The world that only i can see.

by NightBeat

Rating: teen
Tags: Romance, Fluttershy, Derpy Hooves, Slice of Life, DJ P0N-3, Human, Sad, Princess Luna, Gore, Original Character, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 6118

This is my first fic so don't expect there to be good grammer or it to even be good.

Follow Raekwon (pronounced ray + kwon) as he journeys to equestria and lives the life that he's been waiting for. Will everything go as planed? Will he find his love there?,Will life in equestria be as he pictured it? Many other questions shall be answered and some may not.

Published 2012-03-14 15:34:03 UTC
Last updated 2012-04-24 22:54:26 UTC

Prologue: Again?!?

I awoke from my nap to find myself lying in a forest. Which was strange cause this isn't where i was when i fell asleep, but its fine with me cause i like the forest anyways. I take a look around to try an find out where I am or at least to find some sort of sign as to what forest I'm in. This forest is different then any other forest I've ever seen yet it all seemed so familiar at the same time. I take a step forward only to stop a second later, the sound of soft piano playing in the distance has grabbed my attention. I take a few minutes to look for the source of the music but to my dismay i can't find the source.

I began to walk few more yards when the forest seemed to open up for me revealing a small clearing, I proceed into the clearing with a bit of caution then all of a sudden i was surrounded by bubbles. I began to freak out but then stopped after a few moments when i realized that they weren't doing any harm to me. Continuing on a few more feet when I notice a silhouette, as I get a little closer i noticed who it was. It was Derpy sitting there in all her beauty with her golden mane shining in the small beam of sun that was coming through the trees.

She begins to walk towards me and begins to speak, but for some weird reason i couldn't hear her but I made out some of what she said and I was pretty sure that she was saying "I've been waiting for you." When she finally got up to me she gave me a passionate hug and then grabbed my arm and pulled me to a bigger clearing in the forest. She pulled out a bottle and began blowing bubbles, she handed me the bottle and I started blowing bubbles as well. After we emptied the bottle i stared deep into her eyes and it seemed like she was waiting for something, As i leaned in to kiss her she grabbed my hoof and dragged me off to a different part of the clearing.

When we arrived there were a bunch of flowers spread out cross the field she motions over to them and begins to pick them. I gave her a warm smile and began to pick a bunch of flowers, when we finished a handed her the bouquet of flowers and she takes them from my hooves. She begins smell the flowers and i look of pure joy appears on her face, we once again locked eyes in a deep and passionate gaze. I only assumed that this was the perfect time to kiss her, I lean in to try and kiss her again but just like the last time she grabbed my hoof and dragged me to another part of the clearing and this time it was a nice little picnic that she had set up.

We both sat down on the checkered blanket that was on the ground. she smiled at me and opened the basket the first thing she took out was of course a muffin but i didn't care cause I love muffins. she handed me the muffin and smiled and took out another one, I stared at the muffin for a second and looked back at her with a smile then took a big bite out of it. I had a look of surprise on my face when i realized that it was a blueberry muffin, "did she some how know that they were my favorite kind of muffin?" I had said to myself, we sat there enjoying each others company for what felt like hours.

We sat there and when she made eye contact with me I thought that was THIS was the moment but instead of leaning in to kiss her, I looked at her for a couple more seconds she then pointed up to the sky. I raised my eyebrow and then looked into the sky, to my surprise the sun was already setting and the stars were starting to come out. I lied down on my back to stare at the stars, when i did this Derpy lied down next me. I looked over at her and gave her a warm smile and motioned her to get closer.

She moved in closer and we began to cuddle each other while we stared at the stars. She stopped nuzzling my neck to stare at me, When i looked down at her. Then i realized that our snouts were a few inches away from each other then i realized that THIS was the moment that my whole day led up to this, stared at her for a few seconds making sure that she was waiting for me to make my move. I leaned in and kissed her for what seemed like an eternity, when i opened my eyes i saw her smiling at me but she was blowing away in the wind as if she was sand. When i looked down at my hooves I saw a few grains of sand, I stared at them with a tears in my eyes and i said, "I love you. I'll always love you."

Then I woke up in my bed suddenly, "DAMN!!! The same dream again really?!?!?" I said as I looked around my room. It was the same dirty room that you would expect from a 17 year old boy, I wiped my face only to find a lone tear on the same cheek as my pony in my dream. "huh? Did my dream really have that much affect that it made me cry in real life??" I leaned down and grabbed my phone to check the time, "six o' clock in the morning...." I rubbed my face and got out of bed, i searched around my room and threw on the first clean cloths I could find and went to the bathroom.

As soon as I opened the door my mom is standing there, "what are you doing up so early?" she says with a confused look on her face. "Oh my dream just woke me up is all." I said as I pushed my way past my mom to get to the bathroom, she shrugs at my comment and goes to wake my little brothers up. When I finish packing my things for the school day my mom shouts to me letting me now that we are leaving. I close my door and had to the car, when I got to the car my mom was already backed out of the driveway and ready to pull out.

ONE LONG AND SILENT CAR DRIVE LATER

I open the car door and step out, "bye son i love you have a nice day." my mom yells to me trying to get my attention over my loud music. I simply waved my hand at her as I walked away, when I entered my school I was greeted by my normal group of friends but I didn't really pay any attention to them seeing as my mind couldn't get off the same dream I've been having all week. They all knew something was wrong with me but none of them knew I was a brony and if they did know they would question my dream and say it was just a silly obsession which wasn't true at all it was something more I just didn't know how to explain it to them so I didn't.

I went about my normal day but instead of talking to people I just kept quite and continued thinking about my dream. No matter how hard I tried my mind always came back to my dream, I couldn't escape it... When lunch finally came around i decided that it was best to just eat lunch by myself, so i grabbed my food and went to a random spot in the school, at that moment my phone was flooded with text messages "hey where are you?", "whats wrong?", " why aren't you eating lunch with us?" I looked at my phone and put it back in my pocket and finished my lunch.

When the finally bell rang I met my friends in the middle of the school courtyard and talked to them for a little bit answering there questions with the same answer, "I had stuff to think about.." They just looked at each other and accepted the answer, I gave them all one last good bye and left to the city bus stop. I looked at the stop light and saw that the traffic was backed up so I began to cross, I went passed the first lane of cars then the second then the third but as i stepped into the fourth lane the last thing I felt was my body being tossed into the air.....

When I awoke I was in the middle of a dirt road. I looked around for a second when i heard the sound of a harmonica being played off to the side, I looked over and saw a man sitting underneath a tree. He stopped playing and looked up at me "so I see you finally made it." I looked at him with a confused face "huh yea I guess I did but if I may ask where am I exactly?" The man let out a small chuckle then continued to talk "isn't it obvious boy you are at a cross roads, this is where you chose to either continue living your life the way it is, you can give up and go to heaven, give up and go to hell.....,or continue living your life in a different world of you choice.

I looked at the man for a second and said "I want to live my life in equestria!!!" The man looked at me with a devilish smile and said "alright my boy as you wish but know this, there is no going back and you can't bring anyone or anything with you." I agreed to the terms and with that the man began to play his harmonica in a more melodic tune. When I awoke I was in equestria I looked down and saw two smokey gray hooves with a purple bracelets on my front ankle and higher up on my front legs where yellow bracelets on both legs and on my back ankle there was pink bracelet and higher up were two blue bracelets on both back legs. I shook my head and glasses fell of my face they had a green tint to them, when I looked into them I saw my face I had midnight blue eyes and a red mane with a lighter shade of red for highlights. I jumped for joy when I realized that I was my pony NightBeat!!!! "now how do I start off my new life???" I said to myself as I walked down a dirt path. After walking for an hour I finally came to a sign that read "Steam Town" I raised an eyebrow not recognizing the town name.

"hmmm I've never heard of this town before in MLP:FIM." I walked into the town and looked around, it amazed me at how many buildings where industrialized. "I didn't know that the ponies in the show were this advanced!" I looked for the someone to talk to to get some direction to where ponyville was and the general amount of time it would take me to travel there. I looked around for a little while longer, I walk down the street and bump into a big stallion. He looks down at me with a bit of anger in his eyes, "I'm sorry mister I didn't see you there." I say trying not to get my ass kicked as soon as i get to equestria.

The expression on his face changes from anger to one of shock and confusion, "umm I'm not to sure you are where you think you are kid." He said as he stared at my horn. "really?!?!? then where am I?" I said with a confused look on my face. "yes kiddo this isn't equestria. HA that place is on the other side of the globe from here." He said with a smug look on his face, "WHAT!!!! HOW THE HELL DID I GET WAY THE HELL OUT HERE AND WHERE THE HELL IS HERE ANYWAYS!!!" He takes a step back a little shocked at my choice of words. "well kid you see you are on the continent of New Equinox." He says with a smirk expecting me to have heard of this place. "umm what?!?!" I say with a confused look on my face, "what?! you've never heard of this place and yet you live on the continent!" I looked at him with a sheepish look on my face.

"sorry sir but to be honest I just kinda woke up here." I was ready to to change the subject, "sooooo how much does it cost to get to equestria anyways?" He stops and puts his hoof to his chin then says well if I'm correct it should be about 1000 bits just to get you across the ocean that separates the two continents." He looks at me with a serious look "and since you say you just randomly woke up here I would only assume that you don't have any bits and that means you gotta find some sort of job, and that might be a little hard for you seeing as you are a unicorn and usually all unicorns here are mares and most business owners see that as a sign of weakness." I looked at him with shock, "What! how is that a sign of weakness?" i shouted, "well kid if you haven't noticed most of the ponies here is a either Pegasus or a Earth pony so we really look for a pony who can carry their own weight.... sorry kid all I can say is good luck."

I stood there in shock at what I just heard and then I realized that if they won't hire me as a unicorn they sure wouldn't take me with out any education or training.."well fuck its like life back on earth all over again." I sighed and began to look for a school to enroll myself into. After going to several schools and talking to several principals I finally find a school that will take me in.

After my first week of going to school and bumming it around Steam Town I finally decide to look for a job to start saving up for my journey to equestria. No one wanted to accept me just cause I was a unicorn they didn't even care if I had the proper education, but finally after searching all week I found a place that would let me work for them in a small music shop. I knew i wouldn't be here long but i decided to enjoy it as much as possible. Seeing as i always loved music back on earth.

So here I am in New Equinox struggling to make some sort of pay so that I can make my way to equestria. I sighed "who knew that life here would be pretty much the same as it was back on earth, Oh well i just got to focus on my studies and save up my money." life is gonna be rough..............

AND THERE YOU HAVE IT MY PROLOGUE TO MY FIRST FIC IF YOU LIKE IT PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT TO TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD IMPROVE ON AND OTHER STUFF LIKE THAT AND IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING BAD TO SAY ABOUT MY FIC KEEP IT TO YOURSELF CUZ I'M GONNA UPDATE IT ANYWAYS.... THANKS FOR READING!!!!

Chapter 2: Nightmares...

First off i would like to say I'm sorry....again......I should have had this out sooner but I had to take care of school so yea....and it is kind of a short chapter but i figured it would be easier to make this into two different chapters so i could stick with my promise of haveing an update today....so i hope you enjoy....and if you don't well that kinda sucks i guess....

1 WEEK LATER

I walked out of the forest and slowly dragged my feet on the ground. "damn it how much farther until I get to the coast," I had said to myself with my head hung low.

Mantis's voice slowly started to appear, "hey man check it out. It looks like there is a small town over there."

I looked up and saw the small settlement. "fuckin awesome maybe they have some food or maybe even a place for me to stay the night," I said with a big smile on my face.

"hell maybe we could scare these people into giving us their stuff for free if you know what I mean Night," Mantis said with an evil smile on his face.

I instantly became depressed, "dude why won't you just leave me alone about that... I'm trying to forget all about that day and what I did."

Mantis began to laugh more, "as long as I'm here man you aren't forgetting anything."

I lowered my head and began to walk towards the town, "yeah I know..." After walking for a few minutes I finally reached the town entrance. I looked over to my left to read the sign that was there, "welcome to the town of Melancholy?"

I shrugged it off knowing that since this wasn't Equestria not all the town names had to be happy and inviting.

I walked into the town and saw ponies slowly doing their jobs with blank expressions on their faces. I walked up to the nearest one and asked him if he knew a place I could get food and shelter but he just stared at me for a second and continued to do his job.

"what's up with that guy," Mantis said a bit annoyed

I looked confused as the stallion walked off, "well that was rude..." continuing down the street I kept seeing the same blank expression on everypony's face. I soon came to a playground where five little fillies lazily played.

One of the fillies took notice of me and began to speak with no emotion, "hey mister you don't seem from around here."

I Raised an eyebrow and looked at her, "oh and how can you tell?"

"it's always easy to spot a traveler when they come here, they always have the same look on their face wondering why everypony looks so down," she said while dragging her hooves through the dirt.

I bent down to her level, "well if you don't mind me asking... Why is everypony so depressed?"

She stopped digging at the dirt and looked at me, "it's because we have all come to realize that there isn't anything great about living......all we do is work, eat and sleep that is our lives day in and day out, if we make mistakes we can't change them so why bother trying to be happy when there isn't anything to be happy about......"

I sat down and stared at her for a full minute thinking, "wow this place thinks the same why I did back on earth, I guess no matter where I am... Life is still meaningless..." my face changed from curiosity to full on depression.

"there you go mister why try to be happy when you can just live out the rest of your life like us," she then turned around and walked back to her group of friends leaving me there to be depressed.

I got up and began to walk through town without a purpose just thinking, "I left Steam-town in a journey to get to a place that I may never see..."

Mantis's voice faded in, "listen kid I don't much care for your feelings but what I do know is if you keep up this crap I'm gonna take over and I know you don't want that..."

I sighed, "why are you telling me this if you don't care?"

"I just thought it would be fair to give you a warning," Mantis said as his voice started to fade out.

I shrugged at his advice and continued walking through town with my head hung low.

After a few minutes of walking I came to a park. It was beautiful but my depression kept me from really caring . I sat down on a nearby bench and continued to think about my past....both on earth and in Equestria.

I let out a big sigh, "why am I still here?"

I put my hoofs on my head, "I don't deserve to be alive..."

Starts to cry, "I've come to a land of peace....and my first big impact I've had here was killing ponies..."

The sun begins to set and the moon slowly rises.

"this isn't what I expected it to be like when I came here…I just wanted to be at peace and escape my world," I said as I slammed my hoof down on the bench.

I open my eyes and lean back on the bench and stare at the midnight blue sky, "the only thing that's stayed the same is my love for the sky and that can only keep me at peace for so long…"

Mantis's voice begins to fade in, "then let go and let me take over…"

I continued to stare at the sky and quickly thought about my life and where I was going to end up in the future.

"so what do you say Night? Are you gonna give me control or are you just gonna continue to bitch about your life," he said with a bit of anger in his voice.

I stood up from the bench, "NO!"

Mantis began to laugh insanely, "HAHA whatever you say but in the end you body will be mine…"

I began to slowly walk down a stone path through the park when I came to a bridge. "I can't let you continue to ruin all of these ponies lives," I said with my head hung low.

Mantis stayed silent.

I slowly got onto the edge of the bridge and looked down to see the fast currents crashing against the rocks below, "I won't hurt anypony again…"

Mantis finally spoke, "if this is the only thing you can think of to stop me......then show me that you are as weak as I thought you were.....go ahead.......JUMP!!!!"

Chapter 1: Time sure does fly by...

1 YEAR AFTER ARRIVAL

"It took a while but I finally made almost enough bits to leave this annoying place, and tomorrow is pay day!" I thought to myself while I sat in my desk waiting for school to let out.

Ring!!!!

I looked around the room before packing my things. I checked my saddle bags to be sure I had my ipony and my headphones, I chuckled to myself , "who knew that this place would actually have some form of mp3 player." I said with a smile on my face.

After putting my headphones on and walking outside the school building I was greeted by a few familiar faces. Rock hard, heavy weight, and solid steel. They were the school bullies, they picked on every one but they especially loved to pick on me seeing as I was the only male unicorn in New Equinox. Being from Earth and all I'd seen my fair share of bullies so I did what I normally did when I came across bullies, ignore them and my loud music was making that very easy.

I trotted along my normal path to my job. When I arrived I greeted the manager, "well hello Mr.Crescendo how are you today?" He looked up from polishing a trumpet and smiled, "oh hey Night I'm doing pretty good just trying to get this trumpet looking nice and shiny for a customer." I continued past him to clock in to start my shift but then was interrupted suddenly "ummm Night I got something I need to tell you," Crescendo said with a worried look on his face. I turned around to see what he wanted, "yes sir what did you want to tell me?"

He looked away for a bit almost like he was trying to gather his thoughts, "I'm sorry to have to tell ya this kid but.... I'm gonna have o let you go." I looked at him with confusion and anger, " WHAT!?!? Y are you firing me? What did I do wrong??" He got up from his seat and put his hoof on my shoulder and continued to speak, "you didn't do anything kid it's just that since you are a unicorn some ponies assume that you can't get the job done so they decide to take their business else where."

"But you've seen me get the job done sir shouldn't that be enough?" I said with my head hung low to the ground. "I know I know but sometimes I just got to let people go if they somehow start effecting business, it's nothing personal kid." Crescendo said as he walked back to the counter to continue polishing the trumpet. I sat there in silence for a few minutes thinking on what I just had been told. I looked back up at Crescendo, "do I at least get my final pay check?" Crescendo reached into his pocket and pulled out a small bag, "of course kid, but sadly it's not enough to get you to where your trying to go..."

I took a step forward and grabbed the small bag of bits, "it's fine I'll find a way to make some bits some how." he looked at me with a sad expression then got an Idea, "hey kid I know how much you love your music so how about I let you pick any pair of headphones on the house! Cause the ones you have are starting to look a bit worn down and besides you are gonna want some form of entertainment on your journey." the thought of getting my hoofs on a pair of studio headphones that I've been eyeing for a few months now made me a bit happier so I nodded my head and began walking to where the headphones were.

When I brought the headphones that I wanted back to the counter Mr.Crescendo got out of his chair and patted me on the back, " good luck kid you're gonna need it." With that I put the headphones in my saddle bags and left to the park that I have been livening at for the past year. I found a bench to rest on and took note that the sun was going down. I plugged my new headphones into my ipony and instantly felt a bit happier with my soft rock playing. I fell over on the bench and began to feel myself fall asleep.

While I was sleeping I heard a voice in my head hissing at me but I was still able to make out what it was saying, "It's not fair the way people treat you." At that moment I woke up and noticed that it was morning, I gathered my things and headed to school. On my way to school I heard the voice again, "you can feel them starring at you with disgust can't you?" I looked around making sure that there wasn't actually some pony trying to talk to me. "The whispers can't you hear them," the voice continued to speak to me, "they all hate you and they question why they even bother putting up with you..." I stopped in the middle of town and grabbed my head, "SHUT UP!!!!" I screamed not realizing that I had said it out loud.

I looked around and noticed that everyone was looking at me with confused looks on their faces. "hey hey hey don't yell at me I'm your friend I'm only trying to help you see what you've been blind to all this time," the voice said. I smiled sheepishly and continued walking, "If you are my friend then please leave me alone I really don't need this kind of stress right now." the voice hissed, "fine but I'll be back when you need me and trust me you will need me..." the voice faded away and didn't come back.

When I finally got to the school I made my way to my first class, but half way to class I was met with five familiar faces. Rock hard, Heavy weight, Solid steel, Silver hide, and Iron lung. They were the school bullies and they pretty much picked on everyone, but they especially loved to pick on me seeing as I was the only male unicorn in New Equinox. Since I dealt with bullies back on Earth I was used to that kind of stuff I just ignored them and continued to head to class.

Class was the same as always long and boring, when lunch came around so did the bullies. They kept flinging their food at me trying to piss me off but I continued to ignore them and finished my lunch. The final class came around, I was a bit excited that I was gonna start my trip to Equestria today as soon as school let out, but I kept thinking about all the stuff that the voice in my head was telling me, "it's not like they were lies I mean I hear ponies gossip about me and I could feel their stares."

I rubbed my head trying to stop the pain that I was starting to feel. As soon as I thought I relieved the pain, the final bell rang causing my headache to return I gathered all my stuff and left the school. I put on my headphones and begin to play my music while I walked down the dirt path leading outside of town towards the ocean where I could hop aboard a ship to head to Equestria.

About 15 minutes down the path I came across the five bullies from earlier on that day, I did what I do best and ignored them. This only seemed to make them angry, they began picking up rocks and throwing them at me but most of them missed, until Heavy weight picked up a decent sized rock and threw It through the air it finally came down and smacked me on my head.

I fell to the ground and closed my eyes, I could feel them moving closer and laughing at me. "so It seems you might need my help?" the voice in my head said. "yes I do need your help but how can you help me?" I said with doubt, the voice let out a small chuckle, "oh Night all you have to do is follow me and I will show you." With that I began feeling myself slipping, when I finally opened my eyes I found myself in some sort of hospital.

I looked around and began to walk forward, after I walked a few yards a figure came out of one of the rooms, he looked like a normal human but he had giant spikes shooting out of the palms of hands and the skin on his face was peeled back reviling his muscle and his skull. " welcome Night I'm glad we could finally met face to face," the man said with a slight hiss at the end. I was shocked by his appearance but decided to ignore it, "who are you, and where am I?" The man stood there with a smug look on his face and said, "my name is Mantis and this place..." he let out a small chuckle then continued, "this place is where all your crazy and demented thoughts end up, it's an insane asylum really.

You just seem to lock all these crazy thoughts and ideas up never to be seen again." I looked at him with disbelief as we walked down the hall way, "that can't be true, I mean I don't really have any thoughts like that..." Mantis looked over at me then said, "there's no point in fighting it man I live in this crazy place and I see all your thoughts come right through here and hell some of them even decide to stay." He started laughing as he pointed to a door with a small window.

I looked at the door then walked over to it to look inside, what I saw surprised me. It was a bully back when I used to live on Earth, he was cut in half from the waist line and his arms were chained to the ceiling. His chest was cut right down the middle and his rib cage had been forced open showing off all his organs, but he was some how still alive screaming for the never ending pain to stop.

I backed away from the door and looked back at Mantis, "I remember thinking about this back on Earth... So is this all true, is this what my head is really like? Do I have any normal thoughts?" I held my hoofs to my face and started to cry, " yes you do but you see you rarely ever have any normal thoughts so there is no need for your mind to create someone like me to keep track of it all." I looked at Mantis, "so what now? I came to you for help and all you've done is give me a tour of my fucked up head."

Mantis laughed for a second, "if you want to see how I helped you then all you gotta do is wake up...." Mantis continued to laugh but it began to fade away when I put my hoofs over my eyes not wanting to see this place again. When I opened my eyes the first thing I saw was a red substance on my hoofs.

It took me a second to realize what It was, "BLOOD!? B-but how did it get on me and who's is it?" I looked around for a few seconds but then I saw the source of the blood. There were five bodies lying on the ground all dead, the faces were all unrecognizable but I knew who they were. Each body had its own brutal style of death, I could hear Mantis laughing in the back of my head, "isn't this great kid they didn't even stand a chance."

I looked at the bodies and began to freak out, "shit shit shit I need to get out of here if the rest of the ponies find out these guys are missing I don't wanna be anywhere near their bodies." With that I grabbed my saddle bags and ran down the dirt path. About a half mile down the path I suddenly felt a sharp pain on my head, I reached my hoof up to rub my head but then stopped when I noticed a chunk of my left ear was missing.

I quickly pulled my hoof away from my ear cause of the pain that was shooting through my body. I sighed, "I wonder how long it's gonna take me to get to the coast..."

A few weeks passed and I still hadn't reached the coast, "hey Mantis you still there?" A few seconds passed before I got a response, "oh hey kid I thought you might have forgotten about me." I looked down at my hoofs while I walked, "after what you made me do to those five guys how could I forget about you..." Mantis chuckled, "I didn't make you do anything kid. That was all you, that's what happens when you bottle up all your stress like that. I was simply the catalyst that helped you snap faster well the rock that hit your head helped to." Mantis laughed the whole time.

I stopped walking and put my head down, " it's just I don't like the fact that I wasn't in control of my body." Mantis stopped laughing, "listen Night don't worry about it too much it was your first time being like that the way I see it you have two choices, you could either find a way to control it or find a way to keep yourself from getting so angry, but there will come a time when you might have to let your rage control you..." With that being said I continued down the path.