This Animal I Have Become

by SCP Pinkamena

Rating: mature
Tags: Pinkie Pie, Gore, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Sad
Length: 1230

Why was I so stupid? I knew what I was going through! But yet... I can't look myself in the mirror... I'm so sorry, but I can't change what I have done to myself...

It was only supposed to be body enhancements... Something to make a pony more... durable, stronger, more intimidating... Well, it worked... just not the way they wanted it to...

I was a failed experiment, and I am a monster. But I will not except the fact I look one.

Published 2013-12-20 00:20:05 UTC
Last updated 2013-12-20 00:20:05 UTC

This Animal I Have Become

Day...1,272: Today they brought me a friend.

Despite my mouth being stitched, I can still communicate. I told them I don't want any of my friends here... Did they listen? No...

*shink!* *shink!* *shink!*

I saw Rarity first. She was nice... for a second. She only saw me in the dark corner, unable to see what was actually in that room with me. They warned her though, that what was inside wasn't for the faint of heart.

"Nonsense!" I heard her say, "What could possibly make me think that a stark white room would scare me?"

Oh, how wrong she would be... They flipped the switch on and the lights in my room turned on. I saw the smile on her face disappear instantly, as her pupils shrunk to pin-points and her mouth opened in shock. Her screamed rattled the building as she saw my face in the window, the scratch marks running down it trying to get to her. Curse this special glass...

An undecipherable gurgle exited my sewed mouth as clawed at the glass harder and harder. I gave up. After a moan of disappointment, I stopped clawing and scratching the window and sat down in my corner of red.

*snip, snip, snip*

I looked up at her banging on the door desperately trying to get out. I couldn't blame her, I had in a mirror in my room I refused to look at because of it. I was a monster; I wont deny it. But what I will deny is that I look like one.

Day 1,273:

The next on to come in was Rainbow Dash. The lights were off again, I didn't mind that they kept the lights off; it made like it was a surprise party! Well, when the they turned on the light, I saw her stiffen and twitch uncontrollably.

She was trying to fight her instincts. Once again, I can't blame her. I walked to the window on my hindlegs, something I've never done before, and stood in front of the window at a full 5 feet 9 inches. For those who don't know, Celestia is around that height.

The thing about the body enhancements that they gave me was so that I was stronger than any Earth Pony alive. What the didn't expect was a thing known in the science field as "Anthropomorphism". It means I have similar traits as another species, but I'm still pony.

"P-Pinkie? Is that y-yo-you?" I nodded. She almost flew off. Instead, when I watched her twitch, I slammed my claws into the window and traced my eyes downward. Her gaze followed mine but she could not see what I was looking at. I hunched my back to get level with her, and using one finger from my metallic hand, I picked up a chunk of raw meat. My lips pulled the stitches of my permanent smile as I bit and tore into it using my newly grow canine teeth.

That's when she flew out the door, that's when she couldn't take it anymore, and that's also where she threw up. On the floor.

Hehehe, I'm a poet and I didn't even know it!

Day 1,274:

I was surprised to see Fluttershy had the courage to see me. She's so sweet, so innocent... But yet there she was, waiting in the dark room. They warned her, one even pleaded with her that she wouldn't want to see me, but Fluttershy being the kind soul she was told them, "Pinkie Pie is my friend, I will see to it that she stay that way!"

I saved her some trouble by scratching the window so she could a tiny glimpse of me. The window whined, and she finally looked over to see the claw, painted red, scratching the window.

She fainted on the spot.

'Good,' I thought, 'that saves me some trouble'. They hauled her out of the room and turned on my light. The room was still the same red color as it was, but they noticed something different.

My room was decorated.

Innards hung from the walls and bones, like femurs and humerus', were stabbed in the walls. The unicorn guard killed himself after a minute of staring. I heard that the Earth Pony guard was still in the hospital being treated for multiple skull fractions and a severe concussion.

Day 1,275:

Applejack came inside the cell. She was more protected than Celestia was on her parades through Canterlot though. Applejack was in the middle of about eight unicorn guards, staring wide eyed at me. She plucked her hat off and put it to her heart, saying a quick prayer.

Prayers wont help you now.

"What Rainbow said... I didn't want to believe it..." She mumbled before sprinting out of the room. The guards began to follow her, but not before I plucked one from his head. The rest darted out of the room, while the pegasus guard hung limply against my finger. Applejack and the other seven watched from behind the glass as my hand snipped the stitching on my mouth.

One of the guards retched as the last stitch was cut. "Ahhhhhh..." I always made that sound. It made feel like I just woke up from a bad dream. The pony on my finger was my breakfast. With a sickening snap, my teeth sunk into his leg and broke through his bone. I got on all fours, finding it easier to do so, whipping my food around like dog playing with a old sock. He connected with the floor, the walls, the window... Applejack watched in mute silence, her mouth open but it quickly closed as my food connected with the window a second time, with the leg ripping off and the rest flung to the back wall.

She walked up to the window, put her hoof on it, and said, "Pinkie... please, stop it..." I didn't hear her though. The only reason why I know she said that was because of the video they showed me of her visit. Her hoof fell and she limply walked out with the guards as I continued with my snack.

Did you know Pony meat tastes very lean?

Day 1,276:

Twilight came in today. She only looked at me. There was no big fan-fare, or some speech. She just stared. No fear, no hate, just a blank empty void. Her eyebrows were level with one another, like she was scolding someone with the obvious. I hung from the ceiling like a bat in the middle of a nap, but she knew that I was not asleep.

It was a stare off, something that me and her did. I decided to blink, letting her win. I saw grin form on her face, then be wiped off just as fast.

"Pinkie... What have they done to you?" Twilight asked, giving me her pity. No... not pity, regret. She knows I know it was her who recommended this. She told me, "What's the worse that can go wrong?"

This.

This is what went wrong.

Twilight apologized I don't know how many times. After a while she said those words. "What would it take for you to forgive me?"

My mouth trembled at the stitches. "I... Want... To... Go... Home..."

Day 1,300

God visited me today.

And she was merciful.