Author's Note

No one helped me with the name... and if you have any ideas, let me know

Regret and Apologies

Some reason I didn’t wake up until the sun was mostly gone, a light in the sky that burned bright orange, beautiful lines of clouds streaked acoss the sky, all of the colours is downright amazing, I sat up and looked around, no one was their but once I spotted the cart and saw AJ’s legs, she had one leg propped up and her hat was back on her head, tilted down so I couldn’t see her face, but she saw me move and she slowly raise it, trying to avoid eye contact, but I saw her face, sad face, big sad eye’s that expressed more than she would say.

“I didn’ mean to, I just needed to try... but I gave ya the wrong bottle, I had the one wit’ Viagra and ecstasy... I was tryin’ to have pure senseless sex, I decided to try an’ drug ya, but I swear it was just so I can cum... I-I allready did...” I looked down at her pelvis to see that their was a large wet patch, maybe she did cum but did she do it over me? “... I had too, I have a high sex drive and I use tha’ to my advantage, sometime’ I need to get rid of most of the juices, but usually I just pump em’ out.... I’m sorry, I saw ya and just wanted you...” I stood up and walked over to her while she was talking, when I got to her she looked up and I could see tears, tears of regret, clearly she was distrout, so I decided to help her up.

Extending my hand she took it firmly and I pulled, she flew up and into my arms, which I unknowingly cuaght her, and she smotherd her head into my shoulder, the rim of her hat hit my chin and I chuckled slightly but she just kept pushing into me, until the hat fell off and then some she just kept on crying... I felt the need to pat her so she felt comfort, and when I did she looked up at me, those eyes were bigger than before teared and watery with tears and emotion.

“I don’t know what your problem is... but if you like me than I can’t change that... I want to be with Twilight... I think, not with anyone else, as far as I’m concerned your just a friend that wants to be with me... like so many others... none of them I’ll be with... I’m sure” She pulled her head back and looked at me, the tears were still there but she stopped crying for now just the remnants remained now, waiting to be wiped away against the back of her hand or by the tip of mine, which is what happened, my hand came up to her face and brushed against it with my first knuckle, the feeling of wetness against it was weird but she was smiling weakly afterwards, but she wasn’t done showing her gratitude as she stretched out her legs and spine to reach my height, and up to my face hers came and as she left a small kiss was behind in her wake, leaving me smiling as well... but mine was so she would feel better, which worked, her perky attitude came back and I felt almost at peace once again, but I remember what she did just about a few minutes ago... I’m not sure why I’m being so nice to her, but after she told me she needed to do it I guess I felt sorry for her so I went along with her over to her cart again, this time her arm was wrapped around mine, clutching me closer to her chest than I thought was necessary but she didn’t let go... I just let her cling onto me.

“I don’ think I can pull the Cart... ugh” we stopped at the cart and she let go of my arm only to fall onto a knee as she used the cart to hold herself up, but she fell back against it resting and catching her breath as she slowly looked back up at me, I went to pull her up but instead she dragged me down with her, I didn’t anticipate it so I nearly hit the cart but I was quick enough to avoid it, so now I was at her level, kneeling next to her as she caught her breath, her chest rising and falling as she tried to regulate her breathing, tying to form words which inevitably ended up as. “It was a big un’, bigger tha’ I though’”

“I’m sure it’s not as bad as you imagined...” she looked at me, and I just lowered myself next to her, after another quick glance she was lent on my shoulder, I didn’t want to move her off, and even though she just tried... raping me, even though she wasn't successful I still felt sorry for her, and she only started acting like that after she started drinking.

“I’m not even sure wha’ I’m doin’ wit’ mah’ life anymor’, aside from goin’ insane... and helpin’ Twilight fix her problems... God I can’ even have sex wit’ someone wit’out messin’ it up, sorry ‘bout tha’... can we just sit here for a min’?” I agreed and we watched the sun fall from the sky... how it was once a pure bronzed colour it was now filled with the brightness of many stars, I got really comfortable with AJ on my shoulder, so much that she felt the same, and drifted off into a soundless sleep, I almost thought she may have died or something, but once I nudged her she woke up... and she had the strength back in her legs and once again both of us were on our feet... walking the path that seemed to never end, I was pulling the cart and it seemed to be made sturdy enough to handle the roads, we were nearing the end of the meadow and I was amazed as to how many fenced off hills replaced it, in these fields their was a large supply of trees... almost all of them were covered in apples, maybe harvest season is coming sooner than I thought, and maybe it’s a lot easier for me now, I’m not entirely sure why but maybe I’ll be proven right.

“Ya’ know how big mah’ family actually is right? hay ya’ never know we might be related, not a high chance of it though...” I looked over at her and she just smiled at me, I wasn't sure as to what she meant at the time, and it didn’t even make sense as to how she started talking about both of us possibly being related, you know what I did, absolutely nothing.

“I’m not even sure how you came up with the idea of both of us being related, and even if we were, why would you try and have sex with me? if you had thought about that before you tried it, you might have thought twice and not done it... makes sense right?” once again a quizzical look came too rest upon her face, this must have been the third time now, but this one quickly vanished along with some of the fields to the side of us.

“I’m real’ sorry for earlier... bad mistake, I don’ know why I did it... I guess it were’ a heat thing” was tis woman really saying that she goes into heat, like some sort of animal... but that can’t be true, right?

“I thought only animals could go into heat...” She giggled, and she smiled after finishing.

“I meant it like a joke, I know animals go into heat, an’ humans are kinda like that... but it’s all tha’ time, it’s only after, ya’ thing... when we need it most... well tha’s what I believe.” still walking along the path... it seems this road is very long... and a pain in the ass to walk across, pot holes, mud and stones.. I've never walked over something so uncomfortable.

“How far is it now?”

“Uhh... righ’ thei’” Pointing off to a massive red and purple roofed barn/ building, I wasn't sure at what I was looking at, at first anyway but the closer I got, I understood that this building was actually converted into a home, for how many people their may be... I’m not sure, I hoped their wasn't anyone as sexually frustrated or as sexually wanting as AJ I always get the two mixed up, but if they were even more forceful than AJ than I may be in trouble.... better ask just to be sure.

“Hay, AJ... is their anyone inside your house that might, either pummel me if they found out what happened, or might try what you tried... except succeed, is their anyone who will do that?” she looked over at me and had a small ponder of whom was inside... but she quickly looked back towards the house and spoke her piece.

“Well, thie’ mah’ brother, younger sis’ an’ mah gram-gram, mah’ sis don’t know ‘bout sex an’ mah brother might not hurt ya’ I hope” we wern’t far from the house now and I could see the old woman rocking in a chair, and I thought this was far enough from the house so I slowed down and AJ did the same... I turned to her and let the cart fall back onto the ground... she sort of looked over at me with half glazed, wistful eyes, once I was facing her she looked around, as if trying to avoid eye contact, her foot scrapped along the floor leaving a darker shade of dirt on top instead of the flat brown type it normally is...

“Hay, Soran have ya ever... milk’d anythin’?” This was an odd question, but I imagined by her blush that she meant something other than a cow.

“Animal’s, no... why do you ask?” she looked off to the side and her blush looked like it was intensifying, almost to the point as where it was covering most of her freckled face... it was adorable seeing her like this, but I knew she wasn’t thinking about milking any animals any time soon.

“I didn’ wan’ ta tell ya’ this, but I actually hav’ a secret to mah’ cider, an’ it involves somethin’ from me, an’ I carry it everywher’” her hand lay across the top of her bust, in an unwanted movement I actually looked at her tits, and I surprisingly noticed that she was pushing her chest out, to try and catch my eyes and it did... I didn’t pull away, and she started rubbing her chest , over the nipple and she repeated it over and over, until she was stifling a moan that was making her do some very cute moans.

“I’m sure I could help in some way, but if I do get with Twilight, I might not be able to keep that promise... or even be allowed to think about that” she didn’t stop toying with herself but she did slow down a little bit, only enough for me to see the bumps of where her areola are.

“Well... mmh, if ya’ ever need some work, or some... or if ya’ feel like helpin’ out... we always hav’ some jobs” she actually stopped rubbing so she could close on my and give me a rather large hug... squeezing slightly until I patted her on her lower back, she let me go “ ya’... ya’ just a handsome bast’rd, Twi is one lucky gal” I smiled and she did the same back, she walked by to her cart and dragged it off towards the building ahead of us, she called back towards me to say her goodbyes and off I went to my own home... a small house on the northern hill, not to far from the farm, but far enough to allow me the time to think about the day so far...

I couldn’t tell you about how far I walked, but I finally got to my home, I never knew why but I was imagining Twilight’s face, her smile and her eyes...