I'm Still Me

by Redbook

Rating: teen
Tags: Romance, Princess Luna, Comedy, Princess Celestia, Twilight Sparkle, Anthro, Main 6, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Alternate Universe
Length: 3318

Dusk Shine's hidden hearts desire shows it's self in a dream. Now he must test to see if can last in real life.

Dusk just finish reading a romance novel. It allowed his heart to show it's deeps feelings in his dream. The events from the dream has Dusk thinking and he will test. What will the test prove to him and will the others still expect him for what he wants to be?

The art belongs to ss2sonic

Published 2013-11-19 00:00:05 UTC
Last updated 2014-04-17 12:19:41 UTC

Chapter One

Will we still be friends?

Even if you know the truth?

I’m still me.

The rays of the early morning light shone through the large window in the reading room of the Golden Oak Library. The local librarian stallion was sitting in his chair with his legs folded under him, he grabbed the edge of the page between his thumb and forefinger as he read the last few words on the page.

He was really enjoying the book, it was a little romance novel about Lord Solaris and his student, a mare of unknown name, that he found in the library. He had locked the door and was now on the last chapter.

Knock Knock Knock

He let out a meep and threw the book in the air. It spun around and around. Acting quickly, he lit his horn and caught the book and sent it under his chair. Rushing over to the door he opened it to find Barbara standing there, hands on her hips and a foot tapping away.

“Are you reading my romance novels again?” Dusk cheeks flushed red and he looked everywhere but at Barbara.

“I… I don’t know what you are talking about Barb.” This elected a sigh from the young dragoness.

“Dusk, I don’t know why you won’t admit that you like them. And ‘Solaris and the Lovely Student’ is one of the best ones we have.” Her eyes glazed over with a dreamy look. “Oh how I wish that I could be as lucky as that mare with Elusive.”

He waved his hands in front of her and even tried snapping his fingers. Barb’s cheeks turned bright red and she rushed down to her room to hide. Dusk just blinked and slowly backed into the room. He just decided to go back to reading the book.

Dusk sat back in the chair and pulled the book back out and started to pick up where he left off. His eyes slowly shut as he drifted off to sleep, as the rest of his body slid down the chair. The sound of a snoring stallion was the only thing coming from the room.

Dusk slowly opened his eyes and found himself in a room similar to his bedroom. He had to blink a few times to make sure what he was seeing was true. Before him stood a mirror and in that mirror was a reflection of a young mare that looked similar to him if he was a mare. He couldn’t believe what he was seeing, the mare that was looking back at him was really cute. Her mane was long and silky smooth, she was just a little shorter than he was, she was very curvy in all the right areas, and she had the warmest smile.

He looked down and saw that it wasn’t a trick of the mirror, he was now a she. She didn’t have long to dwell on what was happening. There was a light knocking on the door of the room. Feeling that it would be rude not to open the door for the pony on the other side, no matter how much she wasn’t her usual male self.

On the other side of the door was the one pony he never thought he would see, Elusive. He was standing there in a nice black suit that stood out against his white fur. Dusk could feel her heart picking up speed, she didn’t know what was happening to her. Elusive smiled at her and the blood rushed to her face and caused her to blush madly.

“Ah, you look lovely my dear. I hope you are ready for our date.” She just nodded her head and followed him out. The world around her grew brighter and brighter as she walked alongside him.

Dusk slowly blinked as the midday sunlight shone brightly into his eyes. He jumped up from his chair as fast as he could and started to give himself a pat down like no other. Dusk was making sure that he was still a stallion. Once everything came back as clear, he let out a sigh of relief.

Falling back into the chair, his mind started to work out what the dream meant. That was the curse of having a mind like his, it wants to understand everything. The first thing his mind went to was the fact that he was the mare in the dream and not a stallion. It was odd, he never dreamt that he was a mare before.

The next thing he couldn’t understand was why Elusive was there. Thinking about him from the dream was enough to make his heart race like it did in the dream. One troubling thing to Dusk was that he really liked what was happening in the dream and he it felt right to be that mare.

The dream felt so right for him, it felt more real than his real life. Dusk’s mind was stuck in this loop of conflicted thoughts about feeling right to be a mare and the feelings he felt for Elusive in the dream. His mind stopped when it came to an idea on how to test if any of this held any truth in the real life. He was told that sometimes it showed what the heart wanted deep down, even if the pony didn’t know it.

The only way he could test any of this was by first changing himself from a stallion to a mare. It wasn’t like it was the most easiest thing to do, but it was what his mind told him that would put to rest any feelings or thoughts he had about the dream.

Dusk’s cutie mark is about magic, which in turn told that he is very good at it. He had learnt all kinds of spells. Some of which he used on a daily basis, all because they made running the library easier. Then there were some spells that he kept in the back of his mind just in case he needed them or just for the fun of learning them.

The spell he was going to cast was the gender switch. The spell would be permanent till the user casted the spell again. The spell did more than just change how you look on the outside, it changed you inside and out. You would be mare or stallion in every way. There was one little catch to casting this spell, it took a lot of magic to cast it and it would take a few days for all your magic to return.

He stayed in the chair, Dusk heard that sometimes casting a spells like this would take a lot out of a pony and they would fall to the ground. Closing his eyes and focusing all the magic he could muster into his horn, the spell started to cascade down over his body and it started to tingle.

The tingling faded and pain gripped his insides. Dusk fell from the chair holding his sides as he felt his body starting to change. The pain was becoming too much for him to bear, he could feel bones change and organs moving around. It felt like a lifetime had passed before the pain stopped.

There was a sound of someone banging on the door. Dusk slowly got to his feet and walked to the door. He guessed that he must have screamed loud enough to have Barbara pounding the door down. He slowly opened the door and gave a weak smile to the worried dragoness. “I’m sorry, Barb. I didn’t mean to cause you any trouble.”

Barbara just looked him up and down with her mouth hanging open. “Dusk? Is that you?”

“Of course it’s me. Who else would it be?”

“I don’t know, some crazy mare breaking into the library?”

“Did you say mare?” Barbara nodded and that sent Dusk running past her and into the guest bathroom. In the mirror stood the mare from the dream. She couldn’t believe how well the spell worked. She couldn’t take her eyes off the mirror.

“Dusk, what did you do this time?”

“I’m testing something from a dream I had.” She couldn’t look away from the mirror. Dusk got to thinking, her old name didn’t seem to fit with her new look. “Barb, what do you think of me changing my name while I have this look?”

“I think Dusk Shine is not the best mare name that I have heard of.” She started to tap a finger to her chin and grin. “How about Twilight Sparkle? Sounds similar to your old name, just more mare-like.”

“I like it, it fits this body.” She looked in the mirror once more and smiled. It felt so wrong to even think she was born, a stallion. Was that dream right, was he meant to be a mare? “Twilight Sparkle...”

Author's Note

I want to thank Alec Cage and The Shadow for their help editing.

Chapter Two

Solaris’s sun slowly sank below the horizon and Artemis’s moon rose to take its place. Laying in bed was Dusk Shine or use to be him and now lays Twilight Sparkle. She held one of her hands in the air and just stared at it. It was amazing just how smaller her hands were now. “I’m going to need new gloves once winter comes around.”

She let out a yawn and started to wonder what time it was, and she wasn’t at all surprised that it was a little after midnight. Seeing as she was going to have her first lesson with Barbara later about some of the do’s and don’ts of being female, Twilight let out a giggle because she love learning something new. Her thoughts fluttered, as she wondered how Barb would teach the lesson.Twilight didn’t know how she was ever going to fall asleep, but the warmth of the blankets was just enough to lull her to sleep.

The sun was shining high in the sky when the young mare woke to the light shining on her face. She mumbled something under her breath before she rolled to move her face out of the bright sun’s light. Just as she was about to fall back into the peaceful embrace of sleep, the warm blankets were ripped away and the chill of the air hit her.

“Dusk… I mean Twilight, why are you still in bed? It’s almost noon, for Solaris’ shake.” Barb didn’t sound too happy about her sleeping in, but Twilight didn’t want to get up so she tossed out her hand trying to feel for the blankets. As her hand was patted down anything within reach, the dragoness let out a long sigh.

“I don’t want to get up, Mommy.” Twilight whined.

“You are going to get up so I can give my lessons.” Barb had said the magic words to get Twilight out of bed and rushing to get dress. Barb just stood there and waited for the mad rush to calm down. It wasn’t a long wait before Twilight was standing in front of Barb panting a bit as she grinned at the young dragoness, but soon, that grin was gone and she was rushing back to the bathroom. The door slam shut and it wasn’t long before a meep was heard.

“Ahh, Barb? I think we may need to start our lessons right away.” Barb hand went straight to her face. She couldn’t believe Twilight didn’t know about some of the basics of being a mare before changing into one. This was going to be a long day.

“I can’t believe I’m doing this,” Barb took a deep breath. “I hope you know the basics of taking your pants and underwear down. Once that is done, you sit with the seat down. If you don’t, you will fall in.” That was when she heard a splash and a loud eep.

“Maybe you should have said that before the whole thing about pulling down pants and underwear. So what do I do now?”

Barb rolled her eyes before she spoke. “Well, you know... Just sit down and let things happen.” There was a long pause before the sound of tinkling and a big sigh. Then came the sound of the toilet. Barb knocked on the door. “You might want to take a shower now.”

“Okay, you better be ready to teach me more about being a mare when I’m done.”

“I will, just get in the shower.” Barb walked away from the door as she heard the water in the shower kick on. The only thing Barb could think of teaching Twilight was the basics; how to put a bar on, how to act around stallions, how to dress, and about that time of the month. An evil smirk came to her face as the thought dawned on her. She might not tell Twilight about that time of the month.

After a few minutes the door to the bathroom open and out walked Twilight in a bathrobe and towel wrapped around her mane. “Wow, that felt so good. I should have turn myself into a mare a long time ago. Oh, sorry but I borrowed your bathrobe.” Barb just rolled her eyes.

“I guess it’s okay. Just put it in the laundry room after I show you how to dress.” Barb grabbed Twilight by the arm and walked her to her room. Twilight meeped and followed Barb. She was eager to try on different clothes, but also scared about it at the same time.

Twilight eyes grew wide when Barb open the closet. The amount of clothes just blew her mind. She had no idea anyone could have that much clothes. “When did you get all of these?” Twilight took a few steps closer to the closet. Barb just grinned.

“It took a while, but my allowance does add up,” Barb stood aside and motioned for Twilight to start picking out an outfit. “Have at it. I bought a few things in different sizes just in case a friend needed a quick outfit change, so there should be something that fits you in it.”

Twilight took a few steps closer to the hoard of clothes. One of her hands slowly reach out and felt one of the dress and gasped at how nice it felt. She pulled it out long black dress that was a little lacy at the top. The dress didn’t stay in her hands for long before Barb pulled it away and put it back in the closet.

“Mmmm, sorry, but that dress is for Elusive.” Barb’s cheeks glowed a bright pink. Twilight made gagging sounds, earning herself a light punch in the shoulder.

“Has he asked you out yet?” Twilight wanted to know if Elusive ever got the guts to ask Barb out. She knew that he had feelings for Barb and she had feelings for him, but both of them had made her promise not to tell the other about their feelings. Twilight was broken out of her thought by a loud squeal. Barb was jumping up and down with a big smile on her face.

“He did. This friday, he is taking me out to this nice place in town. I can’t wait.” Barb’s smile warmed Twilight’s heart. She was really glad her little sister finally got a date with the stallion she has been after for long time.

“Just make sure you are home by a reasonable time,” Twilight give Barb a quick hug as the young dragoness rolled her eyes. “Now back to finding me something to wear. I think you should pick for me. You have been a female a lot longer than me so you know more about what females would wear.” Barb just sighed and started to digging around in the closet for a bit before she pulled out a pair of skinny jeans and a simple tank top.

“This should do for right now till we can go to a clothing shop or see if Elusive can make you something,” Barb threw the clothes at Twilight and she fumble trying to catch them. “I’ll be downstairs waiting.” With that the door was shut as Barb left the room.

Twilight looked down at the pair of skinny jeans like they were some kind weird alien clothing. After a few minutes of trying to get the jeans pulled up, she now faced the hardest part of wearing skinny jeans, buttoning them up and zipping up the fly. After all of that, Twilight had a better understanding of why mares always wanted to lose weight.

She didn’t have that much trouble with the tank top, she just wish that it wasn’t so green. Twilight walked downstairs to find Barb standing by the door. Barb turn around and sighed. “Go back upstairs boobzilla,” Twilight looked down at her chest, she didn’t really see what was wrong. Yeah, the top was kind of tight and highlighting her curves. “And change into some of your clothes.”

It took thirty minutes for Twilight to get out of the clothes she had on and put on some of her own clothes. She was so glad to be out of those skinny jeans. She put on a gray tee shirt with her cutie mark on one side of it and regular pair of jeans.

Once back downstairs, Barb gave her a nod before they left to find Twilight some clothes to go with her new body. The first place Barb wanted to take Twilight, was to Elusive’s shop. He would know what would work on a mare and make it for them at a reasonable cost.

For a stallion who has only been a mare for less than day, she was walking like every other mare in town. Her butt swayed as she walked and posture was just right to give every stallion whose eyes landed on her a good look at the two mounds that hung from her chest. Barb just sighed as she knocked on Elusive’s door.

The door open and on the other side was a white stallion with a purple mane and tail. He was also wearing a simple white shirt with a solid black vest and pants. His shoes were white as well, but with black tips. “Hello, ladies. How can I help you this fine evening?” He looked up and blinked. “Oh, hello there Barb my sweet. And may I ask who your lovely friend here is?”

Twilight meeped when the stallion took her hand and gave it a gentle kiss. She smiled as a thought came to mind. “T...Twilight Sparkle. I’m new in…”

“It’s Dusk Shine, he just up and turn himself into a mare. I brought her over to see if you can set her up with some clothes,.” Barb ruined Twilight’s plan. “Boobzilla here is too big in the chest area for what I have.” Elusive smiled and rushed back into his shop as he motion for them to follow him in. Twilight followed with her face was glowing red and mumbled something about her chest not being that big.

“There is nothing wrong with fair Twilight’s breast dear. Now, Twilight dear, please step into the fitting room. I need to take your measurements.” He flicked his hands in the direction of the room as he was busy looking for everything he would need. Barb just giggled as she leaned closer to Twilight.

“He is going to touch your boobs and your butt.” The grin on the young dragoness was almost too big for her face. Twilight’s face turned apple red as images of hands touching those two parts of her body that she was just getting use to. Before long, the world around her went blank.

Author's Note

I want to thank MidnightSpark23 for their help in editing this chapter.