Hidden Depths

It's dark. Not here, far from it. It's actually quite bright. I mean, currently, my mind and... her's... I want this all to end. The whole ordeal. I want life to be back to the way it was years ago. All those years ago. With mother and father... with my friends... with her... with them... with everypony else... and dragon...s...

I can feel it. Her magic. It's keeping me trapped but then again, I deserve it don't I? I deserve to be trapped. She's been trapped far longer. I did it in the heat of the moment, not thinking rationally. I just wanted the immediate threat gone. Was doing what I did worth it? I removed the threat but at the most extreme cost... or rather, costs. My life lost a significant half. It lost what made it worthwhile. It kept its Yin but gladly gave away it's Yang. I was hailed as a hero for it but I despise myself for it. I hate that I'm being loved for it.

Who would willingly cast away their own kin?

I would.

I would willingly cast away my own kin. I would do it without hesitation because I can take it. I can take whatever pain comes with it. I'm the only one who can. Even the filly I taught through the years thinks highly of me, no matter how oblivious she is. She's lived in her own world of happiness; all my little ponies have while I suffered. I deserve it because I'm the one that caused it all. I ostracized my own kin. I took all the attention and love from others and she fell in the end. I hate this. I hate it all. I hate myself.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry for everything I've done. I know you can't hear me but if I ever see you again... the real you or your personified self, I want to hug you. I want to nuzzle you and if you want, you can hit me. You can hit me over and over and over and over and over again. Hit me with your hooves; I want to feel pain by your hand and maybe you can feel a little bit better. If that doesn't work, hurt me with your magic. Heal and hurt. Repeat it. Torture me for as long as you want, just... please come back to me. I don't want this living alone. I hate going to bed to be treated with nightmares and waking up with regret. I hate the job I have to do at night... because it's not mine. It's yours and I just can't do it. I can't make my final product anywhere near the magnificence you give it. I was never a night person but if I was, would things have been different? Would I have understood your argument?

Maybe if we meet, we can start off as bitter bullies. I'll be the victim and you can bug me and annoy me and hurt me when you want. If you were in power, completely able to control the pain I feel at will you'll feel better. Maybe if the hole in your heart is filled, I'll stay here. I'll stay here and you can stay with the ponies and lead them. Maybe you can give the world it's Yang, a Yang they can love.

You're casting a spell right now, I can feel it.

Are you hurting somepony else? Don't do that, please. Don't hurt others because of me.

Are you running away to be alone? Don't do that, please. Don't isolate yourself anymore because of me.

Are you trying to bring me back to hurt me? ... do that, please. Do it to your hearts content.

Or maybe you're just teleporting. Where to? Maybe when I get back, we can talk about it over a cup of tea. You can tell me about your pain and I can soak it  up. I can be the one to make you feel loved. I'll do anything.

I don't know what I'm thinking about right now.

I know she'll succeed. I know she can help unbind you from your sorrow. She's got this power... this unbelievable power... it can do many things. It can teleport her, it can turn ponies into plants, it can hatch eggs, it can make her fly and now, she's learning a new lesson. She's letting something in she hasn't allowed in all of her life. She can do it. I can feel bonds forming. She's slowly accepting this new power. This power is the most powerful magic in the world. It brought the world together, and it's lack of it in our lives tore us apart. It put you at the receiving end of pain. It can make music out of silence, colour out of black and white. It can and will defy all sorrow. It can defeat anything that comes in it's way.

Because Friendship is Magic.

And she can reunite us. She can make us whole. She can return the shadow to the light. She can save you from the very thing I couldn't. She can save you from loneliness. She can make you feel loved. She can, she will, and she is.

I can feel it; that's how I know she is. The Elements of Harmony. Their magic is resonating and is cooperating with each other. You... you're scared right now. You remember this sensation but... she won't. She won't do it to you again.

The Magic of Friendship vs. The Curse of Hatred. We both know which is stronger and we both know what is the better of the two. For Friendship to exist, hate is a necessity in this world. The perfect world is one with goods and bads.

Your dark magic is gone. It worked. I can do what I want and... I hear them.

“Ugh, my head...”

“Everypony okay?”

“Ooh, thank goodness!”

“Why Rarity, it's so lovely...”

“I know! I'll never part with it again!”

“No, your necklace. It looks just like your Cutie Mark.”

“Oh!? So does yours.”

“Look at mine, look at mine!”

“Aww yeah!”

“Gee Twilight, ah thought you were just spoutin' a lot a hooey, but ah reckon we really do represent the elements of friendship.”

I'm glad. I'm so glad my star student has made friends. I can't stay here. I must return to ensure the balance is there and to make amends.

“Indeed you do...” I said, activating my magic; the sun raising as I broke the weakened spell on myself.

The day returned, the moon dropped down and I could feel myself move. I could feel the air changing from it's room temperature to a much more chilled temperature. Morning temperature. The light disappeared, and there she was.

“Ah!? Princess Celestia!” Twilight Sparkle said as she trotted over to me, bearing the tiara of the Element of Magic.

“Twilight Sparkle, my faithful student. I knew you could do it.” I smiled down at the small lavender pony who looked back with a look of confusion.

“But, you told me it was all an old pony tale...?” she replied.

I smiled even more at this.

“I told you that you needed to make some friends, nothing more.” I looked at her friends, seeing them all open their eyes and stop bowing; each bear the Elements of Harmony Necklaces. “I saw the signs of Nightmare Moon's return and I knew it was you who had the magic inside to defeat her.” I looked back down at her. “But you could not unleash it until you let true friendship into your heart.” I stopped smiling as I looked across the old, ruined throne room.

I spotted somepony I haven't seen in over 1,000 years. The kin I willingly shoved away in favour of “peace”. I have suffered, but she has suffered more. I trotted over to her, my heart pounding with every step. The sounds of the rest of the world vanished. The blood in my body rushed, my heart's pounding increased every step I took. I've waited years to see her again. I can't lose my composure, I need to ask for forgiveness, beg if I must.

“If only another will as well.”

I am so sorry. I love you, my dear sister Luna. Will you forgive me?

**Author's Note:* So, yeah. Princess Celestia. If anybody wants, I can do a request. Name a character, name an episode or if you ask permission or you're willing, name the fanfic and chapter and I could do my own take of what a character felt like during the event.*

Thanks, Mr. Masato/Arby Works/Hunter-the-hedgehog.

Be sure to check out the Apple Spectrum and the stories of my editor for the Apple Spectrum, Civille/Bellum_Civille, especially the Pinkie-verse and Old Friends.[/i