Waking Up With Twilight
Chapter 6 -- A Fool in Love
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Chapter 6 -- A Fool in Love
Rays from Celestia's Sun woke me from my slumber, causing me to grumble lightly at the annoyance of having that happen ... again. I tried turning over and noticed the white stallion still had his foreleg wrapped around my body, giving me a sense of comfort. I felt somewhat strange, as though the intense warmth that had been so pervasive had left me. Also gone was that overwhelming urge to be rutted senseless, something that I considered to be a great relief, until I realized what that meant. My eyes went wide with fear at this realization and I sat bolt upright and began screaming.
"What's wrong, my Lady?" the Prince asked as he groggily rubbed sleep from his eyes. He sat up, turned to me and smiled. "You have made me so happy, Lady Amethyst! Please allow me to accompany you today!"
"AAAAAAHHH!" I screamed again and jumped out of his bed, losing my balance and falling on my face. I scrambled to my hooves and tried to gallop for the door, but in my haste to leave, my hooves slipped and I slid into the door face first. I grunted in pain as I tried to collect my senses and rose to my hooves again.
"My Lady, please! Stay with me awhile longer, please!" he begged as he crawled to the edge of his bed. I turned around, a scowl on my face as I trotted slowly over to him.
"YOU! You got me PREGNANT!" I screeched as I mashed my muzzle against his, causing him to cower under the bedcover, a look of fright on his face.
"Please! Please don't hurt me, my Lady! I thought you wanted me to rut you!" he protested meekly as he backed away from me and fell off the other edge of his bed and onto the floor. I trotted around his bed to meet him again, but my expression had softened.
"Prince Blueblood -- I know that's what I wanted yesterday -- but that was because I was feeling the effects of the estrus, and those hormones made me do things I shouldn't have done," I replied softly, wrapping my forelegs around him to hug him. "You're going to be a father in less than a year, Blue."
"AAAAAAAAHHHH!! NOOOOOOOO!!" he wailed as he broke from my embrace. "By my Aunt's beard! I'm too young to be a father! I haven't lived enough! I -- I --" he blurted before he stopped and turned around to face me. "This was your plan all along, wasn't it, Lady Amethyst? To get me to rut you so you could bear a foal by me? To make me fall in love with you and want you by my side all the time? To -- to --" he slowly trotted up to me and smiled, pushing his muzzle against mine before kissing me on my lips. "You had me going there for a minute, my Lady! Thinking I had gotten you pregnant or something..."
"I hate to break it to you, Blue, but my estrus has left me -- that can mean only one thing -- that you got me pregnant," I responded matter-of-factly, giving him a neutral expression. He stood in stunned silence, his mouth agape, his eyes wide with fear, his ears lowered. I watched him try to say something, his mouth flopping open and closed like a fish, which elicited a light chuckle from me. "Perhaps your Auntie can help us, though -- maybe she might have an answer to this little dilemma," I suggested warmly.
"Yes! That's it! Let's go see Auntie Tia NOW!" he implored, grinning foolishly as he cantered to the door and opened it, breaking into a near gallop to reach the Dining Hall. I quickly matched his pace as our hoofsteps reverberated loudly through the corridor. We arrived at the Dining Hall very shortly, the Prince barging his way in hurriedly. Upon seeing the Solar Princess sitting serenely at her end of the table, he practically pranced right up to her. I had to stifle a chuckle at his display.
"Auntie Tia, I'm afraid I may have done something rash," he offered, his head and ears lowered in apology.
"I suppose you might have impregnated Amethyst, am I correct in this assumption?"
"Y-yes, Auntie Tia, I -- I -- I think I might have, just a little," he said meekly, bowing a little deeper.
"She is either pregnant or she is not, nephew. If she is, then you must be the father. Do not shirk your responsibilities to her, for your sake," she admonished him sternly.
"But -- but -- Auntie Tia! I'm not ready to be a father just yet!" he nearly shouted, his voice raising an octave. I heard various nobles chuckling and laughing at his predicament. I wore a wry smile, finding the proceedings somewhat amusing, though there was that nagging concern about raising a foal by myself.
"Then you have about a year to prepare, nephew! This will provide you the necessary opportunity to mature into a proper stallion and build your character. I seem to recall a time not too long ago when you expressed a desire to ease your boredom. I believe your new status as a father will cure you of that predicament," the Alicorn replied, a somewhat mischievous smile playing on her lips.
His eyes went wide with fear again as he turned tail and wailed in anguish as he tried to leave the Dining Hall. Upon reaching me, he stopped and smiled again before making a request of me.
"My Lady, please talk some sense into my Auntie! She -- she --"
"This is no joke, Blue. I don't know what you expected, but you have to accept the consequences of your actions -- and since you're going to be a father, I expect you to be here to help me raise our foal, whether male or female," I chided gently. "I know fatherhood scares you -- trust me, I know all about it -- but in time, you will come to accept your role and even enjoy it."
"AAAAUUUGGGHH! NOOOOOOO!" he wailed as he left for his room. I turned to Celestia.
"Well, THAT could have gone better," I observed, stating it loudly enough for everypony in the Dining Hall to hear me.
"Amethyst, please approach me," the Alicorn said sternly, nearly glowering at me. I meekly trotted to her, my ears lowered. "Please, I'm not upset with you for causing him such consternation -- in fact, I found it rather amusing. I must admit, though, that I am disappointed that you chose him to sire a foal."
"I'm very sorry, your Majesty -- I suppose I could blame it on the hormones, but -- I couldn't help myself. It felt so good! I'm sorry," I said softly, lowering my head and ears again. She rose to her hooves and sidled next to me, wrapping a wing around me.
"Amethyst, I know this is going to be difficult for you. I apologize for placing you in estrus like that -- I should have known better, but -- I suppose I let my more mischievous side get the better of me. I would like you to know that I will do everything I can to help you raise your foal. Since you were previously male, you've never experienced foal-birth before, have you?"
I hung my head even lower, my ears flat against my head. "No, your Majesty, I have not. I have heard from some women that giving birth to a child is like passing a bowling ball through the vagina, and I know that it generally hurts like Hell when it happens. That's something I'm not looking forward to."
"Consider it a learning experience, Amethyst, but I assure you I will assist when the time comes. I will also ensure you have the proper prenatal care to ensure a healthy foal. By the way, have you eaten yet?"
"No, Princess, I haven't -- though I'm not feeling very hungry right now," I replied.
"If you do get hungry, I will have a server bring you some food. For now, I suggest you return to your room to freshen up a little -- and I will have Right Face escort you to the Library, where you can begin your training."
"I apologize for yesterday, your Majesty," I said softly, my head and ears still lowered.
"You have nothing to apologize for, Amethyst. I will visit you later to confirm your status -- there is always the possibility of a false positive, that your estrus may have gone into temporary remission. Right Face will accompany you while you are in the library, should your estrus return and require your necessary absence from that facility." Celestia informed one of her guards to summon the teal stallion, forcing me to wait about fifteen minutes until he arrived. I took the opportunity to nibble on a small salad to sate my hunger a little. He trotted up to me, a smile on his face.
"I trust you slept well last night, my Lady?" he asked pleasantly. He sniffed the air for a moment and frowned. "You are no longer in estrus?"
"Maybe, maybe not. Please don't be angry with me, Right Face," I replied.
"No, I'm not -- perhaps a little disappointed, but I guess I should have expected as much. I heard about Prince Blueblood and what you did with him yesterday -- but I have also heard he is as impotent as me and cannot sire foals either," he chuckled.
"You know, you shouldn't get my hopes up like that -- but I thank you for offering me a degree of comfort," I smiled warmly.
"My Lady, should your estrus return, I would be honored to provide you a little relief, if you'd like," he said, grinning broadly.
"Hmm. I will think about it, Right Face. Let's get going, I don't want to be late."
"You have enough time to freshen up, my Lady. I will accompany you back to your chambers so you may make yourself presentable."
He nudged me gently with his muzzle, nodding to the exit. I glanced at the Solar Princess, who motioned for me to go, smiling serenely at me, a sign which gave me confidence. I bowed my head ever so slightly to her, widening my smile to her, then turned and followed the teal stallion through the hallways and staircases to my chambers. I noticed the room had been cleaned and the bed sheets changed, as well as fresh towels in the bathroom. Right Face followed me into my chambers.
"Okay, you can rest on my bed while I take a shower -- unless you'd like to join me and help me?" I grinned mischievously.
"You don't have to beat me over the head with such broad hints, my Lady," he chuckled as he followed me into the bathroom.
I turned on the water, letting it reach the desired temperature before climbing into the tub, the teal stallion following me in. Using his magic, he took a bottle of shampoo and warmed some up in his hooves before slowly caressing my body with it, lathering me up quite nicely. He then worked a lather into my mane and tail, rinsing it out thoroughly. I was somewhat surprised he didn't try to rut me in the shower, but I found myself moaning in pleasure at his skillful touch, surprised that his hooves could bring about such a wonderful sensation.
"My Lady, I would be honored if you would return the favor for me," he stated almost reverently, turning around for me as we switched places under the flow of water.
"I hope this doesn't take too long, but I will do my best," I offered matter-of-factly, likewise warming some shampoo in my hooves and lathering him up relatively easily. I took the opportunity to massage his body in certain places, eliciting grunts and groans of approval at my touch, likewise lathering up his mane and tail, though also paying special attention to his glans -- working him up into a shuddering orgasm in the process. I giggled at the seemingly effortless ability I had to make him spurt his jizz.
"Ah, my Lady, you spoil me like that," he chuckled as I finished rinsing the soap out of his coat, mane and tail.
"I just try to be friendly to whomever I can, especially when they show me such kindness in return, Right Face. Let me rinse off again, please."
He obliged me by allowing me to get back under the flow of water, rinsing out any remaining soap before I turned off the water. We got out and toweled off, then took a few moments to brush our teeth. I took a brush to my mane and tail and curled them into something attractive before I considered myself presentable. The teal stallion smiled in approval at me as he brushed his mane and tail out quickly.
"My Lady, I believe we might need to hurry a little to make it to the library," he observed. He trotted to the door somewhat quickly, opening it just in time to see Twilight trotting by. I saw the lavender unicorn and called out her name, causing her to halt her progress and enter my room.
"Michael? Oh, wait, that's right! You changed your name when you became a unicorn mare! Um, let me guess -- Amethyst Shadow, right?" she asked, striking a pensive pose. I nodded my head in affirmation to her query, though I had one of my own for her.
"Twilight, I'm surprised to see you here. Where is Trixie? Has she been behaving herself? I've been wanting to see her again," I noted softly. My smile widened when I saw her enter, just behind the scholar.
"Trixie is right here, Amethyst! She has been wanting to meet you again as well! Trixie has been a good pony, just as Twilight asked," she said, a big smile on her face. My escort tapped his right fore-hoof impatiently and cleared his throat.
"My Lady, I believe we might be tardy to the library," the teal stallion reiterated with more concern, flashing a worried look at me. The other two mares did a double-take when they heard him call me that.
"When did you become nobility?" asked a nearly exasperated Twilight, an expression of great surprise marking her features.
"Princess Celestia gave me this amulet," I replied nonchalantly, holding it aloft in my pale blue magic aura. I watched both of them nearly gasp in wonderment. "That's what I thought as well when she gave it to me," I giggled, placing it back on my neck and fastening it behind my mane. "Now if you two will please excuse me, I have a job to do -- I am going to be working in the library here, at least for the time being, until new duties are assigned."
"My Lady, please! We have no more time to waste!" Right Face implored stridently, rapidly tapping his right forehoof on the floor.
"Okay, okay, let's go, then," I pouted, trotting to the door. "Let's go, I need to close the door now."
The four of us trotted along the corridors as Right Face led the way to the Library. Trixie took the opportunity to marvel at all the decorations, expressing her wonderment audibly. I too was suitably impressed, but kept my thoughts to myself. Twilight explained about her intimate knowledge of the Castle's interior as well, giving a brief explanation of various things that caught the show-mare's eye. Presently we arrived at the Library and the teal stallion escorted me inside.
"I have fond memories of this place," the lavender unicorn mused pensively, gazing wistfully at the bookcases. Trixie trotted over to me, a sly expression on her face as Twilight took a few moments to wander through the shelves and reminisce again.
"Amethyst, Trixie wants to see you later," the show-mare whispered into my ear, making me blush.
"See if you can get Princess Celestia to let you stop by my room later on -- my escort can help you on that -- perhaps Twilight can help you persuade the Princess or something," I said softly to her.
"My Lady, please follow me -- we must meet with Silent Moon, the current librarian," Right Face interrupted, tapping me on my left shoulder. "Trixie, is it? Lady Amethyst is to work here in the Library, so please find Twilight and continue with her."
"Trixie is capable of making her own decisions," she admonished, sticking out her tongue and trotting off to find the scholar. I trotted behind my escort, who led me to the circulation desk. Behind it was an older unicorn mare, strands of grey in her mane. Her coat was an olive drab green, her mane mostly a gold color, her eyes a deep burgundy. Her cutie mark appeared to be what looked like a black square with a pale yellow crescent moon on it.
Why is she the librarian?
"I've been expecting you, Amethyst," she stated dully. Her voice seemed to grate, like gravel on a washboard; there was a hint of a nasal twang to it and a hint of condescension behind it as well. She looked over her square red spectacles and frowned at me.
"You are Silent Moon, the librarian here? I have some experience working in a library," I offered warmly. Her frown deepened.
"Yes, I am, and I will be the judge of your experience," she grumbled. She glanced at my flanks and saw the lack of a cutie mark. "What kind of pony are you when you don't even have a cutie mark? How old are you?"
"Forty-nine, ma'am," I replied solemnly. "I'll let you in on a little secret -- I was a human just a few days ago, and humans don't get cutie marks," I grinned. My explanation caused her to express a small degree of surprise.
"I have read about humans -- there are a few books in here on that subject -- but how can that be? You look like a rather young unicorn mare to me -- you can't possibly be that old!"
"If you doubt me, just ask Twilight or Princess Celestia -- even Prince Blueblood has seen me in my human form," I replied nonchalantly, watching her surprise increase a bit more.
"How would a blank-flank like you be on good terms with those two?" she asked sharply. I pointed to my amulet with my right fore-hoof, causing her to gasp in astonishment.
"You might want to check yourself before you wreck yourself, ma'am," I admonished just as sharply, narrowing my eyes at the older mare. She blanched for a split-second before she regained some of her composure.
"You would do well to dispense with threats, unless you'd like me to report you to the Princess," she retorted with more than a hint of anger.
"I don't take too well to being insulted, ma'am, nor do I appreciate being threatened either. Let's put this little kerfuffle behind us so we can work together, please."
"Where did you get that amulet?" she asked. "Whomever gave it to you made a terrible mistake!"
I snorted derisively and turned my tail to her, trotting off to find my escort. He was standing near the door with a bored expression on his face, then brightened a bit when he saw me trotting to him. His smile vanished immediately upon seeing my mood.
"My Lady, what happened?" he asked in surprise.
"The librarian here is causing me some trouble, so I need to meet with the Princess again," I replied angrily. Said mare came trotting after me, though she favored her right fore-leg a little, limping on it slightly.
"I don't know who you think you are, trotting away from me like that," she snarled. She readied her left forehoof to strike me, but my escort used his magic to stop her.
"Ma'am, it would appear I cannot work with you, so I am returning to the Throne Room to seek another audience with Princess Celestia. I will report your behavior to her, since you seem to be so disagreeable towards me -- I suspect you probably think because I don't have a cutie mark that you're superior to me," I responded bitterly. She gasped again at this mention.
"Look, Amethyst, I'm sure we can work something out -- I'm sorry to have snapped at you like that," she offered, changing her attitude almost immediately.
"I don't think so, ma'am. I'm sorry, but I just can't do it. Right Face, let's go, perhaps the Princess can find another task for me," I offered glumly, trotting out of the facility. Twilight caught sight of me leaving and trotted after me, calling out my name as I left. The older mare seemed to have a panicked expression on her face as she trotted after me as well.
"Amethyst, where are you going?" asked Twilight as she quickened her pace. Trixie was chasing after her as well, followed by Silent Moon, who was now in full panic mode and frantically calling my name. My teal stallion escort was by my side, doing his level best to stifle his laughter. I glanced over my left shoulder to see who was calling my name and quickened my pace as well, nudging the stallion to follow my lead. I knew the way to the Throne Room now and my long strides left the others far behind, my escort just barely managing to keep pace with my galloping. I heard dismissive cluck-clucking from various ponies as we dashed to the Throne Room, making the trip a very short one of just three minutes. I came to a skidding halt just before the guards at the door, who glowered at me before they saw my amulet. They raised their eyebrows when they saw it.
"Kind sirs, I seek an immediate audience with Princess Celestia -- the matter is quite urgent," I announced breathlessly.
"Amethyst! Wait!" Twilight called out as she rounded the last corner and saw me standing at the doors. I sighed heavily and waited for the lavender unicorn, closely followed by the show-mare. My escort chuckled softly as they approached, though the elder librarian was nowhere to be seen. Heavy huffing and gasping for breath was what I heard as I waited for my pursuers to catch up. I turned to the guards and grinned sheepishly at them.
"Kind sirs, I apologize for the commotion, but there is a certain matter I need to bring to her Majesty's attention," I stated reverently, though I also gave a sincere smile. The scholar, the show-mare, and my escort trotted slowly to me, all three of them continuing to breathe heavily as they tried to catch their breath. From a distance, I heard Silent Moon huffing and swearing as she limped along the corridor, causing somewhat of a commotion as she tried to reach me.
"What's all the fuss here, ma'am?" one of them asked. The other raised an eyebrow quizzically at the sight of us.
"There's just the small matter of certain disrespectful librarian causing a little trouble for me, that's all," I offered politely.
"Amethyst is not referring to me," Twilight protested as the guards cast sidelong glances at her. "The other librarian, Silent Moon is the pony she's talking about."
At the mention of her name, said librarian finally reached the corridor leading to the Throne Room. Upon seeing the four of us standing by the guards, her face fell. She trotted more slowly, still gasping for breath, but her head was lowered, her ears laying flat against her head.
"Please, please forgive me," she stated loudly, huffing between each syllable as she made her plea.
"That's for the Princess to decide, Silent Moon," I replied, the line of ponies watching this exchange with mild interest.
"I'm sorry! I didn't know! Please, I can't afford to lose my job!" the mare pleaded more stridently.
"Very well then, Ms. Moon, I forgive you -- but I'm afraid I cannot work with you, so I shall need to ask Princess Celestia for some other duties," I noted. The doors opened from the inside, the Solar Princess having heard a fair amount of this exchange.
"Amethyst, I was expecting you to be in the Library -- what other duties would you have me give you?"
"Your Highness -- please forgive me, I had no idea she was nobility," the elder librarian offered reverently, bowing deeply to the Alicorn.
"I apologize for not introducing her to you, Silent Moon -- you are forgiven. Amethyst, I would expect you to work with my librarian if you can," she chided gently. It was at this rather inopportune moment that my pheromones flared up again.
"I, um, uh ... I think my heat has returned, your Majesty," I observed sheepishly, a blush coloring my cheeks slightly. I noticed Right Face, Trixie, and Twilight grin ever so slightly as the Princess seemed to frown.
"Your Highness, you mean to tell me that Amethyst is in heat right now? I had no idea -- I'm sorry, I'll return to the library now," offered the olive green mare.
"You may return, Silent Moon. Amethyst, I would advise you to exercise a little caution before you jump to conclusions regarding your estrus -- the cycles generally last a week or so, but sometimes when a mare is experiencing estrus, it will go into temporary remission after coitus, even if the stallion is impotent, like my nephew is, along with several other stallions in my Castle. Knowing which stallions are sterile is important if you wish not to get pregnant," the Alicorn explained.
"Princess! Why didn't you tell me this sort of thing during all MY estrus cycles!?" asked a flabbergasted Twilight. Trixie giggled at the explanation and Right Face blushed slightly. I was gobsmacked by this and stood in stunned silence with my mouth agape before I regained my composure and smiled again.
"I don't know whether to feel relieved or disappointed," I responded cheekily. "There's a part of me that kinda wanted to have a foal, even if it was by Prince Blueblood."
"WHAAAAT?! You ... you ... had SEX with him?" asked Twilight, her mane and tail beginning to smolder.
"Think about it, Twi -- if you were in the heat of the estrus and found yourself in the company of a stallion, regardless of whomever it was, wouldn't you give in to the temptation before you?" I asked, grinning slyly. Her anger vanished instantly as she matched my grin with one of hers, though hers had an element of embarrassment to it.
"Um, yeah, I guess," she uttered softly as she turned her gaze away from mine. Celestia smiled softly.
"Amethyst, I would request you inform me of what transpired in the Library to cause you to rush here," the Solar Princess mused as she returned her attention to me. It was about this time that her nephew caught sight of me and pranced quite happily toward us.
"I'm going to be a father! I'm going to be a father!" he shouted jubilantly, practically bouncing as he trotted towards us. I hung my head and shook it slowly from side to side, softly chuckling. An impish grin made its way onto Celestia's face as Twilight glowered at me. Trixie seemed to have a pained expression as my escort stood impassively, pondering the implications of the Prince's happiness. Said stallion trotted prettily to me, a big goofy smile on his face.
"My Lady, I believe I am ready to accept my responsibility now!" he chirped. Twilight and Trixie expressed a deep surprise to hear the Prince call me that.
"Um, Blue, I've got some bad news for you -- my estrus has returned, so I guess I'm not pregnant after all," I replied glumly.
The white stallion came to a skidding halt, a shocked expression on his face as his brain tried to process my statement. He regained his composure rather quickly as a big smile came to his face once again.
"I'm NOT going to be a father! YES! YES! YES! I'm NOT going to be a FATHER!!" he shouted exuberantly as he pranced away again, bouncing excitedly and shouting "YES!" a great many more times. His shouting could be heard for the next few minutes as he continued on his way to wherever it was he was going.
"Well, that could have gone better," I muttered as I rolled my eyes, eliciting tittering giggles from some of the mares who witnessed this exchange as well as a few chuckles from the remaining stallions.
"I apologize for my nephew's callousness, Amethyst," Celestia offered softly, a wry smile on her lips.
"I don't know whether to feel relieved or humiliated," I grumbled. "Your Majesty, I'm at a loss here -- what would you like me to do?"
"You may return to your chambers, Amethyst -- I will send Right Face when I have need of your services. Should you desire food, just make a request and it will be brought to you," she replied warmly.
"If it's not too much trouble of me to ask, your Majesty, may I have Trixie accompany me back to my chambers?" I grinned.
"Only if Twilight accompanies her, to ensure she does not cause any trouble. Right Face, please escort them to Amethyst's chambers," the Alicorn chuckled, returning my grin. She returned to the Throne Room, closing the doors behind her.
As we trotted toward my bedchamber, Twilight decided she needed some information from me. Having noticed I was in heat, she wanted to know everything that had happened since I had been taken to the Castle. We had a short conversation on the way to my room.
"Amethyst, I had no idea Princess Celestia would make you experience your estrus so soon," Twilight mused wryly.
"Neither did I, Twi -- I think she did it just to test me, but I guess that can't be helped. So what brings you and Trixie here?"
"Trixie was curious to see how you were doing, Amethyst!" the show-mare grinned. I flashed her a warm smile.
"I'm doing good, so far -- I can't wait for my estrus to end so I can perform my duties without that distraction. This heat -- ugh -- is a real pain in the flank," I complained.
"Pardon my interruption, my Lady, but -- why was Prince Blueblood acting so strangely?" asked the teal stallion.
"Well -- it's just that when I awoke this morning, my estrus seemed to have left me -- I thought he had gotten me pregnant -- and now I find out he's impotent and cannot sire foals -- that figures -- and my pheromones seem to have gotten even stronger," I began.
"Would you like my assistance with that matter, my Lady?" he asked, a big toothy grin on his face.
"Trixie would like to provide assistance with that matter as well!" the show-mare giggled.
"Um, Amethyst, you wouldn't mind if I provided assistance as well?" Twilight asked as her face showed a blush and a grin.
"Hmm. I don't see why not," I replied nonchalantly, though my grin gave away any pretense of modesty. We reached my bedchamber at this point and I opened the door to find a certain white stallion lounging on my bed, a big grin on his face.
"My Lady! Amethyst! I have been waiting for you!" he chirped. His face fell when my escort and the two mares followed me in. "Um, Amethyst, what are they doing here? Why are they here?"
"You already know Right Face, he's my escort. Twilight, I'm sure you've seen during your time here in the Castle. Trixie, she's a friend -- a close friend, I might add -- I don't suppose you might be willing to share yourself with us?" I asked, flashing a big toothy grin.
"But -- but -- my Lady! I was wanting you to myself!" he protested. I trotted up to him and booped him on his muzzle with my right fore-hoof.
"Later, Blue, later. Right now, I have certain needs which must be addressed -- if you don't feel like participating, you're free to leave if you wish," I giggled.
