Who Do I Think I Amby DemonkawalaChaptersRainbows Turned GreyThe OneCravingsIndecisionNightmareRainbows Turned GreyBeautiful and strong An aura of power swirls around my body Cold and steely to others who cannot see the True person Eyes bright and shining Hips swaying, smile playing Confidence A whistle, a whoop Not a trained panther I am wild and free Baring my teeth at those who want to Change me. ________________________________________________________________________________ A wounded creature A mocking bird put to death Tender wings broken Hiding in a corner Weeping openly A pain stricken face in the crowd Heart strings, tattered and broken Nothingness... The OneThe essence of your very being makes my skin crawl You are a liar to the worst degree You stabbed my heart with a dull blade I thought you were my friend How could you betray me this way? What crime have I committed against you? I have been there for your sorry soul for over a decade So low and foul you are, your image is deceit incarnate Uttering your name makes me want to wretch All the time I wasted with you You are the one I blame for this display You left me helpless and calling out Such a self-centered act you played Pretending to be there for me Turning against me a second later I feel so choked and smothered I will put on a brave face But my feelings for you now will never change CravingsWhat DO I want? Love, Acceptance, Joy Do I deserve them? I hope that I do I try to grasp these things But I am like a fish in Dank, icy water Breath stripped from my lungs Pain in living hated Never able to reach, even the surface Or the world of "Happy" How many more times will I try Just to find my dreams broken, Hearts smashed and shattered Friendships battered like an acorn that has been run over by a truck How many more times will I be lied to? How many more times will I take it? Why do I deserve it? What have I done? I'm so sorry... IndecisionDesire held deep in my heart For the one who takes my breath away Coursing through my veins like a serpent The one I long for in the dusky twilight I never wanted to leave Thought I was in for the rest of my life Lives completely intertwined Ripped apart at the very core Loves last high tried to linger But my heart turned to ice A fire raged while the stone attacked my mind slowly and painfully The moon as my sole company On nights where I am riddled with nightmares from the past Ghosts that still chill my bones I hope to warm this heart One near fatal nosedive is not a reason to stay numb Once again opening my heart may be the hardest thing I must let it feel the love and passion it once did It may never be the same I still have to try The flutter of a young child's hear now replaced with a faint distressing putter Just bundled up in my own self doubt One more day of endless trials I may never let my self believe the truth NightmareShe lays there completely still. On the fringe of the dark abyss that is unconsciousness. Blurry spots scatter from her sight as she achingly raises herself up onto her knees. Shadowed figures stared with soulless eyes back upon her pallid face. She knew she would find him, why did it frighten her? Stumbling once she rose from her warm imprint. Staggering forward, using the aisle chairs for support, she gradually made her way to the front of the train, never once looking back upon the eyes she knew were glued to her crumpled figure. A frail looking filly wormed her way past nearly sending her tumbling back unto the carpeted floors. The lights became all to bright once again as flashes of gold and silver glinted their evil glares through each passenger window. Mesmerizing and nauseating their faces were from such a speed reached only by such a vessel. Aisle after aisle, bolted steel door after door she inched toward her goal at an infuriating pace. No time to waste, no time to wait yet, she could not press herself to move even a fraction faster. The world grew slow, the lights became jagged celestial lines in her peripheral. Chatter rose up out of the gloom. Unearthly sheiks of laughter and hollow bellows. A screeching halt forced her to cling unto a plush velvet chair lest she be flung onto the floor once more. A glaze covered her eyes as the bodies began to stir around her. The moment the doors opened it became a frantic spasm to de board. Thrust along gruffly and nearly trampled, she was finally free. The air felt so clear to her collapsed lungs, she almost felt like singing in joy. She spun around happily arms stretched wide unaware of the closeness and collided with a stallion. It was him. A menacing smile spread across his thick lips. The world began to melt around her. A scream of terror caught in her throat. Jolting awake with sweat moistening her cyan coat. Curling up in her blankets she lay there unmoving, the dream replaying in her mind.
Rainbows Turned GreyBeautiful and strong An aura of power swirls around my body Cold and steely to others who cannot see the True person Eyes bright and shining Hips swaying, smile playing Confidence A whistle, a whoop Not a trained panther I am wild and free Baring my teeth at those who want to Change me. ________________________________________________________________________________ A wounded creature A mocking bird put to death Tender wings broken Hiding in a corner Weeping openly A pain stricken face in the crowd Heart strings, tattered and broken Nothingness...
The OneThe essence of your very being makes my skin crawl You are a liar to the worst degree You stabbed my heart with a dull blade I thought you were my friend How could you betray me this way? What crime have I committed against you? I have been there for your sorry soul for over a decade So low and foul you are, your image is deceit incarnate Uttering your name makes me want to wretch All the time I wasted with you You are the one I blame for this display You left me helpless and calling out Such a self-centered act you played Pretending to be there for me Turning against me a second later I feel so choked and smothered I will put on a brave face But my feelings for you now will never change
CravingsWhat DO I want? Love, Acceptance, Joy Do I deserve them? I hope that I do I try to grasp these things But I am like a fish in Dank, icy water Breath stripped from my lungs Pain in living hated Never able to reach, even the surface Or the world of "Happy" How many more times will I try Just to find my dreams broken, Hearts smashed and shattered Friendships battered like an acorn that has been run over by a truck How many more times will I be lied to? How many more times will I take it? Why do I deserve it? What have I done? I'm so sorry...
IndecisionDesire held deep in my heart For the one who takes my breath away Coursing through my veins like a serpent The one I long for in the dusky twilight I never wanted to leave Thought I was in for the rest of my life Lives completely intertwined Ripped apart at the very core Loves last high tried to linger But my heart turned to ice A fire raged while the stone attacked my mind slowly and painfully The moon as my sole company On nights where I am riddled with nightmares from the past Ghosts that still chill my bones I hope to warm this heart One near fatal nosedive is not a reason to stay numb Once again opening my heart may be the hardest thing I must let it feel the love and passion it once did It may never be the same I still have to try The flutter of a young child's hear now replaced with a faint distressing putter Just bundled up in my own self doubt One more day of endless trials I may never let my self believe the truth
NightmareShe lays there completely still. On the fringe of the dark abyss that is unconsciousness. Blurry spots scatter from her sight as she achingly raises herself up onto her knees. Shadowed figures stared with soulless eyes back upon her pallid face. She knew she would find him, why did it frighten her? Stumbling once she rose from her warm imprint. Staggering forward, using the aisle chairs for support, she gradually made her way to the front of the train, never once looking back upon the eyes she knew were glued to her crumpled figure. A frail looking filly wormed her way past nearly sending her tumbling back unto the carpeted floors. The lights became all to bright once again as flashes of gold and silver glinted their evil glares through each passenger window. Mesmerizing and nauseating their faces were from such a speed reached only by such a vessel. Aisle after aisle, bolted steel door after door she inched toward her goal at an infuriating pace. No time to waste, no time to wait yet, she could not press herself to move even a fraction faster. The world grew slow, the lights became jagged celestial lines in her peripheral. Chatter rose up out of the gloom. Unearthly sheiks of laughter and hollow bellows. A screeching halt forced her to cling unto a plush velvet chair lest she be flung onto the floor once more. A glaze covered her eyes as the bodies began to stir around her. The moment the doors opened it became a frantic spasm to de board. Thrust along gruffly and nearly trampled, she was finally free. The air felt so clear to her collapsed lungs, she almost felt like singing in joy. She spun around happily arms stretched wide unaware of the closeness and collided with a stallion. It was him. A menacing smile spread across his thick lips. The world began to melt around her. A scream of terror caught in her throat. Jolting awake with sweat moistening her cyan coat. Curling up in her blankets she lay there unmoving, the dream replaying in her mind.
