I remember how this all started. I was a foal, to young to truly understand the result of my actions the day you came and saw me in magic kindergarten. I remember I was so nervous, not about the test, but about disappointing my parents. Thanks to Rainbow Dash's ever present obsession with winning, I startled upon my special talent.
Its ironic really. Her always being first that is. Considering she was the first of my friends to pass away. I will always remember the day that I got the news she passed away in her sleep. At first I thought it a cruel joke, but when I teleported outside of her cloud house, to see everypony there. I was hit by a lightning bolt of feelings. Denial at first, this was the invincible Rainbow Dash we were talking about! The toughest pony around! The most loyal soul to have ever lived! The ponies made a hole to let me through the crowd and I walked inside. First through the kitchen, the sense of the inevitable growing in turn with each of my steps.
I got to the hallway to her room and saw the crying form of Fluttershy being comforted by Rarity with was also crying, but trying to soothe Fluttershys sobs. I rounded the corner to see Rainbow Dash in her bed with Applejack and Pinkie Pie surrounding her bed on opposite sides. The latter completely gone were her mannerisms. Instead she donned a flat mane, and bloodshot eyes. Applejack sat there blankly with her hat off in respect. We shared no words as I walked up. She looked so peaceful. Just like she was sleeping. I walked up to the end of her bed, trying to hold my brave face, but it was no use when I saw her face and realised that one of my best friends was gone, and not coming back. I broke down. Not bothering trying to hold back the tears anymore. I openly cried over the lifeless body of one of my friends, tears streaming down my face as I fell to the ground in a quivering mess. Pinkie and Applejack rushed to comfort me, all the while crying their own tears. We all shared our grief for our lost friend, together.
I apologise about that princess. These memories are painful to remember, and now that I'm writing to you about them, the pain is coming back. In any case, I'll get back to where I was going. The next to pass, was Rarity. She looked as beautiful on her death bed, as she did the first day I met her. This was something we all knew was going to happen soon before it did. She became increasingly sick in her age, and you know as well as I do that nothing we did, worked. It seems even being a princess has its downfalls. All the treatment hadn't improved her condition. All we could do for her was be there in her last days. Her condition worsened and we knew it would only be a short amount of time before she passed. Everypony was present at her last moments. Her last words we're, "I love all of you. Thank you for living this life with me." She passed shortly after. Her service was as beautiful as she was. Sweetie Belle said a few words in Raritys behalf, as did I and the remaining elements.
After years of quiet, the next of my close friends died. It was Fluttershy. She had always been so kind in life and also in death. She lived in a secluded part of Ponyville on the outskirts of the Everfree forest as you know and no one knew of her passing until days later when Applejack went to visit her and found her upstairs in her bed, as peaceful looking as ever. Applejack thought she actually was just sleeping until she tried to wake her and received no response. Applejack rushed to get me and when we got there all I could do was confirm AJ's fears. Her funeral was set in the forest and decorated with nature. It was the way she would have wanted it. All of the animals she cared for showed up to pay their respect for the selfless pony who took care of them. As she was being lowered down, Pinkie, who had kept a strong face the entire proceedings, broke down and started sobbing uncontrollably. Me and Applejack comforted her as best we could.
The last of my friends died within a year of one another. First Pinkie, then Applejack. Pinkie's funeral was more of a wake than a funeral. She said she didn't want ponies to be sad when she died, just to be happy that they're still alive and have a life to live. It was incredibly hard to be happy about being one of the last remaining elements, but for Pinkies sake, I tried.
Applejacks passing was just of old age. I was glad that through everything else, she stuck with me. It also meant that I was the last element. And the immortality hit me full force with her passing. I had outlived all my friends. What is the point of living if I can't live life with my friends? And so we get to the point of this letter. I wish for you to grant me the gift of death. What life is there to live when everything you've loved and cared for is gone? Spike is all grown up and can take care of himself. I guess I might be being selfish by asking for death but it is the only solution I can see right now. I am done with this life, I want to move to the next and my immortality is just bringing me the same grief over and over. I don't want to live forever! I hate the fact that I have outlived my friends! I hate the fact that I can't join them where they are because of something YOU bestowed upon me! I hate YOU!!
Maybe my way is the cowards way out, but its my way and I'm taking it. I have a book of spells about reversing immortality next to me and the only reason I'm sending this letter to you is to let you know that I will no longer be a princess. I am just Twilight Sparkle. I didn't mean what I said about hating you. You are the only constant in this world of changes. I've always considered you a second mother and always looked up to you as a pony, not just a ruler. I don't know how you've managed to live as long as you have. I lack the strength of mind to stay here This is the last time I will write to you, my grief is to much and I can't bare it any longer. Know I love you and would do anything for you if I could. But I can't. Good bye Princess.
Twilight Sparkle.
