The Wanderings of My Mind

by Fiend from the Darkness

Rating: everyone
Tags: Random, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad
Length: 2804

Poems I've written inspired by different fanfics on FIMfic.

A series of poems inspired by stories on FIMfic that I loved. The titles of the stories that inspired the poem are at the end of the poem with a link. Title of the poem is chapter name if the poem has one, if not, the title is the title of the story.

Feb 12, 2015: Finally got cover art!

Published 2014-01-26 20:00:05 UTC
Last updated 2015-12-22 04:49:01 UTC

Trials and Tests of Life/Make Life Your Own (Past Sins)

Trials and Tests of Life/Make Life Your Own

Past Sins

When you have no past to call your own

When your looks cause doubt to be sown

A filly taken into another's home

So she may be happy, not forced to roam

A happy life without idea of who she was

A happy foalhood of warmth and fuzz

Three new friends to adventure together

Four little fillies like birds of a feather

But alas, this could not last

For nopony can outrun mistakes of their past

Come to light to cause a scene

The Nightmare causing the tower to lean

Twilight staring, lost in thought

Losing Nyx, forgiveness then sought

In New Nightmare Moon, she sees her daughter so loved

Close to her death, this for this decision she's shoved

But nothing in this world, can beat what Twilight's sown

And away from her death, Twilight is thrown

For her little filly Nyx, finally had enough

Coming down on Nexus, Nyx starts getting tough

The sun will start to rise again, the ponies think they're freed

Only to be crushed again, though Nyx no longer leads

A curse discovered, the Nightmare cult is gone

Twilight's love of little Nyx, come out, shown and shone

No one left for comfort, a house that's not a home

Too guilty to even leave the place, to guilty to try and roam

Little Nyx has lost it all, friends and family too

She lost it all, to her fall, when her magic was forced anew

Now she has a castle, but money makes not the mare

She only seems happy, when ponies come back to share

So share she does, glad to do her part

Though when the monsters attack at last, she fights with a heavy heart

Guilt for being the cause, the cause of this attack

But though she may be guilty, courage she does not lack

Stop the monsters, fight for those who must escape this town

Even if, in the flood of monsters, she will surely drown

But against all odds she finally beats them back

And must hope to all above, they don't come back to sack

What's left of the ponies homes, little though they have

At least not one was lost, down to the smallest calves

Now Nyx must face her judgement, for upon release

Princesses will be livid, demanding the Nightmare cease

A beautiful finale, with Nyx's final fate

She got to stay with Twilight, not victim to others' hate

A well deserved fillyhood, for the lovely little foal

Though rocky it may be, love will fill the hole

No memory left of Nightmare Moon to taunt her little Nyx

Though her guilt as the Nightmare Queen has no easy fix

And down the road in hope they start, towards a better life

One that will not be, without a little strife

But hope they do, each day improved, upon the one before

On with each step, continue to move, finding each new door

Without a doubt life is a test, to try our very core

All we can do is our best, continuing to soar

-Eclipse

The Order (The Order. Yes, the poem and story share the same name. Deal with it.)

The Order

The Order (Yes the poem and story share the same name.)

Stuck in a place

Because of his race

And forced to love from afar

Flash looks at his life

The division and strife

He raises his spear to save

Love cannot bloom

When there is no room

His chances sealed in a tomb

And twilight will fall

In Histories Hall

Forced to follow his destiny's call

In a moment, all can change

In a moment, magic down the range

All it takes is a moment of rage

Like feelings released from a tiny cage

But that moment may come and go

Supressed by all who think they know

The best way to go is status quo

So Flash loses his chance

And continues to dance

Atop feelings forbidden to him

And he must continue on

Each new dawn

with a mask so tightly drawn

That when it breaks

Like striking snakes

He will be gone from her

For now he is forced wait

Resigned to his saddening fate

And hope being near her is enough to sate

His love for the Princess of change

Feelings his love can never return

Trying stop his heart's slow burn

Try and make his heart relearn

Their love can never have a turn

The Order is what keeps the peace

Never will the order cease

Forever will the order reign

-Eclipse:moustache:

Graves' Journey (Journey of Graves by GentlemanJ The series, not one single story.)

Graves' Journey

Inspired by GentlemanJ's A Journey of Graves. The Series as a whole.

Roaming free across the land

Dealt by fate, an unfortunate hand

He tried to run, to escape his pain

He ran through sun and snow and rain

Buried beneath as he continues his work

Though in his air, does his past still lurk

Then along came a jewel, to try and break in

Break his mask and see him grin

A Rare break from his work defending

To stay in one place, the town, on him, depending

To stay in one place, and see the magic of friends

But one must remember, actions run in trends

As if to prove to all, too prove that this was true

Graves up and left, went to someplace new

But one must remember, when dealing with her

You don't leave behind, a love that felt so sure

She chased him down, to the country of the Changer

Rarity forced him to see, his heart was in no danger

He still did not believe, and broke his beauty's heart

With words nearly as lethal, as love's unholy dart

But when he finally listened, to his heart's one true desire

It was almost to late, to restart love's great pyre

But tried he did, and managed to make it light

And in the end of it all, it all turned alright

So now they live a life of love, Graves and Rarity

Though Graves still has small problems, with insanity

They work it out, sometimes shout, but still they carry on

For without strife, how in life, can someone say they shone.

-Eclipse::moustache:

A Home Found (Foal of the Forest)

A Home Found

Foal of the Forest

In the Everfree, remaining unseen

A little colt tries to avoid the world's mean

But when a life's in danger, the colt must intervene

To protect a life, he lets himself be seen

When she sees the little colt, Shy cannot let go

Everyone deserves a family, she tries to let him know

But only hate he's seen in life, so his answer at first is no

He cannot see any joy, his heart has been laid low

A heart of stone that Shy must crack

When he agrees to stay

Getting the colts life on track

To try and help him on his way

But as all life's challenges

They are not left alone

And Applejack's blind hatred

Brings back Dawn's dark tone

Cult Solar and hatred follow

Where ever the poor colt roams

The pain of hatred's shadow

Prevents him finding a true home

But as with all trials beat

They get back to their hooves

Apologies and honesty meet

And force her guilty move

Apoligies from the Apple

Force the colt to break

His heart of stone starts to crack

And progress Dawn does make

Slowly he does feel, though the journey will be long

He will do right, he'll make mistakes, and try to right his wrongs

But long as his loving family's there, his heart may still find song.

-Eclipse:moustache:

Losing Control (Forgiveness Pending Chapter 58)

Losing Control

Forgiveness Pending: Chapter Fifty-Eight

Losing his mind from the buildup endured

Madness suppressed, completely uncured

He loses his from the demons at last

Demons that  came from an unearthed past

Lost to the madness, he will soon be

Lost to the madness, set your mind free

The nice guy killed, slowly from the inside

Caged in the back, forced along for the ride

As Madness lights up, and Mender's bridges he burns

He laughingly says "Yes! Oh, yes! They'll all learn!"

Watch the Monster take control [1]

Eating his sanity, destroying his soul  [2]

While the Mender we know is forced to watch from within

While Madness takes hold, with a skull for a grin

But should  he go insane, would he know

Would others see, would it show

If he went insane in a way just so

would anyone see, would anyone know?

~Black Sun Eclipse:moustache:

Untitled (The Road Not Taken)

Road Not Taken

Bottled up rage, ignites in a flash

Taking it out, Twilight does lash

But in her remorse, tries to fix what she broke

A timeline change, she tries to evoke

Back to the past, twenty years before

The first time Defender was met at her door

It takes near death for the Princess to see

How much Defender does set her heart free

But is it too late, when they can't get home?

Is it too late, if the past they do roam?

Taking new names, new colours, new marks

They move through the ocean to take out the sharks

Demons from past, the hardest to end

To their past pony selves, help they do lend

But as they bite off, more than they chew

Past ponies do see, illusions pierced through

Once found at last, they must fix what is broke

Past and future selves meet, as equals they spoke

A lesson learned in this trip to the past,

A lesson learned as the end nears at last

But nothing goes perfect with time or space

For in the future, Twi's foal has no trace

So she cannot go back to her own time again

She cannot go back, until a time when

Years go by and hope is all lost,

Nothing they do, will pay the cost

Until Magic doth finally intervene,

Uniting lost loves and thier foal of between

Two timelines met, new friends they made

Lessons learned in full, high prices paid

Don't lose sight of your friends, for where ever they are

If they're in your heart, they'll never stray far

~Black Sun Eclipse:moustache:

Dark Before Dawn (See Author's Note)

It's always darkest before the dawn,

the most dangerous of us, nothing more than the pawn.

So the world turns on, with the sunrise and set,

all of those we've only just met,

I stare at the beauty of the world as it turns,

and watch the as the plains of Zebrica burn.

~Black Sun Eclipsed:moustache:

Insanity Embraced [Hard Reset 2 (Among Monsters Arc)]

Becoming the monster and seeing you fate

Seeing you become the thing that you hate

But being unable to change, forcing yourself on

Creeping farther into the dark, before seeing yourself at dawn

And when you see what you've become

A mournful tune, all will hum

But as you fall farther into the black

Once the future is saved, can you turn back

Back from the dark and insanity you embrace

Will you look back, look it in the face

Or hide away in the shadows not to see the light

Hide away in shadows, giving up the fight

A loss of all you  know, inside yourself and out

And all you can do now, is sadly fall and shout

Your despair unheard by any  above

Untainted as you insured they could live on in love

But only if you become the monster you hate

Only in embracing your darkening fate.

Black Sun Eclipse:moustache:

A Circular Breakdown(Hard Reset)

Something has gone wrong. We don't seem to have an archived copy of that chapter.

In Final Moments (The End)

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Lament of the Dogs (H'ven Sent)

Something has gone wrong. We don't seem to have an archived copy of that chapter.

Silent Return (Crystal's Wishes)

Something has gone wrong. We don't seem to have an archived copy of that chapter.

Grip of the Heart / Heal Me (Secrets of a Royal Guard)

Something has gone wrong. We don't seem to have an archived copy of that chapter.

A Journey Concludes (Crystal's Wishes)

Something has gone wrong. We don't seem to have an archived copy of that chapter.

Secrets and Costs (Secrets of a Royal Guard)

Something has gone wrong. We don't seem to have an archived copy of that chapter.

A Difference Made (Memory Pending)

A Difference Made

Memory Pending

Memory lost and feeling alone

Past gone and future unknown

A stallion finds his way to a place

Where friendship thrives and feeds a race

But as he continues down his road

He starts to see that he carries a load

For left behind, he has not, his lethal past

He can't seem to make the peace he has last

For though he wants to leave it behind

He can't let it destroy, the peace he must find

So back to the black of space he returns

And here, it is, his final lesson he learns

The lesson that not all learn or can face

The lesson he can see and must embrace

To give his life so his friends might live

To release all he has left to give

All his friends now see and are left to mourn

Hoping his soul might no longer be lost; no longer forlorn

A final peaceful rest he might have at last

Free and away from his Keldarian past

To those left behind, his death, their hearts rend

Torn to pieces, from end to end

He finally made a difference to all,

In his short life, before his fall

His final wish was at last fulfilled

When the threat to his loved ones was revealed and killed

And now he continues to live, as a memory carved within

The hearts and minds of those he knew,

Those where, in his short life, love was planted and grew

His memory forever pending

He made his own upon his ending

The end of his life

Saved his friends, new family, any last strife

-Eclipse:moustache:

Leaving the Past or Fear and Hope (The Walls Came Tumbling Down)

Pre-Poem A/N: Before you read this, you should probably actually read the story it comes from. This avoids questioning my mental state while it is being read. It can still be enjoyed on its own, like the rest, but reading the story shows where it comes from.

Leaving the Past

The Walls Came Tumbling Down

Fear and black, a panic attack

Alone with all her fears

Fear and black, a panic attack

Hiding them for years

Fear and black, can't fight back

Shy is losing hope

Fear and black, can't fight back

She's at the end of her rope

Fear and black, the rope is cut

Forced to confront her past

Fear and black, the rope is cut

Admitting Shy's love at last

Fear and black, heart on the line

And Rainbow runs away

Fear and black, heart on the line

Does also Dash feel that way

Hope and love, little blue dove

Ponies together at last

Hope and love, little blue dove

Helping to heal the past

Hope and love, happiness found

But trials always show

Hope and love, happiness found

Thunder and hatred in tow

Hope and love, soaring high

Above ashes on the ground

Past confronted, fear then buried

True joy, at last, is found

-Eclipse:moustache:

Losing Her Grip [Hard Reset 2(Chapter:Among Monsters(1))]

Losing Her Grip

Hard Reset 2. Chapter: Among Monsters(1)

Losing her equinity to the repeat of days

Like going through the motions and redoing the plays

As she goes on she falls farther away

From her sanity, a price she does pay

For setting things right will not come with ease

Paying dividends of sanity, as her reset fees

Becoming the monster she seeks to destroy

The little things like death only seem to annoy

And with no end in sight, perspective she lacks

Her facade she now wears, slowly starts showing cracks

Among the monsters she now rests her head

And as a monster, she now lays in her bed

As this downward spiral slowly goes on

Is there any way for her to see the beauty, and light, of the dawn?

Losing herself before she knows

Her coldness latches on and slowly grows

Until the day the loops finally end

At which point she'll look back and her heart will rend

At the terrible sight of what she's become

For her whole spirit, now black, has gone fully numb

She will be forced to confront an irreversible sight

She has finally become, darker than night

~Black Sun Eclipse:moustache:

The End (It Didn't Have to End This Way)

The End

It Didn't Have to End This Way

To lose it all to a trusted friend

To watch your home come to an end

Sanity slipping, but feeling no pain

Hope killed, buried and slain

But still she walks this lonely earth

The place she loved, the place of birth

The lives she kept, the lives of love

Lives dead from a little shove

Of the sun, the source of life

Now the cause of death and strife

As hell's gates opened and released

The monsters on life and love to feast

But still she walks, holding false hope

Holding the facade to avoid the rope

As she wanders alone forever more

Waiting to be able to enter, death's welcoming door.