"What is it?" I asked.

"It's Amanda… she's… she…" Twilight said as a wave of sadness washed over her. "She's not going to make it…"

Hearing this struck a nerve, making me feel numb to everything for a moment. "She… I… no, that can't be true. It can't be."

"They told me she would only have a few hours to live at the least, they weren't able to treat the wounds before she had lost so much blood. Not even healing magic could treat the wounds. By the time they stopped the bleeding, her pulse was too weak to be able to hold for much longer."

"No!" I cried out, pulling myself from beneath Twilight's wing. "That's not true! I have to see her!" I said as I began to run to the hospital, but was stopped.

"No, you can't. I'm sorry but they know about your feelings for her, they don't want you to be there because of the impact it will have on you." Twilight said as she held me in her magic.

"No! Let me go!" I yelled, tears streaming down my cheeks as I kicked and thrashed against the mares telekinetic grasp without success before giving up and slumping over in the street, not caring that it had began to rain, soaking my coat as the rain poured down on me.

Twilight picked me up in her magic and teleported to the library before carrying me to my room and laying me down on the bed.

She looked at me with saddened eyes, due to having to hold me back. "I'm sorry." She whispered before laying a dry towel over me and closing the door as she walked out.

I laid there and wept; loud, sorrowful whimpers escaping me as I realized I would never be able to confess my feelings for her.

~

Twilight was about to head to bed herself before she heard a knock on the door, she went over to see who it was to find Melodic behind the door.

"I heard the news, how's he taking it?" The stallion asked.

"He's devastated already, I don't think it would be wise to disturb him right now."

"Then at least let me try to comfort him."

Twilight sighed. "You can try, but I doubt it will do any good."

Melodic nodded and headed to the door to my room, the sound of loud sobs could be heard as I cried from within. "Hey, Mist. It's me, Melodic."

"J-just… leave me… be." I choked out.

"Mist, don't do this. Just let me come in so I can help you."

"Just leave!" I snapped as I lunged at the door and slammed myself weakly against it before slumping to the floor in tears.

Melodic jumped back in shock. 'He really is devastated if he's doing stuff like this. I don't think I or anypony should bother him in his state.' "Twilight, don't let anyone go in there, he could lose it if anypony bothers him until he calms down and comes out longer than just to eat, drink and the like, which could last for a while." Melodic warned.

Twilight nodded. "I'll do that." She assured before placing a 'Do Not Disturb' sign on the door to my room.

"I'll just be on my way home, I'll tell him what I found out when he gets better."

"He won't take kindly to it."

"I know, he'll probably try to hunt them down on his own once he finds out that it was in fact the changelings." Melodic replied. "What will we do if he does go that far, what if he does fall into a blood lust-filled quest for vengeance?"

"We'll have no choice but to put him in a holding cell. But the thing is, he'll never be the same as we knew him after he settles, he'll behave differently, act differently towards other ponies. The only thing I don't know is… will it be temporary? Or will it be forever?"

"We can only hope that it will be temporary, I'd hate to see him permanently changed because of this."

"Right. Well, I'll see you tomorrow." Twilight replied. "Goodnight, Melodic."

"Goodnight." The stallion replied before leaving the library as Twilight headed to bed herself. 'Oh Mist, if only things could have turned out better for you.' She thought before falling asleep.
~

Not once could I sleep, even if I tried I couldn’t close my eyes. The thoughts that ran through my head after hearing that Amanda wouldn’t see the light of day again plagued me. The only thought running through my mind now was ‘I swear if the changelings are responsible for this, I will ensure their extinction.’ This one thought, the painful memories of my past life, I just needed them to go away. These thoughts were temporarily interrupted by a knock on the door and the sound of Twilight’s voice on the other side.

“Mist, are you hungry?” The alicorn asked. ”I’ve got breakfast ready for you.”

My only response was the opening of the door and grabbed the plate held in her telekinetic grasp and retreating, shutting the door and slowly, silently eating my given meal.

Twilight sighed heavily and opened the door and looked at the bed where I sat, eating as the plaguing thoughts continued to run through my mind. “Mist.” Twilight started cautiously. “I-I know what you are feeling, I know you blame the changelings, but you can’t be certain that it was them.”

In respect to the princess, I witheld my depression fueled anger. “Why is this happening?” I asked. “This is the second time I’ve lost someone I loved. Am I not meant to love anymore? Do I have no choice but to live my life without love?”

Twilight stopped me there. “Mist, you deserve better than what you are going through, but what happened to Amanda was out of my control, it was out of your control, it was out of everypony's control." She tried to comfort me, it helped a little, but not enough to keep my rampaging emotions from breaking loose as I threw my forelegs around her tightly as I wept.

Author's Note

Sorry for such a long wait on this chapter, just had a lot going on and I kept forgetting to post this one.
Anyway, you guys know the drill.