Why?

by marineproductions100

Rating: everyone
Tags: Other, Slice of Life, Dark, Sad, Original Character, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 1167

They always say keep your friends close. But what if we didn't keep them close enough? Follow Shadowblaze as he makes regrets when his closest friend Film Maker has commited suicide.

Ponies always say "keep your friends close." Shadowblaze and Film Maker are about as close as they could get. They always enjoyed each others company. They pretty much loved each other. But all of that changes when Shadowblaze attends Film Maker's funeral. Now Shadowblaze starts to recall the signs and makes regrets for things he has no control over.

One chapter story. Hope you enjoy.

Rated teen for: suicidal tendencies and regrets.

Published 2013-11-28 11:10:02 UTC
Last updated 2013-11-28 11:10:02 UTC

Sorry

Why?

By: Cameron a.k.a. marineproductions100

Sorry

Ponyville Cemetery, mid-evening.

"It's raining. You always loved the rain." A red coated stallion pegasus is sitting down in front of a stone. The name imprinted on the stone is: Film Maker. The pegasus felt rain landing on his black mane. He whore a black pull over coat with a hoodie. "If you were with me, you'd say 'I love the rain Shadowblaze, did you know?'" A small smile crept up on his face but it wasn't long until it faded.

There was a picture frame, surrounded by red roses, right in front of the stone. The picture had a brown coated stallion pegasus with a red mane and tail. The pegasus' cutiemark is a video camera.

A tear streamed down Shadowblaze's right cheek. He slowly wiped away the tear with his right hoof. Then, Shadowblaze stood up from his spot and looked down at the grave. "I love you Film. You'll never know how much you meant to me." After that, he turned around and started to make his way out of the cemetery.

Before Shadowblaze could exit the cemetery, a memory started to creep into his mind. A memory that started making him hurry back to his home.

...........

the memory

Shadowblaze and Film Maker were sitting on a cloud. Film Maker is crying into Shadowblaze's chest. Both of them had their fore hooves wrapped around each other. "What's wrong Film? We've been up here for thirty minutes and you still haven't told me what's wrong." Shadowblaze whispered.

Film chuckled with his sobs. After regaining his breathing, Film moved his head up to Shadowblaze's ear and started whispering. "I-I never asked for it. I....I'm sure y-you'll be disgusted with me." Film whispered along with sobs.

"What is it, Film? You can tell me anything." Shadowblaze tried calming down his brother.

"I'm b-b-bisexual. I'm attracted to s-stallions and mares. I'm a freak." Film slowly pushed himself away from Shadowblaze.

Shadowblaze stopped Film and embraced him into a tight hug. "I don't care, Film. Your still you. You just don't have a preference of which gender you want. I know you didn't ask for it. Your not a freak, its natural for some ponies. I still love you, bro."

"R-Really?" Film asked.

"Always. I'll always love you for yourself, Film. Always." Shadowblaze replied.

"Thank you. I love you too, bro."

............

reality

Shadowblaze was back at his home in his bedroom. With a picture frame of him and Film Maker in his hooves. The rain was beating itself against the window of the bedroom. The noise was drowning Shadowblaze's sniffling. Tears were streaming down both cheeks. His hoodie covering his head as he looked down at the memory of him and Film. "Oh Celestia. I wish I was more aware of the signs. Why didn't I hold you close? Why was I so stupid for thinking you were okay?"

Shadowblaze started hugging the picture frame. "Why was I so stupid? I just can't believe it." Shadowblaze moved one of his hooves away from his chest and started to stare at it. "You were giving me the signs and I did nothing. Celestia why was I so fucking stupid?"

Shadowblaze gently placed the picture frame onto his nightstand that sits next to his bed. Shadowblaze pulled up both of his sleeves revealing new and old cut marks on his legs. Shadowblaze quietly chuckled to himself as another memory dared to enter his mourning.

........

memory

Film Maker's house, midnight.

"Shadowblaze, you can't hide it that well." Film pointed at Shadowblaze's left hoof.

Shadowblaze lifted his brow and gave Film a confused look. "What my hoof?" Shadowblaze asked.

Film Maker grabbed Shadowblaze's hoof and pulled up his sleeve. "I mean the cut marks, Shadow." Film replied. Film started caressing Shadowblaze's leg while tears started to sting his eyes. "Why are you cutting yourself?" Film asked.

Shadowblaze pulled his hoof away from Film's caressing. He turned his head away from Film and started to sniffling. "Mom got mad again. Dad started yelling at me. After our fight, I went into my room and started to cut myself. I only did it because it took my mind off of everything. I swear I wasn't going to do anything suicidal." Shadowblaze replied.

"I believe you." Film placed his hoof on Shadowblaze's. "I'm here for you. In life or death, I'll always be there with you." Film slowly embraced Shadowblaze into a hug. "life or death brother." Film whispered.

"Really? Do you mean it, Film?" Shadowblaze asked.

"Yes." Film replied.

...........

reality

Shadowblaze had a knife lying right next to him. He held a note in his hooves and began to read it out loud.

I couldn't help Film Maker. I regret that I wasn't more aware of the signs he given me. I also regret for not keeping him closer to me. He was my brother and I loved him. I'm sorry that I did this. I miss him and I'm going to join him now.

Love, Shadowblaze.

Shadowblaze folded the note and placed it right next to him. He picked up the knife with his mouth and was ready to pierce his skin with the blade. Until a cold breeze went down the back of his neck. He felt somepony's hoof pressing against his back. Shadowblaze dropped the knife and started to scan the room.

Nothing.

Shadowblaze drew his attention towards the picture frame on his nightstand. But something new caught his eye. A letter sat in front of the frame with his name written on it. Shadowblaze grabbed the letter and ripped the top off. He pulled out a note that was in the letter.

I never left you Shadowblaze. I always keep my word, you know that. Life or death, remember? Don't do it. I'm still here with you no matter what. You can join me one day but not today. I love you bro.

Love, Film Maker.

Shadowblaze dropped the note and looked back at the picture frame on his nightstand. Suddenly, he felt a breeze go past his left ear. "Life or death." A voice whispered.

Shadowblaze turned his head to the left side and saw no pony. "Film Maker?"

The End.

Written by: Cameron a.k.a. marineproductions100

Edited

Author's Note

Rest In Peace for all those who died from suicidal tendencies. I give my condolences to those who have lost someone to suicide.

To my friend Taythen: Thank you for accepting me for being bisexual. I wanted to show how much I love and appreciate you. I'll always be here for you whenever your down. My house is always open to you whenever you need to get away from your family. Don't worry, I won't tell your mom where your at if you ever leave. She doesn't deserve such a kind person like you. I love you man.

Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoy this short story. Have a good day or night. :twilightsmile: