Fillyhood Memories: Fluttershy

by Low Octave

Rating: everyone
Tags: Slice of Life, Sad, Romance
Length: 1345

Fluttershy overviews her childhood memories, those of which she lived without knowing her real parents.

We all know the shy and innocent Fluttershy who has insecurities in every aspect of her life. But where does those problems stem from and how did they come to create who she is now.

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2013-12-30 01:10:08 UTC

Parental Diffidence

        My name is fluttershy and I’m a pegasus that lives right outside of Ponyville, although I am from cloudsdale. I tend for almost all of the little critters and animals that inhabit the area. Also I’m considered to be the element of kindness, I’ve  helped my friends, more or less, save ponyville and equestria countless times. And all of them are extremely caring and great. Twilight, Applejack, Rarity and Rainbow Dash, Especially Rainbow Dash. She has always been there for me… No matter what. It may not look it, but Rainbow Dash is the most sincere and caring friend I could ever have.

        Even though I’d never say it out loud, I couldn’t do that to my other friends. I couldn’t let them know I cared for Rainbow Dash as much as I do, I-it wouldn’t be fair to them. To let them know, just because Rainbow Dash was there by my side from the beginning, I hold her over everypony else. I would sound like a big jerk, yet none of my other friends know of my… my situation like Rainbow Dash does. M-my situation, is one that I HATE thinking about, it is one that I may never forget. I’ll go over and over and over it again, wanting to think of ways of how it could have been different or how it could have turned better sooner. But my problems all started when I was born, born with nothing. No place to call home, no mother or father. Before I was even born I had lost my father, he was a wonderbolt, from what I was told, and he died performing high risk maneuvers for a crowd in manehatten. No pony ever really gave a straight answer to what really happened or who he really was, however what was clear was that he had left a wife behind, one that was carrying foal.

        Leaving my mother to carry me eleven months on her own. Having to deal with the hardships of having a foal and working to keep up payments on the cloud house. Even though my father was considered to be a wonderbolt, it was said that he also had a terrible gambling problem and often times couldn’t put down the cider. Meaning the money my mother got as consolation, all went straight into the debts she inherited on my father's behalf.

        She had to struggle for many long months, until her struggle was finally over. She had given birth to a little filly. One that she would never get to see… My mother died in the third hour of labor due to what they called complications, I never even gotten to see pictures of my parents, the Cloudsdale Bank took everything valuable and stripped or destroyed anything else that wasn’t, stuff like heirlooms and pictures. Ignoring the fact that my mother had left me behind to be sent off to Little Wings Orphanage. Which was a small under funded program that was neglected in the system that was kept in the great cloud city.

        Therefor once I started attending flight school, I had nothing or no pony to trust. Everypony only looked and whispered behind my back, at one point I even thought my shadow was mocking me. St-still I didn’t understand why they torchured me, why they loved to sit their and watch me cry. I did nothing to them. NOTHING!

        Yet I could do nothing, except skip school every chance I got. I would just stay in the orphanage and cry myself through the day, only to repeat the process the next day. I had missed half of the year at that point and fight councilors had took full notice to my absence streak at that point. They forced me to return to the school to only be further ridiculed by the students for being barely able to fly. The constant taunting, FLUTTERSHY CAN BARELY FLY. It was destroying me, I even thought about jumping right off the cloud layer and ending it all. If I would have had parents, or somepony to care and tend for me, I could have been a different filly, a better one. But as most of my dreams, it was just that a dream, something that would be left to be unfulfilled.

But one day a new student had came to school like many others, yet she was different. There was something about her messy rainbow mane and those bright magenta eyes that inspired something inside of me. Just like me, she was taunted and laughed at. However she didn’t cry or run away, No she stood and fought their words with her own. All she ever would say was. “I will be the best flyer in Equestria!” She spoke those words proudly to, flaring her fiery passion that I could only admire.

I knew her name at the time as well, Rainbow Dash. I always wanted to say something to her, but couldn’t. Between the constant teasing and the crippling shyness I could only watch from the shadows as she challenged the world itself. She had never once looked my way, even though I always had an eye on her. All she ever did was practice, practice practice. Some times until she passed out completely, and it was around those times I even tried my best to train, to become better. Even though I could only get a few feet off the ground before losing all strength I tried anyway, doing my best to work against the odds, just as the young Rainbow Dash.

Still it was to no avail, my progress halted at a few feet and a few seconds airborne. I couldn’t do it… and those bullies made sure I would remember my failure every time I tried. To be a matter of a fact I would have completely quit there if it wasn’t for her stepping in. Rainbow Dash told them to stop messing with me, she even said my name as well. I had no idea she even knew it nor how she came to know it. Still at that moment my knees grew weak and the world had begun to spin.

Before I knew it, I found myself getting ready to flag off a race to defend my honor. If I had been paying any attention at the time I would have knew how things had progressed that far in a short amount of time… But I didn’t. And now my idol was standing ready to put herself on the line for somepony who had nothing to offer. I-I just didn’t know what to think or what to believe? Was she really doing it for me, and if so, why?

It was just hard to believe that she would just challenge three of the schools best fliers to a race, for pity of some worthless filly as me. But as I stood atop of that could, directly opposite of the starting line. I only saw determination and fury in those magenta eyes as I held that flag in my mouth, preparing to give the signal while all the ponies from school sat around and watched. It was a suspenseful moment for me and I bet it was even more so for Rainbow Dash. But again I found myself helpless to the moment, there was nothing I could do besides wave the flag and sit on the sidelines, being helpless and useless as usual.

But there was one thing I had to do, wave that flag to start the race. Even though I didn’t want to, I had to. Rainbow Dash was waiting and I couldn’t just back out on something as simple as waving a flag. W-what would Rainbow Dash think if I just refused to start the race because I was scared, would she do the same as all the others and reject me. I wouldn’t have been able to bare it, but as the crowd was beginning to become unruly, there was no other option. I HAD TO WAVE THE FLAG!