Gods, give me another chance!
Alcohol over love
Rainbow Dash would be lying to herself if she did not admit that what Fluttershy did was awesome as buck. Ok, in truth, catching a baby hummingbird at the last second before it hit the ground was impressive, but not to be titled as awesome as buck.
That was only reserved for what she herself did, then again almost all that she did was awesome... almost, at least. Ruffling her own multi colored mane and swaying her tail she did her best to try to hold her composure as she walked towards the two creatures, Fluttershy naturally frantically worried that the poor thing hurt itself, Rainbow herself was a bit concerned but did her best to hide it.
With a swallow of spittal Rainbow Dash blinked before asking if they were both ok, trying to ignore the rays of sun illuminating Fluttershy’s mane in a burst like pink, beautiful crystals or the sudden rapid pounding of her own heart or if she looked more closely the small glimpse of twin curved fangs nestled at the back of her teeth and cleared her throat loudly.
Flicking her long tail that held the same color her signature mane did, she looked over the cheerful and if she was being brutally honest with herself, cute scene off all Fluttershy’s animals she watched over as they chatted in their own animal language ponies could not even understand, all but Fluttershy of course, odd how she could hear the apparently difficult words that even the Gods could not understand but she disagrees, it was not her concern and she had to make sure her marefriend was alright... well, her former marefriend that is.
Rainbow Dash had almost forgot she was in the presence of company as she turned her head away to keep a lone tear from escaping her eye and blew her mane out of her face to hide her mistake of being... girly.
She made an excuse that she was late for work to Fluttershy, even though she had just got down with her shift and blasted off into the sky like a falcon, not halting her flying until she had came to the entrance of her cloud home which was floating lazily high in the sky.
Kicking open her door with emitted a small puff she entered into the tornado that was her home, speckles of food, clutters of thrown clothing she had been given by Rarity and a strange green substance which she had no idea what it was is what greeted Rainbow Dash, Tank her pet tortoise was sleeping on his own small portion of cloud making Rainbow Dash smile before trotting towards her kitchen and opening the fridge, looking around quickly she spotted the item she had been searching for and took out a clear bottle that held a light amber color of liquid in it making her smile and tip the bottle, gulping down it’s contents before taking her mouth off the rim to breathe.
With a loud sigh she grinned, she loved having hard cider in the afternoon, it made the day go much... smoother as her face radiated joy then turned to a frown and a painful reminder of what caused her relationship with Fluttershy to end in the first place.
She would give up drinking if Fluttershy gave up smoking, that was the deal they had agreed upon before they entered into the next phase of their friendship... and although Rainbow Dash expected the shy mare to crack under the stress she received daily, she had been proven wrong.
She even had a damn speech prepared to celebrate the moment of her victory for which she would smack the cigarette out of Fluttershy’s hoof and reprimand her for her devious action and betrayal before sitting her down, giving her a very serious talk about the effects of smoking and offer to get her professional help, even paying for her way to break the disgusting, bits wasting once and for all... but she had been proven wrong.
Fluttershy found her marefriend passed out drunk on the cold, wooden floor with one bottle of hard cider in her left front hoof and another tucked firmly in her right wing, both completely empty of it’s contents causing her to grit her teeth in anger she had kept buried for a long time since she’s been with Rainbow Dash, a whole year.
She bit down so hard the two fangs she held sliced effortlessly into her gums making her yelp in pain before she snorted through her nose and trotted forward to pick the mare up.
Rainbow Dash had told her the next morning that she had been invited to an adult party by Pinkie Pie for Raindrop’s birthday with Thunderlane and Roseluck, one Fluttershy herself did not want to attend, she swore that she did not even know when somepony had obviously spiked her punch, but Fluttershy could see through her lie, she knew Rainbow Dash better than the mare knew herself.
With a firm shake of her head, her eyes closed shut to drown out Rainbow Dash’s lies as well as the sudden dark, cruel voice that belonged to her dark alter ego, Flutterbat as she had been aptly named, Fluttershy slammed her right front hoof hard into the wooden table in front of her and screamed that she heard enough, from both voices.
Hearing no comment from the darker voice, she turned her attention towards her marefriend, the very mare who had broken her promise and lied to her face.
Turning her head away she quietly asked Rainbow Dash to leave, the other Pegasus was speechless at how she could be so blatantly tossed out of her second home, they had once discussed the possibility of living in only one house together, of which house though, either was sure, and now... now there was no hope.
She opened her mouth to argue, after all, being right and winning at a challenge was what made her Rainbow bucking Dash!
Yet not a single syllable could be uttered out of her mouth before Fluttershy lost patience and screamed for her to get out of her bucking house, her exact words if Rainbow Dash remembered and yet, it still struck her heart with the speed of a lighting bolt that because of one simple, flawed mistake that they were no longer together, Rainbow Dash was no fool, she knew when a mate was at the end of their wit with her, though she had thought that Fluttershy would try to make excuses for trying to get Rainbow Dash to change and get better they both knew in their heart of hearts they there was no changing who she was.
The evidence was in the refrigerator in a small six case of Hayseed beer stashed in the back of Fluttershy’s cold food and drinks storage just as she knew that her marefriend or rather former had an entire carton of cigarettes stashed into the back of her closet.
Could their addictions truly be that hard to break, could they keep up the facade that maybe they should just accept the other and allow their sins they applied to themselves rather than try to change the other all because the smell of the nicotine made her gag while her own drunken mind state and awful smelling breath always frustrated Fluttershy and made her vomit, along with the bucked up memory of Fluttershy’s father coming home drunk almost every night, if he was not drunk when he came home he would be when he got home, Rainbow Dash remembered Fluttershy once telling her.
Guilt gripped her heart like the icy talon of a griffin and she stormed out of the house of the very mare she had be in love with since they fought the Changeling army along with their friends, ignoring the fact that she rudely bumped into her old friend, Derpy Hooves who glared back at her and screamed at her to watch where she was flying almost causing her to stop and turn around to escalate the matter at hoof into a brawl she shook her head and carried on, away from the cruel words of her former mate, blacking out as she consumed alcohol after alcohol that very night while she had no doubt Fluttershy was smoking more than a chimney in her own house now that they could be free to dive head first into the very sins that got the two into their relationship, if only to help shape the other into the mare they wanted the other to be.
Rainbow Dash looked carefully at the very liquid that had both formed then ruined her love for the mare she once had, placing the glass with the rim aimed towards the sink she emptied the remaining liquid which was almost a full glass and threw the bottle away, with a sigh she flopped onto her cloud bed and not even bothering to pull the blankets over her body, she looked at the night sky that was Luna’s domain, wondering why it was that Fluttershy had prayed to her each and every night.
She never understood why ponies put their faith in the Equestrian Gods, perhaps she never would, but for one night, this night only, Rainbow Dash allowed her eyes to travel to the full moon that held suspended high beyond the world and for once closed her eyes, no putting her hooves together, no acknowledging a single one of the immortals and no praying for everything in her life to get better, as she had seen so many others do.
A simple yet meaningful prayer to whoever the buck would listen to her pled, if they would do anything to begin with.
“Gods, give me another chance with Fluttershy.” She whispered before opening her eyes and looking again at Luna’s moon, waiting for something to happen.
After waiting for ten minutes, nothing did, Fluttershy did not come kicking down her door saying that they could make it work, Celestia did not descend from the sky giving her a single answer and Cadence, the Goddess of Love herself did not even bother to whisper words of encouragement into her head... figures, the Gods never cared for mortals who broke a vow to the one they loved, she should have expected as much.
Without bothering to waste any more time on such a cruel, unforgiving week, Rainbow Dash pulled her blanket over herself, closed her eyes and slumbered, allowing a single lone tear to trail down her face knowing she had ruined everything all because of a single night of a spiked fruit punch.
Author's Note
Very sorry this took so long to make, had to get Betrayal of a dragon and Crystal Savior complete first though, enjoy.
