[Classic] The Scootaloo Diaries

Rainbow yawned and stretched her hooves out as she prepared to read the next entry. She was getting pretty tired but could't resist reading about that particular day. With another yawn, she wiped her tired eyes and read on.

Today was the best day ever, well it was great but it had its downs too. I got to leave the hospital this morning, but that wasn't the best part. I was still really glad to get away from their stupid physical therapy. There were a few times that I was pretty close to just walking out on my own, but then they'd pull my wing and make me stretch it and that crap hurt. Anyway, my time there in between the agony gave me a chance to think about some things. I really needed to talk to Cheerilee about what she did to Silver Spoon. At least Silver seemed to be dealing with it pretty well, and she still loved me, which was another issue on its own.

First and foremost, I needed to make sure Cheerilee wasn't about to do anything that crazy again. I headed straight to her house after I left the hospital. I felt confident at first, but nervousness began to sink in as I approached the door. I knocked and stood still for a while, then she slowly opened the door. I was greeted with a wall of stench and a halfhearted hug.

"Mmm, Scoolaloot, I missed you soooo much." She slurred her words and started using me to balance.

I pushed her inside and shut the door behind myself. I'm not sure if I was more angry or disappointed. I trotted up to her and smacked the half empty bottle out of her hooves. I spend days in the hospital, she hardly visits, and this is how I see her when I'm finally out?!

"What the hay do you think you're doing like this?!" I couldn't help but yell at her.

"I'm so sorry Scoo, I saw the, read the... I just needed to..." I waited but she couldn't be bothered to finish her sentence.

"Needed to what?!" I shouted, she wasn't making any sense.

She just groaned and pressed her face into the couch cushion, then started crying. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down. I sat down on the couch and put my hoof on her head, stroking her mane.

"Shh, it's alright. I'm sorry I yelled at you." It almost felt like I was talking to a little foal, it was pretty pathetic.

She leaned up and kissed my leg, then pointed towards her bedroom. "I got your stuff, your thing, your things for you."

I patted her on the head and immediately questioned myself as to why I'd do that, then trotted into her room. A pile of stuff was sitting in front of her dresser, I noticed all of it piled up and on the dresser was my diary. Then it hit me, she must have read it and that's why she was so depressed right now. I flipped through it, the pages were all messed up but everything in it was still completely legible.

I left it there and trotted back to her. I lifted her up and let her rest on my good wing to help walk her to her bedroom. I helped push her into bed and covered her up. She was in no condition to talk about this right now so I figured I'd let her sleep it off. After I tucked her in I headed through her pantry and cupboards to get rid of all her drinks. I decided to use some of the hold I had on her for a change. If I owned her, then she'd have no choice but to listen to me, and I didn't want her drinking anymore.

Next I figured I should head over to Silver Spoon's and check in on her, make sure she's still doing okay and everything. Cheerilee was being a total piece of crap right now but I know she's a better pony than that. She's just dealing with a lot, especially if she read this diary. It was going to be hard, but at least we were both on the same page now... So to speak.

I knocked on Silver's door, she was really quick to answer, almost like she was expecting me. As soon as the door opened, I got pushed backwards by a powerful hug. She started kissing me on the cheeks and told me how much she missed me.

"Come on come on, lets go inside." I followed her as she happily trotted upstairs and into her room.

She kept looking back and smiling, her tail was cheerfully flipping back and forth as she cantered. This was nice, this was what a greeting after I got out of the hospital should feel like. I was happy to be there, and felt welcomed. Silver Spoon was a good friend, not only that, she was a good marefriend. I hate that I wrote that, Cheerilee has been good to me too, she gave me a place to live, and she's been taking care of me all this time. I'd freak out too if I read her diary and found out she had been cheating on me this whole time. I can't really blame her for what happened, but it seems like she forgave me for it.

Silver pulled me onto her bed and laid me down on my back. She laid on her side and placed her hoof on my hurt wing. The tip of her hoof gently rubbed around the healing wound and she put on a worried expression.

"Feeling better?" Her concern was cute.

"Ouch!" I shouted to scare her and it worked. She jumped back and her eyes widened beyond belief.

"I'm so sorry Scootaloo, I didn't mean to!" I started laughing.

"You're too easy Silver Spoon." She let out a sigh and blushed.

Then she hit me in my other wing. "Ouch! That really did hurt."

"Good, it was supposed to!" I guess I deserved that.

"I really missed you too, being alone in the hospital sucked. Being away from you was the hardest part of it all." Part of that was true, I really did miss her, but I couldn't really say for sure what the hardest part was.

She put on a warm and gentle smile, it was really nice and relaxing to look at. Her smile was probably the prettiest I'd ever seen. The sunlight was warm and shining through the window, brightening her already bright purple eyes. She started to lean in, inviting me to kiss her. I couldn't resist, I really wanted to. It felt like our first kiss all over again when our lips touched. This amazing little mare was always quick to remind me that I was in love with her, even when I'm still so certain that Cheerilee's the one for me.

"I love you Silver Spoon." I needed to let her know, even though it felt so wrong to say it.

"I love you too." She smiled and flicked the mane out of my face.

"I have to go, there are a few things I need to take care of at home. I'll see you soon okay?" She quickly frowned.

"Can I come too?" I felt bad, but I couldn't let her.

"No, I need to do this alone, I can't really explain." That would have to satisfy her. I stood up and gave her another kiss before leaving.

She followed me to the front door and gave me another before I headed out. I don't even know why I decided to go back there. Cheerilee had already gotten my things, I guess I just wanted to see for myself. On my way across town, I noticed a lot of fallen branches and other debris piled up along the road. The town was still a mess after that storm.

My house came into view, well, what was left of it anyway. The back wall was still standing and there was caution tape surrounding it. 'Do Not Cross', yeah right. I crossed under it and started going through the piles of wood and all my old belongings. I found a broken picture frame, inside was a soaked photo of me and my mom. I looked really stupid with my mane brushed to one side and a crooked smile on my face. She looked okay, she was smiling at least. Even if it was fake, it was probably one of the last ones she got to experience. We were standing in front of this house, my dad took the picture. This was starting to bring back memories I didn't feel like remembering.

I dropped it and turned to head back into town. "Hey! No crossing the tape!"

I froze and cringed, I thought I was going to be in some kind of trouble. Then she chuckled.

"Heh, you're too easy Scoot." Rainbow Dash came fluttering down from a cloudtop and trotted under the tape with me.

"I hate you, so what are you doing here anyway?" I regretted saying that I hated her, but it was done, might as well play it cool.

"You weren't at the hospital and I figured I'd be able to find you here." I couldn't believe she wanted to see me out of the hospital.

"Yeah, so, what's up?" My heart was racing with excitement, but I knew I had to stay cool so she'd like me.

"I just figured we could hang out for a while, and if you need a place to stay just let me know. I have plenty of room." Living with Rainbow Dash everyday... I don't know if I'd love that or lose my mind. I'd probably drive myself crazy trying to make sure I didn't disappoint her in some way.

"So what do you want me to do? I mean, us to. Us to do, that is." I smacked my face with my hoof, why do I always stumble over my words when I'm around her?!

She laughed again and said that she had something to show me. We left the house, turned down a small road and trotted off towards the edge of town. Then she pointed to the sky with a hoof.

"See that? That's my house. I almost never use it, but if you ever need it just let me know and I'll fly you up there." I wanted her to fly me up there just so I could know what it felt like.

"Take me up there now, just so I can check it out." I put on my biggest smile, hoping it would encourage her.

"Sure thing kiddo." She grabbed onto me and took off.

The house seemed a lot closer than it really was, it took a long time to get here. I loved the way it felt though, a new and amazing experience being shared with the one pony in the world I'd want to share it with. I closed my eyes and fluffed my wings while she carried me into the sky. The wind rushed through my coat and mane while we flew, and I could feel her warmth on my back. Her hooves held me tight, but it didn't hurt, everything was just perfect. Flying was an awesome experience, even if I wasn't technically flying. I'd imagined what it would feel like so many times, I'd even tried to compare it to ramping with my scooter, but nothing I'd ever tried before even came close. I spread my front hooves far apart and felt the rush of air flowing across my chest.

I never wanted this flight to end, but it did. She dropped me onto the cloud porch and led the way inside. I felt dizzy, the rush of flying with her like that still lingered and I couldn't get my balance. The cloud was soft and cushy, I wasn't used to walking on it. I bet I looked funny hopping along through the doorway and into the small house. It was pretty much empty in there, a few pieces of furniture and fixtures lined the walls. Other than that it seemed pretty much abandoned.

"Welcome to my home Scoot." Not much of a home.

She walked over behind the front door to see a pile of mail. There were a few letters, but one stood out. It was dated for today and addressed from Cloudsdale Weather Factory. She gave me a funny look and opened it up. Her eyes scanned over the paper inside several times, clearly reading and rereading to make sure she was reading it correctly. I could tell it was bad news by the look on her face, but I had nothing to say.

"Looks like I'm in trouble." She grinned and scratched the back of her head.

"The tornado?" That seemed obvious enough, I don't know why I asked.

"Yup, they want to see me immediately. I think I'll pass on that for a while, so, what should we do today? Wanna hang out?" Uh, duh. I wanted to fall over backwards, but didn't.

"Yeah sure, we can do whatever you want Dash." I felt myself smiling way too widely for comfort, but I couldn't control it.

"So... wanna... um..." She was looking around, apparently there wasn't much to do around here. Who am I kidding, there wasn't much to do anywhere.

I just shrugged.

"Well what do you wanna do?" Honestly, the only thing on my mind was flying, I wanted her to fly me everywhere all day.

I wasn't sure if she'd like that, but it was worth a try. "Maybe you can fly me somewhere. Anywhere would be cool, I just want to fly again. I loved it."

She sank down a bit and sighed. Her smile seemed really warm and comforting, her eyes were half-closed and relaxed-looking too. I wonder what was on her mind.

"Sure, I'd like that too." She trotted out the front door and signaled me to follow.

When I made it out there she picked me up and took flight. She soared straight up and I felt all the same feelings as before, it was just amazing.

She leveled out and we glided over Ponyville, I could see all the treetops and roofs beneath us. I thought I should feel scared, but I didn't, it all felt so natural, like I belonged in the sky. We flew for what felt like hours, even though it was probably only a few minutes. I loved the way it felt when she made a sharp turn, I'd close my eyes every time and enjoy the butterflies in my stomach that followed. I wished we could fly together forever.

Eventually, she landed. We were both resting atop a small cloud. It was getting pretty late in the afternoon, the sun was starting to set. The sky was turning orange and Sweet Apple Acres was silhouetted in the distance. It was a nice view, but it was a lot nicer to be sharing it with her. She was breathing a little faster than normal, I guess she was out of breath.

"You okay there Dash?"

"Yeah, I'm just not used to carrying someone for such a long time." I felt like something was a bit off. It seemed like she was breathing faster and faster the longer we sat there.

I didn't want to pry, but I hoped she was alright. "So what's on your mind?"

"Nothin', you?" I took a minute to actually thing of something to say instead of just replying with a pointless answer like she did.

The first thing that came into my head was my situation with Cheerilee. I really wasn't sure what to do with her, I mean, first she attacks Silver, now she's drunk off her plot. I know I love her, but I just don't know how to handle this. I really don't want Silver Spoon to be in danger of getting hurt again, especially now that Cheerilee read my diary. Basically, I needed to tell someone about Cheerilee so she can get the mental help she clearly needs, or I needed to try and help her myself. Those were really the only two options I had, there was no way I was about to leave her on her own.

The problem with the first option was that she'd lose her job, probably get put in jail, and I'd never see her again. The problem with the next option was that I'd probably fail miserably if I tried to help her at all, she'd probably get more drink, and maybe even try to hurt another pony again. Even so, I can't stand the thought of being away from her forever. My heart aches every time I think about that, about her being locked away, especially since it'd be my fault for telling.

This was it, I needed advice. "So, Rainbow. I wanted to ask you something pretty personal, but very hypothetical."

"Um, okay?"

"So I have this friend." I felt like facehoofing for opening with such a generic line, "She has an older marefriend, one that's way too old for her, but they still seem to get along really well and they're probably in love. But that same friend has another friend who she loves in a weirder different way. The older marefriend has a lot of issues to work though and she even beat up the younger friend for spending too much time with... my friend." I knew I was going about this the wrong way, but my stupid mouth wouldn't shut up.

"Um, well... I'm not sure what you're asking me." I couldn't blame her, I wasn't even sure what I was asking to begin with.

"What should my friend do? Her older marefriend is hurting herself by drinking all the time and overreacting. Her other friend that she really likes or loves is going to get hurt too because she won't break it off with her and be faithful to the older marefriend. Also the older marefriend read my friend's diary and knows about the affair, which put her into some kind of depression and I don't know what to do. To do about my friend, to help her with it." I was getting nowhere with this.

"Well, I say that your friend should mare up and stop being such a two faced little hayseed. If she loves her older marefriend then she needs to stay loyal to her. Why would she string her other friend along anyway, what kind of friends do you have? Is it Sweetie Belle? Because I'll teach her a lesson."

"It's not Sweetie, Dash. And thanks, I think you helped my friend out a lot just now." I guess she was right, I needed to break it off once and for all with Silver Spoon. That was much easier said than done.

"Well that's good then. Hey, I need to get going okay? I have a date tonight. We'll hang out again tomorrow, right?" I hated the thought of her leaving me, but she had her own stuff to do. I understood.

"Yeah, anytime you want Dash. Just let me know and I'll drop everything." I bet I sounded desperate, was I? I don't even know, all I did know was that I wanted her around.

She flew me to the ground and made sure that I had a place to stay. I told her like a million times that I did, but she still seemed skeptical as she flew off. Then it was all gone. All that happiness and those feelings of bliss and comfort went flying out of reach when she did. I was left with an empty pit in my stomach and a heavy heart. I stared down the road and saw the side street that led to Cheerilee's house. I considered seeing Silver Spoon first, but it was getting late and her dad didn't really like me being there after dark.

I stared down the road a bit longer and felt some kind of sickness in my stomach. The thoughts that filled my mind sickened me, it was a terrible feeling, going from being so happy to this. I wish Cheerilee could be strong for me the way Dash was. It was a breath of fresh air, being able to be carried. Be it literally or not, it was a nice change for me not to be the one doing the carrying. I figured I had to be the strong one now, and Dash would be proud if she knew just how strong I was. I hope the advice she gave me works out, I hope Cheerilee is worth it.

So I headed down the road and trotted up to the door. I raised my hoof to knock, but I decided to just let myself in instead. She was laying on the couch staring at nothing.

"Oh hey there Scootaloo. You're home." Those words really affected me that night. You're home... you're home... I couldn't stop thinking it. Was this really my home?

Maybe Rainbow was right. I know I love Cheerilee, and I need to love her for who she is. Everypony has problems, she's no exception, and I know with me by her side she'll be able to go back to the way she was. The good old cheerful Cheerilee I fell for. She actually seemed better already.

"Yeah, sorry I didn't come back sooner, I went back to see my place and Rainbow Dash saw me there." I don't know how she'll take that, but I can't keep secrets anymore.

"Oh, that's lovely."

I figured the sooner I got this over with, the better. "So, you read my diary. We really need to talk about that."

She rolled over onto her back. "What's there to talk about, hmm Scootaloo? You can do whatever you want whenever you want, and use me as you will. I'm yours, and you can do what you want with me. I won't stop you if you want to go out and play with your friends."

I wasn't sure how to take that at first. I felt really awkward, this was definitely not the kind of relationship I wanted with her. "Look Cheerilee, enough with the owning you crap. That's ridiculous, and I'd never do anything to hurt you on purpose. I'm really sorry about Silver Spoon, I messed up there okay? You messed up too when you hit her, we all mess up, it's just pony nature. The point is, I love you, and I want us to have a real relationship together." I really hoped I was getting though to her.

"You do?" She leaned up and looked at me with an off smile.

"Yes, I do love you, and I do want a real relationship with you. I want us to be happy together, and I want you to be the way you used to be. I hate seeing you all depressed like this." I bit my tongue and forced myself not to cry, I don't even know why I wanted to.

"I'm sorry, I know I've been bad lately, you deserve better." I just rolled my eyes, I was done and wasn't about to throw a pity party.

"Yeah well get up and let me help you through this. I think I have a way to take your mind off those troubles." I winked and nudged her off the couch, guiding her towards the bedroom.

I'll admit, I didn't really feel like sex, but I figured it would relax us both and probably open a window for a little much needed communication.

So we headed off into the bedroom and...

Rainbow looked up and away, feeling more guilty than ever. Whether or not Scootaloo and Cheerilee being together was the right thing, it felt right to her after this entry. Sure, Cheerilee was pretty messed up, but who was she to judge? She, like everypony else, had made her fair share of bad choices. So long as Scootaloo was still happy, she was worth her time.

The sun was beginning to rise, turning the sky a deep and slowly brightening blue. Twilight would be waking up soon, and Rainbow had been up all night. She decided it'd probably be best to try and get some sleep.

She had big plans for the day to come.