :)
Entries 1-9Entry One Hi diary! This is sooo neat. So Twilight went out and bought us all these fancy diaries from the bookstore so that we could write stuff! She said keeping a diary will help us review what we’ve done and stuff. Something about it being a good escape from the day to day stuff. I don’t know about all that though! It seems like it could be lots of fun! I don’t really like writing or reading, but since Twilight made us promise to try, I’ll at least do that much! So I guess I should get started, huh? Or maybe I should wait until I do something super fun like throw a party. Oh my gosh! You could be like my party diary! I gotta go plan party, quick! Bye diary! Entry Two Hi again, diary! Sorry about not writing in you for a few days. I’ve just been so super duper busy! Remember when I said I had to go plan a party? Well that’s totally what I’m doing! But you’ll never guess for who! It was so totally crazy. I was bouncing around Ponyville yesterday being my normal all smiles self, looking for someone who needed a party! But do you know what? No one needs a party! I mean I asked like everyone in Ponyville! I mean come on! It’s Fall! Everyone should want a party! You don’t know how great my parties are, diary. Especially when it’s chilly outside. All my friends come together and we eat, and play games, and get all cozy by a fire! They’re seriously the bestest things ever! But for some reason nopony wanted a party! Even my bestest best friends said they didn’t want one. I got a little sad, but I just knew that somewhere somepony needed a party! So there was only one pony who I hadn’t asked yet. Wanna know who it was? You’re right, it was Zecora! But you’ll never guess who I ran into when I was walking out to Zecora’s hut! Dang, diary! Right again! It was Trixie! I didn’t know what to do, of course. The last couple of times she’d come to Ponyville she’d made a real mess of things. Like, way worse than I do even with my biggest party canon! But she was just sitting in the middle of the road and crying right outside of town. Even if a pony was a meanie butt the last time I saw them, I can’t just let a pony cry! Not on my watch, nu uh! She didn’t really seem all that happy to see me at first, but I think I might have gotten through to her. I could totally tell that she felt really bad about everything that had happened before. Both times. I told her not to worry because the ponies here in Ponyville are really sweet and forgiving! I mean, after that time I almost flooded the town in orange soda they forgave ME pretty quick! She finally stopped crying and asked me what she should do. So I told don’t you worry, Trixie! Pinkie is here to save the day! I’m gonna throw a Welcome to Ponyville party for like nopony’s ever seen! It’s gonna be amazing! But I didn’t want to leave poor Trixie out in the cold while I got everything ready, because I could tell that she didn’t have her cart thing. She said she would be okay, but I said nope! You’re comin with me, sister! So after some makeup that I totally didn’t borrow from Rarity, and a fancy cloak I snuck her into Sugarcube Corner! I told the Cakes, the talking ones not the eating ones, that I was having a friend in need over for a few days and they said o-kay! So long as I don’t burn the place down or anything. I don’t know why they’d say something like that! I love baking here because it’s the best baking spot in the whole town! Anyway, it’s almost time for dinner, and I still have lots of planning to do! Bye bye, diary! Entry Three Wow, diary! You wouldn’t believe how hard it is to put together a super secret surprise party for a pony nopony wants to see! I’ve been running around all day putting everything together, but ponies keep asking me why I’m putting together a party! But I told them that it’s a Super Pinkie Pie Secret! But that they should totally come tomorrow! I even made sure to help all my bestest friends finish up whatever they were working on so that they would have the free time to come! I know it’s just going to be amazing! I’m throwing it right here at Sugarcube Corner! Trixie doesn’t seem as certain as I am that this will work though. She spends most of the time up in my room. I hear her crying sometimes. I think she’s worried that everypony is still gonna be mad at her. I told her I know that it’s scary, but sometimes you just have to believe that friendship can overcome anything! And I just know that if she tries, and apologizes, that she can make friends with the ponies here in town. I can tell that she doesn’t fully believe me, but I know that she’s willing to at least give me a chance. Which is all I need! Because if there’s one thing I know, it’s that a party can fix anything! Entry Four We totally did it, diary! The party was a success! At least mostly! I waited until everyone was settled in and munching on treats before I showed Trixie in. At first nopony wanted to even give her a chance. But after I asked them too, and told them that Trixie had really changed, they all decided to try. Twilight helped a little with that, too. She said that everypony, no matter what they’d done in the past, always deserves another chance. It didn’t end up as fun as most of my parties, but it was still a blast! We ate, talked, drank, and played fun party games! All of my friends couldn’t stay very late, though. Which made me a little sad. They all said they had to get back to their duties tomorrow. Which I guess I can understand. Silly Pinkie! Throwing parties in the middle of the week is not a good idea! But that’s okay, because after they all left I got to spend some time with Trixie. At first I thought she was going to go to bed, but she stayed up with me to help me clean. Which was super nice of her. After we finished cleaning she asked if we could sit by the fire. I was all for some cozy times! She didn’t say anything for awhile once we were laying on the rug in front of the fire. But when she did, she started crying! I thought I had done something wrong! She told me she was just happy, and that her tears were ones of joy! And she thanked me a bunch of times. I told her that it was okay, because what are friends for? And do you know what? She smiled. It was the first time I had ever seen her smile like that. It was a happiness, and that made me happy! We ended up staying up most of the night talking about all kinds of things! She told me about all of her crazy adventures she’s had as a traveling magician, and I told her all about my life in Ponyville! We talked and laughed for hours! I did notice something kinda strange, though. Every now and then she would scoot a bit closer to me. And then we were cuddling! It was so cute! I do make the best Pinkie Pillow ever, of course! She ended up falling asleep leaning against me, so I carried her upstairs and put her to bed. Oh yeah! She’s totally been sharing my room. She’s sleeping in this awesome fold out bed! Well diary, I need to sleep! It’s been fun! Entry Five Today sure was interesting, diary! I had to get up early because I needed to set up the shop for our early morning customers. So I left Trixie in bed to get ready. She got up a couple hours later and said that she had some running around to do, and asked if I would like to have lunch with her, saying she wanted to thank me properly for last night. I told her sure! Once the lunch rush died down she came in and the Cakes said I could go. We ended up eating at this place called Bales. We had hay fries! Trixie apologized for not being able to take me someplace nicer, but I told her that food with friends, no matter what food it is, is amazing! She told me about her day so far, too. She said she had been going around and talking to ponies, asking for forgiveness and extending a hoof of friendship. I have to say, I didn’t expect that part! She’s really trying, and I think ponies are starting to notice. I wished her good luck when I went back to work. When she came in later she was beaming! I don’t think I’ve ever seen her so happy! She pulled me up into this big hug and told me that somepony had given her a job! She was making her rounds like she had this morning when she went into the spa. Rarity and Fluttershy were there, and they all talked to Aloe and Lotus together. Trixie said the Spa Sisters were so kind to her when they accepted her apology. They told her she could be their new receptionist! She starts tomorrow. I’m so happy for her. We stayed up talking again tonight. And this time we spent the whole time cuddling together. Before we went to bed she told me how much she appreciates everything I’ve done for her. I think she’s going to be okay here in Ponyville! Entry Six Wow-wee! I almost forgot about you, diary! It’s been almost a week since I’ve written in you! Don’t be mad at me, okay? I’ve just been super busy! Things with Trixie have been going so well! She’s been working full time at the spa since I told you about all that. And every night we stay up drinking cocoa and talking. She told me last night that she wants to buy her own place her in Ponyville. She said she never realized just how perfect of a little town this is, and that she would love to stay here for good. I’m so happy! My new friend decided to stay! When she finds her own place I’m totally gonna throw another party for her. Because she’s awesome and she deserves it! Besides working at the spa she’s been spending time with Twilight. Twilight is teaching her magic. It makes me so happy that she’s making friends! Tonight when we were talking and cuddling, though, I think I noticed something happening. Diary, can you keep a secret? Pinkie Promise! Oh wait, no hooves. I believe you will anyway! I think I like Trixie. Entry Seven Hi diary. I’ve been thinking a lot the past couple of days about what I told you before, which is why I haven’t talked to you. I DO like Trixie. I’ve liked ponies before, and I’ve dated before! So this is nothing new, right? Maybe it’s because we’ve become such good friends. Or maybe it’s because we spend every night talking in front of the fire. Oh gosh! I hope I’m not sending the wrong message! Trixie is such a good friend, I don’t want her to get the wrong idea! Romantic fires are romantic! Oh yeah, silly Pinkie. It’s getting cold outside. Of course we’re going to have a fire! But what about the cuddling? Oh yeah, she started the cuddling. Wait! Diary...do you think Trixie likes me back? She’s never talked about other ponies like that before. I don’t know. I know I’ve always like stallions and mares, but what if she doesn’t like mares and is only cuddling with me because I’m super comfy? Oh diary I don’t know what to do! And what’s worse is that she’s going to start looking at places of her own tomorrow! Oh gosh. I need to calm down like Twilight keeps telling me. So long as she’s happy, that’s all that matters, right? Silly crushes are silly. I probably only think I like her because of how much time we spend together. Anyway, diary, I gotta get super early tomorrow to help Dashie with her flying practice! Night night! Entry Eight Four whole days! Sorry diary! But guess what?! Trixie got her own place! And it’s just right down the road from Sugarcube Corner! I can totally visit her whenever I want! She’s all moved in, so I threw her a party at her new house! She was so happy and excited that all of her new friends showed up. They’re really doing a good job making her feel welcome. I’m so happy that she’s doing so well. We all wished her good luck! She was so happy that she even danced at her party this time! Twilight told me that she’s coming along really well with her magic lessons, too. Then...Twilight asked me something else. She asked me how I feel about Trixie. At first I couldn’t think of anything to say! Twilight knows, diary. Don’t worry, I know you didn’t tell her because you stay tucked under my pillow all the time! She said she could tell how I always watch her and how I always talk about her. She thinks I need to just go up and talk to her and see how she feels! But I can’t do that. What if she said no? I’m happy being Trixie’s best friend. I don’t want that to change just because I feel all silly around her. Good night, diary! Entry Nine I was really scared that once Trixie moved out that we wouldn’t stay up with our cocoa anymore. The first couple of nights made me really sad. But then last night guess what happened! She knocked on the door and asked me to come over! She smiled and said that she didn’t know how to make the kind of cocoa I make, and that even if she did, it wouldn’t feel right to drink it without me! She’s such a sweetie! Her new place is kind of small, but she loves it. It’s got it’s own fireplace, too! We snuggled up on the couch like old times and talked and drank our cocoa. We stayed up way later than normal too. I thought she had fallen asleep again when she stopped talking. But after a while I noticed that she was just being quite. I asked her if everything was okay. All she did was smile and nod! Then she did something I really didn’t expect. Diary, she kissed my cheek. She kissed my cheek! Then she fell asleep on the couch. Oooooh I don’t know what to think anymore! I couldn’t just get up and leave her there. So I slept there on the couch with her, all cozy under a blanket. There’s no turning back now! I definitely like her. And I think, somewhere inside, she’s starting to like me too. You know what, diary? Today is going to be a great day! Author's Note Time for a new story! I think this is going to be so much fun. I hope you all enjoy this first little bit of the story. With as much enjoyment as I'm getting out of it already, I'm sure that you'll all be pleased as well. Plus, this is actually really challenging for me. I've never written like this before, and I've set myself a heck of a challenge. Comments and likes and favorites and criticisms are always appreciated!
Entries 10-18Entry Ten Hey again, diary! I know it’s been a few days. I don’t know why but I keep forgetting about you for some reason! Don’t worry, you’re still one of my best friends! Even if you never say anything back to me. That’d be crazy if you did, though, huh? Just imagine! You could probably give me all kinds of advice! Things have definitely been interesting the past few days. I’ve still been seeing Trixie every night. She’s doing so well! She’s really settling into life here in Ponyville. She’s making lots of new friends, she loves her job, and she’s becoming better and better at magic! Before I left her house tonight she was telling me about this new spell Twilight is teaching her! I don’t really remember all the details about it, but it sure sounds exciting! She’s talking about trying to use it in a magic show she’s putting on in a couple months. I never would have thought that she’d be performing magic again for other ponies. At least not like she used too. But she loves it and it’s something that makes her really happy, and I like seeing her happy! She’s going to put it on in the park during the first snow fall. It’s going to be really exciting. I’m still confused about my feelings, though. Every night we get together at the same time. Sometimes we’ll talk about our days, or just gossip. Other times we’ll just lay there and cuddle and stare into the fire. Other than the other night, she hasn’t kissed me. I don’t know if that kiss was just a show of appreciation or not. I want to tell her so badly how I feel, but at the same time I don’t want to run the risk of hurting our friendship. You understand, don’t you, diary? Of course you do. You’re the best listener ever! Twilight hasn’t said anything else since Trixie’s housewarming party. But I know she still thinks about it. Every now and then I catch her looking at me with sad eyes. I can tell she’s worried. Maybe I should talk to her about it again. I wonder if anypony else notices? Maybe asking my friends for advice wouldn’t be such a bad thing. Just because I’m Pinkie Pie doesn’t always mean I have an answer for everything! Anyway, goodnight diary! Entry Eleven I decided to talk to Twilight today. Since I wasn’t working at Sugarcube Corner, and because I knew Trixie would be working all day, I went and saw her bright and early this morning. Twilight was really happy to see me! An she seemed to know what was on my mind. She sent Spike on an errand that she knew would take a while and made us some tea. I don’t really like tea because it’s not very sweet. Not like hot chocolate! Oh I wonder if we can order some of those big marshmallows for this winter again! They were such a big hit last year when ponies came in from the cold for hot cocoa! Anyway, I told her everything. I know Twilight doesn’t know a lot about relationships, but it felt good to sit down and talk to somepony about it. I think I surprised her a bit because I wasn’t my normal bouncy self. After I told her that I do have feelings for Trixie, she just stayed quiet for awhile. Then she told me that the best thing to do was to just tell Trixie how I feel. Even if she doesn’t reciprocate my feelings, I would feel better in the long run. What a silly word! Reciprocate. It almost sounds dirty! She also said that if I didn’t want to tell Trixie, that I at least needed somepony to talk to about it. Somepony that could give better advice than her. I’m not really sure who she meant, if she meant anypony at all. Maybe Rarity? I think she would probably be the best pony to talk to about this kind of thing. Entry Twelve Well diary, it took a few days, but I finally managed to catch up with Rarity. She’s been so busy with her store lately because of Winter coming. And I’ve been busy with Sugarcube Corner for the same reason. But we finally managed to set a lunch date. She seemed worried about me. Kept saying that my mane and tail were looking flatter and flatter recently. I can’t tell if they have been or not. I haven’t really paid attention. Maybe all of this worrying is getting to me. Anyway, I told her everything. She was surprised at first, saying she could hardly believe that I would fall for another pony, especially one like Trixie. I didn’t really know what she meant at first. Have I fallen for Trixie? That would certainly explain my cupcakes haven’t been baking right recently. You wouldn’t believe how much a bad mood can affect your baking! I remember when I thought all my friends hated me and I was really sad that my cookies always came out burnt! I don’t think it’s that bad this time though. To be honest, the only time I feel really really happy is when I’m with Trixie. But even now, sometimes when we’re together, my chest hurts and I feel sad. Like looking at her is kinda painful. Anyway, Rarity told me that the best thing to do would be to try and gauge Trixie’s affection for me by slowly revealing my feelings. She said that if I show her little by little then I won’t run the risk of hurting our friendship in the long run. I guess it’s worth a try. Who knows? Maybe I’ll feel better. I think tomorrow I’m going to bring her a flower. Red Hibiscus is her favorite. She said the taste reminds her of cinnamon. I know Roseluck and her sisters always have plenty of flowers, all year long! Entry Thirteen They had one, they had one! Trixie was so surprised when I showed up at her door and gave her that flower. I think I even saw her blush! Did I ever mention just how cute she is when she blushes? I guess not since I don’t think I’ve ever seen her blush! I could tell that things were different tonight, though. I thought that maybe there might be some awkwardness or nervousness or somethingness. But there wasn’t! We snuggled up, drank our cocoa, and talked. It was just like every other night, but every now and then I’d catch Trixie looking at me in a weird way. Not bad weird, but good weird! She would always try to play it cool though and look away. The first time it happened she used it as an excuse to pull the blanket from the back of the couch over us. I don’t know if she meant to or not, but she laid her tail across mine too. I don’t know if she’s starting to see me in a different light or what, but I think I’m definitely making progress. I’m not going to rush it though. Because this might just as new for her as it is for me! So I think tomorrow I’m just going to go over there and do what we always do. Entry Fourteen She didn’t want to see me tonight. When I knocked on her door she opened it, apologized and said she had some work to do. Did I do something wrong? I hope I didn’t come on too strong. Before now, for the past two weeks, even if we were both super busy we’d always make time for each other. Even if it was only a little while. Maybe I’m overthinking things. I guess I’ll just wait to see what tomorrow brings. Entry Fifteen. Sorry that I haven’t written in you for so long, diary. I don’t even remember when the last time was. A week ago, I think? I feel bad for not paying you enough attention. It’s probably because I’ve been so sad lately. I haven’t seen much of Trixie lately. We haven’t had our usual nights in in so long. I don’t think she wants to be friends with me anymore. I tried to bring her some cupcakes to the spa, but she said she was too busy. I left them for her anyway. I said she could eat them on her lunch break. I haven’t tried talking to her since. Twilight and Rarity both came by to see me today. They said they’d noticed that I haven’t been my usual self, even though I’ve been acting so hard to be. I actually cried. I told them everything. They didn’t really say much. But they hugged me a lot and told me that everything would be okay. They really are the best of friends. Don’t worry, diary. I know you’re my friend too. I just wish I knew what to do about Trixie. If she would at least tell me that she didn’t want to see me anymore, then that would be okay too. At least then I would know. Entry Sixteen I saw Trixie today, diary. I was at the marketplace stocking up on things for the new cold spell the pegasi were talking about when I saw her. She was buying some apples from Applejack. I got so happy for a minute. I just wanted to run up to her and hug her and tell her that I’m sorry for everything. But I didn’t. I know she wouldn’t want to see me. So I went back to my shopping. Right when I was getting ready to leave, though, guess who came up to me. Yup! It was Trixie. She told me that she’s sorry for avoiding me. She wanted to know if I would come over tomorrow night for cocoa. I told her I would. I don’t really know what to expect, though. I guess I’ll find out when I get there. Entry Seventeen Good morning, diary! Wow was last night unexpected. So I went over to Trixie’s like I said I would. At first it felt very, very weird. We didn’t touch, and we hardly talked for the longest time. Finally she broke down and started crying into her cocoa. I had no idea what was wrong! Had I made her cry? Was I the reason she was so upset? All I knew to do was to sweep her up in a big hug and hold her as tight as I could. She held on to me just as tight. And while I know she was sad, it still felt really, really good to hold her. She smelled like lilacs and fancy shampoo. I loved it. When she finally stopped crying enough to talk, she started rushing out apology after apology. She said that she had never had another pony show any kind of feelings for her before. She had been hated and disliked for so much of her life that when she caught on to what I was doing and how I was feeling, she started to get scared. Which is why she had been avoiding me. Turns out she was worried about the same thing I was! She didn’t want to ruin our friendship. I told her that it was okay, that there was nothing to worry about. And then I lied to her. I feel so awful about it! But...I saw how much I was hurting her. So instead of telling her that I love her, I told her that it was just a silly crush and was not even worth mentioning again. We spent the rest of the night cuddled on the couch. When she finally fell asleep, I cried. I haven’t ever been so heart broken in my life. But now that I know that I have a true friend like Trixie, even if she doesn’t want to be with me like that, I think I’ll be okay. I’m a strong Pinkie. Like I always say, some days are dark and lonely. And if you feel sad, Pinkie will be there to show you that it isn’t that bad. Even if that means I have to show myself, sometimes. I think, though, that I need to talk to another pony. I need to see my Granny Pie. Tomorrow I’m going to tell the Cakes and all my friends that I’m going to go away for a while. If anypony can make me feel better, it’ll be my Granny Pie. She’s the smartest pony I know. Sorry that you can’t come with me, diary. But I need a break from you, too. With all my love! I’ll see ya real soon. Entry Eighteen Wow! Diary I feel like I haven’t written to you in sooo long! I know it’s only been a month, but sheesh! I can’t believe you’re still right where I left you! I know! A whooole month! Feels like forever, doesn’t it? Don’t worry! I’m gonna fill you in on everything! So remember how I was all sad when I left? Well I went and saw my Granny Pie and she made it all better. She lives all the way outside of New Appleloosa now. And whoo was that a long train ride all by myself! But it totally ended up being worth it! I had so much fun! It was like I was a little filly all over again. For once somepony baked for me, and sang me songs! We played games, ate lots of yummy food, and I helped her around the house! It was the best trip I’ve taken in a long time. Of course she knew something was wrong when I first came knocking on her door. The very first thing I did was break down crying, AGAIN, in her hooves. I told her everything about what had happened with Trixie. She held me for what felt like two solid days. She didn’t give me any advice, but I know she didn’t have too. Her being there was simply enough. And when I felt well enough to finally get out of bed, she had the biggest tray of super duper chocolate chip fudge cookies I had ever seen! The rest of the time I was there was a blast. She even taught me a new recipe! I can’t wait to show my friends. She never once brought up what I had told her about, Trixie, though. At least not until I was walking out the door. She stopped me, gave me another big hug, and told me that I’m special, and that I deserve a really special pony to call my own. Whether or not it’s Trixie wasn’t up to anypony BUT Trixie. But for now, I shouldn’t worry about it. I have friends who miss me and who want to see me! And do you know what, diary? She was totally right! How can anypony be sad when it’s so pretty outside?! All the snow! None of my friends know I’m home yet. They all think I’ll be back tomorrow, so they’re meeting after Sugarcube Corner closes. I’ll have such a big party for them! I sure missed all of them. No, diary, I still don’t know what I’m going to do about Trixie. All I know is that I need to tell her how I really feel, and apologize like crazy for lying to her. If she’s a true friend like I know she is, she’ll understand and forgive me. And if she’s my special somepony, then maybe we can be happy together. If she’s not, then that’s okay too. Because we’ll always be friends. Anyway, diary, it’s been fun catching up! But you know as well as I do that I’ve got a lot to do tomorrow, so I need to wake up early. I’m also super sleepy from the train ride. If I don’t write in you tomorrow, then I definitely will the next day!
Entries 19-24Entry Nineteen Wow, diary! You wouldn’t believe how many ponies showed up to my party last night! It actually got to be so crowded we had to move the party outside. I almost cried when I saw that almost the whole town had showed up! Mayor Mare even managed to organize some ponies to build a fire in the town square. Everypony really missed me. I got to see all my friends! There was lots of eating and drinking and playing and dancing! It was everything I would expect a party to be! The only thing was, I couldn’t find Trixie the whole time. I saw all the rest of my friends! But no Trixie. I asked Twilight about it, and all she did was smile a little and told me that Trixie was waiting for me out by the pond. I thought that was really weird! But I decided to go check it out anyway. I mean, I didn’t know what Trixie was doing down at the pond. I do now! But you don’t. Don’t worry, diary, I’ll tell you. So I went down to the pond and there she was, sure enough. She looked just as amazing as I remembered. She gave me a big hug and told me that she was glad I was back. After that we just kind of stood there, looking out over the water. She seemed really nervous. I told her that I understand, and that she doesn’t have to go out of her way for me. I said ‘Trixie, you won’t lose me as a friend just because I love you and you don’t love me. It’s okay, because I think I can live with it.’ Trixie just smiled at me. And do you know what she did next?! Diary she practically pounced me! Next thing I knew she was kissing me as hard as she could! Whoo! When she finally stopped, and I finally came back down from lala land, we went back to the party. The rest of the night was a blur. I can’t really remember much of any of it! All I remember is spending the whole evening, and then night, with Trixie. Entry Twenty This week sure has been hectic, diary! I’ve had to get back in the swing of things with the Cakes, and I’ve been spending even more time with Trixie than normal. And then there’s all the fun things I’ve been doing with my friends! It’s great seeing everyone so happy together. I don’t think I’m the only one with a new special somepony, though. I asked Twilight about it and she just kinda got all quiet and blushy. It was adorable! I hope everything works out for her like it did with me and Trixie. Speaking of which! Tomorrow is going to be our first official date. Rarity is even going out of her way to make us something to wear. She really is a generous pony! I’m so excited. Trixie says she’s going to take me someplace special. I can’t wait! [Entry Twenty One Well diary, we went on our date. It was strange, though. Because she didn’t really seem like her normal self. And I didn’t either. We were both kind of somber, at least while we were at Hoofington’s. While we ate she explained a bit more to me about why it had taken her so long to push past her feelings and finally say yes to giving us a shot. She said that over her life she had experienced so much hatred that she had come to believe that all that hatred was justified. While she didn’t really show it on the outside, she was using her ego to cover it up, she really despised herself on the inside. It was terrible. I couldn’t even imagine hating myself! I love being me because being me means that I can make other ponies smile! Anyway, when she was done explaining, she told me that none of that mattered anymore. Because ever since she came back to Ponyville, she’s felt welcome, and loved. She said it was all thanks to me, too. It was so special. I almost started crying again when she told me that she loved me too! It’s crazy, isn’t it diary? How two ponies who seem so completely different can end up together? Know what else, diary? I don’t remember the reason I started writing in you anymore. All I know is that doing this has helped me somehow. Being all analyze-y I think has helped me to slow down a bit and appreciate what’s around me a bit more. Thank you, diary. You’re the best book a girl could ask for. Entry Twenty Two To be honest, diary, I completely forgot about you! I guess I should apologize, huh? Soooorrryyyy! There we go. I guess you want some updates since it’s been so long, don’t you? Wow, I wonder how long it’s been. About a year, I’d say. We just got our first snowfall of the year. It’s so pretty outside right now. Right! News, news...okay, so Trixie and I are doing absolutely fantasticalicious! I know, I know. It seems kinda silly to say it, but we are! We moved in together after we had been dating for about four months. That was a big step! But waking up to her snoozing beside me makes it so totally worth it. We still cuddle up on the couch almost every night to talk about our days. Sometimes we don’t talk at all. We’ll drink our tea or cocoa and just hold each other. I never knew I could be still like that for so long! But Trixie is always there to help bring me down from an energy high. She knows me so well it’s almost scary! But that’s okay because I know just as well. All of our friends say that we’re perfect for each other! And I couldn’t agree more. It’s actually really neat that I found you today, diary. Because there’s something you should know. I think Trixie is gonna ask me to marry her tonight! I’m meeting her at the park when she gets off work for a walk, and then we’re gonna go to Hoofington’s for a date! We haven’t been there since we had our first date. And I’ve been getting some really strong vibes from her lately. And don’t think I haven’t noticed all her secret little trips around town talking to everypony! I’m so excited! Well, I need to go start getting ready. Thanks again for listening, diary! I promise it won’t be so long before I talk to you again. Entry Twenty Three I always keep my promises, diary! I told you that it wouldn’t be so long before I talked to you again, and it hasn’t! It’s only been about two months! But guess what? She totally asked me to marry her, just like I thought! The past two months have been crazy busy since then! We’ve been working so hard getting everything ready for the wedding. I can hardly believe that this is happening. The date is set for next month. All of our friends are showing up. Even Princess Celestia and Princess Luna are coming! It’s gonna be so amazing. I must be the luckiest mare ever! Well diary, I think this might be the last time I write in you for a while. Twilight told me a long time ago, when she gave you to me, that you would help. And you have! And looking back and reading everything I’ve written, I realized that you’re not a diary so much as a story about Trixie and me. And what’s a good love story without a happy ending? So wish me luck for my big day! Goodbye, diary. It’s been lots of fun! Final Entry It’s funny that I found you again. Just yesterday I was telling Trixie about how I kept a diary from right before we just met up to the point of our wedding. I guess you got packed up and forgotten about. I couldn’t help but give a big smile as I was reading you, though. It all seems like so long ago, but at the same time, I feel like everything could have happened yesterday. It’s been about ten years, diary. I know, that’s a long time. I still can’t believe that I’m a middle aged mare! It’s strange, looking back on things now. How friendships can drift and change, how bonds that were forged in steel can warp but never break. I don’t see my friends as much anymore. And sometimes that makes me sad, but I know that we each have our own lives we’re trying to live. Our own families that we love and cherish. We still all get to together at least once a month. Sometimes it’s just the six of us, but other times we bring our families for a big picnic. Those moments are some of the happiest in my life. The rest of my happiness goes to my beautiful wife, though. Trixie has been an angel. I’m not saying everything has been perfect all these years. Quite the opposite, in fact. We’ve had our low points. We’ve had our fights. But our love is true, and so we’ve always managed to make it back. All in all, we’re both happy. I still remember that first day I looked at her in a new light, from across Sugarcube Corner, and realized that I liked her. I still get those butterflies sometimes. When she says something really sweet, or when she surprises me with a kiss. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that this is my life. I have everything I could ever want and more. And, strange enough, diary, you’ve been there through one of the biggest adventures of my life. Granted, I’ve had quite a few. Over the years my friends and I have had to face many dangers. The Elements of Harmony could not have picked a better equipped group of girls, I think. But my greatest adventure will always be the one I had with Trixie. Discovering love changed my life in so many ways. The greatest of which was that I was finally able to look at myself in the mirror and know a type of happiness I had only once dreamed about. The happiness of completion. That’s right, diary, I said something cheesy. But come on, this is Pinkie Pie that’s writing in you! I think I’m allowed a little cheese once in awhile. Thank you for listening to me, and thank you for holding this story for so long. If there’s one bit of wisdom this silly pink mare can impart before she sets down her pen, it’s this. The true light of happiness can sometimes be shrouded in the darkest of places. But that doesn’t mean it isn’t there. If you don’t strive for it, and hope for it, and long for it, you’ll never reach it. If you do find that light, then cling to it and never let it go. Because the wings it gives your heart will help you soar forever. Goodbye, diary. And thank you again. Author's Note Now that was a crazy ride! I hope everyone enjoyed this first part of my series 'Diaries Six'. I wonder if, instead of doing them all as separate stories, if I should just combine them into one? What do you guys think? Again, thanks for reading and commenting and stuff! Love you guys. :)
