Seeing Yellow, The Return

There are times in life when we have to stand for something,

Even if it's at the risk of losing... well everything.

Follow your heart. Always...

I was sitting on my couch, watching Supernatural on DVD. However, I wasn't really watching Sam and Dean Winchester take out spirits, demons, vampires, and every other god damm evil thing on this planet. I was thinking about Fluttershy. Our time together was short. But it was worth it. Fluttershy had changed my entire life for the better. And I know I had changed hers. Though I knew it was the right thing to do to send her back, I really wanted to be able to return her to me. I wanted to see her again. At least once. No… twice. No... I wanted to live with her forever. I looked down at my necklace, and once again looked at the pony and the human engraved on it.

Bright light suddenly appeared in front of me. I thought Fluttershy was sending me another letter, so I waited, watching the light. Then I realised what was appearing in front of me. It was too large to be a scroll. The light's intensity grew, and I couldn't watch it any further. I averted my eyes. Then the light flashed, and it was gone. I looked back. There, on the floor slowing getting to her hooves, was the yellow mare with a pink mail and tail. I couldn't believe it. She was back? Fluttershy smiled at me and my heart exploded. Something it hadn't done for ages. Tears of joy came to my eyes, and Fluttershy's as well. She galloped towards me and jumped into my arms. We embraced, and I savoured the feel of her coat; her heartbeat racing in her chest; the soft flowing mane and tail... and her eyes. Her large aqua eyes. I hadn't seen them in ages. We smiled at each other. Suddenly, everything darkened around us, and we embracing in a golden spotlight. It was sparkling and shimmering. It was beautiful. Fluttershy lent in for a kiss.

Suddenly, she was ripped from my embrace. She was getting dragged backwards, away from me, into the blackness.

"No! Fluttershy!" I yelled, reaching out to her.

Before she could yell back, she was swallowed whole. Enveloped by the darkness. I fell to my knees and wept. The golden spotlight vanished; the darkness crept in, inching closer to me, feeding on my despair as if it were a great feast that they were waiting for. The darkness started to envelop me, slowly destroying my legs, moving up to my chest, then slowly crawling up to my face.

I woke up, sitting bolt upright, shivering uncontrollably. I was in my bedroom, in my bed. I was hyper-ventilating. I tried to calm myself down, but it was futile, the nightmare still fresh in my mind, overruling all thought. It was always the same. Always the same nightmare. The one that had plagued me for over 2 years.

"Mother. Bucking. Stupid. Nightmare." I spoke to myself, getting louder with each word. I slumped back down on my bed, sinking into the mattress. I looked over to my left, where usually I would have seen the beautiful yellow mare asleep next to me, still doing her cute breathing. But she was gone now. Seeing the blank space next to me made me start thinking about the empty space that was in my heart. I was damaged. A broken man. Ever since Fluttershy had gone back to her world, I was slipping slowly back into my depression that she had cured. I had given up a beautiful mare who loved me more than anything, so she would be happy in her own colourful world, while I slowly degraded in mine. I could barely live life. Without Fluttershy... life was meaningless.

I reached my hand up and touched the necklace draped around my neck. I slid my fingers across the necklace, feeling the engraving of Fluttershy on it. This necklace, plus the picture, were the only things I had to remind me that all that had happened was real. And that only made it more difficult to wake up in an empty bed.

I wiped my streaming eyes. My throat was parched so I got out of bed. Before going down to the kitchen to grab some water, I looked at the letters Fluttershy had sent me. She had figured out how to send them a year ago. And she told me how I could send them back. I looked at one of the letters, and started to read.

Michael,

It's been over 2 years in Equestria already. I miss you so much. I wish I see you again.

As I have said before, I've had to tell the story of me being in your world over and over, so much I actually forgot some bits. Thanks for that Fanfiction, 'Seeing Yellow'. After I read that, I managed to remember the parts I forgot. I put the Fanfiction in your book, and I have read it a lot. It's so amazing.

I am working with Twilight Sparkle to find a way back into your world. I want to see you again. When I find a way, I will come back to you. I promise.

Your love,

Fluttershy.

I smiled slightly, briefly forgetting the nightmare and my dark thoughts. She really wanted to see me again. What surprised me was that Twilight was helping her. I knew that Twilight was sending these messages from Equestria to here because Fluttershy couldn't use magic because she wasn't a unicorn, but actually helping Fluttershy find a way to this world? I was amazed. Twilight was a lot more generous than Rarity. I looked at all the other letters that Fluttershy had written to me. While other normal people pinned up posters of various things on their walls, I pinned up memories. Letters littered my walls, all of them in the order I had received them in. I walked over and looked at the last letter pinned up. It was the latest one, sent around a week ago.

Michael

Me and Twilight are getting close. We can both feel it. I hope we are right. I hope I can see you again.

Love, Fluttershy.

I knew she shouldn't come back, but my heart overruled my brain on this matter. I really wanted to see her again. I really loved her. More than anything. And her letters said as much about her feelings. She loved me as much, or even more.

However, there was one thing slightly 'bad' about our love. I couldn't love anyone of my own species. I physically couldn't. I emotionally couldn't. My mind wouldn't let me. Not that it was 'bad'. Fluttershy was the only one for me. I don't care that she is not a human, and anyway, I never thought of Fluttershy as an animal. She wasn't just a pony. She was just as complex and interesting and amazing as any human. She is my true love.

I then remembered the nightmare and how sore my throat felt, so I started to walk down the hallway towards the kitchen. As I was walking down to the kitchen, a light appeared in front of me. A light I have seen many times before. Fluttershy was sending me a message. When the light had faded away, a scroll was floating in the air. I grabbed it, and read.

Michael

Next letter will have a surprise enclosed. You'll like it.

Love, Fluttershy.

I read the letter twice more. What was this 'surprise' she was talking about? I think I knew already. Has she found a way back? Possible. I rolled up the note again, and headed to the kitchen. After downing several glasses of water and filling up another one, I went over to the kitchen table. I always kept pens and paper around, so I can answer Fluttershy's letters straight away. I grabbed a pen and some paper, starting to write.

Fluttershy

I think I know what this surprise is. However, whatever it is, I will like it. Say thanks to Twilight from me for helping you with all this, ok?

Love, Michael.

I placed my hand on the letter and spoke a few words. The message disappeared in some white light. It was off to Equestria. I once thought that this spell could transport anything to Equestria, but apparently not. I didn't understand it at all. But there is magic for you. Unknown information. I stretched out my limbs and heard some cracks. I moved my arm a little too far while stretching and knocked my glass off the table. Quick as a flash, my hand moved and caught it instantly. Not a drop was spilled. Magic? No, just good reflexes. I drank the glass of water and placed it in the sink. I walked back down to my bedroom and pulled out the letter from my pocket. I pinned it up, next to the old latest one. I looked around. There were over 150 letters on my walls. Each of them had their own little bit of history behind them. I touched some of the pieces of parchment softly. Fluttershy didn't have to say it, but I knew she was missing me, just as much as I missed her. Why else would she look for over 2 years to find a way back to me? I wondered if she was feeling the same things I was feeling. I wondered if she ever woke up and looked at that empty space next to her. I just hope that that image hadn't made her cry. Fluttershy was just too beautiful for tears to flow down her face.

I couldn't get back to sleep, so I took a shower. It was around 5:00am. After the shower, I lazed around for a while, watching some TV. My life had become really dull since Fluttershy left. Each day with her was interesting. Ever since her departure from my world, I haven't really had much to do. University and work. Those were the only 'interesting' things that happened to me. Well, apart from Fluttershy's letters, the shining lights guiding me within the blackness of my world.

I was wandering around my house when I looked a picture. It was of my family. All of us together, arm in arm, smiling. I sighed and touched the frame. I was the only one left. I had to live on with the memory of that day when my family's life was snuffed out. I knew my family were watching me from afar, and I laughed as I imagined what they thought when I fell in love with a cartoon character. I know my older brother would have laughed himself silly, and my sister would be doing the same. My two younger siblings would be whining as usual, not caring about who I loved. My real concern was what my parents would have thought. I know they are gone, unable to give their thoughts on this matter, but I still cared for what they might of thought. I have no idea what they thought. The cliché saying "They would have wanted you to be happy", was partly true, but happiness doesn't always equal, acceptance.

The day passed quite uneventfully. Morning, noon, night. It passed in a blur. It was 8:04pm when I finally crashed back down on my couch after university and work. My thoughts returned to the letter Fluttershy had sent me. The words of the letter rang through my mind, as if Fluttershy was right next to me saying them, "Next letter will have a surprise enclosed. You'll like it."

I don't exactly know what surprise this may be. But I'm pretty sure it will be Fluttershy returning to me. Pretty sure. Like 82% sure. I decided not to think more about it. I decided to watch something on TV. After flicking through the channels and finding nothing on, I stood up to get a DVD. I grabbed one at random. Looking at it, I saw that it was Supernatural Season 1.

"Meh." I said, opening the case and placing the first disk out of 6 into the DVD player. I started to watch the first episode, 'Route 666'. I knew this episode nearly off by heart. The death of Mary Winchester. The 'White Woman' legend. The quirky humour of Dean. The bond between brothers. Sam coming home to find his girlfriend Jessica on the ceiling. End credits. My brother and I often thought of ourselves as Sam and Dean. I was Sam, the smart college kid. He was Dean, the ladies man and possessor of quirky humour.

As the next episode rolled around, I stopped really watching it. I couldn't keep my mind off Fluttershy. What I wouldn't give to feel her coat again, look into those large aqua eyes, feel the heart racing in her chest as we embraced, feel the softness of her lips as we kissed. I had looked through my spellbook over and over, but nothing in there could send me into a world I hadn't been to. Tears started to form in my eyes. Why had I given her up? Was it really the right thing to do? I knew she didn't belong in my world, but now I could hardly care about that small detail. We needed each other.

When I finally snapped out of my train of remembrance, 2 episodes had passed and it was nearing midnight. I stood up and I was about to turn Supernatural off, but then I realised what episode was next. 'Phantom Traveller'. Oh, hell yes. I loved this episode. Mainly because of Dean's fear of flying was so well acted and portrayed. It was hilarious. So I sat back down to watch.

The episode had barely started however, when a bright light appeared in front of me. Another letter? Already? I paused Supernatural and looked at the light, slowly getting to my feet. Something was different this time. I stood up. The light's intensity grew and I had to look away. Wait a second, I thought. I've done this before. Heaps of times. In my nightmare. If this is... real... then...

Out of the corner of my eye, a saw a figure silhouetted in the light. I couldn't make it out clearly. The light flared, and I covered my eyes. Then the light dimmed, and I looked at the scene. On the ground, slowly getting to her hooves, was a yellow mare, with a long pink mane and tail. I fell backwards, landing on the couch. The newcomer threw something at me with a sweep of their neck. I caught it. It was a scroll, slightly covered in saliva. I opened it up and read the single word:

SURPRISE!