Sadness of a Princess

Twilight sat with Celestia in the Throne Room, answering proposals of the ponies in Equestria. It had been a long and stressful day for Twilight. But most of all, her day was only filled with one thing: sadness. She had talked time and time with Celestia, Luna, Cadence, and Spike about missing her loved ones and how they dealt with immortality. But she knew she was going to be in eternal depression.

"Twilight, my dearest student, are you alright?" Celestia whispered into Twilight's ear, concerned about Twilight's fidgeting and wiping away a few tears from moment to moment.

"Y-yes, Princess. Just thinking about my friends." Twilight replied, her voice crackling in sadness.

"You're a princess, you have the right to take time off whenever you wish." Celestia replied kindly.

"No, I am a princess now. I must be strong for Equestria." Twilight whispered loudly.

Celestia looked down at her student for a while longer, then prepared for another announcement. "Citizens of Equestria, it is requested that you escort yourselves out of this room. I must have a chat with my student." The ponies left the room obediently, respecting the Sun Goddess's request.

Twilight glared at Celestia. "Why did you do that?" She said in a normal voice.

"I do not desire talking about this topic in front of our loyal subjects."

"Please, don't do that again. But, you do have permission to help me." Twilight said with tears forming thicker in her eyes.

"Come, we shall talk about this in my bedchamber. I need to show you something" Celestia rose and escorted Twilight out of the room and down the halls. In the 5 minutes it took to get to the hall of bedchambers, Twilight and Celestia made small talk.

"Celestia? What exactly are you going to show me?" Twilight asked, curious.

"Something from my past. Something that can relate well to you." And just then, they had arrived at Celestia's bedchamber. The double doors had a sun in the middle that also made the handles. There were beautiful, gold swirls all around the door in a formal fashion. The background of the door was a sunset orange, and had various beams of sunlight from the center to the edges. "Ah, here we are. Please, come in."

Twilight followed Celestia into the room. The walls were orange, beams of sunlight expanding around the room, gold swirls were on every piece of furniture. A large, round bed was in the center of the room, the sheets followed the usual color pattern. There was a wall that was made entirely out of glass, a door was in the middle of that wall, and led out into a double-step circular balcony with gold rails. Celestia had a nice desk and work space against one wall with a plentiful supplies of ink, parchment, and quills, all neatly arranged as if Twilight were here a few moments ago cleaning.

"Over here." Celestia said, walking over to her closet. She opened the door, revealing a small about of dresses, an extra set of her usual gold accessories, and a various amount of boxes on the top shelf. She activated her yellow-aura magic and selected a shoe box from a company Rarity would love. "In this box are memories from when I was still a mortal. I had friends too, I loved them as much as you love yours, and I went through the same thing with my sister."

Twilight was shocked. This was such an honor to be looking at the Sun Goddess's personal files with her. "B-but why? Why are you going to show this stuff to me?"

"Celestia folded a wing over Twilight and replied in a kind voice, "One who obtains mortality must learn to cope with the cons, no matter the way." She said like she was reciting an old quote she said to Luna or Cadence. "You are very welcome to look through these old photos. I have even cast a spell on them to contain them and keep them out of harm from fire, water, erosion, cracking, aging, and other elemental problems. If somepony would even light the castle on fire, these photos would be very safe."

"Ok, i'll take your lesson. Where do we begin?"

"Well, when I first found out I was an immortal, I had to think about the loss of my loved ones. Those ponies included my friends, family, and allies. Anyone who was mortal, I knew I would lose someday. It saddened me to the point where I had nightmares about them going away form me in front of my eyes. And eventually, those ponies in this photos passed away a quick and painless death of age." She held up a photo of five ponies, including her and Luna. "When that day came, me and Luna were very depressed. We would cry ourselves to sleep every night for a year. We would cry together in peace whenever we were alone. We were both depressed. We both are today. But now, I have my duties to preform. I have a nation to lead. I have no time to mourn for my friends anymore. Their graves were buried with the soil you live on today, and I can't move that land."

Celestia almost sobbed, and it pained Twilight to see her like this. "Princess, you don't have to talk about them anymore if it makes you so upset. But, how would I relieve of my depression like you have?"

Celestia looked down to Twilight, right into her eyes. "Twilight, me and Luna have been this way for well over a thousand years. I am so sorry, but there is no cure for immortality's depression. You have been forced to have this burden like me. And I am sorry about it, there was nothing I could do about it."

Twilight looked up in confusion. "Celestia, are you saying that you didn't choose me as princess?"

"Yes, yes I am. I think it is time for you to know that when you get chosen as princess, you are chosen by the universe and time itself. The universe is connected to us, we control everything in the universe. And some of the ailicorns might say that it is a punishment, others a prize. But for most, it is the worst thing that has ever happened to them." Celesita was shedding a few tears now."

Twilight looked down in shame, knowing that she had brought up her mentor's pain. "Princess, i'm sorry. It seems unfair for me to have more memories of my friends and you, none."

"No, Twilight, you must cherish your memories however you can. Keep as much of those memories alive for as long as possible. If we need to have a memorial, we will. If we need to reserve a burial ground for your friends, we will." She said with a sad, cracked voice.

"Princess, thank you, you do not know how much this means to me..." Twilight hugged her mentor.

Celestia returned the hug. "You are welcome Twilight." The two held the embrace for a few more minutes, crying onto each other's shoulder. Once the tears had dried up out of both of them, they held their posture, and returned to the throne room.

"Thank you, Twilight. Thank you for letting me mourn with you." She looked down to Twilight with a wing over her shoulder.

"No, thank you, Celesita. I don't think I could have gone through this without you." Twilight looked up into Celesita's eyes with a sadness in both. They had returned to the Throne Room.