I Don't Know Anymore

by AnimaTene22

Rating: mature
Tags: Romance, Comedy, Human, Alternate Universe
Length: 290

A young man, always thinking himself worthless. He finds his way to a new world, and thinks it won't any different. But, when he discovers one as Outcast as him, might he find Friendship? Or perhaps, even... Love?

A young man by the name of James Smith is the Hero of our story. He's turning 18 this weekend. But, he might as well be dying that day. His whole life, he's been cast out, considered as a Reject of Society. No one has ever given a fuck about him. He has always felt like a fish out of water during the day, around people, in crowded areas. He only feels alive in the darkest, most foreign places - Under a Full Moon at Midnight, alone, in a dark forest, or some field somewhere. But when he falls into this strange new land, filled with colorful, talking horses, will he find Friendship, or, perhaps, even Love, in a fellow Outcast?

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2013-12-09 04:59:46 UTC

Prologue: What's The Point?

"Hey, my name's James. You probably don't give a fuck about me, and I don't blame you. I'm just some random kid somewhere, brooding in some shitty little town about how fucking sad I am. But you know something? I'm not sad. I'm not angry. I'm not fucking confused. I just don't give a fuck. I've never had a reason for living. I've got nothing special about me, my parents have always hated me (they've even said so), and I have absolutely no friends. So, why should I give a fuck about anything?"

"I don't, I'm not gonna. I'm not suicidal, if that's what you think. I don't want to be hurt, or die, and I don't want to hurt or kill anyone else. I just want to find a way for this all to end. I want my pointless, apathetic hate to end. I want all the pain all around the world to end. The Xenophobia of the "Patriotic", the Homophobia of the "Religious", and everything in between. I guess I do give a fuck, but only for the Impossible."

"Maybe if someone would just care about me, or I could care about someone else, I could feel. I could be happy, I could be Hopeful. But, no. There's no. Fucking Reason. No one I've ever met cares about me, and I don't give a fuck about anyone else that I've ever met. Do you count this as us meeting? I do. Do you give a fuck about me? Probably not. So, I don't give a fuck about you."

"Well, guess I'll be back on later. Maybe I'll have something more to say. Hopefully, someone will start caring about me here soon. See ya.