Chapter 1

Emptiness…

If you've never felt it you cannot know it.

The hollow feeling that never lets you go, it is always there, eating you from the inside out, it haunts me in my dreams, it will never let go until I am a dead husk.

Some compare it with depression.

Others compare it with starvation.

How foolish.

If depression is a raging stream of water that pushes you to the ground, than this is like the moon is beating you into your grave.

If starvation is like being eaten from the inside out, than this is like a black hole that erases you from time and space itself.

I have felt both before and they are nothing like this.

Emptiness…

Only right now I realized how fitting that term is.

It is my curse and there is only one way to lift it.

Love

Oh! How I hate that word that is used to describe the very thing that keeps the world in motion. No matter where you go or where you watch it is the core to everything, a male that loves his mate and expresses his love through his body, a child that loves his parents for a toy it got for its birthday, the pet that gets a bowl of food every day loves his owner for that basic little gift, even in mating season the love that is expressed between the animals for this short time is strong enough to feed us for days.

It is so easy, we just need so little to survive just that little gift, that little gesture so that we can have the only thing we ever wanted. That one thing that I was looking after for eons, a place to live to see our children play outside a place where we can get old to be alive, to be free from this emptiness just for one second, was it really that much to ask for?

At first we tried to live with the Griffins.

That didn't end well. We were seen as animals, hunted before we could even make it clear that we were sentient beings.

After that horrible failure we went over the sea and after a long, tiring travel arrived at the Minotaur lands.

At first it worked quite well if you look at our last try, We could speak with the Chieftain and start our hive. After a month things started to go downhill, to be exact the war started when they found out what we eat, they reacted as if we spat at their holy ground, they tried to drive us away but we tasted how it was to have a home.

So we fought for the only little light we had ever seen. Oh, and how we fought, you think a minotaur can easy win over a Changeling? HA!

A monster that is driven into a corner can become so much more dangerous.

Monsters, that was what we were called, unholy monsters compared to necromantic beasts.

Why?

Because of our diet.

These fools have never seen Discords army of undead that wiped our world from existence and still they compared us to them.

Funny that is how we actually came to be, being driven from our home world that is now so twisted that the spirit of chaos himself got bored with it. We barely escaped as my mother used all of her magical power at once, this ended in her death but allowed us to escape.

At the end it was no use, we were not enough while their numbers were rising every day and so we had to leave again.

I was holding a little child while we walked, it was barely a year old but its parents died while protecting me, it was the last service i could do for them after they lost their lives for me.

After 5 days it starved.

Destroyed, hopeless, starved and with no place to go we had to leave again, and again, and again...

We have been nearly everywhere, in so many corners of the world, looking for a place to stay. A home but no matter where we went, the emptiness remained.

Then it happened, after countless centuries of suffering we had found hope, one of us found a reptile race in the jungle that could change its color depending on the surroundings.

After long periods of research we could use our body's magic to shape shift to look like another race.

We found a way to get love without causing trouble and survive, we had a chance.

Our hopes were so high.

The love we got was close to nothing, barely enough to survive and tasted like rotten bread.

But we survived.

We had resources, the emptiness did not fade away but we had something, we could rebuild.

We used the last bit of survival instinct to keep us alive with the gaping hole we had inside of us and after a while of searching we found a place where no living being could survive, no living being beside us, we praised our ancestors and started to build our home in the Badlands.

It took us one hundred and fifty years but we did it we had a place to live, we were tired and hungry but we had hope, now that we had a way to survive we had something we had lost since the minotaur lands.

Hope…

Only to be shattered again, the fake love we were collecting sustained us but we could not feed our children with it. It made no difference how we tried not one child made it into its teen years.

We had to act fast and we were lucky, we found another intelligent race not far away from our land. Time was short but we could not act recklessly so I used my abilities at best to spy at them and find a way to enter their society and form an alliance, to ask for help.

We had so much in common from society, structure to lifestyle and even a more or less the same body shape, and the most important part, they had a Queen that cared for her children.

After some time I decided that this was not a political question, we had to win the heart of her subjects and we had to act fast, so I decided to spy on the queens personal child, she had to be an example for her society so the best way to find out about them was her.

She was so good hearted and pure it seemed her mother had sent her to her citizens to learn about her subjects so she could learn to lead them. She would be a good child to her mother and good queen to her children one day, she had only to follow her heart and trust in her friends.

I continued to watch her and was close to decide that I should directly approach them.

Until that one day, they were all happy and followed their normal lives in town, than that zebra came.

They were scared out of their skin, I could not believe it, they were so good hearted and still the moment they saw that zebra they started to fear her, stayed many blocks away, and locked all doors and windows.

There was no way to establish a relationship fast enough judging the reaction of the whole towns.

I was so angry, so disappointed, so hopeless, and looking back that was most likely the moment I went insane.

If I could not get their love by kindness and caring I could take them by force, that was what I thought.

It was a perfect plan, they had some form of social gathering celebrating some sort of binding between male and female. All important powers they had where together and we could strike in one swift motion.

Only when I was standing on their balcony praising myself and my hive I realized what I had done.

When I watched my children hunt them in the streets… there was no love, just cold hatred and fear.

How could I be so foolish and expect love coming from that useless attack.

The second I got my sanity back I tried to turn back, repair the damage, maybe there was still a way for peace, I tried to do something, anything.

Only to get a wall to the face.

They used the ten seconds I needed to regain my sanity for some sort of last line of defence.

This defence has taught me that I can survive a high speed crash into stone.

Now while i lie on my back in most likely my grave I have so much time to think about what I have done right and wrong. About emptiness and about that one cursed thing that I could never get for my children, the thing we needed the most.

Love

Oh! How I hate that word.

Please forgive me my children, I was not enough.

There is only one last thing for me to do before I go the last way.

Please forgive me Student of the sun. My last breath will be your curse, and my hope.

My name is Queen Chrysalis and with my last breath I place the Last Order on Twilight Sparkle!

Author's Note

Big thank you to my editor SLENDER-MAN